Ontario wildlife in my back yard. Love bears all things  - including bears.  
These images are from a camera on our trail, as adorable as they are - yikes.  I know exactly where it is as that's part of our usual walk.  The other day as we ventured into the forest the dogs all stopped and started to sniff the air and didn't run ahead like they usually do.  I listened to my gut (then tightening) and said lets go' as I turned around back home.  Nope & thank goodness as the date from the camera was the day after.  It's one thing run into a bear, not that I care to  - but even I'm aware - it's another thing to run into a bear with cubs.  I don't even want to imagine the possibilities with dogs.  
Ginger & I are not fast runners & Poppy, I know 'thinks' she could take on a bear to defend her mama bear.  Nope.   

Frig, those babies are cute! It has inspired more bear paintings or two or three!   I laughed because I tell everyone, they are welcome to visit but must sleep in a tent, as we don't have a guest room but for some reason now,  no one seems excited to do so.. hee hee hee.   My mom asked "if it's safe to visit?" lol    I still remember the day the bear crossed the front lawn, feet from where I was chilling on the deck, it took a while to calm down that day. Running into one in the woods - no thanks.
It was a reminder we all needed though,  we have bear spray but never carry it.  For the next while I think I'll refrain from a foray.  On the camera was also a fisher - like a big mink, raccoon and deer,   it's easy to forget  sitting on the sofa watching Netflix - we live amongst wild beasts.  Dreams come true.  

For all those that camp in the highlands - be Bear aware as they are out there!  I've been told several times, as long as they hear you -they will avoid you - they'll be long gone, still use caution with your camping food  & make noise when walking through the woods and keep your dogs safe. I watched  a deer attack a dog on an instagram clip, we are in their territory, it's up to us to be careful & safe.  I'm grateful to witness a few of Gods creature creations from a distance! 
I also won't be putting out suet or bird food for a bit, best not to entice the  big furry  creatures.
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Love thy neighbour, the bears are my neighbours too!  Here before we were.
Love bears all things.
Love endures all things, including bears in the backyard.
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1 Corinthians 13:7.  Love bears all things...    acrylic on wood.
I painted this bear the same time as the sloth and yesterday read 1 corinthians 13:7 - the perfect line for tis image.  Painted before,  I couldn't bear to pass up the opportunity to express it again, and again.   :).     Love does bear all things.
Love  keeps us going by believing, hoping & enduring.  Without Love we give up... & you can't beat the Love of God & Jesus,
there is no other love, none as powerful and everlasting.  To discover Gods love is a blessing!!  It helps one with all other 'love' that doesn't always  feel so loving.   There are days I don't feel loved or lovable... on those days, I thank Jesus for loving me, always.

Another powerful love - is the love from dogs, dogs provide unconditional love & that is why I am positive  it is intentional - 'Dog is 'God backwards, to remind us. All who love dogs & are fortunate enough to be loved by a dog (or several) understand this.  I've met a few who do not love dogs, I've seen a few who treat dogs like crap... forever chained to a doghouse, never let around to be loved, abused and neglected. Definitely one reason I do not enjoy social media, teaching a new awareness of how cruel some humans can actually be towards these loving beasts, albeit my heart swells to see when they are rescued by a loving human to a forever new home.  God knows, God sees.  I also know a few who do love dogs like family, as we do love "my girls".  When searching for a new home a priority was for my girls to be able to explore, run & bark -free from traffic & humans (who don't like dogs) God put us here.  I am forever grateful.   Maybe, I need to paint a dog for this series.  I'll seek the bible for guidance & sure, I shall find!

The dog days of summer are here, 30 degrees several days this week!   I feel' it's time to paint a new dog group portrait, each with their favourite things. Enjoy the day & keep your yourself & your dogs cool, I notice the girls like to be inside  and will encourage me to do the same,  considering they wear fur coats- I think they know best. 

My furry family on a foray.  acrylic on canvas 

I Painted an updated pet portrait, it took a while because I'm still missing Scruffy, Bow & Fluffy.  It was  hard losing 3 pets last year & a couple of humans.  I waited until I felt ready, emotionally, to paint them all.   I'm pleased with the results, above all it was a joy & wonderful distraction to paint.

I didn't look at photos but painted from glancing at my girls and thinking about each personality.  Arrow can jump up on the kitchen counter - which she has done a couple of times , once to steal the butter!  So, we can't leave any meat out or she'll help herself!  She got in trouble for it & appeared very remorseful so hopefully she won't do it again & she has trained us to put all leftovers promptly away, which is good practice anyhow.    I once had a Great Dane walk of with the entire roast.  

