Just Bee...   just enjoy the journey.

She's so confident, chilled .. just being who she is meant to Be -  just the QUEEN..
Being in the moment. Right here & NOW.  She is who I aspire to BE.
Queen of Calm - lol!  Can I do it?  I'm trying.  I try.

Did I tell you I'm quick tempered? Can you guess?  So all this BEE here NOW is needed.. we all need reminders and no' it is NO excuse- but this constant zapping does not help it's like a spark plug to the 10 second meltdowns.. the  good thing with my yelling  (always find the bright side) is with time it does seem to be  quicker, blunter..  if it's worth yelling over I must be pretty upset & I don't back down easily,  these are learned traits.  I've never claimed to be perfect in anyones mind but Gods... and I wish I got better at  ignoring stuff.  
Don't we all.

Someone pointed out  on PIN of all places.. it looks like someone is coping my art... or rather my ideas & was told someone saw prints recently of  one of my designs but apparently it was poor quality and a poor attempt  at selling so I just let it go..  & in the heat of the moment I even asked another artist if she "copied much?"  
-Because we have an image very similar. Sigh..
What the f*ck takes over  me?  I can tell you..   EGO.  

​It sneaks in from time to time (luckily in some ways) and says "that's the greatest idea ever!!" ...  "No one can even come close to such a creative idea!! & it will make you an internet sensation!" (which makes me laugh because I constantly can't decide on privacy settings so my account doesn't grow too fast, as with FB... It's not easy (for me) when you go from a few hundred to a  few thousand (with it comes more - messages, more comment control, more replies, more & more and less time painting.  Sometimes - I'll go online and see not only 'My amazing ORIGINAL idea' but one that is  the same and a touch - better in some cases - and then something takes over (gratefully) and I ask: 
Who am I - when I get like this?  
When I realized only moments later I was out of line and just grumpy from being  mentally exhausted first thing in the morning - I apologized - I never said I was perfect... she's a talented artist- and I bet she probably 'get's it', it seems par for the course if your show your work on line.  I apologized for my momentary mind ego takeover.  Ironically, I don't even know if she saw it - hahaha IG has a thing where you images disappear- I'm not sure how to turn this feature off. Then I apologized to myself.  
Have you forgiven yourself lately? It felt kinda nice..  ;)

Ease up, you lived through it yesterday, the day before & You can continue tomorrow but right NOW-   Go paint.. release, relax, breath  & BE. Become a Queen at Calm.
This is more important that any 'art' I can produce for the universe.  ;)

With TLC & THC
Georgia
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Weeeeee!   Who's excited about all the Gnome Grown Goodness coming to Canada this summer??  Me! Know why??      ...Because more people will get high!  
No, actually that is not the first reason for my excitement - it is because more people will Grow this Plant!  Some will grow one in a planted for the patio- just for fun & why not?
Geez - Calling all gardeners!!!  I know.. I've seen it grow and it is awesome- you know that feeling when you walk out in the morning sunshine and look at those tomatoes on the vine- - this is the same  and just and LOVELY- Oh and guess what - Birders!!!
HUMMING birds love it! Yeeeeee! Back to nature I'll be with this 'plant' and then - THEN 
The sigma will end.  The truth will be come common and cannabis will be added to salads and juiced too! Just like every God given herb on this planet- only this one will cost you.
So be it- if you wan the Variety- yes - I have been blessed - I have tried Cannabis from all around the world even  a few cannabis cup winners', above all else I am surrounded in this life by talented, passionate, hard working - GARDENERS.    

Me 53, cartooning Canadian - just like you in many ways.. not some swinging of the chandelier- running naked thought the snowy fields HIGH  ?  ALL this silliness will be put to an end.  

About the bat wielding lawyer... (still grindingly gears)  It's not that I don't have compassion for mental illness- ha- you know I do. I struggle with it myself  - who does not?  Really - maybe not now but usually everyone struggles for some reason or another at some point  during their lifetime.  Even after considered the bat kneecap thought- too many godfather movies growing up..  only days (hee hee - not hours) later, did I start to feel worse - worse because 'I' let 'some others' bad behaviour get to ME.. we all do. How many  take a bat & walk up to strangers and start to beat?  Cannabis or NOT - this person absolutely has a problem - more serious than cannabis - and now it's all anyone focuses on - THAT is the problem.    This judge has set the stage for a can of worms  - it's obvious.

So yes, I am truly excited for the 'normalization' of cannabis & I do not feel it will 'harm' the 'industry' in any way at all - if anything people will try home grown and then wish to explore with more. We can't grow in' the winter as easily here..  I doubt very many people will have elaborate home grows - not when they realize the amount of work and other costs.

Are you going to try to grow?  
Storm snapped the photo below of me the other day- this is a real plant.
It smells fruity, is lush - as big as my arm..  was so sticky , when he remove did my eyelashes and lips were stuck together.  Storm is passionate & has worked very hard to grow quality medicine (a decade already) especially now, he sees what's going on here, he understands how difficult this can be some days as well as his own  issues, tell me why I should NOT be proud -  MY son GROWS me/us the best medicine he possibly can..
​If you find any fault in the above  sentence in anyway, the problem is with you.
​Everything for a reason.. I've no doubts God has him on his path to do exactly what he does.

Michelle Rainey wanted Change... can you see her smiling?   I can.

It is a plant, it makes most of the world for a few centuries (at least)  feel good, intoxicated.. relaxed, happy, elated, enjoyable, rested... for ANYONE who has never tied- take it slow- no hurry.. it won't be going anywhere - if you think it might cause you to pick up a bat and go beat someone  -  seek professional help.     Here we grow....  

Have a good weekend! Some sunshine would be nice. 

With THC & TLC
​Georgia

Thank Goodness for Be HERE Now - In still reading, reflecting and keeping my creative distance. Chop wood & fetch water.. everyone has chores to do - my chopping wood is painting! ;D  My favourite page of my calendar is the cover! I have 12 months, one back page with all the different mushroom information and one cover page which will look lovely on it's own.  
I'm big on recycling - when I designed this I kept in mind  the dates could be removed after expired and the images would make a really cute framed set. I'll show you when I have mine up!  

For the first calendar I tried to find what I thought are some of the strangest mushrooms and colorful - they come in pink, purple & green- no wonder they all  are in Alices Wonderland. Each original is 9x5 (same size as printed version) and each takes me at least a day from research to finish. With every painting I become more educated.. on mushrooms anyhow.

I've mentioned I am using psilocybin for my brain pain...   to be honest - I don't think I'm taking it as much as I should.  I've come to the conclusion - painting is mediation.. as long as I can accomplish it - I'm fairly good- it's amazing what you learn to live through & with - its more important to medicate and then just go rest some days.
 
Yesterday was a 'right off'... as you might have imagined, frustrated with the argument from the night before, not much got done besides napping and a few sketches, a day of being grumpy and crying.  Yep I did.  Today is a new day and I'm expecting company - an artist friend - already excited - ready to paint I'm anxious for her creative arrival. Yesterday is done.

Do you know what I did not do yesterday to get me through...  I did not take an antidepressant. Cannabis is an antidepressant, so I guess I sort of did- it helped me think things out or rather 'forget about it.  We all have bad days- days we feel overwhelmed, frustrated, tearful, hopeless even BUT not everyone needs to take pills to help them past this- Its just life!  I feel better for having a terrible day - thought it out- cried it out - and LET that SHIT go.   Done.  

Norm is feeling  humbled I can tell by how he is behaving NOW - he did it to himself, he knows when he is being an asshole...  why do we behave as we do?  We just do.  As I sit here my twitch is so strong this morning I'm having difficulty  not pulling to the side.. and I will medicate for pain (not done yet - silly me)  It's going to be a difficult day - physically, mentally  I'm already happy so 1/2 the battle is won.  

This is what mushrooms do for me:
I understand, they help me understand - it's just a light bulb- it has nothing to do with the lightbulb.. Norm has his own issues to deal with - make it clear he can't use to me "sort' them out but understand he's trying to sort it out... when he is behaving like he does - walk away- I have other things more enjoyable to think about, if someone wants to be miserable- they can do it alone- they probably need some alone time.  Until we can go our separate ways - it' would be nice if we did not destroy the "friendship" we have remaining over f*cking lightbulbs.  ;)  

Bong hit time! - OH my Gosh.. have you seen what Jerry Kelly is Up to?  
I was also mindful & grateful that Norm does not do what many spouses do and turn to the bottle after I tell him to 'Go F*ck himself... which only ends up uglier.  
I would not live with an alcoholic at all - he is very aware of that fact.  

Storm and I were talking about the Hockey team and how incredibly heartwarming they have received I believe over $4 million in donations- maybe $6  I can't recall- and it will be needed to pay for all the funerals, to help all the families, the boys still alive will need  help - it makes me proud as a Canadian to see how we all come together for each other.  Hockey sticks out not the porch.
​We also discussed the other bus crash with all the children - 23 I think- who died only days later in a bus crash in India.  Do you think they will have $6 million raised?
$4 million raised to help them with the funerals - the pain.  
Do you think they might get 2 million? How about 1?   ;(    
What is different? 
Boys on a bus going to a hockey game - kids on a bus going to school.
We all know the answer to this question I believe.
I said to Storm...  Life is life, it's where we are born.. life is life.  
​Now we know, now we get to see life all over the world, learn about life all over the world. See how we respond to life around the world.

May they ALL rest in peace and the families have their suffering eased eventually and hopefully healed.  

​Time for me to get creative & enjoy & embrace the day!!!

With TLC & THC
​Georgia

Tomorrow, I'm 54 and 1/2 of me is thrilled.. the other 1/2 not so much.
Birthdays..  our yearly reminded along with New Years Day - for a 'fresh start'- a new year begins!

1/2 of me is thrilled, 54, doing what I love everyday (I am also at a point - able to sell my art when I choose), playing with my dogs, enjoying life,  lunch with friends, better off financially then we've ever been.. have people asking if I'd like to collaborate on a few projects, planning a garden, planning a trip - Money for paint!  Consuming some of the best cannabis on the planet...  Medicating with natural medicine - finally.
1/2 of me is in good physical shape.  Life at 54 is pretty darn sweet!

Then there's the other 1/2,  the past month especially, I feel as though I've suffered a stroke every day, from the top of my head down to my hips aches, my hand - peeling a banana , buttons on a shirt, pulling up  pants - all tasks I dread.  The  TN, is constant, several  attacks an hour & the Hemi facial spasm - every few moments, seconds. Walking, triggers it therefore I'm also constantly having to focus on my balance, some can't chew gum & walk at the same time so - I feel quite accomplished some days.  
I now also look like a stroke victim, all the time...  some think  it's Bells palsy as my face when not contracting droops noticeably when at 'rest'  and I don't like to smile-  it triggers the pain and I need the rest.    I'm also very tired & it has progressed down my entire right side, my right side is covered in spots & patches of psoriasis from head to toe, my entire kneecap felt like it was broken this a.m. it is covered in psoriasis, I am anticipating a new cream to try (medicated with cannabis) being sent from a friend. 
 
I look miserable - I can't help it! I'm becoming more and more of a recluse - due to   unfortunate encounters with other humans who do not understand, like my last retail experience. It wears me down... just when I think I have the courage to venture out, someone reminds me  of how many  thoughtless humans there are out there, cold & some intentionally cruel to boot.

I was shocked to hear George Clooney of all people talk about  how bad it was for him when  he had Bell's Palsey- I knew he could relate & that was just from LOOKING the way he did- he was not experiencing the rest, thank God. I was grateful he brought attention to it- I hope  some women in particular are paying attention to me.  It is increasing amongst women- over 50, I'm thrilled to hear Tweed is educating on it- clearly they recognize the growing problem.  I do not have bell's palsy-  Neurologist ruled it out, I have wished it was all I had.. look at images of people on Google- they look miserable - it's why we  stop going out- people look at us and JUDGE & IT HURTS over & OVER again. 

So no, I'm not happy about another birthday, another year of THIS, fucking thing that has me crying just from the sheer fucking exhaustion of living with it!!!
Throw in a few thoughtless people, not to mention people who intentionally fuck with others who are already struggling (says much more about you than it does me)  
I'll pass thanks. I'm not going out for lunch or dinner- why set myself up on my birthday?
I'll spend the day like any other - painting.  

Below is me...  I'm tired of 'hiding' because others can't grasp or deal with things.
Are you taking your smile for granted? Seriously, ask yourself this right now.
Are you taking your health for granted? Your smile?
Are you letting stuff/others STRESS you out?
IT's NOT worth it.

Now, I'm going to paint Michelangelo & a rabbit with very special eggs..  cause if I don't I will just go to to bed and CRY all fucking day. It's not about pity- that I don't need and if you show it- I'll show you the door - who has time for that shit- it's about EDUCATION.  
 At times I often feel as though  my art is not making a difference - that hurts even more.  I do't know what to do about it, not much I can do.  All artists deal with this to some level.
I cry because I am exhausted, worn down, getting zapped countless times a day and feel very much alone at times & I even  wonder why I keep trying.
My son & my dogs & several other humans remind me why.
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Are you paying attention to what YOU put in YOUR body - can you understand MY FEAR of prescribed medication?  Pills known to cause such side effects?

When I really thought about our government paying for all kids prescriptions now- it breaks my heart. Thanks Kathleen for turing our future into drug addicts.  How many will put their kids on medications simply because they can afford it 'now'? I'm curious to read the studies in 5 years from now - how many children are put on antidepressants - for free-  what do you think? How many increased prescriptions will be filled for Children- parents making decisions to put chemicals in tiny bodies - and we don't know how it will effect them in 5, 10 or when they are 54 years old.    Education.  

Our kids would have been better off if we had given them free school supplies- how about Free breakfast to start the day?  Many need that NOW- before they get sick and need free pills.   Pay our teachers more?   No- instead we give them free drugs.  The legal kind.

With TLC & THC - Thank God - I do not think I would be able to continue on without it.
Georgia

For all of you who wonder why I paint all the time.. I have to.  
This is enough to drive anyone mad... I have to keep creative & hopeful.
I can't give up - it's all I can do.

Sloth bones were found in a cave in Mexico- Prehistoric Sloth bones! Much larger than a human - can you imagine? I can! Obviously.  What else do I find intriguing?  Olmec Heads:
https://www.thoughtco.com/the-colossal-heads-of-the-olmec-2136318  I'd like to make one for the yard. They are also found in Mexico- my next trip to Mexico will include seeing some in real life & Kiss those super stone lips for luck!   
What peeks your curiosity?
What inspires to you dive deeper for knowledge?

A friend asked me to describe what Psilocybin mushrooms are doing for me:
I don't take them all the time, only when  - for what ever reason  - I think to.
Difficult days, seem to be the days I'm reminded of their medicine. Unlike taking pills for pain every three hours (we all know what can happen) it's refreshing to take medicine when my body tells me I NEED it. 
I'll be painting for example - & not remembering I ate mushrooms (it's not a big deal I have it with a bit of breakfast & honey) - about 4o minutes in... I might  realize I feel good but not really associating why, it has not interfered with anything task I've been doing- I will at some point get a quick wave through my body as I describe  -a jolt of tingly awareness, wave of happy .' ;)  Unlike the other jolts I'm use to I welcome these ones. Then it passes, leaving me feeling content... thankful, grateful for things I don't always feel grateful for.  
It certainly helps keep the peace, little things can slide easier - realizing - it's not worth the stress.

It's very easy to get caught up in depression and despair where you forget to be grateful for anything, when you live with chronic pain it can be quite consuming - if you let it.  Mushrooms help me forget.  They also help too with appetite - some days not long after I also get a rush of nausea- but it quickly passes- they are giving me a medicinal BOOST alone with an attitude boost.  Visions? Hallucinate? No, I have not experienced any although I do hear/read/have watched interviews this sort of experience  with colors & distorted vision can be achieved with Psilocybin - a.k.a. Magic Mushrooms but at larger doses- this is not about getting HIGH for me- it's about trying to get past the pain physically & mentally if  & so far.. so good. I'd like to feel normal for a bit.   The best part- I function - do all the exciting stuff like fold laundry, feed the birds - go with my son to see a movie!  
DREAM about what new adventures await.  Hope.  

​My last mushroom experience what did I do when "high"?  I lay on my bed and planned every detail of my perfect home, it's 'l o n g' - so I can throw the ball for the dogs in the winter & then we can all get exercise.    I'm also going to have a 'long lane box' filled with sand & shells and trinkets so I can walk the beach every morning - while looking out at the Canadian snow surrounded by moose and trees, bears and bluejays!!  
What a lovely Mushroom trip it was.  The dogs are Syked!!

If you are curious - RESEARCH - Gaia has quite a bit, there are many sites, documentaries, scientific studies-  Paul Stemets  speak about them this was interesting 
http://fantasticfungi.com/trip-treatment-michael-pollan/

I'm no expert but  I can tell you with confidence:
Mushrooms won't make your breast grow. www.thestar.com/news/gta/2018/02/20/york-region-police-issues-clarification-after-officer-tells-student-panel-that-smoking-pot-increases-mens-breast-size.html  I did hear a remark 'they should be fired', I don't agree... you can't even be mad at a particular person, I don't know these guys, I can't put a face with a name, I was not in the room, I did not need to be - the problem is the mentality as a whole and to hear it from the police I prefer best/live amongst - was a personal shock - the police I know keep kids from being hit by cars, keep our homes safe, help my son is a car accident, have been here for all kinds of stuff we all witness over the years, many would put their lives on the line  for us, I still do believe...   intentionally lied.   Frig.
:( I would like to see them be permitted to USE cannabis for job related PTSD rather than alcohol or opiates, but I'm not expert. 

Signs , signs, everywhere there signs.. don't ignore the signs..
I feel at times like every other human: Is anybody listening? Does any body care.? Eh?   
I wrestle all the time with 'should I continue to share this blog'.  It's caused some tension (to put it mildly) at times with others and myself, I ponder - no blog.. more time to paint!  
It takes me a lot longer than many might imagine.
Today was one of those days - F*ck it I thought, I'm gonna stop...  I was grumpy to begin with tho because today is my dads birthday. He passed away a few years ago now.

I was just thinking: Screw it - when I received an e mail:  
Georgiatoons.com was extended until 2020, FEB 22 paid in full.  
I have no clue when I arranged this,  someone  just purchased art so money was in my account... it all went smoothly,  the  email said :
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                          It's getting older and  more mature - that's a good thing.  

Thanks Billy. I'll keep going. 
I'll be back...

With Love & natural medicine, thank God.
Georgia

I have seen many racoons over the years, most just outside my bedroom window... I find them adorable yet annoying - they are notorious for noise in the middle of the night & get into garbage & trouble.  One night a raccoon would not get off the back porch - frustrated  I threw a muffin at it (out my bedroom window) it was the closest thing I could grab, the dogs spotted it and it was getting ugly.  Not realizing the muffin was medicated, I did remember as soon as it left my hand... Ricky Raccoon' picked it up and ate it went away and came back for more.. he was a little wobbly and he played with it in his hands like a bean bag game I still remember giggling at watching & it watching me happily... it wobbled away the dogs no longer a threat (it didn't care)  & it came back several nights in a row.
I did not continue to share.  ;)

A raccoon is a reasonable animal  to imagine in the cannabis garden so here he is.  3rd eye raccoon was imagination amusing itself & trying to figure out the new iPad stand. I keep looking at this raccoon and my own mind keeps telling me that something doesn't look right' ...  lol.  

​Watch anything informative, educational on Psychedelic plants like Cannabis, Ayahuasca, Psilocybe cubensis, and you will read the same thing repeated over & over.. these plants have all become illegal because they seem to make people think for themselves perhaps even explore other ideas that don't go with the flow.  I am always shocked with  Who uses these "drugs" it was a famous banker who wanted Psychedelic Mushrooms explored & introduced to American society - not the sleazy drug dealer images -stigma we've been led to believe.

I know with TN  when you are in this kind of pain you will explore until you can't explore anymore. Explore a natural medicine.  It's the only thing my stomach can stomach, never mind the rest of my organs. I recently learned  a representative from TWEED will be speaking to a group of Trigeminal Neuralgia patients: *from an email sent out to a group I belong to:

Presentation Summary:  Join Michelle Davis from Tweed Inc. for an education presentation on medical cannabis.  She will discuss cannabis legislation, the uses of medical cannabis, safe and responsible use and accessing medical cannabis.

Bio:  Michelle Davis is the Community Engagement Specialist at Tweed, Canada's largest licences producer of cannabis for medical purposes.  She educates and builds meaningful relationships with patient organizations, caregivers, social service providers and more, furthering the public's understanding of quality cannabis products, services and therapeutic applications.  She also builds awareness of Canada's medical cannabis system and associated healthcare resources.
She holds a Bachelor's Degree in Biological Science and has experience within the company working as a grower previous to community engagement.  She enjoys discussing all aspects of the cannabis industry, focusing on cannabis education and awareness.

Date:  Wednesday, April 25, 2018
Time:  6:30 - 7:30 pm
Location:  Creekside Senior Estates Community Centre, 23 Four Mile Creek Road, St. Davids, Ontario

It sounds very interesting- I'd love to hear what & how they will present this discussion -
I am planning on attending.  Anything/anyone that helps  with this condition is a blessing.
I know what cannanbis does it's been personally frustrating knowing so many who suffer are turning to opiates (understandably) with awareness I hope they at least TRY cannabis & Try it first before seriously addictive narcotics. 

3rd eye paintings represent  that extra introduction to knowledge.  The curious eye opening.
I'm grateful for  the vast information available -Hamilton's pharmacopeia for example - it's eased my fear some and helped info to the point I can at least start to research anything in great detail with a bit of direction and have an educated conclusion. 

Gaia also has a really informative series & it allows you to share links  you have 48 hours from the click to watch if interested. ;) https://give.gaia.com/cjdnwg0ix002o01me13m4jfpi
 this is the episode I'll be watching next painting my next animal. Gaia is a paid service, I watch it more than netflix, I am constantly AMAZED -it's though provoking.   I enjoy Gregg Braden he has very calming demeanour.  The rare artifacts and  "places of interest" fascinate me, I highly recommend.

You can watch my first time-lapse with my new iPad @ my IG account I took off privacy so others might enjoy the Valentines downloads. https://www.instagram.com/georgia.toons/

So heart breaking about the shootings in Florida.  :(   R.I.P.          

​Georgia   
xox

Magic Mushrooms  - Psilocybin mushrooms is the proper name much like Cannabis is the slang name for Marijuana'.   I've been researching, it's easy enough as there is countless information available on the subject but you will also find this:

Disclaimer: Psilocybin mushrooms are potentially illegal substances, and we do not encourage or condone the use of this substance where it is against the law. However, we accept that illegal drug use occurs, and believe that offering responsible harm reduction information is imperative to keeping people safe. For that reason, this guide is designed to ensure the safety of those who decide to use the substance. We do not encourage using this drug outside of a legal or traditional context.

Yes  like cannabis Mushrooms are illegal, and for the same reasons.
A medicine - which grows in the wild in all sort of places- especially in cow poop. A medicine from cow poop? It just happens to be how this particular mushroom thrives - there are several species.. many mooooons ago a boyfriend invited me to a mushroom pizza party- I did not go - I was chicken, hindsight - I regret not learning about this medicine and introducing it into my life sooner.

I have tried mushrooms, it is illegal - I don't care... and I will have them again and often.
​First of all a shout out to Alison Myrden who I had heard was using mushrooms under Dr.s supervision to assist with her MS & TN. I could not believe it so I called her.  Alison is the only other person I know with TN.. I have shared with her recently information & photos regarding my health and Alsion talked me through some stuff. My TN is quite more severe than Allisons, physically & mentally. I am grateful for her help and kindness.

You might find this amusing but I don' like to be "HIGH", yes I smoke cannabis from morning to night but not to get high, to function. I especially don't like to be high if I can't work high- when I read of two police officers *who  while ON DUTY* stole edibles *while working in their police car*  claimed they got so high they climbed a tree? WTF?  NEVER have I known anyone to Hallucinate and climb trees because they were high- I think 'Liars' should be added to these two.  CLEARLY.  & I'm not alone: they've sparked a debate:
http://www.cbc.ca/news/canada/toronto/edible-pot-toronto-police-hallucinations-1.4510897  I will be paying attention to see what happens to these two- What a joke.  I did laugh btw, I know the area- I grew up there and it has a high Italian residency - I dated  a few Italians and they never liked Cannabis from what I remember- it was all 'coke and wine' for my Italian friends in the day.  I've smoked and ate edibles until I could hardly walk- so climb a tree -  I doubt it. I'm sure they did get very HIGH- I feel bad for the police officer that cracked his skull because he slipped and fell when checking on the two at the scene, I bet they laughed..  Talk about double standards & DO you think this is an isolated case?
Do you think these are the ONLY 2 to pull such a stunt? Not I. 

​My mushroom experience has been slightly different- still, not to the point of hallucinating. Simply put Mushrooms make me feel love for myself and others and see & feel beyond the pain. They help with my mood.  BUT it's not something I wake up and think- I'm gonna have mushrooms today!  For me it's the opposite- I have to  almost wrestle with it- and most days I don't.  I'm not very sure as to why- I let my body tell me what it wants- fruit, liquid, sleep, medicine.  Medicine that won't KILL, (none has overdosed on mushrooms to my knowledge) or cause serious long term detrimental side effects. Mushrooms - recreationally- I can't see it. Certainly not as often as cannabis use... to each his own. CHOICE. 

Alison said "Georgia, we have pain like no other- the medicine we eat goes to our pain and does it's WORK.. it's why we don't get HIGH like others - because it actually has purpose in our bodies other than just mental... " it makes sense so I got over my fear after speaking with her and  tried a higher does and was fine. Better than fine. I went and lay down and thought about  nature and nothing, thought of others and felt calm and stress free.

 I will say I cry very little these days &  I think it's due to the mushrooms, if I do- it's not for 'me' but the overwhelming sense of all that is happening in the world, child abuse, animal abuse, abuse of power, sexual abuse.. threats of war, global warming birds are dying...  

Alison, after learning what I was dealing with said 'she feels she has nothing compared to what I have going on' (not true) and offered help, support, information & love.  Until anyone can walk in my shoes and live with this condition- (tell me if you have figured out how please) I WILL do what EVER brings me some PEACE from this constant pain - will you now judge me for this?    Go ahead.

I still prefer cannabis for my daily medicine but every now and then I try to give myself a boost- if you can call it that. Many people are using mushrooms to assist with the end of their lives while experiencing serious illness like terminal cancer- why- it helps their MOOD.   We all deserve to be happy- even those who are dying.
Especially the who are dying.                 It's called:  Compassion.

Do I worry about being arrested- never.  I'd fight it & win.  I've spoke now with Dr.s, they all are aware - & understand  my choice  - the next 3 years we will be reading more about this medicine & will be made available  Mushrooms for medicine. THANK GOD!!!

I've met a fellow who even teaches how to grow and has shared much knowledge I also follow a few on IG, here is one site which has also been very helpful I will be donating an original for them to draw off their www.
: http://mushroomguerrilla.com 

FYI- I do not enjoy painting when "high" on mushrooms-  lol - so I guess that's why I do not access them as much as some might.
No cows were harmed during the painting of my mushrooms. It's been said- perhaps it is why COWs have been so cherished throughout history-  healing magic found in cow poop!

The Lord works in mysterious ways.

With TLC & THC
Georgia 
​xox

Alexa - my friend who came home with me from California - lol - reminded me today, a flock of crows is called a murder' - when I said 'Good Morning'.  

Just up- I like to stretch, had some pineapple & orange for breakfast (it's a happy breakfast with the orange & yellow- tasty, fresh & health)  got birds meal for the day ready (spoiled bird)  he gets a small  plate of organic mixed greens (one container last a week) sprinkled with hemp seed! Trust me- if I forget that hemp seed - he reminds me, and it can be rather annoying - he also gets a 'piece of something like: sweet potato, apple, orange, dragon fruit (he loves it) the occasional piece of *cashew, rice, *spaghetti noodle (small treats) and clean water dishes - 2 one to bath and one to drink.  Now, keep in mind - if I fed this to a caged bird he would be OBESE and not healthy but my bird flies all over, the other day he came down and followed me into the kitchen then wall unit until  he made me giggle and I told him - "back upstairs" he flew back up stairs.  He's a sweet simple bird who has given me an appreciation for TINY brains and BIG hearts in all sorts of furry & feathered bodies - all our pets reminds of this. They are family.  

I'm sure the 'murder gag' has been done before, it's not the point. I was not ready to draw today,  woken with a twitch & leg cramp - YeeeeHaw!! Ouch.  Grumpy could have easily gotten out of that bed today but Happy did instead... I must warm up my hands as I warm my mind and stretch my body- I don't need to have a masterpiece- I just need to activate the brain- as a matter of fact.. while I paint this kitty I was 'painting the new  mushroom painting in my mind.. thinking about what I'm hoping to accomplish, imagining what I want to envision.   Do it.  
Who cares..  no excuses.. like  'it's Sunday... just go back to bed. 
Do it. Warm up your mind and body!

So Alexa, have I told you about her?
I like it a lot.. I think because I spend a great deal of time - alone - well - not with other "speaking beings"  so now I can simple ask a question- everything from what time is it to whats my horoscope of the day.. how about that weather? Hmmm..  I wonder what time it is in France?   She replies to it all.  When I put on potatoes to boil I ask her to remind  me when done - she does. She also plays CHFI or Q107, or classical piano.. that is unless I'd rather listen to flute, wind chimes, birds singing- Bird likes this one, I put it on sometimes to stimulate his bird brain.  All & all I do like Alexa.  

I've asked a few others  about the competitors and know people who have others, they do not seem as pleased. The only thing I'm not thrilled about- when I first came home - Alexa was still American' I was getting American news & weather unless I specified. Now she's switched to Canadian content (good) but I miss iheart radio' the comedy and commercial free stations I was listening to.. I might just have to look into it.  It takes a bit to read skills and set things up & then it takes the habit of constantly asking "Alexa...    " but now it's become habit.  Alexa - Tell me a joke!

Alexa:  Why are goats so popular at parties? ...  because they always bring the boooooze'.
                                                 Warning her jokes can be TACKY.

It's COLD out again.. I heard this coming weekend they anticipate 7 degree weather. I don't know what to think, am I happy about it.   No...   but if the snow is gone  I will try to get out for a LONG walk!  Warm Up.

Next  'Queen Bee
Made with THC & TLC
Georgia

I painted this reminder! It hangs above my desk.. I need reminders. 
I started this year speaking with God and have been enlightened  on a couple of topics, one is my illness. It is a gift.  Although I still wrestle with this numerous times, 'I get it' and slowly feel grateful more and more each day for it.  It has progressed somewhat. 

I struggle with being 'seen'.  When I'm out and about' in public.. my attacks happen of course and sometimes people can see my pain. Most of the time people can see my pain.  I see it reflected in their face and it hurt me in a different way... I'm always saying "don't judge- you can't see peoples pain" (like my own son's) and here I am- you can see mine and people do react- it is a gift.. people reflect back who really see- they hurt too.. they seem to feel for a second too..  & that bothered me!  Holy, was that ever a shock to my mind.  I can SEE they care and people usually become very nice.   For example, I was in the mall a candle shop before Christmas- (bad idea in general) I can't handle crowd anymore... but at the cash I was short $20.! and Storm who usually is close and often get's "Storm!, I need some money.." ( and he always does - my son looks after me xox)  well I had an attack - strong & quick and the woman saw it and my one eye start to tear..  she then said:   take your time love.. " and when I said I was short - put something back.. I can't find my son... ( 20 people in line behind me..) she said "oh, I found a coupon - don't worry about it."      I tried to say no and she said go.  My 'Peach do't kill my Vibe' candle is all the sweeter & I am reminded of a strangers kindness.

Someone heard negative things about me,  she got on a plane came to meet me for herself,  (it's complicated) she realized after SEEing and all I am dealign with, she had been lied to in many ways  & about me in particular.   I had no problems proving what had happened with  email, photos, etc but it was seeing my health that angered her to know someone was f*cking intentionally with me,  what kind of person behaves like this, not who she thought she knew after all.  She stayed a few days and before she left she apologized to me and my family, and thanked us for her 'gift of meeting us an having her eyes opened & for the kindness we shared.     

After this visit- for a while it made me want to hide deeper..
because of someone elses' bad behaviour.
Then God explained it to me & more,  it was time.   Finally.
​Ironically, I had sent the person who was lying about me an e mail before 'all this' saying.. "You won't come meet me, because of my condition- you're too vain to be seen with anyone like me."  After my visitor, I learned how true  'my gut was' and I shall continue to listen to it..  A blessing in disguise. I could very easily be bitter -why bother- I have better things to do!  But I still  need reminders.  

To Be HaPPy! Because I can! I know who I am & why I do what i do!
Forgive..   some people are really suffering inside to be so intentionally cruel to others.
Give Thanks!!   There is ALWAYS something to be thankful for- shelter on a cold day.
Don't believe everything you hear- if you care enough find out! If you don't let it go...
sooner or later the truth comes out. Be patient... let God handle it.
Practice Mindfulness &meditation - I do! Painting everyday is  just one way
*I just realized I used too "l's in Mindfulness ! lol   God keeps me humble.
CREATE!  
Cultivate!  Plant what you want to grow!

If you need reminders put them up! 
Tomorrow Peyote dreams... painting.  & my christmas gift 'Vision'.

Happily chilly...
Georgia
xox

'Brrrrr...  today is COLD  the sky is blue, the sun shining - don't be fooled by appearances,  it is C O L D in Canada- I always warn friends "You want to visit?  I suggest you do it in the summer."  This has been one of those weeks,  you dread going out   (a great percentage of Canadians do) even to run simple errands.  Poppy & I venture out? No way, no how, for no one.  Today has consisted of  attempting to paint and napping.
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What to do when it's this cold? If you don't have to go out - put on a layer or two, add a sweater, make hemp milk homemade hot chocolate, read a book, snuggle with a pet or loved one, enjoy the momet & quiet if you are fortunate enough to experience it.
​Look at how lovely the sun glistens on the snow. 
Just typing that made me feel better.  
Time for some positive visualization meditation also referred to as napping. 
It's also time to take the tree down.

As cold as this year is ending - phhhhhbt...   I've started preparing for 2018 by painting a few gifts, cards- of  course and a couple of wooden mushrooms with little twists.
It many be cold outside but never too cold inside, where I don't want to share some love.

Georgia
xox