It's a mixed emotions day..
Excited! Last night we woke - through closed windows - to the sounds of wolves howling! In my backyard for at least 5 minutes.. it was unbelievably cool. Ginger was glued and shook for about 30mins after.. poor thing. I assured her she is safe inside, snuggled with mom. It did have me realize exactly how 'in the wild we are... I wonder if I would have seen them if I got up - next time. I never let the little dogs out alone - they are alwasy with their big sister & I don't let the dogs wander. AS soon as the ground thaws we build a completely contained kennel' with a dog door into the house. It will be good for them to be able to go out & pee at all times- although I can't complain, my girls are well trained and only go on pee pads when in the house. In the bathroom (where we all go) ;)
Disappointed & upset... I had art in my porch, I have a lot of art in my porch...
Do you remember the sign I painted shortly after moving in - that said "Leave all shit outside... Dog shit, bear shit and bullshit... well, it's gone.
Somone decided to own it, which mean someone took it from me- I DID NOT 'GIVE' it to anyone. Thief. It's that simple. Who does that?
When invited to someones home & you take stuff that DOES NOT belong to you - you are a thief. Recently, I had company & after they left I noticed a 'few' small items gone - like books etc - perhaps my sign too.. I asked for the items to be returned but have had no reply - and people wonder why YOU NEVER invite them back - wonder no more.
What message do you send to the universe today?
I never steal. I don't lie.
I'd rather tell someone the truth & have them 'not like me' than to lie and disrespect myself & them. If I had to steal it- 'unless it's food and I am starving' - (by the grace of God this has never been the case) - I don't deserve it.
It won't happen again, Norm installed a camera that lets us know the second anyone even enters our porch.. sucks we had to do it - it sucks more people take what does NOT belong to them. I hope the thief enjoys my art - and never forgets how they got it... the universe won't. There are people I will never have visit here - they know why.
Mental health & mushrooms. Psilocybin - well even Dr. Oz is NOW telling of the wonderful effects of psilocybin mushrooms. Google if you don't believe me. Thank God.
Gods medicine once again will be what heals the planet - not mans medicine.
Mushrooms have helped me where no one else was able to break through.
Mushrooms taught me to LOVE myself. Mushrooms taught me to LIKE myelf.
I mentioned the other day my childhood, being told I was not wanted, as long as I can remember. I share this' to educate as I know - I am NOT alone... too many feel the same & don't quite understand why.
I was brainwashed to think I was unlovable. Being told this by a parent in particular is confusing to a child (and abusive)... being told often as I was, I had it literally beat into me at times... we start to believe it. It had caused problems my entire life of not trusting the fact that 'anyone could love me'. I've even struggled with the notion some days - my son doesn't love me. He does.
It was mushrooms that taught me the opposite. Believe it or don't.
I'm not getting anything from sharing- some might still (those uneducated) think - shes a stoner on mushrooms- think what you want. I thank GOD for the first time in 56 years I KNOW - it was never me that was the problem. I was a gift from God.
I am a gift from God.
Thanks to mushrooms today I'll paint, not be depresed - instead I will paint because I understand - through our creations we extend our love.
I made this mushroom painting to dangle in the sunlight it also has a ball that catches light hanging from it.;) on the other side is a matching eye'. It's painted with iridescent paint -so it's really pretty in the sunshine.
It's titled - 'It's just an illusion.' It is for sale $60. + shipping, if interested - let me know.
Have an inspired day!!
