'I love Canada.  Even in the winter..  I get more painting done!  Nature is my clock.
What do I love about Canada? Stunning nature, trees, GREEN, bluejays, maple syrup (Heaven's is my favourite')  Justin,  poutine, Beavers, Moose & loons!  The Ex- even tho  I no longer attend,  Mounties, Inukshuks...  the list is endless & Now- Canada allows Medical Cannabis patients to grow their own medicine!  Amen.  
It has me wanting to celebrate and combine my love of Canada with my love of cannabis and here was the first in a series Im calling 'Home Grown Canadian'.

My sons long time friend Sam, surprised me with a new piece to add to my collection!!
​Check out my sweet little glass nugget. ;) I'm very proud of him as I have bugged him a long time to keep creative!   A little upset he admitted he is slacking lately and only working about 3 hours. That's not going to cut it. Treat it like a job you LOVE  9-5 at least!
Check out Soul Masta's Glass on FB!  

On my Mind - my first sketch of the day... My MUGSHOT 

Next on the desk.. a little Alice Fun..  Peek A Boo, peek thru. I'm going to Time-lapse!

 On my mind...  I will NOW only tolerate people, thing, events, jobs in life that
Turn Me On!   Turn on my mind first and the rest follows! Meaning my heart.

On my mind.. Scruffy of course. I will admit yesterday during a TN attack and my face cramped for what seems like forever- it is my right side, my eye pulls shut and stays that way.. well Scruffy now has her right eye always shut.  The things that dog does for me.  
Dr. Karen Norman called me this am and assured me she was doing well.  Scruffy went out for a pee - "make sure she is on a least she knows her way home!"  and she said already you see her personality shine through. She is pretty bruised still, I can't wait for tomorrow- around 10, I walk up and go get her! 

Lot's to celebrate! 

Have faith
<><
​xox

My Hallmark  girl is in the hospital...  please send her some loving vibes today.
Me too.    

As you know Tequila just died... She was our oldest dog - 19, and still called the shots- even with Daisy who was easily 4 times her size, she trained Daisy - as Daisy watched her, so did all our dogs-  Tequila was well behaved.  If Daisy got out of line  'Ticky would go over and growl at her and Daisy would back off.  WE noticed the past week, Scruffy 'claimed the basket' (Tequilas basket that she had her entire life) no one else used it.  
We let it go- someone has to use it but I saw Daisy going over & giving her a dirty look.  Really.

Anyhow Daisy and Scruffy have always fought.. maybe 3 times a year they get yelled (we never let our dogs fight with each other) at & Scruffy- a 1/4 of Daisy's size never backs down! She is my problem child with the most attitude!  Well,  yesterday  they got into a fight, over nothing... Storm was right there with a friend (thank God)  I was up painting, my first in a series of  "Home Grown Canada".  Storm calmly yelled to me "Mom, come - we need to take Scruffy to the vet... its bad mom,  prepare yourself."   He was incredibly calm- as he gets- thank God.  When I saw Scruffy - My heart sank.    ;(    
One of her eyeballs was on her face.
I held her still as Storm ran of his keys..  she was calm, looking at me  ;( with both eyes and all I could was cry silently and hug her and tell her its o.k...    

Just then, Norm came through he door (Scruffy is  his dog)  and they rushed her to the vet.. it was closing... so they were advised to take her to the 'emergency clinic'.... Here is where I start to get extremely pissed off, so I best keep calm...   $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$    they were told it could cost up to $4,000 if they did it.  BUT if we wait and take her back to our vet today it will be much cheaper, WTF!?   !!!!!!!!
ARGGGHHHHH!!!  Bullshit!
Just do your fucking job and don't try to gouge everyone!
What a fucking joke..  :(          O.k. Im still very upset and cried all night.
My girl is in the hospital with her eye on her cheek because of $.  
We had to wait, we don't have the $ - we are waiting now to go and get her and bring her to surgery.  Norm had to get a credit card   to pay.  ;(  we were credit card free.  & it has already cost us $700. cash..   to sedate and send her back to another vet.    >:(  Fucking joke.

What do you do- say put her to sleep for $150. ;(    
No, she is one of my girls, family!  OMGosh, just the thought putting her to sleep  has me sick to my stomach.  2 dogs in less than 2 weeks.. Scruffy is our rescue 9 years now I think she is..   we were told they won't be able to save her eye.

