Waking up to news of a shooter in Toronto - just strolling down the street - taking lives..
has me wondering what's wrong, why cant we see/know these people are struggling... losing control.
I don't understand wanting to take innocent life for fun, for headlines.. for - what?
I don't get guns.
I understand being upset, depressed & angry but I do NOT understand this.
IF he was as bad as he was why wasn't he is a hospital or institution?
Where did such a mentally ill person get a gun?
Why is anyone with ANY record permitted to own a firearm in Canada? ;( The beautiful young women who haven't even got a chance to live yet... I know how frightened I was just days before from a (? Pellet gun) these people might struggle with this for a long time.
It just makes me want to cry.
I want love in the air and peace in our homes & yards.
I've seen some small plants in a backyard a while back on a walk to the poetaster - it made me SMILE.. 4 little plants in 4 red cups. Amen
I can't help but imagine happier, stress free times for many, sitting int he backyard watching nature take it's course. Peace, cannabis.. love.
Just what we all need.
with TLC & THC
It's still tiki time... the reason I started to paint the tiki is simple - I was sore, stiff from sitting at my desk all day- determined to paint outside & enjoy the weather & 'BE' in nature. I was walking by Norms storage area - saw the tall lovely boards and grabbed one - that was the beginning. The first tiki I called the 'shaman' - *all my tiki have a little funny twist (I think so anyhow).. I'm at 9 tiki now- including my own personal tiki -painted for daily motivation - It's been perfect - well almost*.
I rise with the birds - go outside - lite a mosquito trap as they are hungry in the morning, make coffee, get a bit of breakfast then the girls and I are outside ALL day painting peacefully in the back yard! It's working too- a friend visited recently and she said "you look better" - it's because I don't have time for bullshit when I happily painting tiki to make me & others smile. No time for Donald dramatics, cannabis will soon be legal - let's focus on all that will go right for a while, even my cannabis painting are anticipating good times- imagining all who will grow- become closer to the plant & more educated in general- ending stigma & more.
Most of the time painting I don't even have on any music, I love listening to the different chirps', bugs, pond, waterfall & of course the bluejays. I have babies at my feeder just learning to squeak - not yet Squak! Birds are on decline around the world - I've noticed fewer bluejay and attributed it to them possibly just moving around - that is -until Friday.
Friday while outback painting -I heard the bluejay, watched them at my feeder- and suddenly I heard a kinda soft pop and a "smacking noise" could hear the bird in mid squak - DID I just hear what I think I heard?
Did some one just shoot a blue jay?
I knew EXACTLY where it came from & sure enough just as looked over the mother of the house (I can see them from my deck) came outback and I heard her ask 'did you get it?' *YOU FUCKING bitch - You are aware of this bullshit & ALLOW it?
She was 'hushed' then - I guess they knew I was listening as I stood up and looked over as soon as it happened. I was in shock- so much so I told my self 'JUST paint- do not think about it..' So much happening the pup, vehicle shopping, tiki show coming up - I actually forgot.
Yesterday, while painting- I didn't have the radio on... listening to the birds again, the dogs all around me sleeping (thank goodness - lol - break time) I sat to paint, keep in mind my deck is raised higher than anyones - Norm build it, it's awesome (of course) another outdoor room - so I can see more than most. I sat to paint for a break, we also have privacy screens all around so you could not see me... & then - that POS did it again.
This time the CRACK of the bullet smacking the bark (very close to us) was so loud - Poppy fell of the chair, Daisy and the other dogs including the pup all jumped! All the birds at the feeder took off ! The bluejay SQUAKED! I don't think was hit 'this time'. It was so loud my heart was racing - it was terrifying! NO doubts this time of EXACTLY where & what it was.
After it happened I watched and saw no movement- that's because I flew off my chair from fear- and he realized I was there- I RAN up to my upstairs bathroom - jump on the toilet and looked out the window- best clear view- and I saw the USELESS POS get up then and sneak back into the house, closing the screen every so quietly - I SAW YOU, fucking useless piece of crap - who does this? I know - miserable, nasty, people with nothing better to do - no life goals, no ambition - petty DRUNKS who probably can't stand the bluejays with their constant hangovers. Every time they are drunk (every holiday) screaming until all hours, countless times over the years the police have visited them. I know they are reading this, so - KNOW this you worthless piece of crap- I will fucking report you every time. I will be outside with the bluejays & I will have my camera on every time they are around & I hope you go to fucking jail where you belong.
