How cold is it?  -24 yesterday - NOT including the windchill!
​Brrr & more on the way this weekend. 
Am I cold - NO!  First, I am the firemaster! lol  
I get up every morning & get the fire going at 5.  
My job - Norm does the chopping & stacking - I keep it going.  Team work.  
Norms task became much easier at Christmas - our son who remarked he was concerned about me keeping warm -  & he made sure I'm not.  Storm bought his dad a wood splitter  making the job much easier & faster.  Norms was thrilled...  chop wood -  carry water! 

I was shocked when I opened my gift to find a Canada Goose parka! Expedition version - lots of pockets for sketchbooks,  camera, cell phone, bank card,  dog treats, peanuts & more for when I go on an expedition on our property,  I can now explore in the winter!!
It's much easier to see in the woods & see me in my bright RED parka.
  
Storm knows I LOVE to feed the birds & want to walk the dogs. My last coat - forget it..
Too cold, I was house bound. No more!  Yesterday in -24 I took a stroll with Daisy (the others find it too cold)  and we loved every moment.  Winter is beautiful - especially on a sunny day. I was cold - well my hands were- I could only take off my mitt (to take photos) for a few seconds before they became painful.  
With Trigemenial neuralgia - I also have intense face pain in wind and cold,  I could'nt believe it - I didn't feel a thing other than comfortable, warm & happy.
I love my son... my son loves me.  ;)  
Truly the greatest feeling to have on this planet. To be loved.

I posted on IG and instantly had someone start posting negative comments about my parka someone I've know for years & have always tried to friend, acknowledge, encourage & try to reach out to... NEVER once has this person (in YEARS)  commented  anything positive on my art or anything. I don't think she's even 'Liked' anything. Yet within seconds, 5 comments on my coat and how terrible it was.  "Ironic, I was for wearing it to feed the birds..."  FUCK that!  

I messaged her right away and told her to "Fuck off."   Don't USE me for your sounding board.   She was MISERABLE & the comments were nasty, sure enough when I called her on this behaviour her excuse - "My cat died..."  & she "was'nt getting any compassion from anyone"  on social media on her post -  WOW.  Go figure. 
So, that was exactly what hapened - she was in a shit mood and decided to VENT on my page. FUCK that.   There is a delete button for a reason.
USE it. Don't allow it... would they behave this way in person?
Probably not.  Had she wanted to have a conversation & sent me  a private message - expressing her 'displeasure,  yes.. I might have reacted differently but still would have told her to fuck off & go focus on something that is killing humans.  I also asked if she commented on everyones page she see's with a Canada Goose parka - nope, I was just the lucky 'friend'  she decided to take her frustrations out on.    Unfriend. 

Fuck off.  Open your eyes & mind-  the fucking president of the USA is locking kids in cages, blowing people up, people are dying at the border, gun violence is out of control - the word "war" is mentioned far too often these current days BUT you're going to call me out on my coat - because YOU are unhappy?  
FUCK OFF.  

I love my coat - I love my son more for the thought of wanting to keep his mom warm in this extremely cold Canadian weather. Tomorrow they have a weather warning again...
I'm not worried.
I know I'll be warm with the coat I'm wearing & the LOVE that inspired it. 

Next -  'Gods Treasures box! It took me a week to complete this last painting project.
I can't wait to fill it with treasures from God.  D
A few photo of Doggo & I's adventure below .. I like the last photo & her idea.. lol

​with TLC & THC

 I lovingly refer to  (& I think he'd love this): 'Vincent VanGogh 2019'  hee hee.
I paint freestyle - by looking - to look is to get lost in Vincent Van Gogh, pure pleasure.  Some of you will think I've lost my mind - like Norm who recognized 'Starry Night but not the  Skeleton smoking  as both of Vincent's paintings.

Doing what he loved yet distracted, tired, sick, lonely, overwhelmed - sound familiar- Depression.  Apparently had his  Mental health issues  been addressed he would have been very successful & might've seen more than one painting sold. Addressed & not shunned - it can go two ways from what I understand - the 'not so nice way' is more people taking their own lives because they are taking medications that do not work - Depression is not a racist nor does it care about how much money you have.  If we keep shaming, an article I read stated people will just start to hide it better... until they show up at Sunday Mass with a grenade for  the cash basket. 

