I'm 53 and proud to be here.   I've noticed something along the years - a trend if you will... I call it  Bipolar Bullshit.   FIRST - there is no 'test' which can prove someone is bipolar or  not. It is based on 'Opinions',  some professional - most not.  I am sure there are people who suffer from great degrees of mood swings and it can be terrible - especially when younger people are confused & feel like ending their lives.  This is about relationships, mostly between men and women.  I want to help young women especially with this subject.  *warning- this blog is 'full of fucks.

A friend shared her 'observation' I still remember our conversation- it hit home then and does even more now  "the second they get tired of you - you become "crazy", everything you do- they blame you, tell all your friends -she's losing it, she's going crazy..'  that was over a decade ago - she eventually had her marriage demise and was told "you're crazy.."  Go figure.   The new term I hear often is "she's Bipolar".  I was actually in a conversation with a group of men & they joked when one said he was 'struggling' with his new wife (#3 ) -"I think she's bipolar"  they all laugh.. apparently the last 2 wives were also bipolar. I look at this tall, white haired handsome gentleman as he says this, I've seen his flirting ways and smooth charms already (you know the type) - and think to myself - yeah sure, I bet they were all bipolar.. asshole.  All the men are high paid, very professional, smart, educated, successful...  I turn to my friend who was one of them when he commented later - again - about her being bi-polar (apparently his ex wife was also Bipolar) and said  "Give me a Fucking break! ( I must have appeared Bipolar to him a this point - lol) Are you kidding me?!!   There is no 'test' to prove someone is Bipolar but it does not take long to see someone is an asshole."  He looked at me - speechless.  Good. 

Ladies - of all ages PAY attention cause it's not fucking funny.  It's never them.  I know myself after my brain surgery- every time Norm and I would argue about something he did, which I disagree with - it would turn around to be about me and my brain and   "she's crazy.. just ignore her."  It was absolutely  one of the factors in the demise of our marriage. Bipolar- bullshit..  If this is crazy- fine.. Call me the fucking QUEEN - because I refuse to be labeled for someone elses behaviour and I will not sit passively while you behave badly. 

Pay attention- are you listening? It starts slowly.. the signs are there and as soon as you see them- get the fuck out.   It's never the adulterer - who promises time an time again - it won't happen again.  Never the gambler, alcoholic.. who blames his partner for all that goes wrong in is life. Never the macho man who is in debt but refuses to admit it.  Children are growing up watching- young sons & daughters - paying attention to these ' harmful words' if not worse.

How many times does a husband leave his wife for a younger woman? 
This is the best 'revenge' out there if you ask me. First of all if he leaves you - Give thanks - he's spared you years of bullshit. You don't need someone in your life who does NOT love you. Younger women now know exactly what they are doing - an old fool and his money will soon be parted just as easy as parting legs.  Led by their penis, they get what they deserve. What 20 year old wants a 6o year old?  Seriously.  For their $$$ yes. That's about it & very soon after - guaranteed-  she will fuck around on him with a much younger man- its a tale as old as time. BUT when he wants to get rid of his OLD wife- he easily states to his lawyer - 'she is bipolar' - and it's not  funny because high paid lawyers will destroy a woman- they know nothing about - for money. In many cases she DID give her life for decades, raised his kids, kept his home & sucked..    to be tosses aside like trash.  Children will be lost in legal battles as well as much else, confidence lost because of years of being blamed and accused of being bipolar- just because you don't agree with your spouse.   Bipolar has become and 'excuse' to keep people down and it's mostly women.  How often do you hear a woman say  "he's bipolar?"

Oh yes, I can appear Bipolar' call it what you want...  I call it being sick of bullshit and refusing to be walked over. Yes, I am capable of yelling, throwing etc..  Bipolar? Hardly.
Pay attention to WHO is calling you what?   Chances there is more to it that what we SEE. 
Chances are it's just another excuse for others to blame for their poor behaviour - it's always easier to blame someone than admit your an asshole.  It's a trend- where will it go? Will it become so when a husband accuses his wife of being bipolar- he will be able to have her committed?  Sound far fetched?  The trend looks frightening the direction it's going.
DO NOT let ANYONE lable you anything you are not!  Bipolar? Or just extremely pissed off?
Happy and sad - sure- that's life!  Bipolar never goes with 'she's so happy - I divorced her' it's always the negative spin.

