Storm was away.  He likes to camp and is fine with doing it alone. I am not so fine. LOL
Well, I think about him when he is in bear country, by himself hours from all..  he does have an emergency response thing - should the situation arise.  He had such a great time. I knew he would. it's in his blood. I never had a problem traveling alone. I drove myself to Halifax. ;) Traveled to Mexico alone and more.  
If you have to wait for friends, lives, jobs to align up - you miss stuff. If you can go... GO! 
This time he was joined by a friend. A fox.  He came to the camp several times, he seems as amused with Storm as Storm was with him. Just looking at his photos, it was the perfect trip.  
I read if you are in a forest and you ask a bird what time is it...  "Now" 
will be the only response,   animals don't care, they always just enjoy the now. 
I Am doing the same. Right now... I'm fine. 
I missed Storm of course, I'm just glad he is home safe! 
Adventures to share and planning his next fishing/camping trip already! 
Do what you love. That includes NATURE. If it feels good do it! 
I know he loves it- he did not complain once, about the lack of a musky.. this time.
LOL
I asked if I could share a photo or two:
xox <><

Where does it all go?  Sit and think for one minute.
All the medication that goes in our system eventually if it does not stick around and fuck - (alter) your body in some way.. it leaves via your pee.  Years ago a friend told me of the cancer medication she peed out of her system, how it turned the water a deep red and frightened her... and she like me, then started to think - well then, where does it go? 
Cancer medications where you can't have your husband in the same room as you, for 48 hours or it's toxic!? 
Sadly, I do know about this stuff first hand, because I have first hand friends that deal with this shit.  Forgive me, but I have had an emotional day mentally after attending my first support group for TN.  It only hit me after I retuned home and thought about it all afternoon.  Then napped in the sunshine with poppy for 2 hours ;) Amen.

You know what I heard a lot of, besides people -who I do think can relate- to my pain. 
That is strangely comforting. Is that strange?  lol 
One woman simply said: "You know when the dentist touches your tooth- and your not frozen, for a split second you want to go through the roof?"
Well that was a great way to describe it! 
I get that so many times a day I give up counting... no wonder I am exhausted. 
I will admit I was feeling.. defeated.  
To look around the room and not one person has Hemi facial Spasm as well.  

All very normal people, all have busy lives who suffer with TN, on top of life.
The topic of medication came up over and over again! Never good really. Except for me! 
I'm the only one in the room with positive side effects.  ;) 

Holy cow! Forget it, I'm not going on anything else! I Am keeping it natural. 
Rashes that leave you in the hospital and sick for weeks, throwing up.. the same stuff I hear and read about daily over and over again!! You know I get it, but 'I' don't want to play around with my liver or BRAIN or anything else if I can help it ever again. 

Storm pointed out to me a while ago we all have to learn to live with a little pain, some physical, some mental, some both. We still all have choices to make every day and many do it!! WITHOUT drugs.  When I hear of someone who is on an antidepressant I think of them as being 'on DRUGS'  and I AM thankful for that change in my mindset!
I AM grateful for that change in my mindset! 


What blew my mind or rather 'who' was this older woman, late 70's if I had to guess (I'm not really good at that though, and I can't remember names at all) she was sweet, her hair, makeup & outfit perfect! And it's an early meeting! She appeared 'to me' to be sleeping much of the meeting- Oh well, I saw it happen in church all the time.  
Well, at the end of the meeting  - who walks up to me and asks me about Cannabis? HER! LOL  Sleeping, she was not!  
How awesome, it puts a smile on my face now thinking of her.  I wished I had cookies! 
One for everyone in the bunch!! 
I know what these people are dealing with!  Yet, they all had smiles, and encouragement for each other, it was nice to see a few husband and wife teams. I think Norman is done. LOL He can join me next time. Not that I did not LOVE my friend Cathy's support. 

If not for Cathy, I would not have gone.  She was my driver. 
We had to be there at 9:30.  She attends mass with her sisters every Sunday.  So it was really nice of her.  It was our first drive on the 404! WOW! What a difference! It felt like we were there & home in the blink of an eye!  

