I started this bear this morning...   it was time for a bear. The paint is still drying.
Bears are my spirit animals, I did not find it - it found me.
​This is a Marsican Bear. Bears usually travel alone, like to sleep a lot & are generally peaceful creatures until provoked & finally, I read over & over:
DO NOT fuck with a mama bears cubs unless you want a taste of a bear claw.

The next bear is already waiting inside my mind clawing to get out- just like a bear as spring approaches! How many more days you ask? 34.
It's been a lovely winter (bone pain from cold aside) this year, lots of reading & snuggling, rest & redirection.  

Bear, lunch & bud break over -the next project awaits & it's something completely different I've had the idea for months - Mushroom fanatics will love it!  I'm really excited to try this idea out!  

BTW - Another  york region police officer has been busted for impaired driving this month... but hey- let's make sure to keep those 'cannabis dispensaries' out of Georgina.. Lord knows we have enough options to buy ALCOHOL for all the impaired drivers - including NOW available at our local WALMART.  
Cannabis PROVEN safer than Alcohol - prove me wrong.  Don't drink & drive.
Political bullshit is all THAT was Georgina as far as I'm concerned they never had any intentions of letting us have the CHOICE, we deserve. 
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Cheers! Remember this when it's time to V O T E. 

With TLC & THC
G

Drug Mule... the only kind I like is the furry kind above.
As long as drugs are illegal- drug mules will be used & it's an entirely new level of low... 
Clint Eastwood has just made a movie Drug Mule that I hope to watch soon... I also recommend:  ​https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RZlgZGMVFFs   Maria full of grace.
Prohibition kills countless ways & it discriminates no one. As long as someone is making a lot of money they will continue their ways- at any cost.  Puppies who had drugs surgically sewn into them by a "vet" - is just as serious as forcing a human & I do hope this 'vet' goes to jail , for the rest of his life.    Who is to blame?

Anyone who believes Drugs should be kept illegal - it's obviously not working so the sooner we end this bullshit the better - no!?  I no longer believe the majority of drugs (used for recreational or medical purposed)  should be kept 'illegal' ... it's human nature humans want to get HIGH - do you think there any coincidence in our Hello?     
Hi!

By keeping drugs illegal we keep these horrid practices happening, that is a fact.
Let's get our 'asses in gear'  -  educate, regulate - tax even! Anything to prevent the loss of life, especially for those innocent victims usually already  in unfortunate circumstances who have no choice but to be a part of  ILLEGAL Drug trafficking.  
A few possible suggestions for now...
Shop locally. Buy locally produced product if possible.   Grow your own.  Advocate.  Educate. Encourage legality.

Talk to your kids NOW so they have an awareness of where drugs come from & BE HONEST (the bellies of puppies sometimes) so they are able to truly understand at an early age the impact judgemental thinking & outdated laws have on each other because you know what's bound to happen... these 'kids' are going to grow up - and TRY drugs, go figure.
Let them BE Educated on all that matters...  frankly, I believe this issue matters more than most bullshit history we are 'still' taught...  time will tell.

Whats worse than drug trafficking?  Human trafficking - let's focus on that.


With TLC & THC
Georgia

Check out Me & Larry posing for a selfie! Hee hee...
Larry is OLD! He loves me & I love him, he would sit on my shoulder all day and smile if I let him, Ginger fell in love and was obviously delighted when they shared a bed- she actually rolled over & was submissive to him lol..    
Love  has NO boundaries.  

Cock a Doodle Doobie Dooooooo!  Acrylic on Canvas.
Cocks in the cannabis field and POLITICAL BULLSHIT.

This painting represents a  part of the current cannabis industry. 
Run by a bunch of cocks all trying to be the head rooster in the cannabis farm - have you seen cock fights?  My painting speaks for me. 
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Fuck I'm pissed off today - after reading about this bullshit in our community & I'm clearly NOT alone, I have lived here over 25 years and in the restaurant business socially witnessing much over the years...   all these politicians who didn't have any issues drinking at lunch meetings - FUCKING hypocrites!

I also know a few who have toked a time or FEW- SHAME ON YOU!
I read one councillor said "we already have a problem with drugs in the community" - this is fucking priceless coming from someone who sells ALCOHOL - YOU know what's a bigger problem in  Georgina >>> ALCOHOL ABUSE!  FACT.