A couple of nights ago Poppy started barking & I spanked her, and then I heard she what she was barking at in the early morning hours and I felt bad, she was just being a great tiny watch dog.  I've never spanked her & she looked at me devastated...  I still feel terrible about it.  Never again.  

When exhausted, I do take my frustrations out on them, we don't play as much and then I get angry at myself.  They just want to play, love and snuggle and they are not to blame for the actions of humans, who frustrate me.  Quite the opposite. They continually remind me to love & that I am loved.  Our favourite game is 'Hide & Seek' - with me always hiding, usually at the end of the driveway or behind a tree, when I see they go off in the wrong direction I usually yell  "Peek a boo!!"
Then they search by sound.  It never gets boring and always has me laughing, when they find me and are overcome with JOY.  Love is a dog -or 4... or more.  Get a dog - a furry family member to snuggle and bring you joy & teach you to put leftovers away.   Below, Daisy's photo bomb  and Ying & Yang.  ​

Created to create.

Yesterday, I started a new 'forest family portrait',  so happy I did... today, I had to force myself to take a break as it comes to life.  I didn't look at photos but drew from life'... my lovely models happy to pose.  Time flies when you're creating something joyful.  I'm sure I'll finish today as it's just to much fun to watch appear.  Surrounding me in live time, my girls -it's too hot & they are happy to be chilling in the 'tiny studio - big on love.  I noticed Sweet Cheeks likes 70's tunes (summer hits) that's when he sings the most,  he's not such a terrific singer, not like my last bird but I'm happy to hear him all the same.

Full fire ban effect again, I guess so as now Halifax is on fire, terrible to see & hear of the destruction & evacuations.  I just read: if they find out you have indeed started a forest fire - you will pay. I can only imagine how much it must cost - thousands$$$$$.  With the fire ban and the recent pranks of setting off fireworks on the TTC, (I hope that kid does get serious punishment - they were well aware of what they were doing.   I read the video was sold  for money.  The company that bought it should be charged for encouraging such acts.  I can see fireworks becoming a thing of the past.  Good riddance.  Some say -it's a Canadian tradition' but when we know better - aren't we supposed to do & be better?   If nothing else consider your & your children's  hearing, firework displays do damage. Fact.   There are some incredible light shows using drones! Mind blowing - let's hope that becomes the new thing, in all honest -I've not researched though, so I don't know how feasible or if any danger' is involved..  either way, traditional fireworks and forest = possible destruction of creatures, fauna and firefighters.   

Created to create.
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Todays painting lesson in progress. 

The first step is the hardest...  same goes for the stepping stones!  
Check out these lovely slab rocks!!   I love 'stepping stones'  for a few reasons - to avoid 'accidents' left by the dogs, they look beautiful and I have a fondness for rocks in general, reminded - the Bible (several times) refers to 'Jesus is the rock'.  We wanted to add some on the way to the gazebo, first we had to find them.   Living on the 'Canadian Shield' giant slabs are everywhere on the property, getting them where we want them was the hard part.  Credit goes to Norm who figured it out, dug them up and then rolled them into place with a dolly & then logs, after making giant cardboard cutouts - to dig out the perfect shape.  Where there is a will, there is a way.   I had the easy part today, planting clover around the edges.  
I like to tell people, if they visit and we are not home - the house key is under the stepping stone. Heehee.

Task complete, feels great on the feet... provided it's not too hot -then it's hopping stones. Now to wait for the clover to grow and it will look amazing - as it does already, in my mind.    Rock on - creations to create!  
​Enjoy the day - tomorrow is never guaranteed.  

​Created to create

Romans 12:11.  Do not be slothful in zeal, be fervent in spirit, serve the lord.       acrylic on wood  1/9 series.
 
Praise Jesus!!  This was designed with a kid in mind.. I think I might create another sloth - more realistic, I enjoy painting them so why not! 

The bible mentions being slothful a few times,  'slow and quiet, perhaps even implying lazy' - not my sloth!
My sloth rejoices in Jesus.  lol.  Grateful for another day!   I hang these outside to twirl' for my instagram post and this was the second time -this sweet tiny hummingbird appears out of nowhere to check out my art, he makes me laugh out loud & I thank him for looking.  Talk about curious, Jesus sent him, I've no doubts.    I think  I'll work on the writing and keep it all in Gold with the leaves around it, I like the look.  Do what you do with LOVE & joy!  My second of the series is already waiting on my desk for a clear coat.  

