Frog chilling with a secret.  This little frog is a match stick holder made from a small recycled mustard jar.  Shout out to DAS & creativity! I love DAS air drying clay- I remember my first pack.  I was given some for Christmas and every now and then I decide it's a 'clay day! You know it's a good day physically -if it's a clay day, it means my hands don't hurt.
 
You know this tiny frog is no masterpiece but it is indeed a work of art, created with  love & joy & some frustration, making the frog all the more appreciated, now completed.  I hope I encourage someone to break out the DAS, I bet it's been decades for some. Creativity is declining (not mine, in general) & it's not rocket science.. if people can ask a machine to create for them.. they are.  Comparison on social media is also not helping. 
Here we are again - use it or lose it applies.

Do you know what helps? Forcing yourself to try new crafts'. Break out the DAS! Cover something old & give it new use & life - or make someone a gift. The next clay project I saw on instagram - a gift.  I do more clay in the summer because my hands work better.  It would have been very easy to give up clay all together - anyyone would take a look at my hands and understand why - not one finger bends - it has given my art a new look, lol. I see joy. I see accomplishment -as small as it might seem. I see a joyful few hours spent doing something I love, looking at leaves not  reels. I love - ending up with something that  is also useful.  This frog holds matches.. the spark is inside - JUST like us!   Do it!  Make something clay - be creative.  I let it dry & painted with acrylic & clear coat of MOD podge, another craft staple I've had for years.  You don't need that much.. start by ripping up an old magazine, printed photos, mod lodge it to a box. Something simple... just create.  It's satisfying, relaxing and good for the brain!

Know what else I made today .. a MOOSE! I just looked over at him and smiled. A very last minute moose- more on the moose soon, a fun little photo prop I decided to whip up.. lol created it in record time- 2 days.  A few things I made just before I broke my knee, are for events' now or soon taking place, I'll share after they have been displayed.

Today, the Lord created another tiny human!  Probably a few!  A new baby to love & raise with love & hope... and a childhood, as all babies deserve.   To be welcomed with LOVE.  How awesome is God. 

The least we can do is create someone show our gratitude.  Love creates. Send out creative energy into the universe!
Buy your kids some DAS! It is a great summer outdoor craft - let them roll up a ball and stick stuff in it- feathers, twigs, rocks, shells - call it Summer memory creature 2026 ' start a new tradition!  A stick porcupine'.. the possibilities are endless.  With God anything is possible. 

While taking these photos the SWEETEST little woodpecker a baby - seen in the photo below, came and sat watching me. 
How awesome is God, sending me that tiny art critic to 'chirp in my ear!  

The other day I grabbed 3 small cheap canvas and decided what ever image showed up on my iPad- (photo folder) I would paint. A cat, Gross beak & Smokey.   It's important to paint when you don't necessarily feel like it. IMO it's the best way & quickest to get out of or avoid a 'block'. It's important to do many things when you don't feel like it- like exercise, this was exercising my mind when it wanted to nap.  I also used a cheaper paint to see what it was like - better than anticipated.
It's actually proven that doing things you don't want to helps the brain grow.  The bible tells us to do ALL things as if for God.. this mindset make everything, easier.  

​Smokey is also an editorial.. who's fed up with being blamed for ruining the world - for using plastic straws - while those in power suggest they won't think twice about pushing the button. They make us feel bad for using plastic bags - while they blow up rockets. We have to get permits for EVERYTHING and it takes $$ & time.. have you seen how quickly AI data centres go up? Even with entire communities stressing "they don't want them..." I'm not falling for it anymore and I'm sure not going to feel guilty for using a plastic bag - ever again.  Some "new conspiracy theories" suggest data centres are not using water but storing it.  Water is liquid GOLD. I don't know if that is true but I know people are very concerned about Ai data centres and water. Everyone SHOULD educate themselves before - they can't.
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There are numerous actual accounts from people NOW living near an AI centres, talks of water bills rising, electricity bills rising, excess noise, heat and more -all appear to be very valid points, ignored by the owners/builders and it is expected to increase.. so - the heat that comes off these places- obvious to all so how dare any POLITICIAN try to twist any individual.. like individuals in the US being charged for saving rain water off their own property- you know like Olivia Chow wanted to tax homeowners for rain - how did that go over - IT did NOT.  BUT let NOT forget they tried. Just like they are trying to privatize water... NOW. The Ontario government, led by Doug Ford, has passed legislation that allows for the creation of corporations to manage water and wastewater services, which raises concerns about potential privatization of water services. Critics argue that this could lead to higher costs and reduced public oversight, despite government claims that it is not a privatization effort. Current Ontario Premier Doug Ford is embarking on a plan that will effectively privatize aspects of the province’s water systems, with potential risks to our drinking water.

​To privatize water - is a crime against humanity. To make water available only to those who can afford it - is criminal.
Don't think that will happen to us - in the land of lakes- the country with the most fresh, clean beautiful drinking water... get real. Heres the thing... if it's happening I'd rather Canada & Canadians profit than others.. like Nestle' - REMEMBER this? I wonder if it's still happening.  Anyway.. the government has successfully made Canadians feel guilty for all sorts of things from using paper strays & plastic bags, recycling everything - or else yet we watch the opposite for those with MONEY & power - that is adding to Canadians stress and it is a form of emotional abuse by our government- something they appear very good at lately.  Stop falling for it, do you part but never feel guilty over using a fucking plastic bag anymore - when these corporate criminals do AS they please with little to '0 concern for anyone but themselves & bank accounts. 
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I created these 3 to get me out of. slump and it did & now I have 3 paintings I'm going to give away, for fun.  A day when I did not feel like creating - but pushed myself .. lessons were learned. Do it. 

Today I get to paint clay & making something BIG for the Stoner Cups games.. more on that next!
​Enjoy this day the Lord has made! 

Yay! Yesterday I broke out the clay.. I'm recycling another mustard jar and a 'Frangelico bottle!  I love creativity from companies- remember buddha bottles? Honey in a bear jar.. I like Frangelico in coffee, it's been around as long as I can remember and a bottle usually last a few years. This one - I made sure to share' so I could get at it.  Have any old bottles? I'll take them!  The other a transformed mustard jar - big enough to hold matches with a frog on a mushroom lid! 
I was super excited to start to paint today but they are still not dry, I guess from the rain - it's a bit damp, so I'll have to be patient another day - that's o.k. I have Jesus waiting only desk to be finished.

I've not ventured into the forest but can see mushrooms from the sidelines.. & thankfully, our mushroom wine cap garden storm planted last year is producing! As well as Shiitake mushrooms and some oyster mushrooms.. My garden this year (because It's usually my job) didn't get the usual 'attention' it gets and pickings look slim (already)  so growing mushrooms as well is reassuring.  Yesterday Trump mentioned a national emergency - a food shortage.  We all knew it was coming, because of fertilizer -or rather the lack of it.  No matter if Trump declares it, Canadian  prices rise, more.   How does your garden grow?  I'm already planning for next years garden. From what I've been reading you might want to stock up on rice, coffee, flour etc. It's not this harvest- it's the next that is concerning people.   Gardening  is a skill, not as easy as it appears so perhaps now if a good time for people to figure out -how to grow, on balconies, counters.. where ever you can.  Humans are creative, resourceful and will continue to figure it out.  

I've been reading about being creative- and facts are in - being creative  is good for you & your brain! I know. 
​Sketching, writing, using your hands to create- it's time to try a new hobby if you don't have one!  I know a few who garden a a hobby but don't do much in the winter, maybe start a garden journal, press your summer flowers for winter art, bookmark or card making!  Our bodies need more than food' the word of God should be our first food', faith in  Jesus is FAITH in each other. Faith in Jesus is faith in yourself.  I finally made a designated Bible focus desk, a place where I can sit, compare bibles, make notes, write quotes and the bibles are always OPEN - waiting for me to continue on the most important journey -I'll ever take.   

