Podcasts & playing games

Do you listen to podcasts?  I found a new podcast I am enjoying:  
Useless information  hosted by Steve Silverman

I don’t find the information useless - as much as I find it interesting - who knew about Bat bombs.. or the toilet paper shortage - long before Covid.   I’ve listened to podcasts on the pandemic, art history by women,  Canadian true crime to name a few- I am a fan.
Other favourites are: ’Brain washed (CBC) Ideas (CBC) Night time, Dissect, The art history babes, The Current  &  Rabbit hole… just to name a few. 

If not listening to Apple music (no babbling bullshit) -podcasts are the way to go while painting & relaxing - cooking or cleaning. It’s too easy to be educated on any topic now a days IF YOU CHOOSE to.  I learned on the Useless information podcast the 10 most listened to songs ‘ever’  during the 20th century - the first tells much : You’ve lost that loving feeling - heart ache… we all experience it and sing about it - it was number one.  Number 10 was:
                                                    Georgia .. on my mind  .

Ohhhhhh yeeeeeaaaaahhhh.. lol   Georgia… on your mind.  Clearly  Georgia  is on the minds of millions to be one of the top 10 songs ever played.   I shared this tidbit with other Georgia’s on social media reminding them to 'rejoice'!  So, I guess technically ‘Georgia’ is the most female name song - sung…  oh- wait..  Mr.s Robinson came it at number 7. 
I’ve been paying more attention to song lyrics recently, it’s been an education and awakening.. more on that soon.  

I learned about MKUltra experiments in several of the podcasts - and an institution here in Canada that fucked with people & their minds - just because they could.  < Read it - it is another side I was never aware of in Canada. The Dr. claiming it all in the name of science’ as they knowingly turned innocent victims (who thought they were being helped )into mindless blobs. FUCKED UP. Here in Canada.  We watched the Unabomber on Netflix - when you understand to the degree he was fucked with by Harvard professors and proven- wtf? I do not agree that he is still in jail…  I wonder if this is the agenda of Netflix.  Perhaps he is actually doing better in jail?  Sad such genius was wasted on anger.
At least it has people thinking and talking.  I never agree with anyone causing another physical harm - or ‘intentional fuckery’ - it’s just as harmful…  but to simply ‘lock  them up’ - not understanding is no better.  No one becomes any wiser… some only get angrier.  
   
It’s one thing to hurt others, it’s another to intentionally plan and cause harm & hurt - how come it was o.k. for  Harvard to hurt a student and not deal with the ramifications later.. never mind the FBI experiments that cause someone to jump out a window.. messed up.

One thing I know.. playing with peoples minds is playing a game that won’t end well and sooner or later- the games going to be over. 
Jesus  or Karma (call it what you will)  will have had enough and END the game. 

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       I have some canvas- sketched on or painted that I use when I just want to 'experiment'..
this canvas was one, first it was ALL sun & sky... the I added the snow & trees, something was STILL missing. lol   Arrow.   This is what I see - as Arrow sits on the deck and watches... everything.

After my last blog Norm went out to get grocories & got stuck on the road just off the driveway, due to poor plowing build up, no biggy.. he's no stranger to shoveling snow & knows how to drive in Canadian Winters  BUT the neighbour drove by as Norm was digging out & actually stopped  JUST to be sarcastic and then continued on 'without helping Norm.  Wow.  I was grateful - I needed that reminder!  The reminder that 'IF' Norm was to see anyone stuck on this road he would be one out there with his shovel - anyone who knows Norm - or me, knows this to be true.  ​I was also reminded of the few time others have helped,  like the kid that moved a log off my driveway that sat there for days, the neighbour clearly saw that too.  

I am learning much from my neighbours, during a deadly pandemic and we are reminded to  be kind,  be there for  each other  'for our neighbours'.  God knows...  God sees.
I thanked Norm..  yes, I guess it is the pandemic causing us to be more stressed & grumpy than usual  & we are concerned about Storm, of course.  The USA and thoughts of civil war.. Doug Ford- tells us "it's really scary but lets wait a few days more" - then - yes this is how it is but let's wait a few more days... is it or isn't it Doug?    
Holy talk about mixed messages.  There is much to ponder during the pandemic- good thing we are locked down & have much time to sort stuff out.

