Mushrooms - Psilocybin are also called: The Golden teachers..  I get it.
What they teach us is a valuable lesson worth more than gold.. they ease suffering.
If you allow them. I only had the one negative experience and I no longer consider it negative.  This week my body told me to microdose... I listened.
During this Covid my psorisis has flared, it's my for sure sign even tho I don't 'think' I'm overly stressed - I'm stressed. It would be unnatural right now if anyone said they've felt no stress the past few months. 

What do Psilocybin teach me?
Every single time: I AM LOVED. I AM enough. Be good to me.
I also FEEL' closest to God - just like when you are at peace in the garden or resting under a tree surrounded by nature and life and love.  Black fly love us- hahaha
Not a human, not books, not PILLS, not food..  a tiny litle mushroom has helped.
Go figure! Who knew!?   God.

God and many others knew - Scientists KNEW in the 50' & 60's. Thank GOD that psilocybin mushrooms are being seen AGAIN for what they are - healing medicine.
I am exceedingly grateful to & for them - nothing has ever helped as much as they have. Believe me or don't I don't care -it's your choice all I can do is share my experiences and you can ponder yourself as to what to do. I can't make you, nor do I want to- It's NO careless buzz'.   When the student is ready the teacher will appear.  
Golden Teacher - thank you.
I am loved.  
They have ALSO allowed me to forgive and constantly encourage: BE here now.

Yesterday was marvelous! We explored our backyard! Holy- I'm so happy to be here. hee hee.  We found our first mushroom of the season, new birds & my new obsession - Mossballs. haha I don't know what Im making but I LOVE moss balls- I just wanna squish them.. Tiny eco systems. I've never been more isolated and more happy in my life...  with the exception of missing my son.
Soon, soon It will be over- or at least nice enough we can have an outdoor visit & picnic!
Honestly, I really don't think we'll see anthing close to Normal again - until 2023.  
I feel from what I've read, it will come back in the fall and am being cautious this summer. 
I hope you do too! 

Want to learn more about the Stoned ape theory - read:
www.goodreads.com/book/show/51660.Food_of_the_Gods
Food of The Gods: Terence McKenna  - food for the brain! 

Have you watched Midnight Gospel on Netflix- WOW.  
Best animated show on television NOW.  Episode 8, had me in tears - you were warned.
Netflix also has a movie/doc. about psilocybin  with a bunch of comedians...
​ 'Have a nice trip' check it out.
I'm pleased they did not make it a "joke".

With TLC & THC & Psilocybin  
​Georgia 

That moment Tinkerbell realized 'Edibles' are not as harmless as she thought...

I love edibles! My prefered is carrot cake that I make myself with medicated coconut oil that I also make myself- it's easier than you think.

Have you watched Rotten: Edibles on netflix?  I enjoy the Rotten series - very enlightening.
I know about edibles but I did learn a few points to ponder. - Edibles have a side effect that most don't consider - I bet more women than men do.
Weight gain.  I have gained 6 lbs since moving up here - 6 that I keep on!
Thank you Country Bakery - lol.

Weight gain is a problem for most & edibles are a very easy way to get - carried away.
I know. First - they taste so good - you want to eat more and all of it.  Don't - read the instructions, you won't die but you might get very HIGH - uncomfortably high, almost everone I know has a story to tell about edibles and having too much of a good thing- but there is also the problem of 'the munchies' - on edibles.  

Weight gain is on the increase as are weight related disease - please use caution.
I encourage all I know to have healthy snacks ready - just incase you get the muchies.  
Better to much on grapes than gummies! & IMO EVERY thing tastes better on cannabis - even carrots!  Medicated cookies- gummies, drinks - you name it - you'll see it soon.
Edibles are are the way IN.  

Interesting to note some think bud will fade - HA. Bud will never fade, many love bud as it is - no sugar needed.  Most of the time I medicate without all the "goodies"  but it's nice occassionally for a sweet treat'. 

I had so much fun painting tinkerbell - I painted 2! 
Tinkerbell giggling in the forest as happy as can be!  Double art day!
Give thanks ;) 

Happy Thanks Giving Weekend! 
Enjoy all the goodies - Medicated or not - Give Thanks! 
Cannabis is legal in Canada! 

With TLC & THC
​Georgia

Have you seen: The Confession Tapes  - currently on Netflix.
Oh My God... I feel like a naive doofus! To think I am one of those who think the police are here to serve & protect - NOT frame & bullshit.  Talk about eye opening and heart wrenching - these people put in jail for crimes they did not commit & the killers still at large due to lazy, un professional liars.  One gentleman proven innocent & it still took 3 FUCKING years to let him out of jail - what is wrong with this? How has this allowed to happen - still - with proof from these tapes- bullied, exhausted, lied to...  in the past I would've spoken with the police as of NOW - I don't think I would- I would ask for a lawyer immediately . 

