Below is a comment that came into my www shortly after I posted this blog.
It made me laugh out loud. Thank you Dr. G
I admire your poetry skills..
With Love G.
Yoda inspired me, did he... see & wait, must you.
**** & very soon..****
A Free downloadable & printable 'Valentines Day cards' cut out sheet & More.
7 mini Cannabis friendly cards! *1 for the fungi lovers thrown in!
Simply - Color, Cut & Convey your love to someone!
I'd like to help you spread some love this month! TLC & THC
At least give someone a giggle!
When is the last time someone one gave you a home made Valentine!?
Just Keep Swimming! Just keep swimming...
It's all we can do Dori!
Just keep swimming. Who better to enjoy some seeweed than Dori - right?
These scans so not do my work justice, the colors are so vibrant... Dori almost swims off the page. She has - she is already on her way to a new home!!
I have a friend, once she saw Dori she had to have her! There are a few Dori fans as I had inquires as to when she was going to be complete. I do not normally sell my art but I had an idea & IT was a fantastic one! I asked if she would be interested in bartering.
I desperately need a new easel- mine wobbles, can’t be adjusted, I’ve had it since high school and it frustrates more than anything- we'll I have a new easel being delivered this week! Eeeeeeeeee!!! I can’t wait.
I’m cleaning my painting room today! Canvas are getting ready.
I could have just asked for payment but this way - I have a gift of an easel from my art & a friend! How cool is that? To create more art with MORE TLC & THC.
Hurry up Mr. Postman!
Just keep swimming… Speaking of scans.. today I’m off for a MRI with contrast.
To see if things have stayed the same or have grown OR have gotten smaller or disappeared! Right?? Positive thinking!! I’m on the best medicine after all. My friend Steve tells me “I have much work to do..” lol,
I’m not happy, I don’t want to go, my neurologist argued with me.. I don’t see the point, if it’s nothing that can be touched anyhow. Or nothing they can DO and I am still living with what I am. I’m going, I promised I would. This time anyhow.
More on this when I get my results, I’m making cards for a very select FEW. Stay tuned.
I’m also going to see my friend Jodie before my scan so that is always interesting. We’ll most likely talk about everything but (lol) it’s going to be busy today.
Right now.. just keep swimming, just keep swimming.. it’s all we can do.
Swimming into the painting room! Oh, I tell you, when it arrives, I’m locking myself in my room for at least a week! Imagine what will emerge.
Give Thanks! It’s all good, I was waiting for a miracle.. funny - I expected one at Christmas, but got the call for this MRI 2 days later- so perhaps this is it!
Positive, Positive, Positive.
I do believe in the power of prayer, so if you’re reading this, and would not mind - send me up a few! Thanks!
I got this! I can do this! I feel fantastic today!
Already visited my favourite coffee shop- I draw 'sleeves' for them BTW.. if you want a FREE mini Georgia orignal-- lol They look like this:
Why? I have fun painting them, they literally take me minutes ;) I use up my paint so I don't waste it! lol & I like the coffee shop and all the ladies, coffee, carrot cupcakes!
The thought of some stranger taking a sleve and seeing it & smiling - that makes me smile! I was at 'teaopia' the other day and had a great tea- but the sleeve when I got it - I was disappointed.. lol
You have to be at Local & Import pretty early though, I bring about 3 to 6 sleeves every morning when I get my coffee and switch them up.
Now, I'm off to see the brain Dr., her finished painting below..
I feel great today- My mind is in the right place - full of hope.
That is all that matters.
I am so grateful for all the people in my life who make me smile.
Mortgage insurance.. do you have it?
We did and I want to educate you with our own experience regarding it.
*longish blog- sorry - I tried to shortened it .
When I started to get ill and could no longer work- even walk (pre brain surgery) I could no longer teach kids, paint murals, anything and now along with being very ill we started to feel the stress of only a one income home, I was getting sicker because of it.
My Dr. asked ‘Do you have mortgage insurance?’ I came home and asked Norm- YES!
We actually did! & It was to our understanding - If one spouse gets sick and can no longer help, the bank would pay off the mortgage! So we ASSumed.
I filled out the papers, had Dr.s letters, from several including a couple of neurologists all stating I could no longer work- We read the fine print and dropped the forms off at the bank. They came back DECLINED.
Although we have been married 22 years (at the time of applying) because I did not have a “Normal 9- 5 job that I went to every day- I was not seen as a $$$ contributor to the family home. In their opinion.
I was a stay at home mom and therefor I did not work. wow. I was floored… & I was still very sick and getting sicker. Everyone said - they knew that would happen, the bank never helps people. Forget about it.
