I’m exhausted. Feeling drained. Mental meltdown...
I think about cannabis and my head hurts. LOL - *Only with regards to the absolute insanity that surrounds it all on the GRAND SCALE.
Don’t sweat the small stuff.
Plant a seed and go to jail. LOL How small can you get?
You cannot help but discover all sorts of things when you start to research Cannabis.
A very interesting history based on lies. Of course, it involves money and corporations keeping it under control. Now that it has been exposed, what is the problem?
We are witnessing daily how it is helping save the lives of children around the world,
trust me - I am paying very close attention, as should you. It is helping ease suffering of millions around the world. Still we are faced with lies and excuses.
To get material, I find I am faced daily with facts about death from drugs.
NEVER cannabis! Prescribed medications, use of them recreationally & PROPERLY, chemical cocktails are killing our elderly- and not gracefully!!! Illegal pills, METH, Alcohol <we all know that. Tobacco, sugar, junk food.. it is just insane the things that are worse for you than cannabis. How have we been so ‘duped’ for so long?
I think to myself lately, I want to pull a Bill Watterson so bad you have no idea. ;)
I’m done.. but I can’t.
I see my son, I see him having a life because of a plant. I see him and I know when he is in pain, I know that for most of the time he can control it with a plant. That and rest, appear to be the simple recipe for Storm. He is tired of pain.
I know so many that need it as their medicine, need it to help them move ON!
MOVE PAST and KEEP going. I am one of them.
It appears I have a movement disorder that just won’t quit. I have constant twitching, electrical zapping in my brain 24/7 with very short breaks in between & trigeminal neuralgia thrown in about 7 times day.
Before I sat to ink this drawing I smoked a joint to calm it down, it does not calm the movement as much as it calms my mind and allows me to think clearly. Ironically. Amen.
I have a meeting regarding some work with someone, and I think ‘I must have a bonk hit right before’. This is not to get high. This is my life and I thank God for it - for every second that I remain here with my son and husband and dogs and you.
I do get great e mail from strangers all around the world from time to time, just when I feel I need it ;) We all need to be appreciated. Thank you.
But, I have to draw about more, it is about so much more.
Cannabis is just a distraction. One big PRANK, by big brother.
The Lies they tell, the money & time wasted on a failing DRUG war that will never be under control, the lives we don’t save. Trafficking drugs or trafficking people... where the f*ck have our priorities gone and why are we letting this happen?
SPEAK UP! Educate someone. Share something! Or don’t.
Move out of my way. My head hurts and I’m losing my patience... until tomorrow.
A new day to get it right!
Draw! Have some fun! Play in the garden... grow.
Don’t sweat the small stuff!
xox <>< G
Last Monday I guess I finally had the straw that broke this camels back.
I went for a test, one I had hoped and prayed would help Dr.s see what is finally going on in my head. It was not a pleasant experience to say the least. I left feeling defeated, degraded and ashamed at myself. I had questioned the test as I understood I was to have something different, I was told over and over I was wrong. I can tell you that for the first time in my life I truly felt like a piece of meat. Once home I called and confirmed I was to have a different test. Then I got a bit of 'Blah blah blah...' - and it did not make anything any better only worse. I then think I had a bit of a breakdown. I cried off and on for two days. I needed to get away.
I am blessed with a long time friend who when I asked if I could use his cottage, he offered me his home instead as no one is in it at the moment. I house sat.
I was nice to sit here too as he is a special friend - he has kept me sane these past years with paper alone!! He has supported my cartooning since day one. I could not have done it without him, well... perhaps, we find ways. His friendship for over 20+ years has always been a treasure. He knows it. LOL
To say I was 'roughing it' would be a lie. Central vac, hot tub... amazing privacy & deer!
A Sasquach!? Fire, snuggling with Poppy on my lap CD's ( o.k. - he does need to upgrade his variety!!! lol
Darkness and quite like I have not witnessed in a long time, talk about sooth the soul!
I think I made a new friend to boot! We shall see. Everything happens for a reason ;) .
I have taken photos, walked, explored a little but mostly, I have slept and drawn for 6 days and feel rested. With only Poppy for a companion we have had some fun! Today she lost a tooth. I have to admit both, too afraid to venture out after dark - she has been an awesome little pup in every way I can think of - oh well except for her obsession with the door stopper - Boooiiinnnggg, Booooiiinnnggg, Boiiinnngg!! LOL So happy she just discovered it and not when we arrived.
As much as I needed to get away, I need to return to my family -who is missing me and visa versa.
Blog and new TOONS!!! I am amazed at what I drew while away, I listened to what I thought I should draw about and I was never let down. It was not always about cannabis. It is always about humans. HIV, Future of Health Canada, A political statement that I know many of us all feel right now, a special toon with my son, and some Poppy - because - I still have a every day life...
