This year I did not intentionally  celebrate 'happy international women's day'.  I am happy to be a women but not  thrilled about a lot of whats going on.. STILL.
All above is true, I started with the HOMEMAKER who does it all, raises kids, cleans, cooks, gardens, shops, looks after pets (in most cases) etc.. and gets nothing, not even a thank you from society let alone most husbands. Many women do this as well as hold down jobs.
There is still a misconception that men come home and can rest up, put your dirty shoes up and take a fucken break. When does a 'housewifes' day end?
Long after the kids are cleaned up and in bed.  
This article covers it.. some:     
http://www.marieclaire.com/politics/news/a15652/gender-inequality-stats/
How about the fact that we send our girls to school and they are getting abused by fellow students who don't seem to have any serious repercussions for their actions? 
http://www.teenvogue.com/story/brock-allen-turner-stanford-rapist-6-months-race

​ Canada is doing  better now with having more women in political power, thank you Justin.

So No, I'm not 'celebrating'.. don't wish me a 'Happy International women's day!'
Instead JUST recognize the problems still existing and change them.  
I have young women I worry about!!  

Don't celebrate them please..  recognize them for what & who they are and the shit they constantly have to deal with... Then HELP.  ONE way- Don't contribute to it! THINK.

Ending on a positive note.. our son made a delicious pizza on the BBQ last night for all of us, Including getting all the fresh ingredients... I appreciate not having to cook - all the time, but a meal made by our son is always most appreciated and  loved.


Have Faith
XOX *** I send out these 'kisses and Hug' for anyone who things they need them! Free! 
<><      I have faith in Jesus.. my own little way to say ' Thank you'.
It's o.k. if you don't.  Do what ever helps your heart. 
Follow anyone who inspires positive change. 

What a great morning I had, it started reading in the garden watching the birds with Scruffy chasing squirrels, Poppy on my lap under a blanket. Then to paint! 
I was in my office before 6!  I've wanted to paint my pussy for a while.  
​She has personality galore!
She is Dog number 4.
I enjoyed looking into her eyes this morning,  out with Scruffy playing in the dirt, she only ever enters the backyard when the dogs are out there with her. Then she happened to be lying in grass. My mind turned her into our Calico Kitty in Cannabis.   With a  budding crown.. 
I also call her 'Your Royal Highness'. 
I am the Queen of my creations.. are you not?
King of your jungle? I hope so.. we only get one shot.
My Calico Kitty  was also painted using time-lapse photography!
I am addicte to watching artist create, and believe we should share.
I DO hope that it will inspire & teach someone how to paint should they desire.
In just a few years the progression of my own work amazes me! lol 
keep at it! 

Now, I have 2 editorial cartoons 'SCREAMING' to get out and fine sketching of the cover for Cannabis Digest. No time for FB that is for sure.  I hope you enjoy watching how  Calico kitty was created! Go here for a peek! :

My Calico Kitty- A.K.A. Your Royal Highness:      >^..^<    Link Here.  >^..^< 

Have Faith in yourself.
​<>< xox

Georgia... On my mind:
Bird.. has 'free reign' - most are amazed when they visit to see him flying around my office, the door wide open and Bird- does not leave. Well, this little Feathered F*cker.. last night was flying around- I was painting at 11:00p.m. when I decided to go to bed I noticed he was NOT in his cage (which he does at bedtime- 9:30 usually for him), so I called and looked and looked.  I went to bed  incredibly tired - thankfully - woke up first thing this morning - still no bird!! ? I got the paper, fed the bluejays, came in - still no bird..  told Norm 'Bird is missing'.  He went up and looked 30 minutes.. he too was stumped.
Me getting a bit emotional now, what happened to bird? A little teary and the little shit appears from my built-in unit somewhere!  Clearly he camped out last night!  He certainly has personality this bird.

I'm feeling good. I am focusing on what needs to be done and art.  
Dr.s want me to 'speak' to the surgeon again.. (sigh),  before considering brain surgery - I'm going to do what ever 'I think' takes to destress. I told them to give me 6 months before we have this conversation again. What do I think will help in de stressing:

Regrettably, Norm & I are not getting along and have separated, between 24 years of constant renovations, Halloween Hells - coffins - here and there and everywhere, being built NOW- when a kitchen is not finished (and I am 'Tired as Fuck'  fighting about it), outside forces, years of the same stresses, arguments over $$$$$ and over 'my worth', have taken their toll and I want out.   Steps are being taken, I have met with my lawyer.  
The next step is to find somewhere to move.  I'm hoping for Haliburton - I love it up there. 
Who knows that tomorrow will bring- either way it is coming and I am ready to EMBRACE.
I had someone 'flirt' recently, you know I am a flirt-  if I like you - you know it,  the attention is nice, it had me laughing and smiling, feeling beautiful inside and out.  
From a stranger?   Over e mail, someone I never met in person..  
It hit home.  Move on. 

I truly hope Norm and I will remain friends, we have created this amazing son together and will still be in each others lives. Time will tell.
I KNOW I have tried at my marriage.  I know I want to feel appreciated again.  
For any that might be wondering our son is fine with our decision, he understands.

Letting my mind wander, even thinking of my new potential home - trying to keep positive  feels fantastic.  Start the journey in your head - it's the first step.
Fun. Here's the thing I know I can be fun..  I am I noticed with a few people - still able to crack jokes, laugh and just BE. ;)    I need to be reminded like everyone else from time to time about small insignificant details - like:  I am a woman and fun. Still.
I AM READY for some serious fun.  So, I guess I better make it happen.  
I am open universe... & ready.  Finally.

I sketched the cover for Cannabis Digest! Not Halloween... Not political.. something I believe people will have fun painting happy!  It's the 50th edition and the paper has grown, matured.. not who they were yesterday. Soon! 

