I have so much to do you don't even know. Tired as fuck.
hee hee hee
I can't stop thinking of the Tragically Hip, Gord Downie in particular and his brain cancer. His performance had me spell bound, apparently I am not alone. He is 52, same age I am and dying, the moment he uttered the words: Tired as Fuck, I though "I bet you are & yes I am". I thought about him all day, I had a very difficult day with pain and didn't speak much to say the least... my attacks in the morning had me pretty much 'sitting' all day, exhausted. HOW the fuck does he do it?
It is his passion, his meaning, purpose and WOW he did it! HUGE!!
Thank you Gord you make Canada proud!
I was talking to my mom today (who helped me defrost a freezer, cook dinner & clean the NOT finished kitchen! Yeah!!) about the love you see emanate from Justin Trudeau. You can't deny, I feel honoured to have him representing our country- especially when you see what our friends are dealing with across the border. Mom said he shared a photo of Sophie breast feeding during breast feeing week, wow. I wish I had a photo of Storm, he use to laugh, it was an incredible time of bonding that is undeniable.
Gord stole my heart with one concert, I was very emotional when he was screaming and his pain was clearly visible- the pain of frustration... why the fuck is this happening to me? My son looked at me- he knows that is exactly how I feel so many days it's insane lately.
The love you see for the people he surrounded himself with, his Canadianisms.. "Piss and Chicken shit", common Canadian terms.. lol. This is not a dress rehearsal this is your life.
I am also going to be NOW focusing on more serious issues in Canada - there are enough of them. I wanted to thank Gord in my own way and remind myself it's 'o.k. to be 'Tired as Fuck'... we are all there.. so I painted a Canadian beaver- a busy little guy who we can associate with must be Tired as Fuck! ;) Storm cam e in my room as I was painting put his hands on my shoulder and said: "I bet your Tired as Fuck".. Yes, I am. I had an attack so bad first thing in the day I nearly chocked and they both witnessed it. Only 1/2 of my face winced in pain and crying, after I went to paint. I did what I love. Just like Gord.
I post my beaver on FB and someone tells me to stop using the 'F' word. OMGOSH.
I told them to 'stay off my fucking FB page'. Really, the things I see on Fb are heart breaking - it is why I limit my time as much as I do, she commented on me using the 'F' word? I wonder how many other things she took time to comment on. Give me a FUCKING break.
IT's just a word, as a matter of fact its a cool fucking song & people who judge me, or you for swearing without KNOWING us are just that judgmental. If saying 'fuck' is the worst thing I do all day- Oh well. I'm sorry, thatis part of this problem! PICK SOMETHING that means something and focus on that! Try to make it better! Don't sit around on FB all day and tell me not to use the 'F' word.
I hope she is reading the fucking blog! .. :) Actually we kinda apologized to each other on FB. which is awesome, I like he - Oh well got her thinking and got me thinking and this is what Life is about. But we should really be thinking about bigger issues like Gord said.
I hope he is with us a long time still.
Have faith <><, xox
We watched the Tragically Hip preform, as did most Canadians last night.
I never took my eyes from he television- can't remember the last time that happened.
Emmersed in every moment & note, I'd never seen them in concert before and it was a treat fro sure! Thank you to the CBC for airing the show - commercial free.. if we were in another country- you know it would've been plugged with bullshit advertising (we won't mention any names) - volume cranked- popcorn, bud & Gord - it was an evening well spent.
Songs I've never heard and I've a new favourite, I bet you might guess...
I'm 'tired as Fuck'... lol Thank you for that one Gord!
Emotional it was, you could not forget that Gord has terminal brain cancer.
;( I don't even know what to say about it... only it makes me feel incredibly sad and inspired at the same time. Justing Trudeau - that was icing on the cake. I agree with Gord, lets support him and get Canada back on track! I won't say 'Make Canada Great Again- as Canada has never, not been great, IMO... we just had a bad lapse in judgement regarding Stephen Harper.
This is not a dress rehearsal- we all have heard it before... has me thinking 'what am I doing, what am I drawing? Where am I going? What the fuck am I waiting for - even tho- I'm tired as fuck.
