The Psilocybin Molecule a.k.a Magic Mushroom.  I can't spell Psilocybin  - I struggle every time- so I understand why they are called Magic Mushrooms.. Where as Cannabis (correct name) - is easier to spell then marijuana (for me anyhow). About the Molecule'...  I do not know the periodic table -do you? Norm & Storm do and Storm also knows how to read Molecules  just like he remembers all the names of the mushrooms - I look at it- even to copy it to a drawing takes concentration to get it right'  lol  never mind have a clue what they  mean- so the education is more for myself - but they look pretty cool here too! No?

I'm enjoying this  3rd Eye Explorers and have already a  large canvas Elephant and another 'cat' sketched out - I woke up today so excited to get back at painting this pachyderm  - up at 6 even tho I hung out laughing with my boy till past 1 - talking about Ravens!  He saw some HUGE ravens and took photos to show me-  he's becoming a Bird lover too! Yippie  
A friend commented to me on my painting - work ethic - how much I paint...  what people do not understand is I must.. I love to paint- have been given the gift -where I can stay home and paint! Oh my gosh- what a blessing that is, I am thankful  - no stuck at some job I can't stand - doing work I don't like.. but I can't work.  Even if I wanted to.

My disease has spread down my right side and has progresses the past few years- I have watched and the hardest part - even worse at times than the TN & constant Twitch has been watching my hands become like they are. Useless -  It feels this way when when I can't even button a shirt or peel a banana- forget peeling an orange- I need assistance. By the grace of God- it seem the one thing i can do easily is still paint! I said easily BUT far from pain free- and back at a big canvas- is an entirely different work out- heavier (some artists don't even realize) brushes and more of a work out on the arms and legs if you prefer to stand- It did'nt use to be like this. I paint through it - I'm a warrior! hee hee hee- my friend Kathy commented that- it made me giggle. I don't feel like a warrior..  I just want to paint.

No excuses! You see.. I KNOW one day I might not be able to do this anymore and I refuse to look back and say - those days I could have painted- I wasted crying in bed- FUCK NO! !!
This brings me to my medicine - Cannabis as soon as I'm up! IT is my GET Going Georgia! We can do this!  Yesterday painting the canvas- I was  forced to break to smoke- or I would have had to stop.  Work ethic - perhaps.. more like  love life ethic.

I've been ashamed to let people see my hands. ;(    Really, I try to hide them- why?!!! 
Why do we in our society feel as though we should hide - I'm still me.  Far from perfect- & so are you.  Some 'look it' - beauty fades, stuff happens...   who knew.  

Be good to your bodies and don't waste  any opportunity to do what you love... It's been a blessing (I understand) that it did happen slowly and I've been able to adapt- I had courage yesterday to come out of the closet and post a photo of my hand on IG - lol- you have no idea of how hard it was to do-  here is my twisted, painful hand - see it paint. FUCK yes!

Thank God for cannabis - or I would not be able to function.
Thanks to my son who grows good medicine and encourages his mom to paint.

Thanks to a friend Abi who sent me baked goods yesterday- I met a lovely police woman on the way back from my mail box and exclaimed  "I just got baked good .."  I was so excited - she laughed and said "Lucky you!",  I kid you not! We chatted a few moments more before Daisy & I were safe back in our home.
 There are always police cruisers in front of my home- I thank them- this road is terrible and they constantly catch speeders with so many kids - it's a miracle none has been killed, she told me another neighbour told her the same thing last week- SLOW the fuck down!!
I see HOW many they catch, I've witnessed to many 'close calls' - if you ask me it's more important than busting someone for cannabis!    They help keep your kids safe.
US safe.  She was lovely  - it was a great day- on to the next!!! After this joint.
 
With TLC & THC! & a little Psilocybin
Georgia

 Afternoon Delight.  Wow... I needed that.
This painting was waiting to emerge, more than I realized.
hee hee, I'd say that sky WAS a little boring ..before.
It started with one of my bigger brushes and I threw the paint on -  base color on a white canvas, sketching my bear with a brush instead of a pencil- "just paint!" I remember thinking.  The rest of the days were spent with much smaller brush - as small as a '0' most of the time.
As a matter of fact- it's how the fur was painted as well as the grass. TLC in every stroke.
THC too.   I'm learning to recognize my calmer moments (twitch-less) when I can work on more detailed areas like the face. I enjoyed painting this you have no idea & clarity in severals issues flowed to me like paint off my brush.
F*ck off.   LOL.  
Who needs this negative drama? Not me.  
Frig, Im tired- I think a lot lately- i just want to paint.
Focus on what you love Georgia..  enjoy your time doing what you enjoy most.. whispered my canvas.  

