It's Good Friday.. praise Jesus.

There's so much tension' currently in the world, now more than ever is Jesus & His message of love & peace, patience & tolerance of others, understanding  needed.  Not a fan of AI, I can't deny some of the images & movies,  circulating about Jesus, God & the Bible are amazing. Every now and then I notice an extra finger - lol.. I wonder why that is. A Jesus revolution started (again, still growing strong 2,000 years & counting) a couple of years ago due to covid & it's still growing strong.

It's disturbing to read how in the UK,  people (Christians) are being arrested for praying, for preaching in public', something  people have done since the beginning of time - what we are told to do, as God's children - praise Jesus!  For that you could get thrown in jail?   It has many pondering a real revolution.  The people are awake and paying attention - with the help of things' being exposed online & across the globe.  What would Jesus do?  Toss the tables- of corruption at this point.

Either way, today is representation & reminder when Jesus gave his life for us, that is all that matters today & every day.
Praise Jesus!  I am blessed to understand, Jesus has always been with me, and He always will be.  The peace that comes every day when I even speak these words aloud is incredible.  I wish I 'knew it' sooner in life, still grateful NOW, more than ever for the understanding & LOVE.

I do have a new bible I mentioned, with artifacts and more.. it adds another level of exploration & fascination.  I am enjoying it immensely!  BY the way- God sent me a sign- just now, as I was finishing this blog entry & I was able to see them before the dogs!  At least 20 wild turkeys my lawn, I' never let the dogs out - Turkeys can be vicious & dangerous... how awesome, I LOVE seeing creatures of the forest come to say hello!   
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Peace Be with YOU!

Midnight BlueJay

Exploring paint & the forest in my mind, is a relaxing way to spend an evening... watching it snow, again.
I looked outside last night & thought, are you kidding me? Full blown Blizzard.  Thankfully, I can see some forest floor. 
​Tariff Trauma could go into the DSM as a legitimate thing, up down, word games to those in power...life or death to all the peasants, all over the globe. Kudos to China for pointing out how Americans (mostly) have been 'douped, (is that  a Canadian word? To be fooled, the butt of a joke played on the person) yet again.  That $100,000. luxury purse/item cost a pretty penny, is more like it.  I watched a clip from a man - Chinese and he explained how America has done this to themselves with greed & consumption of the Government made it happen when they shipped all the manufacturing over there. I remember that being a hot topic when I was a kid "they'll steal American jobs!" meaning the Chinese & yes, the Government willingly gave the Chinese the work to save money & make a profit. & now, we all worry about it- "They'll steal our jobs." as AI arrives & robots.  The thing about living & getting older, so many things have proven to be all about deception instead of correction. The China we can actually SEE, is not what was taught to me. ..  the best of that was Bruce Lee. 

I am confused as to why so many are mad at Trump. Was he not what the majority wanted? Is he not kicking ass & exposing corruption & fraud, while Biden pardoned his entire family..  I can honestly tel myself I gaveTrump the benefit of the doubt, because of God and the bible.. but many 'kings' fall, some don't last long at all. Being the king is not as spectacular as some speculate. I was listening to Joe Rogan and realized, he is who informs me of what's happening in the USA. It's almost impossible to read in our "news"  anything STILL & that bill was not passed, we should NOT be having restrictions on our news or social media! Intragram decided to share ' some protest clips - and the comments were all about 22WEEKS old! WTF? & many an awakening od this mass global immigration that's not going to well... which brings me to my point: Carney is not for Canada.   I was thrilled that Jordan Peterson read (twice) his book  "Values" as it was on my DO now list & frankly, I don't want to spend a cent on him/it',  albeit, I am a regular book buyer.  Everything Jordan Peterson Sid I feel the same, I am grateful he shared! PLEASE listen: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i_Dw0xaa5xM 

Are you aware of what's happening in the UK? Ireland, Germany...  YOU better be, because Carney will bring it here, faster.
I see it appears to be mostly boomers' and that's sad. I'm on the cusp'..  If you are for 'Carney' you are  for your kids & grandkids being controlled. His values are NOT my values- he is NOT my PM- I don't recall him at all before he was abruptly shoved down Canadian throats.  When I heard about him my first thought was: Carney? Who the heck is Carney - another clown no doubts.  I worked for the CNE when 16, and all who worked for that Circus' were considered 'Carneys'... circus clowns, employees... yes, it was kinda derogatory - what did I know, it was a amazing  FUN & educational experience, looking back.   Carney is PRO WEF & pro control! I never hear him speak of Canadians as individuals rather Canada as a commodity.. he's all about the $$$$ honey and NOT so great at it, if you check his track record- in the other countries where he LIVED. He hasn't even lived here! He is out of touch and your syrup must be spiked if you think he's the man for us!  HIS values are NOT mine -  they're absolutely NOT the same values Jesus preaches. 

