I get it.

Have you watched 100% hotter?  
It's all about beauty & the beast. 
The beast called BEAUTY' .  
Insecure, lonely, sad beautiful people - afraid to be - themselves.  
What will happen when make - up doesn't cut it anymore? 
Your guess is as good as mine...
I guess they will follow Anthony's footsteps  sooner or later.

Afraid to leave their homes, afraid to interact with others without the mask.
Who are you?  Can you be seen as you truly ARE?  Hmmm? 
My mask is off... with it came off the rose colored glasses. 

Thinking about Anthony, all he witnessed, lived, tried... tasted,   I get it. 
It's enough to put a sour taste in anyones stomach & he was witness more than most.  
Suicide is still taboo - because people do not want to admit they ARE part of the problem.  We are all part of the problem. Have you watched Audrie & Daisy?
 IF I had a daughter I would sit her down & watch it with her  & TALK about it.
*Talk about Alcohol while YOU are at it.  It is a common denominator.

In a world FULL Of humans - to feel so alone... this is the problem.
What does  'it' matter? The money, travel, food.. all stuff.
​All stuff that does not matter when you constantly witness cruelties against each other, he was aware of this #metoo thing, if I had to guess - in all his travels,  he's witnessed more than most and was just tired. I get it.

I am so tired some days.. mostly due to this condition  attacking the right 1/2 of my body, from head to toe - spend an hour with me and you will witness it, I guarantee. I've even doubted my ability to travel lately, France seems so far away some days,  traveling to the mailbox  feels like an adventure.  The constant reminders that so few understand or try to understand  if what frustrates me the most, I therefore enjoy days of solitude -where no explaining is necessary. This past weekend I was alone ALL weekend and felt very refreshed at the end of it.  I was very much in the NOW.  
I have had 'family' throw it in my face..  which was a terrific lesson- You should learn to walk/run away from people - get them out of your life 'FAMILY' is just a word- not everyone deserves to BE in your life- no matter WHO they are. 

With examples like Trump running 'the show' my trust in humans diminishes daily.  What if Trump attempts to commit suicide & decides to take a few countries out as he goes?  I think he has clearly proven how unstable he is in countless ways..   
Anything is possible - clearly he is president after all.

Yes, this painting depicts how I feel, physically.
I'm sorry my son knows how I feel above all else.. but he also understands events in my/our life &  how 'I got this way'.  He KNOWS I try every day to be better, to be positive to be love...   to just BE.

I don't need or want pity- this is more or less me  "coming out" because I KNOW I am not alone, I KNOW many feel like I do.. I know some young ladies in particular feel exactly like I do & have  a harder time NOW with social media- it's an entirely new level of added pressures for most.  

Watch Audrie & Daisy- worried about your kids and cannabis?
Watch Audrie & Daisy and learn what you would be concerned about.
My art has saved my life time and time again.  Focus on your passions.

I do often tell people  "If not for my brain pain- my life would be perfect.."
it's learning to LIVE with the PAIN.  So far so good. 
I also have  incredible Dr.s  who Listen & TALK and keep me here without antidepressants' & remind me: I do have reason to feel the way I do.. it's NOT all in my head.
 
I know I push people away - constantly.
Some look forward to it- then they don't have to SEE what I am living with. 
For those that remain thank you for your understanding & love, all others..
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Fuck you, you're not worth the mental energy I could be using towards painting.

Suicide rates are on the increase with Canadian women:   I get it. 
​globalnews.ca/news/4274136/suicide-rates-women-men-canada/
Clearly, I AM not alone.   
For now... I am in good hands.  
So is Anthony.
Gods.

Back to Sloths & cannabis next.. back to painting what makes me smile.
Thank God.   Make yourself SMILE.

Dear Anthony - I get it.
Your call.

With TLC & THC
​Georgia
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I've recently discovered this Japanese artist on Twitter..
Go here:
https://twitter.com/avogado6   
His work displays how many of us feel at times during our lives & it's not always enjoyable these are some powerful images.  

It has inspired me to work on some drawings of my own.
It's a way to deal with the issues and educate - doing what I do best.... drawing.
Painting can also be part of a specific healing process, I'm not sure about other artists but once it's OUT on paper it's out of my mind and life goes on.. I guess a drawing purge of sorts.  I drew countless images over the years afraid to show them- not realizing how many  would actually 'relate to my drawings.  We are not so different.
Maybe that reason alone is helpful for those who can't put into words what they are experiencing. 

Viewers be warned. It won't be your usual bear, sloth work.
Tomorrows painting is titled:                   Dear Anthony,  I get it.


Ending on positive note.. my son visited yesterday (with Burger priest for lunch) to do laundry and an oil change, it was nice to just sit in the driveway while he worked, the girls on the front lawn as we all listened to city adventures.  I can hear the appreciation for the best of both worlds Storm has at the moment.  Daisy was thrilled and laid more of a guilt trip on him when he was getting ready to leave that I do! LOL   It's good to be loved.  
 
