Next.. my outcome after a lesson in Sacred Geometry.
With TLC & THC
Sloth intervention... he was needed to calm my mind.
This sloth was not planned, I happen to see a cute little sloth hanging onto two trees & it said 'Paint me!!' How can one resist these faces? I needed to paint this little face to stare at it makes me smile. Smiling also helps pain.. it tricks the brain & when painting this sweet little face smiling at me - I smile back! I was thrilled to watch a kids show about science on Netflix & they explained 'Swearing helps with pain' - wow.. awesome. If we can teach children NOT to judge such simple everyday occurrences - the world will be better off. Kids are so much smarter than we were, all they lack is experience & that comes soon enough.
Speaking of Netflix... we watched a show about 4 friends who are practical jokers and I'll admit every episode made me lol. When not listening to 'sensational songs of the 70's on Amazon - I'm listening to Comedy on Alexa - try it... speaking of Alexa & privacy concerns, I listened to a recent CBC podcast & it explained - people being concerned others could isten & use it agains you - good luck - it will be a legal battle & nightmare should this ever be attempted - NO ONE would use these systems if they thought it would become this simple, No one would buy them so it will be of the upmost importacne to continue privacy rights & protect them for users across the globe. * I have never set up the option for people to call or to call others.. they discussed Alexa just laughing for no reason at all times- if this happened I'd unplug it just from creepiness. I'm creeped out this past week every time I wake Up - I ask the time (no clocks in the bedroom) the response has been : 4:44, 5:55 - today 3:33! 4:44 several times... What's up with this? It is amusing & neat.
The internet informes me it's all signs 'Angels are with me & I'm to focus on my higher purpose (alwasy) & All is going exactly as it should - I knew it.. lol
Have faith... I do!
A tribute to Curious George Next. I was called 'Curious George' often growing up.
Have you seen the new documentary called Far from the Tree on netflix
.. it's a real eye opener. I am grateful for the knowledge.
With TLC & THC
I don't know how people who have it worse are at all comfortable... Psoriasis & stress go hand in hand, from what I know & have researched when stress gets worse Psoriasis can flare & the past year mine has gone from managable & hardly visible to out of control & I contemplate ever wearing shorts again - let alone sleep comfortably.
We try to avoid 'unnecessary stress - good luck in todays world represented by humans like Trump, we are in trouble, many times we can't avoid it especially if we have people in our immediate life who contribute to stress... rather than help eliminate.
Norm causes me stress on a daily basis & I find myself wishing I lived alone time & time again. Trying very hard to feel good not even 'better'- just good & he constantly brings CRAP into this house - for example he went to natures Emporium & picked up a salad & cheese ball that we enjoy - what else did he pick from the health FOOD store with thousands of options - potato chips. 2 bags. In the chip cupboard they went with the cheesies, rippled chips, low salt chips, high salt chips, taco chips, organic taco chips, greenpeachips & pretzels... enough is enough, that's the 'chip cupboard there's also several junk food drawers he manages to keep full. I AM trying to keep him healthy & alive & he fights me every step of the way. He also snacks on toffee & candy, sunflower seeds & his teeth (the ones that remain) have paid dearly for it. I can't 'stress about his health' anymore... he's heard it before, he obviously doesn't care - why do we & to top it off we are seen as 'Nags' for doing so. Living alone would be more peaceful. That's normal stresses...
'Outside stresses' last year caused me to flare to the point of no return I'm afraid... too much stress to mention, guns, lies, dick picts & more by 2 who intentionally misled & lied for their own selfish purposes, I write this now because I know they still read my blog & I have nothing to hide, unlike others. The sun the moon, & the truth.. I will be patient & let God control timing, if 1/2 of what I heard is true - it's been brewing for a long time & will be exposed sooner than later & have 'little' to do with me in the end. Stress? Is there any wonder it's got worse & out of control? When you realized you have been 'intentional fucked with' which has in fact contributed to my health decline & not wanting to socialize (trust issues - go figure) I now feel I have an OBLIGATION to warn others (especially women in the cannabis industry) so they may hopefully avoid being victims to the same nasty pair. ALREADY stressing about being seen this summer because of these physical 'scars' now very visible.. I won't hide away, it's just another lesson. A recent awakening has reminded me again, I am so much more than this body - I am a child of our creator & I will rise above. Everything for a reason.