I am glad I went,  it has given me much to think about. 
I will go again.  Nice to know I'm not crazy, alone, frustrated, "sitting crying in a corner"... which is very easy for me to do.  Who will it help? Will it make a difference? 
I refuse. WE have to keep busy! 
Maybe those medications are NOT helping you? 
Cannabis MIGHT! It might make you smile too! 
WE MUST keep busy. Learn a new hobby. Volunteer, DRAW! PAINT! 
KEEP BUSY!   & BE. ;) 
xox <><

I know my blog can be all over the place.. so is my mind. 
I know I'm making mistakes but I can't sit and re read. 
I pray my message is understood. It is all I can do.

More on TN as soon as I can . ;)

xox
<><

Storm turned 22 this week.  22.  
A smile crosses my face as I look at the numbers.
You all know why.
He is his own person and the person we know & love.  

Yesterday, my hand was visibly swollen with arthritis, I was icing it at 5.a. m. but for what ever reason, it remained like that all day. 
Without asking, our 22 year old son swept, vacuumed and washed the entire house floors.  As well as asking me if I needed anything, any help and continually making me laugh all day. 

Is there any wonder why my heart swells? I said "your cousin went out for their B-day meal -  to that 'dark restaurant' (Noir) or that other place, with flying lessons.." He said "Fine. I want to go to a place where we eat sushi off a naked woman."
LoL  Me: "Chicken it is!!"   Not a day goes by where he does not make me smile.
He did not want anything for his birthday - well yes, 'Im sure he would have loved a new boat and motor!  LOL  The only thing I could think of  was too expensive, I looked before -  'Somewhere down the crazy river'. By Jeremy Wade; Storm LOVES to read and I bet that would be the perfect book. NOT $300 for a paperback. One day perhaps I'll find a copy - a hidden gem in a  used book store! 
Gives me something to look forward to in the meantime. ;)  I did find him a much, more affordable book, I am sure he will enjoy. ;)

Not much else - other than the week is flying by... Poppy is in the paper for her appearance at the harvest festival! This toon says it all.  I love our 'girls' they too,  make us laugh daily.
We have had a few really beautiful days- It is hard to resist. I am sure I will have many weeks ahead of cold, crisp, Canadian air ahead to catch up with drawing. ;) For now - it's back out to nap in the sunshine.   

Fall is here and what a beautiful day it was. 
Yesterday I helped my friend Linda at the harvest Festival in keswick! it was a terrific time, I had the opportunity to spend some time with Linda's grand daughters- one of which is quite the talented artist, as well as pretty bright, I look forward to some cartooning lessons in exchange for some 'Instagram' lessons lol.  Poppy won 2nd place in the costume event! Woot Woot! 
In her little TuTu, tail all up in the air, she never barked at anyone,  was quite confident and curious about the horses/ponies..  she rolled in horse poop in her TuTu! 
O.M.Goodness! I mean come on how often does a girl get to roll in horse poop? 
I saw some friends I had bot seen in awhile and was grateful to the Kocky dog, I was able to medicate in the back, I'd rather not in front of kids.  I don't know how much help we were to linda in between horse carriage rides and face painting! LOL I am grateful she invited me regardless. I hope to next year have a table beside her.
Today, still exhausted I mostly puttered, played and drew.
A few photos... 

Another Pill, now suspected of worse side effects than what it was originally designed and used for. What else is new? But, IF it is responsible, they say after only 3 months of being on the medication can increase your chances of developing Alzheimer's  by 51% !!?

http://www.thestar.com/life/2014/09/10/common_sleeping_anxiety_pills_linked_to_alzheimer_s.html    

Watch, research and figure out for yourself  if you think this little pill that calm syou down now- won't be responsible for your loss of mind later.

What will you do?
Will you continue to play with your life?
 Your mind? 
Your future?

Some days I decide what to draw, other days the drawing decides for me!  
I was cleaning and saw this on the fish tank of all places!  The fish are outdoors for the summer - soon to come in and I looked at the tank! There was this toon! 
Inked. Not colored.  Screaming: Finish me PLEASE!  
Another of the ones I wish you could see as the white leaves are painted on with a thicker paint and really pop.  It was drawn to be a mental reminder to myself. 
These simple rules -when we remember to apply them can be life changing. 
They don't assume has eliminated so much drama from my life.