When we shame mental illness we are applying the same rules as prohibition - what a failure it has been.  If your face twitched 24/7 you would think about this stuff too. God's not playing anymore - pay attention ;)  "You are only as sick as your secrets" - a remark  I think  I heard on a Pod Cast- it must have been my favourite 'Hidden Brain',  every episode interesting.  Growing up 'My Moods'  were shamed, often...  a big secret, I get it - NOW- this is how some handle events but it's not healthy imo - the sooner we address unpleasant events & feelings  the sooner we can try to heal & move on, my mom had a terrible event happen to her at a fairly young age & was understandably depressed at the time - but now  many parent's  are both paying more attention to social media then their children.
The kids won't be pleased when they get older.
It's a fact - try to prove me wrong.

How many  generations started the same way as Vincent, myself, my mom was one of 6 kids & I never met any grandpa...  dealing with mental illness decades later, generations later.  Babies having babies, young parents having too many, too soon with obligations thrown at them pretty quickly - I've blogged when we were first married how we stole a case of baby food to get by...  By the Grace of God - it's why I was more than happy to accept donations  to food bank at Halloween. Yes, I speak from experience - marriage is difficult enough - wait to have your babies -be ready to welcome them with love.  
Instagram, face book, Selfies, Social media, socializing & recreational drugs YIKES! 
    MORE & MORE  babies are ending up  with a wire monkey mom.  & or dad.

Please, Wake the fuck up. Babies do not ask to be born - we humans are given the choice to procreate - carelessly - if we desire.  

People use to often remark when Storm was little:
"Let him cry!"  or ...     " You never put him down... "                      Amen. 
Please put down your phones & pick up your babies.
​
With TLC & THC
​Georgia

Give me space!   When upset, or frustrated... I often think: I can't paint - I don't feel like painting..   but that is bullshit - I always enjoy painting, it just takes some personal 'ass kicking' to get me past it.  Luckily, someone recently suggested: How about a space monkey & mushrooms!  Looking for cute chimps was the first step in the right direction- do it- try.. look at cute chimps and then you'll find your thoughts of your breast in a vice dissipate .. lol perhaps not YOUR thoughts - but it worked for me.

Soon your imagination kicks in too for some fun & before you know it - 6 hours later this cute frigging space chimp is looking at this alien mushroom and I'm smiling.  The problem is  I painted this chimp for someone else - this mushroom monkey is already spoken for, many of my gifts turn out to be some of my favourites - painted with love & it shows.  The next day dealing with calls to discuss the miasma of a mammogram I decided I wanted my own space chimp.. you'll see him next  & then - that chimp inspired a canvas!  Which I am terribly excited about  - see ?  No time for re-living events with bitchy boob technicians when  surrounded by space chimps on a mission!     

I have shared my experience on social media especially after the owner expressed her apologies for "my perception" of  a bad experience - different from what the Technician has expressed - as if I thought she would admit to being a cunt.  Fuck that - don't  even try to PROJECT your 'perception' bullshit on me.

I know, God knows & that BITCH knows what she did to me & I am o.k. with that.
I learned this woman is also ruining the simple what should be joyful ultrasound experience for first time parents - why???  & NEVER lets anyone else in the room: NOW, I UNDERSTAND WHY.  She is miserable & takes it out on the strangers - patients she works with but one day she will piss off some new expectant mom & DAD - or have someone in the  room that won't 'just' YELL BACK at the bitch. * I am NOT an advocate for physical violence I believe in us all creating our own karma - this woman if she keeps at this one day her breast will develop  a lump and she will be treated with very little compassion.  OR she MIGHT be treated with LOTS of compassion & then UNDERSTAND what a complete CUNT she is being. Let's hope for that!

I have sent email etc.. the thought of a young mom experiencing what I did or any of my friends - around my age (all getting breast screening exams) PLEASE don't do here. 
And about my results ... No one seems to give a fuck but me.
I've not heard anything about my breast.    

Do I think she needs to lose her job - Yes, if she can't recognize a problem.
IF she takes anger managment or some course to make her aware  (because clearly she is NOT) that she is dealing with often sick, frightened & VULNERABLE patients  & she IMPROVES   ... maybe.   As it stands currently - no one admitting to any wrong doing,
I do  hope the business closes.   IF they keep it up - it will be unavoidable.
* I would like to add the girls/women at reception were lovely, professional & the looks of helplessness of their faces  (something I have the 'preception' they have experience too often from unhappy patients/clients) when I went out to that counter - I knew  I'd be wasting my time & taking out my anger on them -  I left.  

