I would be lost without PIN , well o.k. not lost but it sure makes life fun! 
How cool if I want to see and research and octopus- I can at the tip of my fingers! Not like the good ol' days, get dressed, go to the library, find as many books as i could and take..from there - the days already 1/2 gone.  
Now, I'm up, coffee, not dressed- well -undies are o.k., office attire on a 26 degree morning in Canada!  I'm pinning lions for Duke's thank you card, mailed out later today with a  few postcards! ;) 
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I use it to craft, clean, cook, gouache better!  Draw better. THERE are no excuses- you will  spend your day reading what others are doing or you will spend it educating yourself on a topic you already love - the trick is to shut down and do it.  I can get caught up in PIN.
It is my 'I'm too tired to draw go to and 'time waster as well.
I follow a few and I unfollow too, only because I really want to focus sometimes and PINs can get me off focus. Moderation.
My art has improved because of the internet, I'm grateful for it! 

A few of my friends comment "I don't get it.." so here is PIN in 10 easy  visual steps (you are welcome) quick steps. Want to bake better cakes - use PIN - NOW wait... I have a friend who said  "I get overwhelmed at all the great work I see on PIN and then don't try..." well that problem is with the person not PIN. The only way to get better at anything is to do it all the time. PRACTICE, PRACTICE, PRACTICE, when I had my studio PepeLepew was painted saying those words for the hundreds of kids who passed through my studio doors!
Because 7 out of 10 asked me: How do I draw like you?

PIN have fun! look me up! Comment on one of my recent PINs and I will see it there! 
I probably won't react- I'm usually on researching a drawing.
Have fun.. Moderation.

Have faith
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I took some photos yesterday of parts of the kitchen.. forcing myself to find something positive. The fact s are it's at least another week, so really two - still no power (extension cords) no trim, no cupboards, no back splash.. stuff everywhere - I am expected to put away- hard to do without cupboards.   I'm also expected to cook.  
I won't be  & neither will anyone else be.
It's NOT finished and It's not getting dirty before it is.
I've already washed at least FULL 6 loads of dishes yesterday, because all the stuff that was put in them - was covered in drywall dust and sawdust, because he does not give a shit- I'm not a 'real client' - who would have all the stuff protected and plastic put up so it would not happen....  cleaning up after Norm like I've done for 23 years.

The day before I had Judy help empty 6 boxes and clean and  you would hardly know she was here already from the mess again everywhere.

Book off two weeks I said... I can get it done in one, he said.

My twitch is worse than before I went away and I'm fighting not to stay in bed, so - no I don't care about the fucking kitchen at the moment.   Other than the hammering not much else is heard- not much speaking, what else is new.  & of course I've already had a few that say  "BUT wow, you'll have a new kitchen!"   It frustraites & angers me, who cares about a fucking kitchen. It's STUFF. Glorified stuff- and a kitchen for someone who  would rather draw than cook- I'll be expected to cook more -  "Hey, you have a new kitchen! "

Norm choose all the details from the counter to the trim decisions,  appliances, backsplash & more, anything I picked was replaced with his own decisions, which were more 'affordable' - so why even ask me in the first place. Technically Norm is the one with the new kitchen, he can enjoy cooking it in... when  it gets done.  
It's a kitchen. 

Progress? Not much. Same shit  different day.
Im in do not disturb mode because I am feeling antisocial. Why because again, I have to put up with someone else shit all day everyday.  I'd rather not even be here to be honest & the fact that I HAVE to makes me resent it more.  If I was not .. two weeks could become 2 months.. Just like it took 6 years for a set of stairs.

I'm a bitch, you know it (in Norms mind for sure these days) .. I'm not making shit up- it's been my life for 23 YEARS, come to your own conclusions but  remember - I am the one that has been living it.  Do you ever know both sides? No then keep your comments to yourself.   Norm knows what I write is true, I have no need to lie and won't.  

Renovations are the cause of a few marriage break ups...  
Now, I'm going to paint.  The kitchen can fucking wait.  
& sunset grill for breakfast sounds great.

Waiting too is difficult, Im not good at being surrounded by chaos 'stuff everywhere" messes with me an I can't seem to get past it.. I have a big painting I want to start but I only seem to be able to put to these minis- an ocTEApus of course .. I have a few more. I paint them when frustrated. I guess I'll have a dozen new ones before the end of the week.