With TLC & THC
Georgia

A friend sent me an e mail showing my website BLOCKED  in the USA  (New York)
Reason given Category : Abused Drugs.
This is what is happening in America right now.
Have you seen the new documentary on Netflix about Social media & privacy?
How the CIA is breaking down doors of 12 year olds and putting tourists in jail for posting derogatory remarks about Trump?
You will only be shown what they want you to see. 
Where is democracy going?
Free Speech.

 

Weeeeee!   Who's excited about all the Gnome Grown Goodness coming to Canada this summer??  Me! Know why??      ...Because more people will get high!  
No, actually that is not the first reason for my excitement - it is because more people will Grow this Plant!  Some will grow one in a planted for the patio- just for fun & why not?
Geez - Calling all gardeners!!!  I know.. I've seen it grow and it is awesome- you know that feeling when you walk out in the morning sunshine and look at those tomatoes on the vine- - this is the same  and just and LOVELY- Oh and guess what - Birders!!!
HUMMING birds love it! Yeeeeee! Back to nature I'll be with this 'plant' and then - THEN 
The sigma will end.  The truth will be come common and cannabis will be added to salads and juiced too! Just like every God given herb on this planet- only this one will cost you.
So be it- if you wan the Variety- yes - I have been blessed - I have tried Cannabis from all around the world even  a few cannabis cup winners', above all else I am surrounded in this life by talented, passionate, hard working - GARDENERS.    

Me 53, cartooning Canadian - just like you in many ways.. not some swinging of the chandelier- running naked thought the snowy fields HIGH  ?  ALL this silliness will be put to an end.  

About the bat wielding lawyer... (still grindingly gears)  It's not that I don't have compassion for mental illness- ha- you know I do. I struggle with it myself  - who does not?  Really - maybe not now but usually everyone struggles for some reason or another at some point  during their lifetime.  Even after considered the bat kneecap thought- too many godfather movies growing up..  only days (hee hee - not hours) later, did I start to feel worse - worse because 'I' let 'some others' bad behaviour get to ME.. we all do. How many  take a bat & walk up to strangers and start to beat?  Cannabis or NOT - this person absolutely has a problem - more serious than cannabis - and now it's all anyone focuses on - THAT is the problem.    This judge has set the stage for a can of worms  - it's obvious.

So yes, I am truly excited for the 'normalization' of cannabis & I do not feel it will 'harm' the 'industry' in any way at all - if anything people will try home grown and then wish to explore with more. We can't grow in' the winter as easily here..  I doubt very many people will have elaborate home grows - not when they realize the amount of work and other costs.

Are you going to try to grow?  
Storm snapped the photo below of me the other day- this is a real plant.
It smells fruity, is lush - as big as my arm..  was so sticky , when he remove did my eyelashes and lips were stuck together.  Storm is passionate & has worked very hard to grow quality medicine (a decade already) especially now, he sees what's going on here, he understands how difficult this can be some days as well as his own  issues, tell me why I should NOT be proud -  MY son GROWS me/us the best medicine he possibly can..
​If you find any fault in the above  sentence in anyway, the problem is with you.
​Everything for a reason.. I've no doubts God has him on his path to do exactly what he does.

Michelle Rainey wanted Change... can you see her smiling?   I can.

It is a plant, it makes most of the world for a few centuries (at least)  feel good, intoxicated.. relaxed, happy, elated, enjoyable, rested... for ANYONE who has never tied- take it slow- no hurry.. it won't be going anywhere - if you think it might cause you to pick up a bat and go beat someone  -  seek professional help.     Here we grow....  

Have a good weekend! Some sunshine would be nice. 

With THC & TLC
​Georgia

Tomorrow, I'm 54 and 1/2 of me is thrilled.. the other 1/2 not so much.
Birthdays..  our yearly reminded along with New Years Day - for a 'fresh start'- a new year begins!

1/2 of me is thrilled, 54, doing what I love everyday (I am also at a point - able to sell my art when I choose), playing with my dogs, enjoying life,  lunch with friends, better off financially then we've ever been.. have people asking if I'd like to collaborate on a few projects, planning a garden, planning a trip - Money for paint!  Consuming some of the best cannabis on the planet...  Medicating with natural medicine - finally.
1/2 of me is in good physical shape.  Life at 54 is pretty darn sweet!

Then there's the other 1/2,  the past month especially, I feel as though I've suffered a stroke every day, from the top of my head down to my hips aches, my hand - peeling a banana , buttons on a shirt, pulling up  pants - all tasks I dread.  The  TN, is constant, several  attacks an hour & the Hemi facial spasm - every few moments, seconds. Walking, triggers it therefore I'm also constantly having to focus on my balance, some can't chew gum & walk at the same time so - I feel quite accomplished some days.  
I now also look like a stroke victim, all the time...  some think  it's Bells palsy as my face when not contracting droops noticeably when at 'rest'  and I don't like to smile-  it triggers the pain and I need the rest.    I'm also very tired & it has progressed down my entire right side, my right side is covered in spots & patches of psoriasis from head to toe, my entire kneecap felt like it was broken this a.m. it is covered in psoriasis, I am anticipating a new cream to try (medicated with cannabis) being sent from a friend. 
 