What a lovely weekend - sunshine and heat.  This morning I was wondering at Gods decision to create mosquitos!  Holy cow!  I walked the driveway before the sun came out and literally ran back waving my arms, both eyebrows bitten... lol.  
Lord -what the heck were you thinking?  I  bring the dogs in and put lavender on their ears as they too were covered - once the sun arrives all is well.  Coffee nearly shot out my nose as I read a text from my mom "check the bird bath, that's where they breed.."    I remind her:  we live in a forest with a stream, surrounded by lakes - yeah - cause the bird bath is the problem.. hahahaha  city folk!  Oh well who am I to question Gods  creation - perhaps it's to keep us on our toes.   My son is on a Foray with the MST,  I hope they have on their bug hats, jackets, pants, spray (non toxic), they don't seem to bother him,  I'm a walking buffet!

We accomplished quite a bit of gardening this weekend, (Norm did mostly) & I'm grateful, it looks wonderful this tiny Eden & gets lovelier each year.  We also planted clover as a ground cover as apposed to water guzzling grass, you can also eat clover & make a tea - weee.   Clover grows well in all conditions including hot & dry which the next week is anticipated to be & feels fantastic on the feet!  The hare that I see in the mornings will also be a fan,  if Thumper' is right.

​Give thanks for another day - Created to create - time to paint!  Praise Jesus! 

                    Rejoice!  I've started a new painting series - Rejoice!  Paintings inspired by The Word of God.

I like painting with a purpose, as I have in the past with trying to educate about cannabis - as a medicine for children, one that doesn't destroy their organs or get them hooked on opiates... it's never been about being stoned'.  Learning to live with pain is also part of the journey - it is not medicine' that has helped me the most  but my developing relationship with Jesus!  My growing faith in God, who has always been with me - every step of the way.  My own cannabis consumption is almost down to nothing these days, I go weeks at a time without a puff.  Praise Jesus!!

God created all we need- right here with every seed.   More and more are realizing this, brining back traditions & knowledge learned long ago from the generations before us. For example, I recently learned on Instagram - a broth steeped of cloves & cinnamon helps with tooth pain - what did I have to lose... besides tooth pain? lol   I made it & have been using it daily and the ache I had for weeks is gone - the bleeding also stopped.  Try it or don't, I figure it's better than pills' that have harmful side effects, including antibiotics.  

Every time I read the bible, I learn something new and am often inspired by something mentioned  that causes a curiosity  to delve deeper.  Quotes - words of wisdom, bring the sensation of  "feel Good"  because of God.  That's the plan.
The Word of God - the bible, the most popular, most read book on the planet. I read it & start over and each time is like a new adventure, new journey, new love story.   The Chosen - brought it to life  & just enhanced it all.  Jonathan Roumie in particular chosen by Jesus to play the part is exceptional, I am a fan!  I'm also a fan of Dallas Jenkins, director.  I hope they continue & create the entire bible, I'm already pondering - who will portray  David & Goliath.

I know it sounds 'hoakey' but in times of trouble - when I turn to the bible, I am always reminded/guided/directed of what to do'  - do it with God and you can do anything!  Lifes instruction book.. you just have to take the time to read it.  
A puzzle to Peace, via prayer.  I thought:  if these revelations bring me peace & joy - I should paint them!  
Painting already makes me feel at peace so painting the Word of God can only increase the love & calm I feel when painting.  Created to create.

I'll share one each Sunday - the day of rest & Rejoicing.

Below - Poppy & Ginger, aren't they adorable?  I love my girls... they teach me love & love me unconditionally.
Dogs are mentioned in the bible a few times... more on that soon. 
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Have a creative day.

I watched a cartoon that I had forgotten - it's one of the cutest created and once seen I remembered most of it.  It's about a little boy who day dreams in class and is called out- by the teacher while his peers giggle.  What an imaginative plot, you can't help but smile.  Who didn't day dream in school?   Day dream & doodle, I did.  

This cartoon called From A to Z-z-z-z directed by  Chuck Jones - who later created the Grinch, you can see a hint of that 'famous Grinch grin on Ralph as he starts to daydream.  I think other than flying - when he attacks the fish turned deadly shark, is also amusing creativity.  
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I like to record them spinning in the wind, as I did a tiny hummingbird appeared to admire my work. lol... made my morning.    I have a DVD (or a few) -this one is on Warner brothers favourite 50.  When the weather is acting up and internet is effected, I'll watch DVDs...  this has also taught me to keep a actual books on hand for when my Kobo (e reader) crashes or the battery dies.  

It was a fun break from my other project... I'm also painting another chimp on a circle - why not?  
Do what you love...  My daily  To Do: paint, read,  snuggle with dogs.   

I did spy this interesting tree the other day during a walk - isn't that neat?  
​A hole right through - it did not appear to bother the lush greenery above at all. 
Daydreaming, perhaps it's a portal to another dimension... for woodpeckers.

Have a creative day!