The Mayor remarked -"legalization won't take away the drug dealer on the corner" - No it won't Margaret-  YOU deciding NOT to allow a dispensary - will for SURE KEEP THE 'ILLEGAL DRUG DEALERS ON THE FUCKING CORNER.   DO you realize the revenue we just GAVE AWAY? To AURORA I GUESS. I wonder if that has anything to do with this bullshit decision, so much for 'legalization' when people - who really should not even have any say in what WE do in our own homes as ADULTS - with a 'now LEGAL substance' - not allowing us to even buy it locally - SPEAKS volumes.

ALL the business lost. Do you seriously think people will drive elsewhere to buy their cannabis but come back home for Lunch, Dinner, a movie or to even shop?   If you do  believe it your a dope.  Nope - it won't happen - Georgina  you can kiss those dollars GOODBYE.  

Reality/statistics/facts show us  (if you don't want to think it or admit it fine..) BUT  people (minors included) WILL drive ELSEwhere to purchase cannabis & party it up elsewhere (it's what  we do - it's called human nature) and sadly some returning home will possible get into an accident -  REMEMBER this COUNCIL MEMBERS - remember this with your decision to make people drive ELSEWHERE for a legal substance.  One proven far less harmful than alcohol.

I'll fucking remind you with an email every time I read about another impaired death on Woodbine.

I've got to admit I e mailed Rob Grossi this a.m., (our former mayor) so upset.. (at least he TRIED)  & it hit me.. this battle we have fought for so many years - for our sons medicine - to educate...  to try to show how many children it helps...   why do I bother?!
I feel today I've lost this battle... I feel defeated.  
​In my own fucking home town.
That SUCKS.

Taking a break.
G

My next canvas is a statement piece & the timing is perfect- I'm finishing today! Arrrrgh!  I'm reminded again why I'm not on FB I hear it's really ugly at the moment- or Juicy' what ever you choose to call it -  I'm off of it... I read enough yesterday of what M.E. wrote to know I don't want to read anymore.   I feel bad for anyone who puts up with crap for a paycheque as I've been there myself too many times.  The more I read the more I thought of Jodie in a new light & I can't help but feel bad for all the stress she must be experiencing and not for 'her own actions', imo she has always been impressive & professional in her talks and her demeanour & when your husband behaves like an ass what are you gonna do? We have all been there, most of us anyhow.  This is a little more than behaving like an ass.
A wife should not be punished for the actions of her husband -visa versa- just like the saying a son should not be punished for the action of his father.
IF this were the case - we'd all be in trouble.

I was struggling with this painting because I know women who are struggling with sexual harassment in the industry & no one is safe.  I started it a few weeks ago & then was told by a friend her boss is again threatening her with loss of employment if she does not comply and I got all flustered and walked away- I don't want to paint in anger.
Where do you go for help? Who do you ask? It was only a matter of time & it's far from over there are many horror stories - it's EVERY industry but because this industry has been ILLEGAL for so long it's been permitted to grow & thrive. Pun intended.  

I  'lol' yesterday when I read  a post where Dan Bilzerian (what ever his name is) posted about this "#metoo shit  getting out of control.."  & another man replied: that's priceless coming from a guy who's kicked a woman in the face, broke another woman's leg & pays models to be with him"  Wow. Thank you to that gentleman for speaking up & SEEing the problem. If you behave like this  yes, I guess you might be a little worried.
Thank God for #metoo,  maybe in a few years women & men will   #  #notmethankfully

It's already been going on for too long, here is an article to give you some insight: ​https://www.revealnews.org/article/in-secretive-marijuana-industry-whispers-of-abuse-and-trafficking/     Men & women are being abused mentally, physically & financially  consistently taken advantage of by those who have money & power.  
Usually men - Cocks in the field raising a ruckus -what else is new?  
I am able to see the cocks because I also know a few gentlemen in the industry - thankfully . & for this reason I give thanks or cannabis legalization in Canada - this sexual harassment  bullshit won't be tolerated - no one should be worried about not receiving a paycheque for the job they are HIRED to do - without fear & constant stress from predators.

