I like Big Buds & I cannot lie! 
Who doesn't?  
Sure all bud is good bud- but to see the beauty in an actual BIG bud...
WOW!  
Although dry, the tiny crystals still catch my eye. 
Time to break up this big bud & put it in my big bong & have a BIG toke to get his BIG day started.  Just like some take  pills and wait for them to "kick in", I have a puff & wait a FEW seconds  then I'm ready to stretch, feed the Blue jays, dogs and get some chores done!
Then I'll need another one.    
I like Big buds &  can not lie!!

* Yesterday, I read a news story  first thing and started to sob, it had me question my faith in humanity.  I blogged a very short sentence..  'some people fucking suck.' & yes, I still believe - some just do. Today again, shitty people doing terrible things to each other, strangers, friends, family all hurting each other.  I know.  
What the fuck is wrong with us humans?  
I deleted it.  
                            I apologize for my momentary lack in faith.

HAVE NO FEAR!
Have a terrific day!  Weekend... Month - Year!

BTGG 
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xox
 

I AM inspired by Bud Ross.   Bob Ross.  
Painter extraordinaire.  

If you can’t paint after watching this man, countless times- all available online for free - as I did while painting this bud,  Isn’t he  a talented little Bud?  A Budding Artist you might say!! lol 
You can see how he holds the pallet like a Pro, not to mention the tiny happy tree on the  tiny canvas. 

You can also watch on Netflix - where I squeeze in the occasional episode - usually alone, break time- but still want to keep inspired- Bob is the man. His voice is as calming as his brush strokes, except when ‘it gets a beating! “Beat the devil out of it!”  

Unquestionably, he makes me a better painter after every episode!
I watch him make a simple path- with a twist of his brush, perhaps “A happy accident…” - it become a trail deer might trod on.  Bob  helps us escape as well as paint.   Helps us relax. 
No wonder the man is a success.
How  superb he share his gift with he rest of us.

Today, with this little Bud, I hoped to make a few smile above all
 I wanted to celebrate life, beauty, inspiring people & God.

Mission accomplished. “Bud Ross.”


                                 “We don't make mistakes. We just have happy accidents.”
                                                    —From "The Joy of Painting"

By the grace of God
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2017! I’t’s  days away from a  new year! 
2016 was I believe a good year for Cannabis - As in ending the insanity and sending less humans to prison/court for it!  More states in the USA became legal, recreational (i think they like to call it ‘Adult’) and more medical, more lives helped.  Advances are being made, although the DEA still wants some way to convict and control.  I think this will always be the case, and IF you are doing something you should not- then you have to prepare for the possibility of still being prosecuted and going to jail.

What can I say? I don't agree with the ‘drug war’ at all, anymore.  I am just stating what I see & read happening.  We all understand BIG pharma will also want a piece of the Cannapie, still less will be in jail because of cannabis!  Fewer minor possession charges, and in Canada- wow- legalization in 2017 - fewer lives ruined for possession & growing. Everyone eventually able to grow 4 plants- I hope they do, it is such a beautiful plant!  
You then will also see fresh cannabis appearing  at the super market- for those that wish to juice and add some peppery bud to a  fresh salad! It will be all the rage!  Nom Nom Nom!  The times are changing. Thank God

Fellow Canadians, please let us not forget how terrible it was under Stephen Harper, the constant harassment, serious insults and more.  Patients never knowing which way to go- PRIVATE classified information being given out for everyone to see & note.  THREATENING Canadians (patients, many very sick & terminally ill)  to destroy OUR medicine in with ‘kitty litter’ - or we would be persecuted - raided by the police- shoot our dogs?  YES, a reality for some. 
I felt an incredible weight lifted off my heart when Justing became prime Minister.  Breath. 
It takes time, he said he would. He will.  A new era has arrived in Canada - a healthier one IMO. 

2016 brought positive change for cannabis but some countries are still struggling.  
We can not make them change their minds but we can educate by example.  
Less Alcohol, lower addiction rates for tobacco as well- If you believe what you read. Research it.  People are puffing more bud, with far less harmful results- as for brain damage- long term- careful- if that were the case we would see it amongst all those that did ‘inhale- back in the day, and pretty much calling the shots NOW.  
& More revenue going to go to our schools, hospitals and cities & towns etc. because of CANNABIS. I seriously hope the Indian reserves in Canada are researching growing as well. 

I just bought a tube of ‘Brilliant green’ gouache, for more Brilliant Bud painting!
Now, it’s a few days of painting & praying for me.. no social media. 
What do you want in 2017?  I hope you get all you desire.

So - SMILE as we get set to burn the last bud of 2016 & turn over he new leaf of 2017!
Give Thanks! 

                  Fill your bowl and hold  up your BONG with a cheer!  
                              2017 is going to be a  BETTER YEAR!!


Have faith
xox
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Cannabis legalization is here to stay.. I was thinking- there is no way they can try to turn back time or decisions made regarding cannabis- you wanna see a revolt- that would do it.  
Cannabis is spreading across the USA in a great way.   
Actually, thanks to social media- cannabis is spreading across the world in a great way- I was just on Instagram and noticed something- there are some  SERIOUSLY professional, beautiful cannabis pages out there. I noticed a lovely company in Canada with chickens,  trees, nature- and thought- I'd buy from them. It's that simple. BE professional. Organic medicine - farm grown it appears. Nice. 

So delighted to see this industry- STEP away from bongs and boobs and grass on some girls ass.  This is our medicine, for many.   YES, there are some lovely ladies out there, posing with cannabis and small undies- o.k., why not - they have the bod...  please ladies, be the brain first,  said with TLC & THC. :) Of course there are pages still for the 'stoner mentality'- boobs, bongs, babes.. fine,  some of the 'joke' posts - are really funny and crack me up.  To each his own.  I will say though  I KNOW - when I started 10 years ago that is all 'it' was, even Canada's own 'Skunk magazine has come along way, which at the time I'd rather not have my comics in,  it was a decision I made- to try and take cannabis the other direction in my own way. Glad I did to this day. The other direction is becoming more and more inviting! 

Educate someone today! Introduce them to a new, positive, enticing  "page" on social media
there are more and more out there! OH- AND I am noticing a few compassion clubs/dispensaries that are taking positive actions by offering food drives, sock drives, discounts for veterans, seniors day! F*ck yes!
Why not?   It is AWESOME to see and I THANK you!

I love this little bud, I smiled the entire time painting him- look at that little face! lol
I just want to HUG him. 
I'm on a roll and cant stop- I already have 2 more ideas and one started!
​One a day... and today a friend and I are off for coffee & local & import!  Up to Kats Gallery to drop off something and pick up something and see what Kat has - always lovely merchandise & NEAT items.  & the to the Georgina Art gallery of the Christmas art sale!  Lets start this day!

Do what you love & the rest WILL follow.
Clearly, I love to paint little cowboy buds winning he wild west!
Wait until you see tomorrows... hee hee hee

Have faith 
xox <><

Has anyone told you lately?  You are Mer-Mazing!
Playing with paint as I work on a bigger acrylic, one I don't know if I'll share. 
I'm really into this 'brush stroke' on black thing-- interesting.
It's got a very powerful, heads on wtf attitude appeal I have finally finished the chalk sketching.  Believe it or not- I do not share quite a few painting.. for different reasons.  

I'm on  a mission if you didn't know- tho.  Bring awareness to cannabis in any way, I can.
Normalize.  Help if possible in Ending  the insanity. 
It is said cannabis helps in assisting with creativity!   What do you think?
To be honest I've always been creative, for as long as I can remember and terrible at numbers, history, geography, lol...   who cares! I am having fun 'if only in my mind' at the moment -  Isn't that the most important place?   So  Yes, I am sure it does inspire creativity - I find I can 'think' of many things  when 'high'  but at times it also can inspire a nap! lol 
You make creativity happen. Make creativity happen. Start with a  pencil and paper.
Have fun, play, imagine !!
I don't know about you,  but it is good for my  head, heart & art. 
Back to it.. working on another little bud along the same lines
& tomorrow I start my new painting apply the first brush stroke of paint! Can't wait.

