143,311 do you know how mnay times I had to read that number because of disbelief.
Thats how many have died in the USA & rising.
Yet, places continue to open... like Disney world. WTF?  
In Canada the number is close to 9,000 deaths.
We do no thave to population the USA does - still. 
It is shocking to watch - I don't understand how so few can care, drinking, pool paties.. babies becoming infected in record number in Texas.  Arizona is bringing in mobil morgues and its business as usual. The American Government is FUCKED UP - The rest of the world see just how much.  Careless behavious when we still know very little about covid- we know it kills.  Fighting over masks- political 'leaders' ONLY add to the confusion.
The saddest part is who is dying - those already suffering.

I learned a new word in 2 languages...  it is directed at the Political LEADERS & those who refuse to wear masks.   The nurses, Dr.s, all who are wearing masks and care about others- yo have my symptahy. A thousand people are dying  a day in the USA currently - That can't be true.. can it? And Trump golfs.

Some of my inmate friends think: this is the ends of days (expressed in their letters)  
I don't know how to resond sometimes. I know being cooped up is a big difference than being caged up during covid COVID,  I can read their concerne.
I share - I don't think it's the end of days.. just an end of being blind - to many issues.

I lose sleep lately over all I think about.. all the people I have met and know NOW, in the USA.  I'll do what I can - if only continue prayers- lots. 

I had a awakening  (amen- thakful)...  tomorrow, I'm practicing what I preach.

                                   Teach Only LOVE , that is what WE are.

& made a new sign for the end of our drive way.

With TLC & THC
​Georgia 

Yesterday, I met the neighbours - officially.  
I heard this crazy commotion and walked to the end of the drive way to see MANY trees being cut down at the end of our driveway.. HEALTHY TREES. You all know how I feel about my beautiful driveway - I've shared countless photos, when I walked up I saw many young maples and EVERYTHING else had been removed I was in SHOCK!  & it was FAST AND furious- he had an entire team - it was cleared away in about 20 minutes. I walked back to get my camera- and back up! Some old man, (worker) before I could even say anything - said OUT LOUD ( for me to hear) :
You think she'd be happy about the road being cleared!  
Wow- that told me, they knew I would be upset- Fucking 'sneaky' is what it was.  

I asked the Neighbour - WHAT ARE YOU DOING!?? 
He immediately started yelling  (& he is a VERY big boy - over 6 feet easily, meant -NO DOUBTS, to intimadate)  "I OWN this road!!! I don't have to tell you anything!"  I've got it on video.   I asked him why he was going onto our property and cutting all the trees
 "I OWN IT!!"  & THEN, GET THIS: He actually threatened to SUE US for cutting down that GIANT dangerous tree (I filmed it in slow motions - remember?)  that was on the end of our driveway- what a fucking JOKE!  Clearly that tree had been there for years and he NEVER CARED THEN ABOUT THE ROAD! He also saw us cutting it down and never said one word- suddenly, now  he's going to sue us??  He is no more than an ADULT bully.  

I also met the other neighbour - for the first time.. she stopped to give me her
"unbiased opinion",  of course siding with the bully, watching him yell at me & threaten to sue over the DEAD tree we removed.  How lovely of her to finally  stop - especially, since I've been here ONE YEAR, saw her pass countless times and NOT ONCE did she even roll down her window to wave 'hello'.   NICE Neighbours.  So welcoming..
I'll stick to the wolves & bears - at least I know how dangerous they can be.

So, yes.. this morning I walked up and left them a note- which they have seen. 
Thanking them for the lesson - clearly they have no clue/care of the meaning of neighbourly.  He could not even take 5 minutes to tell me what he was doing or why - BECAUSE HE KNEW HE what he was doing WAS SNEAKY!
BULLY who  "OWNS THE ROAD!!!"