Enjoy this day the Lord has made! Enjoy the wine - the fat, the food - everything in moderation - Give THANKS for what we have, now & remember  there's no point stressing about tomorrow- it has enough problems of it's own.
Go make something!  Have you seen those viral frozen rice paper snacks? I made them and we like them - super easy & very refreshing- I'll included a few photos below but we are enjoying them and I make them regular.  Enjoy!

Happy Canada Day!Yes, I know I am late.. but frankly, it wa too perfect of a day to sit at my computer. 
I didn't paint anything special but remembered I recently did this 'Canadian version of Winnie the Pooh! lol
Gouache on white.

I have so much to be thankful for.. I'm walking. lol - with no pain & no foreseeable knee replacement in the near future. 
I tell ya- I don't know if it is my increased psilocybin intake but I am amazed MYSELF.  I had 2 large doses these past couple of weeks- both in chocolate form from my VIP Stoner games kit that I enjoyed immensely.  Albeit- I had a crying session - I was not expecting but felt like years had been lifted afterwards. I know for a few - this can sometimes happen - because it needs to.  A restart, realignment. Thank You God for your HEALING medicine. Storm is in the best physical shape he's ever been  in & busy & inspired .. and inspiring. Norms screening in the bird deck' so we can sit and have our coffee and has learned to cook & helped more - since our last 'incident'.  The dogs are all great- not taking off, listening to mom and being 'OH so patient' about not exploring the forest - you know.. they only go in with me, they won't with Norm or Storm.  I just sat and looked at the trees and enjoyed the DAY the Lord made- no stress about meals, company or entertaining.  It was a very peaceful Canada Day..  Jesus gave me his Peace by recognizing my own. 

Jesus expects us to forgive no 7 times but 77...  lessons learned, when forgiveness granted - it levels all of us up - like it or not.  Amen. The sooner you forgive the sooner you can move on and create again.

It was hot but overcast, lots of dragonflies so few mosquitos & we did NOTHING special - making it special. lol
No company, no special meal.. just a day to rest, relax & enjoy.  I love Canada. I do not care for our politician (s) and the decisions they are making, money they are giving - The Ukraine is NOT in a recession, btw. Scarney making decisions that don't appear very Canadian - far from it. I don't have to explain Canada to any Canadian', we all have eyes to see, and the last few years have been difficult to watch.  Have Faith  - I am absolutely seeing the tables turn! Regardless of how LITTLE our 'news' shows us. Do you know how many have lost faith in any of our news outlets?  We are being blocked and lied to.
 
Canadians ARE aware of what's happening elsewhere and are not going to let it happen here. I know, you know. 
I keep reading bots or Americans (lol) post 'Canadians are pussies' and I chuckle. Canadians are so far from pussies you have no idea.  We are patient people - that's what comes from growing up in 5 feet of snow 1/2 the year. We tolerate what many can't, we master what many won't.  Are you aware of the Uk rape crisis.. good fucking luck pulling that shit here.  Canadians are not pussies and I can feel the energy shifting - friendly until you fuck around and find out.  Wait & see.. Our trucker convoy bullshit taught us much - the Supreme Court recognizing OVER REACH & abuse by our  own 'LEADERS'.. the people supposably that work for Canadians, actually we all know Scarney works for these guys: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uwTxjZK17bs <<< pay attention.
Pay attention - SPEAK UP or you will pay$$$$$$ for the rest of our lives.
Dough Ford want us to pay for our water, if I recall.   

Canada once known for our friendliness will prove we are/were friendly - because we chose to be.  
Canadian choose kindness... until we don't.  
Before we were taxed to death, made hungry, sick and stressed about rent, bills, food  all the time as we see 'others'  being treated differently. Canadian children are now TAUGHT to questions their sexuality' in elementary schools and taught - they should feel GUILTY for crimes (perhaps) commented centuries ago WITH NO ACTUAL "PROOF" of some suggested incidents.  NO.  

Hey! Want to SEE what happens when you 'fuck around with a babies gender???'
Watch this Canadian NIGHTMARE that NONE of us should ignore or forget or forgive...:       https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nj5-6EkvAMc

Our children are NOT guilty of crimes committed by generations before them, & they should NOT be punished - for it NOW. That is indeed what's happening - emotionally made to feel guilty for the actions of others - SINCE WHEN? WWJD?

I love Canada & I grew up in the melting pot Toronto and it was AMAZING! We celebrated- as I kid my mom took me to the multicultural fair every year & we loved it- the food, the fun, the music - the passports - that was before the government brought in known CRIMINALs to destroy Canada... and all around the world.  An intentional act of destruction -FACT - read all about it- Agenda 2030. 

Canadians pussies?? Most Canadians I know - were literally thrown into a COLD, DARK, big fish filled lakes by our own parents when we were just little kids (toddlers) who couldn't swim - lol.   A 'Canadian tradition' for generations of families.   lol pussies!?  HAHAHA jokes on you who underestimate Canadians. Wait & see.

Happy Canada Day! Stand PROUD - we are one of the most successful and educated countries in the world - friendly, kind, courteous & courageous!  Of Canada, thank you. Enjoy this day (a day late) the Lord has made & every day.  Who needs an excuse for "extra maple syrup!!" - Not me, everyday is Canada Day.
 

Jesus &the Cubs..  I LOVE painting Jesus.. This Jesus, my Jesus.   
I texted the other day - I don't feel worthy to paint Jesus - after seeing this amazing painting a woman did (very realistic) of Jesus.   Then I ate that mushroom treat -lol & I thought about that statement.  Jesus LOVES my Jesus.
Jesus Loves that I love to sit and paint & ponder Jesus! When not painting I'm reading or watching & learning. 

What is important to you?  My faith, love & appreciation to God is what is most important, to me.. all else comes next. 
Just like spreading flowers down the path, Jesus spreads LOVE with every moment, love like butterflies!  What can I say, it's selfish of me - but sitting and painting the above Jesus - brought me pure joy, that easily. Ask yourself today:  Are you going  to sit & stew' or stress or are you going to enjoy yourself?  My next - Jesus on the mountain, already started - I'm excited to finish!

It's Sunday - devote today to God, in mind if not all else. I'm sharing our favourite, easy chicken bake- great left over in a wrap too. It tastes like a lot of work and a simple salad side is enough. I'm going to be trying some rice paper recipes - they have so many on social media - all look tasty & fun. 

Great news! Regina had the "Call to prayer" play over loud speakers the other day.. many Canadians were NOT pleased about it - so much so the police warned against saying anything as it could & WOULD be deemed hate speech. That's our Canada currently - because of Carney. Speak up and you will be intimidated & threatened. Voice your opinion in Canada & you can be legally harassed & possibly charged by the police.   ANYWAY.. due to public backlash- it has not happened again.  Do you know - one of the reasons Church bells stopped ringing- CONSIDERATION for others, for neighbours. 

The irony of all this diversity & inclusion' appears  - during the process of Canadians wanting others to feel included - Canadians are be pushed around & excluded (especially from jobs & free benefits). IF all inclusive - let's start saying the Lords prayer in schools - AGAIN. Lets start ringing church bells..  Lets be AS faithful & SHOW our devotion to Christ.Our Father - Holy is your name! Let's start praying the 'Our Father' over loud speakers - 5 times a day and watch how fast there would be an uproar from those we WELCOMED to our HOME. I want to make it clear, I don't have a problem with muslim people, I've known and been friends with a few. I am 100% agains Sharia Law.. and you should educate yourself if not aware.  TheLiberals (proud liberals in particular), are in for a reality check on what Sharia law thinks about PRIDE and homosexuality. Sharia law generally prohibits homosexuality, viewing it as a sin, and in many Muslim-majority countries, it is criminalized with severe penalties, including the death penalty in some cases.  If you don't think this would make a comeback - you are naive.

Time to paint & explore the garden & Thank The Lord for this day!
Jesus asks us to LOVE each other - NOT each others laws or Gods OR religion. 

Rise & Shine! Happy Saturday! 
I was able to get out on the deck yesterday, I even attempted the driveway, very slowly, then thought:  no, take it easy Flash'.  Pain is only experienced when 'I push it' & our bodies let us know: you're pushing it.  I've learned to listen. Not being able to do stuff has exposed the gift of realizing how much - I do, do.. although some might not think so.  A lot more than paint... and now I have to let it go,  decide if it's worth arguing over and learn from these lessons. Others learn too. 

