Today is a new day. 
I was gifted Friday a book, and read it already. I loved it.  Although, I do feel the he, E. Alexander M.D. forgot about us 'not so medically inclined',  I was dumb struck a few times.  LOL  
Hey, we can't all be brain surgeons. 
I was hesitant to read it because of the brain issues (frightened, a better word) but glad I did.  My faith is strong and I already believe in heaven. I believe there is more to us than this. We are all better than this <3.  I BELIEVE in GOOD and God.   
In a world full of temptation/lies/greed/pain it is hard to focus always on the good.
I too know that pain and fear bring out the worst in people and I am NO exception.
I am thankful for those around me that love me enough to remember that. ;)
Still, a few times "Proof Of Heaven!"  hit too close to home. 
Thinking of it now I tear up. <3 that poem.
He says he is meant to write that book and I feel I was meant to read it. 
That is what it is all about. Helping each other. 
I am glad I read it, not for proof of heaven but reminder that we are all ONE. 
ONE LOVE ❤  
It inspired the toon! At first I was just going to draw pills and cannabis, and then I was poked in the head to be reminded of the Bigger picture!!!  :)
I am pulling back, looking in praying/meditation and DRAWING. Amen! 
Enjoying my newly painted & clean (LOL - how long it will stay that way, time will tell.) kitchen - I have sunshine indoors all the time! I LOVE IT! That and my guys and girls... 
Good Vibes always appreciated! 
xox <><  !!!

Last night I went to bed in tears. Feeling completely frustrated and overwhelmed.

I had another visit with the neurologist and after the usually questions and concerns, I asked him if he actually had a diagnoses, after talking about Hemi facial spasm and Trigeminal neuralgia, the 5th and 7th nerve...  No.  
 They cannot understand why I am having what I am and the pain associated with it.

 I feel when I tell them how bad it is - it is not that they don’t believe - CLEARLY there is something going on, but I think they don’t ‘get the severity’ of it? I wonder is it because I am not in the office sobbing?  Or that I don’t lie around all day feeling sorry for myself? 
I can tell you, I DO feel like doing that. 
 I fought off tears several times in his office yesterday.  IT is much harder to try to remain positive and busy and hopeful.   

After the last surgery,  I do feel better BUT whatever is going on is still going on and every day It MAKES me very aware that It can all be gone in an instant. I struggle with this reminder - as much as I AM REALLY grateful the new found appreciation and determination.. everyday thinking my brain is going to explode is exhausting.  
These constant electrical zaps  leave me feeling  ‘fizzled” 
My attack last week left me exhausted for 2 days.  
I still have them constantly.. with a “doozie’ every now and then making an appearance.
Usually one a day. ;(

In his opinion, it is not getting better (mine too - it’s going on 4 YEARS slowly escalating)
He feels more surgery is the only opinion. The first not a complete success (it was in the fact that I’m still here! :)  NOT knowing exactly what they are going in for...  has me not to keen on the whole idea again - recovery itself seems daunting. Been there done that and in NO hurry to do it again.
I am frightened.

I need to take a break and think. 
I wondered about sharing this... it’s time. My hand forced by someone on FB.  This is my life at the moment and for what ever reason this is where I am meant to be. Happy or not. 

I had a lesson last week on FB when someone was PISSED at me. Angry because I have not been responding to his messages or posts.  First let me tell you having over 500o people on FB has it down falls, like messages every time you log on, I am constantly added to groups, events and my messages are never fewer than 50 every time I log on. Hard to keep up with for anyone, never mind someone who is also trying to work, be a mom, cartoonist, wife and suffers from some crazy brain thing.
I then was angry with him and asked him if he was aware I had brain surgery and have still been dealing with serious issues. No he was not. 
No he does not bother to read my post, blogs etc only pissed that I did not share his website and his goings on.  Yes, he apologized.                        

So here it is. I am not well. I have not been well for a while. I have been sicker than I have let on to most but a few are very aware of what has been going on. On top of all this I deal with other stuff, like the constant concern and battle over my sons medicine. Cannabis.
Stress added to the mixture - not good BUT unavoidable.
 A growing concern with changes expected in the near future, no thanks to Health Canada. 

I have hoped people would focus on my work and not my health and it appears to have worked out ;-)  I can’t get mad for the lack of others understanding, awareness or even compassion at times. It says more about them than it will ever say about me. Simple.

I will end by saying that when I woke up today the first thing I did was thank God for opening my eyes and for the fact that I got out of bed.
I will NOT spend the day in bed crying, I will draw, spend the day with the girls (Storm is camping) I will celebrate every meal I am blessed with and every conversation I have. I will continue to hope I get better.  I will have faith that everything does happen for a reason. All of this BTW has made me a better person. 
 I will also continue to use my cannabis as it numbs the pain and gives me a break if only for minutes at a time. I am grateful for it. It keeps me positive! 

So why share? In hope that if ONLY one person stops and thinks before they make assumptions, judge or even aggravate -  do you really know what each other is dealing with? How about we first ask ourselves that before we jump on some ones back as to why we are NOT the focus of THEIR attention. 

Compassion and LOVE.
I am stronger today than I was last night. 