Pierre is the guy, Eh!  Even if Steven Harper endorses him...  :) at least it's not sellout Mike Myers. :( 

​lieWhile out exploring, one froggy morning... a discovery was made.   8 x 11 gouache on white
Happy Mental Health Monday! 
It has started to snow again! Enough already! I've ben staring at a ton of snow since November, Im done.. too bad Mother Nature isn't. The good part- I do see a high of 12 , in about a week.  Athena is not having accidents as much and I'm confident as soon as we can get out, it will stop all together.  She is 3 months old & smart - yay! A little too smart so I have to be extra diligent with training. She knows how to ring the bell to get out, sit, paw, down, up & in & of course : NO!  To which she runs ver to the dog bed and look  -OH so cute!  It' the eyebrows, they give the appearance of always curious & cute at once.  

I've had a change of heart about something after my recent trip down the rabbit hole called NDE - Near death experiences.
NDE are well documented and nurses and doctors and scientists are all speaking up. I find it fascinating and hopeful, inspiring...  there are too many common elements to ignore.  Seeing familiar faces, loved ones and even pets (yay), many can recount exact time of death details that Dr.s say should be impossible to know. The tunnel of light often leads directly to Jesus and an overwhelming sensation of PEACE & Love.  You get to decide in many instances - stay or go.  Heaven is real, Jesus is real and NDE are a light into a dark subject.  BUT...

It all sounds so lovely, many wonder... if they take their own life - will they get there faster?  The definite response is NO.  That is not an option. 
NO, if anything it sets people back and they return for another  go around, until they learn what they are here to learn.  
It's talked about in detail and it has me changing my mind on MAID.  Our experiences are not just for us to learn but lesson for all, how we treat those closest to us who are suffering and sick is one lesson. MAID also seems a little controversial at the moment...  but it's a choice I'm sure people don't make lightly. I'm not going to judge but I can say, I have put it out of mind because of what I read & researched.   Suicide is a NO. It will not get you to heaven faster.  Yes, I understand some are very tired of suffering and old and not feeling very useful, this is a choice they must make.  I don't know if it's different for them but I am now convinced, we must wait to go naturally if possible, natural suffering is a part of life.  

As this Frog has discovered and I am very hopeful about: Psilocybin,  helping rewire peoples minds and helping reduce  stress, anxiety & depression.  Not medication PROVEN to increase suicidal thoughts, and harmful side effects including permanently effecting your brain.  I am hopeful that it's not the end' but a change, a realignment for the BETTER, it's going to be bumpy though as we are NOW witnessing.  People will have difficult choices to make.

Look into it yourself - YouTube, Gaia, countless books and movies and medical documents will convince you, many unbelievers become believers, well educated & very intelligent humans all professing GOD, Jesus and the ever after is waiting.  It does appear as if we have ALL been intentionally mislead- lied to -to dumb us down to keep us from realizing our powerful potential!!   Want to learn fascinating stuff -- read about telepathic children on the spectrum. And what are we doing? GIVING them pills, preventing them from who they are meant to be, so they fit in a tiny close-minded box.

Have you ever heard about dolphin birthing? I had not.. it use to be a big thing - said that the dolphins & unborn babies experienced telepathic communication & many of the children proven to be advanced in all ways, until it became outlawed in many places, yet the government has trained and uses dolphins for  several different reasons, mostly telling them about enemy submarines. The entire thing- stopping us from dolphin births seems a little fishy! Do they know something the rest of us are not yet aware of, I bet the do. 

​The good thing about the snow.. it can't possibly go on much longer, right?

Go with the flow.. or flood. Happening now.  gouache sketchbook painting.
This weather- last night the lightning was so intense it lit my entire room (blinds shut) as if a spotlight was in my room, accompanied with ice rain, today is foggy and melting! My friend told me they announced a high of 18 on Toronto news- wtFrig?  So.. more flood warnings anticipated . It is spring in Canada - so just go with the crazy weather flow- soon we'll be in  T-shirts and shorts complaining about mosquitos & heatwaves.

I use to be a fan of mike Myers, not any longer. From actor to sellout with one paid performance. Sellout.
I'm not alone.. some of the comments on his social media page- 'sellout'  doesn't even begin to define how others feel about him.  Gretzky too.  I mentioned I'm not buying anything off Amazon right now, and Storm joked -I'm sure Jeff Bezos will suffer for it...   well maybe not... but maybe so.  Reading about how Canadian companies are stopping business with American suppliers is surprising.  Canadians travelling to the USA is declining dramatically.  We are buying Canadian (even if slightly more expensive) and bypassing USA goods.  My sentiments are not directed at the American people but American Politics and the bully(s) in charge.  So, no I don't think I'll watch ANYTHING with Mike Myers in it again.  Will he know? Will he care?  Nope on both. BUT I know, I care.. why invite a traitor into my home?  He was paid for his political endorsement of Mark Carney.  Is he even "Canadian" anymore he lives in the USA and that seems to be where his loyalties are.  Trump & Mike Myers promoting MC - that should be enough of an awakening right there.   Phhhbbbbt.  Austin Puppet, might be a good name for his next movie.   Hate him - no, not  hate...  but NOT inviting him into my home in any form.  As I noticed on his comments on Instagram, I might not be alone, perhaps many will feel this way and he will feel it, eventually. I'm sure he does NOW, I don't hate him but some apparently appear to. I agree with being permitted to have your opinions & even protest but violence toward these people is not acceptable, they are JUST people. People making serious mistakes- I have the feeling Mike Myers is going to find out how much of a mistake he is making. Does he think Americans will embrace him? Phhhbbbt.  If you don't live here, experience what the majority of us are living with - don't promote our next politician!  I have opinions on Trump (don't we all) but I am under no illusion, I really do not know the situation in the USA because I do not live there, you have to LIVE somewhere to really understand.  This goes for all Canadians NO longer living here, you know who you are...  traitors.   lol
 