About Masks, Rick Warren nail it for me:
“Some churches are willing to gamble the health of their people. I’m not,”  Warren said, adding, “I don’t want to be a superspreader. I’m not doing this out of fear; I’m doing this out of love. You wear a mask for love [of] your neighbors, yourself.”
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Vaccines.. frig- some are really worried and believe they will be safe when they get the vaccine & they MUST go to work...  give it to them first,  do what ever it takes to ease peoples stress.  I think ALL hospital staff, Dr.s then teachers & kids should be vaccinated first - if it will help slow the spread of so many dead. IF they choose.
 Give it to who actually does want it! Yes, there is much to be reminded of these days, above all else I am reminded of who   God expects me to be.

Thank you neighbour for reminding me: 
Norm would have dug our neighbour out in a heart beat,  I was grateful & cut Norm some slack, he also likes doing the dishes, looks after all the animals , chopping trees and cutting out my stuff in between, building a shop,  baking fresh bagels, gets all out groceries and stuff & everything else..   ​I am thankful for him.  
I know still - if anyone  gets stuck,  still...  he will be there - shovel in hand.

Amen.

I've noticed a trend on television.  Even while watching the Grinch on netflix (newest version) the topic of childhood trauma- explaining why he grew up being a Grumpy Grinch. 
Nurse Ratchet- 'nailed' childhood abuse so well - I can't watch it without feeling TOO emotional,  that show triggeres negative emotions in me - I know better than to watch, even though I did find it entertaining.

I can't watch anything with drunks - it puts me in a bad MOOD.  The thing with depression is you feel depressed already - then there are many outside factors that can also add to not feeling well, other humans, shows we watch, songs we hear..  even smells can trigger negative emotions in people who have been abused.  Alcohol abuse & domestic abuse are excalated right now, my heart breaks when I think of all the little kids that can NOT escape the abuse in their own home.  Locked in with abusers.   As we watch in all these movies -  some grow up to be Grumpy Grinches in many cases, even worse -some go on to repeat and escalate violence on their own children.    FUELED by alcohol. 
A few weeks ago I read in the Globe & Mail - one mom wrote how after 7 months with her newborn she got drunk & the next day was the first time she resented her baby,  because she was SICK and HUNGOVER.  That's how easy it becomes.  She vowed then not to drink again and take it out on her child. WOW.  If only this awakening would come to all mothers... & fathers.

My problem is often a simple 'visual reminder', to this day I cannot look at a mail slot in a door. It brings back memories of the time my mom slid my cheeseburger through the mail slot ( I was little, under 7)  & STILL can see what I saw when I peeked out the mail slot as my mother and her boyfriend laughed and ran off...  leaving me alone to eat my lunch.  
I still remember the feeling/thinking  is this a game?
I'd like to play too!
Only now, realizing it as an adult  makes me feel anger. Some days 'Livid'.
The dog ate my cheeseburger.  She soon got rid of the dog.
I was physically, verbally & mentally abused  but it's that mailslot that hurts the most, still.  That was just cruel, I can't imagine ever doing that to a child... ever.
I still don't understand it & never will - trust me - I've tried.  
Forget it- I fucking wish I could, I've had family, friend, Dr.s,  teachers, priests, nuns lol all suggest I just move past it. Tell my mind not to think these things when I see a mail box.  Our mind reminds us for a reason...  for protection.

Do you know, who does not understand why I can't forget about this:
EVERYONE.. everyone who's never been fed a cheese burger by thier drunk mother through a mail slot.  Give thanks if you don't have such memories.

Childhood trauma- are you drinking more than usual?
​Are you getting drunk and it's hurting your children?  
Let me remind you:  They grow up... they do not forget - even though they try. 
Childhood trauma - they can't forget.  
Please do not drink Alcohol if you are struggling with it & causing your children pain.

What to paint - I was going to paint a mail slot but it's too depressing - lol
so here's another puppet.. for all my Buds. Have fun... I did.

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All Inmates are sitting ducks.
Do you know anyone in jail?  I do, several.
I know someone who is in jail for murder and a few in for stupidity, right now - they are all on death row with Covid -19.  "We are Out of sight & out of mind..."  my brother educated me  - who has time to think about people in jail when we are dealing with life let alone a pandemic ( & more). 

