The vaccine will keep us  alive!      Hurry. LINE UP!!  Phhhhbt.  Hmmmm.. will it? 
What about those side effects.. in 3 years.  Will the vaccine change  by then for the evolving pandemic - probably.  

How many vaccines will we put into our bodies before we can't handle anymore? 

There is no vaccine for all those who will suffer from job loss, shut downs, poverty & hunger, domestic abuse.. loneliness - a shot in the arm won't help any of these situations.  
Statement heard on a CBC podcast 'IDEAS' not my origianl idea regarding on how to address the pandemic.

AS our Canadian politicians WARN & put the fear of GOD in us “WEAR A MASK!! STAY HOME!!” Then travel to tropical islands  and LIE about it by posting illusions on Instagram - sneaky fucker. Has there ever been such hypocrisy for all to SEE?   In my opinion it should end up in an automatic loss of ‘entitlement’ to the POLITICIANS who pretend to support & represent ALL Canadians.. from the beaches of another country - during a global pandemic. Clearly they can’t resist the CHEAP travel deals.. worth the cost of covid.

No wonder we don’t trust what politicians tell us anymore as Walmart Costco & Amazon thrive… Doug Ford, just another  ‘leader of the pack’ it appears but they all push the ‘miracle vaccine!’…     It seems a little ‘too good to be true’…   does it not?

In the states.. some are olny getting 1/2 the vaccine now,  you know - the same vaccine that states we need to have 2 doses for it to work.   What is it? One or two?  Will the new vaccine work for the new Covid strains? Hmmm I can't find a POSITIVE response anywhere - it MIGHT. & if you have the vaccine - you should isolate still for 2 weeks- -it could take that long. but if you have covid- no point. FUCKED up confusion on a global scale. I'll wait.

The days are getting longer… more daylight to paint!
You were created to create- go create something.   
​Next- these two (below) - a source of constant amusement, thank God.
G

It's Tuesday - mental health week- and I woke tired and teary - perfect.
Am I feeling depressed, yes.  
Let me tell you what runs through my mind - Until I force it to stop:

Why am I painting? ...does anyone care,  if I stopped would anyone even notice.
What is the fucking point to all of this?  It's all just STUFF.
No one even likes my art  (except maybe Ez).  
How much do you expect me to deal with Lord?   I feel I've had enough.
Go back to bed.      Go back to bed.   Fuck it- back to bed.
& that is what I did.
Back to bed- cried myselft to sleep for an hour.  Norm is working - perfect- I don't like him to see me cry, I know it makes him sad too. The dogs, chickens and goats demand attention  up and at it... but I still don't feel like painting  or feel loved.  
Thank God for DOGS.  My dogs love & would miss me - that I am sure of.
 
If I did not have dogs, goats & chickens I think I'd go and stay in bed today, tomorrow too...
AND THAT is the slippery slope of depression, once it gets you in it's grasp - it does not take much to wrap around and hold you for a while. No matter who you are or what you have.
I'll never get past these feelings,  I understand why.  
If you don't understand why I'm 'like this' - it's your problem - not mine.
and it is a problem. 

So..  tired, depressed, not feeling very hopeful today - I still managed to get this Hippo done. I  know it seems like a joke to some, a paper hippo - but it's a big deal to me.. A big accomplishemt considering how I'm feeling.  
​I still want to believe some kid will print this puppet and it will make them happy - it's that fucking simple!

AT LEAST I TRY.   Before You judge me or anyone else today - ASK YOURSELF:
WHAT have you done to TRY to make this a better place today?  What?

Feeling depressed?  I dare you to make this hippo and play with it- he really is kinda cute.
I made a black & white - for those who wish to colour their own and a full colour - which I printed and made - it turned out better than I thought. 

If you wanted a Hippopotamus for Christmas - you're welcome.

​Georgia

I'd like to start this mental health week on a positive note with a positive suggestion:
Go into this winter (lockdown) with the mind of a caterpillar & in the spring prepare to emerg & transfigure into 2021  stronger, healthier & wiser. Why not!?
How can anyone not be wiser after all this.  I'd like to share a couple suggestions of what I KNOW works for me - it can't hurt.. yes, I've had experience with depression before a pandemic - 202o was one of our happiest years. So here goes, a few pointers to prevent depression spiraling out of control.

-Have Faith.  I can't express it enough... To have faith is everything - to have Faith is to have faith in me.  Have Faith we will continue through this.

-If you are struggling with thoughts of giving up, be brave and ask to speak to someone.
I had/have 2 Dr.s  who speak & listen... explain.  God  sent my Dr.s, I know it now.  
"I promise you Georgia, it will get better... soon you will meet someone & have your own family.."   said my Dr. sitting in his office (after hours) as he stitched me up for  'cutting', a little too deep 'that time' & I was too embarrassed to go to the hospital.  I cut my arms , thighs, abdomen with a razore blade for years... my mother never seemed to notice,  I found out later, she informed others I did it because "I was fucked up"... I sure was.  I cut because I did NOT know how to deal with the depression, I cut to hurt myself because I felt I was not wanted. I cut because I was the only one I could control.  I cut becuase it felt better to hurt myself than others. I am reminded by scars physical & mental.  
Find someone to talk to - if you can't find someone - there's ALWAYS Jesus.  

-Do not drink alcohol. So much abuse could be avoided without alcohol.  All you have to do is 'pass on the alcohol.  Because, I was raised in a 'alcohol home there are times during this pandemic - I've condiered getting drunk to forget it all, if only for a few hours. Yikes.  Not a good time to get drunk and wallow - it's easy to be swallowed by depression with all currently happening. Don't do it.. it only dulls the feelings, nothing goes away.
​After excessive alcohol, problems are usually worse as well as feeling hung over.  
I treat myself to LUCs brew in a wine glass- LOVE the blueberry Basil,  not only is it tasty, refreshing- it's good for me. Alcohol Free.   It's your choice.

Read. Craft.. learn to speak a new language...  I learned to speak Goat - just as Nugget.
Why not- NOW is the time to dream & transform - ready to spread our wings & FLY when...  we can.

With THC & TLC
​Georgia
  

A Smoking hot Cock.  Formerly known as Foghorn.
It is with a heavy heart I share our first fatality on the farm and of course I was literaly painting him - when it happened.  Gloria (my big black rooster whom I thought was a hen) is a asshole.. he kept beating up Foghorn and we were literally making up a FREE ROOSTER sign to get rid of him & just keep Foghorn.   Gloria beat up Foghorn several times to the point he jumped out of the pen - several times.  Clearly they can get out - if they choose.

I heard the commotion  (as did the dogs)  I looked out the window to see Gloria again brutally beating on Foghorn - the dogs heard it too... Foghorn was flying around the pen but Gloria was relentless and 3 times his size... she grew fast the past couple of months.
I thought he was hiding under the coop,   he was hiding under the back deck.. the dogs found him and Norm found the dogs.
 
The dogs although they have never attacked a chicken in the coop - thought Foghorn was fair game running loose, I guess. They will more training around the chickens, in some dogs I do believe it's instinct, they do their job by protecting the Farm & that's most important. 

Sad yes, very much but at the same time I was warned, several girlfriends shared - shit happens, especially to chickens... cats, dogs, hawks - other chickens, stuff falls on them, they get get caught in places and can't get out, it's all part of farm life and life.  
I decided I'd continue the painting and work through it,  not an easy task - tears & gouache don't go good together.   I felt bad for Norm, he was closer to Foghorn.

I would advise against getting roosters.
You don't need them for eggs - Yes, if you want to  eggs to become chickens.
Crow at sunrise - HA! That is only in the movies as I NOW know - lol, this mother clucker crows when ever he wants to!  Still, I'll take the noise of a Rooster than TRAFFIC or Urban noise any day. Good Bye Foghorn.  

With TLC & THC 
​Georgia

Some days - you just need to sit back and give.. not one fuck.
Not about anything or anyone.. chances are, the world & those we care about will still be there when you return from a small break

Justin Trudeau gave us his new opinion and it sucks... I remember not celebrating Thanksgiving - in hopes we might celebrate Christmas.  The 'holiday' now comes with an entirly new level of not needed stress - for too many.
Others lives are more importnt to me than a holiday so...  I'll go with the flow.

I'm sure you are aware of disbelievers.. well, there are days I tell you I don't know what to fucking think about any of this- the vaccine is disturbing, in the past- they took MUCH longer to test before giving it frankly.  I'm in no hurry to get it.   If you research and watch - there are many VERY educated people questioning all of this and the lock downs.  Yes, it is confusing - the government can't seem to get their shit together and get on the same page - no wonder poeple are becoming impatient and tired - covid exhasuted.

RIGHT NOW - I will wear a mask- NOT because the goverment insists, because I care about you - strangers.. I don't want to make you sick.  I I don't know enough to take a chance.  Do you?  It's that simple.  I do believe masks work to some degree.  Just say - this is all a giant hoax (I don't feel it is)  but just say it is... either way- I would rather be known as a "sheep" (far from)  for wearing a mask than someone who refuses to wear a mask and takes a 'CHANCE' in making others sick.  I'm not concerned about dying - fyi  - I  just don't want to get sick'... do you?   

I already live with chronic pain from Arthritis & the the fucking constant TN that wakes me up most days before the rooster and fucks with me ALL DAY LONG.
Right now - nope, I cant do it.. not one fuck will be given about covid, masks, Trump or vaccines.

I am trying to shop LOCAL - my neighbours need the help - everyone should be doing the same, suport your local community so they are still there after this pandemic.  
I decided to buy  ALL Canadian  made this Christmas and homemade'  & I'll be painting & not giving one fuck... until, maybe Monday.  
​;)
 

Christmas  202o...  the Grinch is back.

According to the news Canada has record numbers and about 2 weeks before hospitals are  scrambling & overwhelmed... just in time for Christmas. Ho ho ho.
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The rest of the world doesn't appear much better off.
I'm not feeling 'Christmasy' this year, as I'm sure many are not - I'm excited to see how we will  be creative in new ways this holiday! I do believe the world is becomeing a little more thoughtful' , AWAKE & that is hopeful.  A good thing to focus on.

No Christmas tree. Not with the puppy, a few favorite decorations like the stable Norm made many moons ago...  I have 'skipped' Christmas before, it was less stressful & less work! More quality time relaxing & watching wood burn, snow falling... dog snuggling.  
We plan on a special meal, exchange a gift  -HOMEMADE  (by the grace of God) but that's all.  In the past I've alwasy encouraged ***NOT Going into debt at Christmas***
& this year is NOT the exception.  
Please don't.  Be honest with your children & they will become wise beings. 
Adding debt - adds stress & that takes away from the quality of life...  
2020 has been stressful enough.

Do support local business, perhaps smaller stores as they are hurting the most from what I've been reading.. these small communities 'rely on each other'  we are shopping local, local takeout,  local farm' supplies...   Amazon- is not hurting.  
Preferably handcrafted, I also hope to purchase a couple of Music CD's from some Canadian artists.   Please support your community & country.

Tom's got bird houses! $15 - $40 all money goes to local charity!
 & you are helping birds.
Either way...    the Grinch is back  Christmas 2020

with THC & TLC'

Grateful.  I am.  I think I'll make the image above a puzzle! lol
  
I went for a walk with my girls, time to train the pup to stick together in the woods & then must listen when I say come as we know, there are bear.  What a successsful first try!
We are refreshing the Happy Puppy Training kit and was reminded of wise words by the creator Rachelle, you want a happy puppy, and it's easy to lose patience I am also reminded..  stepping in a puddle of pee or poop.
She is house trained already - YAY Happy Puppy kit! Yay me!! Yay Arrow!
You don't want a dog that is afraid of you - they won't come when called- still, your dog needs to know you mean business.   Truly, this kit has helped me with the past 3 dogs and more so now. I am grateful.

The woods are awesome, the leaves stunning.. yellow & orange and just now really falling, the fresh path of pine needles & leaves is soft to walk on. I 'watched' pine needles shed this year - for the first time in my life - it's quite beautiful if you can catch it- I can from my sofa before I nap. I am grateful.

My son is busy and happy... although not visiting for thanksgiving, it is not encouraged. 
I am grateful for him, always & each FaceTime. text messages and a phone call 
Grateful for this internet service - though lacking in speed & quality like 1999. ;)
I am grateful for my dogs... such bringers of laughs and joy and adventure.
Norm is busy.. (understatement) but content... too busy to be anything else - wood to chop  - winter's coming ! 

I am grateful for the editorial cartoon idea I just got called:
Super Spreader.

I am grateful of the halloween painting idea that will take me all day.. I am grateful for my neighbours, trees, birds & still a few lingering bees! 
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We are teaching: Do not ever- touch anything on this coffee table..
Poppy was watching too - and would growl if Arrow even smelled it.
Our dogs are trained so I can leave food on the coffee table and they will not take it.
"Don't touch!"   I am grateful to report that treat is still there, 2 days later. 
Happy Puppy Training - continues.

200,000 Americans DEAD from Covid.
Just another day in paradise...   Fore!!!

Trump lies, encourages violence,  doesn't pay taxes, twitters nastiness all day long...  tells the poor to pay taxes.  Pays $70,000 for hair products...
Actually,  Americans paid $70,000 for Trumps hair products and probably a lot more for his golf clubs, golf shoes and that fancy RED hat.  

Trump Golfs.
Americans continue to die.
200,000 & counting.
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With THC & TLC
​Georgia