'Idols', exposing themselves... as old as time.  Speaking of exposing themselves...
And what about Carney & his ties with Epstein, are they true?  The fact that they are even being mentioned cause some concern.  Or his support for the WEF?  Why invite 'that' into our home or country, the more I read about him & his European adventures'  - he seems less Canadian than Mike Myers right now!  He convinces me to vote Pierre.  Speaking about the WEF, I read they want to control the  birth rate..  I have to look into it further, but if you want a quick education of what happens when the government tries to 'play' God and  control birthrates - see the repercussions  faced in China. Watch One Child Nation (Netflix) , warning - images of babies in the garbage dump... lots of babies.  It's something to think about as we continue 'forward'.  

Either way, no point getting angry or hating anyone - it's, they are all part of the lesson, go with the flow.   
I picked up a new bible, I am very excited to start reading, more on it, next. This one has all the lessons & historical artifacts from the time period, very cool.

​Created to create. I took a break from painting today. I miss it already.  ;)

We woke to no power, yet... April fools!!  Yep.   What a lesson this is, as always.  Some great others, not so much.
The above painting is in a sketch book  'Stellar Jay" & what a stellar bird he is, perched on a pine in the Moonlite, painted in the moonlight last night, by lamp! What a challenge it was, yet oddly satisfying and immensely peaceful.  I imagine myself the Jane Eyre of gouache sketchbook painting - hahaha!  The complete silence, no humming appliances, no traffic.. nothing but an owl is surreal. I NOW understand the term "the silence was deafening' - you can feel it & felt like a huge super comfortable blanket had wrapped around the forest.  Thank you Lord for the experience! 
I am use to the quiet but you don't realize how quiet it really is with no power.  No WIFI either.  My brain is enjoying it. 
Storm cooked the best breakfast & hash browns on the wood stove as sat in the morning light and watched the fire.
I also am reminded how many in the world won't /don't have the luxury of turning the power back on.

I just went with it painting my 'starlit stellar, albeit my confidence lacking -wondering if in the light, the detail would appear as well as it seems going on.  Difficult to see but I was pleased when I turned the flashlight on my art and it was turning out nicely.  This is how it use to be for the great masters!  Creation doesn't only strike during the daylight hours - I've wondered how/if the greats painted at night, no doubts they did but probably had well lit rooms - if only by candles.  Writing would be easier. I enjoyed the experience, when the power goes out - you better adapt or you will be bored and antsy' instead of artsy! ! I'm reading and painting and relaxing, forced by the Lord & mother frigging nature!  I've heard a few stories and some had to leave their homes because they can't heat them, let alone run anything.  I think that's an important point to all heat & water are essential, everything after that is a luxury in a blackout.  I hope there were not a lot of accidents, I can't read the news, we only plug in for a short time to run the fridge, wash dishes, get water, amazing too - how quick you can get all those things done, when you need to.

I've been reading about rolling blackouts in Cuba & California, I do believe they will be happening here, everywhere so best to be prepared and have things to do or be able to keep doing what you love.  

The bad thing- Athena is a fast learner & I just taught her to 'ring the bell' by the door to go out to pee - but then the ice storm hit (sigh) and I don't want them sliding of the hill into the woods because I won't be able to go get her, so telling her 'NO' when she rings the bell is discouraging to her & me.  Oh' imagine in a few short weeks (I hope!) we'll see grass and leaves again.  I'm also wanting to visit Daisy, not a possibility at the moment. 

Lot's of painting - and a NEW appreciation for this day the Lord has made! Sunlight to draw & paint to today, already aware of fleeting hours of light has me not wanting to waste' any. Today I'm painting a moonlight Bluejay amongst other things and playing with the puppies.

 See, these wonderful lessons we are taught, daily!  

Slip sliding all over the place. Today worse than yesterday, the dogs went out and it was doggy icecapades and although funny - not encouraged, dogs can slip and hurt themselves too. They weren't eager anyway. 

The power is intermittent and mostly none. I don't mind but it is a learning lesson every time and a refresher to BE prepared!!!  Have water handy, have candles.. have flashlights available & water for the dogs.  I hope hydro workers are safe as no-one should be out in this - but they are! There's Firemen & Frostymen in Canada! How these humans work in these conditions... Give thanks!! & say a prayer for their continued safety. 

Painting in daylight hours is also enjoyable surrounded by pure silence, awesome.
Back to my bear.. more of a statement piece -  you'll see it next.. if there's power.  
​I'm not sure about painting in candlelight - perhaps I'll soon learn a new skill!.
​Have a safe day! Summer will be all the sweeter. 