Hello Sunshine, gouache on watercolour .  
Let not your hearts be troubled. Believe in God, believe also in me.   John 14:1
Believe.

What's my favourite pastime besides painting? Watching the sunlight dance through the leaves,  its addictive... all other thoughts fade into the shadows as I watch &  contemplate God. It comes naturally, in nature.  Frost comes naturally too - darn it... always anxious for plants, 2 big ones were purchased for the deck &  hit by frost and are looking close to death today.  Oh well, with some TLC  they might be brought back.  It's holiday Monday, a beautiful day  with sunshine  expected -all day.  These chilly mornings  make us appreciate warmth as it slowly increases.

My mom & her partner visited recently & it was a lovely day,  Storm made us Pizzas (delicious)  - so we just got to sit & relax. There's been a few times lately I notice the bond between us.. like the day I made a huge pot of beef fried rice & I went to text her - just as I did, her text arrived "I made a big pot of chicken friend rice today".. what are the odds.  Or the time Storm was visiting her and I texted him "You must be chomping at the bit!" - a phrase I heard growing up meaning: super excited.  He replied "your mother, literally just said that to me a moment ago".   My mom & I also "feel" each others moods.  This sort of thing happens often, and not to just us,  science says mothers & daughters have the closest bond than any other dynamic, especially later in life.   I'm grateful, our relationship has been tumultuous at times (to put it mildly) & that too, is common for mothers and daughters.  I'm 59 & my mom is 80,  we now know, it's as simple as 'here today - gone tomorrow', life has taught us this lesson too many times.   Covid also had us concerned for each others health,  albeit we still don't agree on many issuers & somethings I think (as Im sure she does), no point saying anything, best to avoid and argument... lol.  I guess - that's love.  Let not your hearts be troubled... enjoy our time while we have each other seems easier to do with each passing day.  I'm trying to apply this to everyone, as we all have stuff going on & I for one don't want to add' to anyones stress.  We are here to lift each other up.   Love One Another.   John 13:34

Today, I woke up giving thanks & Praise to Jesus!  The leaves, the fresh air, my dogs snuggled & snoring beside me, birds chirping - Bluejays  calling for breakfast   - we have much to be thankful for.  
​Enjoy your holiday Monday!
​Give thanks for another day.

Do you enjoy birds?  I was gifted a new bird bath, one with tiny bumps - so the birds don't slide in and struggle to get out.  There are countless bluejays here, a family that's enjoyable & amusing to watch & listen to as they call each other and respond, they also fly in a group.  The rage of sounds they create is amazing... I wish I spoke 'bird.
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I created the card above to send to one of my moms friends who calls me monthly, she's known me since I was a toddler & I'm always happy to hear from her- an old bird club member'. lol  When I told her I was 60 (next year) she welcomed me into the 'old bird club, she's in her 80s.   A compliment & accomplishment - for sure.  
We learn as we mature - old age is a gift, not everyone gets to experience.  

Speaking of old birds & a bird lover - below is a great book. What an adventure!  A story of determination, perseverance  - one that changed Canadian history and educated us on our feathered friends  forever - Birds!  A must read for bird lovers, especially if in Ontario. Louise de Kiriline was one impressive woman in my opinion.  She lived in the deep woods and watched birds, as well as educate us on birds.   I could relate to this woman but feel quite unaccomplished, compared to her... there's still time I think, as I currently work on my newest creation.  Interestingly enough, she also developed Trigeminal neuralgia later in life... not fun.  What a character she was & interesting life she led, it took me longer than anticipated to read as it was discouraging to read of the bird decline, of which I am aware...  it doesn't appear to be stopping anytime soon.  Still, it an education filled with many interesting bird facts - as Canadians we can thank her for sharing her love of our feathered friends with others around the world!   If you love birds- you won't be disappointed with tis read.

Happy Long weekend - here in Canada - May 24!  
Play & stay safe.

Painting on the deck!

It's time - painting on the deck -Horay!  Listening to the birds and watching wildlife come alive -Including trees with all different leaves!!  No doubts you have heard/read about the Forest fires in Canada, living in the woods you can't help but imagine the destruction ... fauna, insects, fungi, trees, creatures (big & small) and birds  at a time where there are probably many tiny babies unable to escape, all being burnt.  The comparison of the skies - before & after, with the heavy foggy orange hue are breathtaking, mentally & physically.  I spied a huge jack rabbit today on the lawn & thought of baby bunnies.   What makes the fires in Alberta worse,  we have learned it started with a "controlled burn" by an all women team.  Sigh.  Humans thinking we can control Mother Nature, guess again.  

The town sent out an email and the Haliburton Forest Instagram page posted the same notice:
BYW If you want to learn what's happening in the forest up here- lots to do & see, I suggest you follow them. 