I look miserable - I can't help it! I'm becoming more and more of a recluse - due to   unfortunate encounters with other humans who do not understand, like my last retail experience. It wears me down... just when I think I have the courage to venture out, someone reminds me  of how many  thoughtless humans there are out there, cold & some intentionally cruel to boot.

I was shocked to hear George Clooney of all people talk about  how bad it was for him when  he had Bell's Palsey- I knew he could relate & that was just from LOOKING the way he did- he was not experiencing the rest, thank God. I was grateful he brought attention to it- I hope  some women in particular are paying attention to me.  It is increasing amongst women- over 50, I'm thrilled to hear Tweed is educating on it- clearly they recognize the growing problem.  I do not have bell's palsy-  Neurologist ruled it out, I have wished it was all I had.. look at images of people on Google- they look miserable - it's why we  stop going out- people look at us and JUDGE & IT HURTS over & OVER again. 

So no, I'm not happy about another birthday, another year of THIS, fucking thing that has me crying just from the sheer fucking exhaustion of living with it!!!
Throw in a few thoughtless people, not to mention people who intentionally fuck with others who are already struggling (says much more about you than it does me)  
I'll pass thanks. I'm not going out for lunch or dinner- why set myself up on my birthday?
I'll spend the day like any other - painting.  

Below is me...  I'm tired of 'hiding' because others can't grasp or deal with things.
Are you taking your smile for granted? Seriously, ask yourself this right now.
Are you taking your health for granted? Your smile?
Are you letting stuff/others STRESS you out?
IT's NOT worth it.

Now, I'm going to paint Michelangelo & a rabbit with very special eggs..  cause if I don't I will just go to to bed and CRY all fucking day. It's not about pity- that I don't need and if you show it- I'll show you the door - who has time for that shit- it's about EDUCATION.  
 At times I often feel as though  my art is not making a difference - that hurts even more.  I do't know what to do about it, not much I can do.  All artists deal with this to some level.
I cry because I am exhausted, worn down, getting zapped countless times a day and feel very much alone at times & I even  wonder why I keep trying.
My son & my dogs & several other humans remind me why.
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Are you paying attention to what YOU put in YOUR body - can you understand MY FEAR of prescribed medication?  Pills known to cause such side effects?

When I really thought about our government paying for all kids prescriptions now- it breaks my heart. Thanks Kathleen for turing our future into drug addicts.  How many will put their kids on medications simply because they can afford it 'now'? I'm curious to read the studies in 5 years from now - how many children are put on antidepressants - for free-  what do you think? How many increased prescriptions will be filled for Children- parents making decisions to put chemicals in tiny bodies - and we don't know how it will effect them in 5, 10 or when they are 54 years old.    Education.  

Our kids would have been better off if we had given them free school supplies- how about Free breakfast to start the day?  Many need that NOW- before they get sick and need free pills.   Pay our teachers more?   No- instead we give them free drugs.  The legal kind.

With TLC & THC - Thank God - I do not think I would be able to continue on without it.
Georgia

For all of you who wonder why I paint all the time.. I have to.  
This is enough to drive anyone mad... I have to keep creative & hopeful.
I can't give up - it's all I can do.

The Psilocybin Molecule a.k.a Magic Mushroom.  I can't spell Psilocybin  - I struggle every time- so I understand why they are called Magic Mushrooms.. Where as Cannabis (correct name) - is easier to spell then marijuana (for me anyhow). About the Molecule'...  I do not know the periodic table -do you? Norm & Storm do and Storm also knows how to read Molecules  just like he remembers all the names of the mushrooms - I look at it- even to copy it to a drawing takes concentration to get it right'  lol  never mind have a clue what they  mean- so the education is more for myself - but they look pretty cool here too! No?

I'm enjoying this  3rd Eye Explorers and have already a  large canvas Elephant and another 'cat' sketched out - I woke up today so excited to get back at painting this pachyderm  - up at 6 even tho I hung out laughing with my boy till past 1 - talking about Ravens!  He saw some HUGE ravens and took photos to show me-  he's becoming a Bird lover too! Yippie  
A friend commented to me on my painting - work ethic - how much I paint...  what people do not understand is I must.. I love to paint- have been given the gift -where I can stay home and paint! Oh my gosh- what a blessing that is, I am thankful  - no stuck at some job I can't stand - doing work I don't like.. but I can't work.  Even if I wanted to.