Pooh sketchbook painting
I painted the above Pooh' this morning! I was up and rarin' to go & let the dogs out (still dark) to pee and watched them slide across the deck & down! lol  Thank goodness they didn't slide down a hill,  it would be difficult to get up.  I let them out at light again & they went slowly and didn't want to explore, at all - instead they returned.  Even dogs know when to stay safe. I won't be stepping foot out today, I hope you don't have to either, not until the ice melts. 
I fell recently & didn't break anything, only bruised my hip, broke my big toe but what I hurt most was my..  ego?  
It depressed me, I needed help getting up... and too nervous about going down again, so there's no way I'm going out today.

Up, down... up, down.. we all go Up & down, sometimes daily.  Then Daisy died and I didn't care about 'stuff'.  I broke my collarbone a long time ago but didn't realize it until a few weeks later because I was dealing with the pain, of my grandma dying.  Look at when people are in shock.. stress, depression can do that too.  Wisdom is to remember when up or down, soon you'll be down  or up.   I saw a post this am & I thought Up, then down.  Am I to be happy about this fact? Now, finally ..? Eh? Thanks - Captain Hindsight, moment??? The post was about Fluoride in Utah - they ARE banning it from drinking water! Guess why? Because it's killing us, making us stupid.. yep & I have blogged about it before (years ago) and OUR  government has known about it as well.  Do I feel happy? NO! It's ONE more 'conspiracy theory' come true.  

The revolution is happening... the crumbling of Rome is more like it.
Everything is being exposed and say what you want about Joe Rogan - I check points of interest to see for myself- is this true?  YEP..   So many ingredients served to us (especially the USA) and proven to make is sick, fat stupid & addicted & eventually dead, after we give more $$$ to chemotherapy (also deadly) for the cancer we pay for.
So I'm not Happy - Im angry! Enough is enough, now there will be talk and time WASTED as we are being poisoned and PAYING FOR IT! With our tax dollars - that also funds wars around the world that I'm not personally interested in fighting.  How about you?  Im also not interested in the WEF telling us all what we can & can't do, how much fake meat we can consume, how many miles we can travel... what Bible to believe - probably the  Bible written by AI.  

STOP drinking water with FLUORIDE.   NOW. DEMAND from your local M.P., Monday:Remove Fluoride from our water. 
OR don't ... the Choice is ours and should be ours, but if you choose to do nothing knowing the deadly facts of Fluoride - you are a part of the problem.   Jesus tells us speak the truth, and many do at what cost? Often their lives are taken. We are all slowly being murdered anyway by our own government(s) and organizations like the FDA that have been corrupt and not concerned about the people but only profit, proven how many times NOW!? How many recalls after the damage has been done? Opiates? Remember when Dr.s encouraged smoking as good for us? 

Yes, The Sun The Moon & The Truth, all will end up being lessons in LOVE, eventually.  
So, I guess... Yay!! I'm happy Fluroide  is being banned, finally.. more will become educated and more babies, children -humans will be healthier, smarter- to be what God designed us to be..
I wished I had read the bible sooner, It taught me a new "body Image", the image of Christ in ME, makes me want to look after myself better.  I wish, I had this mindset sooner.
The Bible is NOWs' instruction text book.  
Up, down, up, down.. that's how life works, it often takes a jolt of pain/love to realign. 

Todays bear was an Up bear... tomorrow not so much.
Celebrate this day The Lord has made, as icy as it is. Go slow.

Thinking I could stay in bed with the dogs and snuggle- LOL Tell that to Athene, who doesn't understand routine' yet.
Like a toddler, she's pulling dirty laundry out of the basket & running around, jumping up, climbing over and just learning - NO! & starting to understand, when mom yells "NO!"  she better take cover under the sofa, which she won't be able to do in a week.  'Nap time', she thinks is 'alone playtime'  or wrestle with the cat time. They play non stop which is awesome and exhausting - about every 2 minutes  - I'm yelling at one or the other to: "LET GO!" of each others ears.  The others, especially Ginger, are mourning & missing Daisy, us too.  

I get most emotional at dinner time. I've been trying to start to remove' kibble from their diet. ALL kibble.  I watched a documentary on Pet Food (& treats)  & have read a few articles and I'm done with kibble.  Daisy was lumpy, near the end and it was difficult as there was nothing to be done, the surgery might be as damaging.  Dogs are getting sicker and when you understand 'why' - well, you have a choice to make.  Watch "Pet Fooled"... decide for yourself.
Kibble is absolutely the easiest.  Pet Fooled made me sad that we have been (ARE being) mislead by those who we have been trusting & funding $$ to do so.  Messed up.  Anyhow, Daisy always got fed first, she was the oldest & also shared her meal with the cat, ginger & the pup, she was kind, patient and loving... right to the end.
Today ALL (cat included) ate rainbow trout (fried in a tiny bit of butter & water), pumpkin seeds, raw egg & raw apple & carrot to snack on. If I add a bit of kibble  (weening off slowly) - guess what's always the last to leave the bowl?  Kibble. 
Daisy LOVED fish skin.  

