I'm 53 and proud to be here.   I've noticed something along the years - a trend if you will... I call it  Bipolar Bullshit.   FIRST - there is no 'test' which can prove someone is bipolar or  not. It is based on 'Opinions',  some professional - most not.  I am sure there are people who suffer from great degrees of mood swings and it can be terrible - especially when younger people are confused & feel like ending their lives.  This is about relationships, mostly between men and women.  I want to help young women especially with this subject.  *warning- this blog is 'full of fucks.

A friend shared her 'observation' I still remember our conversation- it hit home then and does even more now  "the second they get tired of you - you become "crazy", everything you do- they blame you, tell all your friends -she's losing it, she's going crazy..'  that was over a decade ago - she eventually had her marriage demise and was told "you're crazy.."  Go figure.   The new term I hear often is "she's Bipolar".  I was actually in a conversation with a group of men & they joked when one said he was 'struggling' with his new wife (#3 ) -"I think she's bipolar"  they all laugh.. apparently the last 2 wives were also bipolar. I look at this tall, white haired handsome gentleman as he says this, I've seen his flirting ways and smooth charms already (you know the type) - and think to myself - yeah sure, I bet they were all bipolar.. asshole.  All the men are high paid, very professional, smart, educated, successful...  I turn to my friend who was one of them when he commented later - again - about her being bi-polar (apparently his ex wife was also Bipolar) and said  "Give me a Fucking break! ( I must have appeared Bipolar to him a this point - lol) Are you kidding me?!!   There is no 'test' to prove someone is Bipolar but it does not take long to see someone is an asshole."  He looked at me - speechless.  Good. 

Ladies - of all ages PAY attention cause it's not fucking funny.  It's never them.  I know myself after my brain surgery- every time Norm and I would argue about something he did, which I disagree with - it would turn around to be about me and my brain and   "she's crazy.. just ignore her."  It was absolutely  one of the factors in the demise of our marriage. Bipolar- bullshit..  If this is crazy- fine.. Call me the fucking QUEEN - because I refuse to be labeled for someone elses behaviour and I will not sit passively while you behave badly. 

Pay attention- are you listening? It starts slowly.. the signs are there and as soon as you see them- get the fuck out.   It's never the adulterer - who promises time an time again - it won't happen again.  Never the gambler, alcoholic.. who blames his partner for all that goes wrong in is life. Never the macho man who is in debt but refuses to admit it.  Children are growing up watching- young sons & daughters - paying attention to these ' harmful words' if not worse.

How many times does a husband leave his wife for a younger woman? 
This is the best 'revenge' out there if you ask me. First of all if he leaves you - Give thanks - he's spared you years of bullshit. You don't need someone in your life who does NOT love you. Younger women now know exactly what they are doing - an old fool and his money will soon be parted just as easy as parting legs.  Led by their penis, they get what they deserve. What 20 year old wants a 6o year old?  Seriously.  For their $$$ yes. That's about it & very soon after - guaranteed-  she will fuck around on him with a much younger man- its a tale as old as time. BUT when he wants to get rid of his OLD wife- he easily states to his lawyer - 'she is bipolar' - and it's not  funny because high paid lawyers will destroy a woman- they know nothing about - for money. In many cases she DID give her life for decades, raised his kids, kept his home & sucked..    to be tosses aside like trash.  Children will be lost in legal battles as well as much else, confidence lost because of years of being blamed and accused of being bipolar- just because you don't agree with your spouse.   Bipolar has become and 'excuse' to keep people down and it's mostly women.  How often do you hear a woman say  "he's bipolar?"

Oh yes, I can appear Bipolar' call it what you want...  I call it being sick of bullshit and refusing to be walked over. Yes, I am capable of yelling, throwing etc..  Bipolar? Hardly.
Pay attention to WHO is calling you what?   Chances there is more to it that what we SEE. 
Chances are it's just another excuse for others to blame for their poor behaviour - it's always easier to blame someone than admit your an asshole.  It's a trend- where will it go? Will it become so when a husband accuses his wife of being bipolar- he will be able to have her committed?  Sound far fetched?  The trend looks frightening the direction it's going.
DO NOT let ANYONE lable you anything you are not!  Bipolar? Or just extremely pissed off?
Happy and sad - sure- that's life!  Bipolar never goes with 'she's so happy - I divorced her' it's always the negative spin.

IF you think you are bipolar- o.k., what can I say.  Please be careful with medications you in your body- note: the description of bipolar blames the environment.  
IF you are in a bad relationship - it is a negative environment.  GET OUT.  
Do you think it's going to get better? Is he lying? Cheating? Drinking? What's next?
Think it will change?
Argue all you want- I guarantee he's thinking - she's a bitch- she's bipolar... and sooner or later he will say it.