My disease has spread down my right side and has progresses the past few years- I have watched and the hardest part - even worse at times than the TN & constant Twitch has been watching my hands become like they are. Useless -  It feels this way when when I can't even button a shirt or peel a banana- forget peeling an orange- I need assistance. By the grace of God- it seem the one thing i can do easily is still paint! I said easily BUT far from pain free- and back at a big canvas- is an entirely different work out- heavier (some artists don't even realize) brushes and more of a work out on the arms and legs if you prefer to stand- It did'nt use to be like this. I paint through it - I'm a warrior! hee hee hee- my friend Kathy commented that- it made me giggle. I don't feel like a warrior..  I just want to paint.

No excuses! You see.. I KNOW one day I might not be able to do this anymore and I refuse to look back and say - those days I could have painted- I wasted crying in bed- FUCK NO! !!
This brings me to my medicine - Cannabis as soon as I'm up! IT is my GET Going Georgia! We can do this!  Yesterday painting the canvas- I was  forced to break to smoke- or I would have had to stop.  Work ethic - perhaps.. more like  love life ethic.

I've been ashamed to let people see my hands. ;(    Really, I try to hide them- why?!!! 
Why do we in our society feel as though we should hide - I'm still me.  Far from perfect- & so are you.  Some 'look it' - beauty fades, stuff happens...   who knew.  

Be good to your bodies and don't waste  any opportunity to do what you love... It's been a blessing (I understand) that it did happen slowly and I've been able to adapt- I had courage yesterday to come out of the closet and post a photo of my hand on IG - lol- you have no idea of how hard it was to do-  here is my twisted, painful hand - see it paint. FUCK yes!

Thank God for cannabis - or I would not be able to function.
Thanks to my son who grows good medicine and encourages his mom to paint.

Thanks to a friend Abi who sent me baked goods yesterday- I met a lovely police woman on the way back from my mail box and exclaimed  "I just got baked good .."  I was so excited - she laughed and said "Lucky you!",  I kid you not! We chatted a few moments more before Daisy & I were safe back in our home.
 There are always police cruisers in front of my home- I thank them- this road is terrible and they constantly catch speeders with so many kids - it's a miracle none has been killed, she told me another neighbour told her the same thing last week- SLOW the fuck down!!
I see HOW many they catch, I've witnessed to many 'close calls' - if you ask me it's more important than busting someone for cannabis!    They help keep your kids safe.
US safe.  She was lovely  - it was a great day- on to the next!!! After this joint.
 
With TLC & THC! & a little Psilocybin
Georgia

I have seen many racoons over the years, most just outside my bedroom window... I find them adorable yet annoying - they are notorious for noise in the middle of the night & get into garbage & trouble.  One night a raccoon would not get off the back porch - frustrated  I threw a muffin at it (out my bedroom window) it was the closest thing I could grab, the dogs spotted it and it was getting ugly.  Not realizing the muffin was medicated, I did remember as soon as it left my hand... Ricky Raccoon' picked it up and ate it went away and came back for more.. he was a little wobbly and he played with it in his hands like a bean bag game I still remember giggling at watching & it watching me happily... it wobbled away the dogs no longer a threat (it didn't care)  & it came back several nights in a row.
I did not continue to share.  ;)

A raccoon is a reasonable animal  to imagine in the cannabis garden so here he is.  3rd eye raccoon was imagination amusing itself & trying to figure out the new iPad stand. I keep looking at this raccoon and my own mind keeps telling me that something doesn't look right' ...  lol.  

​Watch anything informative, educational on Psychedelic plants like Cannabis, Ayahuasca, Psilocybe cubensis, and you will read the same thing repeated over & over.. these plants have all become illegal because they seem to make people think for themselves perhaps even explore other ideas that don't go with the flow.  I am always shocked with  Who uses these "drugs" it was a famous banker who wanted Psychedelic Mushrooms explored & introduced to American society - not the sleazy drug dealer images -stigma we've been led to believe.

I know with TN  when you are in this kind of pain you will explore until you can't explore anymore. Explore a natural medicine.  It's the only thing my stomach can stomach, never mind the rest of my organs. I recently learned  a representative from TWEED will be speaking to a group of Trigeminal Neuralgia patients: *from an email sent out to a group I belong to:

Presentation Summary:  Join Michelle Davis from Tweed Inc. for an education presentation on medical cannabis.  She will discuss cannabis legislation, the uses of medical cannabis, safe and responsible use and accessing medical cannabis.

Bio:  Michelle Davis is the Community Engagement Specialist at Tweed, Canada's largest licences producer of cannabis for medical purposes.  She educates and builds meaningful relationships with patient organizations, caregivers, social service providers and more, furthering the public's understanding of quality cannabis products, services and therapeutic applications.  She also builds awareness of Canada's medical cannabis system and associated healthcare resources.
She holds a Bachelor's Degree in Biological Science and has experience within the company working as a grower previous to community engagement.  She enjoys discussing all aspects of the cannabis industry, focusing on cannabis education and awareness.