PLEASE AVOID  KESWICK Advance imaging - please warn others. 
WHY chance it?  OR DO go there- I would suggest YOU demand someone go into the appointment & why.  & if you could not do this- I know I often go to appointments alone.. IF you can - record the appointment on your phone - Had I had 'just the audio' of my visit - I know it would  convince people of the abuse & a lawyer & judge.

Just in case below are a few more other peoples "perceptions' - don't say you were not warned:

More monkeys up next & hopefully no more mammogram memories..  
I have bigger things than my boobs to focus on! hee hee   
I thought of the name for my card company!!!
Website being designed... IG page being set up - wait until you see my 'WEED' line! 

with TLC & THC
​Georgia
  

The lord works in mysterious ways - he keeps me laughing in between crying.
I AM continually reminded how I have been helped many times over- I realized a few things yesterday after a Ray of sunshine on what started a grey morning! 
I learned over the years I have met some incredible lawyers  & EVERY time they have helped me & have never charged me.  Once a police officer even went to court to fight for me & won.  I have been protected my whole life.  Thank you Lord.

They all have told me they know/knew I was/am telling the truth and helped - it's been that simple... I guess they should know if they have been living it long enough and they also know when someone is not doing something 'for money'.  Yesterday I ended up speaking to a lawyer (I never met before) all I know is his name was Ray and he was a Ray of fucking sunshine I needed.  He explained a few things & I have heard this before  ONE other time:

No lawyer wants to spend time on your case, although  it's NOT right what you experienced - you were NOT physically hurt (other than a sore breast & slapped on the arm & back) like -I did not lose a limb in a car accident - so WHEN I would win- I'd only get a small amount and it's about $1,500 just to start a file.  A lot of time for little $.      I get it. 
He also understood I don't want any other woman to experience this.

Wow. The other time we heard that was when the genetics specialist at Sick kids told us:
No scientist are going to waste time trying to find a cure for a disease that only a few people have.  Storms illness was/is considered an 'Orphan' disease - very rare.
 'That' back then... felt like a slap. 

MONEY MONEY MONEY...         Good thing I know  God has my back, no deposit required only faith in others and myself needed.  Ray restored my faith in humans. He didn't even know.  He inspired the thank you card... already in the mail.

There's nothing like a kick in the teeth of reality to give me a kick in the ass to make shit happen myself! I realized I am not weak-  (as I felt in that office last week) I am STRONG.

That "technician" I'm confident will definitely THINK the next time she behaves as she did
NEVER LET ANYONE TOUCH you in anyway you feel uncomfortable!  Being smacked on the arm while my breast was in that machine - SHOWED her LACK of control & let me clarify for the record- it wasn't about being 'SMACKED' as I've been smacked, punched slapped, hair pulled, clothes torn and then some my entire life - far worse than what she did to me.  To treat a patient (stranger) as she did while my breast was in that machine - showed her LEVEL of professionalism - Treating a patient who is naked & vulnerable & frightened  with anything other than compassion - speaks volumes about that 'PROFESSIONAL'.  

I was grateful to  Ray ' he calmed me down - explained things as they are, was patient....  after I got off the phone & painted (felt good) I made him a thank you card- as I do. It made me LOL - I guess it is HOW I heal.   I realized when I looked up the address - I just had a conversation about my "fucking boob was in a vice when she lost it!"  with a 'criminal lawyer.'  That made me really  laugh out loud.  Someone who deals with murder... I did think later... I should have punched her - I'd been happy to explain it to a judge.  I could not have reached.. my boob did not stretch that far...  that & she was definitely NOT  worth me hurting my painting hands!
 
I do think Ray thought 'tit was a joke for  a second when I first called him as he asked 'who told you to call me??  (9 a.m.) Another lawyers had given me his #.  I am forever grateful for his brutal reply - it saved me time and energy' then - I knew the exact direction to take and the rest of the day went so smoothly - all I could think:
                                       Thank you again, for answering my prayers.