The  first summer I was here - was hot, the grass yellowed quickly.  It doesn't take a genius to understand the issues with a forest full of dead & dried pine needles & last years leaves leaves to realize how fast they can go up in flames, throw in the occasional dead tree & things can get out of hand very quickly & easily.  I was warned by my agent Tom, not not have any fires & if you do & the fire trucks show up - it's a $400. fine/per truck. I get it.   No campfires, no candles, no tiki torches and no fireworks.  For any visiting on the long weekend, I hope they don't find out the hard way.  I'm sure it will put a damper on those wanting to sit around the camp fire or set of some celebratory' fireworks of which I'm not a fan. Fireworks terrify all animals (especially dogs) they add pollution to the air & they harm humans hearing... & of course  you read about some kid  or intoxicated adult who blows off a few fingers or worse.  So yes, I understand why endangering  forest, creatures & forest fighters - all for a few moments of fancy light show & sparklers' is frowned upon. 

Ramps are out & I've made ramp butter - which is delicious on steak or to fry an egg, I also enjoy eating them raw.  The Dryads Saddle mushroom are stating to appear - soon they'll appear in my frying pan.  Trillium are everywhere - red & white.   Don't pick them, if so they don't always come back the next year... there's no point anyhow - my dogs broke one  tamping through the patch & I put it in water but it wilted quickly.  Other than that, I've been painting - a special project & I anticipate it will take a couple of months to complete...  I take a break occasionally & paint other things- but this one take a lot of thought, some writing and much creativity!  Since I am enjoying the process & adventuring with the dogs in between - there's not enough hours in the day for doodling' - or social media. 

Enjoy the day we have been gifted!
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Bow.   gouache on watercolour  

​Bow... with Love.  Lots.
Created to Create.   

It's that time of year - finally able to explore the forest with out bugs - yet, although a few black flies were seen, it won't be long before mosquitos are plentiful.  What a workout! I went last week but this week we walked all over and already spied mushrooms.  Every spring  after we first venture out my feet (in particular) hurt the next day, almost as if broken -after a winter of  walking  on only flat ground. The property is up and down -hills to climb.  I was amused as the guys both asked  "how did you get up here" I think, how the duck  do you think I got up here? Forest fairies carried me? I climbed.  
Use it or lose it.  The climb can be slow and  the dogs stop and watch & wait patiently... but we manage.  Daisy and Ginger feel it too as they are not far behind me, Ginger panting but she keeps up - good because she needs to lose weight & this is the fun way, for us all. An adventure!

Poppy & Arrow are the rock climbing explorers!  I'm amazed at Poppy - hopping from rock to rock, Arrow following her like a good big sister as we 3 watch from below.  We found false morel - the kind you do NOT eat -they are poisonous but it means real morel won't be long. Tons of Trillium just up  - no flowers' yet, in just a couple of weeks it will be harder to explore from all the vegetation, especially wild raspberries with branches that scratch as we walk through them, I worry about the dogs eyes and face but for now - out we go.

I was feeling sad & mentally worn down the other day, a few things on my mind but I had promised the girls" first nice day - we go!"  Once out, surrounded by nature - all was forgotten while discovering mushrooms, shoots, new buds, deer poop and new growth as well as newly fallen trees - next years firewood... as usual I was reminded of Gods greatest creations (besides us) - nature.  It all started in a garden after all.  Nature is good for the mind & soul and dogs. I am grateful to climb as difficult as it can feel at times.  I know many with arthritis who just give up and give in to it.  If I did that, I would have stoped painting about 10 years ago.  The TN also seems to be aggravated by the continuous  ups & downs and stepping over branches...  one eye constantly shutting throws the balance off therefore we just go a little slower.  Arrow runs ahead & returns to my side & I use her for balance at times - dogs know.  Each time & come back feeling simply grateful - because I can explore the forest... never taken for granted.

We're out for at least an hour and come home sweaty, thirsty and exhausted- everyone ready for a nap on the deck.  
​I also felt better emotionally or perhaps I'm just too tired and surrender easier, either way all I can say:  
Thy will be done.  

We also slept great!  Now, I just touch my walking stick and the excitement starts!   Hopefully we'll get out several times before the mosquitos take over, then it's more like a run through the forest to keep them from finding us.
This mornings walk was a bonus - Storm joined us!  A perfect start to a lovely day.
Thy will be done & Thank you, for another day... another adventure.

