For the 50 shades fan..  
I did not read the book but I've read some of the lines from the book on PIN.
Hee hee

Well we have SNOW and more snow.
It's been the kind the past few days that remains on the trees- every branch, it's stunning to wake up to such beauty - a blanket of snow - it makes me want to stay under the blankets some mornings.  Poppy goes out to pee and runs back in- her extent of winter adventuring. 
Once again- on these mornings - I'm up - listen to 'Biggy'- started my day- lol, stretch and smoke a BIG FAT JOINT - my bones ache  with this snow, my wrists today need a little extra TLC & THC before I start to paint.. Thanks to cannabis I can.  
​Apparently in the city- they have no snow. frig. lol

I'm painting two bears in an embrace of LOVE in the garden, it's one of my best loved to date.   It's been a challenge this month of painting 'love' so far...   I'm not in love. 
I don't feel 'loved'.  Not like that.   It is what is. Right?  lol      
I'm not alone.
You are not alone in being alone this valentine days.  Remember that.
Millions do not have someone to celebrate 'V day with. 
Love yourself.

It really is just another day on the calendar.
If You love someone you'll send them a card any day, tell them ANY day. 
As a cartoonist and artist -tuff luck butter cup- suck it up and do your job.
The fact that  my bears show such love- I have in my heart.. is enough.
My bears tomorrow.

Have faith
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Me & the Jays.. Blue Jays! I have a family, but I can never seem to get great photos of them.. so today I had the idea... Set up the camera- and go away. lol
I set up my iPad on the windowsill, made my coffee- and went to read my morning email! ;)
Coffee finished I went to check & the peanut bowl was empty!
​I must have got some on film!!?  Check this out:

I am beyond thrilled for my bluejays!  What a way to start this day..  Time to paint! 
I paint acrylics standing, sometimes I get so lost in painting I forget I'm standing.. I could be floating..- ideas come into my head without thinking about them, always good thoughts... some better than others.
Hard to believe they could get so good, so real sometimes..
no wonder I cant wait to paint. lol

Do what you LOVE and the rest will follow
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Have Faith 
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My big bluejay is ready to hang.. you can not see it but it is packed with words. symbols and more. Almost every branch has a word in it. Words for me to remember. Not a peanut but a cannabis nugget, it helps save lives. With the FULL, OPEN, wide beautiful blue sky- get ready to soar!  
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Animal symbolism of determination, assertiveness, and intelligence is also a shared trait among those who claim the blue jay as their totem (and also common attributes with those having the vocations above listed). We see these characteristics in the blue jay because it is fiercely bold against its enemies. 
The jay is fearless when it comes to protecting its partner, young and territory. So too are those with this animal as their totem. They will defend their positions against adversaries who seem much more powerful than themselves - often with successful results.
Blue jay animal symbolism resonates truth, faithfulness, and solidarity because they are vigilant in their tasks. They also keep the same mate for life, which is symbolic of endurance, patience and loyalty. The jay is an excellent symbol for those wishing to honor their long-lasting bond between friends, family and lovers.
In the spiritual realm, the blue jay speaks of clarity and vision. In Native American symbolism (namely the Sioux Nation) the azure of the jay against the blue sky indicated a "double vision" or double clarity. This visual/spiritual "blue on blue" concept speaks of purity of the soul, truth of the heart, and clarity of thought. 
In dreams the blue jay animal symbolism also deals with clarity - but of higher thoughts, and taking action. When we dream of blue jays our deeper selves may be telling us that we are not being honest with ourselves about something, and it's time to "come clean" with our thoughts. Blue jay's in dreams are also symbolic of taking action in the direction of our highest truth. The jay asks for honesty, and forthrightness - any other action taken (such as deceptive or dishonest action) will mean double jeopardy for us in our waking hours.