I know why I am drawing and now I know why a few years ago we called my strip:
Cultivating Compassion.
GROW LOVE.     

xox <><

Music for your blog reading enjoyment:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dzs1K3caXJk
Wow, this cartoon smacked me right in the head ;-) Awesome.
It started with a joke from my best bud Cathy.♥ 
I was stressed wondering what to draw for 4/20?! 
The universal day of 
Celebration for Cannabis!!! 
A Plant.
Grown from a seed.
Made by *GOD.
(*original patent holder)


Medical, Recreational, Hemp, Food, Fuel.. 
It's the day and I want to say THANK YOU!  
                                       I have said it so many times, I thank God daily for this Plant! 
Give us this Day our daily Bud...  <3 Wow. YES,   I read recently  how powerful that prayer is;  Give us this dayour daily bread,  -not thanks for yesterday, or make sure I have it tomorrow. Give us THIS day.  Focus on today.
.. and forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive those who trespass against us,
 and that                 ^ ^        ^  That simply put means  ^    ^  ^             :
                                               PEACE, PEOPLE!  
Religion aside... who can argue with those lines?  How else are we going to get ahead, clearly WAR is not the answer! 
Thank you Marvin, now in my head for the rest of the day.
People all around the world who suffer over a plant. A plant less toxic than many others,  proven helpful to ease pain, yet illegal and lives destroyed because of it.    
WTF?   O.M.God.  How disappointing.  
A PLANT.  While others  rape, kill, abuse, terrorize, suffer & starve needlessly... 
enough with the bullshit distraction. 
FOCUS on the REAL problems at hand. 

Rise Up people! Speak up! <3   Celebrate this Plant! Let it be a symbol of change.
It all starts with a SEED!!!  Life.

So.. Yes!
     Give us this Day our daily bud, 
       and thank you Lord  for it!
I do! Everyday! Keeping the Love of my life happy - How could I not give thanks?
Celebrate 4/20, Spread Peace and Love !!! 
- there are already enough assholes doing the opposite;-)


xox <><

Today is Good Friday.

A day to celebrate and awesome, righteous man.  A day sadly where we are asked to remember a terrible, traumatic, nasty death.  Good Friday.

Good for us. He have been forgiven.

I saw a post today of all days - something about religions fighting wars about ‘fictional characters’. It was a smart ass comment, the last thing I believe God wants - is his children killing each other.   So that comment got me thinking...

Who is a fictional character, well in my mind when someone tells me we have a Prime Minister  of Canada - My mind thinks (USE to), someone that cares for his country , the land and the people. A passionate man, Strong and true, to keep us Glorious and Free!! - Yes that is my fine Canadian mind at work. So then we have . S.T.  who is nothing like that. To me he has become a fictional character.  Just Like George Bush probably has become to many - not the Man they hoped would rise above, Stand beside her, and guide her. Through the night with a light from above. From the mountains, to the prairies,To the oceans, white with foam. NO, not G.W. Jr. 
So you tell me, who is a fictional character?  The men that lie to us? 
That is fiction. They are NOT who they appear to be.

Jesus was a man, the perfect man. IMO. 
Who was murdered for no reason. For doing, saying and being what he was. He was not hurtful, jealous, greedy, selfish. 
It is a lesson of LOVE like no other. 

So if you want to say it is fiction, that is fine. In my mind He is and always will be, the best example/role model of a human being I am aware of.
Fictional or real.

It is a sad day.  Very unfair.  Like life can feel.
I do not focus on the sad, I focus on the LOVE and HOPE that Easter brings. 
One Love.
xox <><

I watched a great Ted Talk the other day! 
It was about a gardener. 
A man who is making a difference, feeding the poor as well as making the world more beautiful.
L.A. Green Ground - completely volunteer and free. 
Need I say more?
AWESOME.

You can watch it here:    
http://www.ted.com/talks/ron_finley_a_guerilla_gardener_in_south_central_la.html
Hopefully you too shall be inspired! 
xox <><

About the Pope....
Last night we were discussing the Pope and Storm mentioned them smoking to vote, joking about them sitting in a room and saying 'blow it out the window!'  The toon was born.  
I'm not sure I'd have been able to draw Pope John Paul in the same situation,  I liked him.  The Pope is just a man. Clearly one who is capable of making some serious mistakes.  Of which I am so disgusted it has really had me thinking twice about attending church ever again; I go for the people, community and friends as well as I enjoy the message from time to time... I don't need to go to church to spend time with God.  I also have issues with Jesus  (I❤Jesus) and everything he stood for... about giving to the poor? Perhaps the pope does not have internet and is not aware of starving HUMANS all over the world as they eat off gold plates.... the riches organization in the world. Good luck finding a needle for that camel.

I am not his judge and to be honest with you, drawing this cartoon today I felt sorry for him. A man of God... do not suffer the children. Well, his judgment day is coming and I bet he is doing some serious thinking.  
I lost respect of the 'church' with this POPE.

BUT - It does not men I don't have hope in a POPE! A new Pope.
Someone commented "oh, they are all the same,  it's just an excuse -
  every priest is a peto- "
I said  "Stop right there stoner!"
I said this to  medical patient who hates to be thought of as a stoner. 
Point made. 
One bad apple don't spoil the whole bunch baby..  I have known a few good priests who I still miss to this day. Father Yves and Father Hull - I think of them often and consider my life blessed because they were both in it.
Many men do good and many are NOT all about the bling. So, Let's hope when we see the smoke it will the to announce a new, caring, compassionate man - who truly wants to do Gods work and make this world  a better place.  
Just a man. 
Who works for God...  
so do I, just in a different department. ;-) 

I sent this toon  to a friend and his reply:  
"I wish they would smoke...it would probably make them more compassionate."

I was thinking exactly the same thing when I drew it.  

I think I will write to the new POPE to get his opinion on Cannabis ;-) 
You can do that I hear... I wonder if I can e mail him. 
I think it will be interesting if he is Black! I do not care what color he is as long as he is a good man with a good heart. From what I understand they are all very intelligent, well... appear to be.

This Pope resigning... may he rest in peace in hiding.  

xox <>< 
I hope I have not offended anyone, especially my women friends but this is a cartoon with a pope smoking cannabis. Not a real life situation where the pope did much worse.  

I really enjoyed the following article, I hope they do not mind I share. 
What would Jesus do!  He would not be letting his people suffer over a plant - that is for sure.