IF you think you are bipolar- o.k., what can I say.  Please be careful with medications you in your body- note: the description of bipolar blames the environment.  
IF you are in a bad relationship - it is a negative environment.  GET OUT.  
Do you think it's going to get better? Is he lying? Cheating? Drinking? What's next?
Think it will change?
Argue all you want- I guarantee he's thinking - she's a bitch- she's bipolar... and sooner or later he will say it.

Bipolar this.

With LOVE
g
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xox

* FYI- we talk about my cartoons in this house before 'you all' see them. This one has been on my chalk board for almost 6 months - it's a difficult subject if you SERIOUSLY look into it. Norm & Storm both 'get where I am coming from' believe it or not ;)  and the polar bears do not represent 'US/them', *ALL men call the wives crazy when they are upset & (NOT ALL mean it) with them sooner or later..  BUT - it can become very abusive quickly & easily and for many women it has. I thank God  It's "only " about 2 people who have grown apart here (25 years - it happens)  & still argue, still and will always care for each other. 
There is a difference.   I have had this conversation for years in this blog & with ALL of my male friends at one point over the years. - I'm known of speaking my mind and not ashamed of it.   Too few never speak up and the pain continues. 

This 'Bi polar' thing is not correct, women are already struggling more than the average man & are taking medication at alarming rates- how do you think this is effecting families??? The community.. the world?
xox
* o.k. a tiny percentage of men will never call your wives 'crazy' - God bless you and thank you & I sent you a virtual hug!  & kiss - on the cheek. ;)  

'Will the Poppy's even been in bloom?
Who cares.. I smile,  I've just spent the last three days in my imagination admiring & painting them.

I'm very excited & a bit anxious now & of course have a gazillion things to do before I leave, mostly make sure Bird  will be o.k..  As you might be aware I've been quite the hermit the past few years - and now I'm off to Orange County,  blessed it's with a  friend who lives there & is going to show me around.  I landed once sitting in the front cockpit between two handsome pilots!  It was my dad who saw me landing, he was beaming! That's my girl!  lol  
The same dad  was on the plane with me at a later date only he was in the cargo dept.  
It was a unique experience.   Peaceful in many ways.. and I was able to take a special trip with him.   How many people can say that?  I'm glad we didn't fly alone' on that journey. Flying alone is clearly on  my mind.  
 
Perhaps this time Poppy & I will join the pilots!  Hardly- I'm sure things have changed since 9/11.  How blessed I've been.  I won't be alone! I'll have Poppy on my lap - Oh My Gouache Poppy & I in California.   We even have matching beach attire (not intentional!)

You absolutely know - I love 'what' I do - every day- I am God Blessed- to be able to sit here paint, listen to music e mail friends, spend time with my dogs- family and more but  with this  condition- I get no rest some days,  even lying down to nap is out of my control, I'll nap when it lets me. Good thing I love to paint & not sleep.  I am blessed also with cannabis- which keeps me doing all I love & loving every stroke.  Not taking deadly addictive pain medications that won't help.   I'm currently smoking Humber Valley Kush for any who can try it.. here I sit still working/playing at 1:50 and will be up at 5 happily anxious to start painting again!  That's a testament to  a medicine if ever.   Side effects? Giggling and a great sleep.

I never blame God for my health issues.  
I blame human evolution, chemicals, man made problems, poor food choices, too much Alcohol, not enough water.  Not being educated on many things - like inner strength, peace, meditation..    What better place to realign? The California sunshine.  

Now if I could pick the perfect plane mate to sit beside me it would be..  hmmm 5 hours they would have to be funny and amusing a little handsome.. One time I sat beside this super nice, friendly funny hunk, we laughed all the way to the Bahamas..  my 2 girlfriends were admittedly  jealous- lol   so, this time lets try for Stephen Colbert..  but I prefer grey hair.. Jeff Goldblum - yes, he would be the perfect flight companion!
​Ooooohhh on the fly with the fly! Giving  me goose bumps! 
Or Broadway bear of course.

Miracles come true.  

Broadway lifts Bear...  he makes her smile. 
It's amazing how powerful that is.


With Love
g

As I prepare for our journey I'm thinking about Poppy and peoples reaction.  
I don't care anymore what anyone 'thinks'..  I know what I experience and I know I could probably be popping pills right now that would have me so stoned' (not in that good way) zonked  I would be very 'relaxed' for my journey, no one would mind seeing my dog on the plane with me.  I wouldn't have to worry about strangers if she stayed home - no one would dare walk up to me for no reason and say - "Hey! You takes pills?  Awwwww... Why? You don't look sick... What could those pills possibly do for you."    