Have Faith
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Thinking about old dogs and missing  my old girl 'Tequila.
She loved cannabis. 
Several of our dogs enjoyed cannabis.
They know when and what helps.  

Have Faith
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My big bluejay is ready to hang.. you can not see it but it is packed with words. symbols and more. Almost every branch has a word in it. Words for me to remember. Not a peanut but a cannabis nugget, it helps save lives. With the FULL, OPEN, wide beautiful blue sky- get ready to soar!  
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Animal symbolism of determination, assertiveness, and intelligence is also a shared trait among those who claim the blue jay as their totem (and also common attributes with those having the vocations above listed). We see these characteristics in the blue jay because it is fiercely bold against its enemies. 
The jay is fearless when it comes to protecting its partner, young and territory. So too are those with this animal as their totem. They will defend their positions against adversaries who seem much more powerful than themselves - often with successful results.
Blue jay animal symbolism resonates truth, faithfulness, and solidarity because they are vigilant in their tasks. They also keep the same mate for life, which is symbolic of endurance, patience and loyalty. The jay is an excellent symbol for those wishing to honor their long-lasting bond between friends, family and lovers.
In the spiritual realm, the blue jay speaks of clarity and vision. In Native American symbolism (namely the Sioux Nation) the azure of the jay against the blue sky indicated a "double vision" or double clarity. This visual/spiritual "blue on blue" concept speaks of purity of the soul, truth of the heart, and clarity of thought. 
In dreams the blue jay animal symbolism also deals with clarity - but of higher thoughts, and taking action. When we dream of blue jays our deeper selves may be telling us that we are not being honest with ourselves about something, and it's time to "come clean" with our thoughts. Blue jay's in dreams are also symbolic of taking action in the direction of our highest truth. The jay asks for honesty, and forthrightness - any other action taken (such as deceptive or dishonest action) will mean double jeopardy for us in our waking hours.

These spiritual and dream impressions are especially poignant because the jay is an air animal totem. Creatures of the air naturally symbolize the realm of thought, higher ideals, spirituality and the attainment of higher truth.
The Sioux also observed the jay preferring fir and oak trees for their homes and nesting areas. These trees are symbolic of longevity, endurance and strength, and so share the same animal symbolism with the blue jay.
This is not to say the jay is persnickety. On the contrary, the blue jay animal symbolism includes aspects of opportunity and advantage because it will make its home anywhere. From supermarket awnings, to mailboxes, the blue jay is extremely resourceful and makes the best out of its environment. Those with the jay as their totem are likely to be the same way. Generally easy-going, jay people are able to make a turn situations around to their best advantage, and make awesome lemon aid out of the sourest of lemons.
Blue jay's are vastly curious, stopping to peck at any shiny thing that catches their eye (much like crows and magpies). Those who resonate with the blue jay will also find themselves equally curious. Indeed, blue jay people have are always dabbling in new directions, gathering new insight, and slaking their curiosities. These people tend to be a jack-of-all trades, knowing a little bit about seemingly everything. This makes them fantastic trouble-shooters and quite resourceful (not to mention fascinating party guests).
Article from:http://www.whats-your-sign.com/blue-jay-animal-symbolism.html

On a positive note.. after the foray yesterday and a trip to burger priest- Storm & I went to Currys art supplies- for more- CANVAS & PAINT.  I have resolved- for those not aware to focus on painting... I'm even considering a shack in the woods, surrounded by nature to do so!!!  It's time for me to seriously focus on what I love to do the most what brings me  peace...  nature & painting.  Simple.  When God blesses me with the opportunity to do so... I'll say:  Yes! Thank you & Let's Go!!

I hope you enjoy my bigbluejay! I know I do.
What is your favourite bird? look up it's meaning you might be surprised. ;)    
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Have Faith
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Medical patients in Canada who use cannabis can now grow their own. Amen.
The court case proved it is not right to force people to  have to use a 'Legal Gov. approved growers', but they can grow their own or  if not well enough have a 'designated grower '- do it for them: 
http://www.cbc.ca/news/politics/medical-marijuana-home-growing-law-1.3716860
Thank God. How insane was it to tell  anyone they can't grow plants that help them heal in the first place.  A crime against humanity, now changed here in Canada!  I feel very fucking proud of my country right now. VERY ILL Children all over Canada - will now be introduced more to the medicine they need.  Would you not try a natural herb before a synthetic drug for your child? IF PROVEN to help?  Google: Dr. Gupta Weed.... if you still doubt.

I'm not even sure what to draw yet!  Next cannabis will become a legal recreational drug, good - it will mean fewer alcohol related deaths! I know you probably don't believe that.. I've been reading about it the past few years. Don't believe me? Research it.  I Laughed Out Loud yesterday sitting the Dr.s office, across the T.V. screen - 'Ottawa warns of possible increase in impaired driving if cannabis is legalized' - (something like that).  Of course. Bring on the fear mongering!  Do you really think that there have been that FEW  cannabis smoking drivers over the years/decades that it has not become and  issue? LOL!  It's not.

I had a great lunch with my moms friend Geoff yesterday, he took me to an "Irish pub", he confused my love of  Scottish with Irish.. I'll forgive him. We chuckled, chatted and enjoyed a steak & mushroom pie, talked about going back to school late in life (which he did & was very successful at), why he got into politics- someone said to him, "your opinion doesn't matter- you're not even Canadian...", he quickly became one shortly there after.  Cannabis,  he is a cigarette smoker and I suggested he switch to cannabis! It's less harmful and apparently from all I've been reading - less addictive- so you smoke less. He told me he would think it over.  ;) 

Then I was at the Dr.s, we both laughed out loud at the fact that  he could help me with my foot pain!!  He is  frustrated they can't seem to help me otherwise.. especially since I'm not  for pills or surgery, again. He remarked, he's never seen anyone with a case like mine, so severe and does not know how I'm coping.. me either. Cannabis.   We talked about much, how this illness has also given me a new found strength, the fights I've won with it, MC, The bank, anyone re: Poppy now.. and then he said while freezing the bottom of my foot:
& Cannanbis! You have won that fight too!  I don't personally feel like I had any part in the winning.  I prayed our stories of Storms and my own experience we shared have been heard, that was all.   ***For all sick Canadians, already dealing with so much including judgement - constantly for those who DO NOT UNDERSTAND.  One less fuckign thing to worry about. Affordable medicine, loving grown at home.

It comes with rules, as it should.. I know some will think 'I'm gonna grow!'  lol- good luck, Its not that easy and they will have 'regulations' not to mention  hard work, I know a few growers and they can be very stressed at times, not form politics - from work. it has toby safe, I'd be a hypocrite if I didn't  talk about that.  it doesn't matter really - people are never going to stop growing illegal cannabis- at least now patients who truly need it have the option. AT least NOW maybe the police will focus on other more important crimes like the missing indian woman in Canada! HUMAN trafficking.  What matters most. HUMANS.

I AM very upset still they are saying "compassion clubs' 'dispensaries' NOW, don't matter'  now that they have the legally approved Licensed producers.... and that they are considering the possibility of selling it via the pharmacy- WE ALL knew that was coming! $$$$$$$  
If not for  compassion clubs we wold have been lost. I will tell you first hand,  many I know are not the criminals  they are being made out to be - but people who truly want to help  others.  Our government is out to make money like everyone else. Greed rules.  
The L.C.B.O. is starting 'mail home' delivery.. wow.  I wonder how that will effect alcohol abuse in his country- well, I don't wonder. I know.  

Time to think of what to draw to celebrate!
I'm also drawing the cover for Cannabis Digest and its 50th issue! 
I'm calling it 'Give  Thanks!!!'  

Thank you Canada. Thank you Kirk & John...
Thank you everyone whom has ever tried to educate regarding the cannabis plant.
Thank you God.

