It's a mixed emotions day.. 

Excited! Last night we woke - through closed windows - to the sounds of wolves howling!  In my backyard for at least 5 minutes.. it was unbelievably cool.  Ginger was glued and shook for about 30mins after.. poor thing. I assured her she is safe inside, snuggled with mom.  It did have me realize exactly how 'in the wild we are... I wonder if I would have seen them if I got up - next time.  I never let the little dogs out alone - they are alwasy with their big sister & I don't let the dogs wander. AS soon as the ground thaws we build a completely contained kennel' with a dog door into the house.   It will be good for them to be able to go out & pee at all times- although I can't complain, my girls are well trained and only go on pee pads when in the house. In the bathroom  (where we all go)  ;) 

Disappointed & upset...  I had art in my porch, I have a lot of art in my porch...  
Do you remember the sign I painted shortly after moving in - that said "Leave all shit outside... Dog shit, bear shit and bullshit... well, it's gone.  
Somone decided to own it, which mean someone took it from me- I DID NOT 'GIVE' it to anyone.   Thief.   It's that simple.  Who does that?
When invited to someones home & you take stuff that DOES NOT belong to you - you are a thief.  Recently, I  had company & after they left I noticed a 'few' small items gone - like books etc - perhaps my sign too..  I asked  for the items to be returned but have had no reply - and people wonder why YOU NEVER invite them back  - wonder no more.  
What message do you send to the universe today?  
I never steal.  I don't lie.
I'd rather tell someone the truth & have them 'not like me' than to lie and disrespect myself & them.  If I had to steal it- 'unless it's food and I am starving' - (by the grace of God this has never been the case) -  I don't deserve it.
It won't happen again, Norm installed a camera that lets us know  the second anyone even enters our porch.. sucks we had to do it -  it sucks more people take what does NOT belong to them. I hope the thief enjoys my art - and never forgets how they got it...  the universe won't.  There are people I will never have visit here - they know why.

Mental health & mushrooms. Psilocybin - well even Dr. Oz is NOW telling of the wonderful effects of psilocybin mushrooms. Google if you don't believe me.             Thank God.  
Gods medicine once again will be what heals the planet - not mans medicine.
Mushrooms have helped me where no one else was able to break through. 
Mushrooms taught me to LOVE myself.  Mushrooms taught me to LIKE myelf.  
I mentioned the other day my childhood, being told I was not wanted, as long as I can remember.  I share this' to educate as I know - I am NOT alone... too many feel the same & don't quite understand why.

I was brainwashed to think I was unlovable. Being told this by a parent in particular is confusing to a child (and abusive)... being told often as I was, I had it literally beat into me at times...  we start to believe it. It had caused problems my entire life of not trusting the fact that 'anyone could love me'.  I've even struggled with the notion some days - my son doesn't love me.  He does.  
It was mushrooms that taught me the opposite.  Believe it or don't.
I'm not getting anything from sharing- some might still (those uneducated) think - shes a stoner on mushrooms- think what you want.  I thank GOD for the first time in 56 years I KNOW - it was never me that was the problem.   I was a gift from God.
I am a gift from God.
Thanks to mushrooms today I'll paint, not be depresed - instead I will  paint because I understand - through our creations we extend our love.

I made this mushroom painting to dangle in the sunlight it also has a ball that catches light hanging from it.;) on the other side is a matching eye'.  It's painted with iridescent paint -so it's really pretty in the sunshine.
It's titled - 'It's just an illusion.'  It is for sale $60. + shipping,  if interested - let me know.
Have an inspired day!!
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Inside of card:
                          Rest is a luxury few can afford & fewer appreciate.  ~Me.

I made this for a friend who is about tot retire!  My girlfriend has worked hard her entire life- as a teacher.. and this is her last year- in a few months she is done! WoooooHoooo! 
I couldn't be happier for her.  I know though - she is truly far from retirement.. she has parents that are now dealing with issues associated with age,  young adult children  - that we never stop stressing over & caring about -a husband and duties that won't end,  she is far for retiring..  she won't be plopping herself infront of any TV eating bonbons all day.
A womans work is never done.