* I feel bad for Storm, Im very 'teary', I'm  exhausted and he keeps saying 'sorry'.
I am not a good faker for the record, lol - anyone reading the blog must be aware of this by now.  He also understands why I am the way I am.  
For all of you, who read my blog- I apologize - I'll try to put on a better mood tomorrow.
and will have  new painting for you to see.

Have Faith
<>< xox

Anger & hatred int he USA. This presidential election is something. What does one say at the possibility of someone like Trump = becoming president - someone who fuels his campaign on hatred and anger?  Dividing and concurring...    
Nothing, I don't want to contribute to the insanity.

Suiside bombers and snipers who murder innocent people - COWARDS.  
The truck bulldozing through people. ;( it fucked with me. I tried to think of an editorial and told myself, finally - it's better for my own sanity if I don't.  May they rest in peace & their families tried to make sense of the slaughter. Find forgiveness- ONLY so they can heal.
How can you forgive such acts? I'm not sure.

The kitchen in not complete, Norms returned to work and is under the impression - meals will be cooked, now that the stove and fridge are back in place..  Norm is mistaken.

I had the best day yesterday with  Storm, Brittany & Jessie* my assistant.   They told me they were working on something- 'I know about' & asked me for help with it.   It turned out great! I can't show you until after Saturday - as it is a surprise and you never know who reads this blog.  It has me really thinking of a new direction for some possible income- and I'm doing it! You will see them soon. 

Yesterday the kids drove me to Burger priest (in Barrie) lol - no, we really went to Curry's for paint!  Do you know what that means?? paint! lol  
Move out of my way bird!  It's time to paint. 

Chelsea Handler * recently discovered on netflix and I have to say - I think she is my clone- only because I'm older.. lol    ALMOST everything out of her mouth, I have already said on this blog and agree with full heartedly. Especially the marriage thing. I will never get married again - should Norm & I part. WTF FOR?  Been there, doing that.  I love how she uses FUCK - it's about time- and it will help lose the stigma of the' word.'   She's the best person on television  since Oprah IMO. ;) 
Please watch, her topics are serious (mostly) and thought provoking.  
She likes everyone, is particularly fond of black men- lol,   I get it.  
Brings back memories of a boyfriend 'D.D'. long ago.  ;)  

***WE ARE ONE, the color of our skin has never bothered me- its' the color of the heart I'm attracted to... and they are not black.  I also don't care about size- Storm loves this about me - we talked on our last long drive.   I don't see Fat or Skinny- I see people I LIKE!
Who make me smile, inspire me with their words or actions,  creativity & compassion turn me on. It's the internet I have to thank!
Teaching me for years now - you never know who you are talking to.

This blog.. I was thinking- I HOPE  from the start, if your reading - I have changed my mind on a few subjects - I must have- my brain has changed,  my life the past 5, 6 years! I am NOT who I was yesterday- let alone when I started this blog.
​I change as I learn and grow. 
This is life. I'm proud I can still re-think & change if  that is what needs to be done.

Cannabis cartoons.. always on my mind. time to get some out.
This pokemon thing will be on the drawing board today- because it is a joke that cannabis is less harmful that a fucking ap.  Not a very funny one- considering people are in  jail. AMERICANS - blacks especially are still in jail and going daily  over cannabis when a game is hurting more people that it ever has. How fucked up is that?   Is anyone paying attention?

New art work tomorrow.
Have Faith
xox <>< 

WARNING all the links below contain videos/clips of just a TINY, tiny footage of DIRTY FUCKING Sneaky. LYING COPS  (I like Pigs, so I don't call them that) 

WTF America is going on *down there?  
This is about  bad fucking cops! I am thrilled each time I see one caught on tape and disgusted at the same time, short clips that bring  me to  tears. PIGS. I don't care what people are doing - you don't fucking  beat, punch them when handcuffed!
From the moment he slams her against the wall..  I don't know what to say, maybe this guy just lost it.. then get out of your fucking job.
This one will  frighten you... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kHy_gNnBDuE
it makes me sick to my stomach. In front of their children?   This  PIG should go to jail. watch the entire clip. America has a serious problem going on. Listen to him, you can hear his ANGER, RAGE. he is a cop - he is  suppose to be the one in control.
They should lose their  jobs and GO TO JAIL!!!
Please wake up America,  there are so many  clips of dirty power hungry cops that are getting way out of line, and