I kept thinking - HOW are Americans letting this happen- then they played an episode about Canadians & the RCMP = PROFESSIONAL liars is how they will be thought of now...setting up those 2 boys imo - shameful.  Here's the thing.. I like police 'people' (my experiences anyhow have never been negative) I was actually thinking the other day I hope the police where I'm moving are as nice & helpful as York Region..   I know they are far from perfect- but I can't imagine - no, neither could any of those people  - wrongfully accused & sent to jail.  I have friends & family in jail past & currently - some- I feel should be in jail for their actions - hopefully  remorseful & getting help they need. Others- should never have gone to jail - my friend Todd Stimson - that did years for plants - it changed his life- he still is dealing with issues from stress from that.  I knew when he was released he was going to make changes & has! Check out his new business- wow- what a difference in a few short years. ​https://thereleafmarket.com

I've had people tell me "I did not do what they said" & in all honesty - I kinda thought...  well yeah  -you say that but you are  jail..  not anymore - I am no ones judge - I judge people by how they treat me.. and I don't know what to believe some days but I do know we are presumably INNOCENT until proven guilty - not the other way around.  
I am grateful to Netflix for the education - & encourage you to watch.

I have learned if the police ever want to bring me in for questioning... sure, wait until I call my lawyer...  & make sure you turn ON the confusion tape.

I have packed up my painting..   doodling only for the time being.

With TLC & THC
​Georgia 

With Daisy gone the squirrels are going nuts!  :)   Stealing nuts! 3rd world problems Georgia..   Someone recently wrote in our local paper: Please Don't feed the squirrels!
Which made coffee snort out my nostrils! WHO the fuck thinks WE 'Birders intentionally  feed those little *&^%$circus clowns with tials. lol   NOT Me!  Although, I did at one time remark 'I wished I had squirrels... we had no 'big trees' & few in the neighborhood - careful what you wish for.  But NO, I do not 'feed them' or the occassional rat I have seen I was told years ago by a fellow gardener everyone had rats & rabbits  - everyone & the problem is not the gardeners, the problem is mass consumption if you want to get into details & how rats travel & feed as well & fast as they do - especialy in cities.

Daisy helped keep them out of the backyard. I even make a point to try & feed only the bluejays by waiting for them to call & then only put out a few nuts... I need a bigger dog, they think Ginger is a game although her effort is mighty..    she is a Dove stalker - oh oh. 
It's great to be in the garden, dirt in my coffee.. (dirt in my ears by the end of the day)  dirt under my nails, worms thrown in the composter..  the pool is open & clear & we are planting we've been inspired by & delighted with Monty Don! on Netflix - Monty helps make small gardens big miracles!  Actually Norm is like Monty the way he works ... Frig, If I coulds get those two in the garden at the same time! Woo hoo- the  garden oaisis would be complete in no time! I've designed a better bird area to deter the peanut thief  & make seed clean-up easy(r)  I want a DOG & Bird friendly garden for my best friends & constant companions - don't forget the butterflies, bees & sunflowers surrounding the bird ares to bring out my Van Gogh! I've already Painted the sign for it -mentally-  hee hee hee.

A special place for my closest companions Buddhas abound, windchimes - Peace. I'd also like to expand the pond.  I can't even put it into words to be out there and hear all the differnt birds - it's like being in the tropics -it sure beats lawnmovers  & traffic sounds.,  it is addictive - just standing there & lovely to enjoy a joint - or two.

​   Today it's raining - so I will catch up on much needed painting so I can paint all the paintings waiting in my mind to be painted. :))  
Let it pour! Water my garden while I paint Jesus! 

​With TLC & THC 

Netflix has 2 new documentaries: Weed the People & (I preferred) the Grass is Green 
I guess because I learned more from the second  that I did not previously know & one does discuss children but I know what cannabis does for children. Thank God.  If you don't, then watch both.

Why are people still being punished for cananbis use?
Studies - we need more studies - fuck studies - talk to others, open a history book - talk to rock stars & past presidents, there are many famous tokers of cananbis.
& then there is still ignoranc in the workplace & I thank  this guy for educating in Halifax: https://atlantic.ctvnews.ca/halifax-man-denied-job-because-of-cannabis-use-wants-others-to-be-aware-1.4428094    so, there you go Eh! WTF Canada- lets get the facts right- I think a company should be more concerned about drinking on the job - much more common - do they test for that? How about Opiates?
 I personally would not want to work for a narrow minded company anyhow.
On one chanel you can watch a documentary with babies medicating - on another you have a company not hiring - because a grown man had cannabis  LEGALLY in his system.
It all takes time I guess, I'm hopeful- we are this far-  after all! 