Have faith
xox
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Is it just me?  Am I the only one to think an e mail sent to the person  - actually goes to the person with the name attached?
* I am feeling naive.  ;(  
​I sent a letter to John Torey.. I went to his www and it says to contact the mayor see below:

I e mailed a Letter to John Torey  SO, I ASSumed ;(  here is his e mail address:

 Is it just me?  If you  go to a www and you see the e mail address - I expect it to be going to that person!  I sent a private, personal e mail to this address thinking it was JOHN TOREY  Only to find I was responded to by an assistant & given 'HIS opinion' to my letter to John Torey.  

WTF.. Well, thank you - had I wanted your opinion I would have asked for it!
NO WHERE on this website does it state:
Your letters will be received and addressed by JOHN TOREY STAFF!   WTF!
Had it STATED that - My letter would have been DIFFERENT.
JUST more bullshit- talk about unprofessional, I'm constantly reading how he judges and comments on others 'professional behaviour' - well DONE John Torey. I was talking  this over with a few- and we all agree. Rob Ford- Like him or not-   actually cared about individuals. Seems like Mr. Torey is making it clear who HIS 'preferred people' are. .. 
NOT Anyone that uses medical cannabis for their medicine. 

I guess as long as I'm not 'kissing ass' and in agreement MR. Torey is too busy to even read or consider my e mail, but who am I - just a nobody to Mr. Torey.  In his defence... I will say I do not live in Toronto anymore - and why should he acknowledge me,  I feel very passionately about it, I lived their my entire life and know many still who do and need compassion clubs.

YET today he is out and about helping those new to the community-  who gives a f*ck about those  existing and in need John?  
He blatantly suggest compassion clubs are a farse.
Just a reflection of the man speaking - I don't know?  
It is NOT  necessary- instead of 'helping everyone', he is stepping on some very seriously ill people with his remarks. He is 'the mayor' after all, not the PM.  Why does he think he has this much power over the people?  I think he is going to be in for a rude awakening..  everyone  is tired of this - how many times do the sick have to be dragged through court because of a politician? BECAUSE we choose to use a  healthier option as our medicine? 
IT is,  Opiate addiction and deaths rise daily in Toronto -  am I making this stuff up?
Cannabis deaths '0' yet- Cannabis patients are still persecuted in this Province,  Country -Canada. 

He clearly  IMO  (* and remember you are here, reading 'My BLOG' and this is all my opinion - not even necessarily that of my family- with the exception of Poppy - She agrees with me.) will ONLY show respect and support for those whom he and his STAFF feel  are deserving.   So be it.   

So you know and don't feel as naive as I do -  IF you  send a letter to the Mayor
- it does not go to the mayor - just another nobody like me, with an opinion will respond.

Believe
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xox 


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Here is  the first coloring sheet designed in mind for kids.  Little kids.  Big kids too, always.
Lets start with the little ones ... plant the seed early.
Clear and to the point. When a child asks: What is it?
Please consider for a moment, simply  saying: a Plant.
It is truly that simple - IF we were forced to categorize 'it' we would indeed  call it just that: Plant.

We over complicate enough for children as it is.  
The next thing I would teach: It will not kill you.  Unlike other plants.  
We do not want them to poison themselves and die- this is why I would educate them on those plants first - and cannabis wouldn't be on that list- first might be  deadly: Lily of the Valley- anyday now.

Tell them the truth.
Many people all around the world  use this PLANT for a Natural Medicine and they have since the days of the mummy, possibly more.  Most medicines are made from plants and just like all medicine, it should be used with some care & caution.

Then, I  would let go and let them ask all the questions. I kept this drawing simple ( I have more complicated coming for the older coloring fans with a  little Buddha vibe going on)   this drawing has endless discussion possibilities and I've listed a few below:

-The sun and how it helps plants grow.
-Butterflies and their importance in the garden of life!
-Cannabis buds and  how tasty they can be, some slightly peppery. * before I have any parents on my back about kids eating bud- please we cant get them to eat broccoli and it can be very peppery.
-How many sections does the leave have? 
-What SEASON do you think is?
-Did you know - snails have teeth?
-Where do snails live?
-Do ladybugs bite?
-Why are ladybugs good in the garden?
-How many legs does this  long bug have?
-How old are worms?
-What do worms do?
-How do roots work?
-Spell the word PLANT...

Anytime you sit in conversation with your children will never be a wasted moment, especially if we are teaching them to be better, non judgemental beings, and try to forgive those  that put their parents in jail for a PLANT.  

Have fun! Color!  Crayons, Pencils, Paint! 
The first few that send me a photo of their printed  colored  copies- I will  mail you a post card! Just send me a message  with a photo - the address is  [email protected] 
Click on the image below to download the free  'Cannabis conversation starter'  for kids
​(young & old) coloring page!   PLANT.

Believe
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Justin trudeau - I love him . and no it's not his looks although - they are NOT bad if I do say so myself and good on him for working to keep in shape... but his  "&^%! " outburst.. 
when I read it  'get the fuck out of my way'. I can tell you, I think it too many times a day.. some days.

As in, Don't try to stop me.  Don't stop him. He is a breath of fricken fresh AIR! Thank god. Canada was getting miserable under Harper, not to think of his damaging Canada any longer -  selling off everything, we probably don't even KNOW  the 1/2 of it.
Breath in that FUCKING fresh air.  What a bunch of hypocrites and I strongly believe Justin Trudea would never intentionally physically hurt a woman - so for all this drama again.. what is it?  I can't even read it any more. It is all bullshit. I Thank God we have someone like him who see's it and recognizes it for what it is and is not afraid to say 'get the fuck out of my way.'  He did LOSE control, yes he did and it shows HE is HUMAN.  NOT some lying 2 faced *** who is going to ACT all nice in public and  different  at other times. he did show us who he is and I love him more for it. Strictly plutonic Justin, I'm good in that dept.
Amen      hee hee..

To criticize his PARTNER Sophie, for asking for 'more HELP' - please. WE ALL want more help and  IF we were in her situation - I would be asking the same.  She is far from a 'princess/Kardashian". I'm not even going to continue glorifying- you know how I feel about  hard working mothers and she is a hard working mother/woman who does US proud. 

I am thrilled to have them both -  it is why perhaps, I am so upset by the Mayor of  Toronto saying a few things.. Here we fucking GO AGAIN! Please.  I like John Torey - still. If you follow the blog You read, I was never a Rob Ford fan, I really felt bad for him - he was surrounded by nasty,  people with evil intentions.  Who does that? Sneaks... snakes.  
I wished he would have quit sooner.. he might still be here ;(.   He was sick and he had STRESS. I am sick and tired of being sick and  tired and know how MANY seriously ill Canadians feel.  The media is portraying a negative image of Cannabis still - every day I talk to someone who's 'Aunt has now tried it at 67 and is so happy with her Cancer treatments'.I had one  a few days ago. FIRST hand, yes, I guess because people know what I do. bring it on. BUT they are still confused - how, where and what.  They need compassion clubs.

If not for a compassion club all those years ago-  what a night mare this would've been- never mind living in fear from S.H., Rona.Ambrose. and - I forget the name of the other woman  already..  good. Constant threats about our sons medicine.  It is not politically correct behaviour" .  Why portray some Torontonians/Canadians  as criminals because we have made a different MEDICAL choice?  A LEGAL medicine in Canada I might add.. Do what you need to do BUT do not take away the small independent business that MAKE this country & HELP.  Not just a few-  he works for ALL Toronto.  Healthy and Sick.

I am understanding that these people all work for someone- so it appears... but it is Mr. Torey  who is "representing' - so that is who is addressed.  I wish he would just stop.  
Canada has  so much going on.. kids being used and abused every day.. so Please do not use 'Oh the children' - it can't be too close to schools' .  * I AGREE, just like I don't think a school should be beside the L.C.B.O. OR any BAR with an outdoor patio - which would do way more harm than any dispensary.   Don't believe me - research the studies with children who are abused and beaten by alcoholic parents compared to ONLY cannabis using parents.  I dare you and then come back and tell about it.  
You won't be able to.   I'm not making this stuff up. 