The fact that he plays his music through loud speakers (everyone who visits comments) shows his LACK of disregard for anyone in the area- including his own children's hearing.  No doubt the noise decibel is causing serious hearing loss to those in close proximity  (including employees), forced to listen.  I know about hearing loss in children.

Below are photos of his destruction - so concerned for the road but happened to leave the garbage on our property and the dead tree across the road. He only had intention to clean in front of our place & open it right up.  Just a NOSY neighbour bully, I hope he gets his  fill - since he's so curious. I'll make sure I sun my buns in HIS direction.  The last photo is how I spent the rest of my day - in FUCKING PAIN, my eye would not even open, in bed by 7. 
MAKING ME STRONGER!!!  Intimade me??!
BIG BULLY - he has no clue of how fucking STRONG I AM!  
OR how strong my faith is. 

Yes, we are having the property surveyed.  
The DAMAGE IS DONE - It will take YEARS for the trees to grow back - if at all.  
​Ignorance at it's finest.
I have friends in high places, I'll rise above.. because, I would never want to behave as LOW.

With TLC & THC
Georgia

America is in flames and some are actually shocked.

 The past few years we've ALL watched a POS POTUS destroy America!!
George Floyd was NOT the first black man I watched die with a cops knee on his neck down there!  Bitches in parks calling cops -  screaming WOLF!  Rednecks in Georgia, driving pick ups, shooting joggers - it's like a fucking SPORT!     What the fuck!!?? 

Enough is Enough! WATCH the George Floyd video- tell me that would have happened to a white man!  I'm crying because I just watched a SNUFF film thanks to the AMERICAN POLICE FORCE!  I'm going to sue for mental stress!  & some don't  understand rioting?
                               IT's STUFF.. NOT a LIFE.  Give me a fucking break.  
​
I'm speaking up.. breaking my own peace  - because it's IMPORTANT!!!  
WAKE the FUCK up.    THE time is Now...   and it's LONG over due. 

     NOTE: EVERYONE it's not a deadly pandemic killing 100's of thousands... it's TRUMP.
                                     &   it IS George Floyd, who has PROVEN to us:
                              WE ARE 'ALL' IN THIS TOGETHER!

TRUMP is the fuel to the fire.  He doesn't give ONE fuck about anything but his own family and MONEY.      TRUMP is responsible for mass murder in America.  NOW.
VOTE? PUT this POS where he belongs... in jail.
Before he completely destroys America by:
                 
                                                Making it GREAT Again...
                          by threatening Americans with dogs & snipers.
                                                               ...wow.

                         Forgive them Father, for they know not what they do.

​With love
Georgia

It's all in the details. 
Hard to believe I've almost been here one year... seeing this place come alive this spring has been stunning with the trees, mushrooms, birds- I've never seen- if anyone told me I'd be rusing out at 5 am to feed my woodpeckers, that crack me up with their  daily antics and funny noises -I'd of said... I WISH!    Wishes come true.

The deck is done - Norms part anyhow & now it's down to details.
There is a sunning/yoga bird watching area, a dining area with table & a chilling area to relax with a nice glass of kombucha, or cranberry & soda with a splash of cherry juice, my current prefered beverage. I can only open bottles with bottle openers fastend to walls due to arthritis so I bought 3 bottle openers for each area of the deck!  There's a store in Haliburton called Northern Expressions - they have the best selection of these metal hooks and openers.   It's also where we spied the metal 'bird tree' detail for the custom railing.
I'll be going back for more - the thing is.. I hate to tell you - they don't look like mine - I painted mine... of course. 

I'm going to paint some to sell, mostly because I like painting them!!  People notice the details...  I love it seeing people smile as things catch their eye.  The funny thing is with Covid times.. no one will be seeing my details until 2023.   I think we'll be o.k. by then. lol   
I forgot to mention our deck is VERY dog friendly, as is our home... I will encourage  humans to visit with their dogs.  I'm going to get Norm to install one of this faucets people have to fill pots - to fill the dog dish on the deck ;) (on his list! hahaha!) We also kept the 3 sofa cushions from our old sofa for the dogs, now on the deck covered in a lovely blanket & they  all lay there with us and face the driveway and watch the creatures... my dogs are in heaven as far as they are concerned, Eden at least.

