I don't even want to think about it and it IS my body & life so - how will I live with what is happening is the question.
I've still not been given any definitive answers regarding what is causing this to happen, only suggestions on how to try to stop - once tried already and not successful and the other has no guarantees either, possibly just more complications.
I am sharing in the hopes that anyone might have some information to offer- suggestions are welcome- unless your just going to TRY to SELL me something - don't bother. Also it will help educate others about Trigeminal neuralgia, semi facia spasms and compassion.
The most difficult part for me often- besides the pain, never knowing when the attacks come and exhaustion- is others. People & their reaction to me.
& ME - me not caring what others think.
Me, remembering I am still very much me & more... I think I'm a new and Improved me :)
What does not kill us makes us stronger. Thor move over. lol
Me trying to REMEMBER that sometimes the people who are witnessing what I am dealing with, ONLY LOVE me, wish it was not happening and feel just as helpless as I do.
Me thinking friends will only see the twitch in me.
Everything triggers it, movement and simply walking make it more active.
When I sit and draw it calms a bit and I can forget by being distracted in paint.
I have decided to draw only what I want.
As you will see - and another reason I share- I can't quite keep up, its becoming more about quality than quantity for me with everything. Even art -has become a new challenge (I am thankful and blessed to have!) but, this twitch can mess with me - as I paint details and suddenly my brush hits the paper when I did not want it to. I refuse to give in and let it consume- so I draw.
If you don't have any advice to offer - I get that too... Please offer prayers and good vibes instead, that will be enough.
* Note- I did not put on make-up - for who? I don't think I even brushed my hair.
If you want 'pretty, faking all is o.k.' - go some please else. This is my real life.
It's not always pretty but it can be pretty terrific at times!
Child of God you were created to create!
The clip ends with my terrific bird "Bird" who makes me smile.. more on him tomorrow,
a new painting - Mexican proverb.
Spring ! The first day of SPRING is Tomorrow!
Oh my Gosh, what am I doing on here... time to toon!
https://vimeo.com/159510266 < video of me
Believe <>< xox