This past week was emotional  & stress filled -  a FUCKING important lesson as usual was learned the hard way.  We went from being elated about our new home to days later being told the bank "miscalculated" only by  a small amount... $400,000.   That's right - a bank employee made an error & yes, we are all human..  but did not inform us of such error - we were signing legal contracts & house hunting under false pretences.. We went from being approved to not being approved ? & no one told us.  It made NO sense to anyone as we do not currently have a mortgage - my dream home - where I have mentally moved in  & decided where to place my easel & started painting - lol - was gone..  I cried  the entire day - what a mind fuck this is..   After my pity party where only the girls and I attended.. suffering from a nasty headache I thought -- how dare I  cry over a 'house' when so few even have a bed, reality kicked in  & so did a little anger.
Time to Take control of this situation instead of crying about it & it controlling me.   

WTF... I tired to get in touch with someone.  TRIED' being the key word- NOPE - no such luck.. when I TRIED to call someone I was told - You can't speak to anyone - there is NO one to complain to  per-say ...  only the 'branch manager' -  all she kept saying was:
I was not there I did not witness it...   - well, isn't that fucking special, I thought to myself.
Trying to find out what the fuck went wrong!? Here is what I learned -  apparently the RBC can 'miscalculate  - by $400,000 but God forbid I say...
                                       'are you fucking kidding' me!?  on the PHONE!
'CLICK.'  

WOW. I was silly enough to try again... thinking Georgia - stay calm.. blah blah blah  blah blah... from them   Me: $400,00o! is no fuckng minor MISCALCU..."  CLICK
          $400,00O - You tell me how you would feel, boxes packed- house bought.

Did I get an apology - No...  & suddenly  a little denial entered the conversation.  
Not appreciated. 
Not only did they ignore the issue, as if no wrong was done... BUT they did focus on my swearing stating: 'I should treat them with respect'..  I then asked them to explain  how respectful it was to make a $400,00o fucking mistake & not even have the decency to inform us.   Speechless is the word then that comes to mind.
A small miscalculation for them a big mental breakdown for me, a big dose of fucking stress WE did not need OR deserve.

Had we signed a contract we couldn't get out of under false pretences  - would the bank have paid for their miscalculation?  I doubt it.  We opened the account the day we bought this house - it was a tiny office & I quickly became friends with a few of the ladies whom work there still - the service amazing.  Now they have moved, are much bigger, fancier - but the service....   $400,000 "miscalculation" is no fucking tiny mistake, not to us.
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Click.

Stress - yikes.. Rest is what I need NOW - I admit - it knocked me out physically & mentally - but just for a couple of days - tomorrow  is a new day & I am excited for it....
it is just a house...  just a mistake - Focus on the deer you will paint.  
All 'apparently, has been resolved.

​The Science of Swearing - just one more way men are taken seriously & women thought trashy - educate yourself & others - because when someone makes  $400,000 mistake...      I guarantee you - you will swear.

   27 years.. no more than numbers.   

With TLC & THC 
Georgia 


To see my Father's Day contribution - head over to Forever Grateful Greetings!

Another pondering primate... what is my new chimp obsession?  It's been triggered by several things I guess, most recently the thought of the loss of more beautiful beasts.  Destruction due to consumption, too much to ponder some days. This chimp brought a new level of painter... I know this when I spent an afternoon patiently painting the hair 'just on his chinny, chin, chin! 

Why do we still have plastic bags? Lazy. These magnicifant mammals each one a miracle & our lazy butts & gluttony for palmoil are kiling them & I'm sure someone somewhere is  using Chimp for medicinal reasons or even decorative.  I'd rather not research that, now.
I find myself pondering the stoned ape theory again -how 'evolved' we have all become or have we? According to the studies we have started our own mass destruction - so why wait one more day to stop using plastic bags?  Why?  

As I finished this painting Denver has decriminalized Psilocybin mushrooms! The first of many US States with Canada following soon. Everything this blog said about cannabis - apply it to 'magic mushrooms' - = Psilocybin . It's that simple. EVERYTHING. I am forever grateful for this slow but steady personal education & depression releasing medicine. If not completely releasing  at least discovering = Forgiving.  Cannabis is my choice of daily medicine but every now & then my body & mind tell me when it's time to medicate with psilocybin. My lite treatment caused some negative effects - I can't even begin... I'm takng a break & wearing scrubs for comfort BUTT it said getting worse before better - might be a side effect. So  feeling a bit blue with not much to do I decided to finish my primate that I started a few weeks ago. 