I am not going to stop promoting psilocybin'.. the other day I was in pain & feeling sorry for myself - as we all do from time to time.. watching the lilacs come and go - without getting out, as the world turns..   Anyway, I had a psilocybin treat in my VIP StonersGame kit & IT was SO tasty.. I would want to eat them - not medicated. A few hours later...  like a flower bursting open  - I was made aware.. it was more than a micro-dose.  Once my mind realized - I panicked for 1/2 a second then I thought: Don't be silly.. Go with the flow, cause it feels great - 0 pain... in my face or leg.  Just looking at trees created an intense sensation of  peace & appreciation, tears started flowing. Gratitude I could feel bursting from the inside out.  The Jesus in me, shining, reminding me of what's actually important.   Gratitude for everyone & everything.  Then I read a new study about helping with pain - I can hardly keep up with all the scientific proof finally being shared about psilocybin.  People are taking psilocybin for pain. Some, along with pain medication, report the pain medication works better with psilocybin. I KNOW it works for pain, tried & well tested. I can't remember the last time I even took an aspirin. 
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God provides. Always has & always will.  We just have to SEEK and stop being led - by those concerned more with profits- than people. NOW they suggest - perhaps LESS treatment might be better for breast cancer patients- GO FIGURE!!?  NOW, how many women have already suffered UNNECESSARILY!? & still will.  It made no sense - then WHY THE DO IT??  PLEASE educate every woman you know on this.  

ENJOY the DAY the LORD has made.  If we can still see, feel, find and share JOY - WE WIN.

Evil exposes itself.. Scarney will be gone 2027 - just like Staler, Scammer.. Starmer. 
Have Faith.  

Jesus meets a black bear!  8 x 11 gouache on white.

I LOVE painting Jesus.. the bookmarks gave me a boost.
This is my Jesus - happy & loving and flowers follow him where ever he goes, all the miracles we don't see.. he creates them, simply by walking. How I imagine a bear would be - THRILLED to meet his creator!  Did you watch the last NDE I mentioned.. I have watched many and they all say the same (more or less), except for the few that go to hell... yikes. No thanks.  Many see Jesus & God - not seen as a 'person' but felt as overwhelming light- filling every pore, and unexplainable sensation of love & peace.  PEACE be with you = Jesus gives us 'HIS Peace, because he knows how valuable it is, how much we need it.

People have not been feeling peaceful toward our own system M.A.I.D - with many becoming immensely  concerned AS every Canadian should BE, after learning about a man - assessed by a "Dr." outside a coffee shop was euthanized. WTF.. there's more.. of course.  MAID has already, proudly stated how much money they are saving offing older, retired white people death- rather than offer any quality palliative care.  Have you read about Nicholas Jordan Wagter, a Vancouver researcher and activist, has become the centre of a growing online firestorm after videos of his involuntary psychiatric detention under Canada's Mental Health Act spread across social media. It's a little concerning that it's hard to find anything on him in Canadian news.  MAID has decided to hold off on allowing MAID for mental illness- NO WONDER, Dr.s outside coffee shops handing out death deals? Tell me, they don't get a 'cut back'.  What about organ donation? Does MAID make a profit? IF SO shouldn't that money go to the donors family or at least pay for the basic funeral service? Watch this Documentary.. then at least be informed - not just "SOLD" on the idea of MAID:
MAID. The DARKSIDE of Canadian Compassion.  Many have already used the service & I pray they did give it much consideration & discussion with God.  Also try psilocybin. 

Life still gets us down, yesterday I was thinking about cops being shot and it's never o.k., they are parents, children.. they might have children waiting at home for them. We have seen how the UK has -IS using police as props more or less as a wall, a human wall to divide the hate from the hated and they are getting hurt in the process. I also believe not all of them want to do what they are being forced to do. Killing them is never o.k.   I've had many police friends and help over the years, I know there is corruption but it starts at the top- look at Carney - wow, his latest slip up was to say MPs are just useful for voters. WOW.. all those recent traitors' the crossovers - you destroyed your reputations - now hated by those who voted you in - only to being admitted to being used just for votes... not like your opinions, matters to the New World Oligarchy boss.  I can't even get into the migrant rape gang inquiry in the UK... all who voted - if subjected to what the 250,000 victims were - little children.. perhaps if they were forced to endure what those children did - just ONCE, I bet the laws would change.  What's it going to take to STOP the abuse of children? The destruction of children & childhood?

Life is full of lessons.. also reminders of God glory, the fact that we are becoming aware'.. is a miracle and as bad as it appears - Evil fails. Evil falls. There are many loving parents out there who are doing everything in their power- INCLUDING Prayer to make changes, to keep children safe. People are capturing & punishing those guilty.  I was watching what they expect jail to be like for the recent baby killers.. Yikes, they will pray for death. Thy Will Be Done... on earth & in Heaven, or hell.  Before considering MAID, I also think people should go down the NDE rabbit hole. We are absolutely all here for a reason & God should be the one who decides on when we die - not some quack at a coffee shop. 

Enjoy this day the Lord has made.

Peace be with you!  Knight card for a friend making his first Confirmation! 
A young man I know is making his first confirmation today! The card has much personal meaning to celebrate this significant day.  First, Storm and I giggled as he is not a 'little kid' but a young man, we both made our fist communion as children and I said "won't it be funny if they come out in the line and he's the only tall one?"  heehee, he agreed.  How amazing that he has chosen, of his own free will (not a choice his parents made for him) as a young adult to 'Confirm his LOVE to Christ'. It's powerful.  How many have been confirmed because it was something we did, in school for a celebration after, rarely giving the day or its meaning true thought again... and this decision was made with much consideration, I know. 

It was a long drive and I don't want to 'push it with my leg, as I am already walking more each day but it aches a bit by night - no pain at all sleeping anymore -thank you Lord, but sitting and not bending it is when it hurts so I stayed home.  Storm was up and on his way by 4... that's what friends are for. I picked up my bible to write a 'special' quote on this card but then.. EVERYthing applied, lol which was a very good sign.  Almost every time we communicate I am inspired' by either posts, quotes or prayers he has shared... if anyone is on the right path - it is this young man - all paths lead to God.. his has been made straight.  Will he be tempted? No doubts! Still, I know where his heart is at and I'm confident he's going to do the Lords work -in all ways. It's hopeful knowing we have young men like this, representing the lord.

I noticed a new hockey team up here has a cool knight logo - with a cape with a cross in the upper corner.. yay! 
Christ is King.. perhaps the simplest way to bring back the true 'rainbow' meaning instead of the  current political rebranding, is flooding the world again, with images of Christ, everywhere & in everything.  I'm starting now. 
I actually have 3 Jesus the forest paintings on my desk.. it brings me peace pondering  Jesus - so why not paint him too.
​I'll share Jesus meets a bear tomorrow. 

Enjoy this day The Lord has made!
Anyone being 'confirmed for their LOVE of The Lord' is ABSOLUTELY something worth celebrating! At every age.

Mental health Monday - Good news about MAID.

Walking with Jesus...  heals.  

Good news, for some... hell is waiting for others. 
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One of Canadas wealthiest predators has been fond guilty of groping and more. convicted at 93. Phhhbt.
What woman reading about that case, doesn't know... more.  Good.  Great.. Another who abused wealth power & women.
absolutely he has done many positive things.. and some nasty too - physically hurting another is never o.k.. Rape is Rape and having billions, doesn't make it o.k.   Neither does being poor.  Good news & move on, theres painting to paint!