Have Faith
<><   xox

The War on Drugs failed, we all understand this.. Human trafficking is rampant and still it seems it is the drug war STILL getting the most attention, convictions, $$$$, etc, etc.
Everyone thinks human trafficking happens else where - it does not, it is happening here in Canada big time.  I've started researching and it is mostly women and mostly indigenous women in Canada, come as a surprise?  It shouldn't, for years we have heard people/women wanting to bring attention & find out why aboriginal women are missing and being murdered and nothing seems to be done about it.
Blah Blah Blah.. politicians  flapping in the wind. Stephen was anyhow.

There is nothing funny about the cartoon.  It is a fact happening somewhere right now is NOT FUNNY. While we are distracted with  "Real TV" real life atrocities are happening right NOW.While distracted with other countries politics (YIKES)  a very young aboriginal girl is being sold into the Canadian sex trade. I am tired of wasting time being distracted.

When did we start caring more about objects that people.  Drugs, even guns are getting more attention thank humans, current slavery.  The DEA in the USA is not helping when they do not declassify Cannabis - claiming it is a problem a drug with no medical value yet- the usinted states government has a patent on it. 6630507 Google it.

I am no 'fancy scholar', it does not take long if you take the time to see some of the problems.
Please help educate on the FAILED drug war and rising human trafficking war,
In our counrty.
In your country.
On OUR planet.

I'm going to try to end on a positive note, each blog, for my sake as much as yours.
My day started with an e mail that  took me by surprise with a good smile
"nice face stretch", then I spent time talking to someone I just met, about the birds and chipmunk she fed.. Poppy and I anxious to witness 'this miracle'- sure enough- this little chipmunk runs across her lap over to her hand to the goods!  How cute.  Poppy was stunned.  You might have thought we were witnessing a wild bear come out of the bush.
I need more nature in my life.

We had a 'guest PUP' in the kitchen, grumpy old boy, I was happy to have, missing Ticky &  tomorrow: Scruffy and I are off to the vets to take out her stitches! 
NOW  the day ends again, laughing with my son as he puts away the delicious pot of
chicken curry he made. 

Have Faith
<>< xox

'My mom asked why I had not painted a 'Robin?', being my middle name.  
It's on the list. Along with today- cleaning my office and painting room, again.
Starting to draw the cover for Cannabis Digest- I lay all the past issues I did on my bed last night and choose what I liked out of each one- and shall combine them for the next!
It's exciting! 

Getting ready to hunker down for the fall and winter months ahead.
I am also looking into moving  so far - up North- Halliburton looks good.
Do you know of a small Canadian town you love, close to water?
Let me know..  I must be close to water.
Not* B.C., I'm more of a PEI/Nova Scotia sort of person.
I'll have the winter to research all I need to know.

Today, one of my favourite birds- huge  beasts when you see them in comparison to house sparrows, some big enough make me think they might air lift an unexpected Poppy if not careful! lol  It is in the 'details stage..' (kinda like me) I'lll share it tomorrow with the new cartoon on  Human Trafficking.
Ravens represent change and there is much change happening. Inside and out.
I ask for patience for me and from you, while I focus on what I need to do.

I have my first cartoon with a new perspective on the drawing desk (try to bring awareness for better education to HELP anyone I can),  the Raven Queen is just my mental warm up.  
I must apologize to a few patient post card- expectant recipients...  Opps! I found some with a comic or two that should have went out- ONLY to fall behind the dresser they were sitting on!!  Mail is soon on the way!  

What is an important issue for you?
How will you take 'one step' to bring awareness to it today?  
Start a conversation, write a blog, write to  your MP... PM, an editor of a local paper.
Draw about it.  Make protest sign -even if you only  carry it for one day!  
Join a group  supporting the same cause you are concerned about.
Research more- and try to find out what you can to to help bring about some sort of change.

Anything - beats nothing every time. 
Have faith
​xox <>< 

Which, I no longer do.

I have so much to do you don't  even know.  Tired as fuck.
​hee hee hee

Have Faith
<><
xox

I can't stop thinking of the Tragically Hip, Gord Downie in particular and his brain cancer. His performance had me spell bound, apparently I am not alone. He is 52, same age I am and  dying, the moment he uttered the words:  Tired as Fuck, I though "I bet you are &  yes I am".    I thought about him all day, I had a very difficult day with pain and  didn't speak much to say the least... my attacks in the morning had me pretty much 'sitting' all day, exhausted. HOW the fuck does he do it?  
It is his passion, his meaning, purpose and WOW  he did it! HUGE!!  
Thank you Gord you make Canada proud! 
I was talking to my mom today (who helped me defrost a freezer, cook dinner & clean the NOT finished kitchen! Yeah!!) about the love you see emanate from Justin Trudeau. You can't deny, I feel honoured to have him representing our country- especially when you see what our friends are dealing with across the border. Mom said he shared a photo of Sophie breast feeding  during breast feeing week, wow. I wish I had a photo of Storm, he use to laugh, it was an incredible time of bonding that is undeniable.   

Gord stole my heart with one concert, I was very emotional when he was screaming and his pain was clearly visible- the pain of frustration... why the fuck is this happening to me?  My son looked at me-  he knows that is exactly how I feel so many days it's insane lately. 
The love you see for the people he surrounded himself with, his Canadianisms.. "Piss and Chicken shit", common Canadian terms.. lol.    This is not a dress rehearsal  this is your life.
I am also going to be NOW focusing on more serious issues in Canada - there are enough of them. I wanted to thank Gord in my own way and remind myself it's 'o.k. to be 'Tired as Fuck'... we are all there.. so I painted a Canadian beaver- a busy little guy who we can associate with must be Tired as Fuck! ;) Storm cam e in my room as I was painting put his hands on my shoulder and said: "I bet your Tired as Fuck".. Yes, I am.  I had an attack so bad first thing in the day I nearly chocked and they both witnessed it.  Only 1/2 of my face winced in pain and crying, after I went to paint.  I did what I love.  Just like Gord.
I post my beaver on FB and someone tells me to stop using the 'F' word.  OMGOSH. 
I told them to 'stay off my fucking FB page'.  Really, the things I see on Fb are heart breaking - it is why I limit my time as much as I do, she commented on me using the 'F' word? I wonder how many other things she took time to comment on.  Give me a FUCKING break. 