    THIS is WHAT THEY DO WHEN THEY ARE BEING FILMED!!
       WHAT ARE THEY DOING WHEN THEY ARE NOT BEING  FILMED
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What a 'sick  man'  this cop is.. imagine.   & it is being encouraged.
Encouraged by the American government when they outfit them for one - as if they are ARMY.  It is a mental thing. TOO many Americans are o.k. with all this, until what?
Until it happens to them.   Guns should be taken away in the USA and start with the cops.
& the cops working with them who go along with it are EQUALLY as guilty. When you see them beat a drunk, shoot a mentally ill man and THE cuff him!?  & then clean up all the evidence - no wonder people are shooting the police.  No wonder americans don't want to lose their guns.  ;(  
Read what our police have done and why CRIME IS GOING DOWN in Canada. 

Imagine the children now who are witnessing all this brutality- in the future there will be so much hatred towards the police- once thought of as 'heroes and defenders'... now sneaks and murderers.

This is an editorial cartoon and nothing is fucking funny about it.
As a matter of fact the second panel - I know that little girl who had that fucking  gun held to her head. FIRST hand. my friend Todd still in jail.. where all these dirty cops should be but never go. THAT IS the crime committed against America.
​EVERY time she sees a police office that memory is imbedded in her head.

DIRTY, Nasty, evil people - who are not in the job for he right reason - & get this- DO YOU FORGET?  Do you understand... YOU PAY THEM?    When you see the men (mostly) who are cops .. abuse some people like they do, hit cuffed people who can not defend themselves and others watch. There are no words for these people that I can think of  with out hatred welling inside me.
I don't know what the solution is, first de-militarize the intimidating police power shit....  Donald Trump wants to build a wall  which makes me think a lot of Mexicans are thrilled.  

I'm focusing on  getting a few acres somewhere so I can invite my American friends to come up, hang out, be creative! & DE fucking stress... I know I get stressed with life- Imagine being aa American with Donald trump possibly as the next president - YIKES!!!
You must leave their guns at home btw.
I'll have one gun for 'bear protection' if necessary. that's it. lol  
Never stop dreaming then working.

* forgive my mindset with he 'down there' - the same as saying 'down south', on a map you are .. down there ;)

Have faith
xox <>< 

When away, I slept.
I did not paint... which is blowing my mind.  3 little sketches, the one I did finish- I learned what 'rain does to Gouache' my meditation frog (below) was washed away..  so was I.
Up with he birds- and the birds were AMAZING!  I was in bird utopia! 
Arrrrgh! I forgot to bring some peanuts. 
From bed to the dock was my first stop each morning as the girls - Daisy & Poppy would need to pee. *thanks to Storm for leaving his dog with me. & I would sit and sip my tea.
I'd wander between the cottage and dock, in at 11 to nap...  deck, dock, bed nap.. lol!
Really.  I needed it bad. Holy cow.
I was instantly overtaken with the  peace and exhaustion- physically & mentally, took hold and said SLEEP. Thankfully, where ever I went, Daisy lay 3 feet away, ever watching me & Poppy. I LOVE my dogs. I love all dogs.  I was so relaxed I slept with all the windows and doors open on the hottest few days and  absorbed the quiet. Satellite Tv- I turned on and thought REALLY!?  REALLY Georgia!? It was in time for the line from Ghost Busters (* which I will watch @ my desk painting) "Do you have any Hobbies?"  - "I collect moulds, fungus and spores."  It cracked me up, lol - that is Storm.  He is anxious for  the fall foray season. ;)  I could NOT stay awake the first couple of days and hardly ate.  
My body was screaming and my mind called the shots. SLEEP
I even started to feel guilty- you're not painting...   oh well, sit back & breath.
I thought about a few people in specific on my mind lately all the time. 
I didn't shed a teaar- also hard for even me to believe - lol, I sat and chilled with Poppy & Daisy. We wandered, I caught a big frog and a tiny one, thew rocks and napped.

Now, I'm home for a bit & paint fumes drift up stairs,  the kitchen, it'c coming. 
Norm goes non-stop.  Bird is happy I am home. 
I tell you what... I feel stronger mentally  & physically :
God has me on the path, I just have to keep walking.
I know what needs to be done, there is no confusion in my mind.
I know what I want & I will have it.  
Focus on what I am here to do.  Draw.