The one thing I will say is Scruffy is our tuff girl, I'm sure even with one eye, she will be a hand full still. I cant wait to hug and kiss her.

The vet did say that sometimes a dogs like Scruffy- can have an eye pop if they sneeze!
Daisy is in the doghouse and she knows it.  It was an accident, they are normally best buds.

Please send us ALL some loving vibes and prayers today as Scruffy has her surgery.
And I don't freak on the vet. I will update tomorrow.
I just had her photo put onto a canvas.. to paint around her, to pay with and have fun.

Have Faith
​xox <>< 

* Update..  we had to PU scruffy before 7:30 or paid another $150.. we did then drove to the vet and had to wait until they 'Opened' at 8:30. She is now at our vet - since we moved up here. Dr. Karen Norman, whom I would rather do Scruffys surgery anyway.
BUT  they could have done the surgery, the estimate was $2000.  for a Rookie vet.. Oh they had a much more 'formal way' of telling us - I looked at her and said "so, a Rookie?"    
 I got No response- only a look of 'yes, I guess so.'  OR a trained practicing vet for $4000.! + more if complications- but  hey, the rookie - if they had complications - oh well, you got what you paid for.  Fear mongering is what it is. HAVE ONE FUCKING PRICE.

This industry is another that is only concerned with money- what happened to Dr.s caring about patients!?  Scruffy went in there with her eye dangling on her fucking face!  They bandaged her up and I'm supusto be happy with the cute little fucking bandage-  we paid almost $500. 
Awwww... FUCK that! Look after my fucking dog you hypocrites.
​EMERGENCY CLINICS RIP YOU OFF!

*They made sure we paid our money before we got our dog- BUT did not have the change to give us, instead Norm has to make a return visit to them, there was cash in the drawer - but not enough and it wold have 'inconvenienced them'. Icing not he fucking cake.
 
​We will get a call later after surgery and hopefully she will be home Monday.

It's time to show myself some love.
Yesterday, I told you about the death of my dog.. today it is the death of my marriage.
This too will come as no surprise to many who know 'us' well.  
All I ask from anyone is prayers for a smooth transition into a new chapter of my life.
​For myself as well as Norm. 

I found this quote last night on PIN:

'My son is older and now wiser.  
I want him to be in a happy relationship, I know they exist.  

I think it would be better also for me to be alone and 'content' - even happy maybe,  than to be continually in a relationship where we do not get along anymore, fight constantly about everything from no name chips to paint chips and it's just not fucking fun anymore.. it never was.  Not the fighting.  It has physically taken its toll one the past few years, expecting to be who I was not and being in an environment that never stops - with work all around me not complete, it's made it almost impossible to 'stay on top of'.  When not fighting we each do our own thing we never talk about anything other than the weather - I hardly ever get asked 'how was your day?    I'm just not interesting anymore, I guess.    I still ask daily.
 No more. 

You try to 'keep the peace', because it's what you think we should do, at some point you really start to think about the price for peace you are paying and this one is too steep for me.

If you read this blog you have a pretty good idea of what's been happening.
Time has passed.. we went in different directions.  
I told Norm the kitchen won't make a difference - just like everything before- it is all stuff.  By the time 'it' gets done the amount of fighting before - years in fact over something as simple as a set of stairs.. that can be finally accomplished in a matter of hours is all about control in my opinion.  

The most recent remarks about not contributing to this marriage, because I did not go to a 9 - 5 fucking job every day-  pushed me over the edge. As I hope it does to every  mother, woman out there.

It is time I take back control of my own life.
I appreciate and good vibes/prayers  you send  & thank all for their continued support.

I want to find a place where I might paint peacefully, surrounded by my dogs and friends who I know want to be in my company.  I am  planning on moving a bit North- you know me...  I Love nature.  

Now, I'm looking into my options and painting peacefully.
Ironically, I do feel pretty peaceful about this decision...
it's how I know it is right. 
​
No more tears.. fuck that.
I take control back,  NOW.

Have faith 
xox <>< 

Back to painting.  
I'm keeping this one.
I'm framing it and getting it ready to hang in my new home.
​

What would Jim do? 
"What are your alternatives?"  He asked me one day.
​
Draw.

I was hoping,  I'd be able to draw a tribute toon but I can not yet.