I am tired - I've been waking up every few hours for weeks, I went to the Dr. Monday and he felt what I also discovered recently, a big lump in my arm pit.  It's been causing me pain but I thought it was just stress from a few others things I was trying to sort out'.  Thursday I was already having a mammogram & ultrasound.  The mammogram was not bad at all, btw. 
I've felt worse.
Then I had the ultrasound and I could see what she could see and suddenly there was a big black ball. "Is THAT it??" I asked
...  "Yep, that's it."  
Yikes. That is... disturbing- seeing big black ball inside your body. 
It would take 5 days possibly with the long weekend for results I was told.
It was called already it is a very swollen Lymphnode which I will have to have checked again soon.  I'm told to relax, destress & enjoy. Ha! You don't have to tell me twice.
Before I got the FANTASTIC news I had already resolved that morning (after that great walk I had with my son) - I will rise above! I started my day with CoconutCream home made - bakery cake, fresh pineapple  (the bakery is in Newmarket - I highly recommend, as does Storm & now Norm) & coffee... then I got the call.  I'm Smiling!
YES I AM.  & know to keep on going the direction I am ..rise above with love.
Anger, hate, revenge- I've no time for. 

Who does? it's bad for the body, it's bad for your heart & mind. 
Not to mention -it makes it difficult for me to paint. ;) Truly - I was so tired that after I got the news I slept! lol ;) the body saying RELAX. I JUST finished this bear at 6 this a.m. 

I plan on doing just that. There is nothing like a serious cancer scare to help re align your life.  What matters? Hate begets hate. I can't paint if I feel hate, I physically can't & won't do it to myself.  Think about cancer seriously in your own body and you realize how trivial  so much of 'it' is.  
Thank You God.
I needed that.

Natural medicine is on my mind. The last Mapping of the Minds event educated me further and arrgavated me fruther- one more F*&^%$$$ lie it appears. Mushrooms are on the bottom of the list when it comes to dangerous 'drugs' (on the top was alcohol) or common recreational drugs... even after cannabis! I resent calling them drugs.  I had no idea.  Why are we being lied to? Why are people going to jail over such insanity!  
NATURE.
God put all plants here for all man- OUR CREATOR knew when these plants were placed here- they would HELP US.  *Mushroom are dangerous- IF YOU PICK the wrong ones YOU can die. KNOW your mushrooms- ALL of them. They are also healthy, beneficial and medicinal.  Bear is contemplating life,  Nature & Medicine.

I've included a Star mushroom- puffball', I met a very smart young man on one of our last forays with a cool name who educated me on them and where to find them.. the others are imagined or real- I'm not sure I've seen so many. My Bear Afternoon Delight is out and on my wall, Norm said "Wow, it's like 3D with those dots!" Storm too has commented on the detail several times.  I JUST want to PAINT it does the heart & art Good.

With it- thought, prayers and resolution- it always happens when I paint.
GIVE Thanks! I've already started another canvas! 
YOU know I'm (WE are ALL) celebrating this Thanks Giving!!

I'm still experiencing pain- I shall increase my medicine intake- amen.
& enjoy every second of it.

With Love 
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'Afternoon Delight' 
24 x 36 Acrylic on Canvas    Celebrating Natural medicine & Life.

A  big Bear Hug for the Best Beast'  in the Cannabis Jungle.. 
This lean Leo - he's so sweet - like a big  pussy cat. 
Bear can't resist his purring ways - or that majestic mane with it's white whiskers.
Who said  bear hugs are just for bears?  

King of the Cannabis jungle - no wonder he is smiling. 
Being the month of the Leo I'm enjoying painting lions, this is my favourite to date. 
Bear does not care - the heart wants what the heart wants..  here, there, anywhere. 

'Best Beast  & Bear' hangs above my desk -I hang them on clips on a nail,  it's the one spot  where I can switch them up'.
- Hang your own work, inspire yourself, don't be too distracted by the look of others or you'll never master your own look. 
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Time to paint more love into the Universe.

With Love
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xox
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I've some lovely Cannabis art around the corner...  stay tooned.
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I want to start the week on a positive note...
One night while bear was wandering though the forrest alone she heard a faint noise
at first - like humming bird wings fluttering round her furry ears....  singing. 
Who sings in the middle of the night, alone in the forrest?

