I woke up Saturday, went into the bathroom and cut my hair. Short. Had I had a razor, I might have pulled a 'Brittany Spears'. I had had enough.
The body looking back at me is as tired as it looks.
I went to see a friend and had a mini meltdown, the mention of Jim had me sobbing.
More now for Elly and how much they are all missing Jim. I miss him too, I can't even begin to imagine how Elly feels.
That is what I was there to do... let it out - let it go.
This is why, I am NOT on anti depressants.
I have someone to 'speak with'. It helps.
It was the first visit where I said "I'm done! I don't care what you OR anyone else thinks! This is too hard!" I said out loud for the first time - I feel as if I have Parkinson on one side of my body some days. The entire right side, effected down to my toes... and nobody knows.
Remind me God, about this path... lol
He does.
I am not giving up I am turning in. I am tired.
I have a illness regrettably, which has not let me forget about it, for even one hour over the past 5, 6 years. I've learned to live with the twitch, it's the pain and the never knowing JOLTS that have me still holding my breath after each one. Several throughout the day.
The pain goes down to my chest. This alone - never mind the physical, mental, social & add the death of someone I love very much, I'm done.
It is what it is - I am not always happy. Life is not about being happy, it is about learning how to cope in the unhappy times... which makes the great times AWESOME!
Add Mossback: Rona Ambrose, thoughts of the most important impending case - my son who lives every day, with chronic pain/ controlled by a plant! * One we won't be able to afford, if OUR 'Health minister' is successful in ripping the plants out from the many patients already providing for themselves. And embrace life he does! - I am so proud of him! I know how much it hurts and why he pushes like he does.
What ever triggered the 'cut the hair' mood - well, it was time.
Time to listen and turn with in. It is JUST hair, it is just a body! It is just a brain... Go draw.
The only one I shared my new 'doo' with, at first was my guys & Elly - lol - neither of them said a thing at first, later Storm told me he likes the "mushroom look' lol. Norm knows better. Elly made me feel much better by reminding me we always had beautiful bangs! lol ;) I just went to check the mail and the neighbour said " I love your hair!" lol
See! JUST DO IT! Have faith in yourself! it's ONLY hair!
Go paint.
Forest floor is complete. I had such a blissful time.
New craftsy class - birds! The instructor is handsome too- lol, so it's a win/win already!
I'm off of FB - I will be having a contest here for those following the blog.
Please remember why this journey is so important to us!
What would you do?
Rona Ambrose - need proof? Your repeated ignorance on the subject is humiliating for all Canadians - ' Health Minister'. Read This: _
http://www.georgiatoons.com/uploads/4/1/0/5/4105506/stormsstory.pdf
Have Faith xox <><
The body looking back at me is as tired as it looks.
I went to see a friend and had a mini meltdown, the mention of Jim had me sobbing.
More now for Elly and how much they are all missing Jim. I miss him too, I can't even begin to imagine how Elly feels.
That is what I was there to do... let it out - let it go.
This is why, I am NOT on anti depressants.
I have someone to 'speak with'. It helps.
It was the first visit where I said "I'm done! I don't care what you OR anyone else thinks! This is too hard!" I said out loud for the first time - I feel as if I have Parkinson on one side of my body some days. The entire right side, effected down to my toes... and nobody knows.
Remind me God, about this path... lol
He does.
I am not giving up I am turning in. I am tired.
I have a illness regrettably, which has not let me forget about it, for even one hour over the past 5, 6 years. I've learned to live with the twitch, it's the pain and the never knowing JOLTS that have me still holding my breath after each one. Several throughout the day.
The pain goes down to my chest. This alone - never mind the physical, mental, social & add the death of someone I love very much, I'm done.
It is what it is - I am not always happy. Life is not about being happy, it is about learning how to cope in the unhappy times... which makes the great times AWESOME!
Add Mossback: Rona Ambrose, thoughts of the most important impending case - my son who lives every day, with chronic pain/ controlled by a plant! * One we won't be able to afford, if OUR 'Health minister' is successful in ripping the plants out from the many patients already providing for themselves. And embrace life he does! - I am so proud of him! I know how much it hurts and why he pushes like he does.
What ever triggered the 'cut the hair' mood - well, it was time.
Time to listen and turn with in. It is JUST hair, it is just a body! It is just a brain... Go draw.
The only one I shared my new 'doo' with, at first was my guys & Elly - lol - neither of them said a thing at first, later Storm told me he likes the "mushroom look' lol. Norm knows better. Elly made me feel much better by reminding me we always had beautiful bangs! lol ;) I just went to check the mail and the neighbour said " I love your hair!" lol
See! JUST DO IT! Have faith in yourself! it's ONLY hair!
Go paint.
Forest floor is complete. I had such a blissful time.
New craftsy class - birds! The instructor is handsome too- lol, so it's a win/win already!
I'm off of FB - I will be having a contest here for those following the blog.
Please remember why this journey is so important to us!
What would you do?
Rona Ambrose - need proof? Your repeated ignorance on the subject is humiliating for all Canadians - ' Health Minister'. Read This: _
http://www.georgiatoons.com/uploads/4/1/0/5/4105506/stormsstory.pdf
Have Faith xox <><
