Happy ThanksGiving!  We had a lovely day yesterday, I must give credit where credit is due.. Norm actually pulled off a Full Turkey dinner, all hot, turkey cooked 'Right Side up' (lol unlike past years) & ALL on his own. Turkey, gravy, cranberries, roasted carrots, masked potatoes, squash, sweet potatoes, broccoli and set the table -  THEN did all the dishes- by 5 it looked like it never even happened! What a thankful thanksgiving.   

We cheered - much to be thankful for, especially with the scare we had this past week. 
I painted outback while dinner was being prepared, we walked the dogs, played with Daisy's new Squirrel flier and just enjoyed the day & each others company.  We also had a guest who is also an artist- so it was nice to see her working on  her own project - it inspired me- a sheet with 100 things you like to draw on in, line drawing. I'm having difficulty at 25- just thinking buy why not- I'll keep it by the T.V for when I feel like doodling - today, I put on my MONSTER brain!  Halloween- boy I love to paint it! Yeeeeeeee!!! 

On my desk  in the works are two cartoons regarding Cannabis in Canada. Yesterday reading the SUN was like reading FOX news. Fear Mongering will run rampant until this all settles. It's only to sell papers (a dying industry) and it appears written by sell outs.  I really use to admire the one columnist in particular, I grew up reading him & he was always informative- now I'm wondering , because I know this guy is INTELLIGENT, he knows the truth about cannabis and I would bet money he consumes it occasionally himself.
How long has he been selling out to us about other topics?
First of all  The 'King of Cannabis' is already taken, by a king  of cannabis- making the world a better place. King of Weed- fine by me- THANK you Trudeau- you are ending decades of unjust insanity amongst Canadians.  
It's that simple.

Someone will always complain & have something negative to say, but I don't forget Harper.  I don't forget living in fear and being told to put our cannabis in the kitty litter, I don't forget living in fear the police would come - to take my son's medicine.  I KNOW there are children around the world taking cannabis to help with very serious illnesses.
The "revolver candy" Some children take MORE than the candy mentioned - the loaded revolver- and do NOT DIE.  Lies. The opposite- It saves their lives!
NO ONE has ever died due to cannabis alone.

The article ended talking about a  revolver shaped medical candy - that someone "found" wow, go figure - lucky.  "Be ready to have 911 on speed dial" the fear mongering hints- YES, absolutely always have 911 on speed dial- in case your children ingest ANYthing accidentally- Lord knows there are countless ways children can get seriously ill and even die with all we have in our homes ALREADY.   Much of it not intended to eat, like dishwashing tablets.. small batteries (I'll never forget what I learned about kids who eat them and the pain it does to the small bodies  :(  F*CK it makes me mad- this bullshit! - It's wasting time and hurting - these lies.

To hint - this candy is like a loaded revolver- is disgusting- he is playing on the recent events of the united states IMO and it is shameful.  IF he really cared- write that- exactly a story about what really kills kids in this county and all over. Real guns.  Or write about anything truthful..  how do these people sleep at night?  
All he is doing is adding to  lies and adding stress.  
Is he to blame alone?
No, all who read and follow like sheep and do not educate yourself - You are to blame.
You are to blame for your own health problems and your children if you are not doing research. Knowledge is available to us, take the time.

I am almost OFF of my gabupenrtin btw. From 15 a day to one - I had to do it slow I hear all the nightmares.. and I AM feeling BETTER. HAPPIER, AWAKE, energetic.  FRIG, why did I do it?  I am 'clearer thinking, walk better and have more energy! Yes, I feel my face pain a bit more- it's not like it's not happening.  Pain I can learn to work through, pray through, draw through, breath through. The main factor was I felt my eyes doing something strange'  and it was new- - I researched side effects and found it can commonly cause people to have involuntary eye movements- as IF I don't have enough! Forget that  -OFF.  
Here is a list of side effects for any still taking them, I can't tell anyone what to do, I can only share my own personal truthful experience.
The side effects with the * after all are I was feeling on a regular  basics.
I'd like to thank my Dr. friend in California, when I visited he convinced me it was not good and he really encouraged me  to get off of them. 