Christians say “No” to cannabis?
01 March 2013, 14:01
Not all Christians are the same. This I understand and appreciate as it would be wrong to generalize based on religion. Christian scripture (aka The Bible) contains a lot of conflicting and sometimes scary information, much of which simply cannot be applied in today’s world. Yet I respect that one be allowed the freedom to practice their religion privately and not harm others in the application of their religion, even if there are aspects of it which I may not personally agree with.

The crunch comes through when political parties perch upon their religion as if makes them morally superior to others and then feel that their personal beliefs entitle them to make unfounded, ignorant and otherwise deliberately misleading statements to the public.  Statements that are severely at odds with their religion which they have based their political tenants on.  Sure, you cannot be expected to kill your neighbor because he or she worked on a Sunday or be entitled to sell your daughter. But what about a defining aspect of your religion, an aspect on which your very religion is named?

The sweet and short on the origination of the word “Christian” is that it means followers of the anointed one (aka The Messiah or Jesus). But as we all know, the devil is in the details. What do you think was a key ingredient of this holy anointment oil? I’ll give you three guesses. You probably only need one though.

Did you guess that the magic ingredient was cannabis? Then you are correct. So here we have a religion which is based on cannabis being a part of the many pivotal aspects of their Messiah’s good deeds. Throw in the aforementioned origination of the word Christian and we see how relevant cannabis was to the foundations of Christianity. Do I think that this means Christians should therefore by default support and promote the use of cannabis? No I do not. Just because Jesus also made booze out of water, does not mean that I would expect them to support the consumption and promotion of the stuff. .. even though they do by teaching kids about the holy relevance of wine.

A recent article of mine highlighted how absurd it was for the some groups to continue supporting the prohibition of cannabis, as it is becoming increasingly clear that cannabis prohibition does not work and creates more problems than it attempts to resolve. Unlike their views on the matter, I have long provided supporting objective studies regarding the need for an end to this failed and expensive social burden.  But what help is it playing study poker with an organisation that prides itself on putting its personal beliefs before facts and ignores the very foundations of these personal beliefs on its mission to have its bible buttered on both sides.

I only hope that this political party does not continue to reflect so negatively on its fellow Christians. Besides, judging by the longstanding religious violence that continues to plague our planet it would appear that smoking some grass is not as bad for your health as it is to be Christian, Muslim, Jewish, etc.

Yet people are afforded the freedom to subscribe to a religion without being considered criminals, even if it costs them their lives. A fundamental mistake in thinking that the cannabis legalization movement is about promoting cannabis use when it is in fact a movement that is against the persecution of responsible adult cannabis users and intends on ending the damage done by a law that’s harm far exceeds its intentions.

The discussion is being had one way or another, will others continue to make themselves completely irrelevant by spouting cherry picked and outdated news stories or will they face the facts and help in the discussion towards a legal, regulated and constructive South African cannabis industry? What would Jesus do?

For more info on the cannabis culture or the fight to free the weed, please visit
www.belowthelion.co.za


Thank you! ^^^

Wow! I found it really interesting to check out that website just now, after the post I made earlier on FB- I'd say it's a sign ;-)  
Oh, and then I found that image of Jesus and yes, It made me giggle... still giggling.
Ah, God is Good.

 It is REALLY a WORLD WIDE problem and it has to end. 
ONE LOVE. 
WORK TOGETHER! 
<><   xox

I have a friend who says his all the time.. Let Go and Let God. Surrender.  Have faith.  I struggle every day with this. 
It is so hard to just let go. I try to  control this ^%$# twitch - still - 3 years later and I say to myself - I can make it stop.  It's no different from yesterday - it just seems like on some days it becomes too much. Little things that I deal with all the time suddenly seem HUGE and I want to scream out of frustration. I feel myself build up anger, resentment - I start to feel emotionally and physically exhausted and overwhelmed. 
Time to LET GO! 
Time to stop fighting it, take a mental break - step aside, read a book, distract yourself, meditate.  Time to hand it over. 
As if we have any control over any of this anyway.
xox <>< 

2013 Is here and I AM Thrilled!! New day, new year -new chance to get it right! I am ready, we have spent the past few days re-organizing my craft room/painting studio/guest room, when I was recovering - all stuff ended up in there - so that when I looked at it I felt anything but crafty! More like closing the door and running. Well it is done now, we also took down the tree and all the decorations! I woke up today to a clean house for January the 1st! 
AWESOME!

Cartoons waiting to be inked and colored - enough for a couple of weeks easy! I was thinking, I shall call consider last year my wake up call year, with my own health issues & surgery behind me, still on the road to recovery but more determined than ever to get better and be better.  For my own sense of balance I will force myself to work on all topics I enjoy and not get consumed by the insanity that comes with Cannabis education.  Since so near and dear to my heart - the topic - will be a focus that is for sure!  I plan on getting more out of 2013...
More time loving less time dreaming!
More time drawing less time looking at FB!
More time focusing on positive - less time to bitch!
More time playing with the dogs- less time worrying about regular exercise!
Time to draw and then perhaps a bit of painting.

I'd like to start my year off by thanking God for ALL of it.
Every pencil, every piece of paper and every puff.
xox <>< 

* Rant warning! Read no further if you think I don't get angry.  As much as I try to stay positive - IT gets the better of me-  I have to get & let it out.

From time to time I am compelled to draw the same cartoon with  a twist. WHY? 
Because it is the same bullshit - different day. I have drawn this one far too many times.

I thank GOD when people say "Storm looks great! "
Yes he does!! ***BEAMING***  
He eats healthy - and he is the one that has his dad and I  also eating better.
He drinks very little alcohol - perhaps a beer from time to time. 
He works out at he gym. He is determined NOT to let his bone disease get the better of him. This however does not mean he is not in pain. He is never really out of pain.
With his medicine - Cannabis - he able to control it where it is NOT controlling him.
I don't know if you get that. I don't care.