PLEASE NOTE: I LEARNED these 'PRIVATE places'- when there is an issue - GOOD LUCK!  & Ray told me that too-  it's not like you can even contact anyone - there is NO ONE on the WWW for you to ask for - that alone should be sending up red flags! They have it so it's work just tracking them down,  who has time, energy - or in some cases $ for lawyers.
FROM NOW ON I will have all my tests done at the hospital or with a REGISTERED organization with reputable service & PROFESSIONAL, COMPASSIONATE employees.  

I share this bullshit so YOU Might avoid it- I won't give that bitch another thought, she's not worth it.  Life is too short & I have painting to do- cards to make & smile to produce!! AMEN.

ANYONE who thinks I'm being dramatic - HAVE a STRANGER put your breast/penis in a vice while  you're naked & trapped - alone in a room with a shut door - you can't reach -  then  you are slapped  by them  while they are yelling  their credentials!   Have that happen...
Then let's have this fucking conversation again.   
I bet your perspective changes.

Lesson learned  it will never happen to me again! I go prepared from now on to every appointment & IF I want someone in the room with me - I am getting someone IN the room with me! FUCK that- this system needs FIXED!!!
Western medicine  becomes less appealing with every visit.

Medical professionals are just as capable of mental health issues as the REST of us=
NURSE Elizabeth Wettlaufer  or Surgeon Mohammed Shamji   
​are just two examples.   

With TLC & THC
Georgia
  
Yoda & Kermit are sold.
Wait until you see my Space Monkey that inspired another space monkey - and a space monkey painting! Time to get creative. 

The image below was pulled off of Google with just a couple of complaints I easily found : KESWICK ADVANCED Imaging.  Do not say you have not been warned! I would never recommend any woman go here for a mammogram!  
CLEARLY THERE IS AN issue...   WHY is this person still working there!? I feel sad for the young mom too.  NO, not 'physically hurt -  still  - fucked with mentally BY an angry bitch who takes it out on PATIENTS.

It's not easy being green - but this spring it's easier than ever to grow your own 4 plants. 
Hallelujah! What an enjoyable experience it's going to be for many - from seed to smoke, just the thought makes me smile.  
I can't help be hopeful.. Lord let them drink less.  lol   It's also APRIL soon and that means- more! More locations, more vape clubs, more edibles.. more amazing cannabis products to ease your mind - Pain & more.   I get upset thinking about patients'  sometimes- as I know a few... and now- they have higher prices an although the government provides their *opiates for free - it's still not covering this medicine - and THAT is still a problem.

Right now- it's the first day of Spring and Green is coming- Thank God!  
What 2 better icons to welcome the first day of Spring?  

*** 
On another note, I'm not feeling very happy at all in truth.  
I had the worst mammogram.   I left the office in tears, screaming ask anyone who was there - lots.  Calling the technician: "A Fucking Bitch"   threatening to report her  (I have) & I stand by it.

I have cried constantly & NOT slept one night  since.  I asked God why did this happen!?
It should have been a simple mammogram like the last I had - which was PLEASANT - I even blogged about it!   Why...  because God knows  I will speak UP & should.
& I will make sure  NO OTHER WOMAN EXPERIENCES the nightmare of A fucking simple mammogram that I did!   

I was physically & mentally abused by a technician *while MY breast was LOCKED DOWN*. 

The ONLY reason I did NOT immediately  blog, social media was  because Storm left (the exact time) for Spain & I did not want to upset him,  he was already feeling bad he couldn't drive  me to my appointment.    He has returned safe.​
It has  been difficult to 'FAKE' the past few days but I know he would know something was wrong.  I should have called the police to report abuse - and will consider this today.

It's been almost a week - they have NOT  called to even talk to me about it!  I've called, e mail etc..  & this makes me feel worse - no once cares. WE are just a number to these places - SHEEP to be prodded & poked by people with NO COMPASSION.

Today I AM NOT going to spend the day crying in bed I'm calling my lawyer to get her opinion.  I will add the Breast Screening program of Ontario was very quick to help direct me, as well as the college of Dr.s & nurses & have someone who is helping me with seeing that this woman's actions are REPORTED.

TBH I am seriously struggling with being social at all at the moment - as if I was not already..  and then there's the results I now wait for.   I pray I don't have to take the test over (I certainly do not TRUST her  as a professional - because that is certainly NOT what I  witnessed OR experienced) &  now...
I'M FUCKING TERRIFIED to have another MAMMOGRAM!

With TLC & THC 
Georgia 

Please forgive my absence for a bit .