Humanity - the MAJORITY, is getting tired of oligarchy (Johhny Harris explains Oligarchy perfectly, interesting watch!) 
and they know it. Why talks of universal income are being had. That and abuse of CHILDREN being taken seriously.. babies are not to be bought and sold like Pokemon. GREAT NEWS! Those two that adopted that baby & abused it -in too many ways to mention have been convicted - Interesting Judge response here if interested in watching, absolutely heart breaking - the bits he does share.  BUT... THAT THEY/IT/THEM, fuck pronouns' 'EVIL humans'....- that is what DEMONS DO & they NEED to be EXPOSED & EVERYONE  that turned a blind eye to that baby.. that is a sin that will be addressed by the Lord.  This is why the conversations need to be had. From this day forward they will live in fear, fear like that baby didn't even comprehend.  Preston is now with God. The tears shed for that infant will be powerful. All children, everyone.
AND.. if parents are more concerned about PRIDE parades ' than  NO. NO adoption baby for you. WTF.
Pride before the fall?  Pride goeth before destruction, and an haughty spirit before a fall. <Guess where that's from.  heehee
Thank You Jesus.  

For those including myself who think - Why did God let that happen to that baby? God gave humans choice.
Brains to think, hearts to think & fee, emotions toexperiencel & the rest of the miracle body to live' as we choose..
devil & demons do the rest. Those two demons KNEW what they were doing was wrong & the world is NOW wiser, we all must choose - even if that means just add that baby to your prayers  rest knowing God will Judge.  Children will be helped... demons exposed and put in hell on earth.  We need to all learn from that painful lesson or the suffering accumulates. 
They' did not hurt me, I have nothing to forgive, I will let it go & move past it & paint in PEACE.
KNOWING Jesus is in control.

As mentioned numerous times before, I have known lesbians & homosexuals my entire life, growing up in Toronto, it was 'normal.  Gay was the term and it was not derogatory. Many words can be used in different ways- depending on who's speaking.   It was simple,  if you had an issue with someone being 'Gay '- you simply didn't hang around. Your' loss.
Any gay friends I ever knew (and maybe - didn't know) were amazing, funny, compassionate & creative & smart and most importantly - could DANCE & dress. lol Priorities of the day. This new "alphabet me" or else was all a plot to put everyone in one group to be hated. & it's worked. It's why I refuse. I will not include people I know/knew  loved, respect, admire... in a group' that is getting a bad rap! Intentionally.  Peoples personal life choices don't involve me- NOT UNTIL ITS BEEN forced in everyones face... far from inclusion. It is  'labeling'... & it is not a group I think many would want to be associated with, currently.  Better to be labeled for being funny, creative, smart, inspiring, helpful, encouraging.. to name a few.

So yes! Good news.. we also need faith restored in the "justice system" after witnessing how the JeffreyEpstein PEDOfiles are full of immensely  wealth demons who did INDEED torture, rape & eat children & infants. Fact.  

It's rainy season.. good time to paint! I'm walking a bit better every day! Yay!
​Thank you Jesus. 3 different paintings of Jesus on the desk today - YAY!!!

Good news Canada...  no, nothing happening about Carney, other than his usual ass kissing, which I don't care to cover.
He will leave Canada so fast -when he has caused the damage he was sent to - heads will spin & Pierre Poilievre  will step in to save the day.. or appear to. He will help with housing, bylaws (cash cows), government overreach, mental health concerns and will help Canadians... and we need it. We are at an all time HIGH (not the good kind) with mental health, depression, anxiety and loss of hope. It is an epidemic.  Facts.  Our birth rates are dropping, that's a for sure sign. Not good.  

I do not have to list the reasons why Canadians are struggling with mental Health - We have people choosing MAID because they can't afford to live. Cant access HELP. They wait longer for an appointment to see a specialist than they do to be qualified to be legally murdered. I don't know what to say to people considering MAID... wait- yes I do:

If you are in that much pain physically, mentally, emotionally where you want to end your life - DEMAND your Dr. approve a mushroom trip, big one. Psilocybin.  Why not try something that IS proven to CHANGE your mind, ease suffering & depression & even change our fears about death... bring us closer to God.  

If you are struggling financially.. I believe Universal income is closer than we know.  They have to... they have created an overwhelming problem and people are at their peak for poking the bear. People are realizing they are overworked, underpaid, taxed to death and  it's not getting better. Go search: Paris today, German riots...  UK Rape..  or how about public beheadings.. Mental Health  around the world is struggling.  Pierre will step in to say the day and make psilocybin easier to access from Dr.s to patients for DEPRESSION. Microdosing by Dr.  because that's the only way brainwashed (by the GOV.) works.. this way they can still make the $.  I'm thrilled! Bring it on!! I KNOW what it does.
I KNOW it heals our hearts. I know, it helps open communication with the creator.  

Actually, I want to share... I was pissed at Trump last week - really, just something he said or did and it got to me.. well I micro dosed x 3 that day due to leg pain and making sure I don't get depressed from not being able to get around- anyway.. I started to think of Trump & the press  making fun of him and his bowel control issues'.. I don't know if true but he is a human being & we all have feelings.  He has done more for Americans (not stuff I necessarily agree with, not my business) it appears than others.. that all seem 'now' to only have been playing parts. He is BUSY. Carney, literally is always bowing down to Trump. Trump has more POWER than Carney, in every way - including his physical presence.  I admit - for 80. he's got more energy than most  80 year olds I know, I rarely get to see the nice clips of him - intentionally not shown by the media...   & sometimes, I think he is very funny.  Somedays I'll admit I laugh with and others at.  That's what psilocybin does, helps me see the humanity in humans. lol  All humans.  With Trump - it was a miracle.

For the bad things he has done, I have 0 control...  God will Judge, so will others. Not my business - not my King Kong.. heeheehee

I have one King  I answer to.
Celebrate this day & medicine The LORD has made!  
​The below image made me lol. 

Rape?!...  what was she wearing?       editorial gouache on white

For as long as I can recall this question has been asked - by police and other people.  What was she wearing?
Was she dressed 'slutty'?   I recall as a kid having someone say to me:  That's what your wearing? Do you want to get raped?
At the same time - I have the memory of being a young girl (probably around 12) wearing a tube top (they were the rage) I hardly had any boobs  BUT a male (older) family member, decided it would be very funny to pull my top down in front of everyone sitting on my grandmas verandah'... as I walked past.  Hahahaha.  I still think of it and remember the shame from that moment. That was sexual abuse, by a older man - for the amusement of himself & others.  Once I had a stranger grab my breast in large store- my aunt Marnie started to yell at him and he ran.. another time I was riding my bike home (16) and an old man on a part bench exposed himself to me.   I wish I could go back in time- I'd call my uncle a dirty pig, I'd started screaming at the pervert in the store myself & I would have got a family member and shown him that old man- to beat up. Maybe IF that happened to that old pig on the park bench - he would have second thoughts about his pastime.. 

You know what, growing up - I bought into it... I agreed. Maybe that's why she was raped.  Her outfit was slutty. Now I know men commonly rape infants and toddlers. I read one man was frustrated because he had trouble removing the 'diaper'.  With age come wisdom (hopefully) and awareness and more time to read the fucking news.  Yes, I've learned a few thing on social media, I at first thought- OMG, I didn't need to know that... then I realized - that attitude is part of the problem. When we don't want to hear the bad' news - or ignore the horrors- because it doesn't involve us or it's not our kids, we help no-one.  The problem has become as atrocious as it is because many think this way.  
Rape is an epidemic, around the world. Go - research statistics about the increase of rapes - everywhere.

What kind of a world allows such evil to thrive? What's happened to a justice system that is FAILING CHILDREN as well as us all.  This demonic act destroys a Childs life forever, if they live, as well as parents, family, friends and even strangers effected. It would be nice if this was not happening but pretending it's not- is part of the problem.  Forever- mentally ill adults (attracted sexually to children) have been placing themselves in situations that allow them access- easily. Like a fucking Dr. in Detroit - who apparently' .. 'allegedly' raped a child and was said to say he wanted to adopt a baby to rape and sexually abuse right from the start to train them. Horrified?  Did you know about the EVIL sick 37 year old teacher - & his partner who sexually abused and killed a 13 month old baby -they adopted? I watched a video where he use to like to deprive this poor baby of even sleep- It make me physically ill to see that tiny confused wee sole struggle & I hope  this evil demon gets death - if not death, I hope he gets tortured in jail.. I hope he dies from an object (take a wild guess) shoved in this throat. Then the LIAR tried to cry and the baby accidentally drowned.  Sadly, there was another case in Georgia, where two LGBTQ icons', men, adopted 2 boys and tortured and raped them.  All under the premise they were going to show that 2 men could adopt and raise healthy, happy children.  How many do we not know about.  I use to think this was o.k... now I have changed my stance. I don't think this should be the case anymore, there needs to be better screening.  Right now if you ask questions or express concern - you are immediately called Homophobic' or shamed for not for being for all this Inclusivity'.  Everyone that was involved with that baby should be HELD accountable, EVERY ONE.  More concerned about hurting  the 'LGBTQ+ community feelings'  bullshit than the actual welfare & lives of INNOCENT, vulnerable children. At this point anyone supporting these drag show in elementary schools and libraries- you are part of the problem. What does a adult man in a dress - usually acting sexually- have to do with our children education.
It's NOT education in indoctrination.