There is no need for Mr. Torey to include a negative connotation to Cannabis. ENOUGH. 
AND IF WE LET that happen  -what next I can't smoke my cannabis near a school?
Good luck with that.  Focus on sexual offenders of CHILDREN  who hang around schools and destroy our children mentally for life... unlike  a second hand puff of cannabis.
Get real.  Get the fuck out of my way.  

Thank You Justin & family.  
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Tomorrow the coloring sheet! It's been a beautiful day out in the gazebo!
I decided I was going to give something to the universe and it gave me something back- such fun! lol  until.. tomorrow.  By the Grace of God. 

Believe
​xox <>< 

 my outdoor office..  under construction.

Yesterday was 4/20 a day to 'celebrate cannabis', now recognized around the world.  I did not do anything 'too special' yesterday- what I did do is enjoy the day, shopping and touring around Aurora with Poppy & my mom, looking for some garden inspiration & something for my mom's B-day - BUT, I was able to do this because of CANNABIS.  Medicating in-between stops, we enjoyed the day.  I was originally  booked to meet with the brain surgeon again, I have as you know decided against this. Id be lying if I said - it did play on my mind a bit yesterday- have I made right choice? I feel I have.

***Todays blog is a guest blog... written by someone I met recently,  just one of the  many stories that far too many people never get to hear. I am grateful she shared & STILL completely GET why she did not use her real name... yet.  
Enjoy. 

Apri 20th, 2-16

Dear Colorado,
You don’t know me.  You wouldn’t be able to tell the difference between me and a whole lot of other people.  I’m 38, central/eastern European ethnicity, average height, from a big Midwestern city.  I have a pretty interesting job.   I’m a runner, but not a particularly fast one and not of enormous distances.  I am not unattractive, but I am not a supermodel.   My eyes are a bit of an unusual color.  Overall, I’m really pretty normal.  If you met me at a party, you’d tell your wife that I was friendly and maybe kind of entertaining.  (I think you are a straight dude, Colorado.  I think you’ve got a wife.)
However.
I’ve struggled hard with my mental health for my entire life.  I’ve been in and out of therapy--mostly in--for twenty-one years.  I’ve seen at least seventeen different therapists and doctors.  I’ve taken nine different kinds of mainstream psych meds and I’ve been incorrectly diagnosed five separate times.  A few years ago, I had the breakdown that had been coming, and finally got the correct diagnosis.  PTSD.  I worked and worked and worked to get better and I got to…functional and maybe even mostly OK.  And I thought that mostly OK, most of the time, was as good as I was going to get.
Here is where you enter the picture, Colorado.   Important piece of backstory:  I had never smoked weed ever.  Ever.  Not once.  Not interested.  I am not a criminal.  Smoking is gross.  Etc.  Etc.  But I was going to be on vacation, and when in Rome, you know, so I decided to be a little brave. 

My best friend and I nervously bought some 10mg chocolate bars from Canary’s Song in beautiful Nederland.  After about an hour, I felt...fine.  She got giggly and hilarious, but I was…fine.  Day wrapped up with me sleeping through the night (a rarity—sleep disturbances are a hallmark of PTSD).  The next morning, I woke up, anticipating a galactic hangover, and I felt...good.  Then I ran eight miles in the hotel gym. 
I texted my surprised reaction to my pleasant experience to a friend and got back:  “Do we have a fledgling stoner on our hands?”  I thought, “Of course not.  What a ridiculous idea.”
I announced that I was glad I tried it, and figured that was the end of that.  

My travel companions, however, had other ideas.  After my husband brazenly carried a bag of candy through security at Denver International  (thanks for looking the other way on that one, btw), I was home to start conducting a scientific study on myself.  Turns out, I was NOT worse on weed.  Turns out I was better.  I was a lot better.  

Except.

I was the one person who had swallowed every bit of misleading, politically driven racist bullshit about gateway drugs, about stoners being directionless losers, about how it was going to kill my ambition.  The one kid who believed Nancy Reagan, was, apparently, me.  For months, every time I did something flaky or forgot something, I would freak.  My husband started regularly reminding me that I’ve done flaky shit my whole life.  I kept waiting to wake up in the morning, unable to do anything except dunk Cheetoes in CoolWhip and listen to Phish.
You’ll think this is funny, Colorado, as you used to be the residence of the late Dr Thompson, but I seriously thought that smoking weed was going to send me on some sort of strange path careening into unemployment and God knows what else.
Except, what happened was the more cannabis I consumed, the more things continued to not get worse.  
I discovered I could sit still longer at my desk every day at work.  I started regularly sleeping through the night.  I went to the doctor and dealt with a persistent running injury with the physical therapist.  I noticed that my caffeine consumption went down.  My business revenue went up.  I tackled some more issues with my PTSD.  My husband and I worked out some longstanding problems.   I lost 20 pounds.  I quit drinking.
And I realized that I had to overcome a massive case of culturally conditioned stoner shaming.  And I looked at you, Colorado, and I saw a bunch of people who were out hiking your mountains and biking your trails.   And I talked to people in the cannabis community and found out that everyone to be friendly, welcoming, and not judgmental.  And realized that I’m the healthiest I’ve been, ever, even if I do own a lighter for the first time in my entire life.   
So, Colorado, I guess what I’m trying to say is, you changed my life for the better.  And, in doing that, you changed a lot of lives around me for the better, too.  You can’t even calculate how far this ripple effect could go.   And I’m just one person. 
Millions of people visit you every year.  My story is repeating every day.
Keep up the great work.  The world is watching.  
Eternally grateful, 
Jane

PS Of course Jane is not my real name.  
PPS  But maybe someday I will publish this and sign my real name.  That would be big progress.
PPPS  Buying my first bong for my 39th birthday.  That’s a sentence I thought I’d never write.
PPPPS  I still don’t like the Grateful Dead, but, turns out, Cheech and Chong are funny.
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;D  Thank you Jane! xox Georgia
Believe
<>< 

As you might be aware, I've been taking a break fro Cannabis cartoons - it is never far from my mind.  That is the problem, when it does enter my mind - be it the news or comment I've read elsewhere - it usually pisses me off to be blunt.
There is hint in the air -to be fair- the government or those in it, wish to treat Cannabis *which will eventually become legal in Canada much like the L.C.B.O.  
​* L.C.B.O.  For those that are not aware - In Canada- that is where we go but our booze.
Alcohol, You name it - it is there!  every kind of GIN, Whiskey, Tequila 'T-killya', Rye & wine- of every kind from every corner! Now they want to sell Cannabis too.
For one reason $$$ and to every patient who truly uses cannabis for what they NEED it for- it's a slap in the face. A slap I feel fresh every time I pick up the paper,  moms (dads) who fight still for very sick children - who Cannabis has PROVEN to help - you just kicked them in the gut.
The articles alone - I am so sick of the lack of respect - for anyone really - wording that makes me wonder what happened to 'professional journalism', which I have looked up to all my life (and wished I could be capable of- without grammar errors ;)) I do understand it tho.. its all to do just that. Piss us off. Hopefully  it gets people thinking which, I do like this particular journalist for. 

Let me tell you FIRST hand: We would have been LOST without the help of  'compassion clubs'.  That is who I am for!  Compassion Clubs.
When you find a club that is professional and cares- they take the initial time to explain,
teach- take one through the process, even shows one hoe to vaporize for example- and they do- wow! Stress can be lifted by those that KNOW best. Surrounded by it - made a profession from it.  My friend Neeve has been in the Cannabis industry in Toronto long before any of this was even a spark. Yes, I trust his opinion on what strain he thinks works best for what. Adam runs a club in Montreal that makes some od the best baked goods I've ever had. Yes, I trust his opinion before I trust the opinion of anyone at the L.C.B.O. 
YOU must find a club 'you feel good' about. You will be the ones dealing with them every time you need your medicine. 

God did put us on the right path back then!  We were blessed to have people who cared about this journey, about Storm and our family.
My Gosh! You have no idea.  I am forever grateful to them. Gabe, who I've not spoke with for years still holds a special place in my heart for the time he took and the degree that he helped us. Many are still friends today.