I am drawing - it was an overwhelming desire yesterday - to draw about police abuse in America. Why?  SPEAK UP!! FOR EACH OTHER! We are ONE it should not be tolerated.
It's getting out of control, no wonder people are shooting cops- who does not think that?
Bring attention to it. Yes, there are great police officer out there but the evidence does not lie- thank God for cameras.  More on it tomorrow.
Understand also- I have a few Americans I'm really fond of - hee hee, seriously, I think about them and it's heart breaking. I want to have a few acres and tell them come on up, put up a tent and hang out.  This toon is born of love from my friends and I feel it does speak the truth.

Trump or Hillary?    .. .Hillary. 

A Thank YOU Universe & to my good friend Jim, I love that Guy  & everyone knows it.  
I was telling Storm what a wonderful friend he's been all these years, so many laughs. 
For assisting in providing me with peace & always showing me love.
You know, as I do with  everyone close to me at one time sooner or later it seems...
I put him to the test a few times & he has never left me.  XOX  Thank God.

xox Have Faith  <><

I was told I will have no access to the internet while away! Woo hoooooooo!

Paint packed. Paper packed. Poppy Packed.
Camera, book & bud.  
I'm good to go and a top secret location so no one can find me.
hee hee hee

What will I be doing?  Medicating, painting, napping & dreaming..lol
New art when I return.

Have faith
xox
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Nature is calling- Poppy can't wait - up into the wilderness!
I was just packing and you can tell I'll be painting by my attire. Comfort.
My house is a disaster area,  I have no kitchen.
Not that I mind..lol except my kitchen is all over - in my living room for example.  
Norms has been at it all day & Norm is a hard worker - the kitchen is almost bare.. I know when I return it will look fantastic - it's 'our' home, although he does exceptional work no matter who's home he is in.   He's been planning for months & he picked everything out.

Right now - allI see is mayhem... I go directly from the gazebo to office, he has a week and a bit off work.  Let the games begin!!  I'm not even sure what to say at this point.  Because he is non stop, after the kitchen it's the fireplace room... I worry about his heath  but it seems to be his passion as was it his fathers, he's also a grown man and  can look after himself.  I am looking forward to seeing the new kitchen, I have to 'put it all back', I'll be home for that and gone again for a bit I believe.

Were trying to figure out how we can take 6 months for myself to truthfully see if I can get some sort of control  with my trigeminal neuralgia, because frankly, it's not good and I'm exhausted.  It is an extreme case, you would never know I'm being zapped thousands of times a day, t's amazing what we learn to live with but I'm still hit daily with shocks that  make me hold my breath in pain and instantly start praying. Nice to know that kicks in imo, lol.  Pray, I do a lot of it and  I am smiling as I type, my prayers ARE answered all the time!
I told my Dr. as I left the hospital - "I believe in miracles."
 
I know with glimpses of lying in the hammock, when I sit and paint at my desk or out in nature... and just chatting with friends, laughing with Storm.. it seems to at least back off a bit & TRUST me- you take what you can get!  Norm gets it.   
I'm leaving in the morning, this might be the last blog for a bit, I think my Instagram works but I don't have a laptop so...  what ever you do - do it with love in your heart.
It makes the job easier, you will become so good at it- soon your gift finds you & you it!!!

I am painting some awesome ideas when away.
Below.. The Kitchen BEFORE:

Have Faith  & hope too that the kitchen will be done when we return.
xox <>< 
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I had a good giggle and scare recently, when deciding on final details of a piece I've been working on and  thought- best make sure.  I've not asked people in the past and  have been known to be wrong with my details...    hard to believe, I know. 
Not this time, I sent my friend Rob and e mail asking him: 'what color is the bus!?"
 "Green" is his reply.   lol
Green?  Green? That's it??  
Not: Grass green, Lime Green or even Kermit green! How was I to guess the exact green? What seems like worlds apart, it's not like I can glance at the bus out my window.
I then sent Rob a 'CIL match your green chip' - the perfect solution - and he said "there was no such green",  I laughed out loud... but still not any closer to a 'solid bus color'.
Scotland in the next couple of weeks in not an option.
Rob came up with the perfect solution - a Skype bus tour!!! 
The next thing I know - I see Rob & I, walking onto the bus - it was a first class tour of a first rate CANNABUS bus!  I was stepping onto it myself!  I looked over all the details,  loved the  real wood - complete with bark & moss counters, I appreciate the beauty of wood, in furniture and always ask to see knots. It has a Stove, sink, loo?   Seats, curtains - Georgia Toons art - all over - it is truly a labour of love and you can see it in every detail.  I love the floor.  It comes complete with a stuffed ZEN Kitty - I'd love to give a squeeze looking very chilled in his pasta attire- wait until Rob see's what I sen't for the bus for his birthday- thanks canada Post- still not there. - today I hope!! The ultimate bus conversation piece.
Wow, I can't wait to take a ride!   For the record.. the bus, in my opinion & mind is pretty close to kermit green,  with a twist of lime and burst of  lemon yellow.  lol 

