How do I start my day... reading the bible. The best self help book to ever hit the shelves. Everything you read in most books now has already been covered.  What does it boil down too? LOVE.  
Recently someone commented "you're different since your surgery."  It was directed in a negative sense.    
It got me thinking of course, and yes, I am different since surgery.
A surgery that was not a success, I am still not well, struggling, get exhausted very easily and  frankly - tired of things  I could seem to tolerate 'before'.  Before I lost faith in modern medicine, before I started to research, before I had time to ponder 'the little stuff'. Before I took the small things, like going for a walk for granted...  
I am different since I let them open me up and go inside. 
I feel different in every sense of the word. 
How can something so extreme NOT change your life?
I know life is short, I am reminded of it several times a day.  
I am reminded that the most important words are words like: I LOVE you! 
WE ALL want & need to hear it! IF not from a stranger then ourselves!  Reminded that someone LOVES us THIS MUCH! Even if that someone is no longer with us....  
I am human, I get disappointed, I have bad days I may seem different but my love is still there for those I choose to share it with...   THIS MUCH!!
I AM different but my love is even stronger for those that I care about.  
Today tell someone 
I LOVE YOU THIS MUCH!!   
I know we forget and they forget...  to say it, REMIND them and yourself! 
xox <>< 

I LOVE YOU THIS MUCH!!!

It has been almost a week already! Since 4/20 and the day @ Conspiracy Culture - I can’t tell you the number of times the week has come up in conversation, mostly between us three.  So many  “little’ things happened, that have had such a huge impact on us.  It wa by far the ‘richest’ 4/20 we have as a family experienced to sate. Tt was also Easter and  me personally, I was struggling with conflict, promote cannabis education on Easter ! He is Risen! ;) What would Jesus do? 

NO doubt, shake his head at all the insanity.

Then, all you had to do was be there.  I will not apologize - I am truly grateful for each soul that came that day  but Jamie... when he walked in with that Big SMILE and Easter goodies...  when he opened the cartoon, the excitement still rings in my ears with the laughter and pointing to everything in the drawing! I had to choke back tears! WOW! 
Then to top it off *Kisses from Poppy. 

It was all ‘realigned’.  I had friends show up and draw, that I never imagined would. 
We laughed, Had cookies!  Took breaks to medicate and I chatted. AS ALWAYS not enough time to just sit and chat with many.  

One gentleman said he drove to hear and meet me, I said - "oh we had a bit of a drive - we came from Keswick,"  then he said    “I drove from Sault St.Marie.”  
 My jaw dropped! I asked him if it was worth the drive and we started to laugh, he assured me it was.   His son is having issues, such a dilemma for so many of use because WE CARE for those we love.  When our child (at any age) is suffering we do also as parents, he son struggling with schizophrenia issues and prefers cannabis over other meds. but there seems to be so much  involved - THERE IS!! So much involved for so many of us.  Who is ANYONE - including Dr.s who spend only ‘fractions’ of our REAL lives with us?  I don’t think I did help him, I only shared an opinion. 

I met a woman who had questions, but her English was not that great, to make a long story short - we talked for a while and at the end of our conversation I hugged her. It caught her off guard - and me - her reaction of tearing up. Only to tell me I was her first hug since she came to Canada. Nothing to do with Cannabis.  HUGS.

A very old friend - just the sight of her warmed my heart, our timing still not meant to be though... lol  she was arriving as we were leaving, and we were all very tired by this point.

I met new friends and was surrounded by old,  I actually got to meet face to face a few FB friends! How awesome.  and yes... I had a gentleman show up and give me some RSO and a vial of cannabis glycerine!  Smiled... then he left.  I hardly had time to thank him, I felt like a doofus. I will say I am VERY thankful. It’s been a difficult week, physically.  How incredible is that? 

"I want to help you feel better."   Simple.     IF ONLY.
I am already drawing for some new little children, next a little girl in Ontario. 
I felt so blessed as we drove home and following and still do... Storm is here. 
We are here. All we can do is keep going.  
As usual the day had a most excellent lesson  
The day was definitely all about quality & not quantity. 

