I am a realist.   I just pretend not to be.

When painting this  I started to cry.
My 'spirit', for lack of a better word - felt broken.
Why am I always painting 'love?  
​Love like this? 
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What is the point?

No point.


Creatively, 
​g
xox
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BTW...  After thought: Please don't send anyone's mom a dick pict.   
I think the best thing to do would be IGNORE.
My obsession with this subject & FB &  young women  very soon.
Hardly about 'dicks' at all. 

​Cannabis  & kids related next...
Actually, forget it- no one cares about my work. Who am I kidding?
I'm done. 

Keep your stick picts to yourself! WE DON'T want to see them.  lol
A girlfriend just informed me a woman is starting a movement- if you mail  your dick pict - she wants them mailed  to your mom.  Hahahaha!
Imagine that, I would smack Storm on the head and rip a strip off of him - we've had this conversation.  Not only are they not appreciated - regardless of what the sender might think- it's plain STUPID for Both men and woman.  
​YOU are setting yourself up for humiliation...  perhaps not immediately - but don't piss off that girlfriend/boyfriend, several months later  - your photos will be shred on FB pages and then some.

​If I care for someone enough- I'd want to see 'it' in person anyway - Right? 
& if not- Eeeeeeeeeeeewwww..    
Everytime I turn on the computer I'm reading about it, what I am paying attention to is women who are now retaliating & charging senders with sexual harassment, abuse & more.  Sharing them on social media to humiliate  good people who made a stupid mistake.

With Love
g

I'm 53 and proud to be here.   I've noticed something along the years - a trend if you will... I call it  Bipolar Bullshit.   FIRST - there is no 'test' which can prove someone is bipolar or  not. It is based on 'Opinions',  some professional - most not.  I am sure there are people who suffer from great degrees of mood swings and it can be terrible - especially when younger people are confused & feel like ending their lives.  This is about relationships, mostly between men and women.  I want to help young women especially with this subject.  *warning- this blog is 'full of fucks.

A friend shared her 'observation' I still remember our conversation- it hit home then and does even more now  "the second they get tired of you - you become "crazy", everything you do- they blame you, tell all your friends -she's losing it, she's going crazy..'  that was over a decade ago - she eventually had her marriage demise and was told "you're crazy.."  Go figure.   The new term I hear often is "she's Bipolar".  I was actually in a conversation with a group of men & they joked when one said he was 'struggling' with his new wife (#3 ) -"I think she's bipolar"  they all laugh.. apparently the last 2 wives were also bipolar. I look at this tall, white haired handsome gentleman as he says this, I've seen his flirting ways and smooth charms already (you know the type) - and think to myself - yeah sure, I bet they were all bipolar.. asshole.  All the men are high paid, very professional, smart, educated, successful...  I turn to my friend who was one of them when he commented later - again - about her being bi-polar (apparently his ex wife was also Bipolar) and said  "Give me a Fucking break! ( I must have appeared Bipolar to him a this point - lol) Are you kidding me?!!   There is no 'test' to prove someone is Bipolar but it does not take long to see someone is an asshole."  He looked at me - speechless.  Good. 

Ladies - of all ages PAY attention cause it's not fucking funny.  It's never them.  I know myself after my brain surgery- every time Norm and I would argue about something he did, which I disagree with - it would turn around to be about me and my brain and   "she's crazy.. just ignore her."  It was absolutely  one of the factors in the demise of our marriage. Bipolar- bullshit..  If this is crazy- fine.. Call me the fucking QUEEN - because I refuse to be labeled for someone elses behaviour and I will not sit passively while you behave badly. 

Pay attention- are you listening? It starts slowly.. the signs are there and as soon as you see them- get the fuck out.   It's never the adulterer - who promises time an time again - it won't happen again.  Never the gambler, alcoholic.. who blames his partner for all that goes wrong in is life. Never the macho man who is in debt but refuses to admit it.  Children are growing up watching- young sons & daughters - paying attention to these ' harmful words' if not worse.