If you see the signs of psoriasis TRY to 'GET it under control', sometimes I can't feel it, other times I wake scratching until I bleed & most days it's just incredibly sensitive. It changes from scaly in appearance to (especially if really upset) reddish purple in color, the redder it is the more intense my arthritis pain. I tried injections in the stomach for years that made me feel sicker with every one & it never changed it - it continued to slowly progress, I've been asked to consider a new medication but I refuse because "it can be harmful to the brain." Go figure. Special soaps dry it out - I would advise as soon as you see it- REST, EAT healthy, meditate (draw) & avoid ALL who stress you out if possible, for me it is possible & this rule has few exceptions - those who 'really stress' me out I can easily go months without speaking - we have feelings like this for a reason- we have health issues for reasons... had I started to listen to my body & GUT sooner I would not be as physically ill as I feel today, instead I kept it in' most of the time, I am paying for it mentally & physically.
Learn to walk away. Learn to speak up, Learn to rest.. Sunshine helps! This is what 'Turn on, Tune In & Drop out' means to me.. apply this to life - to recharge. Drop off the grid if you can if only for a few hours. Never be afraid of expressing LOVE, sooner or later is will be seen for the intent it was meant. When people rise above 'Physical beauty'... eventually, I think most do, we are all healthier.
Psoriasis has no cure, yes it is painful - more emotionally when people look at my legs with disgust (I see it) just like the 2 who chose to inform me I was physically 'Ugly' (have a look at my butt you two! You helped get it this way... ) I know shallow people exist & it should not bother me but it does... it bothers most of you too. It's why we all try so hard to look our best- it does not matter - don't give a fuck what anyone thinks because there will always be shitty people out there & there are also loving, caring, compassionate others, I know a few & am grateful to you - I'm sorry to show you my butt - but, this certainly is NOTHING to be ashamed of. It is life, many have it worse than I do - please, show others some fucking compassion instead of judgement - you might be next.
Why are we bothered by stress & the opinions of others - Who are they?
I don't know... I don't know why any of us think so little of ourselves that we ever forget for even a second we are a child of God. I AM a Child of God - exactly where & how I am meant to be - SEEN! * The worst is my lower back & bum - I have included this, I did warn you yesterday! hee hee hee
With TLC & THC
Flying High again tomorrow! Wait until you see some of my new art!!
Happy First day of 2019!!
I hope you are not hung over, if so - I hope it was worth it.
I painted my first calendar last year, the focus being strange mushrooms!
One of the best introductions in this lifetime has been to mushrooms- in the wild - this mushroom is called eyelash mushroom & I found one a few years back- more vibrant than this one- I was hooked on these bright red eyelashes looking up at me. a.k.a:
I also discovered there are such things as purple snails - how beautiful is this earth?
I'm grateful for the introduction to my plate as I learned how many edible mushrooms there are & to my medicine cabinet from everything to Lions mane for the brain, turkey tail tea, Chaga coffee for better health & psilocybin for mental health.
All this mushroom talk has made me hungry- Shiitake in my omelette.
Start the new year off right! Drink your chaga- eat your mushrooms!
With TLC & THC
Next... Fantasia inspired - my plans for this year depicted in paint. ;)
'If the 3 kings were to bring Jesus gifts NOW.. what do you think they would be?
Would he get the newest iPhone? Ferrari? Gold Rolex? Hell yes!
He's Jesus! & deserves the finest this life has to offer - lol perhaps.. BUT true gifts I believe would be the gift of knowledge - represented by a book (for one) -not an iPhone thats going to distract him every 3 seconds and dumb him down . ALL the bling are just things. Should the 3 wise men arrive this evening in 2018 .. I believe they would bring gifts that have been provided by God himself- natural Medicine from cannabis for peace & healing to mushrooms (psilocybin) and LSD, gifts to open the mind to experience ALL that life offers. Was blind but now I see...