Between Vets  & over pricing I've lost faith in anything 'pet industry', I was reading they might try to pass laws in Quebec to 'cap' vet bills.  Go figure.  Everything has become about the $ and not the pets & they can't speak - so we must, with our $$$. Toys that hurt (squeekies - kill), treats that kill, collars kill, cheap unhealthy ingredients kill, cover ups... all about the $profit & not pets.  The more I can do for them the better, who loves them more? Me, I love them most.  
Homemade cookies ( a batch a week), chicken gizzards cut up and dehydrated for treats and  ropes, sticks and big bouncy balls for toys.  The best stimulating activity is play and exploring the forest. My dogs have a. better life but I want them to have a healthier, it's more time consuming and a little more expensive BUT.. I know I'm doing the best for my girls who I love and want to keep for a long time.

Athena has made Daisys passing lighter', she is constantly making us laugh, her antics & cuteness overload lighten the mood for all, Her & Arrow are starting to snuggle and play, Ginger will come around eventually.  We all miss Daisy.
Especially at nap time & her smile - she was always ready for nap time.  

Happy Spring!  Officially, a couple of days ago.

I don't know about you, but we are ready! The snow is still melting but a sizeable amount is GONE, amen.
I can see the little creek that runs through the property and soon - we will be exploring - bring on muddy paw season! 
Enjoy this day the lord has made!

"Daisy".  Love, Mom
I forgot a couple of details.

For those who do not understand, dogs are like children and the grief I feel right now is heavy.  I'm glad it's raining I do want to stay in bed today.  Still, I already baked this weeks batch of dog treats/cookies.  Allowing yourself to feel the pain IS an important part of the process, albeit - AS I type, Poppy is sitting on my lap looking up at my tearful face... my dogs are very sensitive to me crying and cuddle huddle, I know they too are missing Daisy so today, we'll all  mope, nap & cry a little.' 

Dogs - our furry children... we feed them, play with them, snuggle them, talk to them, kiss them, walk with them, watch them, make sure they are safe, watch TV with them, share our meals with them, explore the world with them.. play hide and seek with them & it hit me:

I have spent more time with Daisy then I have my mom, Norm or even Storm..   As they all lived their lives and ventured out, went to their own homes, went to school, went to work... I have spent more time with my dogs than most humans, especially the past 5 years.

It really feels like like an empty hole, something is missing... Daisy.

AS fate has it.. the project I'm working on & have been for a few weeks - has a dog 'Bear', in it.  I decided to model it after Daisy & Athene, with those adorable eyebrows, but mostly Daisy. Therefore, trying to paint as a distraction' at the moment is NO distraction, as the dog is with his boy' in almost every image.  I'll take a couple days off, I'll try something "spring or  bugs bunny today, and pick it up again Monday.

Enjoy this day the Lord has made, snuggle with your dog(s).

Daisy in with Jesus.. in more ways than one.  Just the idea heals my heart.

Storm asked where do you wantDaisy buried, I replied.. Near Jesus would be nice.  Meaning my Jesus in the forest, the other Jesu is obvious & I already know Daisy is there.   I hav watched many NDE stories, documentaries to know Dogs are known to greet us on the other side.  It's still snow covered though - the forest and we were worried that the ground would be too frozen.  Strong albeit is the love of a boy & his dog.  Storm was in his late teens when we got Daisy, people would often tell me they couldn't believe where they saw him walking her- how far and how long,  Daisy had a great life & deserved a beautiful resting place. 

Into the woods they went, Storm came back and invited me to come out, since it was so beautiful yesterday & I was glad I went.... I do NOT like the buggy/UTV, what ever you want to call it, but I got in (for Daisy) and out we went, we took Athene and Arrow ran along side.  Storm was able to dig a big hole and lay Daisy init.. we said our goodbyes (again), cried -even Arrow was crying (not like her), Athena - being a kid was excited to be exploring this new area! She's only ever known snow - so leaves, branches , pinecones and dirt were all fascinating and she could hardly contain her energy, Arrow never let her out of our sight.  Now I am even more excited to walk out with the girls and visit Jesus & Daisy.  It was also my first time deep in the woods when there was snow, and I was taken back by the beauty!  Had Daisy not died, I still might not know- what the woods looks like with snow.

When we got back it was so lovely out I was standing on the deck and Arrow brought me her ball (go figure) and I said:
"NO! Not now... ",   She looked crushed.  How I wished Daisy was here to bark and bark, telling me: Throw the ball!  As she did only a few days before.  So I apologized and threw the ball.  The lessons dogs teach us, all lessons in love.
It will be a bit, I keep grabbing 5 treats- always giving the biggest to Daisy, I keep looking out the window, seeing if she is on the deck looking to come in, I kept waking ups to see an empty bed.  :(. Such a day of emotions, all of which I am grateful for.. above all else I thanked God that Daisy lived the last 5 years here, in the woods going for long walks to explore and she rarely left my side as the others ran ahead... not because she was old and tired , that only starting show the past year, because she loved me. No gates, no neighbours, no fences & she NEVER once tried to go anyplace else, she knew she was loved most, right here.   I'll honour Daisy today, by throwing the ball, painting & snuggling & dog kisses.
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This morning Daisy died, at home on her bed, surrounded by me, Storm & her sisters & cat.  
She went peacefully & for that we were blessed. She didn't suffer, she groaned a bit last night but still managed to come in and say good morning, for the last time. Daisy was an amazing dog & Arrow is a great dog because, Daisy trained her.  