The ignorance is astounding, completely selfish. It's illegal to SHOOT an air rifle in a subdivision - BUT YOU KNOW that too you sneaky fucker, don't you. YOU were caught.
NOT to mention there are so many small kids, the backyard behind me is a daycare- clearly this asshole doesn't give a fuck about anything but himself & as for the 'mom' ... I heard you - NO shock here. Miserable drunks with nothing better to do but sit around and shoot bluejays. I'm sure anyone reading this in the vicinity knows exactly who I'm talking about.
Why shouldn't they know what you are really like?
Do you think this is a joke?
It's not, this sort of person thinks they above everyone else, what if he decides your dog is barking too much?
It is a criminal offence to wilfully and without lawful excuse kill, maim, wound, poison or injure a bird, or for anyone to cause or permit unnecessary pain, suffering or injury to a bird. Both wild and domestic birds are protected. Enforcement of criminal offences related to birds is the responsibility of the police and humane societies. The penalty is a fine of not more than $2000 or to imprisonment for six months or both.
All I'm trying to do is paint in peace, listen to the birds, enjoy my backyard, enjoy the sunshine, painting tiki to make others smile - what about you asshole how do you contribute to the world? Oh yeah...
With TLC & THC
BTW - I've also reported you to the Canadian National bird society.
I am for abortion. I am for life.
When does life begin?
Babies in cages and sent to prisons- without their parents- the USA has never looked so UGLY, the Assholes wife- wore a jacket- when I first saw it i thought it was photoshopped, when I read it was not - if I've ever defended that cunt as 'a woman in an unfortunate circumstance', I take it back. Just when you think they can't get any LOWER they do.
Now the presidential pig is changing his mind' due to back lash.. Sessions using GOD" to make sure AMERICANs keep in line - the bible tells you to respect your government - all who listen to that crap ASK yourself- IF you believe: What would JESUS DO?
Today I saw a 'beautiful American blonde" who posted on FB she thinks "they should all be shot at the border" to save money & time. I think I know who should be shot first. I saw a hateful post on IG.. she: hates Canadians, hates Trump and hates Americans who are not patriotic - (an American herself) I looked at her IG page out of curiosity- I 'saw' a beautiful black woman, dressed nice, appeared professional, smart- but her comments were nothing but UGLY & bitter and so did she become this after you read all the nasty things she says on line. Beauty really is ONLY skin deep.
I 'get it', if you let people come - they will. Well, if American stopped raging wars and bombing other countries for their own personal greed - Foreigners probably would stay where they 'belong' in the first place, belong in their own culture, thriving, happy, in a lovely country with sunshine, family & friends. The USA has destroyed them. Look at the images below & tell me would you stay?
I would be doing everything in my power as a mother to get my child to a better life & opportunity. So would every American mother - I'd hope. Yes, I get some criminals try to get into the country too & this must be recognized but there is NO excuse at all for abusing children (infants & babies) & treating them as if they were animals, Infants even. Doesn't American understand the pain they are causing on a grand scale will only bring more pain to them?
So when does life start? Perhaps if we really thought about it - took it seriously and decided it start at conception - I just learned something & found it bothered me - with in vitro fertilization they sometimes 'smack' the sperm agains the glass to 'kill it' first so they can inject it easier... so, a dead sperm can make a live baby - what kind of a start is that to life?
What if the sperm feels - it is ALIVE after all. How much do we understand?
We are all so busy children are being abused constantly by babysitters, caregivers, forgotten in hot cars to die, stolen, used as pawns in relationships, sexually abused (some now born for this reason- that is the most fucked up thing I have ever read) little babies beaten, treated like objects.
I think babies should be considered babies at conception - perhaps then some might think carefully before they bring the little being into the world. Children do not ask to be here - we do that.... If a baby is NOT wanted - I do hope they are aborted - rather than brought into a life of abuse. Anyhow this thing with kids being put in cages and separated from parents- has me feeling worse about humanity. I need a serious detox.
Yesterday was also marked 117 days to legalization.
Wait until you see some of my new art, I'm taking it to a new HIGH.
I also have a new camera set up & am making some videos in hopes it will inspire some & teach them how to paint.
With TLC & THC
I get it.
Have you watched 100% hotter?
It's all about beauty & the beast.
The beast called BEAUTY' .
Insecure, lonely, sad beautiful people - afraid to be - themselves.
What will happen when make - up doesn't cut it anymore?
Your guess is as good as mine...
I guess they will follow Anthony's footsteps sooner or later.