Gabapentin Side Effects:Applies to gabapentin: oral capsule, oral solution, oral suspension, oral tablet
Along with its needed effects, gabapentin may cause some unwanted effects. Although not all of these side effects may occur, if they do occur they may need medical attention.
Check with your doctor immediately if any of the following side effects occur while taking gabapentin:
More common

• Clumsiness or unsteadiness  *
• continuous, uncontrolled, back-and-forth, or rolling eye movements*

More common in children  ( PLEASE, PLEASE, re think this for your kids)

• Aggressive behavior or other behavior problems  *
• anxiety  *
• concentration problems and change in school performance*
• crying *
• depression *
• false sense of well-being *
• hyperactivity or increase in body movements *
• rapidly changing moods *
• reacting too quickly, too emotional, or overreacting *
• restlessness *
• suspiciousness or distrust *

Less common

• Black, tarry stools
• chest pain
• chills *
• cough *
• depression, irritability, or other mood or mental changes *
• fever *
• loss of memory *
• pain or swelling in the arms or legs   * Lymph-nodes???
• painful or difficult urination
• shortness of breath *
• sore throat *
• sores, ulcers, or white spots on the lips or in the mouth
• swollen glands    *!!!***
• unusual bleeding or bruising
• unusual tiredness or weakness ***
• Abdominal or stomach pain
• blistering, peeling, or loosening of the skin
• clay-colored stools
• coma
• confusion  *
• convulsions
• dark urine
• decreased urine output *
• diarrhea *
• dizziness *
• fast or irregular heartbeat *
• headache *  NOW gone- they had been increasing steadily**
• increased thirst *
• itching or skin rash
• joint pain *
• large, hive-like swelling on the face, eyelids, lips, tongue, throat, hands, legs, feet, or sex organs
• loss of appetite *
• muscle ache or pain *
• nausea *
• red skin lesions, often with a purple center
• red, irritated eyes
• unpleasant breath odor
• vomiting of blood
• yellow eyes or skin

Some side effects of gabapentin may occur that usually do not need medical attention. These side effects may go away during treatment as your body adjusts to the medicine. Also, your health care professional may be able to tell you about ways to prevent or reduce some of these side effects. Check with your health care professional if any of the following side effects continue or are bothersome or if you have any questions about them:
More common

• Blurred vision  *
• cold or flu-like symptoms  *
• delusions 
• dementia
• hoarseness
• lack or loss of strength *
• lower back or side pain *
• swelling of the hands, feet, or lower legs
• trembling or shaking

Less common or rare

• Accidental injury
• appetite increased
• back pain
• bloated or full feeling
• body aches or pain *
• burning, dry, or itching eyes *
• change in vision *
• change in walking and balance *
• clumsiness or unsteadiness *
• congestion 
• constipation *
• cough producing mucus
• decrease in sexual desire or ability *
• difficulty with breathing *
• dryness of the mouth or throat *
• earache
• excess air or gas in the stomach or intestines * especially an hour after taking.
• excessive tearing *
• eye discharge
• feeling faint, dizzy, or lightheadedness *
• feeling of warmth or heat *
• flushed, dry skin *
• flushing or redness of the skin, especially on the face and neck
• frequent urination
• fruit-like breath odor
• impaired vision *
• incoordination *
• increased hunger
• increased sensitivity to pain
• increased sensitivity to touch *
• increased thirst *
• indigestion
• noise in the ears *
• pain, redness, rash, swelling, or bleeding where the skin is rubbed off
• passing gas
• redness or swelling in the ear
• redness, pain, swelling of the eye, eyelid, or inner lining of the eyelid
• runny nose
• sneezing
• sweating *
• tender, swollen glands in the neck *
• tightness in the chest *
• tingling in the hands and feet *
• trouble sleeping *
• trouble swallowing*
• trouble thinking*
• twitching****   F*CK!  ;(   NO thanks!
• unexplained weight loss *
• voice changes
• vomiting *
• weakness or loss of strength *
• weight gain

Wow.. How about an article on what common prescribed medications do to Children, how they can REALLY HARM & KILL. Unlike Cannabis.
This week is my last on this dangerous drug.
I've increased my cannabis  intake- I smoke all day long, edibles too at night. 
I've had a candy or two that has been as potent as mentioned int he article... how did I feel? GREAT. Relaxed, happy & rested and had a fantastic sleep afterwards.
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Thank God.  

