It's not easy being green - but this spring it's easier than ever to grow your own 4 plants. 
Hallelujah! What an enjoyable experience it's going to be for many - from seed to smoke, just the thought makes me smile.  
I can't help be hopeful.. Lord let them drink less.  lol   It's also APRIL soon and that means- more! More locations, more vape clubs, more edibles.. more amazing cannabis products to ease your mind - Pain & more.   I get upset thinking about patients'  sometimes- as I know a few... and now- they have higher prices an although the government provides their *opiates for free - it's still not covering this medicine - and THAT is still a problem.

Right now- it's the first day of Spring and Green is coming- Thank God!  
What 2 better icons to welcome the first day of Spring?  

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On another note, I'm not feeling very happy at all in truth.  
I had the worst mammogram.   I left the office in tears, screaming ask anyone who was there - lots.  Calling the technician: "A Fucking Bitch"   threatening to report her  (I have) & I stand by it.

I have cried constantly & NOT slept one night  since.  I asked God why did this happen!?
It should have been a simple mammogram like the last I had - which was PLEASANT - I even blogged about it!   Why...  because God knows  I will speak UP & should.
& I will make sure  NO OTHER WOMAN EXPERIENCES the nightmare of A fucking simple mammogram that I did!   

I was physically & mentally abused by a technician *while MY breast was LOCKED DOWN*. 

The ONLY reason I did NOT immediately  blog, social media was  because Storm left (the exact time) for Spain & I did not want to upset him,  he was already feeling bad he couldn't drive  me to my appointment.    He has returned safe.​
It has  been difficult to 'FAKE' the past few days but I know he would know something was wrong.  I should have called the police to report abuse - and will consider this today.

It's been almost a week - they have NOT  called to even talk to me about it!  I've called, e mail etc..  & this makes me feel worse - no once cares. WE are just a number to these places - SHEEP to be prodded & poked by people with NO COMPASSION.

Today I AM NOT going to spend the day crying in bed I'm calling my lawyer to get her opinion.  I will add the Breast Screening program of Ontario was very quick to help direct me, as well as the college of Dr.s & nurses & have someone who is helping me with seeing that this woman's actions are REPORTED.

TBH I am seriously struggling with being social at all at the moment - as if I was not already..  and then there's the results I now wait for.   I pray I don't have to take the test over (I certainly do not TRUST her  as a professional - because that is certainly NOT what I  witnessed OR experienced) &  now...
I'M FUCKING TERRIFIED to have another MAMMOGRAM!

With TLC & THC 
Georgia 

Please forgive my absence for a bit .

The Peyote cactus knows.. and if you ingest it- you might know too.
I have no desire to try peyote - first because it sits on my desk & I watch how long it takes to grow- it's so sweet my pet peyote,  I don't think a 'high' is worth seeing my little guy go (that & you have to eat many I believe for them to effect you properly).  Storm successfully grew several from seed and it's been really fun to watch these tiny little cactus grow many taking years before they become substantial - and then they get eaten?   Peyote also don't seem to taste that great- I'd have issues keeping them down  just from watching people eat them - it makes me nauseous but I love to paint them! I painted a little peyote on time-lapse -it's on my IG account.

Food for thought. They are illegal in the USA - with the exception of ceremonial purposes but they have been abused and are becoming increasingly difficult to find sadly,  this is not good for the PLANT. Peyote cactus are considered teachers.   Nature has all the best teachers.  It teaches me already -  'patience' just by painting it. You can't see it here but it glistens with metallic paint & it's peeking through the keyhole of the universe... in my mind.

TTC drives are not permitted to consume cannabis- or that's the direction they are going to try to go- GOOD luck with that. What anyone does in their off hours is no ones fucking business. WHAT ABOUT ALCOHOL? Do they- have they ever  told drivers  they are NOT to consume alcohol after hours? It's a cartoon in the making. I see a lawsuit in the making... not to mention the very slippery slope.  Reefer madness is still rampant in Canada thanks to this sort of bullshit.