Believe
xox
<><

You've got mail!  
IT might be mine.  A joke - no, I'm not laughing.
What you see above is *MAIL** just picked up from our mail box with OUR very own private key - that I paid $35.00 so I could have the lock changed a while back.. mail that was in our mailbox - you know the big kind everyone is getting, that you go to with your keys to pick up your mail safely from the BOX with YOUR own key - Am I making myself clear??Here is more proof, I am documenting every time - I've had it!
Could you imagine IF we were receiving OUR medicine through Canada POST!? 
I argue with my son - almost daily - 'Please go check the mail'...  
I don't like going out- it's simple the cold hurts my face, balance, I don't like seeing people  - in the summer it's a different story. lol -
BUT Now, please go check the mail has turned into:
'I need the mail checked STUFF is going missing!!'

What do you do? Who do you blame- talk about frustration. Accidents happen all the time - this is proof - I get it - and if this is your job - man it must get mundane- BUT,  privately addressed for a neighbour * Norm has already delivered to the CORRECT address.
these are bank papers - identity theft is on the rise- and here is more than most  would need to know!   Check out how they tell us to keep safe from identity theft:

https://www.canadapost.ca/web/en/kb/details.page?article=how_to_prevent_mail_&cattype=kb&cat=security&subcat=identifytheft  

Collect your mail daily! I would IF it was IN the CORRECT box - Canada Post.
Why am I upset? It's not a one time thing-  mails is going missing! 
I've had items I ordered never delivered. If you read this blog you know just before Christmas again, a very small package - never got it.
It was replaced by the shipper and I felt bad about it.  
Did we become targets when Health Canada mailed out their letters addressed for all to see? 
If I'm getting wrong mail  - someone is getting OUR mail. 
Imagine if it was Storms medicine OR mine- I forget about me- I think of him first - 
and was delivered to the wrong home - and lets say - its not such a trust worthy person, who is slightly curious, and more than slightly dishonest- well: kiss the mail goodbye.
I hate to think any such people exist in Keswick..  Ontario... Canada!  - lol 
I've been called naive before.

Why do we have this service and pay taxes - for what?
Proof- shit happens, mistakes are being made all the time... more than mistakes - things are being stolen that are not addressed to the person that they belong to.
Stealing is exactly what it is.  

Tell me what can be done? Do you know?
Really, I don't know what to do - the www. offers a royal run around - and simply suggests you deliver mail if not yours even though 'they are legally' responsible.
Legally responsible for setting us up for identity theft.  This is beyond frustrating.
No wonder, I 'demand' the mail is checked daily - they tease me - I TELL Storm - "Please GO, before  others come home & check their mail, incase & we get a key and they take out mail from A or B box.'  Its a fact. I wish I did not even think it, let alone say it - live it, trust me.

It is to the point, I don't think I will order anything that comes via Canada Post and is important to us. I don't trust the service any longer. 
Do you have my mail? If so kindly deliver it to the correct address. 

Belive
​<>< xox

Tomorrow, Alice.

Let it Be.
I started this cartoon  last week and grateful, it was a distractions I seriously needed as I forced myself to finish the past few days. I still forgot to add the words .. 'with love' and had to go back in, after it was painted. That was not the plan.  
When will I learn, 'plan's mean nothing.  
Again my plan had a monkey wrench thrown in it the other night, I spent between 1 - 5 a.m. then tearing my office apart and stripping it clean. Until I was exhausted and cried out and went to pass out.. up and at it again at 7a.m., I need a good sleep. 
My guys left me alone. 
They understood & also realized could not help.
Today, still as I added the details on this 'Let it Be'
I apologized to Storm about feeling so sad, this close to Chirstmas'
He understands, points to my cartoon & says the answer is right in front of you...
Let it Bee.

This too shall pass. 
I am taking a break until after the holidays. 
Let it Be.   Let it Bee

Let them BEE.

I hope you have  wonderful time with family & friends,  doing stuff together instead of comparing stuff together!  Making memories instead of creating debt! 
Teach your kids about priorities now, not late fees later.
Making Love, not war. 

Have Faith
​xox <>< 

( one of many)It's TIME! Tis The Season! Everywhere you look glitter, sparkle! Buy! Buy! Buy!
Oh my Gosh I am the first one to get caught up in it!!  Why, I will avoid the mall until - Feb if possible.  I can't do it! It turns me into The Grinch and I will tell you why...

           PLEASE DO NOT GO FURTHER IN DEBT BY USING YOUR
​                   CREDIT CARDS!!!! The stress later - might kill you!

