When I do dishes I think.
When I am having a hard time I like to do the dishes. It is like a mini spa for my hands and brain. I had to draw a sad Hunny cartoon because I am sad. I miss her like mad. I need to get it out of my brain and on paper. I started one and could not finish it. Not yet anyhow. I was doing dishes today and said this out loud. "I miss 'that' kind of love.." The kind of love Hunny gave me. I could do no wrong! She was never angry with me, disappointed in me or judged me. She LOVED me.
Was always there. SHE was like my little shadow. Literally.
I realized today it is so quiet because I do not here the little clicks oh her nails as she follows me from room to room. She is not jumping on the bed trying to lure me to nap and snuggle, she is not litting between my legs as I read my book in the living room, she is not under my feet as I draw, she is not following my every step out in the back yard while we look for balls in backyard for Tequila. She is not downstairs with me while I clean my baby's apt. She is not here. I AM MISSING HER.
So from now on when you see the title Doing Dishes.. The cartoons are not always happy, but more to get it out. To have unconditional love and know it and then - it's gone. Then I had a bit of a light bulb moment...I thought of God. Trust in me as I trust in you. God Loves me. Unconditionally.Why is this so hard to remember. This is my goodbye Hunny. Tequila and Scruffy are missing her too. ;-( xox night
When I am having a hard time I like to do the dishes. It is like a mini spa for my hands and brain. I had to draw a sad Hunny cartoon because I am sad. I miss her like mad. I need to get it out of my brain and on paper. I started one and could not finish it. Not yet anyhow. I was doing dishes today and said this out loud. "I miss 'that' kind of love.." The kind of love Hunny gave me. I could do no wrong! She was never angry with me, disappointed in me or judged me. She LOVED me.
Was always there. SHE was like my little shadow. Literally.
I realized today it is so quiet because I do not here the little clicks oh her nails as she follows me from room to room. She is not jumping on the bed trying to lure me to nap and snuggle, she is not litting between my legs as I read my book in the living room, she is not under my feet as I draw, she is not following my every step out in the back yard while we look for balls in backyard for Tequila. She is not downstairs with me while I clean my baby's apt. She is not here. I AM MISSING HER.
So from now on when you see the title Doing Dishes.. The cartoons are not always happy, but more to get it out. To have unconditional love and know it and then - it's gone. Then I had a bit of a light bulb moment...I thought of God. Trust in me as I trust in you. God Loves me. Unconditionally.Why is this so hard to remember. This is my goodbye Hunny. Tequila and Scruffy are missing her too. ;-( xox night