There is hope in legalization across the nation!
​Accountability & professionalism & Product Quality are what will survive in this industry...  Be nice.  
Time to paint this grey day away!

With TLC & THC
G

I'll expose my cocks tomorrow.. lots to look at.

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What did I do yesterday? Cleaned my ROOM!  At the start of the year I read about a book where the author said 'keep your room clean' - meaning the mental space in your head - it stuck with me & I took some of the advice mentioned - I'll consider reading the book next. It was time of a new perspective - nothing fancy but it all sparks joy ;) & my bed - custom made is great- I actually think I finally know what I'm going to paint - in the spring so I can keep the windows open.  I have no children to worry about so I proudly display my cannabis in a designated area.   It's clean now * comfortable, I tossed junk, thinks I've been hanging onto for years - why? No clue - all worthless, some broken -what ever- it's gone now.
Toss that trash!

Speaking of tossing trash look who's talking trash...
Marc Emery is all over the news again - the self proclaimed Prince of Pot - I can't help but think - he is done' another one taken down by the #metoo #timeisup movement - #whosnext?   If the rest that comes out on him is anything like I am currently reading he is  off to jail again - for sexually abusing women & using his power in a negative way.   Jodie, her 'career' is over too,  I'm guessing - even if she was/is a victim - she was also a partner who seems to be well aware of everything else going on & handled it all professionally as she stood by her man - stand by your man-  phhhhhbt.  I had a friend me tell me someone that works with them closely is also being accused of rape, someone I met. Yuk.. it makes you feel dirty just knowing - I feel sorry for all the young ladies & men he TOUCHED.  I offered thanks this morning to Michelle Rainey, she warned me then "stay away from Marc & Jodie Emery -  they are not as they appear... "   she wasn't the only one.  I am thankful I listened - I've seen it myself - it is easy to get caught up with all the fake smiles & cameras and "we love you" screams to Marc & Jodie at events -  do you understand WHO you scream that to?   I was black balled by the Emerys  & "groupies" because I did not kiss the royal couples ass - (which I was told on several occasions)   Amen,  Absolutely -a blessing in disguise!   

When, I read what he himself posted on the cannabis culture fourm & was posted on twitter - I wanted to puke in my coffee - HIS OWN words - & it reads like instructions  on how to rape a woman in the ass - and then ends with how to ignore her complaints when you're done - I guess for the next time you rape her.  HE IS A PIG & ALL who watched and allowed - are just as bad.  He wanted the attention - he got it.   'This'  is who people have 'looked up to' in the cannabis industry, no wonder there have been such struggles.
This  is someone you want  to hang around?  Is this is someone you support?  
I have the feeling  a lot more is going to be exposed before we hear the end of it...  I could care less if I hear anymore  - I'd rather clean than dirty my mind with what I might read. Paint peacefully than give either of them any more consideration...    I was made aware of the other side of them both years ago.    Thank God.

The sun the moon & the truth ...    who's next?
'Bad boy, bad boy what you gonna do?...  What you gonna do when they come for you?
'Boys will be boys...            'Boys will be held accountable for their actions..

​Back to painting some beautiful natural medicine -true beauty in this world.
Have a peek at the cutest Poppy ever below.
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with TLC & THC
​G

Tonight is the night to see the wolf BLOOD moon & I'm excited!  Anyone who claims we are not effected by the moon - is in denial.  Thinking about the plight of birds... the flight of birds who are effected by the moon & night sky  like my red breasted robin  & my hopes are birds will not disappear as soon as anticipated.  
Lets hope the planet won't disappear as soon as anticipated. 

Global warming, pipelines exploding, trees disappearing, fish dying, women still marching for rights not given, women marching to have missing women acknowledged', human sexual trafficking is at an all time high- Children are the worst victims and what do we 'see' constantly -  ignorant little pukes like this one:
https://www.cbc.ca/news/world/indigenous-march-student-mock-1.4985493?cmp=newsletter-news-digests-canada-and-world-morning in their  red hats covering their hate filled brains.   All this has me  thinking...  we are in trouble if this is the direction of our future.  