What about the lawyer - with a beautiful family - who's wife set up a camera because the house was being renovated.. only to find out that her husband  'allegedly' was regularly - raping the family dog.  I wish I was joking with this editorial.. dogs, iguanas, dead deer, horses, cats...  are a few known raped creatures.

Let's all HELP today but not asking anymore: What was she wearing?  NEVER again.. educate someone if you hear them say such a stupid remark. It should be illegal for police & judges to ask such a question - at this point we are all educated about this disgusting problem.  It CLEARLY has nothing to do with what anyone was wearing - EVER!
 IT is about an adult(s) (that can NOT control themselves and forcibly sexually abuses another, children & animals.
​They DO NOT belong in society, they belong in jail or in the ground. 

About the drawings.. I did not spend much time on them- it is difficult. I could not stop thinking about this bullshit lie we've all been fed.. NOW obvious to anyone. Now I have to counter draw, Jesus in the forest.  Pray for the children & animals. In Canada- I can go to jail for this opinion.. why do you think that is?  Why do you think they don't want us to have access to all these stories on line- easily to prove with some Seeking.  
Not knowing or asking about these issues is keeping the evil THRIVING.

When will it concern you - when it's some child you know? 
WWJD?   The bible is clear...  Tie millstone around their neck and toss them into the ocean.  
P.S... I would never (not that I ever did) leave a child alone in a room with any stranger- or Dr., Teacher, priest, coach... Dear Jesus, come quick & send these demons to hell.  
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You've probably read about the proposed TEEN social media ban.. not quite law yet.  Anyone who thinks this is actually for teens protection is delusional.  Remember being a teen?  Told not to do something!? LOL AS IF. Where there is a will, they will find a way- it's all a 'disguise' to control Canadians - ALL Canadians, not just teens. It is already failing in Australia.  Many DO see it for exactly WHAT it is... Carneys control - agenda 2030. Now we are learning (I knew for a while) in order to pass & make it successful ALL will have to verify their age, in order to use social media - ALL.
​When that day comes, I will ABSOLUTELY  stop using what ever platform makes this mandatory.. I am not alone.  I do think it will come but it won't last, it WILL backfire - even major companies like google are calling bullshit- stating IT IS all about CONTROL.  Did you know in other countries you can go to jail for complaining about your politician on line? Of course, that's the plan.. create the 'FEAR to speak up' to 'SHUT everyone up. *God put us here to share & care for each other.. to be fruitful and multiply to ALL look after the earth, the garden & to share his word & lessons.. not to be controlled and muzzled. 

I read a Canadian comment (I'm paraphrasing): Canadians have all become pussies & we are all just bending over taking it from Carney & his cohorts.  
Speak for yourself.   She is incorrect.. Canadians are intelligent, (some of the most educated in the world), confident, funny, kind, compassionate and patient.. sorry - but it's true. lol  I say sorry when I don't feed my girls on time. Canadians are hard working - we built this country 1/2 the time in 4 feet of snow!  Our favourite sport is played in the cold, on ice.. kicking ass. Canadians will ABSOLUTELY reach a point, SOON, and the rest of the world will not be thinking of Canadians as pussies' but for the STRONG, powerful, compassionate people &  the PARENTS we are.  Anyone who is paying any attention is thinking - what a joke this is - not funny. Canadian kids are being read to by men in drag as toddlers, told they can access free drugs at 15,  have puberty blockers, get their breast removed.. but can't vote, get a tattoo or surf the internet. 
We have more kids going hungry than ever before.  SERIOUSLY- IF our government CARED about children - the first thing they would do is FEED THEM! Cloth them and help with homelessness.. oh yeah- that only happens to immigrants coming into this country, currently.  HAVE you seen what's happening in PARIS?   How about Germany? The UK? So.. at least lets address it for what it IS - digital ID to CONTROL the masses and just like CHINA... you will comply or you will be punished & publicly shamed.  Who does that? 

I do think kids would be better off with less time online- we all know the damage it is going but this is a LIE.  Kids who try will still access the internet, keeping kids ignorant about the world will NOT help, it just makes them easier to fool.  They want them off line under 16  - YET 3, 12 year olds were just caught driving a stolen car and injured a police officer- YET they won't be charged as adults, they will be treated like children, let out with a slap to reoffend- because our current system is set up that way. A few other opinions below..  Knowledge is power.

If you have kids, grandkids.. it's your duty to know & help them.
I have an 'editorial and won't leave me be.. I'm drawing it today. 
I'm so excited to be outside & grateful - Thank you Lord for the strength & faith in you & helping me heal!
​Enjoy this day, the Lord has made.

I found this cat already sketched & painted it - just to paint.. it was the longest I've sat at my desk in over 2 week - so that was GOOD!  The painting.. so so, I didn't spend much time on it at all, it was more or less an exercise in forcing myself past the painting block' or break'... pun intended.  I will gift it to a cat lover I know. 

How great God is...     I am grateful I broke my knee. lol. It forced me to sit & observe, I haven't really even had the desire to paint.  When is the last time you sat & sat and watched things grow?  Everything for a reason.  

I saw the lilacs (Storm cut some for inside) and now they are gone... this was the first year I didn't get out there and smell them  self or make lilac syrup. It WILL be all the sweeter next year.  I can see the dogwoods bloom and know they smell amazing.  I planted a few veggies (I had started from seed) Storm went and got & planted the rest - I am excited to go and weed the vegetables garden! I've watched countless hummingbirds visit out feeder & Storm now knows how to make humming bird food. These tiny feathered miracles fight, swirl and occasionally  'come and look at me' - RIGHT through the screen, the other day one just stayed there in flight, hovering,  looking at me- as if to ask 'what are you doing inside?' 
 
The garden just sprouting the last time I was out is now in FULL greenery! Tropical in appearance. It all happened when I wasn't watching.  God makes stuff happen, especially when we are not watching, waiting or expecting.. it just does. Amazing, beautiful - awesome stuff - all the time but we miss it because we are busy doing stuff or distracted by life. I am aware of God existence & Jesus - always with me but it's still easy to be distracted by stuff & others.  The more I sat & looked outside the less I wanted to look at my phone.  

Things are heating up around the world and I am not referring to the weather, Ireland has had enough, we all have and we all now know - it was all planned. So much at the moment it's hard to absorb (thank God) perhaps that's the point.. don't get distracted from Jesus or God... or the real demons - still at play.  I watched a NDE account (I absolutely believe) of Penny Wittbrodt's and it's incredible, a reminder for us all there's more than this current 'experience' (puppet show), that I might add is playing out - right according to script.  I am seriously awaiting project blue beam at this point- one more conspiracy to come to fruition. Am I frightened - not at all.  It's more of a 'get this show on the road' - at this point.. Aliens at the White House, chatting on the lawn..  Please. I'd rather watch leaves wave in the wind at this point than to - encourage any part of the political parade.  There is no-one, Id vote for, anymore. 