One of the neatest thing for me to hear  was my guys took a stroll with Poppy in her little pink dress on the boardwalk! The days was so beautiful! Storm said there were lot’s of smiles! LOL I bet.   It was a day I will fondly remember for a long time.  

 PLEASE  ASK yourself one thing today:

Is my lack of Cannabis education/support hurting anyone?
Then look at the photos below.  
Jamie is already dealing with enough, as is his family. 
He just wants to be a kid. He just want to feel better. 

Not pot heads, not drug dealers. 
People who care about people. 
How blessed was this Easter Sunday for me and my family
 - all about giving, and it’s never felt better.  
xox <>< 

When I read about Powdered Alcohol being approved in the USA I thought it was a joke.
I looked at the links and still thought it was a joke.  An Onion perhaps?   
I then went to the companies WEBpage.. No joke.  
It should be.  

YEP, the U.S.A approved Powdered Alcohol - Making the world a better place every step of the way.. SIGH.  

http://globalnews.ca/news/1284210/five-things-you-need-to-know-about-palcohol/
"It’s a fact that Canadians love their alcohol. According to a 2012 Canadian Alcohol and Drug Use Monitoring Survey (CADUMS), 78.4 per cent of Canadians consumed alcohol over a 12 month-period and risky alcohol consumption, common in under-age youth, young adults, and males up to age 54, is on the increase."        DRINK UP!   

Americans are having to MOVE to different states to HELP save the lives of their seriously ill/dying children to access CANNABIS, A MEDICINE the USA  DOES acknowledge has all sorts of  healing properties- (including CANCER, they even took out the patent on it years ago),  yet POWDERED ALCOHOL  is about to hit the market. 
WOW. 
Imagine the possibilities.  
It makes me sick to my stomach.

Clearly someone was BOUGHT. As usual. 
I'll be paying VERY close attention as to what and WHEN Health Canada decides.

We don’t have ENOUGH BOOZE? One coming to every local corner store  near you!  I noticed on his site he has ‘reviews’ from organization like M.A.D.D,.  but NO actual links.  Go figure. It goes on to tell of the endless possibilities including sprinkling on Food!  A whole new way for pedophiles to ready their prey.  FACT.

Oh, BUT don’t SNORT IT! It also said in the web site - but know, there will be those that do.  It will happen, It will be a bigger problem that it already is. 
Alcohol/powdered alcohol... People will continue to die from it, kids will abuse it - so will many  more adults.

 ONE MORE REASON CANNABIS is STILL ILLEGAL. 
 The competition want’s it that way.  

CHEERS. 
xox <>< 

I have the heart on the mind. The physical one, not so much the love one. 
How emotions can cause your heart to  feel  physically crushed. 
The things we take  for  granted and how easily it can all change... in a heart beat.  

If only we all had the opportunity to truly use our passion. What makes our heart beat a little faster with happiness and excitement.
Where you lose yourself and feel at peace. 
I am very aware of my heart beat. I know what makes it tick and I know what makes it feel crushed.  Now to avoid the later... well that would be the trick .;)  Impossible.

My heart beat a little faster today thinking of the show on Sunday! (We are very excited) 
I guess, triggered by posting I'd be answering  questions about Cannabis, happily... but with each time comes the  re-opening of  old suffering and reminder of possible fears.  So be it. IF it inspires one parent to research and ease the suffering of one child. Or even an adult that is now on harmful, addictive narcotics - that could be helped by something else - Fantastic! 
Really? What more could we possibly hope for. ;) 
So - when I get e mail from parents  and adults concerning themselves, thanking me for the inspiration. I feel so blessed you  have no idea. AND humbled. I hear many sad stories.  Each one makes me stronger to defend that only makes sense with each day
- IT IS A PLANT PEOPLE!!! ?  
Let's focus on the drugs & social problems causing our kids to go nuts instead of helping them.  Thinking about the kids in Calgary today too, stabbed by another student.  ;( 
 END the bullshit! Not  hurt those already suffering  and focus on REAL criminals!!

