I'm reading a book I picked up from the library:
The brain that changes itself.
Page 9 has me tearing up. This woman understands, I think to myself. Not yet finished the first chapter and I am excited - beyond. I'm reading things that sound like what I have been living with for over the past 5 years. I feel hope.
I was told Dr.s can't help me anymore. I guess what I was told was Traditional Western Medicine can't help me anymore.
New thinking can.
I was really excited about one Dr. and thought I'm going to e him! - only to find he had died :( Thank God he started and planted the seed he did.
Tomorrow I have decided to share a vid. I made for Dr.s to see what I am experiencing.
It is an attack that I get when just sitting. It is incredible pain, constant zapping and when done - I feel exhausted. It happens all day every day for over the past 5 years. It drives me crazy - I'm working, painting, drawing living and I have this constant poking in my head.
It also FEELS much worse than it looks. I have learned to sit almost still and ride them out, one because they are so common and 2 because I don't want my guys to see how bad it is.
Simple.
What stops me is VANITY. I was thinking - someone will turn me into a memee and it will be a FB funny. Oh well- Then, I am still making people smile. Right? lol
That can not/does not hurt me. What hurts is this constant zapping all day. Its 8a.m. I've been up since 6 and my face is throbbing - time to seriously start medicating.
This - has made me stronger.
The only fear I have is the fear of leaving my son/husband- I know that sounds 'selfish', but I also know Storm is a strong, smart and will be fine. He will do what he has to do. Norm never stops, Norm will never stop. ;)
It plays on me & how can it NOT!? I am literally zapped hundreds of times a day with a few doozies - that keep me wondering if 'today's the day'.
So, I'm putting it out there... tomorrow.
I'll include a link for you to see of what my daily life is like has been the past 5 years +
not for pity but to raise awareness. DID you know there are medications that cause terrible side effects that DO NOT GO AWAY. If anything - If I make people think- read the side effects - search for healthier alternatives - then that is the purpose.
Today is a warning I guess.
Some would rather not know or see. You see it could easily be... you.
That's o.k., You have to be where you are. xox
Today I paint my first bird!
I've learned I'm partial to passerines! LOL!
Today I continue to change my brain!
Today God gave me another day to have some fun!
Have faith xox
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The brain that changes itself.
Page 9 has me tearing up. This woman understands, I think to myself. Not yet finished the first chapter and I am excited - beyond. I'm reading things that sound like what I have been living with for over the past 5 years. I feel hope.
I was told Dr.s can't help me anymore. I guess what I was told was Traditional Western Medicine can't help me anymore.
New thinking can.
I was really excited about one Dr. and thought I'm going to e him! - only to find he had died :( Thank God he started and planted the seed he did.
Tomorrow I have decided to share a vid. I made for Dr.s to see what I am experiencing.
It is an attack that I get when just sitting. It is incredible pain, constant zapping and when done - I feel exhausted. It happens all day every day for over the past 5 years. It drives me crazy - I'm working, painting, drawing living and I have this constant poking in my head.
It also FEELS much worse than it looks. I have learned to sit almost still and ride them out, one because they are so common and 2 because I don't want my guys to see how bad it is.
Simple.
What stops me is VANITY. I was thinking - someone will turn me into a memee and it will be a FB funny. Oh well- Then, I am still making people smile. Right? lol
That can not/does not hurt me. What hurts is this constant zapping all day. Its 8a.m. I've been up since 6 and my face is throbbing - time to seriously start medicating.
This - has made me stronger.
The only fear I have is the fear of leaving my son/husband- I know that sounds 'selfish', but I also know Storm is a strong, smart and will be fine. He will do what he has to do. Norm never stops, Norm will never stop. ;)
It plays on me & how can it NOT!? I am literally zapped hundreds of times a day with a few doozies - that keep me wondering if 'today's the day'.
So, I'm putting it out there... tomorrow.
I'll include a link for you to see of what my daily life is like has been the past 5 years +
not for pity but to raise awareness. DID you know there are medications that cause terrible side effects that DO NOT GO AWAY. If anything - If I make people think- read the side effects - search for healthier alternatives - then that is the purpose.
Today is a warning I guess.
Some would rather not know or see. You see it could easily be... you.
That's o.k., You have to be where you are. xox
Today I paint my first bird!
I've learned I'm partial to passerines! LOL!
Today I continue to change my brain!
Today God gave me another day to have some fun!
Have faith xox
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Two of my loves. Man & his best friend. Doing what they love best.