Who's ready for summer?? Me!  21 days till spring...
This owl peeking around the corner flys off the page, I love this feathered friend if I do say so! What  a pleasure to paint such delicate plumage - Canadian barn owls this summer flying over  cannabis field in the cool summer evenings - can't wait!

Norm came home and showed me the paper right away (held it up to my nose- yes, he rubbed my nose in it you could say) - "Trudeau's time is up.."  he says and looks at me for a reaction - which made me think two things: ...Norms got a death wish   (lol)        &
Are we encouraging Fake news now,  nasty news?  Phhhhbt....  Man oh man- talk about ship jumpers - JUMP- cause there's just as many sharks in that icy cold water wussy! 'Trudeaus day are numbered' &  my pal Crusty Rusty had to get a jab in too today - called me first thing to ask if I was paying attention to 'my heros happenings' - or something smart ass like that I don't remember his exact words.  My response to them and anyone else... with 'Canadians' like you waiting for him fail - almost encouraging - wow. Are you paying attention to whats happening down south?  Speaking of The USA - Take a look at who' is still calling the shots as of today - wtf? & is still making deals with others. YIKES....
 and hang on - What about those  planes  NOT flying over India this morning?   WTF?  

I'm not blind or ignorant - I have developed a heavenly habit of reading during the day  yes, I do read, it is a luxury many do not realize you have.  Yes, I know it's far from perfect but Please, do not tell me  Justin Trudeau does not care about Canada! ARE you kidding me - Look at his family & look back at your own - I know because of his love for his family he cares for Canada.  
Is that not what does drive us ALL? 

Canada is HIS family & his home - LOOK at this beautiful Country -  Canadians are not leaving, tourism was the best last year it has ever been, do you understand the amount of money that brings. So - No, I'm not happy about any pipelines or political private parties at our expense but I'm not jumping fucking ship.   Ever.  & Change happens.

I believe in those I believe in & thank God, there are still many I do believe in.
You know who you are. I believe in my son & it's funny to me even - but as much as Norm and I  "Arrrrrgh!!!!"  we still have each others back, I have many Americans I feel a bond with & I KNOW you know.. (strange stuff happens) - I had a slight exchange of words with  an American pal   ;) who said "he'd rather his kid be in a room of people with guns than a room full of fat people"  I grabbed my head and sighed in frustration but I get it - I DON'T live there - I don't see it... one month (almost) in California was a different perspective I can assure you.  A reminder of the rest of the world is not doing so great in some places.  If I lived there with obesity getting out of hand and guns - you make choices based on your surroundings I'm not going to judge anyone for their choices - I don't care. AS long as WE don't KILL each other

*My condition has been so aggressive a few days this week - I cannot even pick up a phone,  Nothing touches my face, no make up, no toothbrush - even the pillow - I'm done explaining -  if YOU lived this- your opinion on a few things might change too.  
WHO are you?   WHO do you believe in?  WHOooo do you love?

I believe in me.  I believe Justin is doing what he believes is the best he can do for Canadians.
I believe in many of you.
Thank you for that. xox

With TLC & THC
G

Ginger is one of my favorite spices, I like candied ginger, ginger root slice in a cup of tea. Ginger can be sweet & HEAT... this little Ginger pup of ours is at that' age where constant curiosity has kicked in - when it get's too quiet I go look for her - I know she's up to something, usually she's looking out the front window but occasionally she's into something she shouldn't like digging up a potted plant in the kitchen, stealing peanuts from the bluejays and eating them on the carpet, helping Scruff - de-stuff all over the living room.. it's all new but once she is told "NO!" she get's it.  
Ginger is smart, I can tell by how she watches T.V and our facial expressions and she is into my breathing! Today I was reading about those 7 kids who died in the fire & started breathing fast, crying a few silent tears (Poppy & Ginger sleeping on my lap) and she freaked out and start jumping at my face trying to kiss me, I realized she's right.  
Me sitting here crying won't help those poor babies or mom.  One dad kills his daughter last week and one nearly dies trying to save his children.