Do you know what kills more humans than illegal drugs - VANITY.  
 Think about tit. ( hee hee note type 'o) before you get the boob job!!
I watched a few episodes on Netflix of Botched Up Bodies - I highly recommend it (IF you can stomach it)  It's hard not to feel sorry for these people, all they wanted to do was better themselves... God has you perfect the way you are!
Botched Vagina's - cause  everyone needs a pretty vagina! WTF? Countless boob jobs gone wrong, lip jobs, teeth implants, lipofat removed & it's an education of how much $$$ this industry is making, this show covers IT ALL & Education is key- everyone one of these people admits they did not research, fillers that need to come out years later because they move & are making people very sick  & on top of it they are embarrassed because they paid to have themselves 'destroyed'.  Vanity KILLS EVERY day.  It is a rude awakening many need to have... not me - no cosmetic surgery for me, I'll embrace every wrinkle, saggy boob (I got two) - I love me too much to do this to my body. Twitch & all!  It really  makes you understand how fortunate we are too - I feel  healthy & grateful after watching that show. 

 One Strange Rock on Netflix is fantastic. 

with TLC & THC
G

Drug Mule... the only kind I like is the furry kind above.
As long as drugs are illegal- drug mules will be used & it's an entirely new level of low... 
Clint Eastwood has just made a movie Drug Mule that I hope to watch soon... I also recommend:  ​https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RZlgZGMVFFs   Maria full of grace.
Prohibition kills countless ways & it discriminates no one. As long as someone is making a lot of money they will continue their ways- at any cost.  Puppies who had drugs surgically sewn into them by a "vet" - is just as serious as forcing a human & I do hope this 'vet' goes to jail , for the rest of his life.    Who is to blame?

Anyone who believes Drugs should be kept illegal - it's obviously not working so the sooner we end this bullshit the better - no!?  I no longer believe the majority of drugs (used for recreational or medical purposed)  should be kept 'illegal' ... it's human nature humans want to get HIGH - do you think there any coincidence in our Hello?     
Hi!

By keeping drugs illegal we keep these horrid practices happening, that is a fact.
Let's get our 'asses in gear'  -  educate, regulate - tax even! Anything to prevent the loss of life, especially for those innocent victims usually already  in unfortunate circumstances who have no choice but to be a part of  ILLEGAL Drug trafficking.  
A few possible suggestions for now...
Shop locally. Buy locally produced product if possible.   Grow your own.  Advocate.  Educate. Encourage legality.

Talk to your kids NOW so they have an awareness of where drugs come from & BE HONEST (the bellies of puppies sometimes) so they are able to truly understand at an early age the impact judgemental thinking & outdated laws have on each other because you know what's bound to happen... these 'kids' are going to grow up - and TRY drugs, go figure.
Let them BE Educated on all that matters...  frankly, I believe this issue matters more than most bullshit history we are 'still' taught...  time will tell.

Whats worse than drug trafficking?  Human trafficking - let's focus on that.


With TLC & THC
Georgia

Check out Me & Larry posing for a selfie! Hee hee...
Larry is OLD! He loves me & I love him, he would sit on my shoulder all day and smile if I let him, Ginger fell in love and was obviously delighted when they shared a bed- she actually rolled over & was submissive to him lol..    
Love  has NO boundaries.  

The stoned Ape is a  theory introduced by Terence McKenna which more or less attributes apes  advancement/speech to psilocybin use.  Terence believed that psilocybin mushrooms were the "evolutionary catalyst" from which language, projective imagination, the arts, religion, philosophy, science, and all of human culture sprang. McKenna's hypothesis concerning the influence of psylocibin mushrooms on human evolution, is known as "the 'stoned ape' theory."   It's a different perspective  - to which some disagree.   
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I find it interesting and agree with Terence - imagine being a chimp and ingesting  psilocybin mushrooms, cannabis - or any natural medicine that creates an altered state' - what on earth would they be thinking?  They would be thinking  "wow- check this out.."   and like many humans would want to share their highly stimulating experience with others - it's what we do. Still.  
Stuff to ponder while I paint.

I'm thrilled with my stoned Monkey ape...   he has inspire a few other stoned creatures.

JustinTrudeau was in Keswick the other day- At Sammy's Chicken!  I was sent a message as it was happening & I contemplated driving over for about 3 seconds... the twitch won.   ;(
Not that I'd know what to say - other than:  THANK you!  

If not for cannabis, psilocybin & other natural medicines that have been consumed since the beginning of time - where would we be? Probably still slinging poop at each other -  that's still happening too (how could we forget with Donald running the show) but in a few more years- we will not only be having better conversations but experiencing better health thanks to ALL the Stoned Apes who continue to educate.  

​I wish Donald would try psilocybin -I imagine his conversation would go like this:
"Oooooo ooooooo aaaaaaaaaa aaaaaaa... (nibble nibble) let's discuss climate change & what can be done.."
 