Weeee! 2 weeds for a long weekend - I've been gardening all day & am ready to pass out now..  so much gardening thanks to some guy names monty on netfilx.. lol - & the police open! wooot woot - or should I say Scruffy said Woof Woof!
 Time to imagine some relaxing fun.  ​Time to Go for a joy Ride!

Tomorrow is all about the Bees tho- being world BEE day.
& a I'm terribly disappointed in Georgia's decision - a statement painting that applies to both! Have a  lovely long weekend- I hope not to many fireworks are let off - if so please put ear protection in your babies ears!! Fireworks can cause everlasting damage to ones hearing.

With TLC & THC
Me! 

O000o Oooo just monkeying around for this mothers day!   It's a time for plants! What are you getting mom this year? How about her own potted cannabis planter for the patio? It's legal!    Imagine in a year or so you will see them at garden stores along with your petunias & hanging floral baskets!   We visited Leslie gardens today  -they have beautiful assortment of  healthy plants - it's looking very bee friendly out in the gazebo.

Have you watched the new doc on netflix Grass is Greener, it's well done & I learned a thing or two...  to still be arrested for  personal cannabis in the USA is absolutely shameful &  I completely understand the anger & frustration those incarcerated must feel watching all the white men in suits' now making millions.  
With education comes change.  

Happy Mothers day!
I still have animals on my mind as you can see..  I was obsessed with the little monkey in the warner brother cartoons  that wore a hat & played with the organ grinder.. who better for  my mothers day delivery.  

with TLC & THC
​Georgia

A wookie with a custom Storm Trooper bong - what couldbe more 'May the 4th'...
 be with you.   I can't tell you the last movie I watched - part of the series.. too much of  good thing after the 3rd..imo.

Have you watched Knock down the house? The new political Documentary on Netflix? I can see that woman as president one day, I wish she was already, she is an inspiration  & I am grateful she speaks up'.   We are also watching 'Dead To Me.' which is intriguing with it's twists & turns, it's refreshing to have stimulating content with strong women characters.

Canada needs more cananbis stores, they are  in  High demand.. especially since it's been a year & others have not witnessed increased reefer madness  & new education is on the horizon & with it a new mentality!  

Dough Ford is a disappointment- he appears instead to be turning Ontario into a bunch of  lushes & I was infuriated - you can NOW legally drink alcohol on the golf course at 9 .a.m.  - Don't forget if YOU are in an accident on the golf course - YOU will be charged as if impaired.  

I would like to add:  If you need to be drinking alcohol  on the golf course at 9.a.m., you have fucking drinking problem.  The same for many other places- now legal to serve with your pancakes - Cheers.. I wonder HOW many impaired offences will increase in the next 3 years...  I wonder how many more alcoholics all be 'born' with Doug at the helm & His 'buck a beer bonanza'...   It will do more physical & mental damage than REEFER madness actually did.

Enjoy the day & all it brings. 

With TLC & THC
​Georgia

 I lovingly refer to  (& I think he'd love this): 'Vincent VanGogh 2019'  hee hee.
I paint freestyle - by looking - to look is to get lost in Vincent Van Gogh, pure pleasure.  Some of you will think I've lost my mind - like Norm who recognized 'Starry Night but not the  Skeleton smoking  as both of Vincent's paintings.

Doing what he loved yet distracted, tired, sick, lonely, overwhelmed - sound familiar- Depression.  Apparently had his  Mental health issues  been addressed he would have been very successful & might've seen more than one painting sold. Addressed & not shunned - it can go two ways from what I understand - the 'not so nice way' is more people taking their own lives because they are taking medications that do not work - Depression is not a racist nor does it care about how much money you have.  If we keep shaming, an article I read stated people will just start to hide it better... until they show up at Sunday Mass with a grenade for  the cash basket. 

When we shame mental illness we are applying the same rules as prohibition - what a failure it has been.  If your face twitched 24/7 you would think about this stuff too. God's not playing anymore - pay attention ;)  "You are only as sick as your secrets" - a remark  I think  I heard on a Pod Cast- it must have been my favourite 'Hidden Brain',  every episode interesting.  Growing up 'My Moods'  were shamed, often...  a big secret, I get it - NOW- this is how some handle events but it's not healthy imo - the sooner we address unpleasant events & feelings  the sooner we can try to heal & move on, my mom had a terrible event happen to her at a fairly young age & was understandably depressed at the time - but now  many parent's  are both paying more attention to social media then their children.
The kids won't be pleased when they get older.
It's a fact - try to prove me wrong.