In my own experience, I attribute my drug experience in direct correlation with widening my compassion towards the rest of the world & becoming a more forgiving individual myself & thinking individual... caring. Before I would simply be angry - rarely considering the 'other sides opinion, if anything 'now' I try to consider the other side' first.. If that isn't reason enough I don't know what is.
I've just watched a documentary called the Psychedelic Pioneers:
The story of the psychedelic pioneers is part leading-edge medical research and part utopian idealism. Three gifted psychiatrists, in combination with an extraordinarily power drug, resulted in one of the most fascinating and controversial periods in Canadian history. Before LSD burst on the scene as fuel for wild psychedelic trips, it had an amazing, yet little-known history. A surprising part of that history was written in a remote corner of the Canadian prairies. Over a span of fifteen years, from when the drug was first administered in 1952 until it was banned and made illegal in 1967, the use of LSD ranged from leading-edge psychiatric research into schizophrenia and alcoholism to volunteer testing on the general public. As word of LSD’s amazing properties began to seep out of the laboratory, artists and intellectuals such as writer Aldous Huxley, filmmaker Paul Saltzman, architect Kyo Izumin and painter Ted Godwin began to experiment and travel to Saskatchewan to have their first experiences with LSD. The Psychedelic Pioneers takes us through the eyes of the three lead doctors involved in the LSD Saskatchewan Project.
I had no idea the documentary would be about a hospital in SASK. Canada- the the 'instruction manual on how to use them safely for Dr.s & patients(still used today) was developed by a Canadian. BACK THEN they KNEW it was helping. Something occurred to me while watching this.. this TN, this condition that is unbelievable to live with nicknamed the 'suicide disease' that I have lived with for over 7 years (and has consumed me to say the least most days in crippling pain).. yes, I have considered death being a better option some days... because I think - I have no other options.. but WE DO.
What does it say about a Country that will allow you do discuss legal assisted death for pain before it will allow you to TRY LDS for pain?
You might be in a situation where you don't even consider such things... thank God.
I AM done suffering when I KNOW there are options & this new year I will be looking into ALL of them. I am a 54 year old woman, this is not about getting high, I just want to be able to function, to run my house socialize with family, enjoy time with dogs, work in my garden & continue my painting.. thats' it. I just want a quality of fucking life - where I am not in agonizing pain and constant fear from a condition that has me thinking I'm going to die several times a day- is that too much to ask? I think not. Will some judge me for it- yes of course.. will they be educated on the subject - probably not.
My son laughs when I tell him God has persuaded me - 'Have No Fear' as we go into this new year! & I DO not... quite the opposite, the 'strength I feel more powerful that I've ever felt in my life, more confident & CONTENT. It's the MOST powerful drug - when you truly believe in God, in good - in the universe & in my homeboy - Jesus!
Happy Birthday Jesus!
If born today you would be given the Gifts your father created for the intended peace & mind of all his children, that's why they are called 'WISE kings'.
Did you know the Government really cracked down when people using LSD started to speak up about & against the veitnam war.. and we all know how that really went down.
Happy Christmas Eve! Merry Christmas & Happy Birthday Jesus!
With TLC & THC
Oh, & I woke up today & painted this cartoon: Wall or Ladder? Ponder this:
Tis the season for depression. That is the reality for too many. You are not alone.
I've seen friends say they don't feel like Christmas at all, know of some that are having family struggles (don't we all), custody battles - where will the kids spend Christmas, recent separations & stress over holiday confrontations or alienation... a couple of girlfriend lost their moms this year and are struggling with the first Christmas without - makes me glad mine is still here & cooking all the veggies - :). At the same time I see & feel their sadness - one friend can't even speak to me about it - we both TEAR up instantly.. she has a huge family & will survive the holiday I'm confident. How about those with a small or no family.. do you think Christmas is a happy time for all, hardly.
Then there is the stress of Christmas spending, I'm seeing that almost everywhere - this thing about giving people money - what's Christmas going to come to? A banking holiday? Not sure what to get someone for fear they won't like it, having too many you feel you should buy for, I read the chance of a heart attack of the holidays increaser quite a bit- is it the food? The excess booze? The stress? Shovelling snow is often a factory btw.. take care.