Date:  Wednesday, April 25, 2018
Time:  6:30 - 7:30 pm
Location:  Creekside Senior Estates Community Centre, 23 Four Mile Creek Road, St. Davids, Ontario

It sounds very interesting- I'd love to hear what & how they will present this discussion -
I am planning on attending.  Anything/anyone that helps  with this condition is a blessing.
I know what cannanbis does it's been personally frustrating knowing so many who suffer are turning to opiates (understandably) with awareness I hope they at least TRY cannabis & Try it first before seriously addictive narcotics. 

3rd eye paintings represent  that extra introduction to knowledge.  The curious eye opening.
I'm grateful for  the vast information available -Hamilton's pharmacopeia for example - it's eased my fear some and helped info to the point I can at least start to research anything in great detail with a bit of direction and have an educated conclusion. 

Gaia also has a really informative series & it allows you to share links  you have 48 hours from the click to watch if interested. ;) https://give.gaia.com/cjdnwg0ix002o01me13m4jfpi
 this is the episode I'll be watching next painting my next animal. Gaia is a paid service, I watch it more than netflix, I am constantly AMAZED -it's though provoking.   I enjoy Gregg Braden he has very calming demeanour.  The rare artifacts and  "places of interest" fascinate me, I highly recommend.

You can watch my first time-lapse with my new iPad @ my IG account I took off privacy so others might enjoy the Valentines downloads. https://www.instagram.com/georgia.toons/

So heart breaking about the shootings in Florida.  :(   R.I.P.          

​Georgia   
xox

'Brrrrr...  today is COLD  the sky is blue, the sun shining - don't be fooled by appearances,  it is C O L D in Canada- I always warn friends "You want to visit?  I suggest you do it in the summer."  This has been one of those weeks,  you dread going out   (a great percentage of Canadians do) even to run simple errands.  Poppy & I venture out? No way, no how, for no one.  Today has consisted of  attempting to paint and napping.
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What to do when it's this cold? If you don't have to go out - put on a layer or two, add a sweater, make hemp milk homemade hot chocolate, read a book, snuggle with a pet or loved one, enjoy the momet & quiet if you are fortunate enough to experience it.
​Look at how lovely the sun glistens on the snow. 
Just typing that made me feel better.  
Time for some positive visualization meditation also referred to as napping. 
It's also time to take the tree down.

As cold as this year is ending - phhhhhbt...   I've started preparing for 2018 by painting a few gifts, cards- of  course and a couple of wooden mushrooms with little twists.
It many be cold outside but never too cold inside, where I don't want to share some love.

Georgia
xox

Tis the Season for mixed feelings fa la la la la, la la la la.
Not long now and it will be Chrismas day.  
1/2 of me is excited the other cant wait for it to be over.  Literally.
Norm put up the tree and decorated and has placed presents under it.
I added a few of my favourite decorations to the tree and put up the nativity.
As Christmas draws closer I look forward to it being OVER.  

It's a time when we watch movies, see adds and it's all 'just perfect'. The lights, glitter, outfits, new toys, turkey, tables happy times spent with family during the holiday season.  Not quite. Instead many are reminded of  family feuds', those already gone,  not having what you think you need, trying to please too many at one time, peer pressures, not having enough money to make others "happy" there is never 'enough $' I think, as I read of a billionaire couple in a murder  suicide today. Many think it is the 'worst time' for suicide, it is not- it's the spring...  I would not be shocked if statistics don't show a few Christmas dinner set it off in motion though.  This past week, in anticipation of  the holidays I've had several mention "family"  because "it's the holidays "- I get it, but what's changed - other than the date on a calendar?  Some sound excited and others not so much.

No, I'm not partaking in  fakes flakes this season. 
Call  'Me the Grinch for a good reason!
Fake smiles, and pleasant chatter to only find out later - you don't really mater!
Plastic trees, Styrofoam  snow & fakers smiles all a glow.
Ho Ho Ho - Hell No! 

If there is one thing I learned by now I choose who I spend my time with because of how they make me feel when I am with them- not because of holiday pressure.

Add to this Holiday Merriment this condition'- that many would rather I did not speak of... only they do NOT understand what it is like living 'with it', so it is really easy for others to judge and remark how they think one should deal with such things.  
Can you eat a meal without your face contorting to the point your throat pulls tight trapping the food in it? Does  every meal  feel like your going to choke, constantly?
Is this difficult for you to read or relate to ? Imagine living with it. 
Can you carry a conversation without your own face pulling to one side so powerful if you are walking you will lose your own balance? Can you laugh or even smile without getting jolt of excruciating paint  from the top of your head to your thigh - just on one side? Can you hold a paint brush or fork now that your one hand won't  bend at all and the seconds on the way? Can you normal wear boots or shoes? I can't.. so my desire to "Dress up" for the holidays also has diminished slightly.  Slightly, because the other 1/2 does enjoy it.
If this is not what 'your day' is like and you are in the Christmas spirit - then HO HO HO! Seasons Greetings!  