Another blessing!! My dogs have become better dogs - due to my injury  lol..  it took about 3 days for them to understand -mom's hurt'. They refuse to leave my side & I have to argue with them to go outside. I did get an all terrain walker - so soon!!  Anyway.. they know I can't go to the gate and they are so well behaved - yesterday a delivery driver arrived at the gate and they both took off at full speed - they saw him before me but they alert me with their barking.  If it's someone we know, the barking soon stops.. if not, it continues and gets more aggressive. I have a whistle '-  the second I blew it, they stopped & looked at the driver (sitting in his vehicle) almost at the gate, they both instantly turned and ran right to me, in and sat at my feet.  I then saw him get out, drop off the package wave and off he went.  I was impressed..  have such good girls- they never run away, unless chasing a deer - but even then they quickly return.  I love them & they love me, they have been great companions the entire time.. always ready to snuggle.

The sooner you see everything as a blessing - it will be. The sooner you give God - thanks (for not breaking my hip) lol, the sooner you will start to heal!  I have been asking Jesus daily, Jesus- help me get outside again to hug a tree or two...  I can feel the healing.  The surgeon told me - you'll need a full knee replacement- My mind was saying - No frigging way.. Jesus will have me healed and walking in no time.. no knee replacement anytime soon.  I have faith! Faith is power...
God is LOVE. 

​Enjoy this day the Lord has made!  
​It's been a while since I've had 'new wheels' I can't wait to get out for a test roll. 

Mushroom stone study.  Gouache on white.
Can you tell I'm inspired by all the greenery? I can see the garden is coming along.. soon I'll be able to pluck weeds and I've never been so excited for it. The things we take for granted.  Cutting with scissors is my most missed 'simple task', there are so many creative ideas, but the moment I see 'cutting details' I move on. It has brought out others skills.. and patience & appreciation. 

I was talking with a good friend who happens to have been in a wheel chair most of her life, she once broke her hip and was sent home from the hospital & had to look after herself, also when she broke a leg. When you need to do things- you figure it out, quickly.. We both agreed; it's a blessing in disguise. The sooner you accept -the sooner you will rise above any situation.  Being forced to do stuff, helps you move towards healing faster.. they mentioned Pysio' to me.. the forest & dogs will be my physio'.  Speaking of dogs- when in the surgeons waiting room another woman with a broken leg asked me: Was it dogs? Did you trip over a dog??   blah blah dogs are responsible for people tripping..  
Anyway, I did not say anything out loud but after all that, she goes on to explain how she broke her leg- no dogs involved.  She tripped over a branch, hanging her humming bird feeder. lol   So, there goes that theory'.  No doubts people trip over (cats especially) pets- they also trip over kids, toy, curbs... and know what they trip over the most? Carpets.  So enough with 'demonizing' any one thing... I was not focused, distracted and yes my dogs were running around. Accidents happen.

Someone remarked - you're in the middle of nowhere, what if you fell and no one comes along.. 
Haven't we all, by now witnessed videos where a person falls in the middle of a bustling city - and people simply step over them? I have.. too many times. Recently, some poor guy at the bottom on an escalator - people thought he was drunk and walked past - turns out he fell and the thing was strangling him by his hoodie strings. So...  here, there, anywhere.
Do NOT Fear.

When your time is up - God will let you know  & nothing will change that- nothing.
The sooner you understand, believe, the sooner you have PEACE. 
You could go out today as slide off a cliff or you could step out of your tub, fall and never wake up - so WAKE up!
Enjoy this day the Lord has made!  
I'm already bending my knee, pain free!  It was suggested I'd need a full replacement..
when God wants me to have a new knee - I will.  
The cannabis boost, I successfully tried all the candy samples  in my Judges kit! YUM! lol.
​ I have had fantastic sleeps - and unlike alcohol you don't wake up feeling it' the next day. 
Today, I'm excited to paint & try the cannabis infused Tea.

USE it or LOSE it!

Gods timing makes me lol. I usually end up shaking my head thinking "Perfect timing!"
I received my VIP judges kit for 'The Stoner Games'.. and the timing was PERFECT - a kit full of Gods medicine  & many ways to enjoy it!  Since I have the opportunity, and task (joyful task) of voting on my kit' I hope to educate along the way.

I refused pain medication from the hospital, even Tylenol3. I'm not taking anything if I can help it- naturally.
The Judges kit arrived with everything you can imagine - all things cannabis -from cookies & cakes to candies -tea, jam, truffles.  When were were kids our medicine always tasted good, why not make it tasty now, a little bit of sugar helps the medicine go down & the cinnamon crunch bars are delicious - I have to remind myself- just eat 1/2 & wait. Pain? What pain.. I felt pain free in 30 minutes and it lasted until about 3 a. .m. I can genuinely test this medicine with a broken knee! The pain was preventing me from sleep, last night was the best sleep in 2 weeks....  It was the cinnamon toast crunch bar I nibbled on before bed.  I am not sure if kit's are still available but I'd recommend getting one - just for the wide variety of samples. You name it - hash, extracts, chocolates, bud - and the tools needed to use it! Including a lovely glass pipe- green, my favourite.  There's goodies too or as they say 'A Swag bag'.. I couldn't unbox & film with this leg - just getting water is enough of a task.   Last year, Id eat the entire thing and vote- but usually one edible would last all day- so this year I learned to nibble, vote & put away for a rainy day.  I woke feeling refreshed today- great actually. Hopeful again, I'll be healed and walking the woods -sooner than later.  I'll be sharing more on my kit the next few..

Trump pardoned a guy in the states who was put in jail for 7 years - for fixing a friends truck.  Trump states, FORD is trying to restrict the right to repair ALL new vehicles - making it illegal to fix your own vehicle. Oddly, junk yards- you know where you can get old car parts, are going up in flames, down south.   Did Trump pardon out of the goodness of his heart or to just bring MASS awareness- not everyone will be pardoned.  BEFORE you give this any more thought... the real CRIMINAL ACT- is putting a man in jail for helping his friend FIX his truck - as we watch danger violent criminals get slaps on the wrist.. WTF?  People are sharing this  all over online and a few other things - like owning the vehicle but having to pay subscriptions- to get things to work, like heated seats.. that's what they mean when they say- you will own nothing.. you will RENT or subscribe to everything. Here's a mechanic explaining: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Scxr0QBsbGw I really think the car industry is going to TANK next year, my dad was  a fleet salesman and I worked in the car business... people do put careful consideration into vehicle purchases. I remember a few brothers came in to the Chevrolet dealership I was at, all to buy stripped BASIC pick up trucks - specifically so they can fix them themselves & for farm work.  Everyone I speak with is searching for an 'older pick up - preferable.  I have known people all my life who have been able to repair their own cars- it was a pastime.  Imagine , now going to jail for it.  Who would buy it? 

Never mind not being able to fix it- all new cars are expected to have KILL switches.. it will not start or will stop, if IT thinks 'it' should.  Cars are also collecting data now released to police. If your car detects you can't drive - it won't. An example on line is a guy & grandma running to start the truck during a tornado- the truck won't start until he calms down.. a make believe scenario -no.  Between control craziness and reading about tests, stating people in Electric vehicles are more or less sitting on a giant battery - not good for your health or testicles.

Actually, more important than this - ARE you aware of the new data centres in Canada, already going up - no discussion.. 
I was thrilled to see this video has over 2, million views in less than 2 weeks!!  One is going in Etobicoke & those are are already MOVING. PLEASE watch, education is the key. It's absolutely horrible what I have learned about these in the USA, me being naive to think it was not happening here- Phhhbt.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5p426fSlYH4
How dare they ever mention plastic bags or straws to us! It's such a mind fuck when you realize what these data centres do - more damage in a day than probably an one person on each. Water bills go up while water quality goes down, noise.. 
PLEASE educate yourself, before you can't.   Many people are not referring to them as data centres but 'surveillance  centres.  Time will tell.


I bet once you find out about data centres- you would never want one being built, near you... we should all help each other on this issue. We will all pay for them, we should ALL have say on where they go and how much they can do.
Kevin O'Leary - Canadian glutton is getting serious hate for his building data frenzy in the states..
What good is all the money in the world if you are a hated man?  If you have to sell your soul and the souls, livelihoods of thousand in the process.. to achieve your greed?  I guess he'll find out.
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​Time to enjoy some candy and paint.. Enjoy this day the Lord has made. ​

Awakening - I'm pretty sure now, after living with this 'issues' I have indeed become an expert in pain management.. dare I say, more than my Dr.s.   Happy Sunday' and today I am blessing you, with wisdom I have gathered, the hard way... by NOT listening to my own mind & body. 

