Another Holiday Monday! It's raining and there no such thing as a holiday on a farm - lol 
What an education this all is, this tiny farm.  Life.  Up with the roosters - no sleeping in with feathers & fur relying on you.  Keeping busy is good for the sole & mind & body.  I'm always stiff in the morning - with age let alone arthritis... not until Im up and active & loosen it all us does the pain of stiffness subside.  Use it or lose it!  
Farmers deserve more respect than they are given, feeding humans - is lots of work.
​I do NOT consider us farmers'  -  this is a hobby.
I'm learning to pickle eggs! I give eggs away too.. chances are they have faces on them.  

I can't imagine  drinking to the point of a hang over and having to deal with animals... they don't care if humans are hung over.  I hate hang overs so much I am grateful for  having experienced some "doozies"  in the past.. lessons learned - it took a while. 
I just won't anymore. It's not worth destroying braincells for a "feel good"... is it feel good?   Compared to cannabis  the more I think of it- the less I think alcohol makes anyone "feel good".  Sure it relaxes the body and mind - too much sometimes.    
It's sad when you understand,  Alcohol is the number one date rape DRUG. 
Think about it for a moment.   

Some drink to forget.  I use to use that escuse myself, a few times.  Ha.
It might make you forget for a bit, until it makes you wallow & get stuck in exactly what you were trying to forget about.  I remember my mom crying a lot drunk, aways talking about the same stuff.  Her past pains passed on to me during drunken stupors - because I was there to listen.  Told so many times and then left to ponder, I bet my mom has no clue as how much I remember of the details... coats, bundle buggies, curtains being closed, sibling rivalry  (I was not raised with my siblings so I don't know about it) all on how she suffered.  Who cares.
 That's part of the problem.. not many do care. Then or now.  I get it.  I think Melania was kinda right. GASP - yuk but... yep.   Not many really care.  They are distracted with their own lives.  AS life intended. Throw in Covid... big distraction going on.

The only thing anyone should care about NOW is breaking the cycle.
​RECOGNIZE & don't repeat what YOU did not enjoy as a child/adolescent.  How about that?  It's a holiday!
​Does that mean you're going to get 'shit faced'  (term for getting drunk)?
Sure go ahead! IF YOU don't have kids you are responsible for. 
They don't need to listen to your past pains  I think as parents we should be trying to make their path easier - even if it means sharing not pleasant topics by talking, educating (not impaired)  the more the tiny humans know the better they will be.  They are smarter than most realize. Id rather a child be taught early about "molestation" than to learn by having it happen - because they did not know - to say "NO!"  

? Tuff call.
Tomorrow is a tuff call for many parents... back to school  during covid - as it slowly creeps back up.  Pray for strength to get through, because life has to go on. 

The hamster was my 16th birthday gift, my friends wanted to take me out for my sweet 16th I was told "NO, come right home, we are celebrating"                YAAAY!
I spent the evening alone, no special dinner, no cake.  I was waken up around 2:00a.m. and given my birthday gift...  which I loved.  I guess she got side tracked. I was use to it.
Teddy died a couple of YEARS later while eating a McDonalds french fry, he was so old and arthritic he could hardly walk.  He was a wonderful, adorable pet & tiny companion.

With THC & TLC     I hope you have an alcohol free holiday!
Break the cycle. Life is not all cracked up as were led to believe.. hee hee- egg jokes.
Oh-  My chickens count how many eggs they lay!   They are mathemachickens.    
 lol Heard it on the radio, canoe.
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Georgia

I had just won the art award in highschool & was at my grandma's when a family member remarked "We always knew you were going to be an artist! You use to paint the walls with shit!" ...several looked at each other and laughed - I did too.  

I laughed until I understood.  Then I cried.
I had heard this a few times as I got older, you see I thought it was kinda funny... taking off my diaper & drawing on the walls with my shit - how creative of me! I guess I was born an artist.  It wasn't until I realized - much later in life - this was a very common occurance and many had found me covered in caked on shit.. sitting in my crib with shit on the walls.
It was not a one time thing.  It was a sign of serious neglect.  

My mother did not care if I shit myself.. apparently I would be found  and someone would take pity & bath me. I should consider myself lucky she did not give a shit about me being covered in shit.. I doubt she would have been any more atttentitive or loving with me in the tub - washing off the shit.   Some shit never washes off. 

I hear stories of people when they are little and they are cute & loving.. I think awwwww.
This was not my childhood.  I know I spent way too much time alone, my entire childhood.
I try NOW to understand EVERY thing happens for a reason but still I struggle - what was the reason God- I was given to someone who did not want me or love me?  So, at the age of 56 I can still be effected by this SHIT and brought to tears- UNTIL I remember - NEVER AGAIN - will I give that person the satisfaction of ever treating me like SHIT again.  
Yes, I will continue - so every Monday is a reminder to me & hopefully to others..

I know my mother was seriously struggling with depression & was an alcholic, that does not make it an excuse to abuse your child.  Are you depressed? Is you child suffering because  it?  GET help. 
Are you a family member who sees a child being neglected?   WTF?    HELP MORE!
Are you an adult now, still haunted by your childhood memories?  
Acknowledge, understand - IT WAS NEVER YOU!  Breath and go create!
You are a child of GOD- still here for a reason! Go create - Be joyful - that is the best success  & way to thank God.  I'm glad I was such a creative tiny being who was able to amuse myself painting with shit.. lol 
NOW, I paint to forget shit.. once I start painting  - all disappears, Thank GOD.
People alwasy comment on the amount I paint..  I paint to keep painfree - in more ways than anyone might imagine.  I focus on what & whom I love NOW, those who don't love me - can focus on what ever the fuck they want - who needs people like that in their lives?
NOT ME.  
Next week - playing HOOKEY!  Day's I got to stay home...... yippie.

Aren't you all glad I can NOW afford paint!?   hahaha  
Fuck that past shit!
I'm going to not give a shit while I smoke some really good shit  (thanks Son!)
& contemplate what kinda shit I'll get into, next.

;)

I NEVER, ever let my son sit in a dirty diaper. Not once.  
I gave him paint while he was still in diapers. I loved him with every breath, still do.
He liked to play in the dirt more... clearly with Love his passion GREW!  hee hee
& yesterday I painted 'a gardeners prayer- inspired by proverbs & the bible...
I'll share tomorrow.

with TLC & THC
​Me.

This view tho...  My studio is tiny and I'm constantly changing it to make is as 'fucntional' as possible.. if I ever feel cramped or frustraited  I Look up & Look out. Wow.    
Especially right now,  all the rain we've had - how glorious & green is the garden! 

Norms busy on the roof- getting ready to put in our RED fireplace - I'm very excited, and the past few mornings have been chilly - wee.  
Canada has approved Psilocybin research for 4 Canadians - cancer patients  AMEN! ABOUT time - hurry up with the red tape and help more Canadians access this medicine - proven to assist with anxiety and depression.  Here is the thing.. may ARE accessing it - NOW - illegally, because they know  the potential and to put anyone in jail for this' - is a cannabis all over again. Read: How to change your Mind, watch the countless documentaries on Psilocybin & Micro dosing, Educate yourself on the topic - KNOW - don't judge.  
Books too...  around for decades.  The time is NOW.

I attribute Psilocybin to finally helping me  DEAL with he past instead f shoving it aside..  a life of depression  which I understand NOW (completely out of my control) until older & wiser & learning how to acknowledge, embrace & accept my past is what is helping me heal. 
Like it or not- I don't care.. don't read it.  NOT just that BUT 2 really caring, helpful doctors who have always taken he time to listen and acknowledge & help..  the psilocybin were the  finally push - I needed.  Mushrooms have taught me I am LOVED.  Ha.  Go figure.

It was indeed a evening with Psilocybin when I drew  'my past' - on paper for my own eyes to see so - I could NO LONGER deny.  
Mushrooms made me step back and acknowledge:
 Hold On!
What the fuck!??
That's enough.
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You are a child of god.. created to create!
Amen.

We watched a documentary on Netflix on Transgender titled: Disclosure.  it was very interesting and a few things 'clicked' especially the part about Bugs bunny- Yes! I get that!  I was & AM still (obviously) inspired by Bugs - No doubts loony toons influenced my growing up to some degree & I relate to Bugs most. I think, I'm nice like BugsBunny (& creative) but don't piss me off or you might hear:  Of course you know.. this means war.        lol

Bugs was a POSITIVE role model for many kids growing up and why should transgender be any different. Bugs would dress & behave as a woman with class, grace, beauty & intelligence. Teaching kids from as young as 5 - 17 , I noticed several times.. this child is different, gay.  I never thought anything else of it, nothing negative - ever. It was obvious to me anyhow, thinking back- I bet it was obvious to the parents too, perhaps they were in denial.  Who cares?  Not me. I do not care about your sexual preference, if you choose to change your appearance - to best suit you.. -AMAZING!  We are created to create- EACH one of us - SHINW- anyway you know how.  Children taught me being gay, homosexual, transgender - was not an option but a way of life for them. Naturally.

As long as a human is not harming another- what business is if ours - how we present ourselves to the world. We have one simple task- choose Joy! Express Joy...  I've come to realize it is an absolute sin to not give thanks for each new day, no matter the situation.  Yesterday was Canada day, it too now comes with past history issues (I need to research further), NOW - in the moment- it represents to me - reminds me - I love the country I live in.  Canada is beautiful & we teach constantly - all can live together- Toronto is the melting pot of the world. That is something to be VERY proud about Canada.  
If you have fears about transgender ( it's the only reason I can think of anyone hating a transgender person) - it's more about confusion.   Watch the documentary.

When it comes to children I do not encourage  'directing' them any way. Honestly I wish they did not see as much as they do on television because I do believe it adds to confusion. All they should be encouraged to do - is create, 'shine' & be nice tiny humans..
Encourage letting them discover for themselves the direction they will go with their own bodies - & loving them & supporting them with the difficult (in many cases) decision.  Lord knows, we all face enough anguish from strangers who do NOT know us but continue to judge us for many reasons.  Anything that makes us want to be better humans should be embraced. 

with TLC & THC
Georgia 

Ginger thinks she's a chicken.

What would Jesus do? 
He'd stay the fuck home!
Perhaps not, but he'd wear a mask and wash his hands because he would not want to spread the virus - killing many. Unlike the "faithful' that attended mass services in the USA..   wow. It should be interesting to 'see' how many who attended the service, infect others or die, according to police - we will.   I was not in a good mood for Easter, I'm sure I was not alone. 
We did nothing special.. we'll wait until we can celebrate with Storm again.  Norm did cook a chicken & I understand NOW I must write on the bird  "this side up" as he seems to think it should be cooked breast side down. lol  Not the first time.  

We're baking bread, today were making Pizza from scratch of course.  Scratch with clean hands. ;)  I DO have much to celebrate- I offered to sell some art & was able to make a donation to the local food bank for $1000!  Thank you to my friends who showed interest in my work.. in particular my friend Ezra, who purchased several. ;)  I'm  grateful  & yes it felt wonderful' to make a donation at this time when so many are struggling. 

I'll admit, I just wanted to stay in bed the other day and did nap extra long.  I think it's important to acknowledge feeling sad (understandably) and cutting ourselves some slack. 
If staying in bed made me 'feel better' than being grumpy & taking it out on others- (dogs, woodpeckers..) so be it. Time out.  
Then I eventually get up and say to myself:
GO PAINT! 
You have time, paint and passion... and portraits to catch up on!

I decided to paint a baby - a new addition to humanity.   The moment I saw the photo I was taken with the little being, I have called the painting: A little Ray of Sunshine.  Below is it in progress.   I hope to finish it today & start another portrait & paint my bedroom doors ..   Pandemic painting  turns out to be good for me.. how about you?

The planet is healthier during this pandemic... animals are exploring, mountains can be seen, air is cleaner, water clearer.    I painted Jesus to go with Mary. 

​We watched on YOUTUBE:  Out of shadows  
documentary.  I am disgusted yet hopeful that these sick FUCKS will be exposed as they are.. grateful to those who finally,  are showing courage to expose them.  It's only a matter of time before they will all be CAUGHT, exposed & shamed. GOOD.  Who's next?
Norm & I have been fighting for years about MOVIES that he watches & the trash that we have been exposed to - violence,  guns, murder, torture.. abuse against women in particular is rampant in movies,  all making us desensitized.  I was told about 'Pizza gate' a couple of years ago and was in shock thinking it must be a lie. Pizza gate is real & NOT acknowledging it will allow it to continue.   It touches on several topics, I strongly recommend you watch it & re think what you are watching.  WHO you are SUPPORTING.  Who's music are you buying? Encouraging?  Who's evil habits are you paying for? 

We no longer watch any CRAP coming out- it's all bullshit- brainwashing.
BE in control on your own mind- or someone else will.
Back to painting.   

With TLC & THC
Georgia 

Kitty love.. a few years ago I might have called this pussy love.  
I don't feel the desire to play on certain  words lately..  
which is difficult when designing cards.  

Do you think of the 'Love you' spread online or are you spreading something else?
Do you think of the seeds you plant?

I don't get it when I see a woman, especially with daughters post images of women in bondage.  I don't understand the message any woman is sending out or teaching  with a tied up and gagged woman - how is this thought of as cute anylonger?
What you do in your own bedroom is up to you, none of my business.  
This is about what you put on-line for all ​to see all the time.  
I sure do not find that image "cute", even in a creative way.  

Why am I offended by it?  I don't know... Maybe I find this visualization in particular offensive because for the last few years I've educated myself on missing Indigenous women in Canada.  How could any eduacted woman be happy about sharing images of tied up and gagged women, knowing that there is a river they drag & routinely find women this way.   All over Canada.. along highways.. all over the world.

Ask parents, sisters, family if they find these images "cute".   Will you find it cute when your daughter is brutalized by her partner - yet you seemed to think it was o.k. to encourage this sort of idea?  Nope. I don't get it. 
  
Women around the world not being Loved for the beautiful beings that we are... but brutalized, probably a few on Valentines day after a few too many drinks.  
It happened to me once - long ago.  It happens to many, too many times.
If only this was not reality,  to not discuss it  - keeps it continuing.

Am I being self-righteous?  I don't know.  I don't think so - I could care less what turns someone on...  I have more importnat things to focus on & paintings to preoccupy my mind.
I'd rather be considered self-righteous than someone who's ignorance encourages negative treatment twoards another.  
Amen 

Or makes light of a really bad situation.

This is for all the  crazy cat lovers * I enjoyed painting the sloths -it's also a challenge to think of how things will fit' in a heart... 
I might try 2 bears.  ;)  

Show each other some love.
Please think about the ideas you encourage.  I am trying.  
Is that not why we are here?
Wash your hands!

With TLC & THC
​Georgia

Ho Ho Ho 0 Here we go!  Do you know what increases besides spending at the holiday? ABUSE.  Alcohol abuse in particular is at an all time HIGH.  Cheers.
Yep - I don't drink or socialize with drunks - I can't do it any longer.
​Too many holidays have been ruined by alcohol.  Now, I'm in control and we don't drink or offer alcohol - probably why I have NOT seen a few visitors, oh well - their loss, not mine.  Regrettably though- I had a Good friend" - Phhhhbt... send me a drunken text. WTF? 

I know this person struggles with Alcohol & I've tried to help over the years... NOW - I'm done. I got a text CLEARLY drunken- telling me how all women are whores and then some  I was shocked and not really. I've watched this person destroy themselves & career for YEARS.  Done over.  Fuck that.  This person KEEPS choosing to drink - falls off the wagon & makes sure he takes others with him.  

I get people struggle with past issues (I am no exception) but what I don't do - is get drunk and take it out on others - I try to deal with it' and MOVE pat & enjoy all this life has to offer - except BOOZE.   I am fortunate...  I don't live with drunks.  More children will see their parents get drunk and will be verbally, mentally & physically abused this holiday  because they were drunk.

FUCK that! It does not cut it any more.  It is NO excuse for abuse. 
Smoke a joint.
Relax - CHILL.
Don't go into debt, it's just another day on the calendar. 
Don't create memories of the holiday that you do not want. 

To my drunken friend.. happy holiday asshole - you are where you are because YOU continue to CHOOSE BOOZE. It is that simple.  
No, I no longer have sympathy for you -  YOU CHOOSE.
All women are whores?  
Says someone who can't find a woman (Go figure) whores are much better for this planet than drunks.  Whores save many from abuse.  I'd rather be considered a whore than a nasty drunk.

Calling me names - Phhhhbt.  
I  know who I am - a child of God.  
I actually feel sorry for my friend - I can't do it any more, I certainly don't deserve his abuse.
Still he chooses Booze. Not much anymore can do except the person doing it.
What will you choose this holiday?  What sort of memories will YOU create this holiday? Will you repeat the past turning it into the present?   

I am ready, excited & thrilled for this Christmas!  
 I love to celebrate any day devoted to Jesus.  

Choose cannabis over alcohol this holiday - or choose to just have a nice time with your family - no need to get HIGH - Be high on each others company.
I get 'high' especially  when my son visits.  
Merry Christmas.  Time to paint one last Christmas painting.

with TLC & THC 
Georgia 
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This painting occupied about 2 weeks of my time painting & almost a year contemplating. I just needed to find the perfect tree, the perfect tree needed to find me.  There it sat in front of me as I was somewhat lost in my woods. It's easy to get lost as you are not on flat land and surrounded by trees, you can't hear what direction noise is coming from... luckily, I remembered this ap. I downloaded and there I was a little bluedot.. I walked until I saw the blue dot was moving twoards the direction of the house - forest creatures watching - were amused - I could sence them laughing at me as I stumbled past that same  'amazing' rock 3 times.  

That tree spoke to me, whispred "Stop. Look at me - what do you see?"  It looked like a person sitting there...  I hung out there for a while (the girls always with me happy to be lost in the forest) & I thought of missing women, in particular Indigenous women, missing because they were TAKEN.  Into a forest...  missing.  Gone.

In the past few years I have researched this too many times.  Read about the Red River & how  womens bodies are commonly found in it. Would there be a different response if not idgenous women  - Yes, I believe there would & that is shameFULL of Canada.  Why are we wasting fucking time & 'resources' with  "world breaking news" like Justin in 'black face' (God forbid the day we are ALL judged for all the stupid shit we did IN OUR PAST)  Or watching  documentaries on netflix by Chelsea on  'white privledge' by a white privileged woman -  no shit there is a problem - still... but do you know what is worse for black women, hispanic women, indigenous women - in Canada & the USA - ALL around the world...  ALL colors, shapes & AGE: Murder, Abuse, sex trafficking, rape, sexual harrassment to simple  (constant issues) such as less pay & job discrimination,  - just for being FEMALE.  
Why are we reading about bullshit in the news? WHY?  
WHY is this NOT the top story... when will it be? 
Why - because it would be on the news every day & it is DEPRESSING - OH well, just for a second imagine how depressing it is being the mother, father, daughter, son, sister, brother, aunt,uncle, cousin, partner, friend to a missing young girl.  Taken.   
Time to stop saying "missing" & call it what it is -  TAKEN.  Stolen. 

Do you care  if Justin was black faced - long ago, when he was young, stupid & hairy?
(Hee hee hee) -   those who judge him for it - Phhbt. 
If only some cared half as much as they do about politics as  missing women- there would be fewer misisng women.   When we know better - we do better?  Does Justin not apply to the same rules we all do?  Last time I checked he was still, just a man.
It would be comical actually, if  we were NOT wasting such resources - like news, journalism, awareness, education,  thought, policing, money & time on what really mattered.  Each other.   Women.

 I have another painting,  inspired by another tree - another missing woman - I'm sure there are as many as I have trees...   I plan on painting several to bring 'light' to the situation.  Below the tree that inspired the painting.

With TLC & THC
​Georgia

It's time - 'Spring Blossoms' & of course I'm thinking of Spring buds & Spring Buds!  I also watched 'Memoirs of Geisha, I can't say as I enjoyed it as much as I did the first time, visually a great movie but the story - all too the same.  Differnt women, differnt culture, same struggle.  This time it made me think it's another version of 'Pretty Woman'.  Life as a porstiture - is rarely happily ever after.  Far from it.  To think I raved about that movie the first time I saw it back in 1990 '28' years ago & now what I think are two very different opinions. 

Age, wisdom.. time changes you and your opinion on much if you allow it... and you may as well anyhow because it's happening  - like it or not. Thank God or it would be brutal if we all got stuck at 15.  Not to say there are not some very impressive, incredibly intelligent & craazy creative 15 year olds out there - even younger - you realize it when you hear 'them speaking about climate change' & still hopeful we can do something about it.  That Walrus special on Netflix.. I watched it and it was - really heartbreaking awakening, I turned away...  to see these animals struggle & then perish as they do.   Talk about climate change denial, you won't after watching that - So, if for that reason alone - Please do.  Do not pretend you do not see or do not know, afterall it's the least we can do - acknowledge our...  I can't think of one word to describe what we do to this planest on a daily basics..   I guess It would be: Rape. 

Nothing can be done to help the walrus, I am not in denial - I can paint them to show my appreciation  and hope it helps me & others take a little more care to prevent/slow down future animal inhalation.  Plastic bags really need to go - the garbage Walmart hands out here 'rips so easily you can't even use them twice - why are we allowing this, so it won't intefer with shopping?
Different quality from the bags in the USA.  Check & see, I noticed when in California.
Goodbye walrus,  sorry we are such consuming beasts.' 

The buds are beautiful..   they remind me of new life.  You stare at those ice covered branches only a few weeks ago & think - how do they survive this, are they dead?
They do survive.  Geisha are beautiful - the word means 'Artist - I guess in a way - I am a Geisha - lol  in essesnce,  are all women  not Geisha? What are these titles...   Geisha, Prostiture, street worker, whore, slut, bitch...  I have no problem with those words I know it's only a matter of ones opinions';  it's 'Pimp  & sex trafficking' that bother me.  I read about a young very intelligent woman in college  who thought she was being romanced and  was force & beaten into having sex with strangers for money only weeks later - humiliated, exhausted, she did not want to tell anyone.    Frig, another young woman  got into a car she thought was her Uber because she was not paying attention - too busy on her phone & was never seen again.  & Social media-  is harming YOUNG women in particular, if I was a parent I'd take away the phone between set hours because: I love her.
But I get it...   I am not you & currently living with a teenage girl.  What will you do?
Priorities.  I think they need re defining, on a global scale.    
Global warming it's real.

Next - a Truibute to Walt Disney, Dumbo & Depression.

With TLC & THC
​G