He works hard to look good and keep his body as healthy as he can. 
It does not mean his bone disease in not progressing. It is. We know it. He knows it.
and we don't give a f*ck if you know it or not..  (oops control)

LOOK around you.  
If you were able to match all the numbers with the people in the cartoon above, then I am afraid one of us has failed.  Me as the cartoonist or you as a person?  
I'll leave that for you to judge...

When I drew the above cartoon I thought of each person with love. I did not have in my mind that anyone of them did/was anything. Just people.
Because, quite frankly - I have no f*cking clue who does what, and neither do you! 
Hello!? A murderer? If we knew what they looked like...
I'm pretty sure there would be fewer murderers!!! 

So please stop. 
Think - AM I Judging this person with out really understanding??
I AM  far from perfect... I tell this  ^ to my own mind all the time and I believe it is working.  I will not give up.
AT the end of the day I have to judge myself. 

You do not know what someone is dealing with by looking at them, think about it. 
Then again - with the expection of some seriously ill.   They look like they are dying. 
 So thank you GOD my son looks great! I want to shout it to the world! 
And you know why!  Plant and prayer;-) IMO.

On top of everything else do you think people who are sick, living with a serious condition, NEED you to say - "Well you don't look sick!?"       `WTF? 
YES there are fakers. They will be judged soon enough. We can't stop them or prevent them.  Then there are people like my son, who wishes every single day, more than anything they were not in the situtation that they are but they try to rise above it -every day! 
We have always told Storm you will grow up to be what ever you want! 
You have to believe! 

So... every time some thoughtless F%$!  says- "you dont' look sick" with a 'snarky smirk' on their face - I want to smack them.                    *Sigh*
I apologize.  Please forgive my momentary loss of control. 
I AM a MOTHER - I LOVE my SON. 
We know what he has lived with and continues to deal with daily. Be thankful you do not. You or your children.
 
WHO are you to make the ASSumtion my son is fine because 'he doesn't look sick'?
Or anyone for that matter? Have you walked in their shoes? Have you experienced what they experience? 
WHO are you to tell us, as a family what we can or can not use to heal his pain and make our all lives happier?  

WHO ARE YOU?!  

“You're going to come across people in your life who will say all the right words at all the right times. But in the end, it's always their actions you should judge them by. It's actions, not words, that matter.” 
― Nicholas Sparks, The Rescue

“When I stand before God at the end of my life, I would hope that I would not have a single bit of talent left, and could say, 'I used everything you gave me.” 
― Erma Bombeck        

I AGREE !
 xox Georgia 
☮☯☝✞☭☬☫☩☪☨☧☦☤  = ONE LOVE

I have said it before.
Walk in my shoes, learn what we have learned about Pharmacetuical drugs and then tell me you would not give your child Cannabis under the same circumstance! 
Watch this link and tell me this mother or father is wrong 
- LISTEN to the DR.  then .. imagine it is your child.
http://live.huffingtonpost.com/r/segment/parents-choose/50b663372b8c2a5d91000184
I am so tired of hearing this argument. 
WE live it. WE see it's miracle and  I <3 these parents! 
SHARE - teach! Sooner or later Dr.s will have to agree. 
AS PARENTS we must demand what is best for our children. ASK them - what would they do if it was their child?   
 The next time someone says - but there are medications for nausea - yes there are and while you are at it - LOOK up the side effects!!  Dr.s have no problem prescribing  drugs to children - but have issues with a PLANT? *  That has never caused OVERDOSE or DEATH.
WHAT parent in their right mind would give their children an opiate that they can become addicted to or even die from?  I'd rther watch my child laugh and happy than be a zombie on the sofa- TRUST me - I saw him for far too long sit and suffer and not play because he was in pain. UNTIL he tried cannabis. 
TALK to your Dr. 
The choice is Clear- Cannabis!!! 
I feel great about this news! Can you tell?  I drew this cartoon last week in bed and finally felt good enough to paint it today ;-))) - so Thank You God!  xox <>< 

* Note: Not all Dr.s I have been blessed with the best. ♥ .
Talk to your Dr. Help educate them. 
They are ONLY human. <super smart but still human ;-)
<><

We say In God we Trust, it's on every American $$$.
The USA president put his hand on the bible... is this all for show? Have ye so little faith? 
It says in the Bible,  fist page: 
11 And God said, Let the earth bring forth grass, the herb yielding seed, and the fruit tree yielding fruit after his kind, whose seed is in itself, upon the earth: and it was so.
12 And the earth brought forth grass, and herb yielding seed after his kind, and the tree yielding fruit, whose seed was in itself, after his kind: and God saw that it was good.

I do not recall anywhere in the bible where it states that one person, country, organization can take out a patent on one of God's creations. Is it just me? But here it is, BEHOLD...
USA Patent on Cannabis:   http://www.google.com/patents/US6630507

W.T.F?  I also have watched several documentaries on companies like Monsanto trying to hold patent on plants in India- Until crops started to fail and EVEN MORE people started to starve and die & have since decided this is not a good thing.
 IF you don't believe in God - then substitute  in my drawing who ever you want! 
Imagine Mother nature, Buddha or your friendly family farmer!  What ever it takes for us to get it and help educate others before this continues to get out of complete control. 
Consider it the religion of all humanity - One Love
WHY would we let any ONE person, government, country - hold a patent to a plant! 
2 words should be popping into your mind...  
                                 WORLD HUNGER 
Yesterday I watched a Doc., it was  about beautiful Burma : 
They Call It Myanmar: Lifting the Curtain. < click  *Well worth the watch.  I was touched at the comment if they have 3 meals a day (and I'm not talking Popeye's chicken or Swiss Chalet) they consider themselves rich. Their children lucky if they can go to school for one year. ;-( Then it's off to work - job's I cannot imagine doing.  They are peaceful people with a great faith that have been neglected for far too long. They inspire. 
You should watch it and see what happens when we lose control.
WE lose control when we let others have it, and to have it over what is most important to every single being on this planet - nutrition/food- is incredibly frightening and quite stupid of us.  HOW many are we???  So this toon is about Cannabis and so much more- it is about every single plant and seed on this planet that we all MUST share.
I love plants as you can see below I have them on every window in my home , every room...  what's next? I'm afraid to think of the possibilities if they continue the direction they are going. 
Another few  great Documentaries to watch.. 
http://topdocumentaryfilms.com/poison-on-the-platter/
http://topdocumentaryfilms.com/life-running-out-of-control/
^^ One of my favorites.   There are SO many - I wonder why?
Watch or don't,  Monsanto is hoping you don't. 
xox  <>< ❤☮☯