How many  generations started the same way as Vincent, myself, my mom was one of 6 kids & I never met any grandpa...  dealing with mental illness decades later, generations later.  Babies having babies, young parents having too many, too soon with obligations thrown at them pretty quickly - I've blogged when we were first married how we stole a case of baby food to get by...  By the Grace of God - it's why I was more than happy to accept donations  to food bank at Halloween. Yes, I speak from experience - marriage is difficult enough - wait to have your babies -be ready to welcome them with love.  
Instagram, face book, Selfies, Social media, socializing & recreational drugs YIKES! 
    MORE & MORE  babies are ending up  with a wire monkey mom.  & or dad.

Please, Wake the fuck up. Babies do not ask to be born - we humans are given the choice to procreate - carelessly - if we desire.  

People use to often remark when Storm was little:
"Let him cry!"  or ...     " You never put him down... "                      Amen. 
Please put down your phones & pick up your babies.
​
With TLC & THC
​Georgia

It's time - 'Spring Blossoms' & of course I'm thinking of Spring buds & Spring Buds!  I also watched 'Memoirs of Geisha, I can't say as I enjoyed it as much as I did the first time, visually a great movie but the story - all too the same.  Differnt women, differnt culture, same struggle.  This time it made me think it's another version of 'Pretty Woman'.  Life as a porstiture - is rarely happily ever after.  Far from it.  To think I raved about that movie the first time I saw it back in 1990 '28' years ago & now what I think are two very different opinions. 

Age, wisdom.. time changes you and your opinion on much if you allow it... and you may as well anyhow because it's happening  - like it or not. Thank God or it would be brutal if we all got stuck at 15.  Not to say there are not some very impressive, incredibly intelligent & craazy creative 15 year olds out there - even younger - you realize it when you hear 'them speaking about climate change' & still hopeful we can do something about it.  That Walrus special on Netflix.. I watched it and it was - really heartbreaking awakening, I turned away...  to see these animals struggle & then perish as they do.   Talk about climate change denial, you won't after watching that - So, if for that reason alone - Please do.  Do not pretend you do not see or do not know, afterall it's the least we can do - acknowledge our...  I can't think of one word to describe what we do to this planest on a daily basics..   I guess It would be: Rape. 

Nothing can be done to help the walrus, I am not in denial - I can paint them to show my appreciation  and hope it helps me & others take a little more care to prevent/slow down future animal inhalation.  Plastic bags really need to go - the garbage Walmart hands out here 'rips so easily you can't even use them twice - why are we allowing this, so it won't intefer with shopping?
Different quality from the bags in the USA.  Check & see, I noticed when in California.
Goodbye walrus,  sorry we are such consuming beasts.' 

The buds are beautiful..   they remind me of new life.  You stare at those ice covered branches only a few weeks ago & think - how do they survive this, are they dead?
They do survive.  Geisha are beautiful - the word means 'Artist - I guess in a way - I am a Geisha - lol  in essesnce,  are all women  not Geisha? What are these titles...   Geisha, Prostiture, street worker, whore, slut, bitch...  I have no problem with those words I know it's only a matter of ones opinions';  it's 'Pimp  & sex trafficking' that bother me.  I read about a young very intelligent woman in college  who thought she was being romanced and  was force & beaten into having sex with strangers for money only weeks later - humiliated, exhausted, she did not want to tell anyone.    Frig, another young woman  got into a car she thought was her Uber because she was not paying attention - too busy on her phone & was never seen again.  & Social media-  is harming YOUNG women in particular, if I was a parent I'd take away the phone between set hours because: I love her.
But I get it...   I am not you & currently living with a teenage girl.  What will you do?
Priorities.  I think they need re defining, on a global scale.    
Global warming it's real.

Next - a Truibute to Walt Disney, Dumbo & Depression.

With TLC & THC
​G

Ladies,  about Dirty John... print this card & put it on your fridge as a reminder of what we really need in our lives.  * I've included the downloadable image on the bottom.
What a dirty EVIL nasty parasite, who wants to believe they exist - not me.  They do.
Over 50 - I have several friends who are dating/single and after watching dirty John..
most are getting a new dog or cat  & vibrator - do you wonder why?