I purposely take a  anti-inflammatory pill & throw it not he floor and yell "NO!" the second she moves to it... again a bit closer "NO!", closer "NO!"  Then I let her sniff and say "YUK" make a exaggerated disgusted face and "NO!" again until she 'gets it. I can now do this with a piece of bacon on the kitchen floor and no one touches it (including Norm - hahaha). In the beginning she would snatch stuff & RUN! & we would all be looking at her in shock - but I know she came from an environment that had several dogs and she also use to hide behind pillows  & stuff when too much barking happened - she's RIGHT upfront now. 

She's not fond of strangers- she likes everyone but is not overly friendly so that's good, already she won't run out the front door if you stand there with it open - none of my girls do but they bark. Barking is saying hello, warning  and protecting but barking to bark- she has this high pitch howl bark - we are working on it now, she's old enough to learn when barking is acceptable; I did notice the other day just the stern "NO!"  had her running - which made me laugh - she turns to see this and it's become a big joke.  It's hard to be angry at this little beast, she loves me snd amuses us ALL - all the time.  I gave up yesterday when painting, she wanted some loving and is BORED of winter & the cold... us too, unlike her we know Spring is only 27 days away! Hang in there.    

Soon I'm painting Ginger & Poppy, Ginger does this thing- I tell anyone who will listen -(like a proud mom-lol) she has 3 babies she brings to me when she wants to snuggle it's comical & incredibly sweet It's hard to carry one inner mouth so often she makes 3 trips but  she always brings the raccoon to bed guaranteed & it's so cute- EVERY single time it makes me smile & thank GOD  for yet 'ANOTHER wonderful DOG'  in our lives.   Please consider adopting a dog if you do not have one, with LOVE  & some caring you too will have a friend like this... that's all dogs care about imo. love.      As I type she has brought me her baby and is looking up like she does - time to go play with the girls before we spend time with the octopus.  

With TLC & THC 
G

Kids NEED pets.  ;) Adults too.

Next - my Alcoholic octopus. ;) & sneak peek below- of the octopus painting in progress.

FYI...
Love
MamaBear

Next.. my outcome after a lesson in Sacred Geometry.
With TLC & THC
​Georgia 

Sloth intervention...   he was needed to calm my mind.

This sloth was not planned, I happen to see a cute little sloth hanging onto two trees & it said 'Paint me!!' How can one resist these faces? I needed to paint this little face to stare at it makes me smile.  Smiling also helps pain.. it tricks the brain & when painting this sweet little face smiling at me - I smile back!   I was  thrilled to watch a kids show about science on Netflix & they explained 'Swearing helps with pain' - wow.. awesome.  If we can teach children NOT to judge such simple everyday occurrences - the world will be better off.  Kids are so much smarter than we were, all they lack is experience & that comes soon enough.  

Speaking of Netflix... we watched a show about 4 friends who are practical jokers and I'll admit every episode made me lol.  When not listening to 'sensational songs of the 70's on Amazon - I'm listening to Comedy on Alexa - try it...  speaking of Alexa & privacy concerns, I listened to a recent CBC podcast & it explained - people being concerned others could isten & use it agains you - good luck - it will be a legal battle & nightmare should this ever be attempted - NO ONE would use these systems if they thought it would become this simple, No one would buy them so it will be of the upmost importacne to continue privacy rights & protect them for users across the globe. * I have never set up the option for people to call or to call others..  they discussed Alexa just laughing for no reason at all times- if this happened I'd unplug it just from creepiness.  I'm creeped out this past week every time I wake Up - I ask the time (no clocks in the bedroom) the response has been : 4:44,  5:55 - today 3:33!  4:44 several times... What's up with this?   It is  amusing & neat.
The internet informes me  it's all signs 'Angels are with me & I'm to focus on my higher purpose (alwasy) & All is going  exactly as it should - I knew it.. lol    

Have faith...   I do!
A tribute to Curious George Next.   I was called 'Curious George' often growing up.

Have you seen the new documentary called Far from the Tree   on netflix
.. it's a real eye opener.  I am grateful for the  knowledge.

With TLC & THC
Georgia

I don't know how people who have it worse are at all comfortable... Psoriasis & stress go hand in hand, from what I know & have researched when stress gets worse Psoriasis can flare & the past year mine has gone from managable & hardly visible to out of control & I contemplate ever wearing shorts again - let alone sleep comfortably.  
We try to avoid 'unnecessary stress - good luck in todays world represented by humans like Trump, we are in trouble,  many times we can't avoid it especially if we have people in our immediate life  who contribute to stress...  rather than help eliminate.