Well it's here and although I woke up feeling stressed today with the surgery being so close I found myself focusing more on recovery. I've already starting the healing process! I am drawing myself AFTER surgery already! ;) LOL

It has been 3 years. Steadily progressing the past year has been very frightening with the degree that it has escalated. 
I have stopped going out. Socializing in general, going to church, visiting friends and I hope that that will all be over very soon, not to mention I will start to feel better. I can't help but think of many who have a disability like this that does not go away, or many that suffer from far worse. ;(
With this surgery there is hope!   If God has decided to grace me with surgery that will tame this twitch I shall be creatively grateful! Pencils sharpened! 
I'm going to rest my mind, focus on where I want to go and how I want to get there. Peacefully. Creatively.
So with only one more sleep - it is very clear what matters most to me:
 It is NOT Cannabis, not $$$, not drawing, no- not even my dogs... 
The love I feel for my husband and the best son in the entire universe (you can't go any further) who have supported me on this rough ride - and it has not always been cannabliss - I can tell you that! I look forward to being better and having good times with my guys! 
Fish to catch, stuff to design, Norm to build, Drawings to do! Crafts to craft! 
Dogs to play with!  Adventures to be had!  I have SEEDs to sow! 

This is my official last post for a bit ;-) I will play it by ear (or brain) lol  and blog when better. xox ♥☮☝

Remember to plant the seed of Cannabis education!!! 
Love
Georgia xox 

If I said thinking about surgery I was not frightened, I'd be a LIAR .
Every now and then it hits me,  as the day goes on and I have several twitch attacks and a head ACHE since the moment my brain registers it is awake.. the fear disappears and I know this has to be done.  I am getting my Zen Den ready! 
Determined to surround myself with all things I love  and keep it simple I have a few key essentials:
- my ipod with meditation music - lots of Om mani padme hum going to be happening ;D.
-T.V. & DVD player  and of course my box sets of Warner Brother cartoons! Watched a few of my favs. last night! Has made me feel good since I was a kid!
-I made a 'positive vibes board' & complimentary pins (can't tell you too much about it, as it is a very cool and up coming craft)!!  I hope to stick it with ideas, photos and more  to keep me inspired & focused. 
-A book that I have read before (I'm not going to strain my brain in any way)  Our Lady of the Lost and Found  < click to read more. It is inspiring, fun, interesting and I find the entire concept pretty cool.  I love a good book and have found that reading this one - I am easily drifting off on inspired ideas..  I also have The Pot Book and am expecting  Hempology 101  in the mail by Ted Smith any day ! So I will have some material for CC Cartoons - Not that I ever seem to be a at a lack for material;-) Also the Bible ♥
-OF course - I have my supply of pencils, paper, note pads and ink! Ready to rock! 
Buddha & beside him my hemp ball, my mini ROOR, my Plenty by my bedside and a dish of healing herb - without it I do not know how I'd have got through these past few years! 

So I'm ready! Storm has been -as always fantastic, from helping mop to more <3 The only think I'm  'upset' about is I have to keep the girls locked out of my bedroom for 2 weeks. Should be interesting. I am so ready for this healing process to begin. * after a difficult day yesterday - this toon came to me last night and made me giggle so I drew it to give to my Dr. before surgery - Note* Right side please! LOL  I hope he has a sense of humor. 
Last Post tomorrow for 2 weeks peeps. I am shutting down.  <3

I can't read my bible at the moment - you know - whatever it takes! To read my Bible comforts me and my mind-  so I do.   Simple.
It inspires and gets me thinking I'd much rather pass time reading it than Shades of Grey.   I have come to the conclusion that I no longer will read, watch or listen to anything that IMO does not make my life better & richer in love and knowledge. 
I can't read it because my twitch is at an all time  high and strength and  with breaks no longer than 10 minutes its hard to wrap your head around any thing deep. Even FB posts are taking too long. Reading wise - forget it. Keep it simple.
 So I remember something I saw on PIN. I ♥ PIN - When I think of the word addiction I think of PIN before Cannabis -lol- But a good one as it seems to have spurred my creativity & I do limit myself with a sand timer;-) 
 Well I have such favorite inspiring words in the bible I have decided to illustrate mine!  I have it on good authority - my heavenly sister friend I shall not go to Hell for this. ;D
I've had God in my life for a while - If I am asked to describe what God is to me...
 When I'm frightened, my heart pounding, mind racing - suddenly from nowhere I get a sensation of calm and I know it will be o.k.  THAT,   that right there is God.  It comes when I need it most and it has never let me down.  I have my moments- can't lie .. but I have faith in God  and know I'm in good hands.  9 more sleeps I get more excited with each passing day. I just know it's going to work! 
Geeze you'd think I was going to Disney! ♥☮✞
☦☧☨☩☪☫☬☭☭☯☸☥✞   It's ALL Good.

