Most powerful this year was me being sick. Not knowing w.t.f it is and at times truly wondering several times a week if I will live to see another day. There is nothing like a little brain pain to kick start your life. Giving it much thought - even thought I tried very hard not to- but brain pain consumes and becomes a power where all I could do is focus on it. It has after all control of my entire body. But not my soul ;-))) Thank God.
I thought.. and thought... What would I miss? My mac * (Thank you Steve Jobs for sharing your gift)? My house? What have I not done or will not be able to do... NOPE - I was not thinking of any of that. I was thinking Oh My God. I love my son and my husband and need to be here for them. I have to get better. I love my son more than anyone on this planet ;-). With all he deals with mentally & physically, and how he handles himself I feel my heart want to burst as I type. He is my hero. My husband -for better or worse and - yep - LOL - I can be worse! He never ... stops loving me. How wonderful it is to know this. So God gave me the ultimate kick in the ass. Dr.s still don’t know what is happening. It does not matter. I woke up today to breath one more.. and if God wants it I will do the same tomorrow. I am done stressing about it.
In 2012 I will try to continue to make people smile and think- It is all I can do. It is what I love to do and my purpose in life. It is what brings me peace. I will also continue to try to educate about cannabis - a terrible injustice to humanity making people suffer over a plant. MY son’s medicine. I started to draw mostly for my son, but now I draw for many including myself. I try to put it plainly - so that LOL - I would ’get it’ - This chose me. I did not choose it. Cannabis Cartoonist? AND PROUD OF IT! As matter of fact - should I go - tomorrow (just pretent-hee hee) it will be something I am most proud of. Thanks to everyone who has said our story has helped and inspired and my toons made them smile. Better than a Hallmark card.. Oh wait! That was kinda cool!! A Hallmark card! A dream come true for me! A letter from Jeremy, A CD cover, More magazines, radio interviews 5000+ friends like & share my cartoons! I think I can continue to be an activist right where I am most comfortable - my drawing desk. My friend Mike reminded me only yesterday ‘the pen is mightier than the sword’ - I hope that includes pencil crayons and India ink! ;-)
So in fact, I’m grateful for my brain pain. Giving the push and strength and LOVE I needed to focus. Thinking back but looking forward - 2012 is going to be Fantastic! I can’t wait!! Stay TOONED!
Happy NEW year! xox <><
What do I want more of in 2012? Awareness ;-) xox
HOW? Plant the seed of Cannabis education !