I need a break - how about you?
I'm taking a break.
I think I'll take Septemeber & October off.
I got a message this morning from a long time internet friend. We met on Facebook overt 10 years ago... one of those special social media friends who you actually become friends' with. We've exchanged gifts', letters.. life, for over 10 years.
Toti said "hi.. how's it going George?" to me, more often than REAL life friends.
Real friends can be Douchebags.
Really, I'm so tired of alwasy being the friend who initiates contact.
I'm done with that.
People who can't take a moment to respond to you...
are showing you their response.
I watched her run marathons and volunteer for cancer research, long before she was diagnosed. I got to know her 'handsome hubby' as I've called him the last 10 years, he made me a gift too. They thought about me. I thought about them.. think about them. Invited them to see this beautiful country a couple of years ago but you know life keeps us busy. I know they are kind, Mexican American (I've drooled over their cooking for a decade ;)) we've never met... but we were all hoping to take our friendship to the next level.
We were startng to plan.
This won't be happening... she's been given 6 months.
Watching her struggle, watching cancer grow from the inside out.. I hope she has 6 months.
I do know she is surrounded by friends and family who love her very much. Real people.
She sent me a message to tell me: she loves me.
Fuck covid, fuck cancer.. fuck nasty for no reason, people.
Fuck complaining about stupid stuff.
Fuck mind games.. who needs people in our lives when they show you they don't have any consideration for you. Move on.
Fuck mental health Mondays...
God sends us friends from all around the world, on different levels, each is a blessing.
ANY friend that takes the time to think about you, is a blessing.
Anyone who cares enough to be your friend, in these selfish covid confusing times - is a gift.
I'm mentally exhausted, acknowledge it and need to paint & turn all else off.. out.
I DO have several projects and a commission on the go- lots to keep my mind & hands inspired. Time to focus on my furry family, fall and painting.
I know it's important to my OWN health.
I LOVE fall - when God picks up the paintbrush to blow us all away & remind us who the ARTIST is.
with THC & TLC