I miss him like I've never known, we all do... Daisy the most. I've gone through stages, one week I could not face-time, I'd start to cry. Storm looked especially tired a few weeks back. & it's heart breaking not to see him for so long.. no hugs.
I woke like a BEAR the other day, roaring about something or other.. could'nt get the fire started, yelling at Norm for the raccons keeping me up, grumpy with the girls (gasp), Maries mom passed, Carms got extra work like crazy looking after her parents, wondering about my own, could'nt get paint, no canvas & then... what seemed to be the final straw: The Canoe radio 100.9FM DJ made a wise crack about cannabis not being "an esential serivce" & I LOST IT. Yes, you know it... that DJ had a quick, BLUNT education on CANNABIS BEING a fucking esential service via text - several as a matter of fact.
Cannabis for those who forget is a MEDICINE FOR MANY.
We all know why the L.C.B.O is open. ADDICTION. Alcoholics needing a fix - they won't dare close it- there would be riots. Cannabis he said was more of a 'comfort thing' in his mind. Arrrrrgh.. & really, not a very intelligent, 'current' remark to make. I have no doubts MANY in this community use cannabis. It was simply judgemental, especially in an older community that could benifit from cannabis insteads of the chemical cocktails that far too many are on. Anyhow, I love Canoe (I listen all day, everyday) & ALL that I hear on the air, sound lovely so, I apologized for my 'abruptness' but not the remarks. Come meet me I invited, see my twitich get a bit calmer with cannabis, SEE my hands and feet and KNOW it's all I use for pain- NO killer opiates here. Phhhbt.
NOT essential!? Don't tell me that, when I know Storms working day & night!!
I can't visit, cook for him.. his dad can't drive down to pop in for a beer.. Arrrgh.
He's not eating properly. We miss him, he misses us & phone calls are not the same, sometimes he just bugs me & I hang up. lol He's busy, frustraited, lonely, tired and others days he's better than fine, keeping busy (like us) and moving FORWARD. Pandemic or no... Time's not going to stand still.
I decided to paint my favorite photo taken at one of the grows he manages. It MADE ME happy spending the day with Storm (in only on canvas) - it worked! I was/am in a great mood! Giggling thinking of the many wonderful memories we have. The 3 of us. I'll hang it right by my desk. Can you see my pride in the painting? hee hee The 'white' seems harsh - but it was, BRIGHT with grow lights- LOTS. There are several guys ALL working very hard (with Storm) to provide medicine & recreational relief. With less help due to the pandemic they are working OVERtime and should be treated like others - respectfully - as all esential employees so the rest of us can stay home. SERIOUSLY, thank your growers.
Thank you guys!! I love you all (you know who you are) and appreciate ALL you do... all the time.
Grocery clerks, gas station attendants, Radio Dj's, Garbage truck drivers - ALL keeping US, safe at home - while they MUST work. Amen. Thank YOU!
Thank God for the internet... makes you feel more for all those moms during war time and only letters for communication. If this pandemic doesnt have you appreciating almost EVERYTHING MORE - well.. I don't know what would. 17,000 deaths in Ontario, alone.
I had no idea, I've been trying to distract myself.
Depression & anxiety on the increase... the next pandemic.
With TLC & THC