In all seriousness…

I’m done.  I read an article in Frobes called “I’m Done..”, what  several women remark  “I’m done with..”  I say it often, but never as much as I have this past year and into 2017.
 I HIGHLY recommend the read, especially for young women.
I want to start the year off with my “I’m done..  “ list, as the sooner I am done, the sooner I can get on with 2017.

I am done with apologizing, first  - for letting people I care about, know.
How many  never say how they feel and never get the chance a second time around.
How few ever hear anything nice…   too often they hear the opposite.  I can’t help myself. 

I’m done with thinking anyone on this planet is ‘better’ than I am.
More skilled, talented, wiser, older, richer, poorer, educated, cultured, religious  - none of these makes us better. The only one I try to be better than is myself the day before - somedays are easier than others. 

Which brings me to the next, I’m done. I’m done sitting, watching and not saying a peep- IGNORANCE IS BLISS.  I try to at least get some thinking- even if my words are grammatically incorrect. I DRAW, read and learn.  When we turn a blind eye to Child Abuse (for example), all of society pays. Sooner or later.

I am done with living my life for anyone but myself.  Your opinion of me does not matter.  Have you lived my life?  REALLY,  have I lived yours? Do I really have a clue- about any of you - other than tiny specks I’ve witnessed over the years? No.  The same rule applies. 

I’m done with chasing people and will chase my dreams - when i think of the times -I’ve let - ‘others lives, drama’  & FEAR of their own failures get in the way of me and mine - I ONLY have myself to blame!  I’M done.

I’m done with letting others hurt me - allowing for an excuses -  booze, grief, pain, work, life - who knows…or ME hurting them out of fear and retaliation & PAIN. Yes, I’M done  (I can hear the sigh of some breathing easier) I’m DONE.   If you show any signs - you do not want me in your life, family or friend - I’m done.  

I’m done.
I have Faith in God.  Therefore I have FAITH in myself.
God will put  people in my life who are also deserving of my company, body, mind & heart.

I’m also done with working for free, this includes my HIGHLY creartive ideas & time. Done with terrible service. 
Done with accepting anything less.   I want MORE. 

It took a very serious illness for me to get to this point. I’m done apologizing for it

• it was a Premature Awakening that I am grateful for - with every passing day!

Frankly, no one is worthy of a nasty blog, we are all in the same boat. 
& I won’t waste my time, thought, energy when there is so much to acquire in this universe.  
Thrill seeing ahead.

I’m Done…   time to PAINT 

This year, chances are - I’ll still tell  a few people to ‘Fuck off’ but I will try to be nicer about it - then...  I’ll be done.  lol     

NOW, It’s time to focus on what matters,  for me that is drawing & painting about those who need some assistance or LOVE - because I can.

By the Grace of God *  < This  is for me.   I really don’t care what you believe in.
xox
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                                      Don’t tell me the sky’s the limit
                                when there’s footprints on the moon.

Painting, Audio book, green tea & cannabis = bliss.
In every brush stroke there is love. Take a close look at how many brush strokes ther are.
There are too many hearts to count. Peace signs, words and more.. the most intimate details are painted into the moon and then I layer on top color to intentionally blanket my love  
& to keep  these arts alwasy a part of myself.  
My love to the universe in paint.  My hope is the audience wants to look at every stroke with a curiosity & will in turn feel the love I put in, without even realizing it!  
Am I a dreamer - you bet...  & now it is time to move onto a bigger piece & turn that dream into a reality. It is just a dream in my mind right now. 
There are even actual constellations, hee hee  I'm proud of myself- that took some research!  The colors flow, no thought is needed as my hand goes to the pallet as if it has a mind of it's own.  Passion is what I'm painting... with every tiny stroke.

I hope everyone has a wonderful holiday with their desires coming true.    
What do you desire?

Me- I can't think of one object I need.  I can't really think of anything I want..
well - other than the house by the lake, surrounded by nature, moose,  mushrooms bear & deer.  lol 
I  do know what I desire. 
How about you?
If you do not know what you desire, how will you ever acquire?
So, write it down and put it under your pillow..  

In 2017,  I   your name here   desire:       *write it here & dare to believe.  
It will be the first positive step for the new year.
Know what you want.  Step one.  
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You will know my desire when it reaches reality in 2017.   
Now, that's the way to think!! 
Wait & see.
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Have Faith
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xox

Did I show you this cool painting I bought last year? By Adriel Restrepo.
He is on Facebook and his art is very affordable and it makes me SMILE!
This is what it is about! Create - MAKE emotions in others come alive! 
Right now.
​I am determined to make this year one of the best I've ever experienced! 

