Another pondering primate... what is my new chimp obsession?  It's been triggered by several things I guess, most recently the thought of the loss of more beautiful beasts.  Destruction due to consumption, too much to ponder some days. This chimp brought a new level of painter... I know this when I spent an afternoon patiently painting the hair 'just on his chinny, chin, chin! 

Why do we still have plastic bags? Lazy. These magnicifant mammals each one a miracle & our lazy butts & gluttony for palmoil are kiling them & I'm sure someone somewhere is  using Chimp for medicinal reasons or even decorative.  I'd rather not research that, now.
I find myself pondering the stoned ape theory again -how 'evolved' we have all become or have we? According to the studies we have started our own mass destruction - so why wait one more day to stop using plastic bags?  Why?  

As I finished this painting Denver has decriminalized Psilocybin mushrooms! The first of many US States with Canada following soon. Everything this blog said about cannabis - apply it to 'magic mushrooms' - = Psilocybin . It's that simple. EVERYTHING. I am forever grateful for this slow but steady personal education & depression releasing medicine. If not completely releasing  at least discovering = Forgiving.  Cannabis is my choice of daily medicine but every now & then my body & mind tell me when it's time to medicate with psilocybin. My lite treatment caused some negative effects - I can't even begin... I'm takng a break & wearing scrubs for comfort BUTT it said getting worse before better - might be a side effect. So  feeling a bit blue with not much to do I decided to finish my primate that I started a few weeks ago. 

Psilocybin help me 'feel a little more loved' for much of what I don't normally find very 'lovable at times. Including myself.  

I'm in full painting mode again ;) - to keep me out of depression mode  ;( .  
I already have the NEXT painting sketched in my mind - another pondering primate   in a slightly 'new style' an experiment, I think. Weeeeeeee...   

 ;D  I'lll leave this here so you might ponder a little.

With LOVE 
Georgia

NFS... unless the offer is worthwhile & will purchase much more paint! ;)
Acrylic on wood panel. Gold, Copper paint that makes this painting look different every time you look at it as well as around the edges - make sit POP  ;).
I'm forever grateful for the experience.

In preperation for  May the 4th.,  I  had a bit of fun with two ideas... this is the first.  May the Spores be with you! Spores sending out messages of  Love, Peace, Faith in oneself.  
The other I might show in a couple days I don't want to rush it. 

Did you ever meet a Dog you knew you had to meet? I felt that way today.. kinda strange.
​Did you know if you have fluffy cat it can get arthritis & become matted, we had this happen this winter.. luckily we have a wonderful groomer  at  our local 'Global Pet Supplies' &
I now have a shaved...   Fluffy.   Quite amusing visually.

I drove almost an hour for a one minute suntan to try light treatment for psoriasis, I'd rather try this before oral medications, as it's slightly out of control - I am trying some thing.   I must say... It felt nice & I felt good all afternoon with that mega burst of LIGHT * I look forward to natural sunshine any day now... until then please continue to shine.   ;D

Did you know the Original Wookie Actor passed away?
https://www.space.com/star-wars-original-chewbacca-peter-mayhew-dies-at-74.html 
May the Force be with him.
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with TLC & THC...

 I lovingly refer to  (& I think he'd love this): 'Vincent VanGogh 2019'  hee hee.
I paint freestyle - by looking - to look is to get lost in Vincent Van Gogh, pure pleasure.  Some of you will think I've lost my mind - like Norm who recognized 'Starry Night but not the  Skeleton smoking  as both of Vincent's paintings.

Doing what he loved yet distracted, tired, sick, lonely, overwhelmed - sound familiar- Depression.  Apparently had his  Mental health issues  been addressed he would have been very successful & might've seen more than one painting sold. Addressed & not shunned - it can go two ways from what I understand - the 'not so nice way' is more people taking their own lives because they are taking medications that do not work - Depression is not a racist nor does it care about how much money you have.  If we keep shaming, an article I read stated people will just start to hide it better... until they show up at Sunday Mass with a grenade for  the cash basket. 