This year has been incredibly stressful, I try to pretend it's not- yet I'm having difficulty even leaving my home (my trust in humans is not what it was) & throw in Trump to the list- I'm positive that orange ape is responsible for an increase in Christmas depression around the globe.
When I look at the effect the toll of stress has had on my own physical body just since the summer - my one side has completely covered in psoriasis that wakes me from pain at night & the scabs on my back and down my right leg to the bottom of my feet - I'm concerned it's got out of control... So, NO - the last thing I'm going to 'let' stress me is Christmas. Tis the season - it can be very overwhelming for adults & children & pets - I don't know about you but I'd like to encourage all of you who are feeling blue, sad, depressed - - embrace it & say FUCK IT! It's just a holiday, just another day - if you're focusing on Jesus- awesome- as that is the reason for the season.. Jesus knows so don't sweat it- if you can pour yourself a cup of medicated tea or a glass of nice wine.. roll a joint & climb in a warm tub like this sweet little ginger & slide in and RELAX ('Im about to do this now) it will be a great start to melting holiday stress... warm jimmies, movie on Netflix , medicate popcorn sprinkled with cinnamon... GIVE yourself a BREAK & Fuck it.
With TLC & THC
How did my day start? In pain but mentally in a great mood, my arthritis in my feet has them beyond ever fitting into normal shoes again... on go the slippers (I have 6 pair of the same) & I ventured down stairs (ouch) and my hands being sore too & not exercised/warmed up yet my iPad slipped out of my hand and on the ceramic tile kitchen floor. Shattered puts it mildly - I got slivers from that last instagram post - lol.
I sighed & decided it was time to make edibles.
Kat knows I love my maple syrup- I am one of those who can really have it on everything - she brought me a can of light last visit - I told her 'I like it like I like my men - dark!' hee hee *I admire all shades of gentlemen. This time she bought me a can of Dark - 2 cans! I had to make something. I found this easy no bake recipe on PIN and made them myself -altered.
I made them medicated and they are delicious! So then I decided to bring up another to paint - -lol & ate if before I was finished sketching! I'm experienced enough to KNOW I won't eat another for color reference until later tonight. This is me high btw. I'd say 'very high - a smile on this face and, dogs in my lap - gonna go nap. A NAP is what I need. This time thing has thrown me and I look tired & lately I don't sleep much - so a nap is what I need. Thankfully this will do it, it will help me fall asleep.
4 ingredients- one being medicate coconut oil* It's easy enough to make & it is LEGAL for you to make yourself some edibles and have them in your home in CANADA **IF you have kids TAKE precautions please - the first being have a conversation with them about cannabis & clearly label them 'Do NOT eat'. Norm's learned his lesson - he never just tries stuff any longer. (I think to myself as I realize - my twitch is so good right now- thank you God)
This made 20 squares 8x8 dish and the average person or newbie would be fine with 1/2 a square. & this may be different depending on the strength of your cannabis oil! Always test. My tolerance is HIGH. <Name of next painting, they will stay in the freezer - not for long I imagine. TRY it and then remember to WAIT, set a timer do you feel high? If not have a little more - have plans to :DO NOTHING but RELAX. Chill. Please, for your sake - do not mix cannabis & alcohol... I believe alcohol is a depressant & cannabis a antidepressant - for me -anyhow. The recipe is below - it is that easy *says me who burnt the chocolate 2 - TWICE yesterday & then gave up, hahaha... today I watched a video on melting chocolate- got it, 'low heat' - not boiling.
I don't own a cell phone so my social media will be very limited until I get my iPad fixed! Hopefully I'll get it in soon - this mean- I'll be painting even more!! Weeeeeee!
After the nap.
I'm giving a friend a couple of these squares for her very bad back (several surgeries) because I care for her, and the recipe card so she can make her own from now on because- IT IS LEGAL!! In Canada. Thank you Justin, thank you all.
Download the card (link below) & bake a friend a treat or just invite yourself to tea ;)
With TLC & THC A Recipe from Me!