I speak from my own online experience this past year that left me stressed, sick, having nightmares & more. I was emailed nude photos, intentionally lied to and mislead for over a year, received phone calls & yes it was the same in many ways- he would say things like: "Why talk about that when I have a sweet little Canadian like you to talk to.."  those where his exact words.  I do remember because I've been married a long time and not heard words like that for a while,  he  was charming, attentive, flattering yet he was telling people at his Greenhouse in  New Mexico  "I was some crazy Canadian Stalker"  who was hideous & he'd never be seen with someone "that looks like THAT.."  as he showed a photo of me off of instagram to his 'lover'.  I have it all in e mail, heard it in person from her & so did others...  direct from the woman he was/is involved with at the time. He once sent an email (I still have it): "Quick, whats the closest airport to you? I'll come & visit" while in transit... I later sent him an email "you had no intentions of visiting, you're just playing mind games - fuck off"...  I  have several e mail where I ask him to stop fucking with me, to stop communicating with me..  he did not instead he played on my emotions and told me how lonely he was,  how sick he was & even sent me a photo of his fathers grave - because  HE understood - I AM a nice, caring person!   

I AM done feeling ashamed about it & I have been.  & let's not forget I'd just had brain surgery (unsuccessful) & HE fucking KNEW it.  His lover said he was stalking' me via my website long before he contacted me - under the premise to purchase art, which he told his staff I had gifted him after watching him on a 'Vice Special'...  phhhhbt.  The special he must have sent me at least 6 messages about, he was so full of himself.   
People did not believe me  when I first  told them what happened  because of  'who' he is'.  
 Pay attention to the news-  it does not matter "WHO" anyone is. 

            THEY ARE ALL capable of being Dirty Fucking Johns.  
                         Comedians, Presidents, Billionaires & Beggars
                               Ladies: BEWARE the DIRTY JOHN.

I do warn my women friends... I won't repeat ALL I was told  - I don't need to because they know - for me to say :'stay away'- STAY AWAY.  He shares naked photos - "of stupid women who send him naked photos in hopes of snagging a millionaire" (her words) with his employees - she told me of a few she's seen. I don't know what's -what - but I do know how I was treated, lied to & have more than enough email (from both) to prove it.  FUCK him - I did nothing wrong but think someone was actually being nice & trusted the nasty American- that's how I feel, sorry.  Even my friend remarked, after speaking to him on the phone (more framed work)  "He's sounds like just another American fucking with a Canadian."  
​I'd never forgive myself if anyone I knew also fell prey to this predator.  
In hindsight I thank my psoriasis & twitch too...  had my confidence been better -  I might have met the SNAKE IN THE GRASS industry. 

Thank you Jesus for your continued protection and reminding me that you know better than I do.  Thankfully for the woman, who I am still  concerned about, it is an abusive situation imo  that she is still in  - I've had nightmares about her...   I might have had a worse situation than I did & thank God, I'm not one for sending naked photos. Did you see how Dirty John sent that naked photos she sent him to her employees? Family & friends.... because that's what nasty fuckers do.
 
YOU can't believe anything anymore - what you see on profiles social media or even after speaking to them..  TAKE your time & get to KNOW them before YOU get involved.  After my lesson - sadly, I've lost trust - I've no interest in meeting anyone ever - this asshole has even frightened me from possible online friendships...  I got my dogs!  Cats &...   :) .

In most cases that daughter in Dirty John would have been dead or she would have been beaten or abused.  I have no desire to date ever again - me wanting away from Norm has never been about that' - but i'd be a liar if I didn't say that loving attention sounded & felt nice.  So, who am I to judge anyone woman who keeps going back to a lying abuser - I get it ladies & I support you. I support her... still.

Several friends (my age & up) this past week told me  "Forget it- who needs it... I'm getting another cat"  this was a card I drew for a girlfriend just incase she is tempted by some Dirty John on  a online dating site.   I'm not saying nice guys/gals don't exist - take your time!
IF they are nice & true & interested in you - they will wait.. you'll know.
Listen to your gut.  Watch for signs, we have all said the same thing... we are very grateful she shared her story and that of her family.  
If you are being abused I hope you can escape your situation.

I'm grateful after watching 'Dirty John', I just have a...  pain in the neck Norm.  lol 
I would like to end by educating you on Sam Fazio - & telling her:
Thank you!  You are a WARRIOR!!  I believe you.   
I am sorry you have to live in a country where WE ARE ALLOWING THIS  behaviour to thrive & that  judge needs to RETIRE!  WTF!?  
Do they not have children? Daughters.
FUCK the judicial system that continue to let this happen.

With TLC & THC
​Georgia 

My bottle of Kracken next- my drunken Octopus.