While packing I've discovered a program - 'Portrait artist competition UK' - I'm glued, watching - 3 different artist enter to paint a portrait of someone famous...  incredibly versatile on styles & mediums, fast, creative - it's inspired me to paint more people. 

Many of the artists for practice paint themselves, not because we love our own reflection but because - it's free & easy... well easy for some.  I for one do not enjoy looking at myself in the mirror for long periods of time- once I remember and focus at what I am doing - I get past vanity & on to learning & painting. Vincent VanGogh painted himself many times... a painted journal - the original selfie king.   Today being slightly  grumpy - needing to paint, my hands are sore from all the packing & yes, I'm mentally exhausted - to think of 'what to paint' - forget it, what I decided was start a mini journal of portraits ONLY  most dont take longer that 15 mins., - all who will sit... but I will sit for me first - because it's easy, fast & free. I'll TRY for one a day!

Problem is...   if people go by 'my self portraits - LOL - they won't think I'm any good. I am what I am... as a matter of fact I thought this particular portrait is pretty accurate.
I'm pleased.                    Our face has little to do with our abilities.  

My ego is the asshole that occasionally reminds me about my "ugly face"... 
- not for most peoples  standards anyhow, then I am reminded thankfully - child of God you were created to create & Jesus loves me. hee hee I like saying it, I say it out loud to my girls all the time.  Gratefully, I'm not overly concerned about other peoples standards any longer..   My face is in twitchmode big time... stress, moving, $$$, meeting strangers, having them come through your private home - daunting. I can't imagine hoarders going through this... I'm getting nothing but positive feedback and still find it's stressful- the hermit in me is not not happy- I've had to step out of my comfort zone too many times lately and I'm ready to embrace the forest with each passing moment.  Packing is waiting.

This is me. This is a good first self portrait - I caught me.
If you do like ME as I am - thank you... I am trying.
If you don't like me - what are YOU doing here?  Creeper.....   lol
 
Boxes to pack.. 
with TLC & THC
​Georgia
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Inside of card:
                          Rest is a luxury few can afford & fewer appreciate.  ~Me.

I made this for a friend who is about tot retire!  My girlfriend has worked hard her entire life- as a teacher.. and this is her last year- in a few months she is done! WoooooHoooo! 
I couldn't be happier for her.  I know though - she is truly far from retirement.. she has parents that are now dealing with issues associated with age,  young adult children  - that we never stop stressing over & caring about -a husband and duties that won't end,  she is far for retiring..  she won't be plopping herself infront of any TV eating bonbons all day.
A womans work is never done.

This past week was emotional  & stress filled -  a FUCKING important lesson as usual was learned the hard way.  We went from being elated about our new home to days later being told the bank "miscalculated" only by  a small amount... $400,000.   That's right - a bank employee made an error & yes, we are all human..  but did not inform us of such error - we were signing legal contracts & house hunting under false pretences.. We went from being approved to not being approved ? & no one told us.  It made NO sense to anyone as we do not currently have a mortgage - my dream home - where I have mentally moved in  & decided where to place my easel & started painting - lol - was gone..  I cried  the entire day - what a mind fuck this is..   After my pity party where only the girls and I attended.. suffering from a nasty headache I thought -- how dare I  cry over a 'house' when so few even have a bed, reality kicked in  & so did a little anger.
Time to Take control of this situation instead of crying about it & it controlling me.   

WTF... I tired to get in touch with someone.  TRIED' being the key word- NOPE - no such luck.. when I TRIED to call someone I was told - You can't speak to anyone - there is NO one to complain to  per-say ...  only the 'branch manager' -  all she kept saying was:
I was not there I did not witness it...   - well, isn't that fucking special, I thought to myself.
Trying to find out what the fuck went wrong!? Here is what I learned -  apparently the RBC can 'miscalculate  - by $400,000 but God forbid I say...
                                       'are you fucking kidding' me!?  on the PHONE!
'CLICK.'  