Some images below of what it looks liken the woods in Ontario, in the spring.

skiing fun plaster & paint on wood 

This was a little out of my element but it was a lot of fun to create albeit not as easy as I anticipated.  Storm learned to ski this past winter & loved it! Skiing is also terrific exercise & he has a winter tan. He loved everything about it & was fortunate enough to have an experienced skier teach him several much appreciated lessons.  I tried a few times many moons ago but  never quite got the hang of it & was telling Storm, my biggest issue was the chair lift - apparently there are many that don't get the hang of it. lol. 

I thought it would be a breeze but painting all these tiny skiers took longer than anticipated.  The final results, I was pleased with. There is even a tiny kitty on skis, as a friend of his takes his cat everywhere & I enjoy seeing the cat on the adventures!  It is not an original idea,  I believe I saw it on instagram...  for anyone with kids -it would be an excellent craft.  If you look closely, you'll even notice one human making a snow angel.  
​Whew... I am glad the snow is gone.

created to create.... back to painting, on paper. 

Primate pondering the Universe. (as usual)  8 x 8 

Storm returned home from a trip and he witnessed the miracle of Northern Lights, the Aurora borealis and I was captivated!  I laughed at my attempt here but I'm guessing, you get it. The only time we experience true failure is when we fail to try - at anything including painting.  I've been encouraging a friend to paint & saw his first 2 paintings and was impressed!  I also realized he could always paint, (& will prove it) he just needed a push in the gouache direction  ;)   We all just need a little encouragement sometimes. 

Another human I've been pondering is Andrew Tate.  The more I hear him speak the more I appreciate his blunt point of view.  Sure he can come across as arrogant, loud and full of himself - but he makes it clear he is also full of God.  Full of self control, full of living this life  to the fullest!  In particular he appears to be in control of his thoughts & emotions.  
He shared his beloved dog died (something I often dread just the thought of) and yes, he was sad but he did not allow it to bring him down. In the past, a Great Dane "Dimitri" comes to mind- I was crushed when he died, I cried for weeks and some days had trouble getting out of bed.  I drank to numb the pain and slept for days.. I did this a few times - especially when a loved one (human) died.  I experienced a deep depression & regression when a young girl 'Kirstin whom we were very close to died in a terrible car accident.  No doubts I've shared in it this blog, somewhere.  I closed my business and thinking back now, I also  was not there for Storm, as I should have been.  She was his best friend.  Grief does that to us and I can only imagine what it does to parents who lose their child.  We can't go back but we can try to forgive ourselves for being human.   I'm starting to realize when we choose to keep going, we are showing those we loved & lost more respect & that we were grateful for the experience.  As my faith in Jesus & God has increased, I understand these difficult lessons are what forms us fastest.  As everything else in this life - it is a choice - do I wallow in pity or thank God for the experience!  Better to have love and lost than not loved at all.  Anyway,  I don't think Andrew Tate is a threat' as many imply... I think he is a positive role model for many, men in particular - rise up, believe in yourself, do good, love God.  

We were not created to be mediocre, see Jesus in yourself & SHINE!!! 

I appreciate after attempting to paint my Aurora Borealis, recognizing once again that the master artist, most talented creator is God.  I give thanks for every breathtaking bud' I now see on every tree & every single star which reminds me of how awesome all is. 

​Thank God for another day to experience this magnificence!
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gouache on black 8 x 8.      Jesus IS always closer, than you think.

This Sunday, I was exhausted (anticipation my sons return :) I didn't get much sleep... so I didn't go to 'church, I don't want to fall into that routine again, where I feel guilty if I miss mass'.  During the week I had a conversation with a woman up here who grew up in the same areas I did and was she is Italian. Onee I realized she was Italian I asked her is she knew 'Commisso's bakery!'  YUM... lol. She laughed and said she did & had gone recently!  I wished I had known -I'd of asked her to pick me up one of their delicious sandwiches "sangwich" as my Italian friend growing up, use to call it. The food is as good but the grocery store is  smaller, she informed.  What a small world indeed. She knows my current home well as she use to look after a woman that lived here!  How nice to meet a fellow former Torontoian', I know there are many.   She also shared she went to a catholic high school that I knew of and went to church regular - I asked her where she attended 'up here' & she said: she doesn't.  We both admitted we do visit 'the Church of the Forest' regularly.   As a matter of fact - it is in the forest, the trees, fauna, creatures I feel closest and grateful for God! 

How can you not see God in every tree, rock and moss covered log with a frog (if lucky).  Everything is a miracle. I believe growing up in a multicultural city like Toronto can be beneficial to expanding knowledge & experiences of humans in general. I had many Italian friends, still my dearest friend since grade 5 is Italian & visiting her home as a kid was a highlight for me, I have many fond memories of her family and her mom insisting "Eat Georgia, you're too skinny!!"  lol.  I also had Jamaican friends, Lebanese, Chinese, Japanese, Portuguese & more! A friend was a friend, nevermind where from or the colour of their skin.  I was introduced to traditions & foods from around the world and my life is richer for it.  