Canadian Cannabis Hypocrisy  (one example).. simple for all to understand. No lies

With LOVE
​G

 Afternoon Delight.  Wow... I needed that.
This painting was waiting to emerge, more than I realized.
hee hee, I'd say that sky WAS a little boring ..before.
It started with one of my bigger brushes and I threw the paint on -  base color on a white canvas, sketching my bear with a brush instead of a pencil- "just paint!" I remember thinking.  The rest of the days were spent with much smaller brush - as small as a '0' most of the time.
As a matter of fact- it's how the fur was painted as well as the grass. TLC in every stroke.
THC too.   I'm learning to recognize my calmer moments (twitch-less) when I can work on more detailed areas like the face. I enjoyed painting this you have no idea & clarity in severals issues flowed to me like paint off my brush.
F*ck off.   LOL.  
Who needs this negative drama? Not me.  
Frig, Im tired- I think a lot lately- i just want to paint.
Focus on what you love Georgia..  enjoy your time doing what you enjoy most.. whispered my canvas.  

I am tired - I've been waking up every few hours for weeks, I went to the Dr. Monday and he felt what I also discovered recently, a big lump in my arm pit.  It's been causing me pain but I thought it was just stress from a few others things I was trying to sort out'.  Thursday I was already having a mammogram & ultrasound.  The mammogram was not bad at all, btw. 
I've felt worse.
Then I had the ultrasound and I could see what she could see and suddenly there was a big black ball. "Is THAT it??" I asked
...  "Yep, that's it."  
Yikes. That is... disturbing- seeing big black ball inside your body. 
It would take 5 days possibly with the long weekend for results I was told.
It was called already it is a very swollen Lymphnode which I will have to have checked again soon.  I'm told to relax, destress & enjoy. Ha! You don't have to tell me twice.
Before I got the FANTASTIC news I had already resolved that morning (after that great walk I had with my son) - I will rise above! I started my day with CoconutCream home made - bakery cake, fresh pineapple  (the bakery is in Newmarket - I highly recommend, as does Storm & now Norm) & coffee... then I got the call.  I'm Smiling!
YES I AM.  & know to keep on going the direction I am ..rise above with love.
Anger, hate, revenge- I've no time for. 

Who does? it's bad for the body, it's bad for your heart & mind. 
Not to mention -it makes it difficult for me to paint. ;) Truly - I was so tired that after I got the news I slept! lol ;) the body saying RELAX. I JUST finished this bear at 6 this a.m. 

I plan on doing just that. There is nothing like a serious cancer scare to help re align your life.  What matters? Hate begets hate. I can't paint if I feel hate, I physically can't & won't do it to myself.  Think about cancer seriously in your own body and you realize how trivial  so much of 'it' is.  
Thank You God.
I needed that.

Natural medicine is on my mind. The last Mapping of the Minds event educated me further and arrgavated me fruther- one more F*&^%$$$ lie it appears. Mushrooms are on the bottom of the list when it comes to dangerous 'drugs' (on the top was alcohol) or common recreational drugs... even after cannabis! I resent calling them drugs.  I had no idea.  Why are we being lied to? Why are people going to jail over such insanity!  
NATURE.
God put all plants here for all man- OUR CREATOR knew when these plants were placed here- they would HELP US.  *Mushroom are dangerous- IF YOU PICK the wrong ones YOU can die. KNOW your mushrooms- ALL of them. They are also healthy, beneficial and medicinal.  Bear is contemplating life,  Nature & Medicine.

I've included a Star mushroom- puffball', I met a very smart young man on one of our last forays with a cool name who educated me on them and where to find them.. the others are imagined or real- I'm not sure I've seen so many. My Bear Afternoon Delight is out and on my wall, Norm said "Wow, it's like 3D with those dots!" Storm too has commented on the detail several times.  I JUST want to PAINT it does the heart & art Good.