When my brain starts to take over; why did they not return the call, what is going on, Is she pissed at something I said..  lol we all do it. Well many of us do, until we try to tame the beast called brain.. 
I can see clearly now .. the brain is gone! ;D hahhahahaaa
So NOW I ask.  No more assuming. It drains the brain, creativity, passion and energy.
 I'd rather ask, find out and deal and/move on.   
Sometimes that's just what we do  MOVE on.  
Focus on what brings us peace and let all else go.   
The book: The 4 Agreements
http://www.miguelruiz.com/the-four-agreements-introductory-video/

My mom called at 9 and offered to take us for lunch for Storms B-day. We went to this great sushi place in Newmarket. You use an ipad to order and send and the food comes.
It was delicious. Everything - well  the soup had cilantro - I do not like cilantro.  I highly recommend.  The name...  Cynthia's Paradise.
We had a great lunch, Storm will be 22 on Monday! ;D
 
Tomorrow a cannabis related cartoon. 
xox <>< 

More FaceBook Fun

Friday I was up at 4! 
Wishing my guys well on a fishing adventure! They were off! 
Too much energy from the chatting, coffee and making sure all was got & not forgot, instead of reading I decided to log on to FB.  I could not.

On the screen appeared a box saying due to traffic, I had to change my page from a person to “Public figure”. I tried to back out, log off, re log in.. several times. NOPE, same box every time. 
I  proceeded as instructed.  5 a.m..
Clearly, I had no other option. I was relieved to see my page looked exactly the same with all my posts. But NO comments!  ALL gone!  ???
I am sure someone new to the page might imagine why. or how with no activity.  
All the conversations, comments, educational links others shared. GONE.
All the friends I have made over the years - some,  

I’ve actually gotten to know in real life - GONE.
ANY Private messages, Cartoon ideas - saved there, addresses, stories, links - GONE.
Messages from parents with sick kids..   gone and I don’t have any e mail addresses.

Frustrated I turned off the computer, only to arrive back a bit later to see I already had a couple of messages, asking what happened to the page and ‘was it personal?’ 
THEN -  I tried to connect with the person - who is ‘no longer a friend’ and when I visited the page - I see, I can no longer: Comment, Like  or even send people messages. :(
Not even to my son or husband!?

I tried to explain this to someone - only to be doubted. As you can see from the image below from a good - real life friend.. The option to even message is gone.

Oh well! Feeling incredibly frustrated again, I shut it off, sat back and breathed and went about housework.  6 a.m. 
Later I thought log on and see what happening... No news FEED? LOL!
COME ON! 
WTF! But then I realized, I no longer have ‘friends’ so I cant see what you are posting! Not only that, I can’t search!  I have no search window * something must be wrong

Well I felt really sad then... 
No Mykayla going to school- Can’t wait to see her first art project!
How is Rebel growing!? At the same time, I will admit to all of you - forgive me, but  we are close to Cashys anniversay of passing - I’ll never forget because it was the day after my surgery. His mothers pain tears at my heart. Only a mother must feel such a degree of sadness. So I was going to have to  NOT look ... it can consume me. NOT looking for me BTW does Not mean I am not thinking. What that beautiful baby endured only to die
 - yes, that is a “I’m pissed at that GOD!”   for me. 

I am dealing myself now, with an illness... well - you know. 
Last week Storm and I had a very serious conversation where he admitted to me that he does not think I am capable to go camping with them and why.       
He was 100% correct. I was in denial.  
Because of this condition  one minute I look & feel fine the next I am like a drunk staggering & my brain feels as if it’s doing the same thing inside. 
It’s just not safe, & he wants to fish -  I get it. ;)  
He is so good at it. It brings him Peace. 

So..  I take it a a sign. I am grateful for all of you that continue to follow, support
I will take hint from a friend who is on sabbatical and do the same. 
I will post, and then do what I am to do - draw.

Thankfully, I do have a few e mail. 
Several have helped informing a few of where my page is at. 
> Georgia Toons < on Face book.
You know what, it was a lesson. I am tired. I need to back off.   
People who want to contact me will. 
LOL - they will learn it might take a few days for me to get back to them... perhaps even a week.

I will try starting NOW to put up a blog every day! 
Up coming topics:
Cannabis Digest cover.
My first ‘support group meeting’ for TN Trigeminal neuralgia - I’m nervous. ;(
Cancer, children, Cashy and Cannabis
I have several projects on the go, will share take step by step photos of a few awesome crafts! 