Living here is a new experience & a new appreciation for nature & farmers in particular!  Farmers are hard workers, if only city folk' understood how hard they worked, they wouldn't complain about the cost of beef, eggs, milk etc.  Chickens are work, I am grateful for the experience of raising all creatures.  I've made friends here, I don't even bother asking where 'they are from' - it doesn't matter.  Time & wisdom have taught me - we are all one, on the same path & destination.  Jesus is in all of us. I had a revelation thinking this - just this morning:   Jesus...  JesUS,  all of US are in Jesus.  Once you understand & acknowledge this 'forgiveness' is easy - when I forgive another, I am showing Jesus the Love I have,  for him... easy peasy.  lol. I'm trying, anyway.  The trick is constantly reminding myself,  God sees us all the same.  Loves us equally...  All of US.  
See the light of Jesus in everyone, even in the trees & YOU will  Rest in God.

Ending on a positive note - I wish all experience the Peace Ginger does...  lol.  
​Especially on a perpetual diet. hee hee - I love my chunky girl! Every ounce. 
Happy May!

The Word of God.   Inspire art - creation.

Who knew, the more I read the Word of God the more I am fascinated, in Awe & the more I am convinced of Gods Glory. God knew.   It's a book, Im having trouble putting down.

Mentioned previously, I’m painting in my bible & have a few sketch books dedicated to things I read inspired by Jesus.  Typically I paint it on Sundays but lately I enjoy painting it  & painting Jesus inspired by Jonathan Roumie - to have a 'visual has helped my creativity…  Jonathan portrays Jesus as I thought Jesus would be! The Chosen has inspired a new passion for creativity for me, how do you thank someone  like Dallas Jenkins for creating content that will inspire millions -to judge less & love more.  The Chosen is helping many understand,  I hope he recreates it all.  I can only imagine how he would share stories of David, Joseph… & of course the creation. 

The past couple of years I have friends, family who are struggling, I myself struggle, who doesn’t with happenings - happening.  We all lose loved ones, we all suffer at times and we all have things happen where we look to God and ask  - why?  I suggest people read their bible, if only to understand ‘this IS life’.    It took me a long time, years of church’ did not quite explain.. everything for a reason.  The reason is Jesus. The teacher is Jesus & he is clear, as it is mentioned over & over what is expected of us.  So, I’m not sure what to tell anyone, anymore.  During difficult times or when struggling with something I share what brings me peace.  I rest in God.  T he word of God brings me peace & strengthens me.

I am far from perfect & no saint but I am on the path that I feel I need to be on..
I choose God. I’m going to try to live up to Jesus expectations’.  It feels right for me.  It hit me at breakfast with my son not long ago & I said - once you read it (a few times now) you understand, & you can't 'pretend' you don't know. God knows.  Everything we do is a choice - much like once seen you can not un see.  Everyday we are presented with choices,  IF you believe, then  our choices are very clear.  

Everyday, I will choose forgiveness, that is what is expected of us & WHY Jesus died - for us.
Have faith & leave it to God. 

Created to create

Grow.  Gouache on watercolour  5 x 9

Today the garden was planned, looking out a window as it rained, if only in my mind -it's off to a great start! It's expected to rain for the next week,. I love rain, No blue, no green.   We're not sure what we will plant, cucumbers & some tomatoes are a given.  God gave us all we need, right here, with every seed.   Let food be thy medicine.  You have to plan because it's a shorter growing season & to make the most from the harvest will take some planning. 

We watched, The Jesus Revolution...  it blew my mind.  I can't stop thinking about it.
Is that what we will do, tell Jesus to 'cut the theatrics?'  After so many rise up because of him.  Will we behave as the Romans all over again?
Jonathan Roumie in particular,  has really got me thinking.   What if...  
yes, we probably will behave as they did in the movie.  Again.  He is a perfect Jesus  & appears to be a kind, gracious person, practicing what he preaches.  I hope he continue to inspire many, his portrayal in The Chosen  has brought the Bible to life' for many.   It has created a new interest, new excitement - is the Jesus Revolution upon us, again?  
I hope so.  

It also had me wondering: How does one live with such a rise to fame & not get caught up in it all?  I'm sure people must constantly approach him, some hoping to touch the trim of his black leather jacket.  Hee hee  He' that good.  Gods plan, accept it.  Thy Will Be Done.  We are all here to serve, some  in a unique way -  every way is unique.  Most of all - I feel even closer to Jesus - how is that possible?  Not wanting to judge anyone & forgive all.
The sooner the better.   Forgive so we can focus on God with all out heart, mind & soul - as we are asked.  Focus on why we are here, how we are to serve.