I've been wanting to draw about some other issues as well, not 'fun' topics but topics that need attention. I've done many cartoons regarding Cannabis for all over, but we have some serious problems pressing here in Canada that need focus on addressing issues that 'bother me' and many others. Children & woman being on the top of that list.
Today .. something inspired by Gord & the Tragically Hip.
It is the least I can do for the amazing gift that have given us.
What a terrific example of how we should all try to live our lives to the fullest. never stopping - even when we have Brain Cancer.
If you want to see one of the best Canadian Concerts IN HISTORY - I hope they upload it for us to watch over and over.. I highly recommend. I did hear Blue Rodeo (also one of my favourite bands) had a concert in town last might- they joked it was probably to a crowd of 6.
The Doctopus is IN! Horay!
Another octopus for my series.. another orange.
I had this drawn with 'pills in the bottle - it never occurred to me to turn it into 'Seaweed until painting the details... hee hee hee
It is a gift for my Dr. I saw him recently and he helped with my foot, both of us extremely happy that he could. We are aware he can't help with the other, but I know he keeps it in mind. He is patient, listens and never makes me feel rushed.. hence the pose.
Then the name Doctopus! LOL ! I'm sure it's not an original idea. I don't care either way- this is a georgiatoons 'Doctopus'.
Today is a day of un packing a couple of boxes, Norm tells me its another month before the kitchen is done... which registers in my brain as 6 months to 6 years. No more to be said.
Scruffy is my wonder doggen, I had ladies visit today and she was wagging her stubby little tail and wanted some loving, behaving 100% Normal.
Time to draw some cartoons and have bit of fun.
Please make sure you find a good Dr. who understands- and be a patient, patient who helps inform and educate your Dr.s. use DVD, magazines, books, notes, Links. The possibilities are out here - use them.
I spent the day painting today and it was great, it was going to start with a craftsy lesson- but the power was out from 9:30 to about 1:30 so Koalas it was.. since I just painted one for the surprise painting (he is seen below) I was familiar enough to have some fun with the little furry beasts.. I tell you my student was so quick to pick it up, next it's got to be a more difficult challenge!
Scruffy is so funny with her cone, she makes me laugh several time through out the day and she does not seem to even notice an eye is missing, it actually became a problem with Daisy moping and wanting her to play (we want to keep her somewhat calm still) & licking each other- Storm took Daisy camping for a couple of days so Scruffy can rest properly. If only we humans were as quick to bounce back from pain and suffering.
To forgive only a few days later from something so 'intense', with a lick and a wag of a tail.
Wow... or should I say: Bow WOW!
Time for bed time snuggling with a good book.
It was nice to have an uneventful day.
It's raining... good, everything going from yellow to green again.
Scruffy is doing fine, she is eating, sleeping and snoring as usual -
Note.. taking a dog outside in the pouring rain with a 'cone on.. '
(a cartoon is born)
I'm painting something special for a gift. Top secret - can't share the image until the gift is given.. but I will after because so far it is turning out pretty cool, if I do says myself. Sometimes - you never get to 'hear' what people think of your art- so, IF you think it's cool- tell yourself!! It's a positive start!
It is being painting with love.. that's another positive start.
I'm sorry if this photo is hard for some of you to look at. It was difficult for me to see her, I teared up instantly. This is my Scruffy, less an eye- that is all, She is behaving normally! Now snoring already at my feet. Just to hold her in my arms today felt like LIFE a NEW day! I was so worried about losing her when I saw what happened.
Only an eye- I don't mean 'Only'- you know what I mean.
All I see already is a happy face! Kissed me like crazy!!
Now I have a buddy to take photos with when my eye is clenched shut ;)
I'm taking a few days off to paint, so she stays quiet with me in my office, one scratch could do lots of damage! Painting and e mail and letters to catch up on, a few postcards going out as well. I feel fantastic today- surrounded by love- 2 legs and 4.
Thanks again to the staff & Dr. Karen Norman for fixing up my girl.
Thank God my Scruffy is home!
'I love Canada. Even in the winter.. I get more painting done! Nature is my clock.