Did you see the woman who called the cops on the bird watcher?
My thoughts on this
1. Cunt.
2. Take her dog from her - see how it's being strangled as she lies...
3. She should be charged,  although I've no doubts she is  paying for her actions on social media & should be.  GOOD.. I have no intentions of looking her up as I'm sure many did and expressed how they felt..  yes, I'm glad she was fired too.  This, was not a simple "mistake".
Black Americans are being shot jogging by fucking REDNECKS in Georgia (ALL ACROSS AMERICA - STILL - this is 2020 people!!)  and not even being arrested?
People like this bitch LIE - the cops could have come & shot him.  Obviously they don't need a fucking valid reason to shoot a black man. Worse, that stupid bitch could have  had some REDNECKS close who would have made a "citizens arrest" & shot him birdwatching - over her LIES. I'm going to find out his favourite bird and paint him  picture, send it to him & THANK him for educating us  and for  remaining calm during that horrible interaction.

June 9th - social gatherings only 5.
No CNE... no pools, no concerts, no sports events..  It's NOT all bad.
I am witnessing a surge of creativity online! Artists are getting better with each post! 
Locked in people have focused on their passions.  
I'm very excited for June 1st! My long time friend (since grade 5!) Carm - her son Mark has a Comedy Special on PRIME!  Wow - how wonderful! He's such a nice young man - I'm very happy for him, Carm & John & his sister Angela must ALL  be beaming!  Mark has always walked to his own beat and if you think that wasn't difficult at times - you are mistaken. I remember a few times Carm telling me teachers would discourage Mark, others tease him but thank GOD he is resilient! & HE WILL continue to SUCCEED because:

With LOVE you can not fail  and Mark has lots of love!
I'm watching!! Please do:

with TLC & THC
​Georgia

​Next my newest portrait- Rodney

Covid Surcharge - or tax... ?  Phhhhhhbt!
If I visit a business & they charge me a 'covid surcharge' or tax I will turn around & leave without my purchase.   Are you kidding me?  
Business owners better think twice.   Did I create this pandemic?
Am I responsible for making others sick or closing your business??      HELL NO.
I have been shopping (carefully with a mask) trying to support my community - take out from several places so everyone gets a bit..  yes WE are ALL in this together but if you think you are going to make me pay for 'it',  guess again.
To chage people extra because YOU are a business owner, lets face it therefore you must be  better off than MOST... if you own your own business..  am I wrong?  
WHY punish your CUSTOMERS who ARE ALSO infact, struggling.  
Nope. Don't do it!
Not only that.. actions will remember, long after covid is complete.

Will covid ever be complete? I WAS so proud of Canada until I saw photos for all the selfish
that decided it was a great day to hang out at a park in record numbers. I didn't see anyone over 50 in the photos.. perhaps the older are wiser.  Probably just more afraid of dying.

Covid-19 $$$ - have you applied? It appears there is money for all. I did not apply, I am grateful to God for all I have and know others need it more than I do.  I asked a friend tho if she's applied, I KNOW she needs the help as she is in a wheel chair. NO- the disabled are not being helped in covid times. NOT only that but she IS in a wheelchair (MUST be) and NOW, wheel trans says she can't bring anyone to help her get groceries!!!   What a fucking joke - she is wearing a mask, has to ride an elevator, can't get around or stay away from others 6 feet, like most of us.  YET, look at all those COVID IDIOTS in the park.  I have NO doubts many applied - got money and DON'T NEED IT.  She WHO NEEDS the help cant get fucking help!?  already living below the poverty line.  Now that YOU have read this  please mention it to someone.. it needs attention - OR we are NOT 'in this all together.' 
 
​Finally, a friend I've know about 2 decades on social media only  & become snail mail pals too, has had a battle with cancer like no other and she is a fucking warrior. Over the years I've watched this woman run marathons, LOVE her hubby -it made me jealous at times, work hard, support others who had cancer before she did, made gifts for many people including me, christmas ornaments.. she is so thought & kind a couple of years ago we decided to meet- I invited them to visit...    Recently, she did not go to the hospital due to cover fears  and now her cancer has reappeared -  I can't even.   :(
She's not doing well... so for all you - all over the world who want to hang out in a park  because your bored and don't give a fuck for others safety - YOU are slapping my friend who IS fighting for her life in the face and I am not happy about it.  FUCK COVID!!!  
And all of you who are behaving selfishly in these times.. do you understand how karma works?  

                                       Stupid is as stupid does. ` Forest Gump

We can't even bury our dead with more than five people. 
Pondering primates in mushroom cap caps are more intelligent that most of us.

Georgia

Sir canna cat.. not an original idea I admit- it was inspired buy vintage art I spied.
Yesterday, was a holiday in what seems like 2 motnsh of holidays & Mental health Monday' ...  for my mental health, I skipped a blog intentionally because I was having a beautiful day and didn't want to focus on anything but the day. 

I was thinking about a friends remarks 'she's Bi-Polar' and I thought FUCK that!  I do not like to see women/friends say such things... anyone for that matter.  I know many are feeling anxiety & depression MORE than ever & I pray they are learnging about psilocybin & cannabis before they introduce LIFE long medications into their bodies. Who isn't depressed at times lately?? Watch *Patriot Act on Netflix (most current episode) knowing what's happens in the USA is making me anxious - let alone Americans... I can't imagine how upset so many must be  with vultures waiting in the wings to kick them out of their homes.  YES, depressed - Bi Polar?   Hell no..  

I go from  singing "zippity doodah- zippity  day... to What the fuck!? Are you kidding me!!!? in a heart beat-  does this mean I am BIpolar? NO - it means I react to BULLSHIT and I am an expressive person - like yesterday, when Norm read:  'Rona Ambrose (former HEALTH minister of Canada)  is now working for an E cigarette comapny - - IF she isnt the biggest fucking hyprocrite - to think we Canadians let that bitch have anything to do with deciding on our health - she is a SELL OUT$$$$$$$$$  E cigarettes  $$$$  her priorities are very clear, I've no doubts she'll claim by working with them, she can control things.  LIES.
If you are foolish enough to believe them- that's your downfall.  IF we are foolish not to remember this sellout in the future - who knows where we'll be.. perhaps like our American neighbors. Struggling - ruled BY GREED.  

 So if my mood switching from  happy to pissed off in a second is considered "bipolar" by some bullshit I read/learn about -  phhhhhbt.  I'm grateful I'm not full of pills that are numbing and dumbing my life - BEEN there DONE that- and look where it got me.. TWITCH TWITCH. HOW do they help??  If more people learned HOW to express emotions - all they feel- safely - we might be better off instead of addicted to DRUGS - prescribed drugs. 
 
E cigarettes! Who isnt aware of the health damages of this growing concerne?  I'm sure she is... YET she made countless Canadians feel like worthless criminals over our cannabis cookies! What a fucking joke - and it's on us. I don't forget. We  have brains that allow us NOT to forget for a reason, protection.  History that is forgotten often repeats itself- LOOK at Slavery in the USA Todday.  All slaves to few- few who don't care about their health, homes, families - only sees it's humans as WORKERS - all expendable according to TRUMP. Still suffering & dying & struggling the most according to facts - Black Americans. History repeats itself.
WHY do we LET these "LEADERS" LIE &  continually screw us over?  I do not believe in one leader.  Thankfully we already have a FANTASTC representative for Canada.  I am proud of Canada & Covid.   Still I'm staying in- I don't think it's gone  and I feel to great to get it! Hee hee

Norms deck building! I fell through the deck, it was rotted and another deck was never finsihed- you stepped out your patio door onto rocks & dirt - Norms on it-  Weeeee I'm so excited I was already dancing on my new deck & he's adding a bench so I can sit & sketch my birds.. I woke up to this sunrise today! God shouting 'Good morning!'
I ran outside to take photos just so I could share with my son - NO filter- that sky was that stunning!!
How can one not see a miracle in that sky?
Another day - I've been blessed with,  wait until you see my super cheap but super fantastic bird bath! Time for me to get out  (Norms already out!) and finsih the Artsy'ist bird bath in the Haliburton Highlands! Just ask the bluejays.

with TLC & THC 
​Georgia 

Rise & SHINE! I don't know what day, month or time it is - I just know - it's time to get up and get going! We were created to create & a pandemic, where we are ALL forced to sit at home - is indeed a wonderful opportunity to FLOURISH!  Florish I did - in my bedroom. haha
I worke up & thought I'm painting! I have huge pocket doors  that lead into my bedroom - I love pocket doors. Now you see em - now you don't!  
I like to open them a crack and say to the girls "Peek a boo!" & close them... they (we -lol) find this highly amusing & they come running! I just decided Im painting - the hardest part was wondering - what!? In my bedroom,  did I want a message of dreaming? NOPE!  
I've spent too many years asleep - - - RISE & SHINE! Awake I'll be.  Created to create!
The Robin - the early bird, gets the worm! The first sign of spring for many - I saw mine weeks ago (I think we had a lying Robin) reaching for the nest, the 3 eggs representing new ideas, hope, life & God, Jesus & the universe.  The bright beautiful blooms year around to brighten each & every morning with hidden words of LOVE.   For me.  Yes!  Perfect medicine for this Covid-19 bug.  
 
What would you paint? I was really pleased with how it turned out- it looks lovely in the morning as the light starts because you see the blooms and bird slowly appear.  I needed it too  I need a Norm break. I'm sure many do...  need a break fom their partners.
I just need space. & time to myself to NOT think. Not communicate.
Silence  with the exception of birds, ducks, trees.. is golden.
I went in, closed my doors and painted my new isolated frame of mind - Inspired. 
Have a peek below.

I have no idea of the date or time, the past few, I've felt even sadder  ;(  I did not even paint yesterday - (gasp)  due to the shooting in NS... how devestating. Talk about pre-meditated. HEART breaking for all those Canadians cowering in their homes.  How did no one see this coming?  All the sadness in such a stressful time already - I've no doubts the small community is reeling.  Nasty, EVIL POS human... "mentally ill... sick" they'll say,  FUCK THAT - NO!!! The level he went - the details, he was far from sick - just FUCKED UP  & I'll never mention his name.  These people deserve NO attention.  NONE.
I'm glad he's gone.

Rise & Shine!! Choose - what will I do today - add more surrering to my own life & the lifves of others or Shine- Create, lift others up?  Yes, it's stressfull times but we can all do a tiny bit to make it a little brighter.   With TLC & THC
Next - art catch up. 420 Monkeys & some monkey business remarks'.

With TLC & THC
​Georgia
 

What would Jesus do? 
He'd stay the fuck home!
Perhaps not, but he'd wear a mask and wash his hands because he would not want to spread the virus - killing many. Unlike the "faithful' that attended mass services in the USA..   wow. It should be interesting to 'see' how many who attended the service, infect others or die, according to police - we will.   I was not in a good mood for Easter, I'm sure I was not alone. 
We did nothing special.. we'll wait until we can celebrate with Storm again.  Norm did cook a chicken & I understand NOW I must write on the bird  "this side up" as he seems to think it should be cooked breast side down. lol  Not the first time.  

We're baking bread, today were making Pizza from scratch of course.  Scratch with clean hands. ;)  I DO have much to celebrate- I offered to sell some art & was able to make a donation to the local food bank for $1000!  Thank you to my friends who showed interest in my work.. in particular my friend Ezra, who purchased several. ;)  I'm  grateful  & yes it felt wonderful' to make a donation at this time when so many are struggling. 

I'll admit, I just wanted to stay in bed the other day and did nap extra long.  I think it's important to acknowledge feeling sad (understandably) and cutting ourselves some slack. 
If staying in bed made me 'feel better' than being grumpy & taking it out on others- (dogs, woodpeckers..) so be it. Time out.  
Then I eventually get up and say to myself:
GO PAINT! 
You have time, paint and passion... and portraits to catch up on!

I decided to paint a baby - a new addition to humanity.   The moment I saw the photo I was taken with the little being, I have called the painting: A little Ray of Sunshine.  Below is it in progress.   I hope to finish it today & start another portrait & paint my bedroom doors ..   Pandemic painting  turns out to be good for me.. how about you?

The planet is healthier during this pandemic... animals are exploring, mountains can be seen, air is cleaner, water clearer.    I painted Jesus to go with Mary. 

​We watched on YOUTUBE:  Out of shadows  
documentary.  I am disgusted yet hopeful that these sick FUCKS will be exposed as they are.. grateful to those who finally,  are showing courage to expose them.  It's only a matter of time before they will all be CAUGHT, exposed & shamed. GOOD.  Who's next?
Norm & I have been fighting for years about MOVIES that he watches & the trash that we have been exposed to - violence,  guns, murder, torture.. abuse against women in particular is rampant in movies,  all making us desensitized.  I was told about 'Pizza gate' a couple of years ago and was in shock thinking it must be a lie. Pizza gate is real & NOT acknowledging it will allow it to continue.   It touches on several topics, I strongly recommend you watch it & re think what you are watching.  WHO you are SUPPORTING.  Who's music are you buying? Encouraging?  Who's evil habits are you paying for? 

We no longer watch any CRAP coming out- it's all bullshit- brainwashing.
BE in control on your own mind- or someone else will.
Back to painting.   

With TLC & THC
Georgia 

Mother of God....  Wash your Fucking hands!  
This was my reaction after learning a retirement hospital/home near me has at least 12 deaths- maybe more now, due to Covid-19.  Letters have been sent to the families of the remaining residents- encouraging them NOT to consider using ventilation to save them, if need be.  I kinda get it. Still.  This is a whole new thing to wrap our minds around - age & being expendable.   For all those not worried  about it - you too will get older one day -so don't be a asshole.  People losing parents - all over & horribly - hurts.  I can't even imagine the pain famalies are feeling all around the world & can NOT even grieve  the loss of the loved one.  Pray for us sinners.  This painting looks fantastic - if I do say so, hanging in my bathroom.  All the reminding I need. 

This is just the start,  the number of deaths in Canada will climb much higher.  
When you learn about energy, mood and collective conscience - you understand the level of sorrow - like none this World has ever seen... the sooner we sort it out the better. For that reason alone, never monitary.

It will be back to normal' what ever that was.. my normal after all this is over will definately be somewhat NEW. How about you? I think I'll continue to wash my hands more and cook more - I know we all "feel" healthier.  As for Peace, it doesn't get much better for Peace - I am exactly where God wants me to be.   Thankfully.  
I am amazed, I am here, really.

Praying - more than usual.  I pray the Rosary.. thinking of several and  naming many in hopes they'll stay safe in this arduous times. It's all I can do - at least it's something.  & really IF Mary were here in these times- I doubt she'd be concerned with using the 'word' - WASH YOUR FUCKING HANDS!
We must do what ever it takes to get the point across.
  
If that's all you are worried about than you seriously have not paid attention to what's happening outside & your probably one of the lingering still venturing outside so - STAY THE FUCK HOME - for what looks like a MONTH.  Or More.

