'Will the Poppy's even been in bloom?
Who cares.. I smile,  I've just spent the last three days in my imagination admiring & painting them.

I'm very excited & a bit anxious now & of course have a gazillion things to do before I leave, mostly make sure Bird  will be o.k..  As you might be aware I've been quite the hermit the past few years - and now I'm off to Orange County,  blessed it's with a  friend who lives there & is going to show me around.  I landed once sitting in the front cockpit between two handsome pilots!  It was my dad who saw me landing, he was beaming! That's my girl!  lol  
The same dad  was on the plane with me at a later date only he was in the cargo dept.  
It was a unique experience.   Peaceful in many ways.. and I was able to take a special trip with him.   How many people can say that?  I'm glad we didn't fly alone' on that journey. Flying alone is clearly on  my mind.  
 
Perhaps this time Poppy & I will join the pilots!  Hardly- I'm sure things have changed since 9/11.  How blessed I've been.  I won't be alone! I'll have Poppy on my lap - Oh My Gouache Poppy & I in California.   We even have matching beach attire (not intentional!)

You absolutely know - I love 'what' I do - every day- I am God Blessed- to be able to sit here paint, listen to music e mail friends, spend time with my dogs- family and more but  with this  condition- I get no rest some days,  even lying down to nap is out of my control, I'll nap when it lets me. Good thing I love to paint & not sleep.  I am blessed also with cannabis- which keeps me doing all I love & loving every stroke.  Not taking deadly addictive pain medications that won't help.   I'm currently smoking Humber Valley Kush for any who can try it.. here I sit still working/playing at 1:50 and will be up at 5 happily anxious to start painting again!  That's a testament to  a medicine if ever.   Side effects? Giggling and a great sleep.

I never blame God for my health issues.  
I blame human evolution, chemicals, man made problems, poor food choices, too much Alcohol, not enough water.  Not being educated on many things - like inner strength, peace, meditation..    What better place to realign? The California sunshine.  

Now if I could pick the perfect plane mate to sit beside me it would be..  hmmm 5 hours they would have to be funny and amusing a little handsome.. One time I sat beside this super nice, friendly funny hunk, we laughed all the way to the Bahamas..  my 2 girlfriends were admittedly  jealous- lol   so, this time lets try for Stephen Colbert..  but I prefer grey hair.. Jeff Goldblum - yes, he would be the perfect flight companion!
​Ooooohhh on the fly with the fly! Giving  me goose bumps! 
Or Broadway bear of course.

Miracles come true.  

Broadway lifts Bear...  he makes her smile. 
It's amazing how powerful that is.


With Love
g

I can't stop thinking..  thank God, Since I'm breathing- the two go well hand in hand.
I've come to a realization the past week which has me bow my head..  in prayer.
A year ago.. a year ago I had a few events happen that  changed my life and I never shared with anyone, well- that is not completely true, there are a couple of people who know..  Storm of course is one person - I shared (matter of fact) 'I'm going to take a trip, go on an adventure (a year ago) God let me know.  
I'd rather not share when or how.. it's personal.

I was impatient and thought 'I was going right away..'  turns out it took year.  Not long at all really - but it can feel like an eternity.   Then I thought I'd be going someplace else.. invited by someone else. What trickery God.. you keep me on my toes.  
I did know I was going to see cactus!  They have  cactus in California - I'm sure.

Who am I?  To think I have any control  over any thing? 
I do have control of  my choices' God  puts before me & promised a year ago- if you put it before me I will go. I will take the LEAP of faith. 

This past few years in particular have been a personal struggle like no other, failed surgery,   marital changes, relationship changes in general and acceptance life is  'different as am I,  not worse - different.  The past year I was forced to think about things I've not thought about & a few people I need to think about differently for my own PEACE of mind & health. 

​When emotions I forgot existed - surfaced - I became  confused.  
I still am.

What do you do when you believe God does have a plan?  A specific person in mind?
When your constantly reminded of others, drawn to them - pushed  at  them.
​Nothing. There is nothing I can do anymore.  
My feelings are clear.
​I am proud of that most lately, I am not afraid to the let others  I love/like know it. 
Sometimes I'm humiliated when I realize: Perhaps- others don't feel as we do.  lol  Perhaps?
This is where I struggle with God, 'then why bring them into my life like you did?' 
Humbled.  
Not everyone loves us.   Will I stop loving  them..   never.
I love people now who I don't feel love me too much. It's o.k.
What matters is what I am putting out into the world.  Love & good wishes.
God loves me (Whew) & will continue to bless me with those who will...  it might take 'about a year. lol 

There is nothing you can do other than let those we love know it.
The rest is up to them.
Will people respond to love or will they ignore?  
Will it be a choice they forget or regret?
I don't know anymore..  I don't want any regrets.
I'm going to listen to God.

​I'll try  when God introduces me to others to  Give thanks for everyone and show them love.
​Does God put people in your life for you? Or them?  

I am reminded of a quote,  how every day nothing seems to change but when we look back- everything has changed.

New bears on my desk- it's going to be a great day.

With Love
​g

P.S.  Since I'm BEARing all..  Cactus & Caves!!  I was promised.  
I don't think the caves are here.. I think I was thinking too small..
God is going to show me the caves in Paris!!   Wait & see. 

I have no doubts!!! 

First I'd like to give thanks! I received a package from  a friend Karen Watermelon,  I know of 2 Karen Watermelons both I met through Cannabis & I'm fond of both.. but I've been keeping an eye on Karen's account on IG who travels all over, learning, exploring, living at the villages - helping the villagers! She is truly an inspiration. Karen is learning traditional medicines and life.  Often envious of her journeys  I remember I'm about to take my own.   Not quite as  ? Adventurous? Karens a bit younger and should be  doing exactly as her heart tells her.  Every day the Universe  is reminding me to go have fun.. It's all falling into place.  It's no secret I am a fan of seaglass.. Today I opened a package of tiny shells worn smooth from the ocean across the world!  Tiny Treasures Im thrilled she's passed them on to me and postcards! Snail mail! My board is almost covered!  In my hands a gentle lovely reminder of what's to come.

She ended her letters -Postcards, which I enjoyed today sitting in the sunshine with the dogs...  "This is what happens when I started valuing the beautiful gift of life and my own self and taking care of my mind and thoughts.  Life values me right back and I grow and flow!"  

I know lovely people.  ;) I see them *sparkle* -  is this my universe? Others not so much.. lol  Perhaps I just need to see them from the other side of the moon!  Tee Hee.. 

Perfect timing, I was looking for a  new quote to start my California Journal/notebook Pencil ONLY.  I decided to research and play - I am beyond inspired for cannabis related art for this trip.. I am bringing my paint. I have a friend who wants to print a T-shit or two and get my work out in California - He has not seen my latest creation. No one has - I'm saving several for later.  You will love it! How can you not? I put love into every stroke ;) 
​
You light up my life... Who remembers that song? me!!
What a glorious today in Canada - the breeze! The leaves whispering...  good day to send  out some love. What better way than a custom one of a kind card?   ;)
Here is another sampling of a card below.  
Sneakers or cowboy boots, I'm still undecided.. I think I prefer the old school cowboy boots on Brain & Heart  paintings and will continue with this style for cooler joints.  What do you think?      Hee hee hee

​With love
g

   "So, I love you because the entire universe conspired to help me find you."
                                                                                                                             ― Paulo Coehlo


Just before...  the throes of passion, Bears begin with the Kiss.


With Love
G

I want to thank the gentleman from Ancient Aliens - with the great hair, who wears custom glass pendants! Giorgio - I should look him up,  maybe he is in California... I could listen to him for hours. ;) He amuses me and I want to paint him.  Georgia & Giorgio! Sound like FUN!  How he said " WE are Stardust!"  was inspiring  - you want to talk fate- later in the evening Norm watched the same episode (I can't hear it in my studio with my radio playing) as I walked downstairs to get a tea with lilac syrup...  there he was again saying the exact same thing! I woke up today and painted at  5.   ALIVE!

I've been invited to California! Poppy too..  lol   Thank you Stardust. 
I have friends all over the world who e mail me regular! <3  
THANK YOU fellow Stardust!
My son loves me more than the entire Universe! He's told me many times.
I have it in writing too...  lol .  He is stardust and surrounded by stardust!

WE are STARDUST!   ;)
SHINE! Sparkle!
GLOW! 

It hit me - WHAM!!! :
I want to see a cannabis field - and lay in it - UNDER the stars!!
​Inspired for future bears!
E me - I'll barter ART.  

Stuff to do! I'm off today to buy Poppy 'Sherpa for her first plane ride!! 
 
With Love
​g