Afraid to leave their homes, afraid to interact with others without the mask.
Who are you? Can you be seen as you truly ARE? Hmmm?
My mask is off... with it came off the rose colored glasses.
Thinking about Anthony, all he witnessed, lived, tried... tasted, I get it.
It's enough to put a sour taste in anyones stomach & he was witness more than most.
Suicide is still taboo - because people do not want to admit they ARE part of the problem. We are all part of the problem. Have you watched Audrie & Daisy?
IF I had a daughter I would sit her down & watch it with her & TALK about it.
*Talk about Alcohol while YOU are at it. It is a common denominator.
In a world FULL Of humans - to feel so alone... this is the problem.
What does 'it' matter? The money, travel, food.. all stuff.
All stuff that does not matter when you constantly witness cruelties against each other, he was aware of this #metoo thing, if I had to guess - in all his travels, he's witnessed more than most and was just tired. I get it.
I am so tired some days.. mostly due to this condition attacking the right 1/2 of my body, from head to toe - spend an hour with me and you will witness it, I guarantee. I've even doubted my ability to travel lately, France seems so far away some days, traveling to the mailbox feels like an adventure. The constant reminders that so few understand or try to understand if what frustrates me the most, I therefore enjoy days of solitude -where no explaining is necessary. This past weekend I was alone ALL weekend and felt very refreshed at the end of it. I was very much in the NOW.
I have had 'family' throw it in my face.. which was a terrific lesson- You should learn to walk/run away from people - get them out of your life 'FAMILY' is just a word- not everyone deserves to BE in your life- no matter WHO they are.
With examples like Trump running 'the show' my trust in humans diminishes daily. What if Trump attempts to commit suicide & decides to take a few countries out as he goes? I think he has clearly proven how unstable he is in countless ways..
Anything is possible - clearly he is president after all.
Yes, this painting depicts how I feel, physically.
I'm sorry my son knows how I feel above all else.. but he also understands events in my/our life & how 'I got this way'. He KNOWS I try every day to be better, to be positive to be love... to just BE.
I don't need or want pity- this is more or less me "coming out" because I KNOW I am not alone, I KNOW many feel like I do.. I know some young ladies in particular feel exactly like I do & have a harder time NOW with social media- it's an entirely new level of added pressures for most.
Watch Audrie & Daisy- worried about your kids and cannabis?
Watch Audrie & Daisy and learn what you would be concerned about.
My art has saved my life time and time again. Focus on your passions.
I do often tell people "If not for my brain pain- my life would be perfect.."
it's learning to LIVE with the PAIN. So far so good.
I also have incredible Dr.s who Listen & TALK and keep me here without antidepressants' & remind me: I do have reason to feel the way I do.. it's NOT all in my head.
I know I push people away - constantly.
Some look forward to it- then they don't have to SEE what I am living with.
For those that remain thank you for your understanding & love, all others..
Fuck you, you're not worth the mental energy I could be using towards painting.
Suicide rates are on the increase with Canadian women: I get it.
Clearly, I AM not alone.
For now... I am in good hands.
So is Anthony.
Back to Sloths & cannabis next.. back to painting what makes me smile.
Thank God. Make yourself SMILE.
Dear Anthony - I get it.
With TLC & THC
I've recently discovered this Japanese artist on Twitter..
His work displays how many of us feel at times during our lives & it's not always enjoyable these are some powerful images.
It has inspired me to work on some drawings of my own.
It's a way to deal with the issues and educate - doing what I do best.... drawing.
Painting can also be part of a specific healing process, I'm not sure about other artists but once it's OUT on paper it's out of my mind and life goes on.. I guess a drawing purge of sorts. I drew countless images over the years afraid to show them- not realizing how many would actually 'relate to my drawings. We are not so different.
Maybe that reason alone is helpful for those who can't put into words what they are experiencing.
Viewers be warned. It won't be your usual bear, sloth work.
Tomorrows painting is titled: Dear Anthony, I get it.
Ending on positive note.. my son visited yesterday (with Burger priest for lunch) to do laundry and an oil change, it was nice to just sit in the driveway while he worked, the girls on the front lawn as we all listened to city adventures. I can hear the appreciation for the best of both worlds Storm has at the moment. Daisy was thrilled and laid more of a guilt trip on him when he was getting ready to leave that I do! LOL It's good to be loved.
With TLC & THC
A friend sent me an e mail showing my website BLOCKED in the USA (New York)
Reason given Category : Abused Drugs.
This is what is happening in America right now.
