I had anew neurologist appointment on Wednesday, I said 'I was done', but I was asked to consider and 'why not just go' , was what all started saying. - so I went.
What can I say? I had a very emotional day yesterday - happy to be home alone - but missing my son big time as he fishes in Ottawa somewhere.
I just needed to process the words discussed.
I really liked the Dr., she was female and I will say - it was the most thorough exam to date. She did not look like a Dr. at all - I got a vibe - she is a woman that knows how to kicks ass when need be - powerful. I liked her.
I did not enjoy most of what she was saying... talks of why didn't I have that one where they inject the dye!? YOU know why! If you follow the blog ;( Lies and mistakes.
A new date for this test will be booked.
Why hasn't anyone stayed on top of that lump they found in your brain?
I forgot about that... I was told after the FIRST MRI when this started they also saw a growth. Another MRI - let's compare.
NO, it is NOT MS. (I was worried - and thought I'd ask outright)
No, my vein in my next will not 'snap', from pulling so much - I think I've asked before but it sure feels like it - so I asked again! lol
Medication, Radiation, injections... and I am more exhausted than I was before I arrived to the appointment. I have much to think about.
It was also difficult as all else there were old people. lol Says the 51 year old woman.
I will take a few more tests and decide as I GO ALONG this path. I will decide.
Just me. My life. My head.
It was the first appointment I had Norm come with, he has a clue of course but had a rude awakening when actually sitting with me listening to the Dr., and denial is no longer an option. Right away he said - 'well, if the radiation can help..' he then got the LOOK.
So - what happened 'great' from all of this?
I no longer give a rats ass about Walmart or anywhere else. LOL
I'll never let myself get stressed over them again!
I am here to draw - it is what I love to do! & I can and AM!
Crying only makes my face wet and triggers my twitch!
I told her and looked at Norm: "I'm not so fun to live with all the time..."
She said, she did not imagine I was and could completely understand why.
It still does not make it any easier ;( I'm not fun to live with all the time.
Pain does take over & patience is lost - especially with those closest to us. <3
Thank God - they love me to bits! I know my guy love me - I've no doubts. ;)
I won't be distracted, By FB, Google, PIN or Instagram! (hee hee loving it btw- georgia.toons) I don't need to be apart of 'clicky little groups' - I am a part of the group who cares about the planet & each other - ALL OF US. Even the ones who don't use cannabis!
I have one boss and I was just reminded to GET BUSY.
New cannabis cartoon tomorrow -
***The last time I'm drawing 'what kills more kids than cannabis'!!
Because it is the last. No more needs to be said.
What am I creating:
Stuff for Thanks Giving!
An old dog gets anew paint job and life!
Coloring pages! Cannabis and more!
A Poppy cut out & coloring page..
Painting Norms Birthday gift!
Halloween coffin blow out - lol & more.
Have Faith! <>< xox