WOW. I was silly enough to try again... thinking Georgia - stay calm.. blah blah blah  blah blah... from them   Me: $400,00o! is no fuckng minor MISCALCU..."  CLICK
          $400,00O - You tell me how you would feel, boxes packed- house bought.

Did I get an apology - No...  & suddenly  a little denial entered the conversation.  
Not appreciated. 
Not only did they ignore the issue, as if no wrong was done... BUT they did focus on my swearing stating: 'I should treat them with respect'..  I then asked them to explain  how respectful it was to make a $400,00o fucking mistake & not even have the decency to inform us.   Speechless is the word then that comes to mind.
A small miscalculation for them a big mental breakdown for me, a big dose of fucking stress WE did not need OR deserve.

Had we signed a contract we couldn't get out of under false pretences  - would the bank have paid for their miscalculation?  I doubt it.  We opened the account the day we bought this house - it was a tiny office & I quickly became friends with a few of the ladies whom work there still - the service amazing.  Now they have moved, are much bigger, fancier - but the service....   $400,000 "miscalculation" is no fucking tiny mistake, not to us.
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Click.

Stress - yikes.. Rest is what I need NOW - I admit - it knocked me out physically & mentally - but just for a couple of days - tomorrow  is a new day & I am excited for it....
it is just a house...  just a mistake - Focus on the deer you will paint.  
All 'apparently, has been resolved.

​The Science of Swearing - just one more way men are taken seriously & women thought trashy - educate yourself & others - because when someone makes  $400,000 mistake...      I guarantee you - you will swear.

   27 years.. no more than numbers.   

With TLC & THC 
Georgia 


To see my Father's Day contribution - head over to Forever Grateful Greetings!

Up, down, up, down, weeeeeeeeeeeeee.. I end it UP - cause ain't nothing WORTH being down about. Eh?  Really! I've discovered my happy pill again - painting cards so the Poppy card is perfect to end this day. Inspired by the last groomer who did her nails... hee hee

Today AGAIN, I'm reminded:  Being a woman in Canada or specifically 'a stay at home mom' - being a mom - is worth nothing is the eyes on the ...? Government..  System ? For mothers  it is difficult & I am not struggling/suffering & it gets infuriating  at times for me -so- I can only imagine how difficult it is for many women to get out of abusive relationships they should no longer be in & IF I FUCKING hear one more time: you don't matter.. OR  you did'nt "work" a.k.a.  earn '$'  so .. you don't matter... it doesn't count.
I will lose it on the MF!  
​Really Canada, You care about women in this country?
                                                       How much$$$

 I am learning more about myself during this  'sale' than all else as usual..
Don't try to Rush me - I'll back off because the REALITY of all of this is: it is a house -  PERSPECTIVE - how many don't even have a bed.  

Research missing women & girls in Canada  for 3 hours - then please educate me... 
How is it not 'genocide? 

I end this day on a HIGH knowing some little buds are going to new homes- several of my weed cards have been purchased & found new homes - & I can't stop creating them - it's become a personal challenge & private joy  - How big will my bud family be?
...I like BIG buds & cannot lie! Weeeeeeee   d!  Thank you!

With TLC & THC
​Georgia

Wee - excited to start a new adventure - an art adventure!  The best kind.  
This morning  I've got a new canvas in front of me & it is big!  My biggest yet.
Kinda nervous... until the creative adrenaline kicks in and I can't wait to start!!!
A new project in the works for a while & now there is serious interest to complete it - this entails other projects be put aside  for focus....  no sharing- not until a proper introduction' can be arranged.  Now  research, take a visual adventurer on my computer, on the road & in my mind on a project that goes beyond cannabis.  
Mushrooms, Cannabis, stars, trees  I can't begin to explain my level of excitement for this next project. Or have I?   lol 

It's caused for some experimental painting like the cowardly lion & these bears - which was not as easy as I thought training  my brain to think shades of purple & not brown.
Little cannabis Buds now enter my mind at all times even when out and about - it's really comical, who knew my little Weeed cards would make 'me' laugh as much as they do...  
not I.
 