Let there be no confusion where my loyalties are. 
I thank God ever day for Cannabis.
I thank God every day the second I am awake. 
I said when Storm was diagnosed with a terminal illness was when I started to pray but that would be wrong.
I started to pray when he was a baby and he cried and screamed  for hours on end. 
When we could see his pain.
I prayed.  I begged.  I promised. 
Tell me you would do different.

Norm and I were at the ktichen the other day and I asked , do you wish we didn't go public with all this and he instantly looked at me and said "How can we not? We saw from the first day how it made Storms life better."
For what ever reason we are here. By the Grace of God. 
Our son is doing amazing right now! Mentally and physically he is strong. That is with nothing but Cannabis in his system, controlling his pain.  
Who else should I thank?
The government?  Hell no.
The system? Hell no.

If you believe in God, the bible and you try to tell me that on the very first page - God forgot  to include a > * < regarding Cannabis :

1:11 And God said, Let the earth bring forth grass, the herb yielding *seed, and the fruit tree yielding fruit after his kind, whose seed is in itself, upon the earth: and it was so. *Does not include Cannabis.

GIVE me a fricken break.  
Who should I thank? Who do you thank? 
I thank God, you can thank who every you feel you need to thank.
God, Mother Earth, The dolphin gods( for my pal Ron ;-)), Evolution.
Thank you sun, soil and rain! ☮♥<><  

One Love. I have seen images like this and love them, more so the idea that they stand for.  If we could put it all aside and see each other for WHO we are. Not race, religion or class that we belong - yeah, yeah,  I know broken record... Oh well, If it has to be said a MILLION times every day - I will say it again- in HOPES that it will come true.  ONE LOVE! 

Today our son is 20! 20!!! Even typing it brings tears to my eyes. He is up and had his birthday breakfast and off to work! 20.
It sit here and I breath deeply and I thank God with every beat of my heart that our son is here and celebrating his 20th! I feel like a milestone has been reached! A 'magic number' if only in my mind. My son- no longer a toddler, boy, teen- he is a man. 

When you are a parent of a child with a serious illness you take nothing for granted. When you are told your child might not be with you as long as you imagine as a parent - FOREVER- It can mess with you mind to say the least. So....
Today I feel like yelling a big "FUCK YOU!!!" 
Fuck you Dr.s you were wrong!  A fuck you filled with LOVE because I am so happy they were wrong!!! 
My boy - now man is everything parent can hope for and more. He is a gentleman, handsome, polite, hard working, smart and determined to make something of his life!  It has not been easy, Storm does live with chronic pain every day - always has and always will  - he is an example to me and my husband, we would not change a single thing if we could. This lesson has been one of love that we are blessed to be a part of.  So today I am beside myself! Everyday is special but today is a day to celebrate!
 The day would not be right if I also did not say Thank You God.  I have prayed for years and will continue to do so- not for a miracle but for the continued strength we all need to face each new day. Thank God for my sons medicine - YES, I thank GOD! For the plant he put here! A medicine that helps our son function, work, hope and dream and LAUGH!  Some may still  'not get it'  I honestly HOPE you never do.  I look at the baby photos and now the young man before me and I could care less what anyone thinks. I KNOW why we do what we do. FOR LOVE.  Happy 20th Birthday Storm! MANY MANY MORE!! 
xox LOVE MOM & DAD ... Tequila, Scruffy, Daisy, Darkie, Jaws, Fluffy & Larry 

Please plant the seed of Cannabis education. I can honestly tell you I do not think my son would be with us today if not for his medicine. Please share - You might be helping other parents- other children. xox <>< 
http://www.georgiatoons.com/uploads/4/1/0/5/4105506/stormsstory.pdf

Trees- leave them alone and they pop up everywhere! It is witnessing nature that calms me right down. When I read about plants - GMO's, patent, wiped out- lumber,  bugs etc... (sadly it can be a long list) I go out and see seeds that have sprouted fallen on an old tree stump, left alone - ta-da another tree! 
I look at all the beautiful nature around me and think Cannabis will never be wiped out as long as there are seeds to sow. 
Trust me THERE are seeds to sow.
As long as tress grow and HUMANITY leaves them alone they will continue to grow.  My backyard when we moved into our home was a big patch of SOD. Each tree we (my husband, Storm in his wagon, and our pets) dug out of a field that we knew would soon be a stretch of new homes. Most tress were no more than 2 feet high. I am PROUD to say we have trees all over our yard, front and back. They provide us with shade, privacy, food for the birds and entertainment now as they have become a leafy highway for our furry squirrely friends! It brings a sense of peace to see all the trees and even weeds that pop up everywhere! They won't be stopped! A bit of soil, rain and sunshine and they will grow to reach for the heavens!  There is HOPE.!!  Not just for Cannabis but for all trees & all seeds! Seeds should remain Free to all!  No one should be able to patent nature. 
God made it for all to use, enjoy and help ourselves, mentally and physically.

Of course many of my friends ask me about Cannabis and it amuses me to learn that they have no idea- they think of Cannabis as a plant - right -  that's about the extent of it. Many people do not realize the many different varieties that are  available and how many treat different symptoms.  Just like you can now get many different types of  tomatoes-  growers cross breed plants to get the different Cannabis blends. There are two main types of Medicinal Cannabis, Sativa and Indica as seen above. One fatter, wider leaves the other long and thin. They work like other medicines - how many of you have taken a cold medicine for the day and then a different one for the evening? SAME thing!  I use both at different times. I always have a Indica in the evening to help me sleep. Usually  coconut oil in my tea- very healthy way to drift off IMO.  Also after a long day my arthritis is at its limit and it helps me feel more comfortable as I fall asleep. 
When my twitch is constant and I need it to give me a break, I will also use indica to help me possibly meditate and even nap during the day- as a last resort when I start to feel exhausted.  In the morning I use a sativa - usually after I'm up and going and it is the twitch that 'reminds' me to medicate.  The sativa allows me to keep going - move past it - clean the house, do laundry or draw. I believe it helps most with depression.  It does not make the twitch go away - If it did I would probably smoke it all day - who wouldn't!? Many   believe Cannabis sounds too good to be true... Thank God it is that good. It allows millions to function daily. Knowing what I know now - it would be MY FIRST choice for pain control before I tried any chemical cocktail. Above is a drawing that I did for myself - I always forget the difference and now I wont, I hope I've helped someone else remember for the future - when it comes time for them to seek the medicine that best helps them.
Plant the seed of cannabis education today!  Show people,
Cannabis helps many for many reasons! <>< XOX