When we shame mental illness we are applying the same rules as prohibition - what a failure it has been.  If your face twitched 24/7 you would think about this stuff too. God's not playing anymore - pay attention ;)  "You are only as sick as your secrets" - a remark  I think  I heard on a Pod Cast- it must have been my favourite 'Hidden Brain',  every episode interesting.  Growing up 'My Moods'  were shamed, often...  a big secret, I get it - NOW- this is how some handle events but it's not healthy imo - the sooner we address unpleasant events & feelings  the sooner we can try to heal & move on, my mom had a terrible event happen to her at a fairly young age & was understandably depressed at the time - but now  many parent's  are both paying more attention to social media then their children.
The kids won't be pleased when they get older.
It's a fact - try to prove me wrong.

How many  generations started the same way as Vincent, myself, my mom was one of 6 kids & I never met any grandpa...  dealing with mental illness decades later, generations later.  Babies having babies, young parents having too many, too soon with obligations thrown at them pretty quickly - I've blogged when we were first married how we stole a case of baby food to get by...  By the Grace of God - it's why I was more than happy to accept donations  to food bank at Halloween. Yes, I speak from experience - marriage is difficult enough - wait to have your babies -be ready to welcome them with love.  
Instagram, face book, Selfies, Social media, socializing & recreational drugs YIKES! 
    MORE & MORE  babies are ending up  with a wire monkey mom.  & or dad.

Please, Wake the fuck up. Babies do not ask to be born - we humans are given the choice to procreate - carelessly - if we desire.  

People use to often remark when Storm was little:
"Let him cry!"  or ...     " You never put him down... "                      Amen. 
Please put down your phones & pick up your babies.
​
With TLC & THC
​Georgia

This card was painted specificaly with a bud in mind! Hee hee 'Patti the Bud whipping around town in her weed fueled wheelchair! Weeeeeeeee....d!  That is how she rolls!
We met several years ago at a cannabis event (one of our first) &  she is actually one of the very few humans I communicate with every few days - if only a short "hey -still alive?" kinda e mail.. lol   Patti has been a wheel chair most of her life & has educated  me on several issues though out the years - mostly via venting from frustration & I understand (now) why.

Patti uses cananbis for pain & has been a legal medical recipient for years -long before legalization.. at a time when we had to fight, hide & sneak around, when fear mongering within our own Government was at an all time HIGH.  I remember her contacting me terribly distressed when S.H. (Initials for Steven Harper also stands for Shit Head) threatened to have doors broken down if we didn't toss our EXCESS cannabis out with the kitty litter,   Luckily I assure her- Don't stress - let them fucking try! & assured her if they did it would be a political nightmare for busing a LEGITIMATE patient.  The government is in fact responsible for much Of Patti's problems if you ask me, like the fact they give her free opiates -which are destroying her insides & mental state from side effects - yet she can't get her cannabis covered- a much less harmful pain medicine alternative.  

& Patt is upset & tired of seeing these places open that she can not access & if you think about it - IF it was YOU, your daughter, mother friend- YOU would get upset too - from blatant ignorance & disrespect  it appears.  The government, Mayor John Tory  & Ontario disabilities are  few places I have recently contacted- trying to understand why we are continue to allow NEW dispensaries NOW opening  to NOT be wheel chair accessible - not one has even responded. Do you know why this is happening?  They DON'T care.
They DON'T fucking understand, they can not relate to life in a wheel chair... If they did I bet the rules would change mighty fast. Let's hope Karma doesn't intervene to show them exactly what this life is like.  

Being alienated on a daily basis from being able to participate in simple acts that ALL of us do - simple because of a lack of consideration or intentional lack of consideration is a concern for all Canadians.  It's also fucking depressing...   most people who suffer from chronic illness or disabilities  also suffer from depression - go figure.  