With it- thought, prayers and resolution- it always happens when I paint.
GIVE Thanks! I've already started another canvas! 
YOU know I'm (WE are ALL) celebrating this Thanks Giving!!

I'm still experiencing pain- I shall increase my medicine intake- amen.
& enjoy every second of it.

With Love 
​G
'Afternoon Delight' 
24 x 36 Acrylic on Canvas    Celebrating Natural medicine & Life.

She's coming along nicely, my bear..
I think this is the way to go! No more over thinking.. just paint!
This bear- the entire painting was inspired by those mushrooms she is looking at.
Afternoon Delight!  Natural Medicine.  Cannabis is my  morning, afternoon & night delight!

A wonderful summer day... which we should still be getting this week according to the news.
This morning felt like fall indeed! I had to insist Poppy go out to pee!
She was holding it, waiting until it warms up...
This ain't California Poppy.

I'm painting to destress & I think about everything or nothing at all.
When I was in California, shortly after I arrived my friend remarked 'he was disappointed he didn't realize how ill I was & then I met someone else shortly after how also apologized 'they didn't realize how sick I was.'      Do people think I'm faking this?
Am I any different in real life than on here?
Some..  only in the sense I don't tell you how bad things can be, every day.. what's the point? 
My Dr. tells me  it's partly because of this blog - which makes me laugh (really) because I thought I've been very honest by sharing 'living with TN on this blog.

Is it because I refuse to stay in bed and feel sorry for myself?
Is it because I continue to paint everyday - Doing what I LOVE?
Is it because I laugh and play everyday with my dogs & significant others?
Is it because in my e mails I enjoy having  fun - does this mean I'm misleading people?
Is it because I try to celebrate God & am thrilled about my own faith being what it is?

Oh! I bet it's because people think I sit around and smoke cannabis all day!!!  & I DO!
Thank God! Without it.. I doubt I would be doing much of anything.   

I see people struggling on line- No money for Hydro bills$ and I can honestly say- I have been there. We have had our hydro cut off .   You  FOCUS on moving forward.
You have your health - you can see, hear, speak & walk (with a few exceptions)
& PRAY - on your knees  if it's 'that bad'.
I suggested this to someone else and then realized later they post on FB every hour at least.. all day every day.  Yep.  How much are you giving God if you're on social media all day crying the blues  OR your kids or YOURSELF. 
& if not on Social media- then STUCK in front of the television. 

I think the best thing for anyone who is struggling would be to turn social media off!
TRY IT FOR ONE WEEK.
Focus on your life- do what takes. We all have a GIFT.
You won't find it constantly distracted by your phone. 
We all have opportunity.
We all have LOVE.
We are never alone.  

Do people think 'I'm faking it'- yes, I guess so.
Good.
I'm doing something right.
Back to Bear & 'Afternoon Delight! 

What a Glorious day Indeed!  GIVE THANKS! 
​More bear tomorrow..

Good news- remember the boat by-law?  While I was away this summer , the boat by-law was tossed! You are now able to keep your boat in the driveway in Georgina..  too bad we had to have such a negative experience with the town over it,  clearly I'm not the only one who complained of unfair treatments. All is good! Enjoy the last days of summer.

I'm feeling stronger mentally than I have in a while.. my own son remarked - have you started taking anti depressants? lol  NO!!! (*I know  some people believe they need medication, I'm not judging - I'm just telling you what I know does NOT work for me.
The woman on the subway who bites her dog, definitely needs medication.)             Cannabis helps with moods... In light of the recent events- he said I seem 'happier these weeks' - I can see his surprise.. it's quite the opposite actually and I'm thrilled about it...
​I'm nearly OFF the medication I was taking for my nerve pain.  Still having the pain and side effects from the pills so I decided 'they had to go, not to mention a few things I read were setting off alarms.  I feel  CLEARER headed than I have in ages, my balance is better, walking is  the best it's been in years, I don't feel like I'm going to vomit as soon as I wake up, I know it was the pills! Im not even making as many e mail mistakes.. I feel as though a fog has been lifted.  Almost off!!  GREAT NEWS. 

