Good Afternoon! Woot Woot! Let's get crackin!
I just finished my first toon of the day, about to go and start a new pallet sign and then lunch, then more drawing! A new Bear toon that I can't wait to start!
Is this the same mood my day started. NO.
It started at 6, when the twitch alarm clock clicked in. The pain not long after.
I lay there thinking, tears welling up... again.
I remembered NOW.
Now, I am still here, I have been given another day to enjoy. In joy.
I know what it is , I've had it for a while, I know how it feels, it terrifies me several times a day - but only for a few seconds, that is not to say the pain is not there all the time. It is.
Today as I felt the first tear roll down my cheek- Poppy stirred and shook her head, when she does it makes this neat ear flapping noise, a little kiss good morning... I am loved.
Get up. ENJOY!
Be - feel the cool air, see the beautiful leaves, hear the rustling of Daisy as she forever patrols the lot for squirrels.
Am I depressed. YES.
Forever? NO. Short periods and occasionally - yes, I do go back to bed, but less and less with each passing day! I'll work to keep it that way, by doing STUFF!
Some might get upset by this cartoon - some who feel antidepressants are helping them. I am speaking from 1st hand experience. I did it for decades. I research antidepressants now and the only conclusion I continually come to is: DONT!!!
I was in shock to read one antidepressant in particular was
pulled by the FDA (of course or should I say - probably RE-designed and re-packaged out to the public* NEW patents and name changes happen ALL the time) because it was responsible for putting ON anywhere from 20 to 1oo lbs!!! 100 lbs!?
Now, think.. more women are on antidepressants, more than men. Women already suffering with poor self images as we are aware - a huge problem in our society - add those pound and it is a recipe for DEPRESSION! I KNOW!
What do I suggest? Guess.
Keeping BUSY! Busy hands - less time for the mind to wallow/plot. ;)
I feel more importantly - in my case Cannabis is helping me DEAL with all that I have presented to me.
RESEARCH! What have you got to lose?