I refuse to take pills that will effect my BRAIN, LIFE and MOOD for attacks which I get, that only last seconds -yet are incredibly frightening.  Poppy pulls me out- calms me down. Helps me breath- PILL FREE.. once over and I can catch my breath again, function - I don't need any pills in my system wearing me down. For what?  Whom?
To make life easier for others?  There are little ones far worse off than I am that would be doing more if WE learned to tolerate more.  Getting out with their (well behaved) service /therapy animals..  It's been proven many people carry just as many IF not more allergens on their clothing than my Poppy will on her tiny body for our flight.
 
You know how I feel about Service dogs.. pets in general- is there anything more calming for many of us than a cat who sits on our lap & purrrrrrssssss.  They help with PTSD and old aged - Pets keep many of us Going.  Pets are fantastic for kids - especially kids with no friends.  Just like I might not agree with fidget spinners in the classroom - I don't personally know any children off hand they assist - I WILL BE the first person who will tell you - let's try it BEFORE pills! Anything over pills for our kids. Fidget spinners spin!  I saw a cute photo, it was a pencil with a wooden ruler on the top 'the original fidget spinner' lol  Remember? Who did not spin it on top of the pencil.. or doodle.  Encourage doodling! 
​
Lets not get me started on medical cannabis. YES, I do wish and pray more parents & Dr.s start to investigate this before pills.  Cannabis has never been responsible for a death- let me ask you- Do you think Storm was the only kid, nope- it's been 10 years + and I know many kids- many who dose MUCH HIGHER than I - have any died from cannabis?  No.
I have never restricted my sons medical intake.  

ALL of these choices are PROVEN to help children & adults YET  society as a whole would rather not be inconvenienced, we'd rather each other Pop a pill into a mouth of  body- (especially another body) and move on.  FEATHERS that!  

Come on - the USA is NOW the leading country in drug overdoes.  With a new generation of addicts following fast at their heels. ;(   opiate addiction is at an ALL TIME HIGH- and by giving kids pills at an early age -  we are teaching them they NEED them  to function- it's inevitable they are the next addicts.
The next walking dead.   Not me,  I'll be walking my dog.

I'm not a Dr. and I 'GET' this. 
​Still teachers, family members and Dr.s who spend very little time with our children * with the exception of course*  are readily to offer advice and prescriptions.  Parents overworked, over stressed, exhausted and worried don't think long term.  Many can hardly think about the weeks groceries with so much going on.
  
IF OUR children had the CHOICE & they should (I am so thankful to God for giving Storm his defiant  stance towards medication when he was little)  it is THEIR little bodies which will be affected after all.  Long term.  
I know what most would choose..   I bet you can guess too!

NOT PILLS.

With Love
G

A couple of days off..  ;)
​xox

I made the mistake of reading a magazine I was given at the LIFT EXPO & quickly became so frustrated my teeth clench. The 'Bottom line' of the article in particular...  How one should avoid Cannabis if they have a 'Mood Disorder..' & If you have tried everything else!?
Oh My Gouache  are you serious? Like what?  Pharmaceuticals?  
Like the ones that can cause a twitch that never goes away- read the symptoms- or the ones that are KNOWN proven to cause thoughts of suicide? Physical side effects, liver damage. Brain damage? 
I hang my head & sigh- I have to turn to the cover and think- O.k., Yeah, I'm pretty sure I just picked up a Cannabis magazine...   Phhhhht...   Arrrrrrghhh.
​Hyprocry all around the table it appears these days. In between the sheets & papers of the glossy magazine. 

Not something TY Magazine believed it. Free speech, possibly some of the last.
Are other magazines following the same? There is that a$$ mighty advertising dollar. It was wrote by someone in the USA who's interests are in Biological pest control...  It went on to state 'try everything else first'.  At what cost? AT WHAT COST?   $$$   I can imagine his opinion on Children & cannabis as a medicine.
I guess everyones trying to protect their ass as well.  At what cost.

Continue reading another article WOW - about CANADIAN legalization and Marketing.
"Cheech & Chong aren't going to cut it anymore" blah blah blah.  Sure, I'm in agreement - there is fabulous new marketing out there.  There is also sterile, cold and  BORING already. It all looks the same & it will all blend into one -  become almost confusing.  
I'll be very selective with whom I choose to let use my work. I know I have a style all my own as do many talented artists, not to mention our own creative ideas.  Look already, how many photos 'going into the woods.  A tree view from the ground up, cup of coffee.. it's IG of WEED & much looks the same already, perhaps others will mistake your company and use another- but it 'Looks great'. .  Yes... It will need to be very different.  
Constant creativity. 
Clearly they are NOT aware also  of the old attage- Everything Old is NEW again.
I wish I had my '80's crap' that I threw out.. that old stuff. lol is worth $$$
Lets see how soon Old is New again. 
BTW - I say 'they'  There is no 'real  person' to contact, no name.  It seems, for the entire magazine.