This past year has me convinced we should abolish  ALL MALE schools.  
Look at the pack mentality it creates,  A PACK of wild, nasty beasts who in the past year have been exposed for rape, abuse & violence -  of fellow students (each other)  & then all those around them. I can't imagine its helpful to young women- I don't have to STUDY or have research done to know the mentality & conversations being had in such environments ABOUT women in general - neither do you.   All boys schools only strengthens the "Boys will be boys mentality" - and these boys will be running the world one day?  It's frightening - especially when we see the evil that already resides. #metoo isn't going anywhere & #whosnext  & of course #timesup ! thankfully will help keep those who behave badly in check - or at least shine a new light - so we can all SEE the evil for what it is and CHANGE it.  Correct it.  Call it out!

I'll be looking for the beauty in the moon tonight as the same time I'll be praying for world peace...       I'm not alone, this I know.

With TLC & THC
G

'Blue Monday' tomorrow...  Grin & BEAR it!  It's just another day...

Arrrrgh!  -14 is cold (without windchill) - it's a great excuse to snuggle if you can & WE can & do!  The past few days have been a snuggle overload - Poppy lives in blankets from Oct to March - Ginger thinks Poppy's part caterpillar as she's always wrapped in some sort of cocoon... and I've got to say it's so enticing I have trouble not snuggling up every time I see this sweet little face.

This No Drama llama is how I feel - who has time for Drama when your busy being fucking fabulous?  I'm too busy reading, learning,  medicating (enjoying) watching about the planet & all that occupies it - I've not time for "who's fucking who" as long as they are NOT fucking with me - it's not usually my business. Right?  (Trump is fucking everyone right now.. including himself.)  I've had 3 phone calls already today about the #metoo movement & Canadian Cannabis - who needs cable?  "Have you heard??"  
Oh yes, I've heard.

The bandwagon has left the building... I'm sure there a few who are going to hop on & IF they had no excuse they would not bother. I've been hearing rumours for years & kept my distance because of.  #metoo is in EVERY industry & every industry needs to step up and stop sexual harassment bullshit, NOW.  I am in my own way educating women & informing them of my own sexual harassment  because I can't live with myself KNOWING it's still happening to more women for this very reason.  No drama just facts & warnings & proof if need be.  Women don't 'need to make stuff up'  we have enough drama in our lives...  
IF you are behaving badly  & abusing YOUR power- it's not the women speaking up who are the problem.    
Tick Tock. Dick Dock..                   ...is that correct terminology ?
To dock ones pay means to take some away- correct?  hee hee hee

I'm thrilled with the gillette commercial! Bravo- thanks for keeping the conversation going - because it's far from over... sadly.  I started to get caught up in someone else's drama the other day, I couldn't even think what to paint I was feeling stressed then -  'screw this' - JUST paint anything because that is what does occupy by mind - creativity- better than being occupied with other peoples bullshit- that they bring upon themselves.. no thanks I'd rather stare into a llamas eyes anyway  - look away from drama & look upon something that makes you feel all warm & fuzzy inside! lol
I KNOW this works - I continually force myself to paint cuteness because I KNOW it lightens my mood! Who's ready for another sloth?? 

No it's no masterpiece BUT it did in fact help achieve master peace!  Ha ha! 
... too busy being fucking fabulous - how about you?

Worried about being exposed?       Stop fucking exposing yourself.       Duh.

A gift for Georgia' & Saturday time lapse on IG next.

with TLC & THC
Georgia 

FYI...
Love
MamaBear

Next.. my outcome after a lesson in Sacred Geometry.
With TLC & THC
​Georgia 

I don't know how people who have it worse are at all comfortable... Psoriasis & stress go hand in hand, from what I know & have researched when stress gets worse Psoriasis can flare & the past year mine has gone from managable & hardly visible to out of control & I contemplate ever wearing shorts again - let alone sleep comfortably.  
We try to avoid 'unnecessary stress - good luck in todays world represented by humans like Trump, we are in trouble,  many times we can't avoid it especially if we have people in our immediate life  who contribute to stress...  rather than help eliminate.