I AM ready to continue.
Next Blog Sunday!
I only had to research the side effects of the most common OXY.
I do not understand why someone would NOT try Cannabis first.
Yes I do.
Lies and lack of education on the subject.
I believe Cannabis should be someone's first choice as it IS safer than most if not all options available.
I know one of the main reasons my body needs Cannabis is nausea.
I have difficulty maintaining between 115 and 125, I don't like me at 115, and I never in my life thought it would ever be a problem but it is. Cannabis help me eat.
It creates the desire.
It also can make things appear to: 'this is the best tasting pizza ever!' LOL - true.
It's not fun being too skinny and I can't afford a new wardrobe.
Now read the side effects for the prescribed anti nausea medication I have-
PMS ONDANSETRON 8mg :
^ THIS MUST change. Cannabis is a legally recognized medicine in this country, prescribed by Dr.s WE should NOT be forced to use other medications.
SO for those side effects alone ^^^ !? Why would you not at least try cannabis first?
The facts are in the PROOF is here. Google.
Have you watched the Doc. By Dr. Gupta?
I guarantee you, YOU will be better educated on the subject.
YOU OWE that to yourself.
I added the link to make it easy for you xox Because I love you and want you to be healthy and happy.
A friend had some plants taken from his back yard. I am hoping it was just some thoughtless kid and NOT someone he knows. He is upset and stressed. I GET IT.
How do you think I feel when I worry about he proposed future of medical Cannabis in Canada today? Not being able to afford medicine that Storm needs. Medicine I need.
I get it.
Someone stole the plants - to get high. Not thinking much about anything other than themselves and getting a BUZZ. The real buzz is the BUZZ kill a patient now is dealign with over a plant. Suffering - a few months supply of medicine gone. Thief.
If this PLANT were decriminalized and be as IT SHOULD - a seed to plant for all human kind - no one would need to go around and STEAL it!
What other weeds do people do around and steal!? Not my dandelions.
Prohibition is turning people into criminals over plants.
Not the Plant and not the person - that is HUMAN NATURE, to want to feel good.
Please THINK before you consider lifting a plant you might see that does NOT belong to you. It could mean a lot more than getting high to someone - I could mean them being able to keep their job, or function with their family.. it could mean life or death.
A Thief is a Thief. If they steal from one with no guilt, they will steal from another.
It is sad. I don’t think anyone ever trusts a thief again. Including themselves.
I also feel there is an entire beautiful energy surrounding this plant - bad karma if you ask me. Not a high I would enjoy. Not one someone who truly appreciates cannabis would do.
VOTE & GROW it.
I am starting to have issues with ‘anger/frustration’ when I read about the number of people dying from prescribed medications and still constantly read about or hear of Dr.s that won’t even consider cannabis for patients. WTF?
Do NO harm.
What is going on with the pill pushing world and why are we ALLOWING it to happen? Lack of EDUCATION.
I read an article where parents were ‘not as concerned when their child was caught with a prescription drug - over being caught with cannabis', thinking - ASSuming it must be safer - it’s prescribed by a Dr.
The saddest thing about all of this is many find out far too late into he game exactly how bad prescriptions drugs can be, either by dealing with a side effect that is worse that the initial diagnoses or even worse when they are putting a loved one in the ground and then RESEARCH the medication they were on..
Why wait > READ the labels.
• Drug fatalities more than doubled among teens and young adults between 2000 and 2008, and more than tripled among people aged 50 to 69
***Again, these drug-induced fatalities are not being driven by illegal street drugs; the analysis found that the most commonly abused prescription drugs like OxyContin, Vicodin, Xanax and Soma now cause more deaths than heroin and cocaine combined.
It is time.
TIME to DEMAND a safer alternative. Dr.s MUST get with the times and prescribe safer alternatives or I think they will have to start to take more responsibility for patients who die or become addicted to serious narcotics. If they can hand out prescribed medications knowing the implications..
The fact are AVAILABLE yet many still TRY to say there is not enough research surrounding Cannabis - BULL
There is MORE than enough research with prescribed medications to convince me (and millions around the world.of the opposite!) Please educate your Dr.
^^^ read! 6 dangerous prescription drugs YOU should think twice before taking!
Google Death caused by prescription drugs. Prove me wrong ;-)
I've been a little 'quiet'. Not from lack of anything to say - LOL
I am learning how to live a new life... accepting that this is how it is and what am I going to do about it.
I had a visit with a Dr. and he said you must feel like the medical profession has let Storm and you down...
Storm was diagnosed: Progressiove to terminal with no treatment or cure. Thank God for his cannabis which keeps him active, functioning and enjoying life to the fullest while living with chronic pain.