That list of goals here are a few:
- Take a new  art class every month.  (So far so good!)
-Try a new restaurant every month. - so far so good & my son said he will help me accomplish this task for 2016! 
-Pat (preferably sunggle- lol) an elephant... not sure how this will happen but, I am      determined.  I've patted a Dolphin.  Petted?    HUGGED! 
-DRAW/PAINT/DOODLE EVERY DAY!  So far so good.
-Take a painting trip this summer up North & PAINT in the wild in a cabin - just me and  Poppy.  A log cabin would be nice. Must look into this. 
​-Plant a raised vegetable garden!
-Learn a new dish once a month. lol  That is enough cooking time.
-Teach BBBird (how to sing 'Georgia' - Willie Style) so far so good.
-Explore more.
-Remember every single person you meet has hand in changing this universe so be MORE friendly!
-Send someone an original work of art every month. Big or small. Just because. 
   Send out the love you have been given! So far so good.
-Travel to the states to visit my friend Todd and a few others, possibly - *IF our $$$ does   NOT continue to drop! Kowabunga! Even with the price of gas- the exchange would be difficult. Luckily, we will stay and eat with friends! hahahhahahaa! Ready!?
-Tell people 'I love them'- Oh, I already do this - Good.
-Thank someone everyday! If they make you happy, smile- THANK them. Done!
- Learn how to paint better detail and take your time! So far so good.
-Be OPEN for all that God is going to send you this year! DONE!!!
-Encourage  young artists on instagram and send them originals.  Done.
- Pray, meditate, chant more. 
-NEW music! One new CD a month! Do you have a CD you want to send me? Please do! 
I'll trade you for a comic. lol  I love all EXCEPT hard rock, metal, punk. Techno.. electro.. hiphop.. hahhahhhaaa! I like it easy, relaxing & upbeat! 
- Open Etsy store...  almost. This will be our 'road trip fund'.  I figure.  ;)

Well back to it!
Thinking of this year, knowing - understanding - what I want the universe will do all in its power to help me accomplish! HOW exciting!  Makes me tingle with anticipation!   When inspired by love you cannot fail.
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Time to paint.

Please support artists like my friend Adreil, making us smile one 'Monkey Nova' at a time.

Believe 
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2016 is here. A year of Choice & Change.
The first song I choose to listen to today is Let it Be.  
When I find myself in times of trouble
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.

Let it be, we can't control much except really our own thinking. 
This year as you are aware was a year of pain seeping in and out from April on, with the death of Jim. I miss him. It is what makes us who we are, all I have to do is look at Elly & the kids to see how they have 'evolved' and watch as the love they have for each other - and us - keeps it all together.  We will STILL have times where our hearts will feel the sorrow.
Thats what hearts do. Jims heart still beats.
* Please continue to educate people who GOLF on the dangers of Golf carts. 
He saved others with his death, I've decided to choose - when my heart aches from now for Jim, to simply remember that smile and draw something.  I am so excited to see what the future holds for Sie & Logan, they are such wonderful humans - Give Thanks!  

​Every lesson is a Miracle from God.
That lump that was removed from the back of my neck was  from infection & I am in less pain now that it is removed.  Amen! The entire experience, I was not worried, I knew it was going to be o.k., know why?  - I have faith.
I was so calm, thinking back that entire procedure. I was in Gods hands & fear is incapable.

I told Linda just yesterday - I am thankful for what has happened to me - STILL...
it makes me tell people I love them! It is my purpose, lol  -how simple is that - it's not. 
I have found I am not met with the same response all the time & it's o.k., I get it. 
The biggest change for me in 2016 is I Choose NOT to apologize for some things- like telling people I love them. If I feel it- I'm saying it.  
It has brought jealousy, which kinda blows my mind - because I think - if you could see me- you would not be jealous.  
It has brought confusion...  I am not after anything.  I do not NEED anything.  Amen.
I send originals to people - and forget. lol   I just feel for whatever reason - some people deserve some extra TLC. & I can do it!  I can afford postage. Start there.

I'm done over thinking, if it is based on love I'm doing. 
OH, don't get me wrong-  I have my few - that I bug - well, I feel compelled, send a message - to the point I think 'Georgia - don't.  SCREW IT! I'm not doing anything wrong, only in others minds.  I have such wonderful friends, not many but those that are make me feel normal, special, loved. Little things they do and say- are HUGE, I'm not sure they get it - they are the ones  who inspire me even more to express the love I have and thank them for being Good Humans in a world full of not so nice ones. 
YOU know who you are - I TELL YOU. ;)  THANK YOU.
Just thinking of some of you puts a smile on my face!!!
I will talk more about those I love this year.

I won't apoligize for my health. It takes everyday with his condition to get up and CHOOSE to have the best day possible. In March I get my results from all the tests and the Dr.s have had enough time to discuss.. March is a month of incredible change for me and mine. The timing of events - Not my choice - is meaningful.  More in March.  
I am thankful for what has happened.  Everyday I am confronted with the thoughts of Death- I'm almost becoming death obsessed -  I am being shocked into reality literally, at least 20 'Doozies' a day.  I will never apologize for it again.
I choose in 2016 to EMBRACE it.  
What ever comes Let it Be - I STILL have the opportunity to choose how I live each day.

God has made it so I can sit here and draw, I plan on doing exactly that - with some crafting, painting & papermache! EVERY day ALL day! Wait and see. 
The start of every month will be with a drawing just like the one above...
A positive message and todays is perfect! 

I am not a body I am free, I am STILL who God created me to be.
Child of God you were created to create!!
GET BUSY!

 Believe < new word for 2016
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Today is a new day!
​I got up! Showered and cut my own hair - lol
I asked Storm "pick me up a pair of good scissors please, I want to cut my hair."
He brings me home  'Frisk Duct tape and Sticky stuff 'super scissors! LOL!  
I think they worked awesome.
Then, I went hunting for elephants!
I'm painting a saw blade for my friend Hugh.
How can anyone hunt elephants? Such Beautiful Beasts!  I want to touch one.
I'll add that to my list of goals in 2016.
I'm making a list and checking it twice!
Some things naughty and some nice!  ;)
I'll share it soon.

What will you create today!?
Oh, that card on instagram... I decided to give it away today. so - check out if interested.

Have faith
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