With TLC & THC
Georgia
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Tonight is the night to see the wolf BLOOD moon & I'm excited!  Anyone who claims we are not effected by the moon - is in denial.  Thinking about the plight of birds... the flight of birds who are effected by the moon & night sky  like my red breasted robin  & my hopes are birds will not disappear as soon as anticipated.  
Lets hope the planet won't disappear as soon as anticipated. 

Global warming, pipelines exploding, trees disappearing, fish dying, women still marching for rights not given, women marching to have missing women acknowledged', human sexual trafficking is at an all time high- Children are the worst victims and what do we 'see' constantly -  ignorant little pukes like this one:
https://www.cbc.ca/news/world/indigenous-march-student-mock-1.4985493?cmp=newsletter-news-digests-canada-and-world-morning in their  red hats covering their hate filled brains.   All this has me  thinking...  we are in trouble if this is the direction of our future.  

This past year has me convinced we should abolish  ALL MALE schools.  
Look at the pack mentality it creates,  A PACK of wild, nasty beasts who in the past year have been exposed for rape, abuse & violence -  of fellow students (each other)  & then all those around them. I can't imagine its helpful to young women- I don't have to STUDY or have research done to know the mentality & conversations being had in such environments ABOUT women in general - neither do you.   All boys schools only strengthens the "Boys will be boys mentality" - and these boys will be running the world one day?  It's frightening - especially when we see the evil that already resides. #metoo isn't going anywhere & #whosnext  & of course #timesup ! thankfully will help keep those who behave badly in check - or at least shine a new light - so we can all SEE the evil for what it is and CHANGE it.  Correct it.  Call it out!

I'll be looking for the beauty in the moon tonight as the same time I'll be praying for world peace...       I'm not alone, this I know.

With TLC & THC
G

'Blue Monday' tomorrow...  Grin & BEAR it!  It's just another day...

It's the year of the pig! Eat less bacon! - Done!
Eat less meat (done) - untill they can at least provide a life that does not involve cruelty & torture from birth - I know we can demand a change in this area, I believe most humans would rather NOT have animals suffer.  

Eat better anyway- geeze if there's one thing I've learned from overdosing on documentariews- WE are doing  this to OURSELVES with what we choose to consume on a daily bascis.- It's that simple people! - EAT better- more veges & nuts & fruit- it's that simple.  Our meat consumption in this house has gone from meat being with every meal - 100% to 40% - ...    look at that little pig with the Universe inside him.
After learning about American standards & practices in the meat industry & about the ag-gag rule...  & I honestly do not believe they care about Americans health, I prefer farm raised, free roaming happy animals who have had some quality of life.

Some people "hate documentaries", why remain in the dark, remain in denial - it's easier? Watch ROOT cause. We have been arguing about this for decades! I do not agree with root canals. Please watch,  the more you know- you can avoid a lot of hassle - or at least you have a starting point from which to - START.  It really does make too much sense... & then you have TRUMP  he's another breed of PIG all together.  Americans (& Canadians) have current serious obesity problems - what does he serve a bunch of athletes  at the oval office?...   JUNK FOOD.
Bravo DONALD you've done it again - what clear messages you send out.  

What does you Piggy Horoscope tell for the coming year?
Mine is all good but I already knew that...  I feel it. 
It feels like love, happiness & success.

With TLC & THC
​Georgia

Below.. sneak PeeP of my next canvas... wip.

Here we go again Canada.. while researching and checking out legality of psilocybin mushrooms -it's the same as cannabis WAS..  you can purchase all the items needed to grow "magic Mushrooms"  You can grow it - but that's it from then on it becomes illegal. Illegal for a substance never documented  responsible for a death & well documented for helping with additions like Alcohol &  smoking.  It's also been said it helps with depression (yes, I concur) and PTSD.. yes, I concur.  

Upset this is NOT already an option for out mentally struggling - before the option to decide for legal assisted susicide- something is really wrong with our state of mind that we allow this to happen. WE do- because we have been brainwashed to & lie to  again, still.
Not only that - unless you look it's hard to find information- that is changing! 
We have been tot he city & they have classes on growing you down psilocybin mushrooms! 
There  are several organizations now working tirelessly to educate the masses from Scientist  to doctors, patients, teachers - all because they believe  this medicine will EASE a great deal of suffering.  