I am determined not to exclude my pal Patti - if only with one of these Weeeeeeeeed cards!
​I am forever grateful for her shared  lessons on a subject I know very little about & take very much for granted, for this education I have become a better human.

Please show some EXTRA TLC & THC to our fellow humans & future friends who use wheels instead of legs to get around. That's the only difference - and for this she is punished daily - due to OUR lack of caring & insisting!  If you visit a dispensary that is not wheel chair accessible - perhaps point this OUT to them.
That's a step in the right direction for those that can not walk.

with TLC & THC
Georgia

Happy 4/20! & Happy Easter! Woot Woot!
I have fond memoriers of the last Easter 4/20 spent with my little friend Jamie
(no longer with us), I'll cherish that Easter forever. 

Today is 4/20 and the FIRST official LEGAL 4/20 in Canada - my fear mongering friend says many will be busted today - I doubt it. Unless  people are behaving badly - then,
so be it. 

Nope, I'm done thinking negative about cananbis concerns, Canada is legal & I feel more good than bad has become of it!  Other than the Ontario gov. & Legal dispensaries opening withOUT access for the disabled patients purchasing their MEDICINE  - I'm thrilled about cannabis in Canada NOW.    Amen

I celebrate this Holy weekend thinking of my homeboy Jesus & smoking joints!
God's medicine & I can easly become grateful feeling to the point of tears because  - I AM.

I am forever grateful for cananbis easing our sons pain &  my own & many more. 
I am forevergrateful God, for this journey as it has taught me many lessons I know I would not have learned otherwise.  

I am forever gateful to Jesus for his constant companionship... when all else 'appears to disappear', when I am left feeling beyond blue due to situations beyond my control - he reminds me (& alwasys has):  You are never alone & I'm  at peace.
Who wouldn't want that?  
What ever helps you achieve this feeling in  life  - go for it.

This new found knowlegde' & ever growing faith have me more forgiving, compassionate  & TRYING to be more understanding in general, I think that's a good direction to be going.  

Happy Easter to all my peeps, thank you for continuing to  inspire in all the ways you do.

Easter is about Rising UP!  Shine as birght as you can...  
Easter & daily Jesus reminds me keep moving forward - while trying to help others along the way...  pretty simple stuff.

I am celebrating! Hoppy Easter!
​
With Love
​Georgia 

It's difficult NOT to read about detoxing.. the body & mind, the more I read - the more I am convinced it's the direction to go or rather the direction I am going.   I do not own a cell phone so I don't have that temptation to be checking it constantly as I see others do..   Adults all know what they are doing NOW - you read about it daily, they all understand there is a price to pay for cellphones & I don't mean the monthly bill - it is apparent cellphones are harming as much as helping - just look at the studies with teens today.   Social media has presented an entirely new way for kids/teens to be bullied, acquire an addiction, to potentially be harmed or abused by strangers, ignored by parents with the same tech addictions, texting & driving -  yikes.. being a kid just got more difficult & less enjoyable,  most teens admit to checking their phones constantly & they do get upset if they don't get likes' yikes.  The more time they spend on line- the chances of increased suicidal thoughts - it's science being reported.

It's not just teens - thank God there is an ongoing awareness & and increased movement to detox - I'm reading about small retreats being offered with the enticing advertising: NO wifi! RE- connect with your life. Re- connect with your family. Re-connect with your kids, Re- connect with nature. Air B & B  - that now offer the bonus of digital detox for your vacation so you can truly GET the rest  you need - restore your soul - without CONSTANT distraction. I find it particullarily distressing reading many companies are now 'expecting  employees to respond to email after work hours... less & less are getting the break they need.