These spiritual and dream impressions are especially poignant because the jay is an air animal totem. Creatures of the air naturally symbolize the realm of thought, higher ideals, spirituality and the attainment of higher truth.
The Sioux also observed the jay preferring fir and oak trees for their homes and nesting areas. These trees are symbolic of longevity, endurance and strength, and so share the same animal symbolism with the blue jay.
This is not to say the jay is persnickety. On the contrary, the blue jay animal symbolism includes aspects of opportunity and advantage because it will make its home anywhere. From supermarket awnings, to mailboxes, the blue jay is extremely resourceful and makes the best out of its environment. Those with the jay as their totem are likely to be the same way. Generally easy-going, jay people are able to make a turn situations around to their best advantage, and make awesome lemon aid out of the sourest of lemons.
Blue jay's are vastly curious, stopping to peck at any shiny thing that catches their eye (much like crows and magpies). Those who resonate with the blue jay will also find themselves equally curious. Indeed, blue jay people have are always dabbling in new directions, gathering new insight, and slaking their curiosities. These people tend to be a jack-of-all trades, knowing a little bit about seemingly everything. This makes them fantastic trouble-shooters and quite resourceful (not to mention fascinating party guests).
Article from:http://www.whats-your-sign.com/blue-jay-animal-symbolism.html

On a positive note.. after the foray yesterday and a trip to burger priest- Storm & I went to Currys art supplies- for more- CANVAS & PAINT.  I have resolved- for those not aware to focus on painting... I'm even considering a shack in the woods, surrounded by nature to do so!!!  It's time for me to seriously focus on what I love to do the most what brings me  peace...  nature & painting.  Simple.  When God blesses me with the opportunity to do so... I'll say:  Yes! Thank you & Let's Go!!

I hope you enjoy my bigbluejay! I know I do.
What is your favourite bird? look up it's meaning you might be surprised. ;)    
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Have Faith
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This is the biggest painting I've worked on in a long time, it feels good, my arm a little sore today. The idea is, it is mine to hang in a new place... remember what I was feeling & thinking while painting it and ENJOY it.

I enjoy painting it so much, I went to bed with my sketchbook,  numbering where I wanted to apply 'what and the colors'.  The sky has 40 large white hearts painting in it- only Storm and I saw them. It's all that matters. 
I'm intentionaly painting love with every stroke!  
It feels fantastic.

I've read some interesting facts about the beautiful bluejay, the meaning of when 'it visits.'  I'm still mesmerized on my bluejay visit I had -I can't wait to paint the eye.
Those sweet eyes looking at me calmly with trust.  Reminding me to do the same.

Do what you love.
Only a few items of importance in the new nest....  ;)

Have faith
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Yesterday  I was sitting outside getting some sun, I add nuts to the feeder then I sit out there and have my tea.. when I came back inside I saw a friend sitting on my kitchen table - a Bluejay! Of course it was frightened and it started towards my kitchen window - I reached out and grabbed it!  I' have 'Bird' to thank for my bird catching skills (hee hee hee _ I grin with pride)  I guess because I couldn't believe it myself & it just got calm.  Like I said I do this to bird all the time and at first he would shake.. until he knew I meant him no harm, now he likes it.. this Bluejay was so calm for one second started to panic.. then it looked at me, right in the face and calmed down, looking at me.. its beak was open and I wondered if it would bite so I gently rubbed it and it seemed to like this.. I rubbed its head feathers and it leaned in.. I could not stop smiling! I walked  up to my office to get my camera.. it just looked at me. 

I took some photos... I am so glad my hands were warm, I can tell you it's a strange sensation to have a bluejay claw around one of your finders. It was a powerful yet gentle grasp, big enough so my finger could have been the branch. Wow. 
As I spoke gently to it looked and blinked and did not try to escape once.
We walked out to the back deck, and opened my hands and it was gone, I can still see it leave my hands.. as though a perfect scene from a movie. 
Not long after I'm sure the same bluejay visited me at the deck feeder it sat there and just looked at me...  picked up 3 nuts before deciding and left. 

I have this big black canvas waiting... as I finish the 3 cats today I'll be thinking about my next bluejay painting. I want it to be allegorical, only I'll understand it's meaning, I started one of Scruffy in a boat earlier in the summer & decided to not continue. It was full of meaning, meaning that can stay in the past. 