How many times does a husband leave his wife for a younger woman? 
This is the best 'revenge' out there if you ask me. First of all if he leaves you - Give thanks - he's spared you years of bullshit. You don't need someone in your life who does NOT love you. Younger women now know exactly what they are doing - an old fool and his money will soon be parted just as easy as parting legs.  Led by their penis, they get what they deserve. What 20 year old wants a 6o year old?  Seriously.  For their $$$ yes. That's about it & very soon after - guaranteed-  she will fuck around on him with a much younger man- its a tale as old as time. BUT when he wants to get rid of his OLD wife- he easily states to his lawyer - 'she is bipolar' - and it's not  funny because high paid lawyers will destroy a woman- they know nothing about - for money. In many cases she DID give her life for decades, raised his kids, kept his home & sucked..    to be tosses aside like trash.  Children will be lost in legal battles as well as much else, confidence lost because of years of being blamed and accused of being bipolar- just because you don't agree with your spouse.   Bipolar has become and 'excuse' to keep people down and it's mostly women.  How often do you hear a woman say  "he's bipolar?"

Oh yes, I can appear Bipolar' call it what you want...  I call it being sick of bullshit and refusing to be walked over. Yes, I am capable of yelling, throwing etc..  Bipolar? Hardly.
Pay attention to WHO is calling you what?   Chances there is more to it that what we SEE. 
Chances are it's just another excuse for others to blame for their poor behaviour - it's always easier to blame someone than admit your an asshole.  It's a trend- where will it go? Will it become so when a husband accuses his wife of being bipolar- he will be able to have her committed?  Sound far fetched?  The trend looks frightening the direction it's going.
DO NOT let ANYONE lable you anything you are not!  Bipolar? Or just extremely pissed off?
Happy and sad - sure- that's life!  Bipolar never goes with 'she's so happy - I divorced her' it's always the negative spin.

IF you think you are bipolar- o.k., what can I say.  Please be careful with medications you in your body- note: the description of bipolar blames the environment.  
IF you are in a bad relationship - it is a negative environment.  GET OUT.  
Do you think it's going to get better? Is he lying? Cheating? Drinking? What's next?
Think it will change?
Argue all you want- I guarantee he's thinking - she's a bitch- she's bipolar... and sooner or later he will say it.

Bipolar this.

With LOVE
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xox

* FYI- we talk about my cartoons in this house before 'you all' see them. This one has been on my chalk board for almost 6 months - it's a difficult subject if you SERIOUSLY look into it. Norm & Storm both 'get where I am coming from' believe it or not ;)  and the polar bears do not represent 'US/them', *ALL men call the wives crazy when they are upset & (NOT ALL mean it) with them sooner or later..  BUT - it can become very abusive quickly & easily and for many women it has. I thank God  It's "only " about 2 people who have grown apart here (25 years - it happens)  & still argue, still and will always care for each other. 
There is a difference.   I have had this conversation for years in this blog & with ALL of my male friends at one point over the years. - I'm known of speaking my mind and not ashamed of it.   Too few never speak up and the pain continues. 

This 'Bi polar' thing is not correct, women are already struggling more than the average man & are taking medication at alarming rates- how do you think this is effecting families??? The community.. the world?
xox
* o.k. a tiny percentage of men will never call your wives 'crazy' - God bless you and thank you & I sent you a virtual hug!  & kiss - on the cheek. ;)  

This octopus is a work in progress- just like me. Us. 
His tangled legs force me to focus as they twist and get lost in each other..
You will like him- He is very cannabis friendly.

 I've discovered,  I paint octopus when I'm dealing with something I really need to process.

On my mind..   California.  
I KNOW why I was to go.  A test to myself. 
Sitting on the beach, long walks with Poppy & a lot of alone time.
Painting time. I felt physically better. It was not just the weather. 
It was many things, I didn't do much or  go many places.  My friend was a vegetarian so in many cases that's what I had also & have to say I've not had meat since. Really! I've no desire for it.  As you might imagine I'm cooking without it - so all around everyone is eating less meat or they don't eat- or get takeout.  Not my problem.  Less Pig  for sure.
I'm looking after myself  and cook what I feel is best for this bod & mind. 
I am not saying I won't eat meat again, I will saver the experience' and not just eat it to eat it
-  a beast had to die for it.
 
A new CALM appears to have kicked in..  thank you California.
I'm giving all I have to think about to what I do want.  Calm, Love, Peace.
​I know exactly what I need.  I've thought about it for  years.
Bring it on!   I work for it...   isn't anything worth having even better if you work for it?