First, a reminder for those not familiar with previous blogs - God have provided me with fantastic Dr.s, truly.. I am most grateful for 2 processionals'  My GP, now retired & a "shrink" (hahah I'd use that term to see her wince, and giggle) that was suggested by Sick kids afters Storms diagnoses, she saved my sanity, trying to deal with all that was going on.  I have experienced Dr.s who have helped - and a few... not so much. They helped me - for the humans they were, more than medication they provided.. I realized, they have probably learned what we are along the way, like us all. Medicine can be harmful, some side effects worse than the initial illness.. some NEVER stop.  I KNOW. I have experienced what all of my Dr.s have not.   But- once aware all must choose, will you follow blindly or will you SEEK.... anyhow not my decisions to make, but I'd choose to prescribe/consume pills as a last resort, instead of first. 

The past few months I have had several tell me they are on gabapentin. SEVERAL so a reminder - I was on it only a couple of weeks and had serious side effects. Yes, it eased my pain a bit -for perhaps 3-6 days.. but HOPEFUL (Not putting my hope in Jesus/myself as much as Dr.s) I continued.  I notice I was having trouble swallowing at night, difficult to explain, as if I was losing control of my throat muscle to push food down, it got worse. The only change was the medication.  ALSO, I became very irritable with my dogs - Yikes!.. it was a 'feeling', they were not doing anything different !!! instantly  -I just knew, it's the Gabapentin. OFF.  With the help of psilocybin I will add. I started to feel better  in days!! The throat thing- GONE - AMEN.  The irritability - omg.. I cried and snuggled and said 'mom is sorry'...
Poor children (& pets) are out there paying for a side effect of a medication a parent takes.. just like alcohol abuse. 

I watched a nurse explain 'Prescribing cascade' , where you are prescribed a medication for something that is not a new illness but a side effect of a medication.  Of course she uses gabapentin as the example, saying a common side effect for it was swelling legs, then they are given a diuretic for swollen legs. A side effect of Gabapentin. I blogged about this decades ago when I was reading about retirement homes in Italy (I think it was Italy) using cannabis -Vape bags, on the elders instead of PUMPING them with DEADLY Chemical cocktails.   Have you heard or read the latest? I have to research but it's viral online - an 80 year old Alzheimer's patient (female) took a psilocybin dose 5g - slept 19 hours  and woke up speaking!!  You watch, how fast Psilocybin becomes "medicine". 

My dads dementia Dr. told me "once diagnosed' patients only live 2 - 5 years"  My dad died to the date.. I have often wondered - how do they know? How is it SO predictable?  The first thing they did to 'help' him, was medicate him... on a few different medications. Sick kids experts offered my toddler medication', to help his pain - and two sentences later, WARNED me - that the medication would absolutely destroy his internal organs after a expected period of TIME.
One 'big shot' neurologist on Bay St. (man he was arrogant)  had no problem telling me - He expected, my life expectancy  to be 2 more years.. 10 years ago. Wow.. another diagnoses of doom.  STFU. THEN! His office fucked up with an MRI and his receptionist apologized to me, BECAUSE I had to take another MRI - because of their mistake.  So, there's that. 
Those 'tests' effect us too. Fact. 

​ENOUGH, IT absolutely has been me Trusting God  & Trusting Jesus.
ASKING, listening to my own body - CHRIST IS IN US!!  That has helped me help myself, nothing I've done is illegal- albeit some have tried to convince us, otherwise. Plants that grow naturally are worthless & "illegal".
Listen to your own body.. feel a new symptom? Pay attention - do not add to YOUR pain. CHOOSE Wisely.

PLEASE pay attention, this nurse suggests: AT the very least, ASK your Dr.s :
Could you look at my medications and see 'if this' could be a side-effect of any/all medication?  
Better yet, TRUST in Jesus In YOU & SEEK yourself, do some research, do not follow blindly anymore. 

Pain is a part of life. Pain of the physical body & pain of our broken hearts.
Every night, I have to reset with Jesus ask for forgiveness, give forgiveness - so I can move forward.
The minute I do, I sleep peacefully.  It's powerful - me knowing, me praying - will help me heal faster, than pills.
Pain is important - incredibly important.. nothing brings you faster & closer to Christ, by being humbled by pain. 
Broken Body &  Broken Hearts. 

The sooner  you have a relationship with Jesus - the sooner you will heal - and learn to deal with ALL that ails.
Amen.

Next.. the Kill switch in Canada, the USA (A guy got jail for fixing a friends truck!) & The Dutch dilemma.
Until then:

Whoever finds wisdom finds life & receives favour from the Lord.    Proverbs 8:35
In order to FIND - you must make the effort to SEEK.
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Below: I love this woman, for the joy she brings, around the world. It's that easy... 
BY Being JOYFUL - she brings others joy, I SMILE every time I see these two.
How powerful is that?

Bee.  Gouache on white. This has been the only thing I was able to paint. I'm painting today.. amen.
I refuse to let this' get to me.  What a lesson it's already been, the broken knee was not the lesson. 

I went to see the surgeon & he suggests I will need a full knee replacement.  I will not do anything unless I can  function.
For some reason, even tho Norm was beside me when the first Dr. told me I broke my leg.. because I guess I didn't get a 'brace' (why I'm not sure..) Norm figured: it can't be that bad..    Seriously, he came to his own conclusions.  Because I have a high pain tolerance I guess from living with TN all these years, I rarely cry.. this does NOT mean I am not in pain.  I did cry a few short spurts on the long walk home - It was Jesus, adrenaline and gratitude that I was able to slowly inch home. Anyway.. I was not home 15 minutes from the first hospital visit and Norm dropped a basket of laundry at my feet to fold.  I had to make a list (that was absolutely ignored) just to get the blinds open & the dogs given water.. I had to talk a 65 year old grown ass man through how to make dinner- because suddenly, he was not capable..  

Day 2 with a broken knee - he came home and asked "What's for dinner?"   I was in bed where I was told to stay by the REAL Dr., I said 'I'm sure you'll figure it out...  he then went into the shop and never returned, until after I was in bed, hungry.  And much more..  Lesson learned AGAIN. 

Not until after then seeing the surgeon and Storm telling Norm what he said (again) did he seem to believe, I was indeed hurt. The damage has been done, physically & mentally. He did it before -after brain surgery and promised - till blue in the face..  he would never do it again and he did indeed.   A lesson I am learning AGAIN, and truly  - I can't stand the sight of him. Married 34 years (soon) and he can't cook me a fucking meal when I broke my leg - not because I'm lazy, I broke my fucking leg. NOT ONCE did he even say: Can I get you a drink? Something to eat?
 No, he just got nastier as the week  on, more resentful his meals not made & house not cleaned.

This is what the majority of men do.. when the women gets hurt they fuck off- selfish pricks that they can be.  
Women on the other hand usually care for the men.. I hope married women and younger women are reading this... before you find out the hard way. 
The disparity in domestic labor between genders, coupled with the statistics that men are more likely to leave, implies that men leave when their wives can no longer care for them and their home the way they’ve come to expect. 
The implication leads to a terrifying conclusion about the state of marriage.
These husbands don’t seem to care about their wives as people. They only seem to care about what she can do to enhance his life. When she’s no longer able to provide him with the care and attention he feels entitled to, he leaves to find a replacement. 

I asked Storm (anyone that KNOWS me KNOWS): IF your dad got hurt - would I make sure he was fed & cared for?
​He replied 'Absolutely.   And yes, I would have, WOULD being the key word. I am done, not only did he NOT HELP at all, he made no attempt to clean at all, even getting him to give the dogs water I was FORCED to argue with him.  Storm had never seen the house so dirty (he was away the first week) He made the situation worse, I'm not even go into detail, why bother.  LESSON learned, I am thankful I did NOT break my hip. Thank You Jesus.