Doctors can't recommend a strain - they are NOT the cannabis exerts, they are 'health' experts.
For Journalists or anyone else to ASSume, compassion clubs are run by people who do not know what they are doing- that could be said for any business.
Find one that is working and frequent them. Let them prove themselves.
Below are three I know of, but I suggest you Google  'compassion club' - in your own area, home town. You might get closest city. Or ask people - it is more common then you realize. There are many cannabis friendly communities online.
I do not recommend buying from people online you do not know.
I do not recommend anyone online, I do not recommend any LP... yet.
CALM  is the club we first went to  in Toronto - what seems like a very long time ago, we have not been in years, again I stress - find one that suits you and your 'vibe' YOU must 'feel' comfortable.
Sante Cannabis Is in Montreal.  I had delt with them over the years - they had incredible baked goods, IMO.   ;) 
 The Medical Cannabis Dispensary_   is run by a woman I have come to know  and  think she is very helpful. They are in B.C.
The above are - If asked - I point in the direction, it's you own path.  

Phhhhhbt! If you think the drug stores are any different - they want the same thing the L.C.B.O. does - don't fool yourself $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$

IF they do will they hand out free samples like they do at the L.C,B.O.?  
More on that soon...

I read a comment on FB Mandy McKnight made a while back and it stuck with me..  I'm not sure of Her exact words but it was something along the lines, IF Health Canada could not get it right - in HOW LONG???  -What makes them think the L.C.B.O. will be any different?
Compassion clubs started for a reason. 
Thank God. 

Believe
xox <><

Next post... back to something less stressful. Holding hands.
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It's Monday! I just finished my  next saw blade- lol - who knew! I love painting on them.. but no not the traditional landscape scene. Who better to paint on a metal saw blade than the tin man himself!  Ready for some Oil Dabs! lol  
"Oil, Oil..."  he exclaims through a clenched (rusted) jaw. 
Cannabis oil, extract is oil made from cannabis. I make my own medicated coconut oil, and butter,  some make an extra potent oil  a.k.a.: 'Rick Simpson Oil'  Google Rick for more info.
I like oil in my tea on especially bad days when my  condition is hard to control.  As well as for sleeping there is nothing better IMO.  No nasty side effects - OIL is all we need! 
I love the Wizard of Oz so .. Ta Daaaaa!  Saw blade 3   Oil for the Tin man! 
It is a 10 inch saw blade. I've already asked Norm for more! - He has warned me to stay out of his garage! Apparently when the 'teeth' break off they are no good- still fine to paint in my opinion! 

I found this: http://www.wikihow.com/Make-a-Medical-Marijuana-Oil
I have never made this oil and do not plan on it.. it is  a lot of cannabis, a lot of time, work and not something I want to do in my kitchen.  But this explains it pretty well to my knowledge. I have the recipe for making coconut oil here.  

Well it's to be HOT today! Great day to finish a FISH! Paint a rock and perhaps even a canvas!  Keep creative! Child of God you are created to create! 
Have Faith
<><   xox

I think this image would make a fun T! ;) 
Perhaps I'll print one. 

It is father's day and Storm has taken his dad fishing for the weekend and I'm thrilled. He is old enough - if he wants to share events of his fathers day with his dad, he will.  Storm and Norm have a good relationship already. All  the 'boat bonding' has helped! ;) 
 My dad is gone, I think of him off and on.. I pray fathers day is not too hard on others on my mind and in my heart, who no longer have their dad with them.  
It is just another day. If you have been blessed by a good dad - they are with you always.

It's just after 11 and it's not been a good day, a reminder of why I'm ready to share.
It's overcast, I've been up since 5 and it's taken me this long to  fell good enough to blog. Physically.  Blogging takes thought and effort - especially on the more difficult days. 
Let alone a difficult blog.  

The video I posted was one recorded while at my desk drawing.  Although I have constant twitching/zapping and mini jolts of pain,  I have added attacks that  come at any and all times (except sleeping).  Recently I was told we can't find anyone to help.  I can tell you hearing it' and thinking it' are  different things and although I thought I was prepared - I guess I was not and the thought of living like this  everyday became suddenly daunting again.  If I let the idea linger in my mind for any time tears flow.  

Try to take anything you like to do - cooking, drawing, reading and take a pencil and jab yourself in the head (causing your eye to constantly shut closed) every few seconds (*several times a second) and continue your task.  5 years...
Now add to that the added  sessions where you  heart races, your head pounds, your brain can't seem to do exactly what it was doing so carelessly only seconds before, you get a sharp stabbing pain that goes from the top of your head to your heart - Like you've been impaled 
suddenly and it repeats, quickly, several times over.   My face aches so much I have wondered if this is what done cancer must feel like ;( .  It  makes me stop & hope I make it out the other side. EVERY time. That alone messes with my mind daily.

Let alone how it feels- LOL HOW t looks? PLEASE - when Tyra banks is being hailed because she appeared without make-up -  Finally! - But PLEASE! Big deal Tyra.  When in attack, I can't swallow my food, I can't chew, I drool not to mention one side of my face is contorted to one side.  Pain is obvious.  Make - up.  I could care less bout make-up.

What do I do? Do I take serious narcotics - that  will just numb me down, Ive tried pain pills - during this - the odd one here and there and all they do is take me somewhere I DO NOT want to be... depressed on the sofa.  Pills only add to my balance issues,  after reading more on the woman who was knows as a 'wobbler', it worried me -  when I'm walking mid attack I too have that exact sensation - of wobbling in my head and you see it in my balance - I start to stagger. I never new the other condition existed.  It WAS caused by a medication she had been prescribed.  I think about this all the time since doing some research and learning about Tardive Dyskinesia:
https://www.power2u.org/articles/selfhelp/tardive.html


Heres the thing... did you know there are medications that have serious side effects.
Not everything works the same for everyone and do you want to be a statistic?
If not for my son, husband and few who show me love and support, listen and share this madness the past few years - I don't think I would still be here. 
I would not wish this on any other human.  READ SIDE EFFECTS OF ALL MEDICATION
Trigenial neuralgia is on the increase. You tell me why? 
The more I read - the more I will stick to CANNABIS.

*ADD stress to this mix and  look like I am having a stroke.  ;( My pain  and exhaustion overwhelm, I go from chair, to bed to gazebo mode. Usually it takes 2 days just to function again. By function I mean  draw, do dishes, straighten up - not getting high and having party.  

Rona Ambrose, Health Canada,  Steven Harper, Peter Van Loan  turning Canadians into terrorists against each other with their lies, propaganda and  bulling well thats just the 'cream of the crop'.  <Simple. All, literally make me sick to my stomach, as I read about little baby girls dying in Canada., while her mom fought  to access her  cannabis for her seizures.
Judging people on what they choose to help them heal!?  Forcing Canadians no other alternatives but pills, PROVEN to hurt  and even kill.  

Here is the link of what I am dealing with. 
https://vimeo.com/131096980?utm_source=email&utm_medium=clip-transcode_complete-finished-20120100&utm_campaign=7701&email_id=Y2xpcF90cmFuc2NvZGVkfGYwNGJlNDRmNTI2ZmI2NTE5ZGEwZGYzNDJhYWFlM2JkMjAzfDQxMTkzNzU4fDE0MzQ2MzkyNzB8NzcwMQ%3D%3D

 If you know of anyone that it might help - please share.  I believe - Cannabis keeps me going. It keeps me creative and helps me focus on all that can be good.  I don't wan't or need anyones pity. I hope to bring awareness.  I do ask for continued prayers and  good vibes.  I get so emotional after each attack, I have also learned how to ride them out as calmly as possible-  I don't like to  worry  my guys all the time.  I don't know,  would help everyone if I did what my body wants  to do -  hold onto my head and scream, curl up into a ball until it's over? I don't think so.  