As an artist - social media is awesome - your work is seen - yet it is draining - emotionally & physically - * it's not until I TURN OFF & OUT do I start to paint some of my best work,  it was a post I saw on Instragram recently  that made me SEE with open eyes - all social media really is.  There is a 2 year old little girl - who is a media sensation & 'amazing artist'... Please, are you kidding me - is this some sort of prank? This child pushes paint around a canvas with a stick and pours on paint like EVERY other 2 year old I've ever seen paint - except her parents have PUSHED it and her  - Genius? Artist?  
No,  just a normal toddler making a mess...  if you disagree with me, fine - I have some swamp land in Florida I'd like to show you.

No wonder young artists become depressed by social media, kids who are really trying to become better  at art &  at life.  People strive their entire life to become artists - working tirelessly to perfect a skill - & this 2 year old is hailed at the next fucking Picasso (not a compliment in my mind - he was an old perv)  & what does this tell you about social media? Some  people have too much money  to pay thousand for that mess.
Do not rely on social media to define you or your talent - it makes no sense when a skilled artist gets 50 likes - yet a photo of a dog pooping gets thousands  or a normal  child making a mess gets thousands of followers & $$$ for it. Clearly it is messed up - not to mention the stupid, thoughtless acts NOW being preformed - just to try to get 'likes' - how about those selfies -you know the ones where the  posers are now dead because they fall off the cliff trying to get the best Instagram photo?  

Digital detoxing get's more tempting with each passing day.

Painting something for 4/20.

with TLC & THC
​G

 This is a tribute to Chuck jones - an artist & animator - I absolutely loved Bugs bunny growing up!  Bugs is smart - very funny, playful and often violent - but only to those who deserved it..  only after you heard:  Of course you know, this means war.
Bugs was one of the first trans dressers too! In many cartoons he puts on  womens clothing and rocks it like no other - by far one of my favourites is the Hillbilly cartoon where they promenade left..      This Bugs Bunny is chilling - Bugs style reading up on BUDS.  
Bugs Bunny is soon to be Buds Bunny  - while he is in Canada anyhow!  
Are you reading on how to grow your own cannbis? You can! It's legal - 4 plants. 

Apparently more dispensaries are opening and more ILLEGAL dispenseraries will be shut down.. good luck with that, you know... I'm caught here, I want privately owned dispensaries - we all do clearly - but this bullshit with  legal ones being fined now- is just that & I wanted to SEE some of my friends who have been doing this a while already STILL be able to continue - like CALM, Amy Anonoymous has a club.. many others - why should they stop when clearly others are not..  do a quick google search for Medical Cannabis dispensaries Ontario -  I found one place today 'Bodystream'  (*I have no idea of who they are - so forgive me if it's someone I know but - come on...)  they have 26 locations!  wtf?  
I don't recall them winning the lottery - I could be wrong.  
I don't think it's fair or right - especialy for THOSE who have played by the rules.
Welcome to the wild west of cannabis in Canada.

Friends, there are so many options for buying cannabis - online, by mail, instore, local dealers have not disappeared...  or grow your own! AMEN, the time for siliness is over- the time for celebration is here.  A friend who is a legitimate patient and follows many on facebook shared her  observation with me - some who were patients - went 'recreational', then they found out they can't smoke it everywhere,  rules apply & then they became 'medical again- Phhhhbt.  

Fakers - Please, fuck off...   (& it's bad karma) medical patients are still dealing with serious issues - It's time for Dr.s to step up in my opinion, IF you don't think your patient legitimately NEEDS cannabis- tell them to get it recreationally.  IF they OBVIOULY do use cannabis for pain, illness & to elieviate suffering - PLEASE help them & help them who need  it -$$$ - Cannabis should be covered by HEALTH CANADA - if they cover my girlfriends OPIATES - they should cover her cannabis!!!  IT is that fucking simple.  

Time will tell - I've emailed many on this topic including Justin Trudeau, furthermore all these once "haters" like BILL Blair who NOW own stakes/stocks and make $$ from cannabis  LEARN who you are purchasing from.  All in ALL - the options are here-  USE your dollars to SPEAK volumes & in a few years- only the best in product & service will survive.   My son is my grower & I can't complain-  he is talented!  If I do say so.. but many realize that now ;).