Now, the only suggestion I get is for medications. Which I am not o.k. with. Particularly seizure medication. Have you read the side effects? They are not confirming it IS seizures - so NO. That being said, Botox is worn off I believe and I am living a different life.
One that I don't have so much control over. Somedays I am up at 4, waken up by my twitch so powerful I swear I feel my head rocking on the pillow - those days I pretty much write off. I do what ever I can when I can.
I am THRILLED and thank God and the surgeon every day - I don't seem to be having the doozies - well a couple, BUT not nearly as often or as powerful. The problem is the twitch (which again has been explained it is not a twitch pulling, but electrical impulses going off) it pretty much NON stop all day all the time with breaks in between of only minutes. It is exhausting. By 5 p.m. I hardly want to do anything. My head pounding from constant movement as the night wears on I look forward to going to bed. Daily naps at about 2 are also NEEDED - I'm not fond of napping. I am looking forward to the puppy! It plays for about 20 mins. and then needs to sleep. I have the dogs trained when I nap - so do they.
Or else I'd get no rest. I think they look forward to it now as much as I do. LOL
He (dr.) also asked are you depressed?
I thought about it for a second (I have been depressed before) and replied
"no, not depressed... completely fucking overwhelmed at times, yes."
He understood that.
So with deciding no surgery- no medicine they don't really know what else to do.
I'm o.k. with that. I need a break from all of it. That being said I never really do get a break. I am constantly reminded with each interruption, some painful and always annoying, that this is how it is. Like it or not.
The twitch triggered by talking. I swear on a bad day it is triggered by breathing.
So I noticed as have my family I am getting quiet. I find it ironic that my phone has not been working and decided not to care too much. Less triggers. If anyone really wants to get a hold of me they know to e mail. I am doing much thinking, of course, especially with the approaching changes and much drawing but I am TAKING it easy.
Putting me and my guys and our 'family' first.
The awesome thing about the twitch...
My appreciation, realization and determination to enjoy every day I am blessed with.
I would not say the medical profession has let us down. Stuff happens.
They tried and continue to try. I have been blessed with awesome Dr.s, all of them.
But at some point you just have to step back and say... It is what it is.
I may be a little more quiet but not for long... it does not mean I'm not thinking or drawing. ;-)
It amazes me how few peole even know what the DSM is. I know of several schools that have a copy. Just the way your friendly pharmacy company likes it. More and more children are becoming pill poppers. LEGAL pills.
Read this article in Macleans magazine:
Is your child mental or normal? 3 out bursts a week, and they could be diagnosed mental! Some schools even have a copy of the DSM... WTF!?
It is one thing to diagnose an adult with a mental illness but a child? Give them a chance to be a kid, that included outbursts and bratty behavior from time to time. Embrace it, it is a chance to teach a lesson to both parent and child.
If I thought the DSM was helping more than hurting I would probably just go about my business, but it is HURTING.
More and more children are diagnosed every year - that does not mean they get help. In many cases they get a prescription and nothing more. Well, besides the stigma of being labeled mental. As if kids don’t have it hard enough.
Then to put them on a medication - for depression? Possibly a psychotropic drug that will cause more long term damage than not. Because a BOOK suggests it!
Yep. They sit around a table and make suggestions. No scientific facts. No X-rays, No blood tests, No test to prove a chemical imbalance - Even Dr.s & Psychiatrists are starting to question the DSM.
“The result is that people with normal variations in emotion, behavior, and thought can receive a psychiatric diagnosis, leading to stigma and inappropriate treatment.
Because we have to live with a diagnostic system that is provisional—and that will almost certainly prove invalid in the long run—much of the research on mental disorders has to be taken with a grain of salt. “
Read more: http://www.neuropsychotherapist.com/dsm-5-handle-with-care/
I guess so, especially when they must explain to the parent of a child on medication that does them more harm in long run. In some cases the child commits suicide on the drugs they are prescribed to help them. FACT - Google side effects of PROZAC
I took that crap for too long... twitch, twitch...
Think about also how your child might feel about YOUR decision to medicate them, when they are 30, they might have an opinion on what you decided regarding their mental state. If they live that long. Do you think I am being dramatic?
Research. Look at the rise in numbers with children being medicated and prescribed with such things like Bipolar at the age of 2!
Perhaps not your children but your grand children? ANY child! We need to speak up for the ones that can’t.
Calling yourself crazy and having someone diagnose you as crazy are two very serious and different things. It could affect the child forever.
I have several cartoon ideas and I plan on drawing them all.
WE ARE NOT CRAZY!
WE DONT NEED the DRUGS!
We just need MORE TLC.
Ignorance is bliss... ? How about when it is killing our kids? Still feeling blissful?
How about when you get a F*&^% twitch that drives crazy? Did you know it was a common side effect of one of earliest “mood” drugs approved by the “who’s, who’s”
and pushed to the millions as ‘mama’s little helper’. And tongue* darting... lovely.