All I can do is keep learning what I love, painting, drawing & creating  - it is how I change my brain.  It is how I excite my brain.  Focus on making fun/beautiful items instead of dwelling on ANYthing negative. I am walking better! Poppy has accomplished that! She loves to walk & lead me- she is so well behaved and I'm proud to take her out. For now - that is enough.

Tomorrow it is back to painting and life. 
xox  Have faith  <><

FaceBook notices - when will I learn- shut them off!  Lead me not into temptation, an e mail notice arrived --  it's David Kaminski's Birthday!  My other 'Favorite Glass Guy!'  I won't log into FB but I will blog about David! It's time & it's his Birthday! 
Here I go... I Love David! lol - I do and he knows it! I tell him monthly at least - lol in e-mail and FB messages. 

When did I meet David? It was before the first EXPO and it was at an event, put on by a new Cannabis awareness event/club.  Instantly - I liked David!  His smile! His enthusiasm for life an his Faith in God & in Cannabis was obvious all around!   I had a little table set up and  we talked about Storm and Cannabis.  Our photo below - we have both 'grown' quite a bit in 5 years I think.  I next met David again at the first TY EXPO we shared! He was there with his glass & so it began. My introduction into the glass world!
*Remember at the TY medical Cannabis EXPO - I had no time to socialize - let alone go around looking and learning about  glass, it was where I was (thankfully) introduced to a world on new art and artists! I'm pleased to thank God for putting David on a path that has taken me where I had no concept... as I sit here and touch (close to my heart, mentally & physically) my Laughing Buddha pendant,  Jerry Kelly created.  I alter that with my Zen Kitty pendant by Stephen Boehme! - Which is  guarded by my 'mighty hippo' when not wearing.  Storm pointed out " you have the coolest jewelry of anyone I know!"  Me too! I agree.  LOL  That and my promise of Love from Norm ;) I always wear. hee hee hee
Wow! Close to my <3 and I have David to thank - he introduced & arranged for Jerry and Stephen & I to work together. This is why David still does not have an original. lol
It has to be special.  It has to be one that says this is for David. * ALSO - it is the only time some said 'hold a piece of art work'  and someone else really begged/bugged me - and I let it go. That was David! I still feel bad about it ( I will make it up to him)- clearly he forgave me it was long before all of this. That is David.  < He WILL forgive you and he will mean it! & you will know he does.

David is a millie glass artist as well! lol - Im so impressed with David the person  I almost forget about David the artist ;) UNTIL I see what he is doing- some he won't show me!! I want to know what happened to the puppet- do you think he will answer my e mail? I'm smiling.  

From what I gather his speciality is black and white- it has a clean crisp signature- again  I'm amazed at he level of talent to be able to create in glass, many have difficulty with on paper!  I recently drew him a few little ideas - I hope he makes them, they made us giggle. He made a 'Wilma' that Fred would go bonkers over! Me too - lol.  What stands out about David in my mind above his glass is his love for others and positive attitude and never ending  display of compassion and patience for others- lol - just watch his FB page. He puts it to the test all the time and I love it!  
Oh! He also - I recently discovered (God has a way of showing me things when I NEED to see them) ha quite the talent for writing as I discovered in some back issues of a glass magazine - I'm only now getting around to reading!  A man of many talents.
He inspires me to be a better person.

Storm and I have quite a on going joke at the moment and he teases me- David said he sent something - well I've learned these glass guys - are like... me -  LOL! We ask - 'whats your address?' and then - WAIT...It's not intentional it is a fact and I understand it. We are creative, busy and doing 'it' all. David had a contest a while back - I did not get my mille slice :( - I didn't blame David - it was not  the first item I have no received- I blogged about it before - I'm having trouble with the postal service. Stuff is going missing! We were discussing it as a family last night.  What do you do?  I replaced the lock!? Who do you call?
*Say Ghost busters and I might poke you  in the eye!  Blame? Ask? Lost in transit? 
& Health Canada wants us to get our medicine like this? 
So, David said he mailed something, I remind Storm to check the mail and he said - "I don't know about David..." (with a smirk on his face) -Storm agrees with me... David is one of the nicest people we know.  BTW - he really did just check - no mail! good! I just want to wish David Happy Birthday! I am so happy he is is my life. He makes me smile. 
He is also a Jesus Fan. <>< !   Or should I say...  Yes! Yeshua !  Hee hee hee - couldn't resist. ;) 
Have a peek at some of Davids work below. Did you read the blog, about the time I lost the glass slice he gave me -TWICE!? - LOL - So Forgiving!  
<>< 
Have Faith 

The ruling is in & The Supreme Court of Canada has ruled that it is unconstitutional to force Canadians to ONLY smoke their medicine. 
Read More here: http://www.cbc.ca/news/politics/medical-marijuana-legal-in-all-forms-supreme-court-rules-1.3109148   It is now legal for  legal patients of cannabis as their medicine to use and have with them edibles/medibles:  Items that can be eaten with cannabis in them = cookies, brownies, tootsie rolls and teas to name ONLY a FEW.  How I first preferred Storm to medicate - especially when at school, for several reasons * all of which have been covered in this blog over the years - lol  So - to me  it was an obvious decision. medicine that tastes good- Rona Ambrose  Our Minister Health - here in Canada "is OUTRAGED!" Which has me shaking my head for several reasons. 
Outraged? Really and to whom does she direct this rage? Canadians that she is  supposedly to be concerned of our health and welfare, safety?  
WHO is she to feel or direct rage at anyone - including a judge of the Supreme Court of Canada?  A unanimous decision. Had the decision went in the other direction - Rona would EXPECT us to show only respect for such a judges decision! Wouldn't she?  
This woman represents Canada and ALL the Canadian people, No? 
Not just the 'conservative ones'? Am I wrong?  Please correct me if i am.

Not just this decision but the Canadian people - becoming more aware - are opting for legalization/decriminalization-  and we should be - what ever it takes to stop sending out people to jail! These ARE not hard core criminals I am referring to, they ARE non- violent offenders.  Growing a plant, smoking a plant - if for medicinal or recreational use should not be putting people in prison! 

I was angry yesterday. I purposely posted - so I would not post until today - after I had time to process. Process before Posting. < lol I'll try to listen to that more often. Rona is most concerned about the children - then do the right thing and EDUCATE them - on all drugs. NOT fear MONGER. What government rules  by fear - a weak one and that is what is happening - it's nothing but fear mongering lately. ;(  I'm not afraid.   I told Marie this case would be won weeks ago. 

I believe we (Canadians as ONE)  won't HURT our children and we have proven it by making sure edibles are available!!! 
Cookies and brownies for our babies! WHY NOT!?
If they are ill enough for cannabis - let them enjoy every BITE.  
PLEASE remember - Our son Storm was in fact, diagnosed by 'two teams' of Dr.s,  one at the hospital for sick children and then again in Montreal at the shriners hospital - IT was only after years of watching our child suffer that we chose cannabis as an option. Thank God it WAS available.
I am NOT telling any parent to make this decision on their own. I AM begging EVERY parent - IF your child is ill - do your research about Cannabis and make it one of your first choices! It IS one of the safest, compared to our other options available.  

Rona is worried about the children...  Rona, what about he thousands of children who are being HELPED by cannabis, do our children not matter?  
Are we expected to believe that Rona Ambrose - Health Minister of Canada,  mother, < (just a word), professional - who is well aware of Cannabis in Canada - a mistake in HER mind made over 10 years ago - is NOT aware of what cannabis is doing to help save people around the world? Doe she not have cable ? lol 
Does she not ever watch the news or read the paper?  Let me guess,  or in a few months will she be Canada's Dr. Gupta and tell us "I was wrong about Cannabis"  we'll all be expected to 'forgive' her and move on.  

The stress added to sick individuals in this country over cannabis - a plant, is the only real crime being committed. Rona Amrose - our Minister of Health (oxymoron) 
the outrage you feel is simply a reflection of what you have provided to so many others.  

The next court case will be for Canadians who were granted permission to grow their own medicine - will be permitted to continue to do so.  I have no fear regarding this case,  it too will be won.  Why?  It is wrong.
I no longer have faith in our Government to look out for our welfare - I do have faith in each other.