Have you seen the new documentary on Netflix about Social media & privacy?
How the CIA is breaking down doors of 12 year olds and putting tourists in jail for posting derogatory remarks about Trump?
You will only be shown what they want you to see.
Where is democracy going?
Hey Hey Hey!! Now - Put the RAPIST away.
Guilty Guilty Guilty - as IF we needed the 2nd court case to prove it.
& yes, I AM thrilled it is because of fantastic female Canadian who did NOT let this F*&^%NG RAPIST intimidate, lie or $$$ his way out of this one.
People are paying attention. TIMES up.
When are judges going to be held accountable for letting these predators go - again and again so they can continue to destroy & abuse? Treated 'DIFFERENT because of his wealth & fame. What would Fat Albert say? Throw away the key.
I watched Fat Albert - did you, I can say with confidence Fat Albert would be disgusted with Bill Cosby, as should ALL be. WTF is wrong with the power hungry sleeze bags?
*BTW- the lyrics from FAT ALBERT are exactly as I drew in the cartoon - was that not a premonition in hindsight or what? He probably sang it to himself before he raped his passed out VICTIMS.
NOW he should GO to JAIL - just like others 'NOT of his class' would have been in jail already by now and would stay there for YEARS.. Will he? Right NOW -he is locked up in his mansion - boohoo.
He'll probably only get 5 years with all his money... His career is OVER.
Who would pay to SUPPORT this rapist in anything from this day forward?
Jello has lost it's appeal because of him.
Once looked at as a role Model- Americas Dad' - Phhhhbt!
Bill Cosy will NOW only be remembered for the Rapist he is.
He was behaving beyond badly with his drugging- because he knew women probably would have PASSED - just look at this CREEP in this interview. I'm curious what David Letterman thinks now. Imagine waking up to realize YOU had been sexually assaulted by BILL Cosby, yuk yuk yuk.
I'll draw it out- give him the attention he deserves - above all else I draw to SUPPORT the women he DRUGGED & RAPED. #metoo
Hey Hey Hey - What do you think FAT ALBERT would say?:
Guilty? Guilty! Guilty! - Hey Hey hey 'Put the rapist away!
With TLC & THC
I'm not sure why I bought this book or rather why I was drawn to this one but I was.
It's my cannabis education that also informed me about Human Trafficking - and how we waste time & resources with Drug trafficking - it's shameful. I don't understand it.
I understand less.. people who are capable of sexually/physically abuse & hurt children - Then add the worst element you possibly can- the children are being perpetrated & used, abused by their own parents- is just FUCKING EVIL.
& for any who dare to argue Kids are o.k. with it - should read this book. The anger in his words years later- you can still feel his pain. I could .. it took me a long time to read this book, I had it before the last 2... it is a true story of sexual abuse of a little boy and a very tragic story. While reading I kept thinking - If I could get at his mother... why didn't someone help him? How could they allow this to happen.. the name calling that went in my mind was not a good place to be. I had to finish. If this man could endure what he did and then share it with us to educate - how can I not read it and try to help to bring awareness. Not seeing it' will not make it go away- not seeing it does not mean it does not happen.
At one point when he talks about most of the men who come to have sex with the kids - don't even care to remove their wedding rings... they wonder - do they have children at home? It literally made me feel sick to my stomach a few times. If you think it doesn't mentally mess them up - read the book, see what is happening - the hate this creates - as far as I am concerned this is the sickest act an adult can achieve and I believe they should be severely punished. If you can't control your self around children sexual/physically -YOU are in fact the one with the problem... get castrated... before some innocent childs' life is destroyed because of lack control by an deranged egotistical, evil adult, as for the mother in the book - I have no words. I know what I was wishing would happen to her as I was reading - so YES, I was let down at the end to read she was not taken out back and beaten.. as she did so many times to that baby boy. He could never understand why no one said anything... What would you do if you suspected someone of abusing children... it can be a very serious implication to someone in a negative way- but far more serious to a child who is LIVING through the HELL.
I understand people who hurt, hurt... this is not just inflicting pain - this is degrading a human so low they can hardly function, a tiny human.. who does not deserve this in any way. The money we waste on DRUG trafficking when this sort of thing is happen NOW to children is a terrible sign of a struggling society. Read it.
It has inspired a few drawing editorials when I stop feeling so sick about it.
I am very grateful to Joe Peters for sharing this - it must be incredibly difficult still- although it ends with him and he is with a wife and children of his own.
With TLC & THC
New art next!