IT's just a word, as a matter of fact its a cool fucking song & people who judge me, or you for swearing without KNOWING us are just that judgmental. If saying 'fuck' is the worst thing I do all day- Oh well. I'm sorry, thatis part of this problem! PICK SOMETHING that means something and focus on that!  Try to make it better!  Don't sit around on FB all day and  tell me not to use the 'F' word. 
I hope she is reading the fucking blog! .. :) Actually we kinda apologized to each other on FB. which is awesome, I like he  - Oh well got her thinking and got me thinking and this is what Life is about.  But we should really be thinking about bigger issues like Gord said.  
I hope he is with us a long time still.  
​Have faith  <><,  xox

We watched the Tragically Hip preform, as did most Canadians last night. 
I never took my eyes from he television- can't remember the last time that happened. 
Emmersed in every moment & note, I'd never seen them in concert before and it was a treat fro sure!  Thank you to the CBC for airing the show - commercial free.. if we were in another country- you know it would've been plugged with bullshit advertising (we won't mention any names) - volume cranked- popcorn, bud & Gord - it was an evening well spent.

Songs I've never heard and I've a new favourite, I bet you might guess...
I'm 'tired as Fuck'... lol  Thank you for that one Gord!   
Emotional it was, you could not forget that Gord has terminal brain cancer. 
;(   I don't even know what to say about it...  only it makes me feel incredibly sad and inspired at the same time.  Justing Trudeau - that was icing on the cake.  I agree with Gord, lets support him and get Canada back on track!  I won't say 'Make Canada Great Again- as Canada has never, not been great, IMO... we just had a bad lapse in judgement regarding Stephen Harper. 

This is not a dress rehearsal- we all have heard it before...  has me thinking 'what am I doing, what am I drawing?  Where am I going?  What the fuck am I waiting for - even tho- I'm tired as fuck.
I've been wanting to draw about some other issues as well, not  'fun' topics but topics that need attention. I've done many cartoons regarding Cannabis for all over, but we have some serious problems pressing here in Canada that need focus on addressing issues that  'bother me' and many others. Children & woman being on the top of that list.
Today .. something inspired by Gord & the Tragically Hip.  
It is the least I can do for the amazing gift  that have given us. 
What a terrific example of how we should all try to live our lives to the fullest. never stopping - even when we have Brain Cancer.
If you want to see one of the best Canadian Concerts IN HISTORY - I hope they upload it for us to watch over and over.. I highly recommend.  I did hear Blue Rodeo (also one of my favourite bands) had a concert in town last might- they joked it was probably to a crowd of 6.  

Have Faith
​<><  xox

The Doctopus is IN!   Horay! 
Another octopus for my series.. another orange. 
I had this drawn with 'pills in the bottle - it never occurred to me to turn it into 'Seaweed until painting the details... hee hee hee
It is a gift for my Dr.  I saw him recently and he helped with my foot, both of us extremely happy that he could. We are aware he can't help with the other, but I know he keeps it in mind. He is patient, listens and never makes me feel rushed.. hence the pose.  
Then the name Doctopus! LOL !  I'm sure it's not an original idea. I don't care either way- this is a georgiatoons  'Doctopus'. 

Today is a day of un packing a couple of boxes, Norm tells me its another month before the kitchen is done... which registers in my brain as 6 months to 6 years.  No more to be said.

Scruffy is my wonder doggen, I had ladies visit today and she was wagging her stubby little tail and wanted some loving, behaving 100% Normal.  
Time to draw some cartoons and have  bit of fun.

Please make sure you find a good Dr. who understands- and be a patient, patient who helps inform and educate your Dr.s.  use DVD, magazines, books, notes, Links.  The possibilities are out here - use them.

Have faith
xox <><

I spent the day painting today and it was great, it was going to start with a craftsy lesson- but the power was out from 9:30 to about 1:30 so Koalas it was.. since I just painted one for the surprise painting (he is seen below) I was familiar enough to have some fun with the little furry beasts.. I tell you my student was so quick to pick it up, next it's got to be a more difficult challenge!

Scruffy is  so funny with her cone, she makes me laugh several time through out the day and  she does not seem to even notice an eye is missing, it actually became a problem with Daisy moping and wanting her to play (we want to keep her somewhat calm still)  & licking each other- Storm took Daisy camping for a couple of days so Scruffy can rest properly.  If only we humans were as quick to bounce back from pain and suffering.  
​To forgive only a few days later from something so  'intense',  with a lick and a wag of a tail.  
Wow...  or should I say: Bow WOW!

​Time for bed time snuggling with a  good book.

It was nice to have an uneventful day.  
Give Thanks.

Have Faith
xox <>< 

It's raining...  good, everything  going from yellow to green again.
Thank you.

Scruffy is doing fine, she is eating, sleeping and snoring as usual  -
Thank you.
​
Note.. taking a dog outside in the pouring rain with a  'cone on.. '
(a cartoon is born)
Thank you.

I'm painting something special for a gift. Top secret - can't share the image until the gift is given.. but I will after because so far it is turning out pretty cool, if I do says myself.  Sometimes - you never get to 'hear' what people think of your art- so, IF you think it's cool- tell yourself!!  It's a positive start! 
​Thank you.