I get it.
Have you watched 100% hotter?
It's all about beauty & the beast.
The beast called BEAUTY' .
Insecure, lonely, sad beautiful people - afraid to be - themselves.
What will happen when make - up doesn't cut it anymore?
Your guess is as good as mine...
I guess they will follow Anthony's footsteps sooner or later.
Afraid to leave their homes, afraid to interact with others without the mask.
Who are you? Can you be seen as you truly ARE? Hmmm?
My mask is off... with it came off the rose colored glasses.
Thinking about Anthony, all he witnessed, lived, tried... tasted, I get it.
It's enough to put a sour taste in anyones stomach & he was witness more than most.
Suicide is still taboo - because people do not want to admit they ARE part of the problem. We are all part of the problem. Have you watched Audrie & Daisy?
IF I had a daughter I would sit her down & watch it with her & TALK about it.
*Talk about Alcohol while YOU are at it. It is a common denominator.
In a world FULL Of humans - to feel so alone... this is the problem.
What does 'it' matter? The money, travel, food.. all stuff.
All stuff that does not matter when you constantly witness cruelties against each other, he was aware of this #metoo thing, if I had to guess - in all his travels, he's witnessed more than most and was just tired. I get it.
I am so tired some days.. mostly due to this condition attacking the right 1/2 of my body, from head to toe - spend an hour with me and you will witness it, I guarantee. I've even doubted my ability to travel lately, France seems so far away some days, traveling to the mailbox feels like an adventure. The constant reminders that so few understand or try to understand if what frustrates me the most, I therefore enjoy days of solitude -where no explaining is necessary. This past weekend I was alone ALL weekend and felt very refreshed at the end of it. I was very much in the NOW.
I have had 'family' throw it in my face.. which was a terrific lesson- You should learn to walk/run away from people - get them out of your life 'FAMILY' is just a word- not everyone deserves to BE in your life- no matter WHO they are.
With examples like Trump running 'the show' my trust in humans diminishes daily. What if Trump attempts to commit suicide & decides to take a few countries out as he goes? I think he has clearly proven how unstable he is in countless ways..
Anything is possible - clearly he is president after all.
Yes, this painting depicts how I feel, physically.
I'm sorry my son knows how I feel above all else.. but he also understands events in my/our life & how 'I got this way'. He KNOWS I try every day to be better, to be positive to be love... to just BE.
I don't need or want pity- this is more or less me "coming out" because I KNOW I am not alone, I KNOW many feel like I do.. I know some young ladies in particular feel exactly like I do & have a harder time NOW with social media- it's an entirely new level of added pressures for most.
Watch Audrie & Daisy- worried about your kids and cannabis?
Watch Audrie & Daisy and learn what you would be concerned about.
My art has saved my life time and time again. Focus on your passions.
I do often tell people "If not for my brain pain- my life would be perfect.."
it's learning to LIVE with the PAIN. So far so good.
I also have incredible Dr.s who Listen & TALK and keep me here without antidepressants' & remind me: I do have reason to feel the way I do.. it's NOT all in my head.
I know I push people away - constantly.
Some look forward to it- then they don't have to SEE what I am living with.
For those that remain thank you for your understanding & love, all others..
Fuck you, you're not worth the mental energy I could be using towards painting.
Suicide rates are on the increase with Canadian women: I get it.
Clearly, I AM not alone.
For now... I am in good hands.
So is Anthony.
Back to Sloths & cannabis next.. back to painting what makes me smile.
Thank God. Make yourself SMILE.
Dear Anthony - I get it.
With TLC & THC
I've recently discovered this Japanese artist on Twitter..
His work displays how many of us feel at times during our lives & it's not always enjoyable these are some powerful images.
It has inspired me to work on some drawings of my own.
It's a way to deal with the issues and educate - doing what I do best.... drawing.
Painting can also be part of a specific healing process, I'm not sure about other artists but once it's OUT on paper it's out of my mind and life goes on.. I guess a drawing purge of sorts. I drew countless images over the years afraid to show them- not realizing how many would actually 'relate to my drawings. We are not so different.