Psilocybin help me 'feel a little more loved' for much of what I don't normally find very 'lovable at times. Including myself.  

I'm in full painting mode again ;) - to keep me out of depression mode  ;( .  
I already have the NEXT painting sketched in my mind - another pondering primate   in a slightly 'new style' an experiment, I think. Weeeeeeee...   

 ;D  I'lll leave this here so you might ponder a little.

With LOVE 
Georgia

NFS... unless the offer is worthwhile & will purchase much more paint! ;)
Acrylic on wood panel. Gold, Copper paint that makes this painting look different every time you look at it as well as around the edges - make sit POP  ;).
I'm forever grateful for the experience.

Can you guess who I am..  I'll tell you at the end.
Schools out for summer & might not be returning.. I can't express the sadness I felt watching my high school  York Memorial go up in flames  yesterday.  A flood of memories overwhelmed me, walking the halls, the lockers, the auditorium in all it's Glory, the stained glass windows the trophy cabinets, magnificent details at every turn. I hope they rebuild and not remove.  This is where my love for art took OFF -I had great art teachers  both women, Mr.s Obrien was my favourite she introduced me to painting, clay, egg tempura, everything art was started here. Friends, relationships, the first time I smoked Pot.. lol isn't it for most? My first parties, football socials & like many I lost my virginity to someone met in high school my last year. You don't even realize all the memories until you see it fade before your eyes. I'm forever grateful for the experience.

& I was blue due to the news that we are destroying our planet at a greater rate than anticipated (and grater than I feel they are letting on to us mere humans due to panic)- killing creatures... Trophy hunting should immediately banned.  Birds especially are on quick decline & then to learn about DOUG Ford..  I take it back thinking  he would be good for Ontario.  As soon as these creatures are gone - we will be shortly after.  It's terrible for children now - knowing we have started our own MASS extinction yet we CONTINUE to let politicians like DOUG Ford decide Canadians futures - he obviously doesn't care about the environment & that should be our first priority when we boot those deciding our fate  out of office.

When I went to bed last night at 7 I was blue & beat but today I was excited to get up and work on my chimp which reminds me... Norm is redoing the basement floors (hee hee) over the decades he has  laid new floors for different rooms (depending on what was on sale) NOW of course he is in agreement 'it would look better with same flooring throughout', "I told you..."  was said,  I've moved my studio to the bedroom & have been painting at all hours - I'm pleased with my newest creation - I spent yesterday painting the hairs on a chimps chiny chin chin! lol  

It's a painting I become absolutely absorbed in & between us I'm calling it a self portrait. haha I love every second & in between I'm painting Weeeeeed cards- they make me giggle.
 I friend sent me a few ideas today which also cracked me up! Weeeeeee!

Sad but not forgotten.. Nothing lasts forever lets hope we get our acts together  regarding transformation of the planet before it's too late. No more plastic bags - why are we still going plastic bags? Why are we sill doing plastic? HEMP is better. 

With TLC & THC 
​Georgia
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I'm the middle row, second from the left - the guy behind me in a white top was tickling me...  look at the confused expressions - clearly the photographer did not count to 3. 

Are you feeling Blue?   Cannabis  helps.
It has for me anyway..   people will learn what they need to learn when it is time to learn it.   I have come to this conclusion after smoking many a joint as I think about my friend who is suffering with  back pain & opiate addiction...    
I do not PUSH cananbis- just here- hee hee & I don't push HERE - it's just my opinion, sharing a lesson in hopes you might avoid some - or be inspired by others.
Do what you need to do to ease yourself from suffering, is my new motto.
*As long as it doesn't cause harm to any other living being.  Cannabis CLEARS my thoughts  from crap that likes to hide in the corner of my mind and come out sometimes just to fuck with me' because it thinks I have nothing better to do. lol   I tried antidepressants.. I remember  how they made  me feel & I wonder occasionally, now off of them for over 10 years if they still are what affects me to this day. 