It is being painting with love.. that's another positive start.

Have faith
<><
xox
​

I'm sorry if this photo is hard for some of you to look at. It was difficult for me to see her, I teared up instantly. This is my Scruffy, less an eye- that is all, She is behaving normally!  Now snoring already at my feet.  Just to hold her in my arms today felt like  LIFE a NEW day! I was so worried about losing her when I saw what happened.  
​Only an eye- I don't mean 'Only'- you know what I mean.  
All I see already is a happy face! Kissed me like crazy!!
Now I have a buddy to take photos with when my eye is  clenched shut ;)

I'm taking a few days off to paint, so she stays quiet with me in my office, one scratch could do lots of damage! Painting and e mail and letters to catch up on, a few postcards going out as well. I feel fantastic today- surrounded by love- 2 legs and 4. 

Thanks again to the staff & Dr. Karen Norman for  fixing up my girl.

Thank God my Scruffy is home! 
Have Faith! 
xox
<><

 'I love Canada.  Even in the winter..  I get more painting done!  Nature is my clock.
What do I love about Canada? Stunning nature, trees, GREEN, bluejays, maple syrup (Heaven's is my favourite')  Justin,  poutine, Beavers, Moose & loons!  The Ex- even tho  I no longer attend,  Mounties, Inukshuks...  the list is endless & Now- Canada allows Medical Cannabis patients to grow their own medicine!  Amen.  
It has me wanting to celebrate and combine my love of Canada with my love of cannabis and here was the first in a series Im calling 'Home Grown Canadian'.

My sons long time friend Sam, surprised me with a new piece to add to my collection!!
​Check out my sweet little glass nugget. ;) I'm very proud of him as I have bugged him a long time to keep creative!   A little upset he admitted he is slacking lately and only working about 3 hours. That's not going to cut it. Treat it like a job you LOVE  9-5 at least!
Check out Soul Masta's Glass on FB!  

On my Mind - my first sketch of the day... My MUGSHOT 

Next on the desk.. a little Alice Fun..  Peek A Boo, peek thru. I'm going to Time-lapse!

 On my mind...  I will NOW only tolerate people, thing, events, jobs in life that
Turn Me On!   Turn on my mind first and the rest follows! Meaning my heart.

On my mind.. Scruffy of course. I will admit yesterday during a TN attack and my face cramped for what seems like forever- it is my right side, my eye pulls shut and stays that way.. well Scruffy now has her right eye always shut.  The things that dog does for me.  
Dr. Karen Norman called me this am and assured me she was doing well.  Scruffy went out for a pee - "make sure she is on a least she knows her way home!"  and she said already you see her personality shine through. She is pretty bruised still, I can't wait for tomorrow- around 10, I walk up and go get her! 

Lot's to celebrate! 

Have faith
<><
​xox

Scruffy had her surgery, there was a lot of bruising and her eye did have to come out.
The biggest concern now is infection and she is still in the hospital until Monday. 
As it has 'set in' I can only say that we were all in a bit of shock.  I was for sure.  
It's not nice to see a loved one hurt or suffer and  it was not something I have ever witnessed before or hope to again.   :(
I can tell you the possibility of losing two dogs in a 2 weeks has floored me, I am thankful Scruffy is still with us.  The above image  was taken a while ago.. she will still be the most awesome dog, only now with even more personality- for all who know Scruffy - we find that hard to believe possible. 
I will  post an update after we have her home. Thank you to everyone who shared comments/tlc on FB, e mail .  It is not easy to share everything but if it is a lesson others can learn from & possibly avoid... I saw this happen on an episode of 'Cesar, the dog whisperer' a few years back, even then the dogs were playing and both went for the same ball, if you could see how bad Daisy is moping,  I don't think she had a clue she 'hurt' Scruffy.

We are fortunate also we were in a situation to be able to pay the bill, many would not and such 1st hand experiences are something that needs to be worked on in  Canada. We have had pet insurance and this wouldn't have been covered fully either. To calmly state - $2000 or "$4000 for the skilled surgeon",  I get that you work with 'dogs' all day - but it does not happen to US everyday. The woman at reception looked at me with attitude when I said the price range was a 'fucking joke' (but not like it was the first time she heard swearing- I bet) and told me to 'refrain or I would have to leave.. ' I  replied  "I have a fucking tumor, my head is killing me, (My twitch full blown) get fuck over it- there are far more serious issues to focus on than the word 'Fuck' and  just go Get my fucking dog."   which she did, in her  'pink - Aww look at the cute bandage' that only pissed me off more- thinking she wore that tight fucking thing all night and in pain.  
They should have just done their job and  focused on the emergency and her pain and not the money and the 'PRICE RANGE'.  
I can only imagine the number of people that have had to leave with their pets..  unless of course a 'payment plan' could be reached.

Think what you want of me,  do not mistake my kindness for weakness, when it come to my family - any family member and I see something is not right- it is NOT right.  Again, from an industry that encourages us to 'treat them as family' - treats them like dogs  when it comes to $.    A dog will be your life long companion (their life), love unconditionally, be there when all else walks away.  As for paying the vet bill to our actual vet- it is worth every penny. Thanks to Yorkwood veterinary clinic for looking after Scruff.  Dr. Karen Norman has been there since we moved here, it was good to see her- its been a few years, I taught her kids when little.  

Have faith
​xox <><   
 

My Hallmark  girl is in the hospital...  please send her some loving vibes today.
Me too.    