After I research bluejays, symbolisms & facts I'll start to sketch. I'd be lying if I said my bluejay encounter didn't feel like a blessing. I'll admit holding it  -for one second -sorry, but I thought of John Jame Audubon who I found out watching a documentary- killed and used the dead birds to draw from, which made them so incredibly accurate.  
No.   I could never do it.  There is no need now, so many photos are available- I've taken 100's of bluejay photos! 

Letting it go, the dogs were in shock! I think, they thought I was faking it!?  I was so calm -the bluejay was so calm.. when it left my hands all their eyes (7 in total) including the cat- bulged!! It was comical- then they looked at me like WTF was that!?

Time to finish King of the Jungle & imagine good things - cause they make me smile! 
Have a great day & remember miracles happen ALL the time.  Big & small.  
Open your heart and watch what happens.

Have Faith
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'My mom asked why I had not painted a 'Robin?', being my middle name.  
It's on the list. Along with today- cleaning my office and painting room, again.
Starting to draw the cover for Cannabis Digest- I lay all the past issues I did on my bed last night and choose what I liked out of each one- and shall combine them for the next!
It's exciting! 

Getting ready to hunker down for the fall and winter months ahead.
I am also looking into moving  so far - up North- Halliburton looks good.
Do you know of a small Canadian town you love, close to water?
Let me know..  I must be close to water.
Not* B.C., I'm more of a PEI/Nova Scotia sort of person.
I'll have the winter to research all I need to know.

Today, one of my favourite birds- huge  beasts when you see them in comparison to house sparrows, some big enough make me think they might air lift an unexpected Poppy if not careful! lol  It is in the 'details stage..' (kinda like me) I'lll share it tomorrow with the new cartoon on  Human Trafficking.
Ravens represent change and there is much change happening. Inside and out.
I ask for patience for me and from you, while I focus on what I need to do.

I have my first cartoon with a new perspective on the drawing desk (try to bring awareness for better education to HELP anyone I can),  the Raven Queen is just my mental warm up.  
I must apologize to a few patient post card- expectant recipients...  Opps! I found some with a comic or two that should have went out- ONLY to fall behind the dresser they were sitting on!!  Mail is soon on the way!  

What is an important issue for you?
How will you take 'one step' to bring awareness to it today?  
Start a conversation, write a blog, write to  your MP... PM, an editor of a local paper.
Draw about it.  Make protest sign -even if you only  carry it for one day!  
Join a group  supporting the same cause you are concerned about.
Research more- and try to find out what you can to to help bring about some sort of change.

Anything - beats nothing every time. 
Have faith
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The universe brings people together everyday and the internet has made it all that easier.
I am grateful, in a short amount of time I made a friend  'Justin'.  Anyone who knows me knows - I am persistent,  when I get a  good vibe about a person-  I want to know more.
I want to surround myself with good vibes in life an on line - why not.
Those who make me smile and feel 'lifted'.  
Today, Storm and I were treated to a tour around a huge nursery - Humber Valley  Nursery in  Toronto by our new friend Justin.  How wonderful it was!  

Medicine for the mind, eyes & soul right here. Justin has worked with plats forever and you know it, Storm and I have talked all afternoon about things Justin said... little tips, information, fun facts - it was endless - I wished it had been.  
Already looking at the photos I wish I was back at the garden - it's o.k. we brought some home with  us!  Justin also sent me home with a 'Teasing Georgia rose Shrub!'
 Hee hee hee.   I'm so excited to watch it bloom & we each came home with a little cactus section- we were looking for some time- and to hang out in the 'tropical room'- GO! 
I wished I was closer I would bring my water colors! Orange, banana and lemon trees! Nut trees, herbs, grasses- pond stuff- I could wander in there for hours. The feel the smell, colors- energy - plants. medicine, life, inspiration. For the next few days Im painting cacti! I already have one in mind 'with bird.  I know why Justin is such a pleasant person, working with plants his entire life  has rubbed off on him. ;)  

I knew Justin was a fan of my art work and I see he has  his friendly feline posted on Instagram  so I decided very last minute to paint him a gift to bring to say thank you for the tour - I am so glad I did!
As with all work I put much TLC with THC into all I paint.  
I just knew Justin was going to be a really interesting, nice,  person.
How terrific when we get that vibe. I am thankful. I needed it today.
The plants. Spending the day with Storm walking around- surrounded by gifts of life- nature- plants and Justin. Today was a great day.
Poppy enjoyed herself as well, you know I forget about her- unless she stands on my leg to remind 'I'm here.'  Thankful.

