This painting  was painted with silver paint on the door- you can't see it here -but it looks really authentic, I'm pleased with how it turned out. ;)

Disney knew how to create a bond with the viewer, an emotional attachment - something that makes us all a little vunerable like knowing Bambies mom is dead as he looks for her...  I still hold my breath at that scene & this scene in Dumbo brings me to tears - every time.  I cried painting it. Mad elephant...  I feel like that mad elephant sometimes, locked in a chage and only able to preform limited loving..  The elephant is me & the cage is life,  stuff that gets in the way like these iron bars & I cant seem to see past them  & all I want to do is  hug my baby, whom is no longer a baby but I'll alwasy be his mom & mad elephant if it arises- because it can't be helped - I try.  

Dumbos mom was anything but 'Mad' - lables other gave her, but I understand how she comes across this way... LOVE.   I understand I'm no elephant but I can tell you - I have a mamabear in me and alwasy will untl I no longer breathe, it's just there under the surface and it arrived the same day my son did & I'm grateful, grateful I experienced love & emotions that  bring out the beast in me because it is this 'beast in all of us' that also wants to make the world in general a safer  & better place for all cubs. 

I can't put into words how proud I am of my son - his work ethics, determination & thirst for continued knowledge - I'm not worried about him... anymore, he has proven many times he  is capable of looking after himself & he is surrounded by a group of great friends & co workers - I couldn't hope for anyhing better.  I've been fortunate to go to work with him on a few occassions & his professionalism  is impressive if I do say so- hee hee - this business has some a long way in a few years! I can't believe how quickly they go in and set up professional & productive grow rooms in record time - so others can start to produce their own quality cannabis/medicine - It is a BLESSING & Storm has wanted to help people grow their own medicine since he worked in a hydroponic store at the age of 15 & look at him now!  
I literally laugh - now at the path God has had us on - everything for a reason,  trust. 

A new club opened in Yorkville - 'Ameri' - is that short for American?   & again my friend informs me there is no wheelchair access - she is a woman - in a wheelchair but HEY, they say' - you can wait to be seen (or ignored) and then you can wheel yourself around to the 'back alley' & buy your  medicine (for her it is)... WHAT THE FUCK is this CONTINUED bullshit & WHY are we ALLOWING IT- use the back door? Screw that, I'll never visit that store & told her to wait until someone does it RIGHT- Is anyone paying attention??  

UNTIL ALL ARE INCLUDED - on this journey. Did you know there is still a stigma twoards the disabled & aged (& women) in this country - one they don't see advancing anytime soon -  that might not bother you at the moment - God forbid you get hurt & become disabled,  either way we ALL GET OLD - so, those of you who are young and healthy NOW,  > you <  might want try to change this mentality before you get old.    Either way, continue to speak up with your dollar & 'if'  you do visit this place - please tell them to put in a fucking ramp & show some COMPASSION..

No wonder they don't call them 'Compassion Clubs' any longer - there appears to be little displayed.

Walt Disney suffered from severe depression from time to time -  he admitted he was unable to even speak on the phone without crying at one point... image that!  Yet,  he knew he had to 'take breaks' & to step away from time to time to recharge & heal..  me too.  Walt Disney NEVER - EVER let anyone keep him from following his dreams - thank God.  Walt is a hero of mine in many ways,  I'm grateful we had someone like him create inspiring art, capable of bringing  out compassin in others - with the swinging of a baby elephant on it's mad mamas  trunk.  Genius. 

with TLC & THC
G

It's time - 'Spring Blossoms' & of course I'm thinking of Spring buds & Spring Buds!  I also watched 'Memoirs of Geisha, I can't say as I enjoyed it as much as I did the first time, visually a great movie but the story - all too the same.  Differnt women, differnt culture, same struggle.  This time it made me think it's another version of 'Pretty Woman'.  Life as a porstiture - is rarely happily ever after.  Far from it.  To think I raved about that movie the first time I saw it back in 1990 '28' years ago & now what I think are two very different opinions. 

Age, wisdom.. time changes you and your opinion on much if you allow it... and you may as well anyhow because it's happening  - like it or not. Thank God or it would be brutal if we all got stuck at 15.  Not to say there are not some very impressive, incredibly intelligent & craazy creative 15 year olds out there - even younger - you realize it when you hear 'them speaking about climate change' & still hopeful we can do something about it.  That Walrus special on Netflix.. I watched it and it was - really heartbreaking awakening, I turned away...  to see these animals struggle & then perish as they do.   Talk about climate change denial, you won't after watching that - So, if for that reason alone - Please do.  Do not pretend you do not see or do not know, afterall it's the least we can do - acknowledge our...  I can't think of one word to describe what we do to this planest on a daily basics..   I guess It would be: Rape. 

Nothing can be done to help the walrus, I am not in denial - I can paint them to show my appreciation  and hope it helps me & others take a little more care to prevent/slow down future animal inhalation.  Plastic bags really need to go - the garbage Walmart hands out here 'rips so easily you can't even use them twice - why are we allowing this, so it won't intefer with shopping?
Different quality from the bags in the USA.  Check & see, I noticed when in California.
Goodbye walrus,  sorry we are such consuming beasts.' 

The buds are beautiful..   they remind me of new life.  You stare at those ice covered branches only a few weeks ago & think - how do they survive this, are they dead?
They do survive.  Geisha are beautiful - the word means 'Artist - I guess in a way - I am a Geisha - lol  in essesnce,  are all women  not Geisha? What are these titles...   Geisha, Prostiture, street worker, whore, slut, bitch...  I have no problem with those words I know it's only a matter of ones opinions';  it's 'Pimp  & sex trafficking' that bother me.  I read about a young very intelligent woman in college  who thought she was being romanced and  was force & beaten into having sex with strangers for money only weeks later - humiliated, exhausted, she did not want to tell anyone.    Frig, another young woman  got into a car she thought was her Uber because she was not paying attention - too busy on her phone & was never seen again.  & Social media-  is harming YOUNG women in particular, if I was a parent I'd take away the phone between set hours because: I love her.
But I get it...   I am not you & currently living with a teenage girl.  What will you do?
Priorities.  I think they need re defining, on a global scale.    
Global warming it's real.

Next - a Truibute to Walt Disney, Dumbo & Depression.

With TLC & THC
​G

The lord works in mysterious ways - he keeps me laughing in between crying.
I AM continually reminded how I have been helped many times over- I realized a few things yesterday after a Ray of sunshine on what started a grey morning! 
I learned over the years I have met some incredible lawyers  & EVERY time they have helped me & have never charged me.  Once a police officer even went to court to fight for me & won.  I have been protected my whole life.  Thank you Lord.

They all have told me they know/knew I was/am telling the truth and helped - it's been that simple... I guess they should know if they have been living it long enough and they also know when someone is not doing something 'for money'.  Yesterday I ended up speaking to a lawyer (I never met before) all I know is his name was Ray and he was a Ray of fucking sunshine I needed.  He explained a few things & I have heard this before  ONE other time:

No lawyer wants to spend time on your case, although  it's NOT right what you experienced - you were NOT physically hurt (other than a sore breast & slapped on the arm & back) like -I did not lose a limb in a car accident - so WHEN I would win- I'd only get a small amount and it's about $1,500 just to start a file.  A lot of time for little $.      I get it. 
He also understood I don't want any other woman to experience this.

Wow. The other time we heard that was when the genetics specialist at Sick kids told us:
No scientist are going to waste time trying to find a cure for a disease that only a few people have.  Storms illness was/is considered an 'Orphan' disease - very rare.
 'That' back then... felt like a slap. 

MONEY MONEY MONEY...         Good thing I know  God has my back, no deposit required only faith in others and myself needed.  Ray restored my faith in humans. He didn't even know.  He inspired the thank you card... already in the mail.

There's nothing like a kick in the teeth of reality to give me a kick in the ass to make shit happen myself! I realized I am not weak-  (as I felt in that office last week) I am STRONG.

That "technician" I'm confident will definitely THINK the next time she behaves as she did
NEVER LET ANYONE TOUCH you in anyway you feel uncomfortable!  Being smacked on the arm while my breast was in that machine - SHOWED her LACK of control & let me clarify for the record- it wasn't about being 'SMACKED' as I've been smacked, punched slapped, hair pulled, clothes torn and then some my entire life - far worse than what she did to me.  To treat a patient (stranger) as she did while my breast was in that machine - showed her LEVEL of professionalism - Treating a patient who is naked & vulnerable & frightened  with anything other than compassion - speaks volumes about that 'PROFESSIONAL'.  

I was grateful to  Ray ' he calmed me down - explained things as they are, was patient....  after I got off the phone & painted (felt good) I made him a thank you card- as I do. It made me LOL - I guess it is HOW I heal.   I realized when I looked up the address - I just had a conversation about my "fucking boob was in a vice when she lost it!"  with a 'criminal lawyer.'  That made me really  laugh out loud.  Someone who deals with murder... I did think later... I should have punched her - I'd been happy to explain it to a judge.  I could not have reached.. my boob did not stretch that far...  that & she was definitely NOT  worth me hurting my painting hands!
 
I do think Ray thought 'tit was a joke for  a second when I first called him as he asked 'who told you to call me??  (9 a.m.) Another lawyers had given me his #.  I am forever grateful for his brutal reply - it saved me time and energy' then - I knew the exact direction to take and the rest of the day went so smoothly - all I could think:
                                       Thank you again, for answering my prayers.

PLEASE NOTE: I LEARNED these 'PRIVATE places'- when there is an issue - GOOD LUCK!  & Ray told me that too-  it's not like you can even contact anyone - there is NO ONE on the WWW for you to ask for - that alone should be sending up red flags! They have it so it's work just tracking them down,  who has time, energy - or in some cases $ for lawyers.
FROM NOW ON I will have all my tests done at the hospital or with a REGISTERED organization with reputable service & PROFESSIONAL, COMPASSIONATE employees.  

I share this bullshit so YOU Might avoid it- I won't give that bitch another thought, she's not worth it.  Life is too short & I have painting to do- cards to make & smile to produce!! AMEN.

ANYONE who thinks I'm being dramatic - HAVE a STRANGER put your breast/penis in a vice while  you're naked & trapped - alone in a room with a shut door - you can't reach -  then  you are slapped  by them  while they are yelling  their credentials!   Have that happen...
Then let's have this fucking conversation again.   
I bet your perspective changes.

Lesson learned  it will never happen to me again! I go prepared from now on to every appointment & IF I want someone in the room with me - I am getting someone IN the room with me! FUCK that- this system needs FIXED!!!
Western medicine  becomes less appealing with every visit.

Medical professionals are just as capable of mental health issues as the REST of us=
NURSE Elizabeth Wettlaufer  or Surgeon Mohammed Shamji   
​are just two examples.   

With TLC & THC
Georgia
  
Yoda & Kermit are sold.
Wait until you see my Space Monkey that inspired another space monkey - and a space monkey painting! Time to get creative. 

The image below was pulled off of Google with just a couple of complaints I easily found : KESWICK ADVANCED Imaging.  Do not say you have not been warned! I would never recommend any woman go here for a mammogram!  
CLEARLY THERE IS AN issue...   WHY is this person still working there!? I feel sad for the young mom too.  NO, not 'physically hurt -  still  - fucked with mentally BY an angry bitch who takes it out on PATIENTS.

Ginger is one of my favorite spices, I like candied ginger, ginger root slice in a cup of tea. Ginger can be sweet & HEAT... this little Ginger pup of ours is at that' age where constant curiosity has kicked in - when it get's too quiet I go look for her - I know she's up to something, usually she's looking out the front window but occasionally she's into something she shouldn't like digging up a potted plant in the kitchen, stealing peanuts from the bluejays and eating them on the carpet, helping Scruff - de-stuff all over the living room.. it's all new but once she is told "NO!" she get's it.  
Ginger is smart, I can tell by how she watches T.V and our facial expressions and she is into my breathing! Today I was reading about those 7 kids who died in the fire & started breathing fast, crying a few silent tears (Poppy & Ginger sleeping on my lap) and she freaked out and start jumping at my face trying to kiss me, I realized she's right.  
Me sitting here crying won't help those poor babies or mom.  One dad kills his daughter last week and one nearly dies trying to save his children.

I purposely take a  anti-inflammatory pill & throw it not he floor and yell "NO!" the second she moves to it... again a bit closer "NO!", closer "NO!"  Then I let her sniff and say "YUK" make a exaggerated disgusted face and "NO!" again until she 'gets it. I can now do this with a piece of bacon on the kitchen floor and no one touches it (including Norm - hahaha). In the beginning she would snatch stuff & RUN! & we would all be looking at her in shock - but I know she came from an environment that had several dogs and she also use to hide behind pillows  & stuff when too much barking happened - she's RIGHT upfront now. 

She's not fond of strangers- she likes everyone but is not overly friendly so that's good, already she won't run out the front door if you stand there with it open - none of my girls do but they bark. Barking is saying hello, warning  and protecting but barking to bark- she has this high pitch howl bark - we are working on it now, she's old enough to learn when barking is acceptable; I did notice the other day just the stern "NO!"  had her running - which made me laugh - she turns to see this and it's become a big joke.  It's hard to be angry at this little beast, she loves me snd amuses us ALL - all the time.  I gave up yesterday when painting, she wanted some loving and is BORED of winter & the cold... us too, unlike her we know Spring is only 27 days away! Hang in there.    

Soon I'm painting Ginger & Poppy, Ginger does this thing- I tell anyone who will listen -(like a proud mom-lol) she has 3 babies she brings to me when she wants to snuggle it's comical & incredibly sweet It's hard to carry one inner mouth so often she makes 3 trips but  she always brings the raccoon to bed guaranteed & it's so cute- EVERY single time it makes me smile & thank GOD  for yet 'ANOTHER wonderful DOG'  in our lives.   Please consider adopting a dog if you do not have one, with LOVE  & some caring you too will have a friend like this... that's all dogs care about imo. love.      As I type she has brought me her baby and is looking up like she does - time to go play with the girls before we spend time with the octopus.  

With TLC & THC 
G

Kids NEED pets.  ;) Adults too.

Next - my Alcoholic octopus. ;) & sneak peek below- of the octopus painting in progress.

The Peyote cactus knows.. and if you ingest it- you might know too.
I have no desire to try peyote - first because it sits on my desk & I watch how long it takes to grow- it's so sweet my pet peyote,  I don't think a 'high' is worth seeing my little guy go (that & you have to eat many I believe for them to effect you properly).  Storm successfully grew several from seed and it's been really fun to watch these tiny little cactus grow many taking years before they become substantial - and then they get eaten?   Peyote also don't seem to taste that great- I'd have issues keeping them down  just from watching people eat them - it makes me nauseous but I love to paint them! I painted a little peyote on time-lapse -it's on my IG account.

Food for thought. They are illegal in the USA - with the exception of ceremonial purposes but they have been abused and are becoming increasingly difficult to find sadly,  this is not good for the PLANT. Peyote cactus are considered teachers.   Nature has all the best teachers.  It teaches me already -  'patience' just by painting it. You can't see it here but it glistens with metallic paint & it's peeking through the keyhole of the universe... in my mind.

TTC drives are not permitted to consume cannabis- or that's the direction they are going to try to go- GOOD luck with that. What anyone does in their off hours is no ones fucking business. WHAT ABOUT ALCOHOL? Do they- have they ever  told drivers  they are NOT to consume alcohol after hours? It's a cartoon in the making. I see a lawsuit in the making... not to mention the very slippery slope.  Reefer madness is still rampant in Canada thanks to this sort of bullshit.

Do you know what kills more humans than illegal drugs - VANITY.  
 Think about tit. ( hee hee note type 'o) before you get the boob job!!
I watched a few episodes on Netflix of Botched Up Bodies - I highly recommend it (IF you can stomach it)  It's hard not to feel sorry for these people, all they wanted to do was better themselves... God has you perfect the way you are!
Botched Vagina's - cause  everyone needs a pretty vagina! WTF? Countless boob jobs gone wrong, lip jobs, teeth implants, lipofat removed & it's an education of how much $$$ this industry is making, this show covers IT ALL & Education is key- everyone one of these people admits they did not research, fillers that need to come out years later because they move & are making people very sick  & on top of it they are embarrassed because they paid to have themselves 'destroyed'.  Vanity KILLS EVERY day.  It is a rude awakening many need to have... not me - no cosmetic surgery for me, I'll embrace every wrinkle, saggy boob (I got two) - I love me too much to do this to my body. Twitch & all!  It really  makes you understand how fortunate we are too - I feel  healthy & grateful after watching that show. 

 One Strange Rock on Netflix is fantastic. 

with TLC & THC
G

Drug Mule... the only kind I like is the furry kind above.
As long as drugs are illegal- drug mules will be used & it's an entirely new level of low... 
Clint Eastwood has just made a movie Drug Mule that I hope to watch soon... I also recommend:  ​https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RZlgZGMVFFs   Maria full of grace.
Prohibition kills countless ways & it discriminates no one. As long as someone is making a lot of money they will continue their ways- at any cost.  Puppies who had drugs surgically sewn into them by a "vet" - is just as serious as forcing a human & I do hope this 'vet' goes to jail , for the rest of his life.    Who is to blame?

Anyone who believes Drugs should be kept illegal - it's obviously not working so the sooner we end this bullshit the better - no!?  I no longer believe the majority of drugs (used for recreational or medical purposed)  should be kept 'illegal' ... it's human nature humans want to get HIGH - do you think there any coincidence in our Hello?     
Hi!

By keeping drugs illegal we keep these horrid practices happening, that is a fact.
Let's get our 'asses in gear'  -  educate, regulate - tax even! Anything to prevent the loss of life, especially for those innocent victims usually already  in unfortunate circumstances who have no choice but to be a part of  ILLEGAL Drug trafficking.  
A few possible suggestions for now...
Shop locally. Buy locally produced product if possible.   Grow your own.  Advocate.  Educate. Encourage legality.

Talk to your kids NOW so they have an awareness of where drugs come from & BE HONEST (the bellies of puppies sometimes) so they are able to truly understand at an early age the impact judgemental thinking & outdated laws have on each other because you know what's bound to happen... these 'kids' are going to grow up - and TRY drugs, go figure.
Let them BE Educated on all that matters...  frankly, I believe this issue matters more than most bullshit history we are 'still' taught...  time will tell.

Whats worse than drug trafficking?  Human trafficking - let's focus on that.


With TLC & THC
Georgia

Check out Me & Larry posing for a selfie! Hee hee...
Larry is OLD! He loves me & I love him, he would sit on my shoulder all day and smile if I let him, Ginger fell in love and was obviously delighted when they shared a bed- she actually rolled over & was submissive to him lol..    
Love  has NO boundaries.  

Curious George - Explores the garden!  Where is this book? 
I'll admit I was not a huge Curious George fan - & believe it was in rebellion to being Called 'Curious George' when I was younger, especially by my Aunt Marine.  ;) Looking back now, they are fond memories.   Still it's hard not to like this curious little monkey  & all the antics he gets himself into...   I can't help but wonder "if only this book was available back then.. imagine all the misery it might have avoided.

Kids learn through books, every opportunity I get to EXPLORE a book store - I always end up in the kids section  to admire the art, why did adult books get so boring?   Traditional Curious George is what was painted, - just like I prefer the original Mickey Mouse. As fist I considered having curious George with some bongs, joints & other paraphernalia but decided against it as I like to keep the innocence of the Original character & intention.  I reflect sometimes when I see others art (especially cartoons/illustrations) represented in a different 'light' I follow a cartoonist 'Beck  I admire his work ethic & talent -a couple of his stickers... I'm not fond of & it's not because I'm prudish.  I don't know..  it's not a direction  I will go. He has a few I absolutely love like the WB Monster,  his computer skills fascinate & inspire me - to continue painting. lol  I can hardly keep up with online lessons never mind the actual programs - I truly like to use a paint & brush, not that I don't enjoy my ipen & iPad from time to time. Check out Beck on IG, he has something for everyone.

On my Instagram account you can see a real time video &  a time-lapse of this painting.

I highly recommend "Brain Child" on Netflix - watch it & invite your kids to join you.

Next my lesson in Sacred Geometry resulted  in a different sort of Bird.
​
With TLC & THC
Georgia
​

I don't know how people who have it worse are at all comfortable... Psoriasis & stress go hand in hand, from what I know & have researched when stress gets worse Psoriasis can flare & the past year mine has gone from managable & hardly visible to out of control & I contemplate ever wearing shorts again - let alone sleep comfortably.  
We try to avoid 'unnecessary stress - good luck in todays world represented by humans like Trump, we are in trouble,  many times we can't avoid it especially if we have people in our immediate life  who contribute to stress...  rather than help eliminate.

Norm causes me stress on a daily basis & I find myself wishing I lived alone time & time again. Trying very hard to feel good not even 'better'- just good & he constantly brings CRAP into this house - for example he went to natures Emporium & picked up a salad & cheese ball that we enjoy - what else did he pick from the health FOOD store with thousands of options - potato chips. 2 bags. In the chip cupboard they went with the cheesies, rippled chips, low salt chips, high salt chips, taco chips, organic taco chips, greenpeachips & pretzels...  enough is enough, that's the 'chip cupboard there's also several junk food drawers he manages to keep full. I AM trying to keep him healthy & alive & he fights me every step of the way.  He also snacks on toffee & candy, sunflower seeds  & his teeth (the ones that remain) have paid dearly for it.  I can't 'stress about his health' anymore...  he's heard it before, he obviously doesn't care - why do we & to top it off we are seen as 'Nags' for doing so.  Living alone would be more peaceful. That's normal stresses...

'Outside stresses' last year caused me to flare to the point of no return I'm afraid... too much stress to mention, guns, lies, dick picts & more by 2 who intentionally misled & lied for their own selfish purposes,  I write this now because I know they still read my blog & I have nothing to hide, unlike others.  The sun the moon, & the truth..  I will be patient & let God  control timing,  if 1/2 of what I heard is true - it's been brewing for a long time & will be exposed sooner than later & have 'little' to do with me in the end.  Stress? Is there any wonder it's got worse & out of control?  When you realized you have been 'intentional fucked with'  which has in fact contributed to my health decline & not wanting to socialize (trust issues - go figure) I now feel I  have an OBLIGATION to warn others (especially women in the cannabis industry) so they may hopefully avoid being victims to the same nasty pair.   ALREADY  stressing about being seen this summer because of these physical 'scars' now very visible.. I won't hide away, it's just another lesson.    A recent awakening has reminded me again, I am so much more than this body - I am a child of our creator & I will rise above.  Everything for a reason.

If you see the signs of psoriasis TRY to 'GET it under control', sometimes I can't feel it, other times I wake scratching until I bleed & most days it's just incredibly sensitive. It changes from scaly in appearance to (especially if really upset) reddish purple in color, the redder it is the more intense my arthritis pain.  I tried injections in the stomach for years that made me feel sicker with every one & it never changed it - it continued to slowly progress, I've been asked to consider a new medication but I refuse because "it can be harmful to the brain." Go figure. Special soaps dry it out - I would advise as soon as you see it- REST, EAT healthy, meditate (draw) & avoid ALL who stress you out if possible, for me it is possible & this rule has few exceptions - those who 'really stress' me out I can easily go months without speaking - we have feelings like this for a reason- we have health issues for reasons...  had I started to listen to my body & GUT sooner I would not be as physically ill as I feel today, instead I kept it in' most of the time,  I am paying for  it mentally & physically.  

Learn to walk away. Learn to speak up,  Learn to rest.. Sunshine helps!  This is what  'Turn on, Tune In & Drop out' means to me.. apply this to life - to recharge.   Drop off the grid if you can if only for a few hours.  Never be afraid of expressing LOVE, sooner or later is will be seen for the intent it was meant.  When people rise above  'Physical beauty'... eventually, I think most do, we are all healthier.

Psoriasis has no cure, yes it is painful - more emotionally when people look at my legs with disgust (I see it)  just like the 2 who chose to inform me I was physically 'Ugly' (have a look at my butt you two! You helped get it this way... )  I know shallow people exist & it should not bother me but it does...  it bothers most of you too. It's why we all try so hard to look our best- it does not matter - don't give a fuck what anyone thinks because there will always be shitty people out there  & there are also loving, caring, compassionate others, I know a few & am grateful to you  - I'm sorry to show you my butt - but, this certainly is NOTHING to be ashamed of.   It is life, many have it worse than I do - please, show others some fucking compassion instead of judgement - you might be next.

Why are we bothered by stress & the opinions of others - Who are they?
I don't know... I don't know why any of us  think so little of ourselves that we ever forget  for even a second we are a child of God.  I AM a Child of God - exactly where & how I am meant to be - SEEN! * The worst is my lower back & bum - I have included this, I did warn you yesterday! hee hee hee  

With TLC & THC     
​G

 Flying High again tomorrow! Wait until you see some of my new art!!

I figure the timing is about right, Christmas depression setting in for about 25%of Canadians, holiday let down, bills arriving, pounds packed on being noticed & resolutions already being broken,  who's feeling festive  now - Fuck Off!   LOL

I still am feeling festive! I did not make any resolutions - well yes, I did- Less Alcohol (I've had NONE so far in 2019),  paint daily (done), focus on God & Good.  Keep the past where it belongs. So far so good. HAVE no FEAR for ALL that comes this year...  God's got my back & will get me thought it with flying colors! I know.
 
I'm off to a fucking great start- oh, & READ more! Last year I read a book a month this was one I forgot to tell you about: Swearing is Good for you.    Finally proof is in- so all who judge me for swearing can Fuck Off  (said lovingly), I swear  & now I understand why- I swear more- Pain. Apparently swearing helps pain- scientific proof shows it helps those suffering and allows for great pain threshold. It helps for social pain too.  I HIGHLY recommend this book for EVERY TEACHER - I had no idea about swearing and children & Tourette's- children need to be understood & NOT judged, children & adults who deal with this already are stigmatized by UN educated (myself included) ignorance of the subject & it only hurts them more. 

I have noticed increased swearing since brian surgery - or since fucking failed brain surgery...  I KNOW when I get really upset- it's all I can seem to yell - I can't even get words into my head between the twitching, anger & frustration- I can swear like a trooper/Judge Judy (also known for her choice wording) & YES, I have paid for it and probably still  do  - oh well, I don't (can't) give a fuck - I was raised with swearing - so it's common place, I swear when I'm happy just as often as I'm sad!  I can be fucking thrilled beyond words & fucking disgusted with how some behave...  I SEE the reaction in some others when I swear- sometimes I feel flustered (like when speaking to an older pal/nun friend) & I understand it's usually age related, those who love me seem to accept it and understand- our wording does not always reflect who we are. I am NOT a criminal or bad person for swearing - they are words.

As a matter of fact- this book was a rude awakening-  empowering even! When I learned about the difference between men & women I thought: here we fucking go again..
What bullshit - yes, it's o.k. for men to swear - but still looked down upon for women- women will be judged for EVERYTHING from swearing in public to & breast feeding -to which I say - Fuck that! Just one more reason to keep women down & I refuse to be a part of it, especially for all the young ladies to arrive after me. I BELIEVE if more young women were taught to speak up and say FUCK OFF!! ​Fewer women would become victims- I'm many ways. When I was younger I'd have strangers grope me, really - I've been grabbed in public (my boobs when just a kid in a store), ass grabbed (too many times to mention), rubbed up against on a bus/subway & more- if it happened NOW- I would turn without hesitation & at the top of my lungs YELL - GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME & KEEP your fucking hands to yourself - WHO the fuck do you think you are!!?
*I guarantee you the pervert/person would think twice the next time.  
Fuck that.
Teach your daughters to swear, teach them it's o.k.  to express themselves as men do & protect themselves with words & their voice.`

So here is a Fuck OFF to start the year.. painted lovingly.  If you want to judge me for swearing & think I am a lesser person for it- it speaks volumes about you first of all -- o.k., & please tell me this: have you expressed as much disgust/anger today towards  people who abuse children, people who fucking  use children as sexual objects with pornography  or worse...  these predators can appear so sweet & professional & never swear.   Ted Bundy was so charming, never swore- do you know what he attributes to his serial killing spree- pornography, simple soft core pornography at first, he escalated into violent porn. and then started killing (words from own mouth) & children as young as 8 are sharing naked images online encouraged by strangers who don't swear & don't give a fuck about your kids.

It's time we get our priorities straight - what more fucking important - words or actions?   Don't judge a book by it's cover or a person for swearing...  especially if you have no idea why they swear.

If you do choose to judge me & think I'm less classy, educated, feminine, less of a mother, person, artist - because I swear- FUCK off.  lol   You are not worthy of my time, art or thoughts - I've more important issues to focus on.   

With TLC & THC
G

​WARNING - next blog on psoriasis - some might not want to see. 

P.S. someone commented, Timothy Leary was 'not well liked - people think he was reckless' &  I agree- I also think he was egotistical- amazingly enough,  I thought  while watching the documentary- what did people see in him? Like him or not he did bring  an awareness & at a time when he was punished was at an ultimo high - for what- cannabis & mushrooms, plants.   

This year my Christmas gift to 'me' was to paint a gift for someone else...  a young man who uses Cannabis for his medicine. I was  upset thinking he wouldn't get it on time due to the recent postal strike but Canada Post came through! Thank you!   Thank you. Thank you.

I follow on Instagram:  SBSK  special books for special kids . I love these two that travel the world interviewing others with disabilities,  God has this young man doing what he is meant to do - the love he (they) continually displays for everyone they interview - if the world had more like him we would be much better off.   I do have an understanding of what it feels like for parents to have a child with a serious illness - they deal with more than you will ever comprehend, lots you definitely do NOT see on social media.  

I would like, if possible to brighten their lives - if I can & have in the past for a few children & parents, Jamies mom & I still text regular on Instagram and I am forget inspired meeting my little rocket man  (in space with his dog)  so when I read about Tres on SBSK I sent his mom a message asking: What did he like?  Her reply: dinosaurs.   That was all I needed & I knew he already used cannabis so I took a couple of days and put love into every brush stroke and I was pretty pleased when finished, mailed it off JUST last week & he will be opening it Christmas day!  Mom loved it so much she is gong to wrap it and give it to him and will send me a photo, I'm so excited. ;))) !! 

Tres mom sent me a message on instagram when it arrived and I believe I have made a family very happy this Christmas, she said she wanted to cry,  I must admit I became quite emotional when painting Tres,   :) tears of joy - riding a dinosaur - I imagined the fun he would have, it made me smile countless times - time well spent.   I thanked Tres mom for the opportunity to paint her beautiful son - that is all I see.   
A beautiful family. Tres mom is trying to educate on her son's illness with her instagram page, I get that too.   *Understanding eliminates IGNORANCE -  sometimes ignorant people are  Fucking CRUEL. Fact.

I think about who  I paint while working & the more I looked at Tres photo (hours) the more I thought he is truly a beautiful boy & was able to capture' what I wanted.. Tres having a great time on back of that  big happy dinosaur, happy to be together, see it in the clouds.  I was also very amused and happy that his two older brothers also want paintings on dinosaurs now! lol That too had me smiling all day.

Someone not long ago remarked  I was 'ugly & anyone would be ashamed to be seen with me',  well aware of my disability,  I am a 54 year old woman who knows better - but it still effected me, more than I care to admit.  When painting Tres, I thought again of these hateful remarks & at first I could feel my hairs stand on end as mamabear growled within  & then it was if  a calm  weight suddenly  gave me a warm hug  - See them for what they are & understand the only thing you can feel for people who think  like that is: PITY.      
                                   
If you only 'see' a disability you are blind. 

Painting Tres gave me strength & enjoyment. 
Tres reminded me what I love to do & what's REALLY important to me.
Tres  has inspired me to keep going - face forward - head held high!  Pun intended.
Tres & his family are an example of LOVE 
My gift to me - because Tres reminded I am beautiful & I am grateful to him & his Family for the knowledge & education, my gift to me.

With TLC & THC
​Georgia