I'm not sure why, any more  - why or how' but understand it's not for me to understand.
God knows. I trust in God.

Everything is a lesson God will have us learn, sometimes the lesson isn't even for me Thinking of my past & experiences, I know God has always been with me & always had a plan for me, each experience prepares us for the next.  Trust in God. 
Just like we should trust - all this rain will bring flowers!  

​Created to create.

Jesus wandering & pondering.   8 x 8 gouache on black
Georgia, on my mind…

I heard Michelle Obama remark, she hated her husband for 10 years and that’s how it is quite often, for people married 30 years.  Yep.  I’d be a liar if I said it was all bliss, far from it - that is where ‘we are at’.  Most days I doubt we will remain together another week, let alone year.  I am tired & he knows it. 

A friend shared: I’m tired of being yelled at.  
I think: I'm tired of yelling!  & considered adding - if tired of being yelled at, stop being an asshole.   Usually I yell  about things that have actually kept Norm alive & healthy!  He sees this as ‘nagging’.  I don’t care anymore, I’ve been pushed to the brink.  I’d rather remain silent that deal with bullshit & yelling - we can easily go weeks without speaking.  I consider (daily) going it alone instead of putting up with CONSTANT crap.  A perfect example & I share to educate what I KNOW, it’s like for many… A few lessons have been recently learned- the hard way, for Norm.

For 3 decades I have argued with Norm who works with tools daily, DO not drink alcohol on the job (he does not), focus on your work when at work & wear the necessary safety equipment.  Which I know he owns, I made sure.  Yesterday, Norm texted from ER in Minden - got a chunk of wood in my eye.. I’ll be late.  There you go… something I’ve been literally yelling about for years & when he finally got home I yelled again: You almost lost your fucking eye!!!  It looked painful & he took out a chunk of cornea so, I didn’t yell too long.  I don’t care,  I can’t care.  I’ve cared for 30 years and all it has done is created a wider divide & caused me unnecessary added stress & made me ill.  No, I do not have sympathy for him, I’ve yelled, begged, reasoned and - to him - I know nothing.  For someone who knows nothing, here I am proved right, again.  I bet that stings’ more that the chunk of wood did.   I’m tired of stressing and yelling to someone who refuses to listen.

But, I think it’s also a sign' to mention something else…
At service on Sunday I was made aware of a petition to keep the Minden ER open as they are closing it. You can sign the petition at Canoe Radio station. This makes no sense at all, closing it apparently from lack of nurses.. hmmmmmm. All those nurses, fired because they refused to be vaccinated are sure missed now.  But moving it to Haliburton - Norm waited in the ER hours just to be seen, he didn’t get home until after 8p.m and told me he went after lunch.  Can you imagine how much longer one will have to wait if this ER is closed, how much more over worked Haliburton ER doctors & nurses will become? & let’s not forget tourist season.  Everyone, not just Minden should be trying to address this closure - everyone who visits cottage country for fun and games from all over the world let alone the province - shit happens, & when it does, your options to have it addressed quickly are becoming smaller... life threatening.

Long ago, I had to take/drive 2 drunks (whom I loved) to ER in Huntsville to be stitched up for stupidity.  The Dr and I had a serious conversation regarding how often this happens and people have no clue what their recklessness and lack of education are doing to Emergency rooms.  Many who visit during the summer were just having fun (usually alcohol is involved) ending in accidents, even death.   I get it! Drinking and the cottage life, go hand in hand. Been there done that. So - to close it, all those who are unfortunate enough to have an emergency are screwed - longer drive & waits to be expected. 

Never mind tourists adding to the situation, the majority of people up here full time are retired, elderly who NEED medical care more frequently, emergencies, heart attacks, falls..  Is this so forced private care will be necessary, costing $$$ to individuals? Individuals who worked hard their entire lives to create such a community, now expected to go elsewhere when they need help the most?   I do think they should protest, in their walkers & wheelchairs, water wings and bathing suits! Get the attention it deserves - their lives, our lives, tourist lives - depend on it.  
I'm not confident -signing a petition, will make any difference.

On a positive note, (lol) it has provided me with the excuse to remind Norm:  
Matthew 7:3-5
3 “Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother’s eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? 4 How can you say to your brother, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ when all the time there is a plank in your own eye? 5 You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother’s eye.

Let’s end with this song, sing it with me….
Don't it always seem to go  
That you don't know what you've got 'til it's gone?
They paved paradise, put up a parking lot.  
​(Shoo-bop-bop-bop-bop  Shoo-bop-bop-bop-bop)

Created to create
PUT ON your *&^%$#@  safety goggles!