Maybe that reason alone is helpful for those who can't put into words what they are experiencing.
Viewers be warned. It won't be your usual bear, sloth work.
Tomorrows painting is titled: Dear Anthony, I get it.
Ending on positive note.. my son visited yesterday (with Burger priest for lunch) to do laundry and an oil change, it was nice to just sit in the driveway while he worked, the girls on the front lawn as we all listened to city adventures. I can hear the appreciation for the best of both worlds Storm has at the moment. Daisy was thrilled and laid more of a guilt trip on him when he was getting ready to leave that I do! LOL It's good to be loved.
With TLC & THC
A friend sent me an e mail showing my website BLOCKED in the USA (New York)
Reason given Category : Abused Drugs.
This is what is happening in America right now.
Have you seen the new documentary on Netflix about Social media & privacy?
How the CIA is breaking down doors of 12 year olds and putting tourists in jail for posting derogatory remarks about Trump?
You will only be shown what they want you to see.
Where is democracy going?
Weeeeee! Who's excited about all the Gnome Grown Goodness coming to Canada this summer?? Me! Know why?? ...Because more people will get high!
No, actually that is not the first reason for my excitement - it is because more people will Grow this Plant! Some will grow one in a planted for the patio- just for fun & why not?
Geez - Calling all gardeners!!! I know.. I've seen it grow and it is awesome- you know that feeling when you walk out in the morning sunshine and look at those tomatoes on the vine- - this is the same and just and LOVELY- Oh and guess what - Birders!!!
HUMMING birds love it! Yeeeeee! Back to nature I'll be with this 'plant' and then - THEN
The sigma will end. The truth will be come common and cannabis will be added to salads and juiced too! Just like every God given herb on this planet- only this one will cost you.
So be it- if you wan the Variety- yes - I have been blessed - I have tried Cannabis from all around the world even a few cannabis cup winners', above all else I am surrounded in this life by talented, passionate, hard working - GARDENERS.
Me 53, cartooning Canadian - just like you in many ways.. not some swinging of the chandelier- running naked thought the snowy fields HIGH ? ALL this silliness will be put to an end.
About the bat wielding lawyer... (still grindingly gears) It's not that I don't have compassion for mental illness- ha- you know I do. I struggle with it myself - who does not? Really - maybe not now but usually everyone struggles for some reason or another at some point during their lifetime. Even after considered the bat kneecap thought- too many godfather movies growing up.. only days (hee hee - not hours) later, did I start to feel worse - worse because 'I' let 'some others' bad behaviour get to ME.. we all do. How many take a bat & walk up to strangers and start to beat? Cannabis or NOT - this person absolutely has a problem - more serious than cannabis - and now it's all anyone focuses on - THAT is the problem. This judge has set the stage for a can of worms - it's obvious.
So yes, I am truly excited for the 'normalization' of cannabis & I do not feel it will 'harm' the 'industry' in any way at all - if anything people will try home grown and then wish to explore with more. We can't grow in' the winter as easily here.. I doubt very many people will have elaborate home grows - not when they realize the amount of work and other costs.
Are you going to try to grow?
Storm snapped the photo below of me the other day- this is a real plant.
It smells fruity, is lush - as big as my arm.. was so sticky , when he remove did my eyelashes and lips were stuck together. Storm is passionate & has worked very hard to grow quality medicine (a decade already) especially now, he sees what's going on here, he understands how difficult this can be some days as well as his own issues, tell me why I should NOT be proud - MY son GROWS me/us the best medicine he possibly can..
If you find any fault in the above sentence in anyway, the problem is with you.
Everything for a reason.. I've no doubts God has him on his path to do exactly what he does.
Michelle Rainey wanted Change... can you see her smiling? I can.
It is a plant, it makes most of the world for a few centuries (at least) feel good, intoxicated.. relaxed, happy, elated, enjoyable, rested... for ANYONE who has never tied- take it slow- no hurry.. it won't be going anywhere - if you think it might cause you to pick up a bat and go beat someone - seek professional help. Here we grow....
Have a good weekend! Some sunshine would be nice.
With THC & TLC
Georgia... On My Mind.