I'm going to go and BAKE to celebrate!  I'm going to go and make some sweets for my sweet- made it TCL and THC by me - MOM!  Here is one posted before that was a hit!  
Storm still prefers homemade banana bread with chocolate chips and extra Cannabis!  
good for his bones!!  Also - some medicate chex mix is on the menu! 

Have faith    <><    xox    

Merry & Medicated! That’s me! 
LOL  - Tis' the season to be crafting! Between Bumble, pallets, cookies, crafts & Christmas countdown begun I am experiencing a little more pain  than expected. LOL 

Thank God for Cannabis. 

I have been on a bit of a break from Cannabis cartoons - well not drawing them but researching and reading. It started to get to me. As the rest of the world acknowledges, admits to decades of lies and shows positive  research into Cannabis, Canada still claims it has no medicinal values and will get into the hands of kids everywhere. 
Lies and bullshit and you and I know it.  

Don’t believe me? Look at the facts now on statistics in Colorado. 
Kids who will get into drugs get into drugs. 
Most start with far more dangerous and addictive *PROVEN - I might add* Alcohol. 
I’ve said it all before.. I feel like ‘I’ve drawn it all’ before and YES, we still live it. 

How many people have died or have gotten much worse in the short time we have been introduced to the Cannabis community.. for me - I’m aware of the children in Canada and the USA, all dealing with serious issues (life and death in most cases), added debt, stress and added stress and bureaucratic bullshit.  Added unnecessary stress. 

OVER a plant!  It makes me literally sick to my stomach if I think about it long enough. 
Why I have stepped back and changed my direction of focus. 
I don’t want to be next on that list.   

It does not mean I am NOT thinking and drawing.. 
For Now.. Let’s BE Merry! 
I am - Im going to go decorate the living room! 
I am remembering the reason for the season, making a hot tea with medicated honey! 
Yes, my hands hurt. My twitch never stops but I am blessed and I know it. 

As long as we can - there is no excuse not to. 

Merry & Medicated! 
My wish for everyone this season! 
xoxo Have faith! 

It’s that time of the year! I get to draw the  Cannabis Digest Halloween cover! 
Fun!? For me YOU BET! Halloween for many years is our favorite holiday for fun. 
Time to bring out he imagination in full force! 

This years cover also has special meaning. 
It is my way of thanking Ted & Gail  and the Cannabis Digest team for all that they do 
- as in educating the masses.
My cartoons have been featured in CD for a few years now, and I grateful for it!
I was even working on a regular blog but with health issues what they are - I am  eliminating all stress - including deadlines . LOL   So far so good. 
Ted was very understanding.

I put extra TLC into this cartoon as  I thought of Ted and Gail.
I have only had the pleasure once, of meeting them in person - at a treating Yourself EXPO  and that was fleeting.  Ted was enthusiastic as I thought he’d be and Gail was just sweet. Down to earth. The both of them.  They have educated us with Cannabis Digest, at the same time the stories hey have shared make me feel closer and empowered - strength in numbers. 

Ted & Gail - if you check out their FB page also have a wonderful loving relationship. You see it in all they do! The paper, the Teepee, the tiles behind the fireplace in the place they call home sweet home. You always see people over, hanging out.  I am under the impression that Ted and Gail welcome all. 

Gail is not well, she has been battling cancer for a bit now and still I see photos of her laughing, surrounded by friends and family. I drew Gail laughing! Her and Ted together stirring the POT! In more ways than one!  Ted has a smile in my opinion that goes from ear to ear & has a hint of CHEEKY & FUN.  I hoped to catch it in the drawing- with a touch of madness for halloween of course!
We all need a touch of madness to be by - Halloween or not! 

I put much TLC into the drawing, as my way of saying thank you to Ted and Gail and the team (new and old) @ Cannabis Digest for all they continue to do in helping educate and end the insanity. It was fun! The time flew and I can’t wait to see the cover!  I also enjoy the fact that others will have fun coloring! 

As you read the current copy of Cannabis Digest Please take one moment to thank them for all the hard work they do. It is all many need to simply keep doing that they are meant to do. I wish them continued Love and success at all they do, as long as they do it... and hopefully together for a long time to come!  

Clearly,  two heads & hearts made stronger in love and more. 

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xox <><

Where does it all go?  Sit and think for one minute.
All the medication that goes in our system eventually if it does not stick around and fuck - (alter) your body in some way.. it leaves via your pee.  Years ago a friend told me of the cancer medication she peed out of her system, how it turned the water a deep red and frightened her... and she like me, then started to think - well then, where does it go? 
Cancer medications where you can't have your husband in the same room as you, for 48 hours or it's toxic!? 
Sadly, I do know about this stuff first hand, because I have first hand friends that deal with this shit.  Forgive me, but I have had an emotional day mentally after attending my first support group for TN.  It only hit me after I retuned home and thought about it all afternoon.  Then napped in the sunshine with poppy for 2 hours ;) Amen.

You know what I heard a lot of, besides people -who I do think can relate- to my pain. 
That is strangely comforting. Is that strange?  lol 
One woman simply said: "You know when the dentist touches your tooth- and your not frozen, for a split second you want to go through the roof?"
Well that was a great way to describe it! 
I get that so many times a day I give up counting... no wonder I am exhausted. 
I will admit I was feeling.. defeated.  
To look around the room and not one person has Hemi facial Spasm as well.  

All very normal people, all have busy lives who suffer with TN, on top of life.
The topic of medication came up over and over again! Never good really. Except for me! 
I'm the only one in the room with positive side effects.  ;) 

Holy cow! Forget it, I'm not going on anything else! I Am keeping it natural. 
Rashes that leave you in the hospital and sick for weeks, throwing up.. the same stuff I hear and read about daily over and over again!! You know I get it, but 'I' don't want to play around with my liver or BRAIN or anything else if I can help it ever again. 

Storm pointed out to me a while ago we all have to learn to live with a little pain, some physical, some mental, some both. We still all have choices to make every day and many do it!! WITHOUT drugs.  When I hear of someone who is on an antidepressant I think of them as being 'on DRUGS'  and I AM thankful for that change in my mindset!
I AM grateful for that change in my mindset! 


What blew my mind or rather 'who' was this older woman, late 70's if I had to guess (I'm not really good at that though, and I can't remember names at all) she was sweet, her hair, makeup & outfit perfect! And it's an early meeting! She appeared 'to me' to be sleeping much of the meeting- Oh well, I saw it happen in church all the time.  
Well, at the end of the meeting  - who walks up to me and asks me about Cannabis? HER! LOL  Sleeping, she was not!  
How awesome, it puts a smile on my face now thinking of her.  I wished I had cookies! 
One for everyone in the bunch!! 
I know what these people are dealing with!  Yet, they all had smiles, and encouragement for each other, it was nice to see a few husband and wife teams. I think Norman is done. LOL He can join me next time. Not that I did not LOVE my friend Cathy's support. 

If not for Cathy, I would not have gone.  She was my driver. 
We had to be there at 9:30.  She attends mass with her sisters every Sunday.  So it was really nice of her.  It was our first drive on the 404! WOW! What a difference! It felt like we were there & home in the blink of an eye!  

I am glad I went,  it has given me much to think about. 
I will go again.  Nice to know I'm not crazy, alone, frustrated, "sitting crying in a corner"... which is very easy for me to do.  Who will it help? Will it make a difference? 
I refuse. WE have to keep busy! 
Maybe those medications are NOT helping you? 
Cannabis MIGHT! It might make you smile too! 
WE MUST keep busy. Learn a new hobby. Volunteer, DRAW! PAINT! 
KEEP BUSY!   & BE. ;) 
xox <><

I know my blog can be all over the place.. so is my mind. 
I know I'm making mistakes but I can't sit and re read. 
I pray my message is understood. It is all I can do.