As you know Tequila just died... She was our oldest dog - 19, and still called the shots- even with Daisy who was easily 4 times her size, she trained Daisy - as Daisy watched her, so did all our dogs-  Tequila was well behaved.  If Daisy got out of line  'Ticky would go over and growl at her and Daisy would back off.  WE noticed the past week, Scruffy 'claimed the basket' (Tequilas basket that she had her entire life) no one else used it.  
We let it go- someone has to use it but I saw Daisy going over & giving her a dirty look.  Really.

Anyhow Daisy and Scruffy have always fought.. maybe 3 times a year they get yelled (we never let our dogs fight with each other) at & Scruffy- a 1/4 of Daisy's size never backs down! She is my problem child with the most attitude!  Well,  yesterday  they got into a fight, over nothing... Storm was right there with a friend (thank God)  I was up painting, my first in a series of  "Home Grown Canada".  Storm calmly yelled to me "Mom, come - we need to take Scruffy to the vet... its bad mom,  prepare yourself."   He was incredibly calm- as he gets- thank God.  When I saw Scruffy - My heart sank.    ;(    
One of her eyeballs was on her face.
I held her still as Storm ran of his keys..  she was calm, looking at me  ;( with both eyes and all I could was cry silently and hug her and tell her its o.k...    

Just then, Norm came through he door (Scruffy is  his dog)  and they rushed her to the vet.. it was closing... so they were advised to take her to the 'emergency clinic'.... Here is where I start to get extremely pissed off, so I best keep calm...   $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$    they were told it could cost up to $4,000 if they did it.  BUT if we wait and take her back to our vet today it will be much cheaper, WTF!?   !!!!!!!!
ARGGGHHHHH!!!  Bullshit!
Just do your fucking job and don't try to gouge everyone!
What a fucking joke..  :(          O.k. Im still very upset and cried all night.
My girl is in the hospital with her eye on her cheek because of $.  
We had to wait, we don't have the $ - we are waiting now to go and get her and bring her to surgery.  Norm had to get a credit card   to pay.  ;(  we were credit card free.  & it has already cost us $700. cash..   to sedate and send her back to another vet.    >:(  Fucking joke.

What do you do- say put her to sleep for $150. ;(    
No, she is one of my girls, family!  OMGosh, just the thought putting her to sleep  has me sick to my stomach.  2 dogs in less than 2 weeks.. Scruffy is our rescue 9 years now I think she is..   we were told they won't be able to save her eye.

The one thing I will say is Scruffy is our tuff girl, I'm sure even with one eye, she will be a hand full still. I cant wait to hug and kiss her.

The vet did say that sometimes a dogs like Scruffy- can have an eye pop if they sneeze!
Daisy is in the doghouse and she knows it.  It was an accident, they are normally best buds.

Please send us ALL some loving vibes and prayers today as Scruffy has her surgery.
And I don't freak on the vet. I will update tomorrow.
I just had her photo put onto a canvas.. to paint around her, to pay with and have fun.

Have Faith
​xox <>< 

* Update..  we had to PU scruffy before 7:30 or paid another $150.. we did then drove to the vet and had to wait until they 'Opened' at 8:30. She is now at our vet - since we moved up here. Dr. Karen Norman, whom I would rather do Scruffys surgery anyway.
BUT  they could have done the surgery, the estimate was $2000.  for a Rookie vet.. Oh they had a much more 'formal way' of telling us - I looked at her and said "so, a Rookie?"    
 I got No response- only a look of 'yes, I guess so.'  OR a trained practicing vet for $4000.! + more if complications- but  hey, the rookie - if they had complications - oh well, you got what you paid for.  Fear mongering is what it is. HAVE ONE FUCKING PRICE.

This industry is another that is only concerned with money- what happened to Dr.s caring about patients!?  Scruffy went in there with her eye dangling on her fucking face!  They bandaged her up and I'm supusto be happy with the cute little fucking bandage-  we paid almost $500. 
Awwww... FUCK that! Look after my fucking dog you hypocrites.
​EMERGENCY CLINICS RIP YOU OFF!

*They made sure we paid our money before we got our dog- BUT did not have the change to give us, instead Norm has to make a return visit to them, there was cash in the drawer - but not enough and it wold have 'inconvenienced them'. Icing not he fucking cake.
 
​We will get a call later after surgery and hopefully she will be home Monday.

Medical patients in Canada who use cannabis can now grow their own. Amen.
The court case proved it is not right to force people to  have to use a 'Legal Gov. approved growers', but they can grow their own or  if not well enough have a 'designated grower '- do it for them: 
http://www.cbc.ca/news/politics/medical-marijuana-home-growing-law-1.3716860
Thank God. How insane was it to tell  anyone they can't grow plants that help them heal in the first place.  A crime against humanity, now changed here in Canada!  I feel very fucking proud of my country right now. VERY ILL Children all over Canada - will now be introduced more to the medicine they need.  Would you not try a natural herb before a synthetic drug for your child? IF PROVEN to help?  Google: Dr. Gupta Weed.... if you still doubt.

I'm not even sure what to draw yet!  Next cannabis will become a legal recreational drug, good - it will mean fewer alcohol related deaths! I know you probably don't believe that.. I've been reading about it the past few years. Don't believe me? Research it.  I Laughed Out Loud yesterday sitting the Dr.s office, across the T.V. screen - 'Ottawa warns of possible increase in impaired driving if cannabis is legalized' - (something like that).  Of course. Bring on the fear mongering!  Do you really think that there have been that FEW  cannabis smoking drivers over the years/decades that it has not become and  issue? LOL!  It's not.