What do I love about Canada? Stunning nature, trees, GREEN, bluejays, maple syrup (Heaven's is my favourite') Justin, poutine, Beavers, Moose & loons! The Ex- even tho I no longer attend, Mounties, Inukshuks... the list is endless & Now- Canada allows Medical Cannabis patients to grow their own medicine! Amen.
It has me wanting to celebrate and combine my love of Canada with my love of cannabis and here was the first in a series Im calling 'Home Grown Canadian'.
My sons long time friend Sam, surprised me with a new piece to add to my collection!!
Check out my sweet little glass nugget. ;) I'm very proud of him as I have bugged him a long time to keep creative! A little upset he admitted he is slacking lately and only working about 3 hours. That's not going to cut it. Treat it like a job you LOVE 9-5 at least!
Check out Soul Masta's Glass on FB!
On my Mind - my first sketch of the day... My MUGSHOT
Next on the desk.. a little Alice Fun.. Peek A Boo, peek thru. I'm going to Time-lapse!
On my mind... I will NOW only tolerate people, thing, events, jobs in life that
Turn Me On! Turn on my mind first and the rest follows! Meaning my heart.
On my mind.. Scruffy of course. I will admit yesterday during a TN attack and my face cramped for what seems like forever- it is my right side, my eye pulls shut and stays that way.. well Scruffy now has her right eye always shut. The things that dog does for me.
Dr. Karen Norman called me this am and assured me she was doing well. Scruffy went out for a pee - "make sure she is on a least she knows her way home!" and she said already you see her personality shine through. She is pretty bruised still, I can't wait for tomorrow- around 10, I walk up and go get her!
Lot's to celebrate!
Scruffy had her surgery, there was a lot of bruising and her eye did have to come out.
The biggest concern now is infection and she is still in the hospital until Monday.
As it has 'set in' I can only say that we were all in a bit of shock. I was for sure.
It's not nice to see a loved one hurt or suffer and it was not something I have ever witnessed before or hope to again. :(
I can tell you the possibility of losing two dogs in a 2 weeks has floored me, I am thankful Scruffy is still with us. The above image was taken a while ago.. she will still be the most awesome dog, only now with even more personality- for all who know Scruffy - we find that hard to believe possible.
I will post an update after we have her home. Thank you to everyone who shared comments/tlc on FB, e mail . It is not easy to share everything but if it is a lesson others can learn from & possibly avoid... I saw this happen on an episode of 'Cesar, the dog whisperer' a few years back, even then the dogs were playing and both went for the same ball, if you could see how bad Daisy is moping, I don't think she had a clue she 'hurt' Scruffy.
We are fortunate also we were in a situation to be able to pay the bill, many would not and such 1st hand experiences are something that needs to be worked on in Canada. We have had pet insurance and this wouldn't have been covered fully either. To calmly state - $2000 or "$4000 for the skilled surgeon", I get that you work with 'dogs' all day - but it does not happen to US everyday. The woman at reception looked at me with attitude when I said the price range was a 'fucking joke' (but not like it was the first time she heard swearing- I bet) and told me to 'refrain or I would have to leave.. ' I replied "I have a fucking tumor, my head is killing me, (My twitch full blown) get fuck over it- there are far more serious issues to focus on than the word 'Fuck' and just go Get my fucking dog." which she did, in her 'pink - Aww look at the cute bandage' that only pissed me off more- thinking she wore that tight fucking thing all night and in pain.
They should have just done their job and focused on the emergency and her pain and not the money and the 'PRICE RANGE'.
I can only imagine the number of people that have had to leave with their pets.. unless of course a 'payment plan' could be reached.
Think what you want of me, do not mistake my kindness for weakness, when it come to my family - any family member and I see something is not right- it is NOT right. Again, from an industry that encourages us to 'treat them as family' - treats them like dogs when it comes to $. A dog will be your life long companion (their life), love unconditionally, be there when all else walks away. As for paying the vet bill to our actual vet- it is worth every penny. Thanks to Yorkwood veterinary clinic for looking after Scruff. Dr. Karen Norman has been there since we moved here, it was good to see her- its been a few years, I taught her kids when little.
My Hallmark girl is in the hospital... please send her some loving vibes today.