It's all about money again & it is not right because it's the consumer who they expect to PAY in every way.  I'll be closely watching.  If others can go out, promote, encourage & teach the least I can do is admit to you my own experiences, if you have been following you will already know I let the mushrooms decide when I need to take them - that can be a coupe days in a row - and then again not for several weeks or even months.  I do not feel anything other than- more at peace - is how I think to describe it, loving, caring - at ease with all that is.  I also notice a decrease in twitching, I think because my entire body feels calmer. I would not recommend them recreationally - I just wouldn't...  I do not think they would become a problem recreationally, nor do I feel cannabis would be a problem for many.   For me not to open & honest - would only be contributing to the confusion &  ignorance, I refuse to be a part of the problem.

Prove me wrong do your research then go get some jars! I've not tried but I have several friends now tell me there's nothing it to! Know your shrooms! After being a part of the Mycological society  I would always advise - NEVER consume any mushroom you find in the wild UNLESS you are positive it is not harmful - even if it is growing out of cow poop.

With TLC & THC
G

A little fun with a curious little monkey next.
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I figure the timing is about right, Christmas depression setting in for about 25%of Canadians, holiday let down, bills arriving, pounds packed on being noticed & resolutions already being broken,  who's feeling festive  now - Fuck Off!   LOL

I still am feeling festive! I did not make any resolutions - well yes, I did- Less Alcohol (I've had NONE so far in 2019),  paint daily (done), focus on God & Good.  Keep the past where it belongs. So far so good. HAVE no FEAR for ALL that comes this year...  God's got my back & will get me thought it with flying colors! I know.
 
I'm off to a fucking great start- oh, & READ more! Last year I read a book a month this was one I forgot to tell you about: Swearing is Good for you.    Finally proof is in- so all who judge me for swearing can Fuck Off  (said lovingly), I swear  & now I understand why- I swear more- Pain. Apparently swearing helps pain- scientific proof shows it helps those suffering and allows for great pain threshold. It helps for social pain too.  I HIGHLY recommend this book for EVERY TEACHER - I had no idea about swearing and children & Tourette's- children need to be understood & NOT judged, children & adults who deal with this already are stigmatized by UN educated (myself included) ignorance of the subject & it only hurts them more. 

I have noticed increased swearing since brian surgery - or since fucking failed brain surgery...  I KNOW when I get really upset- it's all I can seem to yell - I can't even get words into my head between the twitching, anger & frustration- I can swear like a trooper/Judge Judy (also known for her choice wording) & YES, I have paid for it and probably still  do  - oh well, I don't (can't) give a fuck - I was raised with swearing - so it's common place, I swear when I'm happy just as often as I'm sad!  I can be fucking thrilled beyond words & fucking disgusted with how some behave...  I SEE the reaction in some others when I swear- sometimes I feel flustered (like when speaking to an older pal/nun friend) & I understand it's usually age related, those who love me seem to accept it and understand- our wording does not always reflect who we are. I am NOT a criminal or bad person for swearing - they are words.

As a matter of fact- this book was a rude awakening-  empowering even! When I learned about the difference between men & women I thought: here we fucking go again..
What bullshit - yes, it's o.k. for men to swear - but still looked down upon for women- women will be judged for EVERYTHING from swearing in public to & breast feeding -to which I say - Fuck that! Just one more reason to keep women down & I refuse to be a part of it, especially for all the young ladies to arrive after me. I BELIEVE if more young women were taught to speak up and say FUCK OFF!! ​Fewer women would become victims- I'm many ways. When I was younger I'd have strangers grope me, really - I've been grabbed in public (my boobs when just a kid in a store), ass grabbed (too many times to mention), rubbed up against on a bus/subway & more- if it happened NOW- I would turn without hesitation & at the top of my lungs YELL - GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME & KEEP your fucking hands to yourself - WHO the fuck do you think you are!!?
*I guarantee you the pervert/person would think twice the next time.  
Fuck that.
Teach your daughters to swear, teach them it's o.k.  to express themselves as men do & protect themselves with words & their voice.`

So here is a Fuck OFF to start the year.. painted lovingly.  If you want to judge me for swearing & think I am a lesser person for it- it speaks volumes about you first of all -- o.k., & please tell me this: have you expressed as much disgust/anger today towards  people who abuse children, people who fucking  use children as sexual objects with pornography  or worse...  these predators can appear so sweet & professional & never swear.   Ted Bundy was so charming, never swore- do you know what he attributes to his serial killing spree- pornography, simple soft core pornography at first, he escalated into violent porn. and then started killing (words from own mouth) & children as young as 8 are sharing naked images online encouraged by strangers who don't swear & don't give a fuck about your kids.