I had a great lunch with my moms friend Geoff yesterday, he took me to an "Irish pub", he confused my love of  Scottish with Irish.. I'll forgive him. We chuckled, chatted and enjoyed a steak & mushroom pie, talked about going back to school late in life (which he did & was very successful at), why he got into politics- someone said to him, "your opinion doesn't matter- you're not even Canadian...", he quickly became one shortly there after.  Cannabis,  he is a cigarette smoker and I suggested he switch to cannabis! It's less harmful and apparently from all I've been reading - less addictive- so you smoke less. He told me he would think it over.  ;) 

Then I was at the Dr.s, we both laughed out loud at the fact that  he could help me with my foot pain!!  He is  frustrated they can't seem to help me otherwise.. especially since I'm not  for pills or surgery, again. He remarked, he's never seen anyone with a case like mine, so severe and does not know how I'm coping.. me either. Cannabis.   We talked about much, how this illness has also given me a new found strength, the fights I've won with it, MC, The bank, anyone re: Poppy now.. and then he said while freezing the bottom of my foot:
& Cannanbis! You have won that fight too!  I don't personally feel like I had any part in the winning.  I prayed our stories of Storms and my own experience we shared have been heard, that was all.   ***For all sick Canadians, already dealing with so much including judgement - constantly for those who DO NOT UNDERSTAND.  One less fuckign thing to worry about. Affordable medicine, loving grown at home.

It comes with rules, as it should.. I know some will think 'I'm gonna grow!'  lol- good luck, Its not that easy and they will have 'regulations' not to mention  hard work, I know a few growers and they can be very stressed at times, not form politics - from work. it has toby safe, I'd be a hypocrite if I didn't  talk about that.  it doesn't matter really - people are never going to stop growing illegal cannabis- at least now patients who truly need it have the option. AT least NOW maybe the police will focus on other more important crimes like the missing indian woman in Canada! HUMAN trafficking.  What matters most. HUMANS.

I AM very upset still they are saying "compassion clubs' 'dispensaries' NOW, don't matter'  now that they have the legally approved Licensed producers.... and that they are considering the possibility of selling it via the pharmacy- WE ALL knew that was coming! $$$$$$$  
If not for  compassion clubs we wold have been lost. I will tell you first hand,  many I know are not the criminals  they are being made out to be - but people who truly want to help  others.  Our government is out to make money like everyone else. Greed rules.  
The L.C.B.O. is starting 'mail home' delivery.. wow.  I wonder how that will effect alcohol abuse in his country- well, I don't wonder. I know.  

Time to think of what to draw to celebrate!
I'm also drawing the cover for Cannabis Digest and its 50th issue! 
I'm calling it 'Give  Thanks!!!'  

Thank you Canada. Thank you Kirk & John...
Thank you everyone whom has ever tried to educate regarding the cannabis plant.
Thank you God.

Have faith
xox
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This is my 3rd attempt at a blog this evening. I guess I'm not meant to write it tonight. 
My son made us the best pizza the other day. Fresh herbs, truffle oil from his trip to France, Oregano, basil, chives , TLC.   Was it the best pizza I have ever had?  Without a doubt.

Time for bed. Time to dream... tomorrow I'll make it a reality. 
​xo

Alcohol.. is abused more than any other drug.. well sugar.  Don't get me started.
It will be, soon in Canada a & I am thrilled.  Provided people educate themselves.
There will always be some shady character  to buy drugs off- we can
t stop human trafficking- we will never stop drugs, why bother!
Spend the money on education & rehabilitation. xox

Please think about that drink. How many did you have tonight?
I read about a man (my heart breaks for him) who left his babies in the car on a hot day, went in and had a drink, then a nap and his babies died.  It read very sad for him.  ;(  
How many times around the world, every day does someone die because of alcohol?
Cheers. I know I 'piss people off' with this. Good.  
You should be having 2 days a week where you do NOT drink. Do you?
Storm clarified it nicely when he commented: a Rye & Coke = ethanol & fructose-glucose.
It is that simple..   Who wants to put that into their body? Mind? Poison 
**According to The Office of the Surgeon General, alcohol is used by more young people in the United States than tobacco or illicit drugs, resulting in a serious public health concern.
Alcohol can be lethal if the amount of alcohol reaches a concentration above 460 milligrams of alcohol per 100 milliliters of blood (0.46 g/dL). Death from respiratory depression can occur with severe alcohol intoxication, and this can be hastened if alcohol is combined with CNS depressant medications.
Mixing alcohol with caffeine, either in premixed drinks or by adding liquor to energy drinks has become a common way for younger crowds to consumer alcohol. With this dangerous combination, drinkers may feel somewhat less intoxicated than if they had consumed alcohol alone. However, they are just as impaired and more likely to take risks. This drinking practice often takes place in and around college campuses.
Excessive use of alcohol can lead to alcoholism, or alcohol dependence. There are four cardinal symptoms in alcoholism: craving, loss of control, physical dependence, and tolerance. A clinician is able to diagnose alcoholism based upon a specific set of criteria published by the American Psychiatric Association and the World Health Organization.5

Alcohol is a poison - check  out this site for facts and what To Do and what NOT to Do - Yikes, I was doing ALL the WRONG stuff! Do not make drunks drink coffee, do not let them 'sleep it off'...

Please, think about what you put in your body and don't judge others...  been there done that,  help if you can, raise up.  
​Play Now, Pay later.  
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Have Faith
xox  <>< 

Recently one of the girls at the coffee shop 'Brittany', mentioned she wanted some help with a 'cut out/face in the hole'  she was making of her moms birthday - I offered my assistance of course!   I love making these things! The wood was brought over primed (Brittany's grandma did that, I met her at the coffee shop a few days earlier & instantly liked the woman) then I just started to draw *after a few moments on PIN ;)  and came up with this Hawaiian style head in a hole!  The girls were amazed that I could "just draw it like that'  lol.  

Practice, practice, practice... &   Thank you God, for my gift. 