If you go 'way back' in this blog you will read about my credit card experience..
well not all of it. I'm finally ready to share the outcome.
When I was at the beginning of this 'brain thing' journey, it started with me being very sick.
I could hardly get out of bed, Dr.s  had no clue and all the tests and neurologist were starting.  I had like many of you a credit card.  When I worked, I paid the card. I even paid for coverage if you get sick*.  It was fine, bills came in and I made payment. 
When I became ill, and fast - this household lost one income. Fast.
We started to lose control of our finances and I could no longer make payments for my credit card. Which was getting insane with interest payments. 
                    Shit happens.  That is how easy it can happen to you too, btw.  

I couldn't make payments, they started to call. I blogged about it, early on.
I freaked out because I received a phone call and was told:
"You can't make payments? I'll come to your house and make you F*cking pay!"
I got off the phone and was visibly shaking, I did not know what to do, who to contact and never had a call like that before. Nasty & mean,  this guy kept taking it to a new level.

To make a real long story shorter.. I contacted company that 'represented' MC that I acquired at the time (who had nothing to do with master card) lol ... everyone else gave me the run around - PLEASE remember I was very sick - they want  you to give up.
Anyhow - Thank God (literally) as I am sure it is with Gods direction - I got attention.
I was called by MC head office in Canada right away.
A week went by-  they said 'they listened to the calls' I had been getting, assured me the employee had been fired and the gentleman I was speaking with told me in his own words "he was a piece of work and was sorry for what I had been put through" & was then
told about a *'hardship program'.  I could pay only $50 a month for a year with no interest. Tired, sick, frightend by the calls I had been getting, hounded, yelled at, taunted, threatened, called many times a day and never listened or wouldn't pass me over to a supervisor.. I was exhausted.  I agreed.
My health issues progressed, a year flew by & the calls start again and just as bad, again:
I was told 'I was making up the hardship program' or 'they had never heard of it!' RUN around, constant calls and MORE abuse. Where do they get these people!? How can they say they are not aware of them verbally & mentally trying to abuse people they phone?

I had had it!!! It's one thing if we shirk our obligations but no one deserves this over a lousy credit card.  Deathly sick and  they were in fact, making me sicker! I cried on the phone to some of those people, begged to be able to just talk to someone - to try to resolve it.
They have no problems giving credit cards to EVERYONE but they then  MAKE everyone FEEL like a criminal  if they can not pay & NOT EVERYONE is a f*cking criminal!
If thats the case and they think we are criminals then why give us the cards in
the first place - because they don't care.  

Frustrated I finally contacted 'who I did' the first time - ONLY this time - I had had enough. I told them straight out in a letter & e mail:
'BRING to me fucking court, you're never getting another fucking cent  for the abuse & stress you have added to my illness'.
IT was FUCKING abuse, plain and simple.  No amount of  '$' is worth it.
Clearly someone finally listened, my phone rang the next day.

I was told that day, I would NEVER hear from  the credit card company again,
"I'd be wiped off the face of the earth, as far as they were concerned"

I never got another  phone call.
I never got another bill.
I never made another payment.

That was about 3 years ago now.  
I will NEVER own another credit card  again.
We do not own any now and will keep it that way.
I told Norm if he gets one - he can get a new wife too...  ;)  No credit cards.

Even to be removed from your husbands/wifes card - YOU can't!
YOU need his/her permission -(divorce nightmare) and must give it to the bank. 
You can go and buy one - if you need to make a purchase online for a set limit.
I use paypal for everything I purchase online or I don't buy it.

NO ONE NEEDs a credit card anymore.
It's all stuff.
Please don't put yourself in the hands of people who will torment you, they don't care if you are sick or not, and it only adds to illness. OVER stuff. 

​There IS a program called the Hardship program < click to read more.
There is a great documentary - GIVE it to your kid this christmas:
Maxed OUT   ** Please give yourself the gift of education and watch it as well.

Credit card companies when they behave like this are no better than glorified loan sharks,
 I know first hand - I was terrified to answer my phone at a time - when I as waiting to hear from Dr.s and get tests results. A time when I was sick and they just made me sicker. Fact.

*** If you think you can lie - good luck- look at what I had to prove & what they put me through.  Things happen out of our control.  
*That 'extra protection coverage '- miss one payment and it's out the window.
Just thinking of what I went through makes me still feel ill.  
I have the number of the guy from the credit card company  in my wallet, still! LOL
He was not happy to see my name come across his desk a second time. 