Ignorance is bliss... It was until I started to research all this Cannabis stuff!  I then was turned onto GMO information and documentaries on STUFF.  Cannabis is STILL illegal even after  centuries of  '0' reported deaths, proven medicinal qualities and numerous (MILLIONS) of first hand accounts from the PEOPLE on how it HELPS.  There is a growing (no punn intended) concern regarding GMO's from Salmon to tomatoes (GREAT DOC - WATCH FREE CLICK HERE)  -who will say what the long term affect of GMO's will be - a rise in cancer? That is what is expected ... EXPECTED!?  Don't believe me research it for yourself. I DARE YOU!  Yes because ignorance is bliss. 
Too  many would rather turn on the tube and be amused - worse - possibly educated by the countless mind melting reality T.V.;  NOT a REALITY of mine!! Thank God. Sadly in many cases children copy parents and we will have a new generation of mind melted drones - who will not have a clue what to do when they really NEED to. . they will eat all this crap and die at an earlier age - Oh wait! That is happening NOW! 
For the first time in history children are dying at a  earlier age with  diabetes and obesity & childhood cancers on the rise. Passing before their parents. ;-(
Do you know that the average very successful and intelligent person watches very LITTLE   T.V. ? And they for sure do not spend the day on Face book. Distraction. 
Like or not - we all all being distracted and sooner or later it will hit home.  In India they have tried to patent seeds - so that you can only ever get seeds if you have money! SEEDS!!
Should you plant a seed from a vegetable that is patent - you will be fined. Charged. 
We here say - well just go to the grocery store- in India - they say -  we will starve. That could be our future should we CONTINUE to lose control of our rights as humans.
When I was thinking of this toon I was going to have a animal say the comment on the end because the reality might not be appreciated, the next morning - before I started to draw  - on FB someone posted a starving man and my mind was made up. No cute gopher.
TOO BAD if some find it harsh.  It is reality and I will not be a part of ignoring it. 
I pray I can be a part of changing it.  
WHEN will you TURN off the T.V and TUNE into LIFE and the serious issues surrounding all of us? When you are starving? 
This is starvation. If you are interested. I found it by accident just now and thanked God I drew my cartoon. http://knowmorethanyouretold.blogspot.ca/  I was blown away - over a year ago someone sent me an image that changed my life.  I will warn you I NEVER got it out of my head, the same image and the same comment are at the bottom of that page.  It took me a while. But I thank God for seeing that image.
I was blind but now I see and I will make a difference. 
No one should suffer like that let alone innocent children. Imagine being that mother.  I Am BLESSED!!!    PAY ATTENTION!  Please.
xox <>< 
Oh BTH I have never seen the Kardashiens (really don't know how to spell it) from the rare posts and news bits that I have witnessed - It is a very sad sign that these people are being idolized.  I feel sorry for them and us.  

To share or not to share that is the question, and I have decided to share.  I have decided because I myself have had a difficult time finding anyone with this medical problem. For the past 3 years I have not been well. It started with a tiny little twitch in my right lower eyelid, every now and then.. I did not give it much thought. Then it started to twitch all the time - more aggravating than anything but I did go see my Dr., tests were started. To make a long story short- and trust me there are days when it feels like an incredibly LONG story ;-)  It is now to the point where I have a constant twitch that can only be partially controlled by numerous botox injections.  Even with the botox  the twitch continues- I've noticed you can't see it as much on the outside but I feel it on the inside and I still have my mega twitches which pulls my face to the side and feels like it will stay that way  & it is very painful. 
Sometimes it is triggered by stress and other times simply by smiling. I have had a second opinion, and now my neurologist has arranged for me to see a Surgeon.
How has this twitch changed my life?  It stops me from socializing - partially because of how I look but mostly because it is incredibly uncomfortable, I lose my train of thought when I feel pressure pulling the back of my eyeball - IT is all I can think about when I am having a twitch attack. It is depressing. It is exhausting.  Every time the botox wears off the twitch is there with a vengeance. At that time I am a recluse. I even have difficulty walking (balance), drawing, reading and the twitch controls my life. I have to go lie down and pray it passes quickly- some so strong I fear that I just might not be normal when it is done or make it out alive during. It has taught me time can be shorter than we think - so best step it up -  it was the ultimate kick in the ass and I have accomplished quite a bit in the past 3 years - even feeling insane and in pain over 1/2 the time.  
Medication and botox are only  masking the problem at this point.
I am so ready to meet with the surgeon- I see it as hope, I know it is not going away - it's been 3 years, I am concerned as there have been some other side effects that I can not attribute to hemi facial spasm, pain in the area of the brain for one, weight loss and nausea.
I have read of people who have that the surgery and it stopped completely after only a couple of days- I can't even comprehend that at this point! 
So while I wait. I need to stay de-stressed, no coffee only GREEN tea for me and my medicine - Cannabis - even it does not stop the twitch but I will tell you what it does do- It allows me to get past it!  It makes my brain say - get up! Lying here will do nothing to help - Go draw! Go garden! Go play with the dogs! IT allows me to live my life.  It lets me see the beauty that surrounds me and gives me hope. 
So yes, Please do send me some loving vibes! I'll take all I can get! And remember - death does not take a holiday- if you are aware and breathing - you have another chance to get it right, do some good, make someone smile! Have some FUN! That is WHY we are here. 
I am thankful every day I wake up. I say thank you every time my brain wakes up. 
I thank God for another day to create - if not art than a memory. xox <><