Bipolar this.

With LOVE
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* FYI- we talk about my cartoons in this house before 'you all' see them. This one has been on my chalk board for almost 6 months - it's a difficult subject if you SERIOUSLY look into it. Norm & Storm both 'get where I am coming from' believe it or not ;)  and the polar bears do not represent 'US/them', *ALL men call the wives crazy when they are upset & (NOT ALL mean it) with them sooner or later..  BUT - it can become very abusive quickly & easily and for many women it has. I thank God  It's "only " about 2 people who have grown apart here (25 years - it happens)  & still argue, still and will always care for each other. 
There is a difference.   I have had this conversation for years in this blog & with ALL of my male friends at one point over the years. - I'm known of speaking my mind and not ashamed of it.   Too few never speak up and the pain continues. 

This 'Bi polar' thing is not correct, women are already struggling more than the average man & are taking medication at alarming rates- how do you think this is effecting families??? The community.. the world?
xox
* o.k. a tiny percentage of men will never call your wives 'crazy' - God bless you and thank you & I sent you a virtual hug!  & kiss - on the cheek. ;)  

Mostly.
​The Internal debate continues.
Heart has to behave.. or it gets into trouble. 
I tell it:  Shhhhhhh.
If it is meant to be - it will be. 

Tomorrow one of the 'Kings of Cannabis.. '
My Leo - Lions got me thinking about those who are in the industry and 'are kings' at what they do.    I know a few and I think I'll share them with you. 
​Then I'm gonna find some queens too.

With Love
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                              "For to be free is not merely to cast off one's chains,
                                              but to live in a way that respects
                                            and enhances the freedom of others" 
                                                                                                                  - Nelson Mandela -

I want to be clear on a topic that's on my mind.  
Do you know how many women are sexually abused? In Canada & the USA? 
I've been researching for some editorial cartoons because it is a topic I'm a passionate about..  other women.  Once you start to research & read about it seriously as a woman, IF you don't get a little nervous - you're not reading enough.  Add the mentality of people/men like Trump .. 'Pussy grabbing president' is it any wonder abuse towards women is on the rise?

I think women are beautiful - I stare at nude women to draw them like LIFE drawing classes - this is next best, to achieve proper portions & shape - nudes are the perfect  I stare at nude men also but usually male models online wear a speedos (lol I'd rather nothing), not that it matters - you seen one you seen em all.  ;)   I often see semi nude photos on Instagram- and many can be classy- getting the point across - yet others - I gasp- 'what the heck are you thinking?  An attractive woman - suddenly posts a photo of herself with her crotch  facing the camera, no skill, no art, no professional backdrop - just a cheap shot, calling attention to between her legs & not much more.  I think  'She's old enough to know better'.  Is there an age for common sense?  I Keep looking  & soon you notice its a trend & with  younger & younger.  Older women- is this what we teach our younger sisters? Daughters? Granddaughters?  Where does this lead?  You tell me.  
Will she be an internet sensation- perhaps, become famous and make millions?  
Probably not.  More likely she will become a statistic:

• 1 in 5 women and 1 in 71 men in the United States has been raped in their lifetime.
• 1 in 15 children are exposed to intimate partner violence each year, and 90% of these children are eyewitnesses to this violence
• 19.3 million women and 5.1 million men in the United States have been stalked in their lifetime.

​Women should never be ashamed of their bodies but  this is not going in a good direction for women in general.  It is  heart breaking when you research these topics-  to post yourself so freely, perhaps You might understand the ramifications - are you thinking long term- are you wondering who is seeing your account, following?  Male & female?
Friend or Stranger.  Many rapists are known by their victims.

I could care less  if you're an older woman who apparently knows better - YOU are planting the seed for younger women. Will you be held accountable if  she is raped -  she looked up to you? No & chances are neither will her rapist-  Courts will say "dismiss the charges -she was posting her shots of her breasts & vagina all over Instagram!"
Lawyers will profess with much greater skill than many of the photographs that taken.  
It's facts, statistics, world events.   READ. Research.

​Why should I care...  Not my monkeys, not my circus.
Knowing I had the power and did not, chose not  - is a waste of my gift & ability to share it as well...   All who have the power of the internet at their fingertips should use it for some good occasionally.

Boobs & bongs- Please.  No one has to lecture me on 'recreations or medicinal', I am the first person who will say many people who think they are recreational are using it to self MEDICATE, perhaps PTSD in early childhood.. we all have stories.  For medical purposes  -when I see a 'medical dispensaries' page with naked women on it - I instantly pass.
Sex sells - what?  Am I looking of sex or quality medicine & if sex is what companies HAVE to resort to - the product can't be all that great or it would speak for itself.  
Are you purchasing cannabis or a mental image of a woman?  It's your  $$$. 