Twitches that never go away. They made a pill to try, but that just paralyzed motor skills.
My researching Cannabis just made me think I DONT get it.
No one dies from it. People LIKE it. Prefer it to toxic (mentally & physically) alcohol,
It has proven healing effects on the human body. WTF?
Over and over.. then I watched a doc called. The Marketing Of Madness. Never is Cannabis mentioned. You realize the reason when you start to learn about the numbers $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$
You feel sick to your stomach when you realize how it is all decided. A bunch of people -most paid by pill companies to make up ‘DIAGNOSES”. Don’t believe me? WATCH IT!
Then, research even a little and see it is all true.
A sign? - I’m sitting in a office a book falls on the floor (me being a neat freak clean up all the magazines at the Dr.s office ). Book falls out again. All about the DMS.
Pay attention... Our children are the main ‘client’ they want.
A lifetime subscriber, prescriber!!
I get children are ill. I KNOW. A mental illness is very different from a physical one; although a physical one does allot of mental damage, and some children are mentally ill - they do need professional help and possibly medication.
BUT and this is a BIG fricken BUT
To say a child that puts up a fuss/throws a temper 2-3 times a week should be medicated? Are you kidding me? This is new to the DSM this year - the age it is geared to >>> 6-12. <<< But younger may be diagnosed.
We’ve all been there! Storm did it to me over a stuffed penguin!! People thought I was murdering him, I will never forget it ;-) I had to buy it! I didn’t know what to do.. I talked to him about it later, and told him that it was not a nice thing to do and explained why - that I might not be able to afford it and was embarrassed. He got it. THEY are smart little beings! They need so much love and much attention - so what! Deal with it! We brought them into the world!
SUCK IT UP! Focus on your children.
DO not medicate them, with PILLS or food or T.V. for that matter.
Dose them with TLC! Attention and love.
Ignorance is bliss... wait a few years when a pill they are on for ‘depression’ kills them.
It actually makes them kill themselves. Don’t believe me? Research PROZAC.
I dare you. IF you care about your children you WILL!
Because, I love kids. I once was one. ;-)
What a terrible way to learn about life... on DRUGS. The legal ones!!!
This is a difficult blog.
Deep Breath, and in my mind I think help me speak.
I have not been drawing as much this past week or so, several reasons...
I had a bit of a set back. Dr.s still do not know what is causing my problem. I had a couple of days that were so bad I must say; I was considering- considering surgery - again LOL
Not fun ;-( I am also thinking of my botox Dr.
I also had a run in with arthritis and Daisy. I have Psoriatic arthritis - it moves. For what ever reason sometimes it moves to my hands. I can just about tolerate the pain anywhere else- when it moves to the hands it also becomes a mental stress and can be somewhat depressing to a artist to have hands so sore you don't want to draw. The weather is not helping. Arthritis is not fun. Some days it literally hurts to pull up my own undies. I have a friend with sever arthritis and has had it for years. I never knew how bad it was for her of course, until I started to deal with it. I do remember she was in so much pain one time when her little guy was a baby - I had to go over - she could not even do up his diaper because of the pain.
It has been a difficult week, I was close to calling my friend Marco and informing him I would not be at this years EXPO.
I had a long conversation with my guys - they get it - they see how I am and understand I am self conscious. Storm reminded me that - "people will think what they want, but when you speak mom they will hear you, and they get past your appearance." ❤
I had someone say to me - you have to get over it, then the other day she was saying in conversation "I would not go out if my hair was a mess... I would feel so self conscious" - HA! And I'm to GET over it!? - It will take time. That's just messy hair!
Either way, I was reminded that this is a opportunity for me to help educate and we have some fun. We booked the hotel. If people have trouble talking to me that is their problem not mine. Perhaps I am a lesson. We are all a lesson for someone.
For the past 2 days, I have been using 'Bubble hash' Storm got for me and my twitch last night was one of the best days it has been since surgery! I hope I figure out he camera thing - It will amaze some people! I will be in full twitch - have a puff and it stops, less than a minute later.
I am amazed! LOL - You have no idea. A twitch that goes on constantly - is exhausting alone but physically after a long day - it just WEARS me down. Last night -when it is usually at its worst in the P.M. - I could not believe how good it was!! I will be using nothing but for a couple of days. It would be so awesome if I could control it sometimes!
Norm could not believe I was not stoned. LOL And Storm happy to help his mom ❤.
If not for Cannabis, I do not know where I would be- yes, I do!
In bed miserable and feeling sorry for myself and in pain.
Instead today - is a new day and I am ready for it.
I am going to my painting room and paint some creations for this years EXPO.
Relax and enjoy this day, I know it is a blessing that it was given to me.
I hope to get back to drawing as of today. Thank you for your patience.. xox