Norm causes me stress on a daily basis & I find myself wishing I lived alone time & time again. Trying very hard to feel good not even 'better'- just good & he constantly brings CRAP into this house - for example he went to natures Emporium & picked up a salad & cheese ball that we enjoy - what else did he pick from the health FOOD store with thousands of options - potato chips. 2 bags. In the chip cupboard they went with the cheesies, rippled chips, low salt chips, high salt chips, taco chips, organic taco chips, greenpeachips & pretzels...  enough is enough, that's the 'chip cupboard there's also several junk food drawers he manages to keep full. I AM trying to keep him healthy & alive & he fights me every step of the way.  He also snacks on toffee & candy, sunflower seeds  & his teeth (the ones that remain) have paid dearly for it.  I can't 'stress about his health' anymore...  he's heard it before, he obviously doesn't care - why do we & to top it off we are seen as 'Nags' for doing so.  Living alone would be more peaceful. That's normal stresses...

'Outside stresses' last year caused me to flare to the point of no return I'm afraid... too much stress to mention, guns, lies, dick picts & more by 2 who intentionally misled & lied for their own selfish purposes,  I write this now because I know they still read my blog & I have nothing to hide, unlike others.  The sun the moon, & the truth..  I will be patient & let God  control timing,  if 1/2 of what I heard is true - it's been brewing for a long time & will be exposed sooner than later & have 'little' to do with me in the end.  Stress? Is there any wonder it's got worse & out of control?  When you realized you have been 'intentional fucked with'  which has in fact contributed to my health decline & not wanting to socialize (trust issues - go figure) I now feel I  have an OBLIGATION to warn others (especially women in the cannabis industry) so they may hopefully avoid being victims to the same nasty pair.   ALREADY  stressing about being seen this summer because of these physical 'scars' now very visible.. I won't hide away, it's just another lesson.    A recent awakening has reminded me again, I am so much more than this body - I am a child of our creator & I will rise above.  Everything for a reason.

If you see the signs of psoriasis TRY to 'GET it under control', sometimes I can't feel it, other times I wake scratching until I bleed & most days it's just incredibly sensitive. It changes from scaly in appearance to (especially if really upset) reddish purple in color, the redder it is the more intense my arthritis pain.  I tried injections in the stomach for years that made me feel sicker with every one & it never changed it - it continued to slowly progress, I've been asked to consider a new medication but I refuse because "it can be harmful to the brain." Go figure. Special soaps dry it out - I would advise as soon as you see it- REST, EAT healthy, meditate (draw) & avoid ALL who stress you out if possible, for me it is possible & this rule has few exceptions - those who 'really stress' me out I can easily go months without speaking - we have feelings like this for a reason- we have health issues for reasons...  had I started to listen to my body & GUT sooner I would not be as physically ill as I feel today, instead I kept it in' most of the time,  I am paying for  it mentally & physically.  

Learn to walk away. Learn to speak up,  Learn to rest.. Sunshine helps!  This is what  'Turn on, Tune In & Drop out' means to me.. apply this to life - to recharge.   Drop off the grid if you can if only for a few hours.  Never be afraid of expressing LOVE, sooner or later is will be seen for the intent it was meant.  When people rise above  'Physical beauty'... eventually, I think most do, we are all healthier.

Psoriasis has no cure, yes it is painful - more emotionally when people look at my legs with disgust (I see it)  just like the 2 who chose to inform me I was physically 'Ugly' (have a look at my butt you two! You helped get it this way... )  I know shallow people exist & it should not bother me but it does...  it bothers most of you too. It's why we all try so hard to look our best- it does not matter - don't give a fuck what anyone thinks because there will always be shitty people out there  & there are also loving, caring, compassionate others, I know a few & am grateful to you  - I'm sorry to show you my butt - but, this certainly is NOTHING to be ashamed of.   It is life, many have it worse than I do - please, show others some fucking compassion instead of judgement - you might be next.

Why are we bothered by stress & the opinions of others - Who are they?
I don't know... I don't know why any of us  think so little of ourselves that we ever forget  for even a second we are a child of God.  I AM a Child of God - exactly where & how I am meant to be - SEEN! * The worst is my lower back & bum - I have included this, I did warn you yesterday! hee hee hee  

With TLC & THC     
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 Flying High again tomorrow! Wait until you see some of my new art!!