What do I like about Christmas?  The glitter, the snow.. the kids smiling and waving at the display..  the thought that people are nicer this time of year. Christmas cards- I do love them -I'll admit, sending them and getting them.  Genuine wishes of love from people, some family but mostly friends. Homebred cookies. Chocolate. Seeing Daisy open her gift (she can't wait)..  Traditional decor, the lights! The logs of fire crackling with christmas carols in the background.  Classic feel good Christmas Movies'.. drawing elfs, reindeer and Christmas decorations in general! Gingerbread men & women!  Warm drinks with whipped cream.  Snuggly blankets with Poppy (she has a new Christmas blanket - she opened it early) & all the COLORS! The dogs make any occasion merrier- as does my bird and cat - We sing Christmas carols during the day as we paint and play.  It is also a time when I do get my painting/art/crafting supplies- which always leaves me excited for the new year to come, once Christmas is gone.

There's also the one other little detail that you hardly see or hear about anymore.
Jesus..   the idea behind Christmas.

Some will be sitting in Church again this Christmas - putting on a 'good show', do they practice Jesus's message?    Hardly.  
Ho Ho Ho - it's all for show.  
Shame on me,  for behaving  this way at Christmas...
Shame on you for behaving the way you do the rest of the year.

I am sending time with several people over the holidays and looking forward to each one.
My days of faking are over.  I'm excited now, to be pantingly first 'Hippo for Christmas', it is by far the cutest Holiday jingle in my opinion.

2018 - I'm looking forward to some HOOPLA! My heart & brain have been studying and are excited to start some new social experiments!  :D 

Be Good to YOURSELF this Christmas. 

with Love
​Georgia

Happy ThanksGiving!  We had a lovely day yesterday, I must give credit where credit is due.. Norm actually pulled off a Full Turkey dinner, all hot, turkey cooked 'Right Side up' (lol unlike past years) & ALL on his own. Turkey, gravy, cranberries, roasted carrots, masked potatoes, squash, sweet potatoes, broccoli and set the table -  THEN did all the dishes- by 5 it looked like it never even happened! What a thankful thanksgiving.   

We cheered - much to be thankful for, especially with the scare we had this past week. 
I painted outback while dinner was being prepared, we walked the dogs, played with Daisy's new Squirrel flier and just enjoyed the day & each others company.  We also had a guest who is also an artist- so it was nice to see her working on  her own project - it inspired me- a sheet with 100 things you like to draw on in, line drawing. I'm having difficulty at 25- just thinking buy why not- I'll keep it by the T.V for when I feel like doodling - today, I put on my MONSTER brain!  Halloween- boy I love to paint it! Yeeeeeeee!!! 

On my desk  in the works are two cartoons regarding Cannabis in Canada. Yesterday reading the SUN was like reading FOX news. Fear Mongering will run rampant until this all settles. It's only to sell papers (a dying industry) and it appears written by sell outs.  I really use to admire the one columnist in particular, I grew up reading him & he was always informative- now I'm wondering , because I know this guy is INTELLIGENT, he knows the truth about cannabis and I would bet money he consumes it occasionally himself.
How long has he been selling out to us about other topics?
First of all  The 'King of Cannabis' is already taken, by a king  of cannabis- making the world a better place. King of Weed- fine by me- THANK you Trudeau- you are ending decades of unjust insanity amongst Canadians.  
It's that simple.

Someone will always complain & have something negative to say, but I don't forget Harper.  I don't forget living in fear and being told to put our cannabis in the kitty litter, I don't forget living in fear the police would come - to take my son's medicine.  I KNOW there are children around the world taking cannabis to help with very serious illnesses.
The "revolver candy" Some children take MORE than the candy mentioned - the loaded revolver- and do NOT DIE.  Lies. The opposite- It saves their lives!
NO ONE has ever died due to cannabis alone.

The article ended talking about a  revolver shaped medical candy - that someone "found" wow, go figure - lucky.  "Be ready to have 911 on speed dial" the fear mongering hints- YES, absolutely always have 911 on speed dial- in case your children ingest ANYthing accidentally- Lord knows there are countless ways children can get seriously ill and even die with all we have in our homes ALREADY.   Much of it not intended to eat, like dishwashing tablets.. small batteries (I'll never forget what I learned about kids who eat them and the pain it does to the small bodies  :(  F*CK it makes me mad- this bullshit! - It's wasting time and hurting - these lies.

To hint - this candy is like a loaded revolver- is disgusting- he is playing on the recent events of the united states IMO and it is shameful.  IF he really cared- write that- exactly a story about what really kills kids in this county and all over. Real guns.  Or write about anything truthful..  how do these people sleep at night?  
All he is doing is adding to  lies and adding stress.  
Is he to blame alone?
No, all who read and follow like sheep and do not educate yourself - You are to blame.
You are to blame for your own health problems and your children if you are not doing research. Knowledge is available to us, take the time.