As you know Tequila just died... She was our oldest dog - 19, and still called the shots- even with Daisy who was easily 4 times her size, she trained Daisy - as Daisy watched her, so did all our dogs- Tequila was well behaved. If Daisy got out of line 'Ticky would go over and growl at her and Daisy would back off. WE noticed the past week, Scruffy 'claimed the basket' (Tequilas basket that she had her entire life) no one else used it.
We let it go- someone has to use it but I saw Daisy going over & giving her a dirty look. Really.
Anyhow Daisy and Scruffy have always fought.. maybe 3 times a year they get yelled (we never let our dogs fight with each other) at & Scruffy- a 1/4 of Daisy's size never backs down! She is my problem child with the most attitude! Well, yesterday they got into a fight, over nothing... Storm was right there with a friend (thank God) I was up painting, my first in a series of "Home Grown Canada". Storm calmly yelled to me "Mom, come - we need to take Scruffy to the vet... its bad mom, prepare yourself." He was incredibly calm- as he gets- thank God. When I saw Scruffy - My heart sank. ;(
One of her eyeballs was on her face.
I held her still as Storm ran of his keys.. she was calm, looking at me ;( with both eyes and all I could was cry silently and hug her and tell her its o.k...
Just then, Norm came through he door (Scruffy is his dog) and they rushed her to the vet.. it was closing... so they were advised to take her to the 'emergency clinic'.... Here is where I start to get extremely pissed off, so I best keep calm... $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$ they were told it could cost up to $4,000 if they did it. BUT if we wait and take her back to our vet today it will be much cheaper, WTF!? !!!!!!!!
Just do your fucking job and don't try to gouge everyone!
What a fucking joke.. :( O.k. Im still very upset and cried all night.
My girl is in the hospital with her eye on her cheek because of $.
We had to wait, we don't have the $ - we are waiting now to go and get her and bring her to surgery. Norm had to get a credit card to pay. ;( we were credit card free. & it has already cost us $700. cash.. to sedate and send her back to another vet. >:( Fucking joke.
What do you do- say put her to sleep for $150. ;(
No, she is one of my girls, family! OMGosh, just the thought putting her to sleep has me sick to my stomach. 2 dogs in less than 2 weeks.. Scruffy is our rescue 9 years now I think she is.. we were told they won't be able to save her eye.
The one thing I will say is Scruffy is our tuff girl, I'm sure even with one eye, she will be a hand full still. I cant wait to hug and kiss her.
The vet did say that sometimes a dogs like Scruffy- can have an eye pop if they sneeze!
Daisy is in the doghouse and she knows it. It was an accident, they are normally best buds.
Please send us ALL some loving vibes and prayers today as Scruffy has her surgery.
And I don't freak on the vet. I will update tomorrow.
I just had her photo put onto a canvas.. to paint around her, to pay with and have fun.
* Update.. we had to PU scruffy before 7:30 or paid another $150.. we did then drove to the vet and had to wait until they 'Opened' at 8:30. She is now at our vet - since we moved up here. Dr. Karen Norman, whom I would rather do Scruffys surgery anyway.
BUT they could have done the surgery, the estimate was $2000. for a Rookie vet.. Oh they had a much more 'formal way' of telling us - I looked at her and said "so, a Rookie?"
I got No response- only a look of 'yes, I guess so.' OR a trained practicing vet for $4000.! + more if complications- but hey, the rookie - if they had complications - oh well, you got what you paid for. Fear mongering is what it is. HAVE ONE FUCKING PRICE.
This industry is another that is only concerned with money- what happened to Dr.s caring about patients!? Scruffy went in there with her eye dangling on her fucking face! They bandaged her up and I'm supusto be happy with the cute little fucking bandage- we paid almost $500.
Awwww... FUCK that! Look after my fucking dog you hypocrites.
EMERGENCY CLINICS RIP YOU OFF!
*They made sure we paid our money before we got our dog- BUT did not have the change to give us, instead Norm has to make a return visit to them, there was cash in the drawer - but not enough and it wold have 'inconvenienced them'. Icing not he fucking cake.
We will get a call later after surgery and hopefully she will be home Monday.