                           & B is for Benign  the loveliest B word I heard yesterday.  
I asked God for a bit of direction on something else I was pondering & the phone call came 3 seconds later! Hee hee - I love it whent that happens!  "Benign"  & then I said:
                 LET's GO! Forward!  Forward it is... Let's GO!   
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With TLC & THC
Georgia 

There is no passion in playing small...  in settling for a life that is less than the one you are capable of living. 

- Nelson Mandela -

It's not easy being green - but this spring it's easier than ever to grow your own 4 plants. 
Hallelujah! What an enjoyable experience it's going to be for many - from seed to smoke, just the thought makes me smile.  
I can't help be hopeful.. Lord let them drink less.  lol   It's also APRIL soon and that means- more! More locations, more vape clubs, more edibles.. more amazing cannabis products to ease your mind - Pain & more.   I get upset thinking about patients'  sometimes- as I know a few... and now- they have higher prices an although the government provides their *opiates for free - it's still not covering this medicine - and THAT is still a problem.

Right now- it's the first day of Spring and Green is coming- Thank God!  
What 2 better icons to welcome the first day of Spring?  

*** 
On another note, I'm not feeling very happy at all in truth.  
I had the worst mammogram.   I left the office in tears, screaming ask anyone who was there - lots.  Calling the technician: "A Fucking Bitch"   threatening to report her  (I have) & I stand by it.

I have cried constantly & NOT slept one night  since.  I asked God why did this happen!?
It should have been a simple mammogram like the last I had - which was PLEASANT - I even blogged about it!   Why...  because God knows  I will speak UP & should.
& I will make sure  NO OTHER WOMAN EXPERIENCES the nightmare of A fucking simple mammogram that I did!   

I was physically & mentally abused by a technician *while MY breast was LOCKED DOWN*. 

The ONLY reason I did NOT immediately  blog, social media was  because Storm left (the exact time) for Spain & I did not want to upset him,  he was already feeling bad he couldn't drive  me to my appointment.    He has returned safe.​
It has  been difficult to 'FAKE' the past few days but I know he would know something was wrong.  I should have called the police to report abuse - and will consider this today.

It's been almost a week - they have NOT  called to even talk to me about it!  I've called, e mail etc..  & this makes me feel worse - no once cares. WE are just a number to these places - SHEEP to be prodded & poked by people with NO COMPASSION.

Today I AM NOT going to spend the day crying in bed I'm calling my lawyer to get her opinion.  I will add the Breast Screening program of Ontario was very quick to help direct me, as well as the college of Dr.s & nurses & have someone who is helping me with seeing that this woman's actions are REPORTED.

TBH I am seriously struggling with being social at all at the moment - as if I was not already..  and then there's the results I now wait for.   I pray I don't have to take the test over (I certainly do not TRUST her  as a professional - because that is certainly NOT what I  witnessed OR experienced) &  now...
I'M FUCKING TERRIFIED to have another MAMMOGRAM!

With TLC & THC 
Georgia 

Please forgive my absence for a bit .

The Peyote cactus knows.. and if you ingest it- you might know too.
I have no desire to try peyote - first because it sits on my desk & I watch how long it takes to grow- it's so sweet my pet peyote,  I don't think a 'high' is worth seeing my little guy go (that & you have to eat many I believe for them to effect you properly).  Storm successfully grew several from seed and it's been really fun to watch these tiny little cactus grow many taking years before they become substantial - and then they get eaten?   Peyote also don't seem to taste that great- I'd have issues keeping them down  just from watching people eat them - it makes me nauseous but I love to paint them! I painted a little peyote on time-lapse -it's on my IG account.