I am almost OFF of my gabupenrtin btw. From 15 a day to one - I had to do it slow I hear all the nightmares.. and I AM feeling BETTER. HAPPIER, AWAKE, energetic.  FRIG, why did I do it?  I am 'clearer thinking, walk better and have more energy! Yes, I feel my face pain a bit more- it's not like it's not happening.  Pain I can learn to work through, pray through, draw through, breath through. The main factor was I felt my eyes doing something strange'  and it was new- - I researched side effects and found it can commonly cause people to have involuntary eye movements- as IF I don't have enough! Forget that  -OFF.  
Here is a list of side effects for any still taking them, I can't tell anyone what to do, I can only share my own personal truthful experience.
The side effects with the * after all are I was feeling on a regular  basics.
I'd like to thank my Dr. friend in California, when I visited he convinced me it was not good and he really encouraged me  to get off of them. 

Gabapentin Side Effects:Applies to gabapentin: oral capsule, oral solution, oral suspension, oral tablet
Along with its needed effects, gabapentin may cause some unwanted effects. Although not all of these side effects may occur, if they do occur they may need medical attention.
Check with your doctor immediately if any of the following side effects occur while taking gabapentin:
More common

• Clumsiness or unsteadiness  *
• continuous, uncontrolled, back-and-forth, or rolling eye movements*

More common in children  ( PLEASE, PLEASE, re think this for your kids)

• Aggressive behavior or other behavior problems  *
• anxiety  *
• concentration problems and change in school performance*
• crying *
• depression *
• false sense of well-being *
• hyperactivity or increase in body movements *
• rapidly changing moods *
• reacting too quickly, too emotional, or overreacting *
• restlessness *
• suspiciousness or distrust *

Less common

• Black, tarry stools
• chest pain
• chills *
• cough *
• depression, irritability, or other mood or mental changes *
• fever *
• loss of memory *
• pain or swelling in the arms or legs   * Lymph-nodes???
• painful or difficult urination
• shortness of breath *
• sore throat *
• sores, ulcers, or white spots on the lips or in the mouth
• swollen glands    *!!!***
• unusual bleeding or bruising
• unusual tiredness or weakness ***
• Abdominal or stomach pain
• blistering, peeling, or loosening of the skin
• clay-colored stools
• coma
• confusion  *
• convulsions
• dark urine
• decreased urine output *
• diarrhea *
• dizziness *
• fast or irregular heartbeat *
• headache *  NOW gone- they had been increasing steadily**
• increased thirst *
• itching or skin rash
• joint pain *
• large, hive-like swelling on the face, eyelids, lips, tongue, throat, hands, legs, feet, or sex organs
• loss of appetite *
• muscle ache or pain *
• nausea *
• red skin lesions, often with a purple center
• red, irritated eyes
• unpleasant breath odor
• vomiting of blood
• yellow eyes or skin

Some side effects of gabapentin may occur that usually do not need medical attention. These side effects may go away during treatment as your body adjusts to the medicine. Also, your health care professional may be able to tell you about ways to prevent or reduce some of these side effects. Check with your health care professional if any of the following side effects continue or are bothersome or if you have any questions about them:
More common

• Blurred vision  *
• cold or flu-like symptoms  *
• delusions 
• dementia
• hoarseness
• lack or loss of strength *
• lower back or side pain *
• swelling of the hands, feet, or lower legs
• trembling or shaking

Less common or rare

• Accidental injury
• appetite increased
• back pain
• bloated or full feeling
• body aches or pain *
• burning, dry, or itching eyes *
• change in vision *
• change in walking and balance *
• clumsiness or unsteadiness *
• congestion 
• constipation *
• cough producing mucus
• decrease in sexual desire or ability *
• difficulty with breathing *
• dryness of the mouth or throat *
• earache
• excess air or gas in the stomach or intestines * especially an hour after taking.
• excessive tearing *
• eye discharge
• feeling faint, dizzy, or lightheadedness *
• feeling of warmth or heat *
• flushed, dry skin *
• flushing or redness of the skin, especially on the face and neck
• frequent urination
• fruit-like breath odor
• impaired vision *
• incoordination *
• increased hunger
• increased sensitivity to pain
• increased sensitivity to touch *
• increased thirst *
• indigestion
• noise in the ears *
• pain, redness, rash, swelling, or bleeding where the skin is rubbed off
• passing gas
• redness or swelling in the ear
• redness, pain, swelling of the eye, eyelid, or inner lining of the eyelid
• runny nose
• sneezing
• sweating *
• tender, swollen glands in the neck *
• tightness in the chest *
• tingling in the hands and feet *
• trouble sleeping *
• trouble swallowing*
• trouble thinking*
• twitching****   F*CK!  ;(   NO thanks!
• unexplained weight loss *
• voice changes
• vomiting *
• weakness or loss of strength *
• weight gain

Wow.. How about an article on what common prescribed medications do to Children, how they can REALLY HARM & KILL. Unlike Cannabis.
This week is my last on this dangerous drug.
I've increased my cannabis  intake- I smoke all day long, edibles too at night. 
I've had a candy or two that has been as potent as mentioned int he article... how did I feel? GREAT. Relaxed, happy & rested and had a fantastic sleep afterwards.
​
Thank God.  