I was up and out for light therapy (for psoriasis) today at 10,  went to the garden centre, picked up some fruit & a bit of lunch, returned home, played with the girls, straightened the gazebo then rolled some joints - all before I even realized I'd had nothing to smoke today. No Medicine was required or better put... I was not shaking or going through any sorts of "withdrawal" symptoms.  I have friends who can't even start to function unless they take their daily opiates.  It is heart breaking I can't PUSH them off pills and onto cannabis.
I do try, I do by giving them a card with a joint in it.  A bear hug & intro introduction. 
& by drawing & blogging every day to illustrate: Keep Going & Have faith..
Let's go, what are you waiting for?? Good & bad embrace it all as this is LIFE & Thank God  Cannabis helps!

Sending somone this cute ...feeling blue?' card might make them feel a little better too..
*Forever Grateful Greeting*   website is under construction the next 48 hours BTW ;) ...

I am NOT feeling blue - quite the opposite! Doodling sketches for the next set of       "Weeeed!!!" cards had me giggling until 2a.m.! Painting now as the clouds move in - feeling rather grateful today - it all went smoothly, sunshine - wonderful tunes on the radio, out in the world 'on my own' without Poppy.   lol  
...that is where I experienced a bit of withdrawal.  I don't think she's like the  light therapy - she's want to know what I was doing in 'there'.  Don't Be Blue - try some cannabis & enjoy the sunshine..  If you are feeling Blue please be kind to yourself.

Grateful for the flowers I received yesterday left at my door from a friend: Happy Sunday!

With TLC & THC
​Georgia

 I lovingly refer to  (& I think he'd love this): 'Vincent VanGogh 2019'  hee hee.
I paint freestyle - by looking - to look is to get lost in Vincent Van Gogh, pure pleasure.  Some of you will think I've lost my mind - like Norm who recognized 'Starry Night but not the  Skeleton smoking  as both of Vincent's paintings.

Doing what he loved yet distracted, tired, sick, lonely, overwhelmed - sound familiar- Depression.  Apparently had his  Mental health issues  been addressed he would have been very successful & might've seen more than one painting sold. Addressed & not shunned - it can go two ways from what I understand - the 'not so nice way' is more people taking their own lives because they are taking medications that do not work - Depression is not a racist nor does it care about how much money you have.  If we keep shaming, an article I read stated people will just start to hide it better... until they show up at Sunday Mass with a grenade for  the cash basket. 

When we shame mental illness we are applying the same rules as prohibition - what a failure it has been.  If your face twitched 24/7 you would think about this stuff too. God's not playing anymore - pay attention ;)  "You are only as sick as your secrets" - a remark  I think  I heard on a Pod Cast- it must have been my favourite 'Hidden Brain',  every episode interesting.  Growing up 'My Moods'  were shamed, often...  a big secret, I get it - NOW- this is how some handle events but it's not healthy imo - the sooner we address unpleasant events & feelings  the sooner we can try to heal & move on, my mom had a terrible event happen to her at a fairly young age & was understandably depressed at the time - but now  many parent's  are both paying more attention to social media then their children.
The kids won't be pleased when they get older.
It's a fact - try to prove me wrong.

How many  generations started the same way as Vincent, myself, my mom was one of 6 kids & I never met any grandpa...  dealing with mental illness decades later, generations later.  Babies having babies, young parents having too many, too soon with obligations thrown at them pretty quickly - I've blogged when we were first married how we stole a case of baby food to get by...  By the Grace of God - it's why I was more than happy to accept donations  to food bank at Halloween. Yes, I speak from experience - marriage is difficult enough - wait to have your babies -be ready to welcome them with love.  
Instagram, face book, Selfies, Social media, socializing & recreational drugs YIKES! 
    MORE & MORE  babies are ending up  with a wire monkey mom.  & or dad.

Please, Wake the fuck up. Babies do not ask to be born - we humans are given the choice to procreate - carelessly - if we desire.  

People use to often remark when Storm was little:
"Let him cry!"  or ...     " You never put him down... "                      Amen. 
Please put down your phones & pick up your babies.
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With TLC & THC
​Georgia

     If Gumby was in the Cannabis Industry - marketing & packaging  would be all the buzz.
Have you introduced your kids Gumby? I grew up a single child raised by a single working mom  so I watched a lot of cartoons & had a lot of 'alone time. Gumby, Bugs, Mickey & Kermit were not just entertainment' but friends' who inspired a great deal. 