The Canadian life expectancy for the first time  in it's history, has not increased in Canada... Opiates are responsible,  mostly men are dying - dealing with pain mental & physical - overdosing -   I  for one do NOT enjoy being 'wasted' - the feeling Pills give me- not wanting to do anything but sleep...  it's not enjoyable - not on pills, booze or cannabis.
Can we focus on the REAL problem killing Canadians & finally stop stressing over cannabis HYPE- this afternoon I admitted to a girlfriend - had I not had my vaporizer by my bedside this past couple weeks - I'd of been on opiates, my hip/bum hurt so bad & still aches- although I finally slept  last night.  Had I went to the hospital right away  & they gave me 'something for pain' - I probably would have taken in my moment of weakness...
Life hurts occasionally - it teaches us this way.
Embrace it - It was a kick in the ass from God - It worked!  Tuff love.  
 
Thank God for this glorious plant!  
​How many years have I been planting this seed - not enough. Have you tried it yet?  
There a few closet tokers 'now' come out in the open to me...   about time. 

Please consider cannabis for pain if you injury yourself before you take opiates.  

With TLC & THC
​Georgia

Funny what helps us change our minds.. a kick in the ass helped me - literally. Usually does.
Well not a kick but I fell Sunday morning - I go today to make sure I've not fractured my hip cause it hurts, I don't think I have.. just very tender, although I did crack my collar bone once & did not realize it for a few weeks because I was in a different  kind of pain - my grandma died, that pain was more powerful that the cracked collarbone.

I did not realize you could walk with a fractured hip so best to get it checked - sitting  & sleeping are painful at the moment.  Still only  a few days later & I'm actually grateful for the lesson & I understand it was needed.

The stairs that hurt now going up and down & they are everywhere help me understand...  Also I'm brought back to brain surgery days & not being able to make it to the kitchen to look after myself - stairs can prove daunting & it seems easier to go hungry. lol
As I fell I had my eyes opened - wide.  That was good I guess,  as painful as lessons are...
they are always truly for the best, as long as YOU LEARN from them.  I learned - ouch.
Now sore & tired, hard to sleep with a sore hip, back, bum yet I'm  thrilled for the continued adventure! Nothing like a kick in the ass to get me going.

 I have 2 custom card orders!  THANK YOU!
 Weeeeeeed - I can still happily paint my weed cards- and that's all I've done for two days so much fun. I am thankful I don't give up - NEVER!  Enjoy the day - fingers & toes crossed I just have a hurt bum & feelings - lesson learned:

                             Walk away...   Before YOU break your HIP. lol

with TLC & THC! Weeeeeeeeeee
Georgia 

Have You checked out Forever Grateful Greetings?   I did my first wedding card & got an order for an custom wedding card! Weeeeeed  - so happy I get to draw & share in some love on some buds special day! 
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Blessed Bee...

This past week I feel we witnessed the start of the handmaiden tale come true - thanks to GEORGIA in the USA -WTF Georgia!?  The Handmaidens Tale (by Canadian Margaret Atwood)  frightenes me, it frightens me for young women/female children toddlers & those yet to arrive... how do you inform a young woman that an old rich white man has decided what she may or may not do with her own body? This is 2019 in an educated (phhhhbt- state - Georgia abortion law)  I am for abortion - NOT as I encourage abortion - I DO not BUT I DO encourage BIRTH CONTROL - like men wearing condoms or having a vasectomy.

This attempt at a viable argument - reading 'a baby is a living baby as an egg... (remarked by a man on social media)  who probably later in the day  masturbate hundreds of sperm into a sock that could have helped create a child -  is that not MASS murder? To read that even if a woman has been raped  or  becomes impregnated by a family member she still can not have an abortion is shameful! Never mind a child being born that is not wanted- born into abuse, neglect & harm is FUCKED UP & this LAW is  exactly what will happen.

