It's a holiday & I was considering taking a break.. then realized- that's part of the porblem.  No one wants to hear this shit on a holiday, take a break...  Does abuse take a break?
Fuck no - it's escalated on holidays, so Cheers!.

I was taught to hate holidays. I still do.. or rather I hate the usual celebration that accompanies them - Excessive Alcohol consumption. Time to get 'shitfaced' - it's a holiday tomorrow...  Good day for a hangover.  That's how we think  (how I use to think).. too many do, still.  I struggle with most "celebrations", I usually just act like it's just another day- because in reality, it is.

At 18 I was given a raise, my first real job 'Talent Showcase' (hiring extras for music videos and movies being shot in Toronto & area) I was thrilled! & it was a good raise!! My then boyfriend, Adraino was taking me out for dinner and dancing & to celebrate! I just wanted to run up (I lived in an apartment) & change..  change I did.

I went straight to my room, got on my favorite current dress a raw silk, black & white, simple yet classy & great to dance in... on the way out  I was asked   "where are YOU going?"
I didn'nt speak much as my mother was usually drininking and I didn't want to set her off- not that it took much on my part.  
​I relpied excited (because I was):   "I got a raise & Draino is taking me out to celebrate!"
My mothers response...    " A raise?!  How does your bosses cock taste?"    
Yep.   No, I do to forget it, those words.   Because, you know - I could not have possibly been good enough at my job to deserve a raise.. clearly, I had to be fucking him in her mind (I was NOT HER though - I did not suck my bosses cock or fuck him - ever) I told her to "fuck off" and proceeded to leave.. Nope.  
I was tackled, punched until I cowered on the floor, hair pulled, make up slapped off my face.   Called the usual array of names: cunt, slut, fucking whore..   My stepdad sat & watched (inebriated as well)  he TOO, knew better than to intervene with her intoxicated hatred towards me.  I was beat repeatedly until Draino opened the door, he came looking for me wondering why I was taking so long, (thankfully) and yanked that bitch off of me and held a fist to her face & said  "If you ever touch her again I'll punch you in the fucking face because she won't"  and pulled me out of my apartment.
He was never allowed to visit again.  I was humiliated, we broke up soon after.  
She remembered what he said but not what she did & SHE NEVER EVER said SORRY.
All I ever got was "...I don't remember I was drunk."  
FUCKING LIES Drunks tell us & themselves.

We did not go out dancing, my dress was torn and my spirit defeated.. again. I was use to it. I was harder because Draino saw it.   I was ashamed when my friends saw me getting beat up - as IF I had actually done something wrong.  The look of shock on their face - overtime was hard for me to see.  That's what happens when you are beaten as a toddler. You are taught to be ashamed.. I must be bad if my mom is hitting me again.
That's how it was was with every celebration in my life..  EVERY thing she could - she added misery to.  She was miserable ALWAYS,  I was going to be too.  So, why not share on this holiday MONDAY...  abuse will be higher today & that is a fact, whether you choose to ignore it or not.  If you see someone & you think "they should be celebrating",  back off - perhaps  they do not have as much to celebrate as you 'think'..
​I use to get 'that too   ..."why aren't you happy??"   Buzzkill..    yep, quite often my buss was killed - but not by me.

The day I got accepted into school/college (you know how exciting that is!) was the same thing...  I went to school in tears because I had got accepted & she said  'I wasn't going.. she wasn't going to pay for me to go & draw'.  My teacher (Mrs Lockhart) helped me with paper work and I received a grant & loan.  I  never got any encouragement from her EVER, not once did she ask me what I was doing in college EVER.. I only lasted a year.  
​I wondered if I had gotten just a bit of encouragement,  if I would have stuck it out.  Oh well. 

So, if you are an adult & celebrating with alcohol On this Holiday - try not to over indulge - not if your going to become abusive and give your children holiday memories they'll never forget. Or do- the choice is yours... if your children hate you when you are older- remember- the CHOICE WAS yours.   It's still difficult for me to "celebrate" anything.. I have a fear in me that sooner or later something or someone will say something negative...   beat it into me, still. 

I will celebrate this glorious day- by painting, checking on the animals and just enjoying the moment. Grateful to e HERE NOW.  Painting Iridescent Eve in the garden... next.

with TLC & THC 
​Next week,  how everyone KNEW I was going to be an artist- yay!  lol 

I woke on Sunday and noticed a car at the gate, I called to Norm - Go see who's at the gate this early!!  Apparently our son decided to visit (arriving late) and was sleeping in the porch!  First I can't believe how tired I was - the dogs were barking - I assumed it was the weekly nightly bisit from a racoon, bear - soemthing that set the dogs off & I ignored it & went back to sleep.  How nice to find out I was mistaken! YAY!! 

The last time Storm was up we were  digging holes to start the coop!  This time he was meeting the extended family' - lol Chickens and goats!  That was fun!  Goats have a strong sence of smell- they smell everythng I offer before nibbling and often turn their nose up - if not pleased.. I think they can smell 'Storm is family' because they instantly  took to him, let him pat them and were curious about him.  Goats are social yet skittish and althogh we can pat them, we've not been able to pick them up & you need to - to cut nails, care for them properly if hurt.. Storm made it look easy.  The chase funny,  once he had them they rested in his arms & didnt even put up a fuss, it was really amusing!
Just like the chickens when you pick them up - they just  sit there.  It went really well & I have some fun photos - I've already started the next of Storm & Sativa on a wodden panel.

We went for a family HIKE! The girls LOVED IT, us too.  It was a personal foray dream, the trails hardly disturbed & literally covered with mushrooms, you could not walk 3 feet without seeing one.  I couldn't even take photos of all the mushrooms or it would have taken forever..
The mosquitos! OH MY - nasty little bloodsuckers,they LOVE me. If I stopped they attacked.  Other than that is was a great hike, the dogs all dog tired, us too.
Rhubarb is the closest restaurant to us - we decided to have take-out & it too was fantastic! 
What a perfect way to end Sunday & visit.   Storm had to head back that night -  it was a short but  fun filled adventure.  

Storm also treated me to a lovely lunch at Boshkong brewery & restaurant in Minden & we and caught up on a few things.  Mom stuff, mostly.  I am grateful he is so busy during these times, he is too.  What a wonderful surprise visit.  Time to paint- what a beautiful day in the highlands.

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Welcome  . Be here Now  .  Teach Only Love, that is what WE are. 
3 important messages I want to share... painted NOW on my welcoming gate post  totem.
This sign is as much for me as it is for all who enter.  More meaning for me of course.. we all need reminding from time to time. 

First I added the chicken, Ive been telling friends to come get excess eggs and now they know where - behind the chicken.  Laid Daily...  lol   eggs.  Seeing the chicken in the forrest made me giggle.. even with few(er) trees behind it. 

The top is a cannabis leaf crown with a Bee.. with out the bees - we are finished.. Be kind. 
Welcome : if you are here and coming in - you must have been invited - so WELCOME!
The sacred heart crown on a fox with a big smile - pointing up to remind me of a Higher purpose & the hand symbol for I Love you.   Any Eye of God flower crown- protecting our home & property, on a bear spirit holding the beehive  also remind us BE here NOW.  Enjoy all Gods glory surrounding us. & above all else a reminder - mostly to myself Teach only Love, that is what we are.

I don't alwasy teach love. Do you? I am human.. I do eventually. I've thought much about my gate this past week and trees & I've come to the conclusion to Let it go and give it to God because it's more improtant in this case to be peaceful than right.  Covid has played a part too- a thousand people are daying a day.. ;(  The saddness must be mounting.  Many are effected by covid & don't even know it. I don't mean physical symptoms.

I feel safe here in our tiny oasis, blessed to be here...  and have never ever liked seeing any trees cut down (that are not dead) ever.  I was pondering my neighbour who does have a business & no doubts a little more stressed perhaps than we are... because my first impression of him (last summer) was good.  I forced myself to remember this. So I wanted to teach ONLY love - because that is what i am.  Practice what I preach - I had to wait a few days to make sure the card was drawn with love. It was.
 I painted him a card & will deliver it. 

I'll let it go and leave it with God.  It was the kids that  helped me- kids I've never met but was hoping to  actually have some painting classes with - covid interfered before I could ask.  I did hint tho, lol  & above all else - it is important to "me," that any kids living close know- if they ever need help - they can count on us as neighbours to help as best as we can.  
I SEE covid making people NOT so neighbourly. Causing some of us (all of us at one time or another) to "snap" and perhaps say and behave how we don't normally.   What is the point over staying angry?  It only adds to ones own stress.  I'd rather watch dragonflies and paint.
 
with TLC & THC
Me.

I spent the greater part of yesterday staring at my now,  open driveway.  Wondering what makes some so fucking nasty.  Clearly, after several messages and even a couple of calls - I was made aware my neighbour has a reputation for being a bully.   Fine by me & thank you Lord..  it makes is all the more understandable for others to witness his actions yesterday as what they were - BULLSHIT. We have someone coming to survey the property, if he has infringed on his rights, he will be contacted & asked to plant new plants. If he is legally correct- so be it- lesson learned - don'tt trust this neighbour, know your rights and continue make others aware of any abuse or bulling in the future.  It's that simple.   What I won't do is stress about him- he is bringing enough karma on himself if this is his normal behaviour, & has noone to blame but himself.

I can't- yesterday was brutal again, TN wise , nausea & even my gums bled- holy if stress doesnt walk up and say 'PAY FUCKING ATTENTION!'  So I did.  
I made a psilocybin tea and went to sit in the ZEN HEN DEN with chickens and goats. There, I relaxed, sat..  prayed & was in the NOW, soon I found myself giggling at goats.
I gave them a old cushion from a lounge chair and they thought I gave them a learther sofa! They faught over it & Indica claimed it as his own. He rolled and lay on it for hours..  I didn't have my camera (in the now) but I took some photos once inside from the dining room.  Grateful for my goats helping me forget about the ass.

I also had something very funny (imo) I was staring at the driveway and asked God for help, to fogive this guy quickly! I won't live in this Eden with hatred in my heart for anyone  (why I don't read about TRUMP - try not to).. and I swear, as I thought that - I watched 5 turkeys walk up to the end of my driveway and read the sign!  I laughed out loud and got them on my ipad ( althought very grainy) to show Norm.  They turkeys on the other side of the gate stood the 3rd bar tall!  They were letting me know they are happy to have me as a new neighbour - as I am them.  I don't understand why some are so inconsiderate and nasty.. or perhaps I do.  Aren't most bullies - bullied as kids? Hmmmmm.  
I certianally did not have it easy as a child, its no excuse to be mean to others. 
I did learn a valuable lesson&  glad I was calm & wise enough to walk back & get my camera. 
Enough said.

Anyhow I have forgiven - but not forgotten.  His actions have made me & others aware of who he is.  I know who I am too.. A child of God.  I was sent several messages - overwhelmed with the positive impact we apparently  have made with several. Thank you.  
I do have friends in high places, lol...  when I say this - I  mean Jesus' (Makes me smile :))   I was reminded I really do have 'several friends' in high places,  who offered assistance, made suggestions  &  shared guidance on how to proceed further...  that's what makes me stronger.   Thank you.  It was also a moment where I was grateful for my mother & the strength I have to stand up to bullies.. I giggled- thinking-    Intimidate me?
You don't know my mama.   Everything  makes us stronger & better - if we choose to let it.

Today is a new day! I started a new Monkey - we've got gardening to do and Eden to enjoy & Goats to paint!

With TLC & THC
​Georgia 

Yesterday, I met the neighbours - officially.  
I heard this crazy commotion and walked to the end of the drive way to see MANY trees being cut down at the end of our driveway.. HEALTHY TREES. You all know how I feel about my beautiful driveway - I've shared countless photos, when I walked up I saw many young maples and EVERYTHING else had been removed I was in SHOCK!  & it was FAST AND furious- he had an entire team - it was cleared away in about 20 minutes. I walked back to get my camera- and back up! Some old man, (worker) before I could even say anything - said OUT LOUD ( for me to hear) :
You think she'd be happy about the road being cleared!  
Wow- that told me, they knew I would be upset- Fucking 'sneaky' is what it was.  

I asked the Neighbour - WHAT ARE YOU DOING!?? 
He immediately started yelling  (& he is a VERY big boy - over 6 feet easily, meant -NO DOUBTS, to intimadate)  "I OWN this road!!! I don't have to tell you anything!"  I've got it on video.   I asked him why he was going onto our property and cutting all the trees
 "I OWN IT!!"  & THEN, GET THIS: He actually threatened to SUE US for cutting down that GIANT dangerous tree (I filmed it in slow motions - remember?)  that was on the end of our driveway- what a fucking JOKE!  Clearly that tree had been there for years and he NEVER CARED THEN ABOUT THE ROAD! He also saw us cutting it down and never said one word- suddenly, now  he's going to sue us??  He is no more than an ADULT bully.  

I also met the other neighbour - for the first time.. she stopped to give me her
"unbiased opinion",  of course siding with the bully, watching him yell at me & threaten to sue over the DEAD tree we removed.  How lovely of her to finally  stop - especially, since I've been here ONE YEAR, saw her pass countless times and NOT ONCE did she even roll down her window to wave 'hello'.   NICE Neighbours.  So welcoming..
I'll stick to the wolves & bears - at least I know how dangerous they can be.

So, yes.. this morning I walked up and left them a note- which they have seen. 
Thanking them for the lesson - clearly they have no clue/care of the meaning of neighbourly.  He could not even take 5 minutes to tell me what he was doing or why - BECAUSE HE KNEW HE what he was doing WAS SNEAKY!
BULLY who  "OWNS THE ROAD!!!"

The fact that he plays his music through loud speakers (everyone who visits comments) shows his LACK of disregard for anyone in the area- including his own children's hearing.  No doubt the noise decibel is causing serious hearing loss to those in close proximity  (including employees), forced to listen.  I know about hearing loss in children.

Below are photos of his destruction - so concerned for the road but happened to leave the garbage on our property and the dead tree across the road. He only had intention to clean in front of our place & open it right up.  Just a NOSY neighbour bully, I hope he gets his  fill - since he's so curious. I'll make sure I sun my buns in HIS direction.  The last photo is how I spent the rest of my day - in FUCKING PAIN, my eye would not even open, in bed by 7. 
MAKING ME STRONGER!!!  Intimade me??!
BIG BULLY - he has no clue of how fucking STRONG I AM!  
OR how strong my faith is. 

Yes, we are having the property surveyed.  
The DAMAGE IS DONE - It will take YEARS for the trees to grow back - if at all.  
​Ignorance at it's finest.
I have friends in high places, I'll rise above.. because, I would never want to behave as LOW.

With TLC & THC
Georgia

Introducing Indica & Sativa. 
Indica is a brown male born in March 2020 - close my my birthday & Sativa was born in April 2020 - she is female. They are the cutest pair - exploring the pen together.  Curiously watching us - as we do them.  Yep - I wake up to Foghorn & can't believe it - dreams come true!

Norm and I both laughing - who knew we'd be chasing chickens & loving every moment. 
This pen & coop are lessons taught NOW, to us by the chickens & goats themselves.  Oh, yes... we also added 3 more Leghorn chickens!! This traditional looking chicken is amusing and has already provided us with eggs, hee hee- hiding behind a tree.  So much for the nesting boxes.  This first egg will be used for medicated carrot cake upcakes.  ;) .  I had read about introducing new chickens /animals can be stressful - NOPE. Other than getting the goats out of the vehicle all has been beautifully calm - the pen is big enough I guess - a bit of chicken chasing each other but that's it. 

Today, we had our coffee watching our goats and had to force ourselves away. Norms still adding touches here and there. Soon, I'll give you a coop & pen tour.  We have named al the birds, they are: Gloria! (our black beauty), Foghorn (rooster), Henny & Penny (Forghorns peeps), Elenor, Grace & Honey.  The sketchbook is in the pen & the canvas preped. Yep, your about to see a few chicken & goat paintings.

I met a nice man @ the feed store who started to share a few of his animal photos - I was impressed  & asked him to send me a few photos, which he happily has! Deer, chickadee & more - animals galore...  What are you dreaming about? Do not give up.. keep seeing it - & make it happen.

I'm staying home with our new family..  I'm tired of going out and waiting in line for a few measly things we might need. The line up for the beerstore was something & we were told it started an hour before it even opened.  Yesterday, a hardware store in Haliburton 'TRIED to tell me' - "only one person permitted to enter per vehicle" - WTF?  I informed  him - that would not work- we were BOTH goinjg in. I held up my hands (obvous visual to my arthritis) and informend  - I can't even lift some items of shelves (I can't) fuck that..  needless to say, he took me seriously and we were both permitted to enter.  COME ON.
I am not enjoying the pressure, lack of masks... How come we have to wear them, but employees in these locations are not?  It's messed up - are they immune from infecting those wearing masks?  Isn't the idea - we all wear masks so we don't make others sick. hmmmm.  Nope, you won't see me aroudn town - Im done - for a bit anyhow. happy to stay hoem on the tiny farm. Norm just brought in two more eggs (with a huge smile) & you would have thought he discovered golden nugets- hahaha.

Have a lovely weekend- today I'm painting something about animals to bless our farm.
Grateful for all the many blessings in our pen.

with TLC & THC
​Georgia

We had a visit yesterday from the former owner of our house!  From a distance..  
We met the first time as I seeing the house for the first time ( it was spontanious) and she happened to be home.  I stepped out of our vehicle - never even went inside the house, before I said to Norm:                 This is it.  I knew.
 I told her that day - I'm buying this house & love it and I will love it like you did.  She held my hand and said "o.k.",   I knew that moment she & I were soul sisters.   Nevermind the inside of the house - many would guess it was already mine after a quick glance, even the paint colors were the same as my old home.  Adorned with masks, rocks, shells - I felt at home already.  

It's almost been a year, one the best years of my life! Deni shared some history of the house and I was not shocked to find out this IS a special place,  built right on  the Canadian shield... (on a slant so we never have to worry about flooding) - it's really well thought out- I just love this house & property.   Deni smoke cannabis too & had a sweet little tin with her joints- the same tin I've had for about 2 decades.  We agree with many things & seem to both be caring & concerned about the goings on of the world...  I feel like we've already been friends for years.   Soul sisters.   She accepted our first offer & my insisting 'I wanted to be in A.S.A.P & WAS - LOL   The house was sold and I was here  in a month (and a bit ) later,  she admitted it was so fast - it was good, she did not have time 'to think' - come to think of it- neither did I,  I had packing to do.  All history now.  
​So, I bought a new home and made a new friend.  Blessed Bonus!

I'm such a believer that God brings everyone into my life for a reason - I'm so glad I met Deni & our new home. Thank you Tom*  more on him, soon.  Norm is happy too.  Go figure... a little tired at times, as weve also accompished a lot in a year. Deni remarked the love we are already putting into our new home is obvious.  Yes it is.  It's so easy to wake up each morning (easier now with Foghorn! lol)  & give thanks to God for another day in this beautiful spot we call home.  I look forward to each days adventure,  it sure it an adventure.

The COOP is COMPLETE & just in time...   my tiny family has grown some more.
I'll show you the ladies tomorrow &  Sativa & indica (hee hee)...  but here are the gifts from today in the image below. YAY!!!    

With TLC & THC 
Georgia

The coop is coming along nicely! Will it be ready for my ladies this weekend? Here hoping! The fence is a bit of an ordeal... do it right - we don't want any chickens escaping.  Above my newest painting for beside the chicken entrance/exit... hee hee. No rotten eggs here!

This canvas once sketched, flew off the easel and ended up with a hole in it.  I simply placed masking take over the back and painted away.. you can't notice from the front. it was more of a lesson for me & painting repair.   I was pleased with the final results.  I did not put much effort into the painting due to the tear.   This little chipper sits here all the time and he makes me smile - it will become art for the coop & finally... 
​Put  a BELL on your WILD PUSSIES!  Please.

My pal Russ calls me about this issue at least once a month & he is correct (again).
 Do you know cats are one of Canadas most invasive species  & are responsible for extinction of several species...  Put a Bell on your wild pussies!!!
Read this article in Macleans.   Remember I am a cat lover, I've always had at least 2 cats for as long as I remember - NO MORE.  ​  I am a bird admirer NOW.. and they are declining for too many reasons,  NOT just cats - but cats are the worst for the bird population, humans 2nd.  I'm painting a few kitties all with the same message, want to win one of the originals - follow my IG and I'll share how. 
The above is going to Russ to give to someone or keep or whatever.
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Time to get cracking!!  I'm boycotting eggs until I have chickens to lay them!
​Norm likes eggs so.. he's busy building.
Next Good eggs & bad eggs.  ;) 
with TLC & THC
Me

America is in flames and some are actually shocked.

 The past few years we've ALL watched a POS POTUS destroy America!!
George Floyd was NOT the first black man I watched die with a cops knee on his neck down there!  Bitches in parks calling cops -  screaming WOLF!  Rednecks in Georgia, driving pick ups, shooting joggers - it's like a fucking SPORT!     What the fuck!!?? 

Enough is Enough! WATCH the George Floyd video- tell me that would have happened to a white man!  I'm crying because I just watched a SNUFF film thanks to the AMERICAN POLICE FORCE!  I'm going to sue for mental stress!  & some don't  understand rioting?
                               IT's STUFF.. NOT a LIFE.  Give me a fucking break.  
​
I'm speaking up.. breaking my own peace  - because it's IMPORTANT!!!  
WAKE the FUCK up.    THE time is Now...   and it's LONG over due. 

     NOTE: EVERYONE it's not a deadly pandemic killing 100's of thousands... it's TRUMP.
                                     &   it IS George Floyd, who has PROVEN to us:
                              WE ARE 'ALL' IN THIS TOGETHER!

TRUMP is the fuel to the fire.  He doesn't give ONE fuck about anything but his own family and MONEY.      TRUMP is responsible for mass murder in America.  NOW.
VOTE? PUT this POS where he belongs... in jail.
Before he completely destroys America by:
                 
                                                Making it GREAT Again...
                          by threatening Americans with dogs & snipers.
                                                               ...wow.

                         Forgive them Father, for they know not what they do.

​With love
Georgia

Edible Mushrooms!  Covid has taught me to become more self sufficiant.. especially after a trip to the grocory store and noticing a lack' of certain items & noticing what I MISSED when I could not  run out for a few things.  I missed fresh mushrooms - we eat them often.
Lately, I feel so blessed it almost confuses me.  I think I'll go search for a trillium and there it was - off the driveway.  

I mentioned to Norm 'I want to find some edible mushrooms' - walked again, down my driveway and spied all these new mushrooms that had appeared, encouraged by 2 days of rain - I sent Storm a photo (former Foray director for the MST)  he replied:
Dryad's Saddle- Edible
OH MY! A basket full- right off my driveway!
Not 10 minutes later, sizzling in a pan with butter & were absolutely delicious! 
Google Dryad's Saddle - or Pheasant Back Mushroom on how to find, prepare & save for later, dried.  Now is the time to go looking!  The youtube I watched suggested the tastiest are no bigger than the palm of you hand - yes, tasty they are.
Food- provided by nature.  Amen.
I also put another intention out to the universe recently &  that DREAM too is coming true! It's a big deal (to me) - so I'll save it for another day!

It's a difficult time to feel blessed...  covid, death, cancelations & NOW images from the USA  are difficult to see &  KNOW, what they are dealing with - I GET it!  
When is it going to stop? IF this is what it takes - this is what it takes.
I get it and agree with the protesters... clearly, NO one is doing anything about black people being killed for NO REASON. George Floyd was murdered - tortured in front of many in broad daylight on the street- by police.  The two rednecks in Georgia- that killed the jogger 

Perhaps 'an eye for an eye'...    will be the only way people will start to SEE.

Tying to figure out how to address  feeling  anger & frustration & feeling blessed at the same time...  The solution for me is to try to paint,  paint and go out in my beautiful backyard to witness all Gods blessings & pray for better days.  
​Prayer changes things- believe it or not.

Good luck if your going to go out & hunt for some Dryad's Saddle, mines going in an omelette next!  I'm also slicing and drying for a later date. 
I'm making these mushroom art finds' & including maps on the back so next year I'll know where to look .. lol
 I don't think I'll forget that these grow right off my driveway.   Blessed.

With TLC & THC
​me