Everybody loved daisy! Humans & animals alike, Ginger especially LOVED Daisy and ran to give her kisses almost Daily.
The thought of walking the woods without her, is heart breaking.  Daisy was officially Storm's dog and she lived in the city for a few years, she hiked Kilarny with Storm and his friends (her own backpack), she visited Cannabis farms and accompanied Storm on many journeys, she liked to canoe, swim and explore the woods...   
Words don't seem enough for what I'm feeling today.

I will love her forever & Thank God for sending her to grace our lives for over a decade.. which is never long enough.
I will think of her today playing in the most beautiful field ever- with Scruffy & Tequila.
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Look at that handsome boy.. who's been hanging around my studio looking in, this morning.  He's about 2 feet.  
Owls are territorial - it's lovely to hear them but I always wonder if some ponder snatching Poppy.  She does not go out alone.. or in the rain, so today - we're good.

I woke up to a melt down! YAY! Who knew the sight of dirt on the driveway could be so appealing? 
I can almost see out my bedroom window again.  It is happening very fast though, a huge noticeable difference since when I went to bed, it's a bit concerning & there's a flood warning for the area.  I'm not concerned about flooding but I am sure many are.

Athene is very excited as she must think snow was it.. now to discover there's something actually under all this white stuff!!
She doesn't even seem to mind the rain.  Spring - green, buds - soon we will be exploring the forest again- with a new set of eyes and excitement.

Give thanks for this day the Lorn has made, owls and melting snow.
​ Hallelujah.

The past few days she's really slowing down, not keeping her food down and seems... tired.  She is our oldest girl and I've had enough dogs to see the signs but as long as she tires (& she does) I'll clean up poop & vomit cause that's what we do for loved ones.  I was reading the book in bed last night and looked up to see Arrow & Athene staring intently...  just as I was reading about how well Micro dosing works for depression I was realizing micro dogging (5 dogs or less) works best for me! lol.  They make me LOL - yesterday Athene slid about 6 feet across the ice like Bambi, I was laughing till tears came.  They show me unconditional LOVE - especially when I don't feel so lovable! If I cry - they all come to give me kisses.  They force me out of bed on bad days! They encourage me to explore our forest - safe traveling in a pack - incase we come upon any critters, they look when I discover mushrooms, sticks, slugs - as if as excited for the find, as I am!  They defend me,  Arrow especially is amazingly protective. Dogs are naturally; antidepressants that keep us playing and active.  
Gifts From GOD -DOG.

I don't microcose often, I listen to my body when I need to- and sometimes it's not for months (I should more) but weeks  pass (sometimes months)  - I remembered and just 2 days ago had a microdose and within 20 minutes I could feel the dark veil lift. 2 days in a row and I feel better, quieter, calmer.... easier to clarify - all.  They do not take away my physical pain but they do help me "deal' with it in a different light.  That's what they do, for me anyhow - without all the (sometimes deadly) side effects, that INDEED do affect our brains on prescribed medications like prozac and other antidepressants.  If I knew then what I know now- I would NEVER have taken 'legal' poisons prescribed to me.  AND I never worry about overdose - as it's never happened where someone had died from psilocybin mushrooms. Most who microcode don't even realize they do - they just know they feel better.  I'm so excited and happy it seems to finally arrive - this knowledge & is being welcomed - open arms.  Heal thyself, let food be thy medicine.. Mushrooms (all mushrooms) -MADE by God for us all. * All mushrooms are edible - some only once.  KNOW your mushrooms before you consume them.  
This book is informative & helpful, I already knew a few things but learned a few too, I recommend you read- take control of your health & mind - repair your brain.  Research.  
​Show yourself some love.

One more thing the book mentioned - some people just start eating better when Macrodosing! I find this to be very true!! 
I can't even look at chips or alcohol when microdosing, I crave healthier food.  so.. one more reason to explore YOUR options.  

Thank the Lord for this day & all gifts from God - especially Dogs & mushrooms - all kinds! They heal us & the earth! 
Below my girls watching me read- knowing, they are the best form of anti-depressants I'll ever use.  :))) & Gingering wondering: will this thing ever stop growing??
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Just a bear exploring.. 

I'm excited for the Blood moon Eclipse! Tomorrow!  What a powerful moon it will be.
The shift if shifting!  

Do you know we as Canadians are still not seeing news. I was reading about protests all over regarding Tesla in particular & how much Elon has lost.. billions.   Canadians are showing videos of March break destinations and they are notably not as busy, not in the USA, not a lot of Canadians.  People are not buying American anything & it's not just Canada..  it's the rest of the world siding with Canada, in support of Canada.  It seems like a few Americans also agree.

Trump,  I understand the exposing of corruption and massive abuse of tax paying dollars, hard to accept when so many working class Americans are struggling to make ends meet, exposing actual crimes committed by the FBI, CIA, FDA... OMG.   Many understand why things have to change but in other ways.. his need for public humiliation of others, lack of respect for so many - I get other countries telling him to 'put it where the sun don't shine, it seems to be backfiring.   To turn this tariff into game...   Trump does deserve an Oscar for this performance, I am not sure of what category. 

