I'm not sure if it is cabin fever (I am so looking forward to spring!) or the fact that the big 50 is fast approaching, but I've been exceptionally 'Moody' LOL -
I am sure Norm & Storm have another word for it.
It is what it is.
I have decided to embrace 50 - of course, and remember I am lucky to be alive! We all are. Any day above ground is a good day. I feel good turning 50, I feel strong enough to eliminate any bullshit from my life and bring in what I need.
I will surround myself with love and continue to focus on being 'content'.
I was going to draw myself happy! Happy is over rated. I've had several conversations lately with a few and it has me thinking. One friend said 'all her friends are happily married' to which my reply was 'bullshit'. Really? - Why pretend life is so great all the time, instead we should be honest with each other and try to help each other - even talking it through with someone helps. I 'bitch' to my bud Cathy especially, she listens and then usually gives me something to compare and before you know it, you see - it's not just you.
No, we (the majority) would rather say - 'our life is perfect', and take antidepressants to THINK we can keep it that way... happily drugged so you don' give a shit about anything and just go with the flow.
With divorce rates at over 1/2 - I'd say many people are lying.
A couple of others are in new relationships and I am truly happy for them but, when you turn 50 you see several times over - sure a new relationship is fantastic for about 2-3 years... and who would not want that feeling!? It is the greatest addiction in the world LOVE. But this 'being happy' all the time - not very realistic. I wish more people would look for content.
If we learn that life is not all about happy we learn to cope and then - focus on making it content. Content is good - throw in some happy days and of course sad days - it is the sad that we learn the most IMO and make us who we are today.
Today I choose to be content and in control.
I painted myself content because I can.
Now, It l hangs above my desk and be continually reminded.
Spring is on the way, I'm surrounded by unconditional love and I am at peace.
Draw yourself content... I also did this to help a few beginners! LOL
Love Georgia <><