Just Bee... just enjoy the journey.
She's so confident, chilled .. just being who she is meant to Be - just the QUEEN..
Being in the moment. Right here & NOW. She is who I aspire to BE.
Queen of Calm - lol! Can I do it? I'm trying. I try.
Did I tell you I'm quick tempered? Can you guess? So all this BEE here NOW is needed.. we all need reminders and no' it is NO excuse- but this constant zapping does not help it's like a spark plug to the 10 second meltdowns.. the good thing with my yelling (always find the bright side) is with time it does seem to be quicker, blunter.. if it's worth yelling over I must be pretty upset & I don't back down easily, these are learned traits. I've never claimed to be perfect in anyones mind but Gods... and I wish I got better at ignoring stuff.
Don't we all.
Someone pointed out on PIN of all places.. it looks like someone is coping my art... or rather my ideas & was told someone saw prints recently of one of my designs but apparently it was poor quality and a poor attempt at selling so I just let it go.. & in the heat of the moment I even asked another artist if she "copied much?"
-Because we have an image very similar. Sigh..
What the f*ck takes over me? I can tell you.. EGO.
It sneaks in from time to time (luckily in some ways) and says "that's the greatest idea ever!!" ... "No one can even come close to such a creative idea!! & it will make you an internet sensation!" (which makes me laugh because I constantly can't decide on privacy settings so my account doesn't grow too fast, as with FB... It's not easy (for me) when you go from a few hundred to a few thousand (with it comes more - messages, more comment control, more replies, more & more and less time painting. Sometimes - I'll go online and see not only 'My amazing ORIGINAL idea' but one that is the same and a touch - better in some cases - and then something takes over (gratefully) and I ask:
Who am I - when I get like this?
When I realized only moments later I was out of line and just grumpy from being mentally exhausted first thing in the morning - I apologized - I never said I was perfect... she's a talented artist- and I bet she probably 'get's it', it seems par for the course if your show your work on line. I apologized for my momentary mind ego takeover. Ironically, I don't even know if she saw it - hahaha IG has a thing where you images disappear- I'm not sure how to turn this feature off. Then I apologized to myself.
Have you forgiven yourself lately? It felt kinda nice.. ;)
Ease up, you lived through it yesterday, the day before & You can continue tomorrow but right NOW- Go paint.. release, relax, breath & BE. Become a Queen at Calm.
This is more important that any 'art' I can produce for the universe. ;)
With TLC & THC
Once there was a Tinky Winky
Who had a little too much to Drinky
& this effected how he Thinky.
Tinky Winky + thinky + Drinky =
Sinky. (Into depression)
I doubt very much Tinky Winky would be dead
.. had he switched to JUST cannabis instead.
R.I.P Tinky Winky. 2018
Have I lied?
I read this this morning and shook my head... not hit by a bus, not a heart attack.. he froze to death from being passed out DRUNK in a ditch. Is this the middle ages? How does this happen? Alcohol IS a PROBLEM. Alcohol kills and YET our own canadian government is TREATING us & cannabis as IF we are still criminals- Cannabis the the safer option. Not allowing advertising- what about ALCOHOL Justin??? Alcohol, proven to have caused deaths many times over in many ways.. can advertise - is thought to be NORMAL - a way to make every celebration complete- well here are the facts in YOUR face.
It is an opportunity to teach all children the TRUTH:
Tinky Winky had too much to drink and died.
How f*cking sad. Check out this list we can add Tinky to:
I thought to myself this might make some people angry.. good. Are you angry with me?
How about you get angry with a government who continues to mislead it's people by promoting, and allowing the abuses of alcohol to continue at a profit - DO you know how much he LCBO in canada makes- IT is the biggest Monolopy in the world OUR booze sales earn our government billions FACT. $22.1 billion last year alone. Is there any wonder we see hyprocy when it comes o alcohol & cannabis- DO NOT stand for it.
I REFUSE to let anyone label me a criminal or "stoner" for my choosing cannabis - educate yourself on the facts & then lets continue the conversation - as legalization gets here- regarding advertising- theres going to be challenges and cannabis will win.
The Sun. The moon & the Truth - can not be hidden long.
Cananbis is much safer than Alcohol.
World wide Deaths from Cannabis alone: 0
World wide Deaths from Alcohol alone : Too many to ever keep track of & counting.
made with TLC & THC
I do feel truly sad for the gentleman who played Tinky Winky , Simon Shelton.
What a sad, lonely way to go.
Free at last.
Georgia... On My Mind.