ALSO * I learned! I started to RECORD their calls. Tell them that!!!
DO NOT let them abuse you!  * I do think you have to warn them & I seriously do mean record the calls if they are making threats.
 >>>  If you are lying - well, you are part of the problem. <<<
THE real problem is the credit card companies and the fact that they just keep handing them out as they get richer just off of everyones interest - in stuff. Literally.

Is STUFF worth the rest of your life? A christmas gift the kids MIGHT really play with for a year? You will  pay years for.  Your kids do not want you stressed.

AM I a buzz kill? GOOD!!!
I'd rather be a buzzkill that contribute to your mental meltdown in January when you can't afford hydro, never mind credit card bills. xox
​
 Tip 2 tomorrow!!  

Fave Fatih
xox <>< 

You know you want too...  
I live with two men and over the years I have witnessed some serious ball scratching going gone. I try to turn a blind eye as - it is what guys do.  When in the comfort of their own home - they do it more frequently - so I am to understand.  I actually try not to give it too much thought but the other day - something was said along these lines and we all started to laugh, Norm and I giggled about it all night.  Storm not so much.  lol
The drawing a bit of a challenge & I was worried until; Linda was over visiting and we made our way up to my office as we usually do, she spied the unfinished toon on my desk, leaned over to read it and burst out laughing . ;)  Oh, good! I guess I got the point across;)
 I decided to cold and here it is I pray it provided a few of you with a Friday smile! 
I know not all will find it funny. 
Oh well.  It made us all laugh.  Move on to NOW.

Not everyone 'gets it'... move on, focus on NOW.  
Do what you love because you love to do it! I tell you - IF I let every bit of negativity that tried to sneak into my soul - effect me. I would hardly draw.  
My Dandy Lion  (the lion and lamb drawing, below) I had someone (I like - don't really know that well) E me, they 'did not approve' more or less...
"Children seeing it might get confused and think it o.k. to pat a lion...  "
My first reaction was confusion & then.... - lol - defence:  
Give me a break!  ? Really? WTF - Then every lion driving a car - watch out kids!  
How about those elephants driving firetrucks! Hippo's dancing the ballet- watch out toes.
2nd: a bit later. anger.. Was that comment really necessary? WTF? What was that all about?
3rd: hurt... that was cruel.. why would they say that.. I love this drawing.. 
much later... when I remembered to ask for assistance so i could get past it myself..  Done. To each his own. 
The last thing I should care to do is explain about lions and children books and inspiring young imaginations!  
NOR do I care to defend or try to explain a drawing I did to this person. LOL  
It was drawn from love and still holds love for me when I look at it.
Filled with love as I drew it - sent out with LOVE. 
If the first thing another sees is 'a child being attacked from a lion'- by looking at this drawing - who does the problem lie with?
No me.

So - a nice lesson again, I guess 'I' took it personally in the first place as it came from someone 'I' put judgement on- really. My mistake. 
Put your creations out there - with love. 
With Love we can not fail.
Nay sayers or not.  They are here to keep us focused and strong and help me to get along. 
I sent up prayers and smiles finally - that she might one day look at such a simple drawing and see it for what it was, a cute lion and lamb laying in the grass playing - a hope for peace. 
A cartoonists drawing. 
Simple.

Have we not more important things to focus on, or make others aware of?  I do!! 

Yeah! I am back to sharing toons! 
Thank You Norman! & Thank you Normans' employer Findlay Restoration.
Norm loves his job, thank God.  He believes the owner is a good man.  
How awesome! He can't wait to go in the morning! lol - I get up with him now!
He was asked to work all weekend and he did, mostly for me... and partly for his own sanity! 
LOL He lives with me! Some only get a glimpse of what I can BE. <3 
That is why I try to keep it only from love!  I can post cartoons again! 
Share smiles and love! 
OH! The teach only LOVE cards are ready!! 
I can't wait to start mailing some out! 
Stay tooned!! 

xox <><  Have Faith!

It's time. 
A better understanding is needed. 
Men are not mind readers & the majority of people do NOT 'get it'. until you explain it to them.  

For the past 6 years I have suffered with a twitch.. in my head, pretty much constant that progressed & strengthened into such pain, I could not walk or focus. I had surgery and it was not  a complete success. It did remove a ‘Blockage sensation’ in the front of my head I had.  It never went away and in time had  steadily increased in frequency and 
in pain. It is 10:30 a.m. and I’m ready for my nap. I am up, usually at 4... it takes me a while to get medicated and calm my twitch. It is so strong in the a.m.  I can be hungry and the pain goes right to the pit of my stomach, the thought of food suddenly has me gagging.