The best part for me then was to get to 'relax & chat with Rob on the bus. It was a virtual  dream come true, me visiting the bus...  the warm inviting sun shining through the curtains, Rob chilling on the sofa, lots of laughs as I expected & sharing a few details about his upcoming adventure. He's heading away to Asia tomorrow. Glasgow - Dubai - Hong Kong - Hanoi - Ho Chi Minh City - Kuala Lumpur - Singapore - Dubai - Glasgow.  
Sounds like quite journey is ahead of Rob.
No, not on the Cannabus... I bet he wishes he could. lol  
​I wish him & travel mates a safe & thrilling, calming, adventure.

I'll admit at first I was a little disappointed  - Rob was late for the call, I know he is a busy man so I figured  he just could not find the time, even Storm said "sorry you didn't get your call mom.. "  - only to find out Rob was trying to Skype me from a Scottish castle with the bus- but it was not great reception. You can see a photo in the background below.

I am still smiling and can now complete my work, a gift for Rob,
Planting the seed of cannabis from the  ' Vibrant Green'  Cannabus.    
Drawn with much TLC & THC  -  you, like Rob will have to wait & see.

A few images below I picked off of Robs FB page. 
Have Faith
<><
xxx

This is a warm up of a bigger drawing I've been thinking about.. you might notice a hint of things to come.  As I wind down from a busy day, lots of laughing actually.  Storm did something so funny every time I think of it I burst out laughing.. he will think twice before  teasing again!  My mom..  told us how she could get '33degree burns ...  lol Storm asked her 'how she got so close to the sun. 
Poppy was as always, a wonderful "working girl" she came with us to  Baycrest Brain hospital and only received smiles -  she did frighten someone! Only because they forgot she was on my lap, and was startled when they approached and she sat up.  When I'm in my appointments she curls up, lets me talk my business as she naps... lol ,  ever protecting & comforting.   I know less pills would be taken if more people had access to dogs.
My Dr. certainly understands what  Poppy does for me, thankfully.  

One woman just couldn't resist and normally Poppy ignores all but she just wanted a "wee pat. She got it and she beamed.  My friend at the shelter got her fix - just from patting the kitties at the shelter.   ADOPT! Rescue.. its not that big of a deal- you get a friend for as long as they have their life. 
BUT not turtles.. they should left free.
It's how Im going to be,.. at ease in my own shell.
I am.
I shared with the Dr. today, part of my biggest problem is everyone else.  lol she agreed.

I was told to  think about myself & enjoy myself.  
Sounds like the perfect plan to me.

Upcoming Blogs...

Sat:
I found out the color 'Green', can mean something different between a Creative Canuk & Rebellious Scot.  :) 
Sunday: I hear nature calling! 
Monday: Internet accress - I don't know. If you don't read a blog. No.
lol

Have faith
xox
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I got this! I can do this! I feel fantastic today!
​Already visited my favourite coffee shop- I draw 'sleeves' for them BTW.. if you want a FREE mini Georgia orignal-- lol  They look like this: 

Why? I  have fun painting  them, they literally take me minutes ;)  I use up my paint so I don't waste it! lol & I like the coffee shop and all the ladies, coffee, carrot cupcakes!  
The thought of some stranger taking a sleve and  seeing it & smiling - that makes me smile! I was at 'teaopia' the other day and had a great tea- but the sleeve when I got it - I was disappointed.. lol  
You have to be at Local & Import pretty early though, I bring about 3 to 6 sleeves every morning when I get my coffee and switch them up.  
Now, I'm off to see the brain Dr., her  finished painting below.. 
I feel great today- My mind is in the right place - full of hope.
That is all that matters.  
I am so grateful for all the people in my life who make me smile.
Thank you.  
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Have faith
xox
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