PLEASE remember & I stress this because I forget -  it's not only terrible humans, in jail where they belong, there are others that 'fucked up'.  We all do  at some point  but we all don't get caught.  Perhaps something like fraud, theft, not pying bills.. impaired (I am NOT justifying any crime)  ...who knows - JUST not people that physically hurt others are now isolated, locked up & just like all  us, concerned about covid... with not even a window to crack  open  in facilaties with circulated air and poor hygene.   Not good.

Apparently inmates are being kept seperate when first entering cell blocks.. how seperate can that be.  There are old guys in there, not well in poor health...  
I don't know... are they safer? They at least have meals daily and a roof over their heads.  Court dates pushed back  (why are they not ZOOMing court) yet every day in jail -during covid - makes up for a shorter sentence. I think one day in jail with covid will be considered 2.5.. something like that.   - Do you know why, I don't remember exactly?
I'm not locked in a cell during a pandemic.   Inmates  are counting the minutes, not days or months.   WE are free - still you and me, don't forget it.
Give thanks.  Stay out of trouble.

Perhaps  you could think of someone in jail and reach out and say  'hello'.
Send a funny card- I dont think they can get cards.. but you can write letters!
I've actually had terrific luck with what I send - it seems to get through & I thank God.  
I like to hear I make others smile, in particular those who might need to smile, most. 

Out of sight out of mind is sometimes a good thing - others times, not so much. 
Inmates are just like us, feeling at times (more than most of us) sad, loney and frightened.
No one wants to be a sitting duck.

I was up before Gloria! Painting cocks - Cockadoodledoooooo  & they turned out terrific these cockhouses will fly, I hope!  ALL proceeds to local charaties in Haliburton & Minden & surrounding areas.      -Do what you can do - cockadoodle dooo!

With THC & TLC
Me 

Never say never.. maybe you don't someone in jail,  I use to think like that.. then I've witnessed several go to jail this lifetime.  It's sad - always sad,  even the ones 'I think' belong. 

   Had someone told me 5 years ago : in 5 years the military will be deployed in Canada to vaccinate everyone & there’s talks of possibly microchipping people -  I would have said -
   Oh fuck off, you conspiracy theorist. Wait.. have I not read about this in some science fiction maybe 10 - 20 years ago?  Or was that more of prediction fiction.  We need to go back and reinstate some of our best novels.


  Did you know  the term ‘conspiracy theory’ was designed propaganda by the CIA to dismiss, deflect, and HIDE.  Research it.   How many ‘conspiracy theories’  of the past have come to fruition?  Think about it…  Why is so hard for people to understand above all else this vaccine business  is a BUSINESS.
The speed in which this vaccine has been created is concerning- if not, then you are not aware of how long it takes to test medications properly - in order to understand what LONG TERM side effects there MIGHT be.

I fucking hate to hear of anyone  (especially anyone I care about) on antidepressants… and I know of a few who have started prescriptions  during this pandemic.
These are depressing times… let’s learn to accept and deal with that instead of  ‘pill up’ - no doubts thousands have started antidepressants the past few months.  Research them.. 
I DO believe antidepressants actually increase suicidal feelings  & I do say this with way too much personal experience.   at least 30 years of experience on antidepressants.  I often wonder IF they are in fact what has caused my TN - a living nightmare.   Look into ‘the marketing of madness’ - I was grateful for the education over a decade ago.   
I’d rather learn to live with depression than put anymore poison into my body.

Now,  we are expected to believe this  vaccine will be the new ‘gonna fix it all’…   Understand- I am NOT - ANTI vaccination - I am cautious about a vaccine PUSHED on us before we actually KNOW what IT will do to our bodies. THIS IS the ultimate test here- mandatory vaccine - FUCK NO - that is against humans rights. 
NO one should be permitted to put anything in anyones body if they do not wish.  EVER.  Pay attention - think about this please… it is a VERY big deal.

No,  I will not the the first in line, if it means I have some restrictions and to remain  social distancing for a while longer - so be it. Until ‘I’ feel safe, am educated and aware- of possible side effects - I’ll take my chances and THAT should absolutely BE each individuals choice.
This is an incredibly slippery slope we are ALL on.  Pandemic or None.
Don’t fool yourself  a few (limited few) will become very rich on the vaccine - business is business.   Not everyone is as concerned about the side effects as they are a side bank account.
This BULLSHIT with BIG stores being able to remain OPEN is exactly that - BULLSHIT.
The rich getting richer  while all the small stores go under - it is NOT fair or right.
& remember a few years ago when the talk of ‘micro chipping people’ was considered a conspiracy theory - Look into what Dr. Tam thinks about microchipping, not to mention she works for WHO?  is that not a conflict of interest? I don’t know.
& THAT IS MY POINT…


We don’t know.