I don't think Pierre Poilievre is going to win,  the reason.. he is anti WEF. & vocal about it.  As am I.  
It does appear to be going in that direction... how do a group of private,  wealthy humans get to call the shots (yet, not practice what they preach) for the rest of the world, who died and made them King?  Not Jesus.   Many 'rules & regulations' planned,  that many millions  don't agree with.   Once liberties are removed, good luck getting them back, so I am with Pierre on that point.  WEF is all about control.  
Mark Carney is for the WEF.   https://www.weforum.org/stories/authors/mark-carney/
This ONE fact alone, every Canadian going into the next election should be aware of...  is this the direction you want to go - for you< for your kids? AT LEAST know!  If you think we have time we don't 2030 is the anticipated timeline for WEF to take over.  Even if Pierre wins, will he be able to stop the WEF?   I don't believe so. Why vote at this point?

At this point, I will gladly pick up a book & my brush and exercise my mind, focusing on things, events. information that serves, is helpful & even joyful to learn about.  It's easier than you think.  Who's getting seeds started?!

Want some fantastic news!??
Yesterday, I heard on a podcast by a NDE  Dr. , (expert) - Dogs are in heaven, waiting for us..   Amen!
Just listening & learning about NDE has me wanting to be a better human... remembering the only thing that matters is love.  The telepathy tapes - incredible!  Kid's once labeled with disabilities will be seen as humans with exceptional gifted' abilities!  The shift.. happening now.

Lot's of  time to think as we anxiously await the melting snow...   it goes from mushy (walkable) to frozen (not walkable) depending on the day but more on the mushy side! Ya!

I'd like to take the opportunity today to thank Justin Trudeau for his service as our Prime Minister... what a ride it was & yes, I miss him already.  Did he anger me? YES, several times , especially during covid. Did he make me happy? pleased, yes - also on several occasions - mostly as a representative for Canada as he travelled the world. I like how he and his family  did what the culture did , where they visited! Dressing, taking part if festivals and educating us in the process. That's what it's about - celebrating each others differences and celebrations!  I feel for the most part, he did what most of us wanted.

On the grand scale... I'm more convinced with each passing day, he played his part as best to his abilities.  I am happy he is out, not for the reason you might think but he did play his part, for a very long time! Since he was born.  Born into politics, yikes.  We all aware now  it's never what it seems, kings and queens have their own struggles..   Justin Trudeau & his family  (3 generations) gave a great deal, family time, privacy & all did indeed sacrifice what many will never understand, his entire life and I am grateful he gave us a few good years.  I hope he regains some normalcy with his family & they enjoy themselves -even thou because of who they are they will probably live their rest of their lives under public scrutiny.  I love, his daughter made the speech she did, she is going to grow up to be a smart, courageous & strong woman.. I know it.
Thank You,  Justin!! 

If anything the complete lack of respect and constant condescending rhetoric by Trump with his 'governor Trudeau taunts- Canada becoming the 51st state CRAP, why would he expect any respect? 
Arrregh! Don't make me go to confession Trump. lol  
My struggles with God are struggle with his people...  and all God wants is for us to get along & Love each other. That's all.
I pray for the wisdom to continually base my judgement on  actions and nothing more - boy oh boy - Trump puts me to the test.  This giant chess game is astounding to watch, he makes moves that prove he is oblivious to the working mans daily struggles, what does he care if hundreds, thousands lose their jobs - Americans!!!?  We all know, now - that is what he wants for Canada.  

It's a sad time in history...  we don't seem to be friends anymore, worse...  we actually feel like enemies some days.  :(

 So yes, Im glad he's gone before the shit hits the fan.
Mark Carney - I know nothing about. Nothing... albeit I did hear his first official speech and 'so far so good.

Thank you Justin Trudeau & Family for your service to Canadians, miss you already. Kinda.  ...Mostly.   :)

The dogs are finally playing with Athene - Whew!  This means I get a bit of a rest. It's fun to watch Arrow chase her around the house or how amazing Athene & Mr.K play - they play the most, I realized it's because they are both babies- both under a year. It didn't take long for Athene to gain the upper paw and now has the cat yelping out a few times.   This pup is amazing me with the speed of her growth, her speed in general! Thankful there's still too much snow for her to take off - and have us chasing her.  Athene & Poppy are the sweetest team',  I'm happy they play so much because soon Athene will be too big to ruff it out with Poppy, yet right now - they are not just playing - they are building a friendship.  Every now and then Athene either sits on Poppy or puts one of those big paws on her face, but Poppy is learning the moves and lets her know when - she has had enough! I know this too, by her actions and will not let Athena continue, as I don't want snapping' to ensue.

Arrow is my service dog & I din't know it.. If the cat goes near the bird cage - Arrow jumps and scares it away, all on her own.  Yesterday, I saw Athene walking towards the gate ( I was in the house), I said to Arrow "Go GET Athene!!"   & She bolted, looked and found, then pounced at Athene! Several times as to say "Hey! what do you think you're doing!"    What ever it means in dog language - Athene stopped in her tracks and turned and followed Arrow back and into the house. Amen for the extra training help.  She is an adorable puppy!!  I think it's the eyebrows or the floppy ears when she runs.. 

Today training has started on a few things:
Don't steal from everyones dish, cause you wolf'd' yours down.
Pee-pads are only for nighttime emergencies..  day time - outside.
No, you can not go out all the time, sometimes you nap & wait until MOM is ready.
NO jumping on me, when I'm at my drawing desk.