Norm causes me stress on a daily basis & I find myself wishing I lived alone time & time again. Trying very hard to feel good not even 'better'- just good & he constantly brings CRAP into this house - for example he went to natures Emporium & picked up a salad & cheese ball that we enjoy - what else did he pick from the health FOOD store with thousands of options - potato chips. 2 bags. In the chip cupboard they went with the cheesies, rippled chips, low salt chips, high salt chips, taco chips, organic taco chips, greenpeachips & pretzels...  enough is enough, that's the 'chip cupboard there's also several junk food drawers he manages to keep full. I AM trying to keep him healthy & alive & he fights me every step of the way.  He also snacks on toffee & candy, sunflower seeds  & his teeth (the ones that remain) have paid dearly for it.  I can't 'stress about his health' anymore...  he's heard it before, he obviously doesn't care - why do we & to top it off we are seen as 'Nags' for doing so.  Living alone would be more peaceful. That's normal stresses...

'Outside stresses' last year caused me to flare to the point of no return I'm afraid... too much stress to mention, guns, lies, dick picts & more by 2 who intentionally misled & lied for their own selfish purposes,  I write this now because I know they still read my blog & I have nothing to hide, unlike others.  The sun the moon, & the truth..  I will be patient & let God  control timing,  if 1/2 of what I heard is true - it's been brewing for a long time & will be exposed sooner than later & have 'little' to do with me in the end.  Stress? Is there any wonder it's got worse & out of control?  When you realized you have been 'intentional fucked with'  which has in fact contributed to my health decline & not wanting to socialize (trust issues - go figure) I now feel I  have an OBLIGATION to warn others (especially women in the cannabis industry) so they may hopefully avoid being victims to the same nasty pair.   ALREADY  stressing about being seen this summer because of these physical 'scars' now very visible.. I won't hide away, it's just another lesson.    A recent awakening has reminded me again, I am so much more than this body - I am a child of our creator & I will rise above.  Everything for a reason.

If you see the signs of psoriasis TRY to 'GET it under control', sometimes I can't feel it, other times I wake scratching until I bleed & most days it's just incredibly sensitive. It changes from scaly in appearance to (especially if really upset) reddish purple in color, the redder it is the more intense my arthritis pain.  I tried injections in the stomach for years that made me feel sicker with every one & it never changed it - it continued to slowly progress, I've been asked to consider a new medication but I refuse because "it can be harmful to the brain." Go figure. Special soaps dry it out - I would advise as soon as you see it- REST, EAT healthy, meditate (draw) & avoid ALL who stress you out if possible, for me it is possible & this rule has few exceptions - those who 'really stress' me out I can easily go months without speaking - we have feelings like this for a reason- we have health issues for reasons...  had I started to listen to my body & GUT sooner I would not be as physically ill as I feel today, instead I kept it in' most of the time,  I am paying for  it mentally & physically.  

Learn to walk away. Learn to speak up,  Learn to rest.. Sunshine helps!  This is what  'Turn on, Tune In & Drop out' means to me.. apply this to life - to recharge.   Drop off the grid if you can if only for a few hours.  Never be afraid of expressing LOVE, sooner or later is will be seen for the intent it was meant.  When people rise above  'Physical beauty'... eventually, I think most do, we are all healthier.

Psoriasis has no cure, yes it is painful - more emotionally when people look at my legs with disgust (I see it)  just like the 2 who chose to inform me I was physically 'Ugly' (have a look at my butt you two! You helped get it this way... )  I know shallow people exist & it should not bother me but it does...  it bothers most of you too. It's why we all try so hard to look our best- it does not matter - don't give a fuck what anyone thinks because there will always be shitty people out there  & there are also loving, caring, compassionate others, I know a few & am grateful to you  - I'm sorry to show you my butt - but, this certainly is NOTHING to be ashamed of.   It is life, many have it worse than I do - please, show others some fucking compassion instead of judgement - you might be next.

Why are we bothered by stress & the opinions of others - Who are they?
I don't know... I don't know why any of us  think so little of ourselves that we ever forget  for even a second we are a child of God.  I AM a Child of God - exactly where & how I am meant to be - SEEN! * The worst is my lower back & bum - I have included this, I did warn you yesterday! hee hee hee  

With TLC & THC     
​G

 Flying High again tomorrow! Wait until you see some of my new art!!