I realized how serious many of the lesson Gumby discussed were as a child & Beeecause they stuck' with me to date & are still a problem today as in 2 Bee or Not 2 Bee.  Spraying illegal chemicals on the plants making all the Bees sick s- they get a Biker metal Bee to help  If only it was so.  Gumby was educating children the best way the creator thought to do.
Me too.

Gumby also encouraged limitless creativity with his magical body of clay powers & pony pal Pokey too.  Hee hee     Creativity keep me going, these little characters sit in a shelf in my office treasures from the past- I like them because they trigger happy memories... if I had any advice to offer anyone about decor in the work space' make sure all you see is associated with a good memory or peaceful feeling.  

Today was one of those days I lay down for a nap & that turned into 6 hours! Clearly,  needed, still feeling tired I'll take a few quite days to paint, rest & medicate & meditate.  & catch up on some painting that have been under the surface for a while now.  That's always good news for anyone that might be waiting on a painting... or mail - your patience is  appreciated.

I just found out about a 'GoFundMe' I am going to contribute to & I encourage you  to consider the same.  Toronto ground breaking documented research for depression, anxiety using microdosing psilocybin:         https://www.gofundme.com/microdosing

With TLC & THC
​G

Norm's mad at me' so for breakfast
he made a 'BLT' & none for me.
Fine by me...  not hungry.

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The other day I got caught up in a dream.
Then by fate, I guess it was great...  (before it's too late)
I had a realization:
 I'd be in the same situation
just at a different destination...
& this aint' no 'vacation'
...it's time for separation.


​With Love
Georgia

It's not easy being green - but this spring it's easier than ever to grow your own 4 plants. 
Hallelujah! What an enjoyable experience it's going to be for many - from seed to smoke, just the thought makes me smile.  
I can't help be hopeful.. Lord let them drink less.  lol   It's also APRIL soon and that means- more! More locations, more vape clubs, more edibles.. more amazing cannabis products to ease your mind - Pain & more.   I get upset thinking about patients'  sometimes- as I know a few... and now- they have higher prices an although the government provides their *opiates for free - it's still not covering this medicine - and THAT is still a problem.

Right now- it's the first day of Spring and Green is coming- Thank God!  
What 2 better icons to welcome the first day of Spring?  

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On another note, I'm not feeling very happy at all in truth.  
I had the worst mammogram.   I left the office in tears, screaming ask anyone who was there - lots.  Calling the technician: "A Fucking Bitch"   threatening to report her  (I have) & I stand by it.

I have cried constantly & NOT slept one night  since.  I asked God why did this happen!?
It should have been a simple mammogram like the last I had - which was PLEASANT - I even blogged about it!   Why...  because God knows  I will speak UP & should.
& I will make sure  NO OTHER WOMAN EXPERIENCES the nightmare of A fucking simple mammogram that I did!   

I was physically & mentally abused by a technician *while MY breast was LOCKED DOWN*. 

The ONLY reason I did NOT immediately  blog, social media was  because Storm left (the exact time) for Spain & I did not want to upset him,  he was already feeling bad he couldn't drive  me to my appointment.    He has returned safe.​
It has  been difficult to 'FAKE' the past few days but I know he would know something was wrong.  I should have called the police to report abuse - and will consider this today.

It's been almost a week - they have NOT  called to even talk to me about it!  I've called, e mail etc..  & this makes me feel worse - no once cares. WE are just a number to these places - SHEEP to be prodded & poked by people with NO COMPASSION.

Today I AM NOT going to spend the day crying in bed I'm calling my lawyer to get her opinion.  I will add the Breast Screening program of Ontario was very quick to help direct me, as well as the college of Dr.s & nurses & have someone who is helping me with seeing that this woman's actions are REPORTED.

TBH I am seriously struggling with being social at all at the moment - as if I was not already..  and then there's the results I now wait for.   I pray I don't have to take the test over (I certainly do not TRUST her  as a professional - because that is certainly NOT what I  witnessed OR experienced) &  now...
I'M FUCKING TERRIFIED to have another MAMMOGRAM!

With TLC & THC 
Georgia 

Please forgive my absence for a bit .

What are you reading?  When I first painted this I added the title in gold- but did not like how it looked so I went over it - one reason I love gouache, look how well it covered it.. and then I realized anyway - it does not need the title, one should be able to figure it out on your own. This was inspired by an image I saw on pin of an actual book someone has grown mushrooms out of - what a neat idea.