Broadway Bear' that's who.

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There he was on top of a tree singing-  "Singing in the Rain!"   There was no rain.
From the second she saw broadway - he made her smile.
He was singing with a smile on his face! Fur glistening not with rain but with moonlight, he sparkled as if a million tiny diamonds danced with him.

"Come on with the rain! I've a smile on my face!"  He bellowed out! 
He was larger than life... up there  on that pedestal &  when he leaped down- he could dance! Broadway tapped all over he forrest, jumping from rock to tree with the ease of a gazelle. All the while Bear watched from the trees,  hidden but intrigued with his moves & voice.. it was honey to her ears.

Broadway knew she was watching.
Broadway was watching Bear for awhile before she even knew he existed. 
As it turns out Bear and Broadway started to become fast friends.. a bit of 'chemistry'  existed between them, so Bear thought anyway.  Bear & Broadway continue to mingle exploring each other.  

Broadway seems to be able to make bear SMILE, his jokes, chats - impressing Bear with his continuous tales &  leaps & bounds'!  He can carve, he's confident, funny, smart, incredibly talented too...  as for his physical appearance - he was bears 'perfect pitch'!  
Bear felt Broadway was a blessing...  she had been praying after all.   

It turns out Bear and Broadway have a mutual love (if not for each other) for Cannabis!  It's what brought them together in the first place, Broadway could smell the cannabis coming from Bears cave.  They wander often into the garden of Love.   Love because it's filled with Gods medicine. They laugh, dance, joke, talk and just BE in each others company, away from the rest of the forest - someone - for a while to feel comfortable, close and cared for. 

Broadways disappears as quickly as he appeared it leaves Bear feeling confused and alone at times...  such is life in the forest.  What's a bear to do?  Nothing,  Bear is USE to being alone,  it's no different.  She does what she loves to do most, create & have a little fun.
Making 'Daisy chains' with Fox and even a midnight dip in the lake...   alone. 

God will send Bear  a companion in the future  to enjoy the forrest with... soon.  
That's what God does.  

With Love
g

                                      Some serious TLC for me. So, I painted Bears.

Bears in the Garden of love under an Aurora Borealis Sky - Having a terrific time.  
Bears 'Friend' is talented as you can see... he's carved a bong from a tree!  
I'm not sure what to name my bears... In my Binder of bears (I have a few now)  a story on each page & the bears are named. I've been thinking a lot about Gene Jelly so I might call him 'Broadway'.  From MY favourite movie &  'painting soon..
I've seen a hand caved wooden bong & met an artist from Japan, he gifted me a carved pendant.  Bears are ready for an evening of giggling, conversation surrounded by Cannabis and a  Supremely Spectacular Sky - who needs anything more?  LOOK at them!
Don't they look like they are ready for a jolly good time?  I know they are. 

On the original - I'm not sure how I did it but the sky looks like Northern lights!  
I'm starting a large Painting on Canvas.   Bear on Canvas -it should take me about 3 weeks of solid painting well into every  evening.  It will be cheerful and loving and full of flowers, fox, fungi, love, laughter, wolf, birds,  joy, butterflies and yes #cannabis of course.
I'll wake up every day and see it and Thank God for another day
& will continue to dare to dream!

Thank God. 
Less T.V for me.  Painting, Reading & Praying...  
with a bit of adventure here and there.
I am currently working on a smaller bear inspired by Charles Schulz Quote...  it's a bit frustrated and down at heart... that is life sometimes right?  Bear can't always be frolicking. 
It's a great way to 'paint it out' as well.. daily data processing. 

Spring is here.
My evenings are spent painting & imagining a relationship that is full of frolic, laughter & a bit of love thrown in..  I'm known for my persistence (smile), who knows?
NOW,  I'll keep painting & enjoy my bears with every stroke of my brush.  
Bear & Broadway make me smile.  Dare to Dream of better times.

* I gifted my BIG Purple GANESH Elephant -  to a friend of my sons since they were little, I use to teach him crafts he really liked it, I could see this... & I want to wish him LUCK & love. I just felt it was 'NOW' meant to go to  him.  He has a good heart this young man, I've always felt that about him.  :)  One Canvas leaves - another appears (I hope! lol) waiting for Bears!  

Painting, reading, praying.  

With Love
g