Other than that, they all have cabin fever, the sun is shining at it's double digits on Fridays! They know -except for Athene- spring has sprung,  we can feel it growing as we watch snow melting & we are all anxious for trees with leaves, birds and bees! Mushrooms to be picked, fried and eaten - can't wait!

 BTW - did you hear or see.. Oprah promoting psilocybin.  Oprah, letting people know about the positive aspects she's learning about "Magic Mushrooms"  for PTSD, depression... not to mention countless beneficial side effects like calming, creativity boosts & overall better 'health' awareness.  Thank you Oprah, your acknowledging will indeed help eliminate the stigma, create a greater curiosity & encourage people to seek out what the universe thinks they need.  I have tried to educate some - especially those I know that have or are considering anti-depressants for depression/stress... please, try psilocybin first.  OR at least take the time to educate yourself- before you decide..  REMEMBER - BIG Pharma, makes big money - keeping you on highly addictive & sometimes deadly drugs... Psilocybin does not kill... as a matter of fact - they say -science & studies.. it heals the brain.  

Time to paint, in between chasing the puppy.

Any day...   oval canvas, acrylic.

Some days.. are harder than other, for everyone.  This painting is a reminder that no matter what's happening, we can always find joy and remember - anything or event is better shared, good and bad.  & too often we only perceive  sharing' with other humans, you can share with anyone - a person, animals or sharing your moments online, social media..  everything is better & sometimes feel 'easier' if shared.  Share with Jesus if you want! - Always willing to listen.   So - make it a habit to not only share online but share everywhere, share some crumbs or seeds with a bird.  I feel like this with my dogs.. I share everything with my dogs, every meal, no matter how tasty to me - everyone gets a bite.  Share your adventure & experiences, it's what connects us , sharing our stories. 

It snowed yesterday & is as always beautiful, more beautiful with me knowing we will be hitting double digits today & it's melting. HOPE.. lite at the end of the snow tunnel.  The past few days have been not so great, mostly I am sore, I fell - out in public & I could not get up. I could not get up because my wrists are fused from arthritis & don't bend.. when I fall I instinctively put my hands up for fear of breaking, so I land a little harder. As anyone knows, you feel it - usually the next day (days after) and my entire side is still sore.  Anyhow, I was laying on the floor and I cried out "Help" and at that moment, I felt helpless.   The young woman who worked at the business, came and helped me up (no easy task) but I'd have to say more damage had been done, than anticipated... it made me not want to go out anymore.  I thought of that commercial  "Help, I've fallen and I can't get up.." and it made me sad.  Also mad.  Mad, that I felt ashamed, my first thought was not - 'am I o.k.?' but  - "hurry and get me up off the floor before anyone sees me.'  That's messed up, feeling ashamed because I fell - due to a very heavy door and lip the made it easy to trip'... still - I beat myself up over it, as if a broken toe, sore hip and side were not enough.  

Why?   Society shames us, older women in particular. It's been knows for decades especially in Hollywood where older women more or less disappeared - only now do we occasionally see older women on screen, usually in not very flattering parts'.  Older women are expected to fade away, quietly.  Luckily, we don't... not quietly, anyway.

I'm pretty sure when that commercial first came out - "I've fallen and I can't get up" I laughed along with others... hahahaha.. who's laughing now.  TIME is an incredible teacher. How I thought & behaved at 20 is NOTHING like now, how I thought yesterday about things can change today. Lesson learned.  I won't be going out for a while, snow turned to ice and my hurt toe & ego will keep me home for a bit albeit- I am not ashamed.. more pissed off - at the door, way to heavy (never mind anyone  for who has arthritis). I won't go there again, not unless they change the door.. even so  - maybe I'm meant to shop online.  

Anyway, today I woke and decided to show myself LOVE & compassion and allow my feelings to surface..  
Old age is a luxury not afforded by many. I wished my brother a Happy Birthday (one year younger than I), I'm sure both he and I have doubted we'd ever make it this far- yet here we are!  Bring it on.  We are two of the most determined, faithful, hard working people I know.   I was also called 'Handicapped' not too long ago  (meant in the derogatory sense) & that hurt too.  I got to thinking... yes, at this point I guess with my arthritis (hands crippled)  I am disabled to some degree but it should never prevent me or anyone from venturing OUT!  We pay enough for everything that we should always feel 'safe to shop'.  Stuff happens...  I can tell you I remembered immediately, once the girl got me back up - my first thought was - Thank you Lord for not breaking my hip.  Oh - BTW- I also had Athena and when I went flying - she went flying - OMG, I was more concerned for her... visibly shaking - she's a tuff little trooper & was fine. Thank God! 
I am grateful, I am at a point in my life where I think of and communicate with God, all day, every day, not just when I stumble.    I came home and snuggled for 2 days in bed, we're feeling mentally better - this Mental Health Monday! 
The next time you think of giggling at someone else's misfortune -  never forget...  Time has an incredible way of teaching lesson - decades later. & Old age (not that I think of 61 as old...  lol)  is a luxury not afforded by many... celebrate each day. 

Create something beautiful for your Creator!