​with THC & TLC,  me.

Painting paddles pondering pandemics -is what I've been doing.. how about you?
So much on my mind... I've decided to add some in point form.
First-  YAY! I found a place to purchase paddles! & I might add - have a peek at the website as - I believe a custom paddle would be a lovely gift (made in Canada) treasured and enjoyed for generations- and the website lets you customize! No, I doubt Corey will paint them for you - hee hee  Corey is the guy making paddles and he's very kind, I called and stated I wanted 'plain paddles' to paint - he had varnished, I said my hubby will have to sand... but Corey took upon himself to sand them for me!  I'm thrilled and was painting MY paddle late into the evening - a loon on one side & bear on the other for when I want to switch it up ;)    now to get busy a couple are Christmas gifts, one will be painted to donate to raise funds & a couple will be painted to sell.  

-All the loon bird houses sold-  yay! That was fast,  the next set: Cockhouses   lol
     should be completed mid week- ready for sale! 
-It snowed! Goats & chickens do not like snow.
-Do you understand that vaccines are a business - like anything else?
-Alcohol abuse is up as is  domestic & child abuse.  A young boy is dead & police officer shot locally, I  don't know he details  I wonder if alcohol was involved.  
-I HIGHLY reccomend you watch this interview- knowledge is power & isn't this topic something we should ALL really be looking into?
https://www.rebelnews.com/rocco_galatis_lockdown_lawsuit_ezra_levant_interviews_constitutional_lawyer_suing_trudeau_tam_john_tory_and_more
-I will NEVER dehorn a goat after what I have read - NEVER.
-Norm gave the dogs the worst toy- it scares the fuck out of me almost daily but is funny.
-I'm skipping Christmas,, maybe just a tiny tree - from our property -only if in way of trail.
-I'm painting items for my home -it's going to be colourful & painted with TLC in every corner.
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Hairless kitties fuck with your mind.  As I painted this kitty - I kept (naturally) wanting to brush fur or 'a' whisker even.. I had to focus and remember this is a genetic hairless kitty and was not easy to paint.  The wrinkles adorable tho.  I guess this is what cats look like without fur.

Mental Health Monday - Many will be feeling EVEN more stressed today with the current information: The Military will be deployed to vaccinate us all. 
The military will be administering the vaccine...   sounds a little 'Handmaidenish' don't you think?  Ironically, I did have a friend tell me this months ago.. I brushed it off with little thought, not now.  Is anyone else slightly concerned? Will it  be mandatory - that would cause a bit of chaos imo - no.. it won't be mandatory but good luck traveling, shopping or if you have to go to the hospital - you'll get it or you won't be able to play'.  

Here we go... I don't even know what to think today.. editorials are spilling out my ears.

About the 'vaccine'... about side effects.  Are we playing with covid cures?  Swatting at things in the air- it appears so.. a government who can't seems to get on the same page with rules and regulations are leading me to believe  they have in fact- known this was the direction INDEED that this was all GOING to go.
  Not being an essential worker, I  have the luxury of time & reading & I'll tell you there is very conflicting, interesting information circluating right now... worlddoctorsalliance.com some very intelligent people are speaking up about the current situation and motive behind it-  have a read.. THINK for yourself- what do you think? 

I've had several reactions over my life time with medication - once almost killed me - luckily I was in the hospital when it happened., my friend Kat happened to be visiting me and noticed I started slurring & my tongue  (should be spelled TUNG)  started to swell and I started to pass out - the nurses came running  with a shot' to counter act  the previous medication and here I sit. 

Another occasion the medication I was given made me feel like ripping my skin off,  itchy - from the inside out - I was off it in 2 days.  I often vomit when taking  pills -they don't sit well in my stomach & opitaes really mess me up leaving me  feel lathargic, uncoordinated, sick and constipated - nope, LET FOOD BE they medicine & even that is natural, my medicine.  NO - I don't want to be first in line for this vaccine. 
​Side effects.. can linger and not show for years.
Will the cure - be the cure or  a future curse?  
Try not to stress about this.. read & become more educated and better prepared.
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 Hairless kittys are not for me but it was pleasurable to paint!