On my mind - much.. I see a dispensary was raided for selling edibles that resembled candy - they even packaged it  with a name very close to Candy - like  Qandy'  So - first - what were you thinking?   I don't think adults NEED gummy candies shaped like bears or worms- but fuck yeah!  -Who doesn't like gummies? I prefer the more natural fruit roll ups' -dehydrated fruit (Is anyone making those?) Why are they making them? Because PEOPLE WANT them. & they will continue to make them - as long as the demand is there & it's not going away anytime soon- I read Martha Stewart has been hired by Tweed- come on people, YOU know they are going to be producing some fine gummies - and then some - WHO ISNT? & good because we want it!  So as for the raid - Please, in a short time  we will see chocolates, gummies, pop, beer,  and more ALL medicated'.  I do not think this person  should go to jail- (they probably won't)  I think it's a waste of time at this point - and DO NOT understand why we are not demanding  our police force FOCUS on more important issues like fucking missing, raped, abused women & children, actual PHYSICAL beings that are being HURT. I do NOT understand it any more.

I have not seen Leaving Neverland yet,  when the court case was on I felt then he was guilty.  I have issues... I can't stop thinking about this & it makes me sad & angry & sleepless,  people who abuse children for their own selfish demented sick needs are the some of sickest on the planet.   Sexual abuse of children is a serious problem- human trafficking of children is a serious fucking issue!!  It messes up a child forever & someone like Michael Jackson who think because OF $$$$ he was permitted to do what ever the fuck he wanted.  When people say - how did the kids not know it was abuse- when an adult you trust TELLS you something, YOU believe it. 
Look at priests & coaches - people who have put themselves in situations to intentionally HURT children.  Everyone who enabled Michael Jackson to get away with what he did - is ALSO guilty. He got away with what he did for as long as he did BECAUSE others helped him.    Anyone who looks at Michael Jackson and does not realize how sick he was - I feel the plastic surgeons who kept working on him - should be held accountable to some degree.  & there is the fact that he was beaten -abused by his dad... so what! If everyone who's dad/mom beat them turned to child abuse -we would be in serious trouble.

Why did the kids want to stay around him? Why do children who have had their parents abuse them for years - stay and even defend them? I can tell you from my own personal experience,  I've had several events in my life  where I can see an image 'now', hear a song and suddenly I AM right BACK at that moment in time.  I feel the fear,  pain and anger in an instant - year of self help books, talking with Dr.s and more, medication- nothing works. UNTIL you KNOW what they have felt with WALK in their shoes.  LEARN from this what GROOMING children for sexual abuse looks like.
What fucking grown man NEEDS to sleep with children? How is this EVER normal?  
It is happening everywhere - by people who appear to be lovely, caring & interested -
they are not- they are evils, nasty PREDATORS.  The classic signs of grooming:  
They convince others  they are safe with them.
They  groom family with gifts, attention  & $$$
They then convince them they are special. 
Then touching is introduced- it starts with ruff housing, playing accidentally  touching genitals. It's probably someone YOU KNOW! 

Teach your children NOW- it always amazes me people who don't want to teach their children about drugs or sex or predators -  for fear of frightening them - whats worse?
Kids being aware & a little frightened or kids being ABUSED or dead from accidental drug overdoses?   I can drop a pill on the floor & have already taught all my dogs - DO NOT TOUCH THAT fucking pill or mom will smack you!  Have you taught your kids the same??Go ahead, think I'm cruel - my dog's don't eat anything they find on the ground, do you know when I started this training?  After I had a dog die from a accidental drug overdose.   

1 in 6 men are molested as a child.. how sad is that.  
SPEAK UP!  If 6 or 56 year old - now or then - expose them for what they are.
I am thankful that sooner or later - the sun the moon an the truth come out.  Always.

As for his music- fuck it- I don't want to hear it,  when I do now all I thinks is:
He was  SEXUAL PREDATOR - if I hear it on Amazon music on Alexa I say 'SKIP'. 
If I hear it on the radio I'll change the station or play a CD.
His 'FANs" that continue to support him - because they love his music - are part of the problem.  What statement does that make?   The obvious pain that these men still deal with heart breaking.

The ONLY one Michael Jackson has to blame (or his family and fans) is..
​Michael Jackson.

with TLC & THC
Georgia