Today is a new day, last night I opened my bible in tears and God gave me a DIRECT message.. this morning I opened a message on IG from my friend since grade 5- it was the exact - EXACT  same message. 
Lesson learned.. God will help me through it - I KNOW.   I treated myself to a few online lessons with my favourite artist & there I will put my focus, on God & creating my own joy ... & God will raise me UP. As always... wait & see.  Amen.

​Thank GOD for my girls, whom I do talk to all the time!!!

What you Go through, you grow through...  I painted these a while back. 
I have not been able to complete a painting of 2 cats and a rat currently on my desk.  Soon.

I was exploring colour combinations for a future painting. 
June 1st and the lilacs smell lovely, off in the distance I can see the purple with the vibrant dark green behind it, it's going to force me to paint it at a distance & I look forward to the challenge.
I thank the Lord for the breeze that sent it my way.

It's incredible how creative you can be when forced to sit and imagine the possibilities, with God there is no limit..  
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Be still & know. 

Happy June 1st!

Thank you Jesus.  
Yesterday, as Storm was leaving I said: I'll walk up and open and close the gate, as it was a beautiful morning...
He drove out and down the Road and before he was even at the bottom of the hill I went to close the gate, turned to look at something and lost my balance, the next thing I know my leg was under my back and I was in excruciating pain, with the dogs slobbering me- what are you playing at mom??

I reached for my phone and it was NOT in my pocket.. I knew Storm would not hear me scream. 

I called the dogs and between Arrow & Athena, after a few moments I was able to at least get up.. the pain - unbelievable.
I thought.. I broke something.. my long driveway suddenly got a lot longer.  Between adrenalin and concern for not getting home (already being snacked on by mosquitos) I started the long journey. lol funny not funny. I crawled and inched myself - it took about 45 minutes, when finally in - I made it to the sofa and fell and got the shakes and started sobbing.. 
I sent Storm a text, he told me to go to the hospital, I went to bed.. when I tried to get up again, I could not.
I told him don't come home- no point I'll be fine.
He called Norm to come home and take me to the hospital around 1.  He bought me crutches BUT due to my arthritic hands- I can't use them, I can't grip or put weight on them. Norm carried me to the car, he is not as strong as Storm. 

At the Hospital 
Norm said: there is no way you broke it , you would never have made it home...
Me: STFU.. you don't know my pain tolerance ( especially because of TN) or faith in Jesus. 
Then the Dr. came back (Dr. George, nice guy): Yep! You broke your knee... & You can not have surgery due to your severe arthritis.  WTF?   I shall see that - as a BLESSING in disguise.

The entire time I was inching home I repeated: Jesus help me.. one more step..  over and over.
I felt calm -albeit in insane pain, determined and knew Jesus would help me- not until I was on the sofa did I start sobbing.

Anyway.. yes I am bummed.. 4 months possible healing and I'm to get lots of 'RICE'   -Rest Ice, elevate..I forget the E
A bone specialist in a few.. why if he can't do anything I don't know.. we'll see.  I feel bad for my girls waiting on me to explore the day. Good thing I have a dog door and they are trained to come when I call.  The thought of not getting into the forest has me very bummed.  Storm said he knows me, and he doesn't think it will take me that long.
​I hope not.. Praise Jesus! 

I also refused pain medication, they gave me something there but when they suggest some to take home - NO thanks.  
I have cannabis & psilocybin and I will be o.k... pain is a part of life.. and a lesson.

I see this as a good opportunity to follow Gods direction and get some rest, go within, paint.. pause.

Before Norm left today he knew to bring me the essentials, a bucket to pee if I can't make it, my bibles, water, coffee, cranberry juice. I figure it's also a good time to fast!  Just getting here- to the computer was exhausting today.. so it's time to take a break... pun intended.

The MORAL of this story - With Jesus I can do all things!!! 
I made it home with a broken knee! I am so proud of me.
I can't believe I DID make it back - look how long that driveway is and more to the door! 
I still love my driveway & woods and am inspired to heal fast so I can walk them both.
Today I will thank Jesus & enjoy this day The Lord has made - from the sofa. Waaaaaaa
& if any reading want to offer prayers- they are much appreciated! 

I always say (as you know) "I walk with Jesus" - I am MORE convinced today & for the rest of this journey:
​Jesus walks with me & a broken knee.

Enjoy this day the Lord has made! 

 Love Bugs..  1 + 1 = 3.  Mn = Woman = Baby.   3..  now a family'. 

I have been having blast creating these cutouts, the first few to get a feel for it.. now the ones in my mind are already getting more elaborate, the details running over before I actually sketch the next. A friend was attending a 'mushroom, lady bug baby shower so I made this for a fun photo op', she loved it and I hope they enjoy it today - that's what it's about.   Do what ever we can to bring Joy to others when possible.  I made a few more already but I'll wait & share them after the event, in August - it sounds like a great time, an outdoor music fest with crafts, music, tents, food and more.  I don't do events anymore, and I'm good with it, I'm mostly about spending time with God these days & I LOVE it. 

I met another woman with TN... and our eyes teared when speaking, because I know she knows, and she knows I know.. lol.  I am nervous about meeting others with TN because I know my case is severe, I know if you have TN, you become afraid of it happening, because it's frightening and incredibly painful and can happen at any moment... and mine is every moment or few.  Her TN is occasionally', I get worried they will think theirs might get like mine.. but perhaps I can help others avoid this 'level'..  what I do to help ease my pain.. and if NOT - perhaps I can prove: we can learn to live & thrive and enjoy this Day the Lord has made - through the pain.   It's a fear many will never understand- thank God. Do I blame God? NO!  I did go through a very difficult stage and begged for God to end it.. yep.   With time and TRUST God has proven to me, I can overcome more than I ever imagined I would be able to. I now thank God the second I am up and all day - every day, and for the power that comes with controlling pain.  Using it even, to become better.. but when you know it helps bring you closer to Jesus, I am GRATEFUL for it.  I've given up trying to take a photos when my face isn't contracting, as t's all the time.  Jesus LOVES me perfectly as I am as God created me.

At this point, I am amazed I do wake up, every morning- and if God still has me here, it is because I am on a mission. I listen to Jesus.  I fear disappointing God  greater than disappointing any man, or woman.  I know in my heart as does God, that's all I'm worried about.  I pray for help before every decision, I ask Jesus to show me LOVE by reminding me to be loving.  I promised if I am ever in a situation I can share my own experience in to what has helped me, I promised I would.  I want to show people we can live with excruciating pain, NOT to listen to Dr.s with their diagnoses of doom  as they pump us with pills and chemicals that THEY DON'T KNOW the destruction they can do, until the damage has been done!  OR have some BUSINESS like M.A.I.D. offer to make our lives easier- by ending them. Everything happens for a reason, trust in God & you will GROW through what ever God makes you go through.

I read a comment today some posted; How do you believe in a God you can't see- it's like believing in leprechauns.
You don't have to SEE God to know God, You don't have to see God to FEEL God... that guy has not, yet.  I am more convinced daily - as it does say in the bible: Everyone, eventually gets on the same path, the only way
by taking the  Via Jesus express!

Do you know why I think
Dragons were killed off?  Satan was a dragon. People associated them with Satan.  Verde Retro Satana! Satan Bound the Thousand Years. Revelation 20.
1And I saw an angel come down from heaven, having the key of the bottomless pit and a great chain in his hand. 2And he laid hold on the dragon, that old serpent, which is the Devil, and Satan, and bound him a thousand years, 3And cast him into the bottomless pit, and shut him up, and set a seal upon him, that he should deceive the nations no more, till the thousand years should be fulfilled: and after that he must be loosed a little season.
Did you know in Revelation it also tells how the rich and poor will hide 'under rocks' when Jesus returns..
a.k.a bunkers, are under rocks.  Good luck - You can't hide form the Sun, the moon , the truth & the LORD! 
Today I end with a reminder of what LOVE actually is... 

1 Corinthians 13:4-7
New International Version4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.


Enjoy this day The Lord has Made.  I'm paint a frog.. a bear... as I create my next creating in my mind before foam! YAY.