                  My body is a temple.. not suitable for poison in any form.
                                               Plant, animal, chemical or human.  

Since home & medicating properly I'm noticing a huge improvement again back to focusing and painting. I have had much time to process my  California experience.  It appears my friend I visited is no longer communicating with me.. he was disappointed and verbally expressed this to me a couple of days after my arrival - it wasn't going as he expected.  Too bad. Even though honourable intentions were expressed before the vacation things changed, so did the dynamics of my vacation- but this was o.k.- it forced me and Poppy to have a lot of alone time - thinking and crab watching.
I was upset at the time but later I laughed with Storm and said "what can I say -Your  Mama is just too damn desirable!!"  

Boundaries were made clear before I even left. It went as I expected. I had no misconceptions of what my vacation was going to be - a vacation.  Cest la vie- I've made several attempts to continue our friendship.  Do I feel bad - no.   I've done nothing wrong.  I'm not making any apologies for others behaviours any longer.
It's sad though.. a friend lost- why- a hurt EGO.  Men.  
Arrrrrgh. What ever, I walk away - held held HIGH. 

My body is a temple, I have no intentions/need of  being  'intimate' just for the sake of a F*ck.  At the age of 53 - it's nice to be strong enough not to cave to OTHERS desires if I'm not feeling them myself.  How many times do women in particular do this?  Too many.
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The dogs missed me & Bird had me concerned... he really missed me.  
Next vacation I might smuggle him with me!  lol  Joking. 
Next vacation - I am going  alone... I made up my mind.
Not one single  thing to worry about but me... up in the mountains on a peaceful county side.  

From this day forward Everything  that goes into this body will be deserving.
Just as I AM.  

What will you place in your body today?  Is it good For YOU? Mentally & physically?
Will it nourish or just fill you up with junk that will only make you ill in the long run.
Think about it - with every nibble.


With Love
​g

​Back to this tangled green Cananbis love.

I did get to think calmly a great deal when I was away. 
Reflect as I watched the reflections of the sky, surfers, swimmers  & few birds in the ocean.

I give up on  humanity making sense.
I give up on trying to please others... I've spent my life  trying to please others.
Enough.  I will do what ever the F*&k I want and draw as I please - to please myself first.

I found myself staring at Facebook not wanting to paint..
I then thought of how I could stare at the ocean the same and achieve peace.
I then deleted FaceBook.  
It actually LET me.

I'm having difficulty with social media, for every few real there are a thousand FAKE.
Women & men constantly degrading themselves, some photos I see on IG - I think - "Really? What do you expect when someone treats you like a piece of  meat' when you behave like one?   To  me it shows lack of class, morals and IMAGINATION. 
Showing your pussy for this world to see - why would anyone  want a serious relationship with someone they found showing their vagina to the universe?  It's no longer special.
YOU are not serious & should not be taken seriously.

If all someone is worried about is a blowjob or a f*ck - - it is shallow to the max & you will get what you pay for.  If you are a young woman out there - Please think about what you are posting..   'that crotch shot  for your honey'- is also for all the world to see. Men who will look at you & form an opinion -  trust me -some might think it's hot  at first and then treat you like trash after a while - what do you expect?  
It happens a million times over, every day.  
Is all you have to contribute a photo of you boobs, ass or vagina to this universe?
Come On - Get creative... be more.  
Shallow applies to men and women.  
Actually... did you know MORE MEN post photos of themselves than women on Instagram.. Hmmmmmmmmmm..    Conclusion?

I'm not going to 'follow people just to follow' -  I'd much rather lead and try to do this by example.  ​

No wonder the world is messed up - look at the worlds 'leading examples' & what's discussed most on Social Media.   No wonder many are losing faith in humanity. 

I felt awakened returning from California - for which I am truly grateful.
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Several topics on my mind- time to get off of FaceBook and focus.
Draw & paint with purpose or what's the point?

I still give up..   not on myself.   Not on God. 
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Some will not like my new material others will resinate with it and enjoy it,
I have no doubts.  
​I am not here to please.  
I'm here to serve.

Tomorrow:  Sow the seeds.. an  American influence cannabis art work.
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With Love
g