I try to read. I TRY because it is physically maddening to read with a constant twitch. TRY it. FOR 6 years. It is a LEARNED habit, I cherish.  I also read something that will ‘force’ me to start my day in a positive light. It is too easy to be dragged into darkness.
You have to kick at the darkness until it bleeds daylight. 
I have a friend Mona who reminds me of that. 

‘By 10a.m.  most days I choose- Cry OR  DO  something. 
Not just do.. BE creative. 

Walking is something I MUST focus on most times, I feel like I have a weight in my head wobbling the rest of my body.  When being constantly zapped- what do you do ? 
Learn to live through it &  Thank God for each time you come out the other side. 

I don’t share any of this for PITY. Pity is not what I need. 
I need loving vibes sent. Understanding for me and others like me. 
I have Trigeminal Neuralgia & some. 
I have on average, on a good day 5 major attacks an hour. 
I have a very visual case. I find it difficult also on levels socially.  
Photos taken this a.m. shared. *Hard to do. Even if just in a blog.

People can see my pain. It makes some uncomfortable. It makes me uncomfortable.  
I must force myself out socially. BUT my home is different. IT IS my comfort zone that I NEED badly. I invite only those who I know come with love and nothing else. 
I am very selective of who I even invite for a coffee. 

The woman from the TN Support group, Kathy has been very supportive to me personally. She responds to my e mail, some nice, some angry -(I figure if she can’t FU*KING understand, who will?) She does not judge and encourages me - she also pointed out that  ‘I seem to be ashamed of my disease.’  
I though when I read that: That’s BULLSHIT! 
She was right. I am ashamed. I have no control. ;( 

The world world can see, I have lost control of my own face.  My mind is zapping me 24/7 and it hurts and I can’t stop it.  Dr.s can’t either. Not without a lot of GUESSING.
I sometimes think THANK GOD - they cannot see the pain that comes with. 

I don’t want Pity! I want understanding! 
When I am stressed and the blood starts to race a bit faster- I can start to resemble, as if I am having a stroke. I also can NOT bend over all the time for the same reason.
It triggers stronger attacks and NO thank you! I have enough in a day.

*IF I'm having a PHONE conversation - say with the government - ( LOL - usual bullshit) and I start to get upset - as they an cause you to do - it can trigger an attack,  I slur my words and my face cramps and HURTS. They can’t 'hear' this on the phone and when I go quiet, I’ve even had people who appear to lose patience! 

I AM in the process of finding out how to get my communications in writing! WHY NOT? 
YOU know why - because then when they SCREW UP, you have a record! 

Recently  the government screwed up- after MONTHS of running around and passing the buck- ADDING UNNECESSARY stress to our lives -It was NOT until AFTER I was FORCED  to send a threatening letter - assuring I would be happy to involve Dr.s, Lawyers and the PRESS  - we did get a phone call and APOLOGY and admitting numerous mistakes were made! Amazingly someone was READY to actually listen.  It is draining and I know we are not alone! Speak to anyone and you hear the same stories. 
How many do not have even the energy to argue. Too many.
There services are in place to help us? I find it hard to believe. 

I am so very tired of it. I refuse to be ‘judged’ by anyone WHO does not know and refuses to KNOW OR LISTEN!  
I AM DONE. I will not apologize for this! I will NOT be ashamed and I will educate!
IF I can  -  and I CAN. 
Do I wish I was NOT the one to be educating you on this!? 
YES!!  I AM. Here, Literally the face  of pain. 

I do get breaks, Naps do help. Positive People, Vibes, books, shows.. all help.
Why would anyone want it any other way?   If we lose it  quick, we apologize quick in this house and move on. I thank God for my guys and their patience & LOVE they provide me with every hour of every day.  If I ask. ;) 

Men ARE NOT mind readers. 
A little understanding from strangers - is that too much to ask? 
DO NOT judge UNLESS you know - and even then. Why bother. 
IF you don’t  have anything nice to say - don’t say it. 
DON’T tolerate it either. 