I did - what else could I do..
I had the surgery, as you are aware - it did not work BUT it did relieve some pressure and was a bit better for a while- it’s since progressed again ;( - anyhow—- I still could not work - i remembering crying thinking ‘even Walmart won’t hire me..” and we were getting into financial difficulties- as most people do when there is only suddenly one income. Really bad, worried about losing our home bad.
It was a snowstorm, I was alone and crying- feeling completely helpless, defeated and very sick I remember it so well - I don't care WTF anyone thinks about this:
I heard it in my head, so warm and reassuring, God said..
Go to the bank and MAKE them listen.
I got up, got dressed, grabbed all my paperwork (now more from the failed surgery)
and walked over to the bank! It was difficult- I met a friend on the way and she gave me hug…
I walked into the bank, found the manager and said something along these lines:
“That is it! My husband and I are both very hard working people and we paid mortgage insurance our entire marriage and I fucking contributed so much to this marriage it would not have survived! Here is my paper work- I am applying again!
Decline me again - fine - the next time you see me it will be with a lawyer and the press & I want a response by the end of the fucking week!”
I put the papers down and left.
Listen, I do swear, and when my head is pounding it comes out even more… it is mostly frustration coming out.. I remember she looked at me (I was friends with this woman in a way, I was there the day the bank opened) she said “O.k. Georgia- I’ll send them in”
How dare anyone say a stay at home mom does not earn anything! We are raising the next generation! Hopefully with love- i had to stay at home also to look after Storm properly! I did contribute over the years - I made money and I would buy the groceries, help with bills, etc!
Our entire marriage - talk about inequality bullshit still! I was angry and with every right- it was more of less saying I had no value all these years and I DID - I DO.
Norm woke me a week later at 5 a.m. - “George, Something is wrong! - there is all this money in the bank account! “
They had not declined this time. I never heard a thing.. BUT- they did not pay off the mortgage as one might think - they paid me for a couple of years ‘LOST wages.’
THANK you GOD!
IRONICALLY - If I could go to work for a month- I could re apply and they would pay me again- IT is so fucked up - HOW could I work for a month? Still sick - at least, I could breath easier about the bills.
It was enough to pay off ALL our credit cards, bank loan- ( yep I know some you have them) and pay off a chunk of the mortgage.. so it’s not what you think. You have to be careful if you have mortgage insurance - you might never get.
& look what I had to go through for it. They do not care.
I am proud of myself - everyone told me don't bother, give up…
We were literally weeks away from having to claim bankruptcy & losing our home.
The lesson I want people to understand is HOW can anyone say a house wife does not contribute to a marriage?
That is BULLSHIT & something I would have not learned if we did not live through it.
So, if you are purchasing a new house - will you or won't you? I don't know what to advise.
Norm goes to work every day and does his task.. I stayed home, raise Storm, educate, clean, look after the animals, cooked meals, gardened, created - the list is endless. I think I have worked harder than my husband many days! When I use to teach and had 10 kids at a time all day long- it was terrific! If I had the option- trust me, I wished I could work again.
Either way - with the help of God, I am not stressed anymore - we have things under control. I truly believe it was a miracle that day- that “GET UP - Get dressed and Go!” Stop feeling sorry for myself and make things happen.
Very recently, Norm made the same mistake and pulled a “No, it’s MY money..” when we were having a conversation and I mentioned ‘I wanted to purchase something..’ Our conversation quickly escalated into a heated argument and Norm has since regretted his remark as he f*cking should & I KNOW he is NOT alone. It is too common. It’s not o.k.
I know many men who think like this and it is terrible, instead of celebrating, and treating each other as equals, nourishing each other and celebrating what each other brings to the table, a stay at home wife works just as hard if not harder than many moms I know who go and sit in an office all day. I know there are woman who work very hard outside the home (probably getting paid less than men for the same work)
BUT WE clearly are being punished for choosing to stay home and look after our families and there is no way way I will let anyone tell me - I am 'not contributing'.
What Norm lacks - I make up, what I can't do - he can- IT is how it works, BOTH of us these 25 years contributing to a marriage, $ blood, sweat and too many tears.
It won’t happen again. I am much wiser.
Ladies & gentlemen - have this conversation with your spouse EARLY.
Sort it out so you don't fight it out.
READ the fine print - and IF you are right and YOU know it - PRAY!
& GET up!
With God all things are possible.
I can actually start to enjoy myself a bit with our money, and am planning a vacation, very soon.
Tomorrow back to painting and fun stuff! Wait and see!
I'm struggling at the moment with a few things... I do not want to have any more surgery and I don't want to have gamma radiation.