I sent my best bud an e mail  the other day the subject line said:
I’m going to bombard the world with love starting today! 
and the fist line inside said: 
And I want you to remind me of that when I feel like telling it to go FUCK itself.

Thank you FaceBook for helping me get he message out, I am grateful and all of you who continue to show us support and yes, smile at my toons. It is what I LOVE to do and I'm gonna do it more.  
Thank you FB - I was content, Life is not about content. 
I need to do more and  see less.

I have to share - what a weekend! The guys came home! The boat would not start!  The truck needed fixed! 10 hours Drive  for nothing.  ;( 
But they went out again and and Storm was determined show Joe a MUSKY!  
LOL     I love this photo. I love my boy. 

I love this life. 
Twitch and all, I am blessed.

Sunday we had a trip to the city planned, visit a few stores and see a couple of friends.
I had it in my mind how the day would go.  It went another way.
Storm and I had a good day and did see some people we have not seen in a while,  & it was great to say Hello and catch up a bit.
But the day had an event that really stuck in my head. Enough to draw it.

I suggested to Storm that we find an outdoor patio so that I could medicate. Which was badly needed. Young st. was busy - what else is knew... the level of poor was new, to me anyhow. Everything you see in the cartoon is TRUE and more.  It was a visual smorgasbord!   

The color, the people, the noise were slightly overwhelming as it is but when we finally found an empty patio and had just ordered a coffee, was about to medicate, I heard this strange beeping...  you know s sound you know but are not sure where....

I turned to see a woman in a hospital gown, no shoes on her feet... walking towards us - with an IV pole - she was hooked up. The blood backed up into the line connecting to her arm.  The machine on the IV pole beeping! 

I instantly thought of TIFF and thought it might be some stunt.. 
She walked right where we were sitting, when an EMT worker pulled up beside her and started to question her. We were sitting right beside her.

He was nice and asked her where she was going, he said she had walked 5 km from a hospital?!  5 km and no one stopped her? No one asked her where she was going or what she was doing. ;(  The conversation continued and he expressed concern about the IV Pole  stating a few times “it’s worth about $3,000...  “  I was thinking - buddy - she is in her hospital gown in the middle of young street attached to an IV POLE do you think she was thinking about the cost?

Well a couple of police cars later... she had slid down the railing where we were sitting almost within touching distance.. she did turn and say “sorry”

I told her she had no need to apologize.  I felt bad for her. She was here from Alberta, no family, at a shelter and sick., She had a bad infection and was in the hospital to get better. It is great in this country she can be treated!  I get it bout the IV Pole.. but really? What has played on my mind is the fact that he got so far. How sad. :( So many people just ignoring everything. stepping over the poor liek they re trash on the street. 

I bet people looked at her  when she was not looking and they thought she must be crazy. Who is cray? THOSE who see and do NOTHING are the closest to mad there is. No compassion.

I did not leave, We sat there. I at one point thought the conversation might have gone differently if she were alone. The other officer made a point about asking her is she had been in trouble and  also the cost of the Pole.
Then they talked about how they needed bigger cars. 

An ambulance finally arrived and she had to go back. Back to where she was so very tired of.  I don’t have the answers. Better security at the hospitals?

This cartoon is full of mental illness. Alcohol abuse. Sexual obsession,  Shopaholics. The rich and the poor. People together but a great percentage alone.  Many on phones. Obese people getting more obese on the takeout  Blvd. as they stroll past a woman begging for food. 

Everyone in their own world. 
NOT.   

WE ARE here TOGETHER!  One day that might be you! 

What is happening to you Toronto? Not the city I know and loved. 
That could easily be someone's sister or mother. 
I talked it over with a friend who work in the city and she said “you see so much so often you just learn to turn your head.”

I don’t think that is what Jesus meant when he said ‘Turn the other cheek’.
Forgive us, for we know squat.  ;( .
xox <>< 

There is a sign of hope in the cartoon. Can you find it?

I was blessed yesterday by my friend Marie!  And what a blessing it was!
Marie makes Trifle. I met Marie through the parish many years ago. 

At functions Marie makes a Trifle.. 
I alwasy get the left overs for Norm and He loves it! 
Remember I'm not a great cook... 
Jello and I have issues, so I have never made it.