Food for thought. They are illegal in the USA - with the exception of ceremonial purposes but they have been abused and are becoming increasingly difficult to find sadly,  this is not good for the PLANT. Peyote cactus are considered teachers.   Nature has all the best teachers.  It teaches me already -  'patience' just by painting it. You can't see it here but it glistens with metallic paint & it's peeking through the keyhole of the universe... in my mind.

TTC drives are not permitted to consume cannabis- or that's the direction they are going to try to go- GOOD luck with that. What anyone does in their off hours is no ones fucking business. WHAT ABOUT ALCOHOL? Do they- have they ever  told drivers  they are NOT to consume alcohol after hours? It's a cartoon in the making. I see a lawsuit in the making... not to mention the very slippery slope.  Reefer madness is still rampant in Canada thanks to this sort of bullshit.

Do you know what kills more humans than illegal drugs - VANITY.  
 Think about tit. ( hee hee note type 'o) before you get the boob job!!
I watched a few episodes on Netflix of Botched Up Bodies - I highly recommend it (IF you can stomach it)  It's hard not to feel sorry for these people, all they wanted to do was better themselves... God has you perfect the way you are!
Botched Vagina's - cause  everyone needs a pretty vagina! WTF? Countless boob jobs gone wrong, lip jobs, teeth implants, lipofat removed & it's an education of how much $$$ this industry is making, this show covers IT ALL & Education is key- everyone one of these people admits they did not research, fillers that need to come out years later because they move & are making people very sick  & on top of it they are embarrassed because they paid to have themselves 'destroyed'.  Vanity KILLS EVERY day.  It is a rude awakening many need to have... not me - no cosmetic surgery for me, I'll embrace every wrinkle, saggy boob (I got two) - I love me too much to do this to my body. Twitch & all!  It really  makes you understand how fortunate we are too - I feel  healthy & grateful after watching that show. 

 One Strange Rock on Netflix is fantastic. 

with TLC & THC
G

Drug Mule... the only kind I like is the furry kind above.
As long as drugs are illegal- drug mules will be used & it's an entirely new level of low... 
Clint Eastwood has just made a movie Drug Mule that I hope to watch soon... I also recommend:  ​https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RZlgZGMVFFs   Maria full of grace.
Prohibition kills countless ways & it discriminates no one. As long as someone is making a lot of money they will continue their ways- at any cost.  Puppies who had drugs surgically sewn into them by a "vet" - is just as serious as forcing a human & I do hope this 'vet' goes to jail , for the rest of his life.    Who is to blame?

Anyone who believes Drugs should be kept illegal - it's obviously not working so the sooner we end this bullshit the better - no!?  I no longer believe the majority of drugs (used for recreational or medical purposed)  should be kept 'illegal' ... it's human nature humans want to get HIGH - do you think there any coincidence in our Hello?     
Hi!

By keeping drugs illegal we keep these horrid practices happening, that is a fact.
Let's get our 'asses in gear'  -  educate, regulate - tax even! Anything to prevent the loss of life, especially for those innocent victims usually already  in unfortunate circumstances who have no choice but to be a part of  ILLEGAL Drug trafficking.  
A few possible suggestions for now...
Shop locally. Buy locally produced product if possible.   Grow your own.  Advocate.  Educate. Encourage legality.

Talk to your kids NOW so they have an awareness of where drugs come from & BE HONEST (the bellies of puppies sometimes) so they are able to truly understand at an early age the impact judgemental thinking & outdated laws have on each other because you know what's bound to happen... these 'kids' are going to grow up - and TRY drugs, go figure.
Let them BE Educated on all that matters...  frankly, I believe this issue matters more than most bullshit history we are 'still' taught...  time will tell.

Whats worse than drug trafficking?  Human trafficking - let's focus on that.


With TLC & THC
Georgia

Check out Me & Larry posing for a selfie! Hee hee...
Larry is OLD! He loves me & I love him, he would sit on my shoulder all day and smile if I let him, Ginger fell in love and was obviously delighted when they shared a bed- she actually rolled over & was submissive to him lol..    
Love  has NO boundaries.