My heart breaks for all the young woman who will have a careless moment as well & will have their futures altered- the facts are facts & it is the poor -already struggling whom this will harm the most. WTF is wrong with Americans that they would allow this to happen?
It is heart breaking to even think about.

No BEEs were harmed to create this painting.... Bees live in my gazebo- this happens every year, I don't know why.. the numbers are better this year, they are already dead when they fall out from the top, I guess it's the others finding them and cleaning out the hive.  I love my BEEs - the things I stress over when thinking about moving - they are one.  Today is World Bee day! I feel we abuse our bees too..  frig they work so hard for our honey & are dying - I believe if you like honey & you have property YOU should keep bees to contribute to your consumption of ANYTHING we eat. If not for bees we would be dead...  they help us GROW.

I never throw my little Bee bodies in the trash- I draw them or when I find one I will usually pick it up, thank it for it's service - lay it on a flower & wish it a peaceful passing into a new realm. ;) BE kind to the Bees Please.
Today & always.
Plant friendly flowers!

with TLC & THC
Georgia

​Happy Victoria Day! 

Netflix has 2 new documentaries: Weed the People & (I preferred) the Grass is Green 
I guess because I learned more from the second  that I did not previously know & one does discuss children but I know what cannabis does for children. Thank God.  If you don't, then watch both.

Why are people still being punished for cananbis use?
Studies - we need more studies - fuck studies - talk to others, open a history book - talk to rock stars & past presidents, there are many famous tokers of cananbis.
& then there is still ignoranc in the workplace & I thank  this guy for educating in Halifax: https://atlantic.ctvnews.ca/halifax-man-denied-job-because-of-cannabis-use-wants-others-to-be-aware-1.4428094    so, there you go Eh! WTF Canada- lets get the facts right- I think a company should be more concerned about drinking on the job - much more common - do they test for that? How about Opiates?
 I personally would not want to work for a narrow minded company anyhow.
On one chanel you can watch a documentary with babies medicating - on another you have a company not hiring - because a grown man had cannabis  LEGALLY in his system.
It all takes time I guess, I'm hopeful- we are this far-  after all! 

Weeee! 2 weeds for a long weekend - I've been gardening all day & am ready to pass out now..  so much gardening thanks to some guy names monty on netfilx.. lol - & the police open! wooot woot - or should I say Scruffy said Woof Woof!
 Time to imagine some relaxing fun.  ​Time to Go for a joy Ride!

Tomorrow is all about the Bees tho- being world BEE day.
& a I'm terribly disappointed in Georgia's decision - a statement painting that applies to both! Have a  lovely long weekend- I hope not to many fireworks are let off - if so please put ear protection in your babies ears!! Fireworks can cause everlasting damage to ones hearing.

With TLC & THC
Me! 

This card was painted specificaly with a bud in mind! Hee hee 'Patti the Bud whipping around town in her weed fueled wheelchair! Weeeeeeeee....d!  That is how she rolls!
We met several years ago at a cannabis event (one of our first) &  she is actually one of the very few humans I communicate with every few days - if only a short "hey -still alive?" kinda e mail.. lol   Patti has been a wheel chair most of her life & has educated  me on several issues though out the years - mostly via venting from frustration & I understand (now) why.

Patti uses cananbis for pain & has been a legal medical recipient for years -long before legalization.. at a time when we had to fight, hide & sneak around, when fear mongering within our own Government was at an all time HIGH.  I remember her contacting me terribly distressed when S.H. (Initials for Steven Harper also stands for Shit Head) threatened to have doors broken down if we didn't toss our EXCESS cannabis out with the kitty litter,   Luckily I assure her- Don't stress - let them fucking try! & assured her if they did it would be a political nightmare for busing a LEGITIMATE patient.  The government is in fact responsible for much Of Patti's problems if you ask me, like the fact they give her free opiates -which are destroying her insides & mental state from side effects - yet she can't get her cannabis covered- a much less harmful pain medicine alternative.  