My friend Marie showed up yesterday to teach me how! 
It was awesome. I don't even need a recipe! 
I already know it and I can't wait to try another, perhaps one with oranges and chocolate! Nom nom!  We chatted, stirred, sliced, chatted.... went out for a tea in the gazebo and chatted some more. What a wonderful way to spend an afternoon. I always find Marie interesting and one of the most compassionate people I know. Marie educates me every time I see her,  of course shw also cares very much about our planet. I guess you could say we are tree huggers and PROUD! lol

I have several friends like this. They inspire me to be a better person.  
I can't wait to pay it forward the next time I have company and share a dessert made with TLC  for them! 

I was blessed with a visit from a  friend - who brought all the ingredients! 
Provided  a TLC treat that my guys have been more that thrilled  with! LOL  
I admitting had it for breakfast and yes, it is almost gone. 
I am sure it will be after dinner this evening! 

Share your gift. 

I needed it. I am thankful for it. 
I had quite an experience the day before in Toronto that I had been thinking about, so it was nice to realign the mind. More on that tomorrow...

 xox  <>< 

Several months back someone sent me a message questioning why ‘I did not have a donate’  button.  I replied I have items for sale, and he simply stated  - he wanted to donate to show appreciation for my talent and my education and was not about acquiring material items.

 I was kinda speechless.  It has happened several times since and after a long conversation with my guys I have decided to add a donate button.  

 I do not charge for my cannabis cartoons.  I don't charge for any.. unless I get custom orders.   My intention was and will always be - especially regarding the cannabis cartoons  to educate. Cannabis is a medicine for seriously ill children. 
Hopefully to get people thinking & become aware of the issues/problems surrounding Cannabis prohibition.

Until I became ill 5 years ago, I contributed to this marriage financially. 
We did quite well- I taught kids, in schools, painted murals. Once ill that changed and I could no longer contribute $. 
It is not a good feeling for someone like myself who is quite proud that.
I won’t say it has been easy.  It has been difficult and stressful.
As matter of fact I found out in January of this year - we were literally weeks away from losing our home.  By the Grace of God - that did not happen. 
Its complicated.  I do intend on sharing in hopes others might help others.

There is nothing like a little surgery in the brain area to help you get your ideas in order. 
Successful or not. ;)  I have a new song I hum.. "I can see clearly now the brain has gone... "  lol  I crack me up.
When I arrived home after that surgery the first thing I asked my son for (a week later when I could)  was my drawing board!!! 

Money? Thankfully I'm still her & Money did not buy that, God an and a great surgeon did.
Money can’t make me better. Money won’t heal my son..
But yes, it does release some stress and make living a little more comfortable.

If you would like to donate - I appreciate it very much, and am deeply touched.
Please DO not donate if  YOU cannot afford it.
Just send us some loving vibes & prayers are always appreciated! 
I know the stress that comes with having no $ and that is the last thing I would want to contribute to anyones life.

As it is, for NOW - God has blessed me so that I can stay home and draw! 
I will continue to do so, donations or not as long as I can! 
xox
Have faith.   <>< 

To Donate. 
Go To the 'Donate' page.  :) 

I Love to READ.
It is a luxury I have experienced 'not' being able to use the past few years, off and on.
A GIFT I have decided, so I read every morning. 
Something positive. 
Set the mood for the right mind.  
I just finished and throughly enjoyed The Shoe makers Wife. 
Thanks Carm! xox I love a good book referral! 

I am currently reading A New Earth  By Eckhart Tolle.   ;) 
My mind has to read it over a couple of times at times! LOL  
I Am inspired and enjoying. 
Clearly, this Laughing Buddha appeared after reading it yesterday morning. 
As I was painting it I kept thinking of my friend Jodie.
She has helped me...    become conscious.  

I wish you could see it in person. I can not scan it 'exactly'.
It has special Gold paint that you see in the fire that rises up to the stars.
And the sky looks funky here - "oh, bother..."  lol
I don't care and neither will Jodie. 

The quote.. is true. In my opinion.  ;) 
Amen.

Have Faith <>< 

Oh,  I read FLUFF!!  
LOL My friend Cathy wonders how we can be friend with the 'stuff' that I tell her I read- much of it for 'work/inspirtion' can be from political to plant life.  BUT in BETWEEN I read Fluff!!  My next is a book from Cathy about the beach and love..  sounds like good stuff fluff to me.