I DO believe in the power of prayer... many do.  
"May is the new April!"  Yeeehaw.
The snow is melting here & the girls are wrestless. Soon we'll be out searching our property for mushrooms, looking for bear tracks, planting vegetables for deer not to eat...  painting and praying....  life goes on & so shall we.

Mother of God... pray for us. ALL.

​Georgia

It's a mixed emotions day.. 

Excited! Last night we woke - through closed windows - to the sounds of wolves howling!  In my backyard for at least 5 minutes.. it was unbelievably cool.  Ginger was glued and shook for about 30mins after.. poor thing. I assured her she is safe inside, snuggled with mom.  It did have me realize exactly how 'in the wild we are... I wonder if I would have seen them if I got up - next time.  I never let the little dogs out alone - they are alwasy with their big sister & I don't let the dogs wander. AS soon as the ground thaws we build a completely contained kennel' with a dog door into the house.   It will be good for them to be able to go out & pee at all times- although I can't complain, my girls are well trained and only go on pee pads when in the house. In the bathroom  (where we all go)  ;) 

Disappointed & upset...  I had art in my porch, I have a lot of art in my porch...  
Do you remember the sign I painted shortly after moving in - that said "Leave all shit outside... Dog shit, bear shit and bullshit... well, it's gone.  
Somone decided to own it, which mean someone took it from me- I DID NOT 'GIVE' it to anyone.   Thief.   It's that simple.  Who does that?
When invited to someones home & you take stuff that DOES NOT belong to you - you are a thief.  Recently, I  had company & after they left I noticed a 'few' small items gone - like books etc - perhaps my sign too..  I asked  for the items to be returned but have had no reply - and people wonder why YOU NEVER invite them back  - wonder no more.  
What message do you send to the universe today?  
I never steal.  I don't lie.
I'd rather tell someone the truth & have them 'not like me' than to lie and disrespect myself & them.  If I had to steal it- 'unless it's food and I am starving' - (by the grace of God this has never been the case) -  I don't deserve it.
It won't happen again, Norm installed a camera that lets us know  the second anyone even enters our porch.. sucks we had to do it -  it sucks more people take what does NOT belong to them. I hope the thief enjoys my art - and never forgets how they got it...  the universe won't.  There are people I will never have visit here - they know why.

Mental health & mushrooms. Psilocybin - well even Dr. Oz is NOW telling of the wonderful effects of psilocybin mushrooms. Google if you don't believe me.             Thank God.  
Gods medicine once again will be what heals the planet - not mans medicine.
Mushrooms have helped me where no one else was able to break through. 
Mushrooms taught me to LOVE myself.  Mushrooms taught me to LIKE myelf.  
I mentioned the other day my childhood, being told I was not wanted, as long as I can remember.  I share this' to educate as I know - I am NOT alone... too many feel the same & don't quite understand why.

I was brainwashed to think I was unlovable. Being told this by a parent in particular is confusing to a child (and abusive)... being told often as I was, I had it literally beat into me at times...  we start to believe it. It had caused problems my entire life of not trusting the fact that 'anyone could love me'.  I've even struggled with the notion some days - my son doesn't love me.  He does.  
It was mushrooms that taught me the opposite.  Believe it or don't.
I'm not getting anything from sharing- some might still (those uneducated) think - shes a stoner on mushrooms- think what you want.  I thank GOD for the first time in 56 years I KNOW - it was never me that was the problem.   I was a gift from God.
I am a gift from God.
Thanks to mushrooms today I'll paint, not be depresed - instead I will  paint because I understand - through our creations we extend our love.

I made this mushroom painting to dangle in the sunlight it also has a ball that catches light hanging from it.;) on the other side is a matching eye'.  It's painted with iridescent paint -so it's really pretty in the sunshine.
It's titled - 'It's just an illusion.'  It is for sale $60. + shipping,  if interested - let me know.
Have an inspired day!!
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