 Distraction. I love to draw... but sometimes I find myself doing other things like FB or
watching stuff on youtube. I think it's all too much. It is too easy to be distracted. The trick is to do what you love. We all know that but we get distracted. No more. I have a job to do. I have a Boss ;-)) I have a deadline. Time to get serious. More drawing less poking! I am so blessed to be able to draw Other distractions I find are: cooking, cleaning and laundry! No more!!
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What a grey day.. I have drawing to do so hopefully it will distract me from this frickin' weather. I am a having a hard time doing some drawings. How to get a million ideas fit into a single panel and get the point across successfully. Perhaps it is the day or subject.. perhaps I need to think of other stuff and draw something completely different, perhaps I need to get off this computer and draw... I did do this new LB. ;-) and a logo so far.. so all is not wasted.  It was a great weekend. the weather was beautiful and we took our dogs for a long walk. We have two dogs now Tequila (11) and Scruffy (4). I LOVE our dogs. Scruff is not the sharpest pencil in the box and Tequila is getting up there. Each has her own personality. Just looking at either can make me smile. I did this toon a while ago after Scruffy was 'Fixed" Donated the original (framed) with $$ going to our local shelter. I hope it did well. I don't have $$$ but I have my talent and I am blessed with friend who has a Gallery frames my donations for free. Her donation!! Together we are trying to make a difference. On FB this a.m. a stranger - I've never met said they thought of me and smiled and I am making a difference with my cartoons. What a great way to start my day. And nice for someone to say. FB - some days I can take it or leave it. I saw a post yesterday that "grinds my gears!" Someone on EASTER Sunday posted a photo of Jesus coming out of his tomb. He is Risen! (Beautiful image) and some one commented, along the lines.. "and he saw his shadow and returned for another 6 weeks of winter. " WHO does that? I found that so sad. He makes a joke about this womans saviour on one of the holiest days of the year. I do not care what you Believe- or do not Believe, I did not find it funny. I found it petty. To criticize others for what they believe? What helps them make it another day in this life? The person that posted the comment is someone I know and like, a friend. Hmmmmm.. Not impressed. I decided not to say anything to him. Buddha: If you have nothing nice to say ... say Nothing. Jesus: Pull the stick out of your own eye before you point out the speck in someone elses. Me: I think he has a stick.. not in his eye. Well this is my favorite toon I did of Scruffy. For all you dog lovers! ENJOY. xox  On Tuesdays I have art lessons with Jenelle, a wonderful young lady who likes art! Painting , pasting - what ever. Although I teach her painting I find she also teaches me a few things during our conversations. :-) Wednesday was 4/20 - Storm and I went to see the new 'Treating Yourself' Head quarters! (The magazine I draw for) It was of course impressive. I am - said it before - thrilled to be a part of the TY family. They are spreading the word in a big way and helping so many people. Below a photo with us and Bong man. Bong man is a nice guy and he goes everywhere in this costume. He makes me smile. He makes everyone smile. In the afternoon at 4:20 I was not with so many of my friends 'lighting up' - but was getting my injections to tame the twitch! ;-) Thursday I worked at my friends Gallery and as always met some nice people ;-) and my friend Scott drove all the way up just so I could try out a smart car! LOVE it! I want mine GREEN. OH, remember the GRATE? The woman who is the proud owner called me to thank me and sent me an e mail. How terrific is that. Thursday ever we met with our lawyer (another lovely guy) to sign our will. My hubby and I both slept easier. Sad when you hear horror stories of people who the Government comes in and takes everything! A good friend of ours was telling me how this happened to his family and they lost property (and stuff! Even the little things) that had been in the family for decades - all because there was no Will! So that it done. That peace of mind came from my friend Kat. xox Yesterday was 'Good Friday' and I reflected on Jesus, faith and what I feel is important to me. So many people around us suffering. I thank God for everything. Today is a new day! I plan on drawing - go figure ;-) OH I also am picked up by a new paper.. I'll work on my www today and get that up to day. I am blessed.   my personal favorite... Today was the first time I was called (in a nasty way...) a "Bible Thumper!" For trying to help someone. I was not quoting the bible, only suggesting that forgiveness is healing in my experience.