More on TN as soon as I can . ;)

It's been a great long weekend & It's NOT over! 
Today, I decided to get crafty and create a sign for the front door entrance.
I wanted to use pallets - Free wood.  
I WILL admit,  Norm did re-nail them a 'bit closer' for me, and then sanded the entire thing with an electric sander. Accomplishing in mere minutes what would take me hours. 
Storm carried it out back and I painted in the sunshine! 
Now it hangs in the front entrance and I am already working on a Christmas one!!!

Most days, it is a good thing when you must keep busy. 
I also drew the cover for the NEXT Cannabis Digest newspaper! 
You might be aware, we love Halloween.. It was so much fun.
(more on the cover - after it is published)  
It's like crack for my brain thinking of halloween!  ;) 
I can't share it - You have to wait until it hits 'news stands' like me! 

Imagine if we were all permitted to just do what we love?
Have faith! Give thanks and NEVER give up!!!

Yippie! & Horay!!!

Sanity is still alive and kicking in Canada! Amen! 
A judge has ruled it is  unconstitutional to not allow edibles! 
Medibles! What ever you call them.  Cannabis infused products.
Medicated products that you eat - rather than smoke cannabis!!!

NO KIDDING! It astounded me when this case started! Really? 
No baked edibles permitted? No cookies or  brownies?

As a mother  who’s son was 14 when he first used cannabis for pain - I baked him cookies to take to school! I baked him banana bread when he was not feeling well enough to smoke. I make him medicated Toffee for the winter months!  I have super healthy date balls in the fridge that are medicated, ‘CannaTootsie’ rolls are a favorite, we have medicate cocnut oil for me, a personal favorite. I put it in my tea.

How insane that we were expected to only SMOKE it. I do smoke it still - It brings me the quickest from of instant relief.  To sleep or a busy day planned with a lot of walking, standing, medibles are a great way to keep it in your system, much like pills do I guess.
I would not have made it Saturday at the ‘Perch fest’ without my medicated capsules in the a.m. and a few tokes throughout the day.  Thank God.

It was a given! I was so happy!!!!! AM so happy! How wonderful! 
Moms can make their  severely ill children brownies, cookies - instead of fighting and forcing them - already enduring enough- to take a crappy medicine they don’t like! 
Been there! Done that!!! I know.
WE even get to throw in lots of other great ingredients! 
My banana bread is very healthy! 

So celebrate! It’s a step in the right direction!!!  
Thank you Judge with  HEART, Compassion, Empathy and UNDERSTANDING!!!

Now for the rest...   one day at a time.
Read more here:
http://www.cbc.ca/news/canada/british-columbia/medical-pot-cookie-prohibition-ruled-unconstitutional-1.2736526

xox 
<><

Divided we fall...

It’s hard to comprehend somedays to an outsider what it happening in the United States regarding Cannabis laws. I don’t understand how a country called the UNITED states of America can be so ‘UN-united’.   It is one thing to be fighting for the same rights across Canada - from Coast to Coast we continue  to fight for our rights to grow our own medicine and legalization.  

Imagine being a mother in the united states when  your child is suffering, dying from illness you know Cannabis can help - and only a drive away, a state away, the medicine, possibly even the CURE, is readily available IN your country - for others. If you live in a state not yet legal, you are out of luck.
It must be frustrating on an entirely new level, I am grateful I cannot comprehend.

When I hear other advocates discussing with parents of ill children “Move to Colorado!” - it grates my nerves.  
You have no idea the stress parents are already under, illness, hospital bills, family stress,  job security, bills - it’s endless.
Then to have to pick it all up and move away from your support groups, ADD new stress on top of it regarding living situations, schooling,  leave your family & friends - JUST so your child can access Cannabis. A right that should be provided to every child in need. 
I don’t understand.  Do not get me wrong - if my child was sick - my bags would be packed!    ...Why should they?

I can image many Americans understand even less, especially the ones that are suffering, are incarcerated, lost their family and jobs for simple possession charges a state over from one that is legal. 
Recently, a young man was arrested in Texas and  possibly sentenced from 5 years to life. ‘FOR Brownies.’  A substance never proven to kill anyone - could you imagine - IF the pharmaceutical companies were held accountable and charged with each death?  
Jail for BROWNIES!? 
When cousin Jim is baking and selling  legal brownies only a coupe of states over? 
What does U stand for in the U.S.A, Eh?

Before you tell someone to pack up their bags, understand what they are dealing with and why not help them explore other options and rights. Get media attention  and community support (if time allows) IF parents must leave, have family and friends fight to bring them home and EDUCATE others on Cannabis! If you really want to help.

I was asked ‘why touch so much on American topics?’ 
What topics are strictly American? 
What are strictly any countries? 
Not Cannabis,  it is a world wide problem and I focus on ONE love.
xox <>< 

I love a garden! Life began in a garden! 
I was out again all day, Tomatoes. Peppers, Peas... but I am most excited about my sunflower wall! :) and Morning Glories! I have them every where and in a month - I will be blessed with Blooms! Oh, and I planted Cosmos! The flower of peace. My grandma had them everywhere and I loved them. TLC, KEEP the girls away and I should have a garden soon enough! With each seed you really are planting hope - I've had a few fail! A few I thin - they look good and the next day - dead. 
Not in my control. In Gods Control.  Every SEED. Human and otherwise... 

I can't help but dream- daydream, and imagine tending to my Cannabis plants! How high would they get 5', 6'?  What creatures would they invite to my garden ? Bee's I know and humming birds! LOL, a few friends might stop by at harvest time - and so what - I share my tomatoes, peppers and more!  I'd pick some fresh every morning to add to my juice! 
Just as I go out and pick fresh herbs for meals and salads and drinks.

What other plant has this stigma attached to it? 
What other plant helps so many in so many ways?
Why is it criminal to GROW a plant? ANY plant? 
WHO are the criminals?  
Who spends more on drug trafficking and less on human trafficking? 
WHO ARE THE CRIMINALS? 

God put it here for each and every one of us. 
Man did not invent it - how dare man - any man, claim it and why are we letting them? 
xox <>< 
Have Faith! 

This toon is for my best bud, Cathy. 
We rode earlier in the week and filled my bike basket with flowers!  
Poppy too! I said, 'All I needed was bread and a bottle of wine and I could envision myself in Paris' ;)  Hee Hee Hee, We had a great day of it, as usual. 
I hope everyone finds a friend like Cathy. 
I miss my bike, I hope it is repaired soon! 
We have EXPLORING to do! 

My friend Todd...
I have blogged about Todd before. I believe everything and everyone for a reason. I first met Todd at an EXPO and he 'called me' on something -  something I offered in my newsletter-  to make a long story short - he got my attention, we struck up a conversation and today I am honored to call him and his family friends.  

Todd GREW Cannabis legally in the united states.
HE DID. 
By paying for tax stamps! I have one right here on my desk to remind me daily of the injustise my friend faces (in the image above) Tennessee Department of Revenue -UNAUTHORIZED SUBSTANCE STAMP(s).. and guess what friends, they don't come cheap.  Todd has been playing by the rules, openly goes & pays for his stamps and they know what he has been growing. Todd even has a website he promotes- In other words...
*** IT'S BEEN NO BIG SECRET -  BUT not too long ago they still busted his door in and held a gun to his daughters head and arrested Todd.  You can research it all yourself or contact Todd, he has nothing to hide.
Shortly after being busted, his younger daughter Ariel was rushed to hospital  with pain in her abdomen only to find out she had cancer. She has undergone extensive surgeries and  cancer treatments. 
Todd has much going on.. His court date is July 14th. 2014.  
He does not know if he will go to jail very soon and what his he doing - he is MARCHING!  We are close, when this bust happened and I first spoke with Todd, he was frightened (how can one not be), now, I am witnessing a different Todd, one who knows he did nothing wrong and is tired of being pushed around and is tired of watching everyone being pushed around - for what?   NOW - A substance only a couple of states away is celebrated. 
 It is ridiculous!  
I am sure people who know Todd are thinking, why did'nt she draw Todd walking... 
-one of the reasons why I love my friend Todd, his letter starts off with this: