This view tho...  My studio is tiny and I'm constantly changing it to make is as 'fucntional' as possible.. if I ever feel cramped or frustraited  I Look up & Look out. Wow.    
Especially right now,  all the rain we've had - how glorious & green is the garden! 

Norms busy on the roof- getting ready to put in our RED fireplace - I'm very excited, and the past few mornings have been chilly - wee.  
Canada has approved Psilocybin research for 4 Canadians - cancer patients  AMEN! ABOUT time - hurry up with the red tape and help more Canadians access this medicine - proven to assist with anxiety and depression.  Here is the thing.. may ARE accessing it - NOW - illegally, because they know  the potential and to put anyone in jail for this' - is a cannabis all over again. Read: How to change your Mind, watch the countless documentaries on Psilocybin & Micro dosing, Educate yourself on the topic - KNOW - don't judge.  
Books too...  around for decades.  The time is NOW.

I attribute Psilocybin to finally helping me  DEAL with he past instead f shoving it aside..  a life of depression  which I understand NOW (completely out of my control) until older & wiser & learning how to acknowledge, embrace & accept my past is what is helping me heal. 
Like it or not- I don't care.. don't read it.  NOT just that BUT 2 really caring, helpful doctors who have always taken he time to listen and acknowledge & help..  the psilocybin were the  finally push - I needed.  Mushrooms have taught me I am LOVED.  Ha.  Go figure.

It was indeed a evening with Psilocybin when I drew  'my past' - on paper for my own eyes to see so - I could NO LONGER deny.  
Mushrooms made me step back and acknowledge:
 Hold On!
What the fuck!??
That's enough.
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You are a child of god.. created to create!
Amen.

We watched a documentary on Netflix on Transgender titled: Disclosure.  it was very interesting and a few things 'clicked' especially the part about Bugs bunny- Yes! I get that!  I was & AM still (obviously) inspired by Bugs - No doubts loony toons influenced my growing up to some degree & I relate to Bugs most. I think, I'm nice like BugsBunny (& creative) but don't piss me off or you might hear:  Of course you know.. this means war.        lol

Bugs was a POSITIVE role model for many kids growing up and why should transgender be any different. Bugs would dress & behave as a woman with class, grace, beauty & intelligence. Teaching kids from as young as 5 - 17 , I noticed several times.. this child is different, gay.  I never thought anything else of it, nothing negative - ever. It was obvious to me anyhow, thinking back- I bet it was obvious to the parents too, perhaps they were in denial.  Who cares?  Not me. I do not care about your sexual preference, if you choose to change your appearance - to best suit you.. -AMAZING!  We are created to create- EACH one of us - SHINW- anyway you know how.  Children taught me being gay, homosexual, transgender - was not an option but a way of life for them. Naturally.

As long as a human is not harming another- what business is if ours - how we present ourselves to the world. We have one simple task- choose Joy! Express Joy...  I've come to realize it is an absolute sin to not give thanks for each new day, no matter the situation.  Yesterday was Canada day, it too now comes with past history issues (I need to research further), NOW - in the moment- it represents to me - reminds me - I love the country I live in.  Canada is beautiful & we teach constantly - all can live together- Toronto is the melting pot of the world. That is something to be VERY proud about Canada.  
If you have fears about transgender ( it's the only reason I can think of anyone hating a transgender person) - it's more about confusion.   Watch the documentary.

When it comes to children I do not encourage  'directing' them any way. Honestly I wish they did not see as much as they do on television because I do believe it adds to confusion. All they should be encouraged to do - is create, 'shine' & be nice tiny humans..
Encourage letting them discover for themselves the direction they will go with their own bodies - & loving them & supporting them with the difficult (in many cases) decision.  Lord knows, we all face enough anguish from strangers who do NOT know us but continue to judge us for many reasons.  Anything that makes us want to be better humans should be embraced. 

with TLC & THC
Georgia 

Ginger thinks she's a chicken.

Mushrooms - Psilocybin are also called: The Golden teachers..  I get it.
What they teach us is a valuable lesson worth more than gold.. they ease suffering.
If you allow them. I only had the one negative experience and I no longer consider it negative.  This week my body told me to microdose... I listened.
During this Covid my psorisis has flared, it's my for sure sign even tho I don't 'think' I'm overly stressed - I'm stressed. It would be unnatural right now if anyone said they've felt no stress the past few months. 

What do Psilocybin teach me?
Every single time: I AM LOVED. I AM enough. Be good to me.
I also FEEL' closest to God - just like when you are at peace in the garden or resting under a tree surrounded by nature and life and love.  Black fly love us- hahaha
Not a human, not books, not PILLS, not food..  a tiny litle mushroom has helped.
Go figure! Who knew!?   God.

God and many others knew - Scientists KNEW in the 50' & 60's. Thank GOD that psilocybin mushrooms are being seen AGAIN for what they are - healing medicine.
I am exceedingly grateful to & for them - nothing has ever helped as much as they have. Believe me or don't I don't care -it's your choice all I can do is share my experiences and you can ponder yourself as to what to do. I can't make you, nor do I want to- It's NO careless buzz'.   When the student is ready the teacher will appear.  
Golden Teacher - thank you.
I am loved.  
They have ALSO allowed me to forgive and constantly encourage: BE here now.

Yesterday was marvelous! We explored our backyard! Holy- I'm so happy to be here. hee hee.  We found our first mushroom of the season, new birds & my new obsession - Mossballs. haha I don't know what Im making but I LOVE moss balls- I just wanna squish them.. Tiny eco systems. I've never been more isolated and more happy in my life...  with the exception of missing my son.
Soon, soon It will be over- or at least nice enough we can have an outdoor visit & picnic!
Honestly, I really don't think we'll see anthing close to Normal again - until 2023.  
I feel from what I've read, it will come back in the fall and am being cautious this summer. 
I hope you do too! 

Want to learn more about the Stoned ape theory - read:
www.goodreads.com/book/show/51660.Food_of_the_Gods
Food of The Gods: Terence McKenna  - food for the brain! 

Have you watched Midnight Gospel on Netflix- WOW.  
Best animated show on television NOW.  Episode 8, had me in tears - you were warned.
Netflix also has a movie/doc. about psilocybin  with a bunch of comedians...
​ 'Have a nice trip' check it out.
I'm pleased they did not make it a "joke".

With TLC & THC & Psilocybin  
​Georgia 

What would Jesus do? 
He'd stay the fuck home!
Perhaps not, but he'd wear a mask and wash his hands because he would not want to spread the virus - killing many. Unlike the "faithful' that attended mass services in the USA..   wow. It should be interesting to 'see' how many who attended the service, infect others or die, according to police - we will.   I was not in a good mood for Easter, I'm sure I was not alone. 
We did nothing special.. we'll wait until we can celebrate with Storm again.  Norm did cook a chicken & I understand NOW I must write on the bird  "this side up" as he seems to think it should be cooked breast side down. lol  Not the first time.  

We're baking bread, today were making Pizza from scratch of course.  Scratch with clean hands. ;)  I DO have much to celebrate- I offered to sell some art & was able to make a donation to the local food bank for $1000!  Thank you to my friends who showed interest in my work.. in particular my friend Ezra, who purchased several. ;)  I'm  grateful  & yes it felt wonderful' to make a donation at this time when so many are struggling. 

I'll admit, I just wanted to stay in bed the other day and did nap extra long.  I think it's important to acknowledge feeling sad (understandably) and cutting ourselves some slack. 
If staying in bed made me 'feel better' than being grumpy & taking it out on others- (dogs, woodpeckers..) so be it. Time out.  
Then I eventually get up and say to myself:
GO PAINT! 
You have time, paint and passion... and portraits to catch up on!

I decided to paint a baby - a new addition to humanity.   The moment I saw the photo I was taken with the little being, I have called the painting: A little Ray of Sunshine.  Below is it in progress.   I hope to finish it today & start another portrait & paint my bedroom doors ..   Pandemic painting  turns out to be good for me.. how about you?

The planet is healthier during this pandemic... animals are exploring, mountains can be seen, air is cleaner, water clearer.    I painted Jesus to go with Mary. 

​We watched on YOUTUBE:  Out of shadows  
documentary.  I am disgusted yet hopeful that these sick FUCKS will be exposed as they are.. grateful to those who finally,  are showing courage to expose them.  It's only a matter of time before they will all be CAUGHT, exposed & shamed. GOOD.  Who's next?
Norm & I have been fighting for years about MOVIES that he watches & the trash that we have been exposed to - violence,  guns, murder, torture.. abuse against women in particular is rampant in movies,  all making us desensitized.  I was told about 'Pizza gate' a couple of years ago and was in shock thinking it must be a lie. Pizza gate is real & NOT acknowledging it will allow it to continue.   It touches on several topics, I strongly recommend you watch it & re think what you are watching.  WHO you are SUPPORTING.  Who's music are you buying? Encouraging?  Who's evil habits are you paying for? 

We no longer watch any CRAP coming out- it's all bullshit- brainwashing.
BE in control on your own mind- or someone else will.
Back to painting.   

With TLC & THC
Georgia 

That moment Tinkerbell realized 'Edibles' are not as harmless as she thought...

I love edibles! My prefered is carrot cake that I make myself with medicated coconut oil that I also make myself- it's easier than you think.

Have you watched Rotten: Edibles on netflix?  I enjoy the Rotten series - very enlightening.
I know about edibles but I did learn a few points to ponder. - Edibles have a side effect that most don't consider - I bet more women than men do.
Weight gain.  I have gained 6 lbs since moving up here - 6 that I keep on!
Thank you Country Bakery - lol.

Weight gain is a problem for most & edibles are a very easy way to get - carried away.
I know. First - they taste so good - you want to eat more and all of it.  Don't - read the instructions, you won't die but you might get very HIGH - uncomfortably high, almost everone I know has a story to tell about edibles and having too much of a good thing- but there is also the problem of 'the munchies' - on edibles.  

Weight gain is on the increase as are weight related disease - please use caution.
I encourage all I know to have healthy snacks ready - just incase you get the muchies.  
Better to much on grapes than gummies! & IMO EVERY thing tastes better on cannabis - even carrots!  Medicated cookies- gummies, drinks - you name it - you'll see it soon.
Edibles are are the way IN.  

Interesting to note some think bud will fade - HA. Bud will never fade, many love bud as it is - no sugar needed.  Most of the time I medicate without all the "goodies"  but it's nice occassionally for a sweet treat'. 

I had so much fun painting tinkerbell - I painted 2! 
Tinkerbell giggling in the forest as happy as can be!  Double art day!
Give thanks ;) 

Happy Thanks Giving Weekend! 
Enjoy all the goodies - Medicated or not - Give Thanks! 
Cannabis is legal in Canada! 

With TLC & THC
​Georgia

Netflix has 2 new documentaries: Weed the People & (I preferred) the Grass is Green 
I guess because I learned more from the second  that I did not previously know & one does discuss children but I know what cannabis does for children. Thank God.  If you don't, then watch both.

Why are people still being punished for cananbis use?
Studies - we need more studies - fuck studies - talk to others, open a history book - talk to rock stars & past presidents, there are many famous tokers of cananbis.
& then there is still ignoranc in the workplace & I thank  this guy for educating in Halifax: https://atlantic.ctvnews.ca/halifax-man-denied-job-because-of-cannabis-use-wants-others-to-be-aware-1.4428094    so, there you go Eh! WTF Canada- lets get the facts right- I think a company should be more concerned about drinking on the job - much more common - do they test for that? How about Opiates?
 I personally would not want to work for a narrow minded company anyhow.
On one chanel you can watch a documentary with babies medicating - on another you have a company not hiring - because a grown man had cannabis  LEGALLY in his system.
It all takes time I guess, I'm hopeful- we are this far-  after all! 

Weeee! 2 weeds for a long weekend - I've been gardening all day & am ready to pass out now..  so much gardening thanks to some guy names monty on netfilx.. lol - & the police open! wooot woot - or should I say Scruffy said Woof Woof!
 Time to imagine some relaxing fun.  ​Time to Go for a joy Ride!

Tomorrow is all about the Bees tho- being world BEE day.
& a I'm terribly disappointed in Georgia's decision - a statement painting that applies to both! Have a  lovely long weekend- I hope not to many fireworks are let off - if so please put ear protection in your babies ears!! Fireworks can cause everlasting damage to ones hearing.

With TLC & THC
Me! 

Another pondering primate... what is my new chimp obsession?  It's been triggered by several things I guess, most recently the thought of the loss of more beautiful beasts.  Destruction due to consumption, too much to ponder some days. This chimp brought a new level of painter... I know this when I spent an afternoon patiently painting the hair 'just on his chinny, chin, chin! 

Why do we still have plastic bags? Lazy. These magnicifant mammals each one a miracle & our lazy butts & gluttony for palmoil are kiling them & I'm sure someone somewhere is  using Chimp for medicinal reasons or even decorative.  I'd rather not research that, now.
I find myself pondering the stoned ape theory again -how 'evolved' we have all become or have we? According to the studies we have started our own mass destruction - so why wait one more day to stop using plastic bags?  Why?  

As I finished this painting Denver has decriminalized Psilocybin mushrooms! The first of many US States with Canada following soon. Everything this blog said about cannabis - apply it to 'magic mushrooms' - = Psilocybin . It's that simple. EVERYTHING. I am forever grateful for this slow but steady personal education & depression releasing medicine. If not completely releasing  at least discovering = Forgiving.  Cannabis is my choice of daily medicine but every now & then my body & mind tell me when it's time to medicate with psilocybin. My lite treatment caused some negative effects - I can't even begin... I'm takng a break & wearing scrubs for comfort BUTT it said getting worse before better - might be a side effect. So  feeling a bit blue with not much to do I decided to finish my primate that I started a few weeks ago. 

Psilocybin help me 'feel a little more loved' for much of what I don't normally find very 'lovable at times. Including myself.  

I'm in full painting mode again ;) - to keep me out of depression mode  ;( .  
I already have the NEXT painting sketched in my mind - another pondering primate   in a slightly 'new style' an experiment, I think. Weeeeeeee...   

 ;D  I'lll leave this here so you might ponder a little.

With LOVE 
Georgia

NFS... unless the offer is worthwhile & will purchase much more paint! ;)
Acrylic on wood panel. Gold, Copper paint that makes this painting look different every time you look at it as well as around the edges - make sit POP  ;).
I'm forever grateful for the experience.

 I lovingly refer to  (& I think he'd love this): 'Vincent VanGogh 2019'  hee hee.
I paint freestyle - by looking - to look is to get lost in Vincent Van Gogh, pure pleasure.  Some of you will think I've lost my mind - like Norm who recognized 'Starry Night but not the  Skeleton smoking  as both of Vincent's paintings.

Doing what he loved yet distracted, tired, sick, lonely, overwhelmed - sound familiar- Depression.  Apparently had his  Mental health issues  been addressed he would have been very successful & might've seen more than one painting sold. Addressed & not shunned - it can go two ways from what I understand - the 'not so nice way' is more people taking their own lives because they are taking medications that do not work - Depression is not a racist nor does it care about how much money you have.  If we keep shaming, an article I read stated people will just start to hide it better... until they show up at Sunday Mass with a grenade for  the cash basket. 

When we shame mental illness we are applying the same rules as prohibition - what a failure it has been.  If your face twitched 24/7 you would think about this stuff too. God's not playing anymore - pay attention ;)  "You are only as sick as your secrets" - a remark  I think  I heard on a Pod Cast- it must have been my favourite 'Hidden Brain',  every episode interesting.  Growing up 'My Moods'  were shamed, often...  a big secret, I get it - NOW- this is how some handle events but it's not healthy imo - the sooner we address unpleasant events & feelings  the sooner we can try to heal & move on, my mom had a terrible event happen to her at a fairly young age & was understandably depressed at the time - but now  many parent's  are both paying more attention to social media then their children.
The kids won't be pleased when they get older.
It's a fact - try to prove me wrong.

How many  generations started the same way as Vincent, myself, my mom was one of 6 kids & I never met any grandpa...  dealing with mental illness decades later, generations later.  Babies having babies, young parents having too many, too soon with obligations thrown at them pretty quickly - I've blogged when we were first married how we stole a case of baby food to get by...  By the Grace of God - it's why I was more than happy to accept donations  to food bank at Halloween. Yes, I speak from experience - marriage is difficult enough - wait to have your babies -be ready to welcome them with love.  
Instagram, face book, Selfies, Social media, socializing & recreational drugs YIKES! 
    MORE & MORE  babies are ending up  with a wire monkey mom.  & or dad.

Please, Wake the fuck up. Babies do not ask to be born - we humans are given the choice to procreate - carelessly - if we desire.  

People use to often remark when Storm was little:
"Let him cry!"  or ...     " You never put him down... "                      Amen. 
Please put down your phones & pick up your babies.
​
With TLC & THC
​Georgia

It's time - 'Spring Blossoms' & of course I'm thinking of Spring buds & Spring Buds!  I also watched 'Memoirs of Geisha, I can't say as I enjoyed it as much as I did the first time, visually a great movie but the story - all too the same.  Differnt women, differnt culture, same struggle.  This time it made me think it's another version of 'Pretty Woman'.  Life as a porstiture - is rarely happily ever after.  Far from it.  To think I raved about that movie the first time I saw it back in 1990 '28' years ago & now what I think are two very different opinions. 

Age, wisdom.. time changes you and your opinion on much if you allow it... and you may as well anyhow because it's happening  - like it or not. Thank God or it would be brutal if we all got stuck at 15.  Not to say there are not some very impressive, incredibly intelligent & craazy creative 15 year olds out there - even younger - you realize it when you hear 'them speaking about climate change' & still hopeful we can do something about it.  That Walrus special on Netflix.. I watched it and it was - really heartbreaking awakening, I turned away...  to see these animals struggle & then perish as they do.   Talk about climate change denial, you won't after watching that - So, if for that reason alone - Please do.  Do not pretend you do not see or do not know, afterall it's the least we can do - acknowledge our...  I can't think of one word to describe what we do to this planest on a daily basics..   I guess It would be: Rape. 

Nothing can be done to help the walrus, I am not in denial - I can paint them to show my appreciation  and hope it helps me & others take a little more care to prevent/slow down future animal inhalation.  Plastic bags really need to go - the garbage Walmart hands out here 'rips so easily you can't even use them twice - why are we allowing this, so it won't intefer with shopping?
Different quality from the bags in the USA.  Check & see, I noticed when in California.
Goodbye walrus,  sorry we are such consuming beasts.' 

The buds are beautiful..   they remind me of new life.  You stare at those ice covered branches only a few weeks ago & think - how do they survive this, are they dead?
They do survive.  Geisha are beautiful - the word means 'Artist - I guess in a way - I am a Geisha - lol  in essesnce,  are all women  not Geisha? What are these titles...   Geisha, Prostiture, street worker, whore, slut, bitch...  I have no problem with those words I know it's only a matter of ones opinions';  it's 'Pimp  & sex trafficking' that bother me.  I read about a young very intelligent woman in college  who thought she was being romanced and  was force & beaten into having sex with strangers for money only weeks later - humiliated, exhausted, she did not want to tell anyone.    Frig, another young woman  got into a car she thought was her Uber because she was not paying attention - too busy on her phone & was never seen again.  & Social media-  is harming YOUNG women in particular, if I was a parent I'd take away the phone between set hours because: I love her.
But I get it...   I am not you & currently living with a teenage girl.  What will you do?
Priorities.  I think they need re defining, on a global scale.    
Global warming it's real.

Next - a Truibute to Walt Disney, Dumbo & Depression.

With TLC & THC
​G

Before I went to bed last night I decided to paint Poppy. I've decided it's time to paint my girls... can't find Poppy? look under a blanket! Poppy has trained us to never just flop down ona chair if there is a blankey on it- chances are - she is under it... I'm missing her this COLD winter- I hardly "see' her as she moves from blanket to blanket but when it comes to naps- she' is there!  It's due to Ginger I understand how special poppy has alwasy been- she's never been like Ginger who is anon stop source of amusement & is cosntantly into things... Ginger is the kid you know to 'GO look and see what they are up to' - when things get too quiet. lol  Poppy was sent from God to be my constant companion & official service dog.  I doubt I woul dhav went to California withouther & am so grateful for that adventure with her.  

Storm calls her 'Poppy the Grey' like a little wizard wrapped in her blanket - just peeking out enough to keep a watchful eye on all thats going on.  3 planes, countless hospital visits, restaurants, movie theatres, boats, china shops (lol - no bull) & even the Getty museum in CA & if I could I'd take her to see the caves with me in France..  mentally we've alredy been, I've been so blessed to have this tiny friend with me & hope she's here much longer.

Daisy had a lump on her neck- the vet was'nt worried and estimated $700 -to $1,300 for a to have it drained but it did not seem to 'bother' her so we decided to keep an eye on it... a couple of week ago I though screw it, it's getting bigger - called the vet to take her in  but due to the extreme cold I was NOT walking - so we waited- & sure enough it popped and we had to clean it- DUE to watching Botched surgeries on Netflix  (we both joked about this) - we were not 'too grossed out' & cleaned it out.  Daisy never even  winced when we cleaned it - the vidoe we took to show Storm would make some want to vomit.  
Think about it, not being fazed due to watching those shows no wonder violence is where it is at, video games not responsible for increased vioence?  Gun rampages in the USA a common occurance  NOW.  You get 'use to seeing things' & it doesn't bother you as much... will anyone ever be held accountable?  Nope.  

If I had younger children I'd be more aware of what they are watching  and limiting violence,  I was reading they are considering (I think it was Germany)  banning children from under 14 for having cell phones, I agree.  I regret watching all the terrible, violent movies we watched - I wish  these were decisions would be made later - when kids reach a certian age - like letting little boys decide for themselves at the age of 18 if they want to be circumcised.  
I think it should be law after learning about this topic & OUTLAW female genital mutilation -  'female circumcision'.
   
I DID binge watch DIRTY JOHN - yikes.  Based on TRUE story Ladies -please, pay attention &  romance fraude is on the rise with people over 50 in Canada.  I have to say I found it upsetting & I know women who who have all had this happen to some degree.  I had my own online expecience with a compulsive liar & dick picts. that made me ill  - the stress alone it added was bullshit, I still lose sleep over it.    I won't spoil it but really listen to what she hears while in the bathroom in the last episode.  Sad times for oline dating days ahead...  KNOWLEDGE is power - and safety.  ​I'll get a new DOG long before I'll get a new husband.
& now the Amazon guy - another dick pick - OMgosh - I loose ALL respect for men when I read this crap - some role models we have ruled & destoyed by their OWN penis.
No wonder the world is in the shape it is in... 
No wonder I love dogs. 

Time to get under a blanket & sunggle.
It's family day! A holday in ontario - enjoy the time with your kids if you got em' & your pets. 

With TLC & THC 
​G

& this...   this beast below - is a BLOG all her own! lol