It's time we get our priorities straight - what more fucking important - words or actions?   Don't judge a book by it's cover or a person for swearing...  especially if you have no idea why they swear.

If you do choose to judge me & think I'm less classy, educated, feminine, less of a mother, person, artist - because I swear- FUCK off.  lol   You are not worthy of my time, art or thoughts - I've more important issues to focus on.   

With TLC & THC
G

​WARNING - next blog on psoriasis - some might not want to see. 

P.S. someone commented, Timothy Leary was 'not well liked - people think he was reckless' &  I agree- I also think he was egotistical- amazingly enough,  I thought  while watching the documentary- what did people see in him? Like him or not he did bring  an awareness & at a time when he was punished was at an ultimo high - for what- cannabis & mushrooms, plants.   

I sometimes take a break from paper and canvas & paint objects.. when I spied this bear bottle opener I bought it just so I could add my own touch to it & now it is a one of a kind -kinda. Hee hee.   It's still not complete as he needs to attached to my cottage wall - on my list of goals in 2019 - lol   It's good to have goals!  Dream, hopes, desires, wishes - whatever you choose to call them - it's good to have something to aspire to. 

I aspire to have a better vocabulary, spelling & grammar every time I sit here, when I see how bad it gets at times  (understandingly) it helps ME realize  'who knows why we behave as we do, do we even know when we are not feeling well?  There are days I'm amazed at myself and wonder - how have you made it though this day?  I remember the surgeon in a documentary who became ill and starting literally writing on walls in a hotel room DUE TO a bad knee implant he received  (WTF -FDA) - that is how he knew he was sick- he was behaving unlike his normal' self.    It reminds me to be more patient of others & myself.

Another day survived By the grace of God & my homeboy  ;D Jesus (who has the best sense of humour if you'll only listen) & a few other of you beings who just the sight of your face/email/#  brings me a spark to keep this candle lit.   :)  Someone commented (on my Trump MAGA cap painting) - this is about love #MakeAmericathinkagain and I was overwhelmed:  Exactly, She GOT ME!  lol   It IS about love and yes that's what I was hoping for. Thank you.  If there is one thing I have learned.. not everyone 'gets me'.  My homeboy gets me, my dogs get me... so I'm good.  

I also paint, constantly so I do not allow myself to get caught up in self pity or pain or other peoples problems. I think this is a good habit to have. Some days are easier than others... God has assured me I will grin & bear it & become a better, stronger, happier, wealthier  MamaBear at the end of the day because I did.  I don't mean 'Storm's Mamabear' - I mean MamaBear for children, dogs, women, men, animals, Cannabis & Canada! Whom ever my attention is drawn to (I am provided direction no doubts) it's my job on this planet even if it's just one person who gets it.   While painting I KNEW 'some will never get it...'   that's not my journey to worry about.

I also painted a little bird -now I have a robin tealight holder - just what I always wanted! 
Personalize something, try a new canvas! I was beyond thrilled on new Years Eve when our son surprised us by arriving at 11:00 p.m with no alcohol in him,  home to celebrate bringing in the new year with whom he loves the most  & take his dog9s) for a walk... It was a secret proud moment in my mind I cannot lie. I painted the bear while chatted , so it looks "ferocious" but it too was painted with pots of love on a wonderful January the 1st. 

With TLC & THC
Georgia
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Happy First day of 2019!!
I hope you are not hung over, if so - I hope it was worth it. 
I painted my first calendar last year, the focus being strange mushrooms! 
One of the best introductions in this lifetime has been to mushrooms- in the wild - this mushroom is called eyelash mushroom & I found one a few years back- more vibrant than this one- I was hooked on these bright red eyelashes looking up at me.​ a.k.a:
 Scutellinia scutellata 
I also discovered there are such things as purple snails - how beautiful is this earth?

I'm grateful for the introduction to my plate as I learned  how many edible mushrooms there are  & to my medicine cabinet  from everything to Lions mane for the brain, turkey tail tea, Chaga coffee for better health & psilocybin  for mental health.
All this mushroom talk has made me hungry- Shiitake in my omelette.
Start the new year off right! Drink your chaga- eat your mushrooms!

With TLC & THC
Georgia

Next...   Fantasia inspired - my plans for this year depicted in paint.    ;)