It was not until later this evening, while relaxing in my tub that I thought: At this point in my life, knowing what I know.. having been where I have and going the direction I want to be going... It was in fact quite a compliment. Thank God. I want to be a better person. I certainly won't judge someone for reading the bible. What ever it takes. Lesson learned I have got to meet and talk to so many people who all use cannabis for so many reasons. I know what it does for my son Storm but now I also know how it helps others. I hear stories about moms that NEVER tried it until they got cancer and then they admit - What was all the big deal? What's the big deal? A conversation I had earlier in the week my friend said "yeah but then all these other people will abuse it." WHY is that my problem? People who need it should have it and that is that. People will always abuse everything BUT to deny someone who really needs it because others will abuse it and get high? What is that!? How about we focus on other things people abuse more. Things that really cause damage and destruction. Drinking and Driving. Overdoes from toxic chemicals. Prescribed and abused... It is time for everyone to realize there is another face to Cannabis and it not the stoner/hippie It is the face of people who are tired of suffering and fighting for a right to put into their body what they chose. If they chose to abuse it - then they are responsible for their actions. Most of the people I have met are not trying to get high.. only trying to get by. Just a few of the faces - Living proof...   I have recently become educated.
If you know me you know I have had a bit of my own health battle this year. I lost a lot of weight about 60lbs, was getting dizzy, had terrible head pain and a twitch that just kept getting worse and worse - I had a MRI - and thank God it was ruled out that it was not being caused by a brain tumor. We still are not 100% sure what it is or why it started - I'm still seeing the Dr. I had to start Botox injections. Although they did not stop the twitch they have slowed it down .. I get my next injection next week and am happy as I am at the end of the duration and it is acting up pretty much full again. I twitch about every 15 minutes. Sometimes it does not stop and I can not draw or read - I am forced to go rest. It is mentally and physically exhausting some days. I wonder ... Why? My education, I keep coming across information (researching for more facts on cannabis, finding out about more people who this PLANT helps live a normal life) and I keep reading about the dangers of antidepressants. Especially one keeps coming up - one that I have been on *Risperdal, just to name a few... I have been on antidepressants off and on over the years since I was in my early 20's. The reason's why - are no body's business buy my own. Anyhow Risperdal is known - PROVEN to cause: substantial weight gain, metabolic disorders and muscular tics that can be permanent. They are giving this to children! I have to tell you this twitch when it is at it's worse is enough to drive me mad, depress me and want me to become a hermit and hide in my home! You can read about Risperdal here:http://query.nytimes.com/gst/fullpage.html?res=9405E3DA1539F93AA25752C1A96E9C8B63&sec=&spon= Then I was taking another antidepressant and tests show the rate of suicide of people taking this medication is increased! I found a documentary and have watched it several times with family and friends: http://www.cchr.org/ It is called the Marketing of Madness and if you are not educated after you watch it I'll eat my hat! - My hat is a Tilley and I really don't want to eat it so- I'm pretty sure you will earn something! No joke- PLEASE watch it, watch it for your kids! Your parents and YOURSELF! It has nothing to do with Cannabis.. - or does it!? You tell me. I will personally ask educator I know to watch this. If this is the cause of my problem - well, not much I can do about it. BUT I can perhaps prevent it from happening to someone else! please watch it. xox This morning I asked my son do you want to come to mass with me? He said: YES! Yippie!! When he was little he was an alter boy, so he was raised going to church but stopped I guess when he was about 15. So every now and then when he says yes! I am thrilled! I am always proud to have my son by my side. He came not because it is what he 'Believes' but because he loves me. He knows that although I was raised catholic I do not always agree with everything - especially the business of it. If you know me by now I go for the peace, the people, the building that we come together to celebrate in the Love. Sadly like every other place that is human - there are politics. Life. Anyhow - he gave me a few giggles and we both commented on what was said and how we found it interesting.
Talking about being afraid of death. Then he treated me to breakfast! By the window looking at the rain and it was wonderful. The service a little slow but looking back I am glad, we had more time to talk. Breakfast is always better when someone else cooks it. LOL- Actually every meal is better when someone else cooks it! Norm is busy in the garage working on the car. But I asked him and he said he likes to do it. Norm has to keep busy. It is a rainy Sunday, I am surrounded by LOVE, 2 and 4 legs. Thank you God! Today was a beautiful day! After a LONG, COLD Canadian winter I was able to sit outside today in a t-shirt with my pants rolled up to my knees and Tequila on my lap! I've decided to start something knew - today I walked to the grocery store and purchased a BUNGLE bunngy.- LOL - OMGosh I can't say it! Buggle buggy, Bundle Buggy!? It was great, I remember my grandma always had one. We walked everywhere and everything went into it. Luckily, my wonderful Walmart greeter Raymond helped me assemble before I ventured home. Made it wheels still on. I figure there is no need to drive, it's not that far and now I've no excuse! Hard to drive when son has assumed control of vehicle.;-)