Really - where does it get us? The worst possible case scenario IMO -  is DEATH.  So if it's not going to kill you - It may hurt but YOU learn from each hurt. You learn not to do it again & you become stronger and stand up for what you believe in.  My feeling can be hurt over and over - It won't kill me.  As a mater of fact - I may shed some tears, ask Why?
To LEARN. We are all her to learn and MAKE this world a better place. NOT judge - Too many are so quick to judge now a days - yet we all walk a fine line - WE ALL MAKE MISTAKES.  To pass judgement on someone that is using a medicine that is physically helping them so they do NOT suffer - be it a PLANT or a PILL is a crime.  I WILL NEVER wish what Storm has on a living sole ever - but I have to say - it has crossed my mind several times -  IF it was YOUR kid you would be singing a different tune/toon!  I find it hard to believe any parent under the same circumstances to want to give their child chemicals over a natural plant that is  helping them - once you do the research.  So - I do worry for a bit but my faith being strong - whatever problem sooner or later I say Is in God's hands. He has not failed me yet. Espeically not when I am defending the love of my family. I have been blessed with my guys, husband and son.  I like to think I am kind, helpful and caring but like anyone Don't F*&^% with my family.  Don't harm my guys and don't take food out of our mouths and we'll be fine.  
As for the world ending - I'm not going to worry. LOL - I believe the Myans were just making the date that Cannabis is finally legal! AMEN!
 Matthew 6:34
34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
*I know many do not believe in the bible - I admit I do not take it literally, you can't - if so everyone that has ever eaten a lobster is going to hell.  - I feel it is a wonderful book to read and learn and if you believe it or NOT - It's true - why worry - tomorrow will be here and we take it one step at a time.  The bible - brings me comfort 
It soothes my soul and leads me to greener pastures!   Punn intended.
<><       xox

Almost at the end of the EXPO - this was it my weekend to spread the word! 
I was embarrassed at the beginning of the expo because I wrote on FB I am going to speak-  and people asked me - or commented - “Oh when are you speaking, near Jodie?” 
I was so embarrassed - I meant I was going to speak to anyone that would listen to me from my booth.  Get on stage with my face and twitch ? No thanks. 
Anyhow, I met so many amazing people and Sunday the best day yet! I was stewing in my booth  remembering a conversation (very short) I had had and was thinking and told myself - move on, remember why you are here- and I swear to you - these two Buddhists walked up to my booth! Sounds like the start of a bad joke... I speak to everyone - sure enough one likes cartoons and draws but is a Dr. so he does not get to draw  much anymore.   The english was a little difficult, but I believe if we want to we can communicate with anyone (I had a wonderful conversation with Lauren in the Vape lounge and don’t speak sign)  you just have to be open and patient. - I am so glad I was!!! So any how these two Buddhist - one is a Dr.,  the other a MONK! (former) We start Ommani - that is how it started! He noticed my necklace and asked me if I knew what it meant! HOW COOL! Compassion - it gave me the idea for Cultivating Compassion (former blog) I was telling them the mantras I listen to when I draw ;-))) 
 I was once again at peace!
 My mind again on track we laughed, exchanged cards, good vibes, they laughed at laughing Buddha! LOL! So glad he was with me. I remember thanking God for ‘that sign’ - how cool!!!  
This was the last day - it got really quiet and I prayed I had made a difference - this insanity and ignorance about Cannabis has to end - too many people are suffering because of it.
So, I thanked God and thought the show is almost over - anyone else I need to speak with best be soon...
 He sent me Moses! LOL - I was lying in bed when that toon popped in my head and I started to giggle - I have a head cold and have felt crappy pretty much all day
BUT I had to get up and draw! God sent me Moses ;-)))

I said I was going to talk and hoped someone would listen. I saw Moses standing over to the side and I realized who he was and I was instantly nervous! OMGOSH! That’s Moses! If you are not Canadian you might NOT know who Moses is `but I do! 
This was it! IF I had once chance to spread the word and there is MOSES! 
I’m giggling because I just started to walk over and grabbed him by the arm and pulled him into my booth! The man did not have a choice ;-) I STILL cannot believe I did it. Storm was so proud of me. Perhaps I was not meant to talk to a crowd ;-) I think I was able to do it because I saw (in my mind- not crazy) Michelle - I still miss her - she was a class act in my book. Her hair, red lips and smile always a hug and a genuine one at that. She sent Storm a goodie box when she found out he was legal!  She would want me to speak to her friend Moses!  I remembered the year they two of them walked around the expo arm and arm.  That was it! I’m not sure who exactly kicked me in the ass but I took that first step! That leap of faith-  I planted the seed about cannabis and kids in Moses mind - LOL - o.k. it’s probably already there - the man does everything, but I refreshed ;-).

We had a wonderful conversation I introduced him to Storm - OMGosh I think I forgot about  Marie-  I was shaking when he left. He was so soft spoken and I yell! LOL - Hearing impaired child,  I hope I didn’t frighten him. I was talking to a man that I admire- who makes a difference and has for a long time and I am reminded of the incredible difference one man can make! One man one woman!
Oh - Moses was just as peaceful as my Buddhist!  
HOLY COW!  LOL - I think I said that to them! ;-) We laughed a lot it was  so nice, so I guess I got a sign for sure! 
From Buddha and God!  HAVE FAITH!

It was wonderful. I am grinning from ear to ear. We are blessed.
xox <><  Read More about Moses here:  http://www.mosesznaimer.com/
Tommorrow I blog about "Oscar (not his real name as he is only 16) and wants Cannabis as his medicine. I was honored to meet him and his family too.