Here is the 'maple syrup' on this Moose dropping magazine & article get this:  
FOR this terrific Marketing Advice regarding LEGALIZATION in Canada- they can't find a Canadian Experct to consult with?  They had to consult with an AMERICAN  company? Really? 
 Do we not have any creative marketing people in Canada??  OR successful companies?
ANY ONE... Hello?    Phhhhhbt.  What a waste of painting time this morning was.
​I certainly won't be reading this gem again. Rude to many creative people on many levels. 

* Creative marketing - My son informed  later after I told him about 'what I enjoyed' - my favourite display was a  new company,  much talked about these days...  
They get a point for creativity - it was the  tiny balls that could be moved on velcro & the string that you moved on nails - very creative and encouraged conversation with EACH other... NO pesky sales person in my face & the guys on the bike making coffee. hee hee hee.  
I actually turned to a stranger and wanted to say:
"How often do you play with blue balls in Public?"      
Instead, I behaved and said...

" Don't you feel like a cat?"   he laughed & and agreed. ;)   

I doubt I'll be asked for an interview (whew). 

Back to California Dreaming, painting  & unclenched teeth.

With Love.
G.

'As I start this blog, I am reminded myself  of a 'man' who TRIED to intimidate me recently, why? I declined his advances &  he got NASTY.  What happens when men become insecure?  They cheat, abuse, hurt, beat, stalk and try to 'over POWER' the weaker (in their mind) of the human race - women.  This sort of treatment is on the increase - and easier to do - I'm sure a stalker is reading my blog now. They follow your facebook/Instagram social pages BUT he won't post or comment- they are cowards. 

The second you show any FEAR  cowards thrive.
F*CK that,  DO not tolerate  ABUSE in any form from anyone.
SPEAK up the second you are touched 'uncomfortably'. If someone won't get out of your personal space - ask them to 'MOVE Please.'  
The second they say anything you believe is un appropriate...
   ASK: What did you say to me?  & say it LOUD!!

NO job is worth it, it just progresses, until you quit anyhow. Been there done that.
SAVE the  nasty e mail you are sent, phone calls  & TEXT messages and SHOW them to someone.
ANYONE.   Take photos, record them if need be.  If they persist contact the police.  
Tell your dad, Tell your mom, Tell your brother... unless your brother is handy with baseball bats..  well, then again.  I do not encourage physical violence ever - unless you are being abused by someone who won't take verbal hints, sometimes the only understanding violent people have  is to be threatened with he same, when I was younger I had to have a friend go and "warn someone to back off.."  * he didn't - I still had to go to the police and court systems,   too many times we read how the police could/would not help until it was too late - instead of a violence report it becomes 'just another murder statistic.  Too often the police do not take 'it seriously',  - if they don't live it - it would be difficult to comprehend.  They are ALSO BUSY - arresting non-violent offenders for such things as... cannabis. 

There are many forms of abuse.. mental, physical.. several forms of control.
CONTROL. When someone physically hurts another- it is their loss of control.
It is proven - society today, because we witness so much- is losing empathy - seeing a woman beaten, brutally raped, is no big deal... turn on the television, go to the movies, WORSE, read the headlines: girl raped behind dumpster- golden boy is set  free.
Just headlines - just wait until it's your little granddaughter.   Will you speak up then?
Treated as no more than sexual objects, it's why I get so upset with these "lovely" young ladies - who don't understand the implications  -each post of their 'tits or ass' shoved in the cameras 'face' is also shoved in the faces of  not so nice strangers & encouraging MANY already out of control, frustrated men to act upon their - fantasies.  
Yes, they are out of control  -so don't fuel the fire, is what I'm trying to say.  
There is never an acceptable excuse for rape. Never.
It never has anything to do with 'how' women are dressed OR HOW much women have drank/drunk  in an evening. Rape is RAPE.
'No means no' and if she can't say 'No' then Presume:  'NO'. 

We have a generation growing seeing violence against women as an every day occurrence - growing in violence and confidence.  Internet grooming is on the rise - are we not warning our kids yet!? This should taught in CLASS as a part of life skills,  Grade one.
​Too young to teach them?  Predators - they don't care if your child is only in grade one- they like them even younger.

With Love
​Georgia 

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