What does it all mean?
Bears & Caves... For years I've been dreaming about bears, ask my closest friends or mom - for a while I thought I'd be attacked by a bear, I do live in Canada - and it is a possibility. Then slowly I started to paint a bear.. soon I could not get Bear off my mind, what started as a book mark has advanced to bears frolicking in the Garden of Love... and NOW I'm off to California.. What's on the flag?
A Big Brown Bear.
I've also dreamt of California, not Southern but the North, lol - I laugh because I've never been and could not distinguish one end from the other but my dreams have bear hugging happening in the North in the mountains! Who knows what this means. Are there Mountains in the North?
Recently I'm also seeing caves in France, I've been seeing caves for a few months and thought they were in the USA but again I just cant help feel it's France.
It's not exactly dreaming.. it's visions while I sleep. No rhyme or reason. No story to tell.
Images vibrant, colorful, PEACEFUL and leave me feeling loved. Of course I desire to paint them the next day. No wonder I like these dreams & can't remember the last time I had a nightmare. My nightmare days are over.
Waking up feeling loved, peaceful, rested (usually on only a few hours a night) and a smile slowly creeps across my face. Bring on my Bears.
Am I DREAMING... You tell me?
Or was it God showing the way all along... Adventure awaits!
I've just not been paying so much attention - hee hee hee
After all, I am going to California. Whats on the flag?
Bear Hugged in a cave in France? Bring it on!
I'm ashamed I though I'd be eaten by a bear - As If (not enough meat on me)
God has bigger plans for me than bear munchies.
I can't wait!
What are you dreaming about?
Are you paying attention?
Stop wasting time & surrender- you will be amazed at the miracles that await.
I've done my own version of the California Flag.. I'll display it soon.
I want to share about a book, a positive, spiritual, uplifting book & I love it.
It's to encourage goodness & favour & remind us of Gods love and it's a 31 day thing..
I'm almost done. I purchased it before I knew of California.
I finish it on the day I leave for California. wow.. o.k.
Such a grin on my face. God has sense of humour.
I read in it yesterday: Pray bold prayers and expect big and believe big.
Well! All I could say to this was: Done.
I can't think of any bigger. It asked... what's you hearts deepest desire?
What is your hearts deepest desire?
It's coming. God promised.
Pssssssst.. he promised us all by the way.
You just have to believe & work at it.
When we focus on our gratitude,
the tide of disappointment goes out
and the tide of love rushes in.
- Kristin Armstrong -
Looking forward to seeing the tide!
So close now Bear can smell the salt air.
Cannabis too is always present, while awake and dreaming. No kidding.
What's your spirit animal? lol I took a test on line- what was my result?
It's been quite a while since I've been on an adventure.
My mind racing with several issues as I try to make sure I'm all organized.
Poppy is ready - I imagine. Am I? Of course.
The universe still conspires & it continues to all fall into place..
I'll start to stress over something & think - there is no point.
What's the worse that can happen? Pelicans will scoop up my sketch book?
Joshua Boulet is in Oakland California & assures me he will work his way to OC so he and I can draw on the beach! This has been on my 'bucket/To Do list - ever since Josh & I became friends long ago at the first EXPO, I still remember that first E mail I sent him.
He has had the pleasure of drawing the ocean several times over.
Will this trip get any better?
Whatever 'problem' that trotted crossed my mind have again looked after themselves..
Trusting in God has it's rewards. Friends with good intentions, positive wishes & prayers help too. I've no doubts it's why I'm on my way.
Bears are on my desk as I post.. Broadway & Bear exploring an unknown area of the garden. Broadway as Cheeky as ever.. I think I might have painted a pose similar - but I just DO them, they arise from my soul & passion and pose which ever way they choose. I don't look at the others I've already painted - they are in a binder. 'The Book Of Bears.'
As I glance at it a smile slowly crosses my face, it can't be helped this furry, love expressing compulsion. I'm feverish to get back at them on the thunderous wet, grey morning.
A Jerry Garcia idea... Inspired by some PINS Stephen Boehme PIN'd.. I can't wait to see what he is doing. My rendition is going to be cute!
This vacation planning takes a lot out of you... lol
I've had to do very little except confirm our tickets.
I've got 'black boards' cuts to size - 14 & several smaller & blank cards of course!
A painting a day while I'm away! A card for someone to warm up my heart & hands each morning! Then Off to the ocean for our morning stroll.
Mostly... I shall go where my sails take me!
On my 'ToDo' list I added today:
Why Not!? I literally dream about the caves in France. Just like I use to dream about bears, I know I'm going to see them one day in the near future.
Do you still dream or No? Will you stay or Will you Go?
If your going to dream DREAM - DREAM!
Imagine - what could God provide me in my perfect world.
I Imagine & it's going to be better than I imagine. I know.
Back to Broadway on my mind & my canvas.
I can't stop thinking.. thank God, Since I'm breathing- the two go well hand in hand.
I've come to a realization the past week which has me bow my head.. in prayer.
A year ago.. a year ago I had a few events happen that changed my life and I never shared with anyone, well- that is not completely true, there are a couple of people who know.. Storm of course is one person - I shared (matter of fact) 'I'm going to take a trip, go on an adventure (a year ago) God let me know.
I'd rather not share when or how.. it's personal.
I was impatient and thought 'I was going right away..' turns out it took year. Not long at all really - but it can feel like an eternity. Then I thought I'd be going someplace else.. invited by someone else. What trickery God.. you keep me on my toes.
I did know I was going to see cactus! They have cactus in California - I'm sure.
Who am I? To think I have any control over any thing?
I do have control of my choices' God puts before me & promised a year ago- if you put it before me I will go. I will take the LEAP of faith.
This past few years in particular have been a personal struggle like no other, failed surgery, marital changes, relationship changes in general and acceptance life is 'different as am I, not worse - different. The past year I was forced to think about things I've not thought about & a few people I need to think about differently for my own PEACE of mind & health.
When emotions I forgot existed - surfaced - I became confused.
I still am.
What do you do when you believe God does have a plan? A specific person in mind?
When your constantly reminded of others, drawn to them - pushed at them.
Nothing. There is nothing I can do anymore.
My feelings are clear.
I am proud of that most lately, I am not afraid to the let others I love/like know it.
Sometimes I'm humiliated when I realize: Perhaps- others don't feel as we do. lol Perhaps?
This is where I struggle with God, 'then why bring them into my life like you did?'
Not everyone loves us. Will I stop loving them.. never.
I love people now who I don't feel love me too much. It's o.k.
What matters is what I am putting out into the world. Love & good wishes.
God loves me (Whew) & will continue to bless me with those who will... it might take 'about a year. lol
There is nothing you can do other than let those we love know it.
The rest is up to them.
Will people respond to love or will they ignore?
Will it be a choice they forget or regret?
I don't know anymore.. I don't want any regrets.
I'm going to listen to God.
I'll try when God introduces me to others to Give thanks for everyone and show them love.
Does God put people in your life for you? Or them?
I am reminded of a quote, how every day nothing seems to change but when we look back- everything has changed.
New bears on my desk- it's going to be a great day.
P.S. Since I'm BEARing all.. Cactus & Caves!! I was promised.
I don't think the caves are here.. I think I was thinking too small..
God is going to show me the caves in Paris!! Wait & see.
I have no doubts!!!
"So, I love you because the entire universe conspired to help me find you."
― Paulo Coehlo
Just before... the throes of passion, Bears begin with the Kiss.
Georgia... On My Mind.