I don't even want to think about it and it IS my body & life so - how will I live with what is happening is the question.
I've still not been given any definitive answers regarding what is causing this to happen, only suggestions on how to try to stop - once tried already and not successful and the other has no guarantees either, possibly just more complications.
I am sharing in the hopes that anyone might have some information to offer- suggestions are welcome- unless your just going to TRY to SELL me something - don't bother. Also it will help educate others about Trigeminal neuralgia, semi facia spasms and compassion.
The most difficult part for me often- besides the pain, never knowing when the attacks come and exhaustion- is others. People & their reaction to me.
& ME - me not caring what others think.
Me, remembering I am still very much me & more... I think I'm a new and Improved me :)
What does not kill us makes us stronger. Thor move over. lol
Me trying to REMEMBER that sometimes the people who are witnessing what I am dealing with, ONLY LOVE me, wish it was not happening and feel just as helpless as I do.
Me thinking friends will only see the twitch in me.
Everything triggers it, movement and simply walking make it more active.
When I sit and draw it calms a bit and I can forget by being distracted in paint.
I have decided to draw only what I want.
As you will see - and another reason I share- I can't quite keep up, its becoming more about quality than quantity for me with everything. Even art -has become a new challenge (I am thankful and blessed to have!) but, this twitch can mess with me - as I paint details and suddenly my brush hits the paper when I did not want it to. I refuse to give in and let it consume- so I draw.
If you don't have any advice to offer - I get that too... Please offer prayers and good vibes instead, that will be enough.
* Note- I did not put on make-up - for who? I don't think I even brushed my hair.
If you want 'pretty, faking all is o.k.' - go some please else. This is my real life.
It's not always pretty but it can be pretty terrific at times!
Child of God you were created to create!
The clip ends with my terrific bird "Bird" who makes me smile.. more on him tomorrow,
a new painting - Mexican proverb.
Spring ! The first day of SPRING is Tomorrow!
Oh my Gosh, what am I doing on here... time to toon!
https://vimeo.com/159510266 < video of me
Believe <>< xox
After Yoga today, I was laying there in dead stump pose, Storm walked by and commented
"There is a Yoga pose even I can do". I did not even realize the lesson was over.
Todays lesson stretching for beginners and it was something.
I sat up.. looked at the T.V. Screen and this is what was on it:
Yoga had me in tears today. Fill Your Life With people you Love
I don't know what did it more the physical stretching parts I don't think have been stretched in a while it seems. The frustration from time to time of NOT even allowing myself 25 minutes without thoughts entering I don't need to have enter. Or the reality of the past few days & what I have to contemplate on.
It knocked me out on my purple yoga matt.
Storm started to ask me questions as I sat on the floor looking UP at the dark screen with white words.
They stayed there, I don't even remember him saying Namaste!
I couldn't answer... I felt bad. I was choked up with tears. He gets it. I got a hug.
A confirmed appointment and I feel tension again, on 4/20 of course.
God help me. Everything for a reason.
I am tired... I am out of water color paper but I did put in an order with Deserres, & my friend Linda, so tomorrow I should be painting.
Tonight, I think I'll sketch a few ideas I'm working on.
Too much speaking, explaining & thinking has my mind full.
Do what you love at it will bring you some peace.
It does make me smile to know some are getting originals this week & makes me want to paint more. & I have more going out, I hope to actually be caught up by the end of March.
Tomorrow is Friday & I celebrate the weekend with a bit of wishful thinking ;)
I think that is good too sometimes. I wish I was a CD launch party, lol ... doesn't everyone?
I wish I was at a Millie Madness event, I wish I was over in Europe visiting some friends, I wish I could learn how to paint 'space' in water color better & and octopus or two.. that I can do.
'It's been a great day to celebrate! My pal Linda popped over! I commissioned her to make me a gift for my Russian friend! I can;t show you what-- Linda is Silver Wind Studio on FB, and its always a good visit! Her bead work is really beautiful - have peek.
Linda brought me some items from my friend Kat's of Kat's Gallery! Haha! I cant show you them either! Both are gifts & I cannot spoil the surprise. Kat does all my framing for decades - wait until you see the framing on the work... I can show you Hunters!
The very talented young man- Hunter_ (cool name if I do say so myself), a friend I made on instagram drew this little beauty, I wanted it kept small and simple, not to take anything away from the art. We love it. It is Storms, but I think we'll hang it in the living room ;) What talent so young and it's in his heart you know it!
I can't wait to see where this young mans talent will take him!
Today, I celebrated by NOW meeting and exchanging art with a young friend in Taiwan,
I also put together a little 'Easter Basket' for my Russian friend! What fun! MUST mail tomorrow!