Everything for a reason.  I am learning to embrace all that life gives - as long as I remind myself I am never alone, I’m going to be o.k.   
I’m never alone. ;) I don’t mean the dogs...  lol 

The world can see, I have lost control of my own face.
But they can’t see, I have not lost control of my faith. 

xox
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Have Faith 

More FaceBook Fun

Friday I was up at 4! 
Wishing my guys well on a fishing adventure! They were off! 
Too much energy from the chatting, coffee and making sure all was got & not forgot, instead of reading I decided to log on to FB.  I could not.

On the screen appeared a box saying due to traffic, I had to change my page from a person to “Public figure”. I tried to back out, log off, re log in.. several times. NOPE, same box every time. 
I  proceeded as instructed.  5 a.m..
Clearly, I had no other option. I was relieved to see my page looked exactly the same with all my posts. But NO comments!  ALL gone!  ???
I am sure someone new to the page might imagine why. or how with no activity.  
All the conversations, comments, educational links others shared. GONE.
All the friends I have made over the years - some,  

I’ve actually gotten to know in real life - GONE.
ANY Private messages, Cartoon ideas - saved there, addresses, stories, links - GONE.
Messages from parents with sick kids..   gone and I don’t have any e mail addresses.

Frustrated I turned off the computer, only to arrive back a bit later to see I already had a couple of messages, asking what happened to the page and ‘was it personal?’ 
THEN -  I tried to connect with the person - who is ‘no longer a friend’ and when I visited the page - I see, I can no longer: Comment, Like  or even send people messages. :(
Not even to my son or husband!?

I tried to explain this to someone - only to be doubted. As you can see from the image below from a good - real life friend.. The option to even message is gone.

Oh well! Feeling incredibly frustrated again, I shut it off, sat back and breathed and went about housework.  6 a.m. 
Later I thought log on and see what happening... No news FEED? LOL!
COME ON! 
WTF! But then I realized, I no longer have ‘friends’ so I cant see what you are posting! Not only that, I can’t search!  I have no search window * something must be wrong

Well I felt really sad then... 
No Mykayla going to school- Can’t wait to see her first art project!
How is Rebel growing!? At the same time, I will admit to all of you - forgive me, but  we are close to Cashys anniversay of passing - I’ll never forget because it was the day after my surgery. His mothers pain tears at my heart. Only a mother must feel such a degree of sadness. So I was going to have to  NOT look ... it can consume me. NOT looking for me BTW does Not mean I am not thinking. What that beautiful baby endured only to die
 - yes, that is a “I’m pissed at that GOD!”   for me. 

I am dealing myself now, with an illness... well - you know. 
Last week Storm and I had a very serious conversation where he admitted to me that he does not think I am capable to go camping with them and why.       
He was 100% correct. I was in denial.  
Because of this condition  one minute I look & feel fine the next I am like a drunk staggering & my brain feels as if it’s doing the same thing inside. 
It’s just not safe, & he wants to fish -  I get it. ;)  
He is so good at it. It brings him Peace. 

So..  I take it a a sign. I am grateful for all of you that continue to follow, support
I will take hint from a friend who is on sabbatical and do the same. 
I will post, and then do what I am to do - draw.

Thankfully, I do have a few e mail. 
Several have helped informing a few of where my page is at. 
> Georgia Toons < on Face book.
You know what, it was a lesson. I am tired. I need to back off.   
People who want to contact me will. 
LOL - they will learn it might take a few days for me to get back to them... perhaps even a week.

I will try starting NOW to put up a blog every day! 
Up coming topics:
Cannabis Digest cover.
My first ‘support group meeting’ for TN Trigeminal neuralgia - I’m nervous. ;(
Cancer, children, Cashy and Cannabis
I have several projects on the go, will share take step by step photos of a few awesome crafts! 

I sent my best bud an e mail  the other day the subject line said:
I’m going to bombard the world with love starting today! 
and the fist line inside said: 
And I want you to remind me of that when I feel like telling it to go FUCK itself.

Thank you FaceBook for helping me get he message out, I am grateful and all of you who continue to show us support and yes, smile at my toons. It is what I LOVE to do and I'm gonna do it more.  
Thank you FB - I was content, Life is not about content. 
I need to do more and  see less.

I have to share - what a weekend! The guys came home! The boat would not start!  The truck needed fixed! 10 hours Drive  for nothing.  ;( 
But they went out again and and Storm was determined show Joe a MUSKY!  
LOL     I love this photo. I love my boy. 

I love this life. 
Twitch and all, I am blessed.