Canadian Cannabis Hypocrisy  (one example).. simple for all to understand. No lies

With LOVE
​G

 Afternoon Delight.  Wow... I needed that.
This painting was waiting to emerge, more than I realized.
hee hee, I'd say that sky WAS a little boring ..before.
It started with one of my bigger brushes and I threw the paint on -  base color on a white canvas, sketching my bear with a brush instead of a pencil- "just paint!" I remember thinking.  The rest of the days were spent with much smaller brush - as small as a '0' most of the time.
As a matter of fact- it's how the fur was painted as well as the grass. TLC in every stroke.
THC too.   I'm learning to recognize my calmer moments (twitch-less) when I can work on more detailed areas like the face. I enjoyed painting this you have no idea & clarity in severals issues flowed to me like paint off my brush.
F*ck off.   LOL.  
Who needs this negative drama? Not me.  
Frig, Im tired- I think a lot lately- i just want to paint.
Focus on what you love Georgia..  enjoy your time doing what you enjoy most.. whispered my canvas.  

I am tired - I've been waking up every few hours for weeks, I went to the Dr. Monday and he felt what I also discovered recently, a big lump in my arm pit.  It's been causing me pain but I thought it was just stress from a few others things I was trying to sort out'.  Thursday I was already having a mammogram & ultrasound.  The mammogram was not bad at all, btw. 
I've felt worse.
Then I had the ultrasound and I could see what she could see and suddenly there was a big black ball. "Is THAT it??" I asked
...  "Yep, that's it."  
Yikes. That is... disturbing- seeing big black ball inside your body. 
It would take 5 days possibly with the long weekend for results I was told.
It was called already it is a very swollen Lymphnode which I will have to have checked again soon.  I'm told to relax, destress & enjoy. Ha! You don't have to tell me twice.
Before I got the FANTASTIC news I had already resolved that morning (after that great walk I had with my son) - I will rise above! I started my day with CoconutCream home made - bakery cake, fresh pineapple  (the bakery is in Newmarket - I highly recommend, as does Storm & now Norm) & coffee... then I got the call.  I'm Smiling!
YES I AM.  & know to keep on going the direction I am ..rise above with love.
Anger, hate, revenge- I've no time for. 

Who does? it's bad for the body, it's bad for your heart & mind. 
Not to mention -it makes it difficult for me to paint. ;) Truly - I was so tired that after I got the news I slept! lol ;) the body saying RELAX. I JUST finished this bear at 6 this a.m. 

I plan on doing just that. There is nothing like a serious cancer scare to help re align your life.  What matters? Hate begets hate. I can't paint if I feel hate, I physically can't & won't do it to myself.  Think about cancer seriously in your own body and you realize how trivial  so much of 'it' is.  
Thank You God.
I needed that.

Natural medicine is on my mind. The last Mapping of the Minds event educated me further and arrgavated me fruther- one more F*&^%$$$ lie it appears. Mushrooms are on the bottom of the list when it comes to dangerous 'drugs' (on the top was alcohol) or common recreational drugs... even after cannabis! I resent calling them drugs.  I had no idea.  Why are we being lied to? Why are people going to jail over such insanity!  
NATURE.
God put all plants here for all man- OUR CREATOR knew when these plants were placed here- they would HELP US.  *Mushroom are dangerous- IF YOU PICK the wrong ones YOU can die. KNOW your mushrooms- ALL of them. They are also healthy, beneficial and medicinal.  Bear is contemplating life,  Nature & Medicine.

I've included a Star mushroom- puffball', I met a very smart young man on one of our last forays with a cool name who educated me on them and where to find them.. the others are imagined or real- I'm not sure I've seen so many. My Bear Afternoon Delight is out and on my wall, Norm said "Wow, it's like 3D with those dots!" Storm too has commented on the detail several times.  I JUST want to PAINT it does the heart & art Good.

With it- thought, prayers and resolution- it always happens when I paint.
GIVE Thanks! I've already started another canvas! 
YOU know I'm (WE are ALL) celebrating this Thanks Giving!!

I'm still experiencing pain- I shall increase my medicine intake- amen.
& enjoy every second of it.

With Love 
​G
'Afternoon Delight' 
24 x 36 Acrylic on Canvas    Celebrating Natural medicine & Life.