Speaking of mail... I know a few are waiting and I am thrilled to say 'by the end of March I will be all caught up! All mail will be gone - all art sent! Wood Hooo!
Celebration Time -woo hooo!
I have been very busy - working on several projects -I know I do it intentionally I even accepted - two- no -3 ! 3 custom orders- I cant share again - they did not get them yet- so YOU will be seeing a lot of art work! One order I painted a little bonus - because I can.
I am blessed to sit here and draw and paint and be serenaded by a little bird all dat.
Tomorrow I return to the Dr.s for the results of incredibly long MRA - dye injected to run through the veins to show problems in the veins and aneurysm and such. I really hope they do see the problem and can possibly make a few suggestions that I feel will be positive.
Anyone who reads this blog knows words I am not fond of either- so... I said to my good friend "What if they don't find anything" - and she said "how can they not!?"
How can they not... look at me .
Yes, How can they NOT!?
Prayers are appreciated.
I don't know what to do other than to do what I'm doing...
I don't know the direction life will go.
Tomorrow is a new day- either way talk about timing - two days later is my birthday!
See, it's the month of celebration and there is more! Every day something!
Something so great happened the other day I told Linda- "
I expected to wake up and this be gone too! A miracle!
I am open to receiving.
2016 is here. A year of Choice & Change.
The first song I choose to listen to today is Let it Be.
When I find myself in times of trouble
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
Let it be, we can't control much except really our own thinking.
This year as you are aware was a year of pain seeping in and out from April on, with the death of Jim. I miss him. It is what makes us who we are, all I have to do is look at Elly & the kids to see how they have 'evolved' and watch as the love they have for each other - and us - keeps it all together. We will STILL have times where our hearts will feel the sorrow.
Thats what hearts do. Jims heart still beats.
* Please continue to educate people who GOLF on the dangers of Golf carts.
He saved others with his death, I've decided to choose - when my heart aches from now for Jim, to simply remember that smile and draw something. I am so excited to see what the future holds for Sie & Logan, they are such wonderful humans - Give Thanks!
Every lesson is a Miracle from God.
That lump that was removed from the back of my neck was from infection & I am in less pain now that it is removed. Amen! The entire experience, I was not worried, I knew it was going to be o.k., know why? - I have faith.
I was so calm, thinking back that entire procedure. I was in Gods hands & fear is incapable.
I told Linda just yesterday - I am thankful for what has happened to me - STILL...
it makes me tell people I love them! It is my purpose, lol -how simple is that - it's not.
I have found I am not met with the same response all the time & it's o.k., I get it.
The biggest change for me in 2016 is I Choose NOT to apologize for some things- like telling people I love them. If I feel it- I'm saying it.
It has brought jealousy, which kinda blows my mind - because I think - if you could see me- you would not be jealous.
It has brought confusion... I am not after anything. I do not NEED anything. Amen.
I send originals to people - and forget. lol I just feel for whatever reason - some people deserve some extra TLC. & I can do it! I can afford postage. Start there.
I'm done over thinking, if it is based on love I'm doing.
OH, don't get me wrong- I have my few - that I bug - well, I feel compelled, send a message - to the point I think 'Georgia - don't. SCREW IT! I'm not doing anything wrong, only in others minds. I have such wonderful friends, not many but those that are make me feel normal, special, loved. Little things they do and say- are HUGE, I'm not sure they get it - they are the ones who inspire me even more to express the love I have and thank them for being Good Humans in a world full of not so nice ones.
YOU know who you are - I TELL YOU. ;) THANK YOU.
Just thinking of some of you puts a smile on my face!!!
I will talk more about those I love this year.
I won't apoligize for my health. It takes everyday with his condition to get up and CHOOSE to have the best day possible. In March I get my results from all the tests and the Dr.s have had enough time to discuss.. March is a month of incredible change for me and mine. The timing of events - Not my choice - is meaningful. More in March.
I am thankful for what has happened. Everyday I am confronted with the thoughts of Death- I'm almost becoming death obsessed - I am being shocked into reality literally, at least 20 'Doozies' a day. I will never apologize for it again.
I choose in 2016 to EMBRACE it.
What ever comes Let it Be - I STILL have the opportunity to choose how I live each day.
God has made it so I can sit here and draw, I plan on doing exactly that - with some crafting, painting & papermache! EVERY day ALL day! Wait and see.
The start of every month will be with a drawing just like the one above...
A positive message and todays is perfect!
I am not a body I am free, I am STILL who God created me to be.
Child of God you were created to create!!
Believe < new word for 2016
Georgia... On My Mind.
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