& Patt is upset & tired of seeing these places open that she can not access & if you think about it - IF it was YOU, your daughter, mother friend- YOU would get upset too - from blatant ignorance & disrespect  it appears.  The government, Mayor John Tory  & Ontario disabilities are  few places I have recently contacted- trying to understand why we are continue to allow NEW dispensaries NOW opening  to NOT be wheel chair accessible - not one has even responded. Do you know why this is happening?  They DON'T care.
They DON'T fucking understand, they can not relate to life in a wheel chair... If they did I bet the rules would change mighty fast. Let's hope Karma doesn't intervene to show them exactly what this life is like.  

Being alienated on a daily basis from being able to participate in simple acts that ALL of us do - simple because of a lack of consideration or intentional lack of consideration is a concern for all Canadians.  It's also fucking depressing...   most people who suffer from chronic illness or disabilities  also suffer from depression - go figure.  

I am determined not to exclude my pal Patti - if only with one of these Weeeeeeeeed cards!
​I am forever grateful for her shared  lessons on a subject I know very little about & take very much for granted, for this education I have become a better human.

Please show some EXTRA TLC & THC to our fellow humans & future friends who use wheels instead of legs to get around. That's the only difference - and for this she is punished daily - due to OUR lack of caring & insisting!  If you visit a dispensary that is not wheel chair accessible - perhaps point this OUT to them.
That's a step in the right direction for those that can not walk.

with TLC & THC
Georgia

It's difficult NOT to read about detoxing.. the body & mind, the more I read - the more I am convinced it's the direction to go or rather the direction I am going.   I do not own a cell phone so I don't have that temptation to be checking it constantly as I see others do..   Adults all know what they are doing NOW - you read about it daily, they all understand there is a price to pay for cellphones & I don't mean the monthly bill - it is apparent cellphones are harming as much as helping - just look at the studies with teens today.   Social media has presented an entirely new way for kids/teens to be bullied, acquire an addiction, to potentially be harmed or abused by strangers, ignored by parents with the same tech addictions, texting & driving -  yikes.. being a kid just got more difficult & less enjoyable,  most teens admit to checking their phones constantly & they do get upset if they don't get likes' yikes.  The more time they spend on line- the chances of increased suicidal thoughts - it's science being reported.

It's not just teens - thank God there is an ongoing awareness & and increased movement to detox - I'm reading about small retreats being offered with the enticing advertising: NO wifi! RE- connect with your life. Re- connect with your family. Re-connect with your kids, Re- connect with nature. Air B & B  - that now offer the bonus of digital detox for your vacation so you can truly GET the rest  you need - restore your soul - without CONSTANT distraction. I find it particullarily distressing reading many companies are now 'expecting  employees to respond to email after work hours... less & less are getting the break they need.

As an artist - social media is awesome - your work is seen - yet it is draining - emotionally & physically - * it's not until I TURN OFF & OUT do I start to paint some of my best work,  it was a post I saw on Instragram recently  that made me SEE with open eyes - all social media really is.  There is a 2 year old little girl - who is a media sensation & 'amazing artist'... Please, are you kidding me - is this some sort of prank? This child pushes paint around a canvas with a stick and pours on paint like EVERY other 2 year old I've ever seen paint - except her parents have PUSHED it and her  - Genius? Artist?  
No,  just a normal toddler making a mess...  if you disagree with me, fine - I have some swamp land in Florida I'd like to show you.

No wonder young artists become depressed by social media, kids who are really trying to become better  at art &  at life.  People strive their entire life to become artists - working tirelessly to perfect a skill - & this 2 year old is hailed at the next fucking Picasso (not a compliment in my mind - he was an old perv)  & what does this tell you about social media? Some  people have too much money  to pay thousand for that mess.
Do not rely on social media to define you or your talent - it makes no sense when a skilled artist gets 50 likes - yet a photo of a dog pooping gets thousands  or a normal  child making a mess gets thousands of followers & $$$ for it. Clearly it is messed up - not to mention the stupid, thoughtless acts NOW being preformed - just to try to get 'likes' - how about those selfies -you know the ones where the  posers are now dead because they fall off the cliff trying to get the best Instagram photo?  