'You who do not have children'  & who use cannabis 'recreationally'  DO NOT understand the battle it has been.  Due to the stigma- boobs and bongs all over the internet,  for decades  'cannabis porn'- that is what it is- is a nightmare for patients seeking serious medical assistance with cannabis, try & tell a family member - 'yes this is the medicine my  14 year old son is on.'  Or Dr.s for that matter.... because they can't believe it could be medicine when they see nothing but porn associated with it. 

There are many legitimate patients who NEED cannabis to function- I am one of them... IT is our medicine and I don't want/need it associated with a vagina thanks. 
It is un professional & all ABOUT sex and nothing else- don't be fooled & it's always women on these sites - you don't see men with bongs in their crotch. Who do you think is making the most money? The women?  Phhhhbt.
Women who are raped every minute- some left behind dumpsters, some watch their rapist walk FREE like Mr. Cosby... that is the price women pay.  What message are you sending out?

If a woman is raped it is NEVER her fault- it is a man out of control - it might start with a stalker who has been watching these images and thinking they are for them- heck  I have people who THINK my blog is about them-  phhhhhbt.. shallow vanity.

There are many children seriously ill who could benefit from cannabis - they don't need the negative stigma attached and every time you post a shot you are encouraging the stigma - most PEOPLE still believe .  

This is what bothers me most.. and then these women post/comment that others are  judging or body shaming - because we do NOT want to encourage violence towards women. Call it what ever you want- for the record- for any attempting to say all who protest soft cannabis porn are body shaming or  judging - are judging.    
​WE ALL judge.  
Show me someone who thinks they don't.

I think women are beautiful & powerful should be proud, dress how they want, walk proud as daughter of God walk like they are stardust! WE ARE  - EVERYONE OF US!!!
Part of the UNIVERSE!  
One that deserves as much love and respect as the other half of society. 
Head held high & save that CROTCH for a very special guy (or girl).  
Abuse, sex trafficking, rape, stalking of women is on the increase as well as 'sext shaming' and its' getting younger and younger... online predators are at an all time high.  
Wonder why? Ask yourself - what are you posting?
WHAT message are you sharing with the universe?

Do you have a daughter?  Granddaughter? Would you want them posting photos like this? 
Not me-, I'd much rather a young woman post her talents, use her brains or imagination or creativity.. It will probably in the long run get her much further & safer.

With Love
​G

I did get to think calmly a great deal when I was away. 
Reflect as I watched the reflections of the sky, surfers, swimmers  & few birds in the ocean.

I give up on  humanity making sense.
I give up on trying to please others... I've spent my life  trying to please others.
Enough.  I will do what ever the F*&k I want and draw as I please - to please myself first.

I found myself staring at Facebook not wanting to paint..
I then thought of how I could stare at the ocean the same and achieve peace.
I then deleted FaceBook.  
It actually LET me.

I'm having difficulty with social media, for every few real there are a thousand FAKE.
Women & men constantly degrading themselves, some photos I see on IG - I think - "Really? What do you expect when someone treats you like a piece of  meat' when you behave like one?   To  me it shows lack of class, morals and IMAGINATION. 
Showing your pussy for this world to see - why would anyone  want a serious relationship with someone they found showing their vagina to the universe?  It's no longer special.
YOU are not serious & should not be taken seriously.

If all someone is worried about is a blowjob or a f*ck - - it is shallow to the max & you will get what you pay for.  If you are a young woman out there - Please think about what you are posting..   'that crotch shot  for your honey'- is also for all the world to see. Men who will look at you & form an opinion -  trust me -some might think it's hot  at first and then treat you like trash after a while - what do you expect?  
It happens a million times over, every day.  
Is all you have to contribute a photo of you boobs, ass or vagina to this universe?
Come On - Get creative... be more.  
Shallow applies to men and women.  
Actually... did you know MORE MEN post photos of themselves than women on Instagram.. Hmmmmmmmmmm..    Conclusion?

I'm not going to 'follow people just to follow' -  I'd much rather lead and try to do this by example.  ​

No wonder the world is messed up - look at the worlds 'leading examples' & what's discussed most on Social Media.   No wonder many are losing faith in humanity. 

I felt awakened returning from California - for which I am truly grateful.
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Several topics on my mind- time to get off of FaceBook and focus.
Draw & paint with purpose or what's the point?

I still give up..   not on myself.   Not on God. 
​
Some will not like my new material others will resinate with it and enjoy it,
I have no doubts.  
​I am not here to please.  
I'm here to serve.

Tomorrow:  Sow the seeds.. an  American influence cannabis art work.
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With Love
g