Jessie, Brittany, Storm & Poppy all helped!  The deal was: I draw, they then color in the lines and then we all added some details here & there!  Every photo I see cracks me up! I can't help but smile ( I hope you do too!) 
It only took a day and we had many laughs & interesting conversations as well.

It was nice to spend the day speaking with the girls, I didn't get the chance to really speak to Brittany on our short visit to the coffee shop- what a confident, beautiful young woman who makes me think-- she's gonna be a 'get the fuck out of my way woman!' YaaaaHoooo!  lol 
I really enjoyed painting a Tiki for the first time and will make one - decorative for the pool area- a totem - just for fun.  Note this Tiki has a hole lower in the totem for a face but if only two people - the face pops back in! 

These are very easy to make & are great for all kinds of events.  This one was a gift to Brittany's mom I guess you could say! It was a fun day I was more than happy to help and it inspired a 'tiki totem' for the pool.. coming soon...

Yesterday we stated our little paint lessons book!  It was a great afternoon we tried contour painting, sketching in the garden and then painting  effects.. all from my newest Craftsy class btw! Illustrated natural journalling-  this teacher is terrific!    Take an online class! Expand your mind instead of wasting it watching others live on FB  or any social media for that matter.  Everything in moderation.  
I was watching a friend right now on FB having a meltdown and it's not nice-  it made me sign off for a bit.. I wan't to send a message saying 'stay the fuck off for the sake of your health!'  I just might...   do something creative!!

Today I'm working on a new cannabis cartoon Storm gave the idea for.. simple yet factual. 
Tomorrow, new art.

Have faith- it will all work out.
xox - love yourself and tell others too!
<><  - I believe in being good.

I like to say "I have an assistant"- who assist me and it's been a blessing this summer!
I was telling a friend I needed help, with all sorts of stuff, finding art, hanging art in the office, sorting the paint room and was at a loss.. she said "ask that girl at the coffee shop,  she likes your cartooning!"  Jessie, she had drawn me that cute little 'get sconed'.. what did I have to lose?  I asked she said "YES!"   I explained the deal, we would barter *as I do with many, for art lessons, original art - what ever.  She showed up an  we instantly hit it off. How could you not like her?    
I can't help but think of her as a firecracker- petite with red hair but huge on personality and talent!  We had a drawing lesson, more to see what she was capable of and I soon realized she was quick to pick up what ever I showed her & has what many do not-  the imagination to go with!   & her own distinctive style already- even if she does not realize it.  Next an introduction to gouache & sure enough her first sample, painted in her own time blew me away.. Check out the cute little bag she made for  the 'coffee scrubs':

After only a quick introductory lesson?? I didn't know if wanted to smack her or hug her! 
lol..  I get this way when I meet someone with artistic talent and find out they are not using it,  how does everyone not eat, breath and sleep art, I don't know.   ;) 
Jessie has joined me up at the cottage,  there too she was incredibly helpful and simply a pleasure to be around, although it is where Poppy 'decided to like her' - and since, is having no problems showing her affection as does Daisy!  You can hear her speak it "Jessies here!" she runs to get what ever toy she knows Jessie will throw.

What started as some assistance has turned into a friendship, I will miss her when she returns to school but will be visiting all the time - so that's good.   Never let age get in the way of speaking to anyone, as I teach her, quite offen she teaches me something as well.  I've got to know a  couple of her sisters and it is really  wonderful to know they are all smart, educated, traveled, kind, successful & funny young woman (well Jenny, another sister- she's another story, she cracks me up... I'm not sure why, she too manages to make me smile instantly- good thing, since I see her usually for 'our first coffee of the day)  they have been a blessing in our lives and I'm happy to know them!  * Jade too- who returns to law school in a few weeks in B.C. ! One more excuse to visit and I asked her to become 'something I can use..' Not a criminal lawyer- lol I know from our short interactions - watch out.  Just the thought of her being a lawyer - kicking ass- makes me smile.

Jessie also makes unbelievable body scrubs- so far I've had the lemon, coffee and  mint- they exfoliate my psoriasis and have helped get it a little more manageable lately, not to mention  stimulate all the senses.  I really think Jessie is going to be something- CREATIVE!  I look forward to watching it happen!  

I've included my favourite photo taken at the cottage.  
She has proven to be much needed & added sunshine this summer and I'm truly grateful to God for the  introduction.  & Jenny - for having her work in her coffeeshop and make fun of her 'little sister', as sisters do.  

Today she's coming over  I have a surprise a backyard painting journal!!! 
I'm forcing her to start one! lol   I'll show you when complete - she has talent and I can't wait to see it blossom! In full out gouache color!  
​Do what you love, surround yourself with people you enjoy and inspire and make you smile.  
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Come back tomorrow to see 'our nature journal' and the FUN  'Hawaiian' photo op/cut out we made! 

​Have faith
xox <><    

* P.S. there are still about 3 people waiting for art - I've not forgot..
have faith, trust in me...  it will come,  you will see.  ;)

BTW all my framing is done by my longtime friend Kat of Kat's gallery. 
I highly recommend. :  https://www.instagram.com/kats.gallery/   
Just don't ask her personal questions about us, I can't remember if we are fighting or not, she probably can't either...  30, years I think.  hee hee hee  xox

I'm done apologizing.
I am done feeling sorry for people - they get themselves where they are.
I am done thinking of others.
How can I get where I need to be unless I focus strictly on me?  It's my path.
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Exactly, I agree with God.  ;)  

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I AM the soul that lives within.

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Sitting in the sunshine, thinking - always thinking.. I wish I could stop.
I am tired,  especially thinking of others.   I think I'm just going to focus on me and see what happens... keep drawing, keep moving forward.  We all have choices to make or excuses.. I'm making choices.  I don't care what anyone else does, I am only responsible for my own actions. I saw this post a while ago on Chelsea Handlers Instagram and it hit home: 

Sketch more and think of all the fucking possibilities!!!  
TRUST your fucking gut!!!  