I figure the timing is about right, Christmas depression setting in for about 25%of Canadians, holiday let down, bills arriving, pounds packed on being noticed & resolutions already being broken,  who's feeling festive  now - Fuck Off!   LOL

I still am feeling festive! I did not make any resolutions - well yes, I did- Less Alcohol (I've had NONE so far in 2019),  paint daily (done), focus on God & Good.  Keep the past where it belongs. So far so good. HAVE no FEAR for ALL that comes this year...  God's got my back & will get me thought it with flying colors! I know.
 
I'm off to a fucking great start- oh, & READ more! Last year I read a book a month this was one I forgot to tell you about: Swearing is Good for you.    Finally proof is in- so all who judge me for swearing can Fuck Off  (said lovingly), I swear  & now I understand why- I swear more- Pain. Apparently swearing helps pain- scientific proof shows it helps those suffering and allows for great pain threshold. It helps for social pain too.  I HIGHLY recommend this book for EVERY TEACHER - I had no idea about swearing and children & Tourette's- children need to be understood & NOT judged, children & adults who deal with this already are stigmatized by UN educated (myself included) ignorance of the subject & it only hurts them more. 

I have noticed increased swearing since brian surgery - or since fucking failed brain surgery...  I KNOW when I get really upset- it's all I can seem to yell - I can't even get words into my head between the twitching, anger & frustration- I can swear like a trooper/Judge Judy (also known for her choice wording) & YES, I have paid for it and probably still  do  - oh well, I don't (can't) give a fuck - I was raised with swearing - so it's common place, I swear when I'm happy just as often as I'm sad!  I can be fucking thrilled beyond words & fucking disgusted with how some behave...  I SEE the reaction in some others when I swear- sometimes I feel flustered (like when speaking to an older pal/nun friend) & I understand it's usually age related, those who love me seem to accept it and understand- our wording does not always reflect who we are. I am NOT a criminal or bad person for swearing - they are words.

As a matter of fact- this book was a rude awakening-  empowering even! When I learned about the difference between men & women I thought: here we fucking go again..
What bullshit - yes, it's o.k. for men to swear - but still looked down upon for women- women will be judged for EVERYTHING from swearing in public to & breast feeding -to which I say - Fuck that! Just one more reason to keep women down & I refuse to be a part of it, especially for all the young ladies to arrive after me. I BELIEVE if more young women were taught to speak up and say FUCK OFF!! ​Fewer women would become victims- I'm many ways. When I was younger I'd have strangers grope me, really - I've been grabbed in public (my boobs when just a kid in a store), ass grabbed (too many times to mention), rubbed up against on a bus/subway & more- if it happened NOW- I would turn without hesitation & at the top of my lungs YELL - GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME & KEEP your fucking hands to yourself - WHO the fuck do you think you are!!?
*I guarantee you the pervert/person would think twice the next time.  
Fuck that.
Teach your daughters to swear, teach them it's o.k.  to express themselves as men do & protect themselves with words & their voice.`

So here is a Fuck OFF to start the year.. painted lovingly.  If you want to judge me for swearing & think I am a lesser person for it- it speaks volumes about you first of all -- o.k., & please tell me this: have you expressed as much disgust/anger today towards  people who abuse children, people who fucking  use children as sexual objects with pornography  or worse...  these predators can appear so sweet & professional & never swear.   Ted Bundy was so charming, never swore- do you know what he attributes to his serial killing spree- pornography, simple soft core pornography at first, he escalated into violent porn. and then started killing (words from own mouth) & children as young as 8 are sharing naked images online encouraged by strangers who don't swear & don't give a fuck about your kids.

It's time we get our priorities straight - what more fucking important - words or actions?   Don't judge a book by it's cover or a person for swearing...  especially if you have no idea why they swear.

If you do choose to judge me & think I'm less classy, educated, feminine, less of a mother, person, artist - because I swear- FUCK off.  lol   You are not worthy of my time, art or thoughts - I've more important issues to focus on.   

With TLC & THC
G

​WARNING - next blog on psoriasis - some might not want to see. 

P.S. someone commented, Timothy Leary was 'not well liked - people think he was reckless' &  I agree- I also think he was egotistical- amazingly enough,  I thought  while watching the documentary- what did people see in him? Like him or not he did bring  an awareness & at a time when he was punished was at an ultimo high - for what- cannabis & mushrooms, plants.