Digital detoxing get's more tempting with each passing day.

Painting something for 4/20.

with TLC & THC
​G

This painting  was painted with silver paint on the door- you can't see it here -but it looks really authentic, I'm pleased with how it turned out. ;)

Disney knew how to create a bond with the viewer, an emotional attachment - something that makes us all a little vunerable like knowing Bambies mom is dead as he looks for her...  I still hold my breath at that scene & this scene in Dumbo brings me to tears - every time.  I cried painting it. Mad elephant...  I feel like that mad elephant sometimes, locked in a chage and only able to preform limited loving..  The elephant is me & the cage is life,  stuff that gets in the way like these iron bars & I cant seem to see past them  & all I want to do is  hug my baby, whom is no longer a baby but I'll alwasy be his mom & mad elephant if it arises- because it can't be helped - I try.  

Dumbos mom was anything but 'Mad' - lables other gave her, but I understand how she comes across this way... LOVE.   I understand I'm no elephant but I can tell you - I have a mamabear in me and alwasy will untl I no longer breathe, it's just there under the surface and it arrived the same day my son did & I'm grateful, grateful I experienced love & emotions that  bring out the beast in me because it is this 'beast in all of us' that also wants to make the world in general a safer  & better place for all cubs. 

I can't put into words how proud I am of my son - his work ethics, determination & thirst for continued knowledge - I'm not worried about him... anymore, he has proven many times he  is capable of looking after himself & he is surrounded by a group of great friends & co workers - I couldn't hope for anyhing better.  I've been fortunate to go to work with him on a few occassions & his professionalism  is impressive if I do say so- hee hee - this business has some a long way in a few years! I can't believe how quickly they go in and set up professional & productive grow rooms in record time - so others can start to produce their own quality cannabis/medicine - It is a BLESSING & Storm has wanted to help people grow their own medicine since he worked in a hydroponic store at the age of 15 & look at him now!  
I literally laugh - now at the path God has had us on - everything for a reason,  trust. 

A new club opened in Yorkville - 'Ameri' - is that short for American?   & again my friend informs me there is no wheelchair access - she is a woman - in a wheelchair but HEY, they say' - you can wait to be seen (or ignored) and then you can wheel yourself around to the 'back alley' & buy your  medicine (for her it is)... WHAT THE FUCK is this CONTINUED bullshit & WHY are we ALLOWING IT- use the back door? Screw that, I'll never visit that store & told her to wait until someone does it RIGHT- Is anyone paying attention??  

UNTIL ALL ARE INCLUDED - on this journey. Did you know there is still a stigma twoards the disabled & aged (& women) in this country - one they don't see advancing anytime soon -  that might not bother you at the moment - God forbid you get hurt & become disabled,  either way we ALL GET OLD - so, those of you who are young and healthy NOW,  > you <  might want try to change this mentality before you get old.    Either way, continue to speak up with your dollar & 'if'  you do visit this place - please tell them to put in a fucking ramp & show some COMPASSION..

No wonder they don't call them 'Compassion Clubs' any longer - there appears to be little displayed.

Walt Disney suffered from severe depression from time to time -  he admitted he was unable to even speak on the phone without crying at one point... image that!  Yet,  he knew he had to 'take breaks' & to step away from time to time to recharge & heal..  me too.  Walt Disney NEVER - EVER let anyone keep him from following his dreams - thank God.  Walt is a hero of mine in many ways,  I'm grateful we had someone like him create inspiring art, capable of bringing  out compassin in others - with the swinging of a baby elephant on it's mad mamas  trunk.  Genius. 

with TLC & THC
G