​Have faith
xox  <><

Once again Art saves my mind & helps heal my heart.
That's why I do it, selfish as it is... but then I get to share and hopefully bring others enjoyment! In this case it is my son who wants this painting. He rarely asks, I can't remember the last time... "& I'm calling it Moonlite Sonata"  he informs.  
'Perfect' I think.

Rain is not good for Goauche and neither are tears... overwhelmed with missing Tequila I started to cry while painting and quickly had to step away - take a break. I keep waiting for her to catch up, I have not wanted her to feel left out for years, it's why I 'kicked' her basket all the time to get her to join us (kick because she was a sound sleeper! & often a shake would not cut it) and she would.  I miss her bark- I miss telling her to stop barking - lol  She was deaf so you had to go up to her and tell her Stop and touch her.  I miss her smelly breath- did I say that?  I miss those zombie eyes looking at me ;( ..
This morning Poppy ran to her basket and then just looked at me like  "WTF? "  
Anyway.. it takes time.  Thank you for the wonderful well wishes and e mail, 19 years is s long time... I know Hunny is thrilled tho. xo

With each bear hare' I though about much. He is one hairy bear.  Several layers of fur as a matter of fact, words written with the first layer, now only the bear, fox & frog knows what they said. There are words of love and symbols but above all it stand for healing & celebration.

A peace has come over the house, even tho the kitchen is not done.. hahaha  
A painting on my desk already!  For kids I guess.. to encourage reading.
I'm planning on painting a girl and boy version.  

Nothing to be thankful for? Check your pulse..
& if you still have one, start enjoying  the time you have.   

Have Faith, 
xox <><

It's time to show myself some love.
Yesterday, I told you about the death of my dog.. today it is the death of my marriage.
This too will come as no surprise to many who know 'us' well.  
All I ask from anyone is prayers for a smooth transition into a new chapter of my life.
​For myself as well as Norm. 

I found this quote last night on PIN:

'My son is older and now wiser.  
I want him to be in a happy relationship, I know they exist.  

I think it would be better also for me to be alone and 'content' - even happy maybe,  than to be continually in a relationship where we do not get along anymore, fight constantly about everything from no name chips to paint chips and it's just not fucking fun anymore.. it never was.  Not the fighting.  It has physically taken its toll one the past few years, expecting to be who I was not and being in an environment that never stops - with work all around me not complete, it's made it almost impossible to 'stay on top of'.  When not fighting we each do our own thing we never talk about anything other than the weather - I hardly ever get asked 'how was your day?    I'm just not interesting anymore, I guess.    I still ask daily.
 No more. 

You try to 'keep the peace', because it's what you think we should do, at some point you really start to think about the price for peace you are paying and this one is too steep for me.

If you read this blog you have a pretty good idea of what's been happening.
Time has passed.. we went in different directions.  
I told Norm the kitchen won't make a difference - just like everything before- it is all stuff.  By the time 'it' gets done the amount of fighting before - years in fact over something as simple as a set of stairs.. that can be finally accomplished in a matter of hours is all about control in my opinion.  

The most recent remarks about not contributing to this marriage, because I did not go to a 9 - 5 fucking job every day-  pushed me over the edge. As I hope it does to every  mother, woman out there.

It is time I take back control of my own life.
I appreciate and good vibes/prayers  you send  & thank all for their continued support.

I want to find a place where I might paint peacefully, surrounded by my dogs and friends who I know want to be in my company.  I am  planning on moving a bit North- you know me...  I Love nature.  

Now, I'm looking into my options and painting peacefully.
Ironically, I do feel pretty peaceful about this decision...
it's how I know it is right. 
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No more tears.. fuck that.
I take control back,  NOW.

Have faith 
xox <>< 

Back to painting.  
I'm keeping this one.
I'm framing it and getting it ready to hang in my new home.
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Many reading that title will be shocked to know Ticky was even still alive.
Like most days I woke got Poppy up, went downstairs and kicked Tickys basket.. Let's go!  Was she still alive?  Someday I had to kick it a few times.
Then she might hop out or struggle depending on the day, most lately was a struggle.
We all can all relate.  Today she was out & we did the routine, around the pool for a pee at a snails pace.
Later in the afternoon I noticed her face swelling, I called the vet, she was here in 10 minutes,  she was in the area - thank God.  Tickys eyes almost swelling shut but still seemed  fine, she was such a tuff old girl. 19 years old. She was blind, deaf and brittle for the past few years, vomited weekly and ate it,  and could hardly make it out most days lately - her back shakey, we called her Zombi dog- lovingly and she always got the best scraps.  She was put down at 3.  

All the dogs noticed and sniffed the basket all afternoon & then we all just lay around.
I already miss her annoying bark & zombie stare.

Have you hugged your hound today?
Goodbye Ticky,
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I love you.  Thanks for loving me back.

Have Faith
<>< xox

 Someone commented this on the survey (below) all I have to say is what about pedophiles?
& kids ? Wisdom comes with age. I am Assuming it was an older, more experienced person- a little wise that posted.   Too bad the rest of the world is not the same.
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Another full day of painting ahead! ;)   Thanks to my son this a.m. for getting my carrot cupcake & coffee from my favourite coffee shop. I paint the sleeves for them! You might just get a mini original with your espresso!   This was my TeaRex, inspired by Jessie who works there, she told us on one of our first visits her sister calls her 'TRex arms'. hee hee he .
For the record she does not.  
​Go in! You might get a little original! Local & Import in Georgina! 

Our for some hammock time then back into paint! 
Have faith! 
<>< xox
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