Believe
xox
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Im feeling angry, yes probably about Jim, how fucking unfair this life can seem some days,
good people go and 'scum' remain to torment and torture. Last night we watched netflix- a crime FBI show..  more or less to pass a bit of time as we unwind, usually the 3 of us watch TV together - since we do so little - and we vote, we all must agree or we do not watch.  I will say I've gone 'off' of horror and violent movies and  Norm and Storm are going along with, thank God.  During the episode the police officer said over 600 women are dumped along the highway every year in Texas alone. WTF?  Can this be true?? So I did a tiny bit of research .. it's true and worse.  It's terrible. 

I'm suffering from PTSD (thank God for Cannabis) - First I'd would like the opportunity for a class acton law suit against Stephen Harper next  I wish women everywhere would start a class action lawsuits against the judges that let  ANY violent attacker against women OFF & then  'JUDGES' the women- how they dress, text messages, - WERE they there? DOES any  old man understand texting? Pressure and  being  woman.   Being a woman is not easy.
Do you know out of EVERY 100 attacks only 6  'SIX' are reported.
​Why - because women once attacked are never the same. FEAR has enterer their life forever.  I was 'date raped' with a drink - I knew the person - we worked at a car dealership together, he convinced me to have a drink with him  - 'put our differences aside', I was NOT fond of him to say the least - he was everything I did not like in a man, winey, huge ego, pretty boy, mindless jock - I woke up in his bed the next day and remembered NOTHING after I had that fucking drink. ONE DRINK.   I woke up and answered 'his phone' a couple of times - thinking the caller had the wrong number.. because I THOUGHT I was at home in my own bed alone- very hung over. When  I rolled over and saw him I was sick to my stomach.  I was NOT a slut, I was out to have a nice evening. I was  abused by a cock who lost control and a SNEAKY one at that. 
I've blogged about it before. I met him years later! - I had Storming his carriage- do you know what he said to me: "Hey, I still have one of your earrings!!".  
Years later & the disgust returned, the GUT feeling that told me he was  a SHIT person and I was right. How many more women did he do that to?  MamaBear kicked in and I told him - 'keep it - I certainly don't need the reminder of the biggest mistake of my life"  and walked away. I never called him on it. I should look him up today and fucking say 'hello' - I'm not who I was thats for sure. It' in the past.  He can no longer hurt me, I understand what HE did...
HE lost control.  
HE is the one with the problem.  He is the bad example of a human being.
He needed to control his cock. 

If a cock was in the city and it lost control and did what ever it wanted. It would quickly become soup. A bird. YET we have  humans that have such little respect for others- they drug, beat, rape and abuse and kill women as if they were no more than an object to use and discard. It must stop.
That was just one  attack in my lifetime - I had another , and many tiny ones, comments, remarks from former bosses- it was NEVER ending... because I was born with boobs.
Do you have a daughter? Sister.. wife? Mother, grandmother?
They are all candidates for rape, for COCKS who can not control themselves.
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Belive
xox 
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A little lighter topic tomorrow - Gifts!  Gifts of love and art and more..

I had a blog..  suff. 
It suddenly felt like too much to proof read.  

The meaning of life is to find your gift.
​The purpose of life is to give it away.
- Pablo Picasso -
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Believe
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Dream drawing job or not... on Sunday I paint what ever I want.  
This morning I was inspired by a deer looking back at me from my PIN page.  
As you can see. I see something, and ideas come to my head, the deer photo is a reference for f the imagination, still I am thankful to the photographer that captured this deer in all it's grassy glory.
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Below are a few steps from Start to Finish, todays lesson with gouache. 

Believe
xox
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