I am beyond excited and thrilled! So much so - I got dressed up today! lol
Poppy and I are going OUT!
I was going to start this blog with I have good news and I have bad news.. the bad news being my condition has progressed, I rarely get breaks and never know where or where an attack/episode will come, but screw it! It's all good news! I'm still here and now able to get out and about again! Hopefully before the weather changes.
Its agreed & Poppy is official with Dr.s papers and all.
Easier said than done when you're out in public become frightened, wishing I was not having an attack in public, people look and often I see a kind of fear returned.
I stand still and I find my hands go out as my balance starts to wobble.
* WHY Poppy is Always clipped to my belt.
I don't I just need to try to ride it out, it only escalates when I'm alone.. so I stopped going out alone. I can't expect Storm to take everywhere and I do want to go into few stores... I have no intensions of going IN to restaurants with Poppy, but will sit in a patio - next summer. I mostly want to bring her to the library! I have trouble there.. I guess from bending over looking at books. I've already cleared it with them and cant wait for our first visit!
At home when I have an 'episode' Poppy is on my lap, she climbs and 'kisses' me - its the only time I get kisses .lol I know my breathing becomes irregular and I stiffen up - I'm not sure how she knows but she does, often with minor episodes she'll just turn and look at me (while on my lap) more or less to say: o.k.? I reassure her "I'm o.k. Poppy" and she puts her head back down. ;) She brings me back - zones me in. I can look at her , pat her & the next think I'm focusing on her and the fear is gone.
So why shouldn't I be able to take her with me!?
It started a few months back when I tried to go into he dollar store (I had Poppy in her sling - not walking) and was told 'NO'. The dollar store? I have seen kids in there who run around snot nosed, touching everything - Poppy? Please. Anyhow, I have that woman to thank, she started the ball rolling.
I am also designing a coloring sheet! Sure enough it happened yesterday, a little girl wanted to pat her & mom said no. Moms should always so no - you need know if the dog will bite, but the mom did say: "no, thats a working dog.." the little girl put up a fuss, so I explained and all was well. Mom thanked me and off they went. I don't want poppy touched or addressed. I need her to focus on me.
I already take Poppy to a Dr.s, for my appointments.
She never gets off my lap, she does not care where or why she is anywhere.
Understand the dog does have to behave.
Ask and you shall receive... sure enough, next thing I knew I was working on a logo for a woman in California in exchange for Poppy's custom vest! I needed something small. Had SERVICE so people understand do not touch, and comfortable for Poppy!
I could not find anything on line * especially because of my hands not having strength, It needed to be strong velcro! April of California Chi did an amazing job! I hope she is as thrilled with her logo! She is on Facebook check her out!
Were on a mission now!
Out and about with Poppy! I want to make this pleasant and have entered, asked and introduced. Keswick is a small town - there are only so many places we can go.
Yesterday it did my heart good. I hope to educate simply on people sometimes do need to have their pets with them. My canine companion. It's off to the dollar store soon. ;)
I even had the vest designed for easy lifting.
So stay tooned! Im a about to blog with my little dog! Before the winter weather has us captive in our cabin!
Draw a few cartoons and design the coloring sheet.
Oh and did I mention she ALSO has her border crossing papers!
Woot Woot! More on that too...
Thank you California Chi! April and God for bringing it all together ;)