We spent the entire day outside, cleaning, opening up the patio, picking up more pooh- it's like treasure hunting this time of year. Anyhow - I was a beautiful day. I look forward to another. ;-) When I do dishes I think. When I am having a hard time I like to do the dishes. It is like a mini spa for my hands and brain. I had to draw a sad Hunny cartoon because I am sad. I miss her like mad. I need to get it out of my brain and on paper. I started one and could not finish it. Not yet anyhow. I was doing dishes today and said this out loud. "I miss 'that' kind of love.." The kind of love Hunny gave me. I could do no wrong! She was never angry with me, disappointed in me or judged me. She LOVED me. Was always there. SHE was like my little shadow. Literally. I realized today it is so quiet because I do not here the little clicks oh her nails as she follows me from room to room. She is not jumping on the bed trying to lure me to nap and snuggle, she is not litting between my legs as I read my book in the living room, she is not under my feet as I draw, she is not following my every step out in the back yard while we look for balls in backyard for Tequila. She is not downstairs with me while I clean my baby's apt. She is not here. I AM MISSING HER. So from now on when you see the title Doing Dishes.. The cartoons are not always happy, but more to get it out. To have unconditional love and know it and then - it's gone. Then I had a bit of a light bulb moment...I thought of God. Trust in me as I trust in you. God Loves me. Unconditionally.Why is this so hard to remember. This is my goodbye Hunny. Tequila and Scruffy are missing her too. ;-( xox night  I never had a friend in Japan before until I met Yasunori. We met last year at the treating Yourself EXPO. He spoke very little English BUT I did get that they were from a small village in the "belly button of Japan". His friend makes the most amazing hand carved bongs. BEAUTY The hours that go into them the fact they are doing what they love and it brings them peace. They made me smile every time I saw them. I learned Yasunori loves cartoons and does acupuncture, natural medicine and very concerned about the Earth. We exchanged e mail address and we have attempted 2 e mail. He is fine but very sad about what is happening, the loss of land for growing vegetqbles. He thinks, like many of us this is the start of a serious problem. He is sad by what happened because he loves this place we call home and Loves that Amazing plant too, by the way ;-)
When are we going to get it? Hows that oil spill coming? WE can NOT forget We MUST learn, and we MUST try to make this place a better place. it's that simple ;-) Anyhow who knew I'd have a friend in Japan. I am so happy my friend is still alive. We will probably never meet again. I have good friends I've never met. Chuck, Sam, Beth, ones I only met for a very short time... Josh, Mona, Cindy. ALL over. We have to work together. PEACE World peace.. really .. BUT first PEACE of Mind. PEACE with each other. Im going to try really hard from this moment onnot to get pissed off at any of you! ;-) P.S. my next post will be a "Doing Dishes". These ones seem to appear when I am at my lowest. So DON'T read if you think it might make you sad.. Doing Dishes.... I miss the little click, click ... click, click of the little toenails. ;-( I just have to keep reminding myself .. This too shall pass... Although I'm still struggling with Hunny being gone, today I can't help but fell blessed. I woke up and was determined to draw. GET at it. This is the cartoon I am donating or our food bank, Kat (Kat's Gallery) is going to frame it and we are going to sell tickets for $2.00 ALL proceeds are going to go to the local food bank. As soon as it is framed I will make it official. I am blessed I have a gift I can share and even more blessed that I have the outlets to share it! The magazines, my www and FB. It is all meant to be. I'm not big on twitter.. The problem is I'd rather be drawing! Most days now someone purchases a comic on-line (today I got an order from Norway! How cool is that!? I have a fan in Norway. I get e mails from strangers telling me how much they like my strip. It has made someone smile , changed opinions and created the curiosity to look a little deeper. That is all I can hope for. It inspired me to keep going. It is all you can do. I am blessed. I have a home, food and people (and pets) who love me. So where ever you are - mentally, physically, if your having a hard time please remember... This too shall pass.... Have Faith! xox me  I finished the grate this morning.. All it needs now is it's protective coat. It was interesting paining this crusty King (King William). He is not the friendliest as you can see. He has come to life now surrounded by the greenery, I kept it simple and antiqued looking. My job was fun - what a talented artist who ever did the design- many many moons ago. While painting I do much thinking. It was on my kitchen table so I could walk around it as it is TOO heavy to move, letting Tequila and Scruffy in and out and them watching me paint. As with drawing I am able to lose myself in painting. Photo below.. one of those things that should be seen live ;-) it returns to it's owner on Wed. I went to bed last night and did NOT cry myself to sleep for the first time in over a week. Time. I'm going today to start another painting for me and I'm going to paint something positive and uplifting - My good friend Kat is going to frame it and I am going to donate it (sell tickets via my site and Kats Gallery) All proceeds will to to our local food bank. We are here for a reason. To make the world a better place. How ever you can you must try. As soon as the drawing is done I will post it. Another note.. My friend Cathy and I had a good cry. One of my best friends.. we walked the dogs many times over the past years. She loved Hunny as if she were he own. I get by with a little help from my friends. Thank YOU - You know who you are. xoxoxoxox  |