​With TLC & THC
Georgia
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Some days - you just need to sit back and give.. not one fuck.
Not about anything or anyone.. chances are, the world & those we care about will still be there when you return from a small break

Justin Trudeau gave us his new opinion and it sucks... I remember not celebrating Thanksgiving - in hopes we might celebrate Christmas.  The 'holiday' now comes with an entirly new level of not needed stress - for too many.
Others lives are more importnt to me than a holiday so...  I'll go with the flow.

I'm sure you are aware of disbelievers.. well, there are days I tell you I don't know what to fucking think about any of this- the vaccine is disturbing, in the past- they took MUCH longer to test before giving it frankly.  I'm in no hurry to get it.   If you research and watch - there are many VERY educated people questioning all of this and the lock downs.  Yes, it is confusing - the government can't seem to get their shit together and get on the same page - no wonder poeple are becoming impatient and tired - covid exhasuted.

RIGHT NOW - I will wear a mask- NOT because the goverment insists, because I care about you - strangers.. I don't want to make you sick.  I I don't know enough to take a chance.  Do you?  It's that simple.  I do believe masks work to some degree.  Just say - this is all a giant hoax (I don't feel it is)  but just say it is... either way- I would rather be known as a "sheep" (far from)  for wearing a mask than someone who refuses to wear a mask and takes a 'CHANCE' in making others sick.  I'm not concerned about dying - fyi  - I  just don't want to get sick'... do you?   

I already live with chronic pain from Arthritis & the the fucking constant TN that wakes me up most days before the rooster and fucks with me ALL DAY LONG.
Right now - nope, I cant do it.. not one fuck will be given about covid, masks, Trump or vaccines.

I am trying to shop LOCAL - my neighbours need the help - everyone should be doing the same, suport your local community so they are still there after this pandemic.  
I decided to buy  ALL Canadian  made this Christmas and homemade'  & I'll be painting & not giving one fuck... until, maybe Monday.  
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30% of Snowbirds are still flocking south... WTFlock? 
I don't get it... on several levels.  I thought we were not encouraged to travel to the USA which is struggling with a pandemic?  I understood borders were still closed.  
Why would anyyone right now, want to vacation in the USA - have there been more turbulent times?  Will they be insured if they catch COVID?  
Will we fly them home AGAIN if shit hits the fan at our expense...  again?  
What if they get sick and bring it back...

I cannot be the only Canadian thinking like this.  
I also don't get it as most of these snowbirds are older, vunerable to catching covid.
I read one snowbird was missing "the beach, sun and cheap rum",  that said enough.
Sunshine & Alcohol  are worth it all?  To alcoholics, I guess.

I understand wanting to travel - especially if you own a condo down south and it's just sitting there - go... BUT this time I don't think the goverment should be responsible in anyway for your safe return.  It's NOT like the world is not aware of what's going on.  IF  YOU choose to go down south GO - but don't make other Canadians who choose to try to do what we are told to do, in order to slow a fucking pandemic killing thousands of Canadians & others around the world, pay for your selfishness.
For the sake of a tan & cheap rum is shallow & selfish.  

Clearly some don't think the rules apply to them..  and our government can't seem to get it's shit together so no wonder these loons thinks its safe to fly.  
Adios snowbirds,  Go! May you safely return in your cars and not coffins. 

With THC & TLC 
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I was wondering what all the "Karens" do when in lock down...  do they call company hotlines and vent?  I imagine so.

This made me laugh out loud when I thought of it & when I drew it.
How did I get the idea?  Simple, Norm bought me a Wilton Donut pan this week & I made my first chocolate dipped donuts - baked at home - in my own oven.
WTF...  OH MY Goodness.
Don't do it!   I ate 3 in 10.  I never eat 3 donuts at once. 

LOL   I easily imagined the results of this home baked donut goodness and an editorial was created.  Many can relate, I know I'm not the only one to put on a few pounds during covid.  Who knew home baked donuts were so delicious & EASY!?!   Tims is done, covid has created a bunch of bakers, *Wilton the pan  & PIN of course has all the recipes - lemon poppy seed donuts next! Nom Nom Nom  

BTW - I did try to buy this pan locally & searched several stores, we finally purchased it off Amazon.. look local first. I do recommend these pans... if you like & miss donuts.
NOT if you are concerned about gaining more weight... you will eat more than one donut.
It's a cold drizzling day- good day to bake donuts.

with THC & TLC
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