So - when in control - make every beat count. 
What are you waiting for?
See You Sunday!!! Conspiracy Culture!! http://www.conspiracyculture.com/events_CultivatingCompassion.htm

xox <>< 

Today was a new day. I was up at 5 and the second my  feet touched the floor I remembered the floor! Woot! Woot! The floor is done. Remove off HunnyDo list.  New Day. I was still kinda quite I'll admit this a.m.. Norm  made breakfast and  reminded me, he loved me. His way of saying I'm sorry. & The floor is awesome. I don't enjoy  arguing, not to mention the physical toll it takes an anyone and everyone. Even the dogs clear the way. 
The sun came out! Storm and I took Daisy & Poppy for their first real walk together and they did really well! Poppy a bit yappy.. will work on it. 
I cleaned my bedroom all day! laundry away! Hung some art and reven squeezed in a nap in the zen den.

I'm thinking of painting a sign to hang....  Get ER DONE!  I'll paint it cute with Scruffy and a hammer and Norm will be motivated!  Now,  thing is I'm not about to let up.. don't start me on the stairs!!! GET ER done.  I want to relax, I know Norm wants to relax but it's not about to do it it self and quite simply... he started it.  The moral of this story. Stuff gets said, too bad, GET ER DONE!! 
A few photos of our new day.

LOL I also thought of the young man that made the comment and why I was so upset... I painted Disney Babies in his room, I still remember those BIG blue round beautiful, happy eyes.  I guess I expected him to say - "I Never  got to thank you, I did not speak back then. I liked those Disney Babies..."  LOL. I am a nut. We moved  just when they were still infants. I thought it was a year - It seemed that way I guess because his mom and I were so close during pregnancy. <3 I remember it very fondly - A cream pie and 2 forks.   I don't know what I expected. Not what I got as usual. He was probably  just grumpy. 
Forget about it.
About what?

xoxo <><  

Yesterday I had the pleasure of visiting Toronto - Yorkville to be specific, to see a friends art exhibit! My best friends sister, sent me an e mail asking if I'd like to join her to see Kyles work only days before.. so I though why not!  Glad I said YES!
It was a beautiful day, the sun was shining! Kelly drove,  I just sat, admired the view and chatted away! I was excited as Kelly is a teacher and I wanted to talk about stuff I had seen on PIN recently and a few other ideas. We talked about all things and  she was also educated on the medical side of cannabis although has never  needed or used... how refreshing.  
I asked Storm to roll me 3 joints and had my DaVinci,  just in case. I medicated just before the show - met 2 nice gentlemen in the 'smoking area; with me ;) We exchanged a few good words and a laugh. I love meeting strangers. Then into the Gallery!  

Kyles work is in all the outside windows as well...            Wow.  
Hard to believe, when ever I am at a loss for words. 
It really MUST be seen to be appreciated to the fullest. The detail, direction, power and peace it makes me feel is strange. I WOULD sit and stare for hours. It pulls you in and you find yourself wandering and wondering.  I know they represent buildings and I am NOT a fan of 'city living' but I find a sense of calm - the colors excite me. I wish I could afford one, ONE day!  I did not touch, as tempted as I was.

I do believe in owning original art. 
You'll never hear, "Oh, my 80 year old aunt has that one over her sofa too! "
You are supporting a PERSON directly. Encouraging an artist to continue - hopefully.
Inspiring others by sharing your art and more. Every piece, I wonder... how long did that take, how did they do that? What were they thinking? Feeling?
 I've included links below to Kyles FB page  you can find out when the show is running, with a link to the Gallery. Also photos of the day.
We then, all three walked around Yorkville, again Kyle is one of those guys that knows all sorts of interesting facts and never fails to amuse. I had no idea all the art, just in the one area. Can't wait to take Poppy in the summer. ;) I wished we had longer but the idea was to beat the traffic and we we did! 
I have included photos below.  I am thankful for the day, the experience and getting to see Kyles work up close! Inspired? YOU BET!!! A new laughing Buddha on the drawing board as I type. Posting tomorrow. 
BTW - I was not HIGH, I was able to walk around Yorkville and enjoy the afternoon, medicated.  NOT, it would not have happened and yes I feel it today - so what ;) I am extra sore but it was worth it. 
xox <>< 

KYLE on FB : https://www.facebook.com/pages/Kyle-Clements/134084013295096
Kyles www page - link to the gallery also :  
http://kyleclements.com/contact.html