Canada will be legal across the country soon for cannabis, along with it will come acceptance and the stigma will be realized and understood- more people will use it for PTSD, chrones, arthritis, nausea, pain.. MORE people will be OFF of pills!  ;)))

We are having a lovely end to this summer with a few warm days.  I predict a cold, lots of snow winter - painting supplies ready!  I'm not a groundhog so I could be wrong with my prediction.

Daisy is now the official household Frisbee champion! Just ask Scruffy & Poppy.

I think I witnessed an alien sighting this week- seriously..
I've included the photos below, circled in red. it just hovered for the longest time after clouds opened and then  vanished UP.  Anyhow, I was not abducted.. so it's good news too! 


Creatively
Georgia
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Be on 'High Alert... next

Women in the cannabis industry...
Jodie Emery comes to mind..  she is educated, successful, powerful, attractive and speaks  professionally & properly about cannabis, I draw better than anything.. ;)  Jodie has made strides for cannabis across Canada & around the world & is by far one of the best women representing in the industry.  Of course past representatives I think of Michelle Rainy, she was a True Queen in the Cannabis industry, her compassion was like no other we've experienced.  Many women/advocates have an online presence - and they don't give themselves credit for all the awareness they bring! You don't need to be FAMOUS - you just need to be persistent. Persistent & passionate about this plant.

There are several women raising awareness regarding cannabis, you might have seen the new show on netflix-  Disjointed. I watched a few episodes & I was disappointed with Disjointed. I was upset the first episode ended with a woman rubbing 'medicated lube on her steering wheel before she drives home - WTF?  What genius approved that?
What message did that alone send out- never mind the constant  degrading stoner mentality seen in the show. I didn't find it funny.. sure it has stereotypical stoner laughs, I found it disrespectful and disheartening for all who fight with their lives and children lives, more T.V. mind wasting stuff.  For the record - I love Kathy Bates, I hope, IF it continues- they change it up a bit, I've read it's not doing so great.

Like most businesses - women are taken advantage of and stereo types like this are not helping.  I know of women who want in the industry so bad - they are falling for the lies & snakes that tell them. Being used, abused and tossed like trash.  IF anyone 'makes promises' - get it in writing.   Men are still making all the money and degrading women along the way.  I have witnessed first hand how liars work and how they manipulate - I recently found out 'a friend'  has been nothing more than a liar:   The Sun the Moon & the Truth, three things can not long be hidden.

I'm hurt,  I lost a friend - not 'who they said they were' so I guess it's no real loss.
It is someone in the industry,  I was struggling with going out in public before and am worse now because I found out this person was knocking me to others'.  Pointing out my facial twitch to others in a degrading manner.  Who does this?  Pretends they are friends for over a year but tells others 'they have no clue who I am..' phones, e mails & more- you should see my extensive photo collection. LIES.  Why I'm not sure, I was told 'I'm valuable in the industry as is my art.'  I found this all out first hand & it's taken me a few weeks just to absorb.. I feel 'dirty 'for being friends now with this person.   My trust is gone.. :(

I found out,  I forgive faster than even I realize, forgive and forget  so you don't waste one more second of life on parasites who prey on others.   Don't let anyone drain your passion or energy... let it be fuel - let it make you stronger. Burn BRIGHTER! 

YOU - you know who you are..
I know you read my blog & have been for a while.
You are forgiven.  
How quick some can go from Hero to Zero,  it's my own fault for ever putting anyone on a pedestal in the first place. I was spared even more bullshit by a brave woman who confronted me because she knew what was happening.    
 I know several women are now reading my blog.  
Yes, he does know me, yes he pretended to like me', yes he sent me photos, yes he hinted...    you know - the same shit you hear on a different day .

                WOMEN WE have to support each other - MORE than ever! 
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​The canabis industry is one women should be a part of and a focal point! Strong Men who are not intimidated by women support them, strong men are the only ones who can handle strong women. The companies which will succeed are ones with women on board, so far I'm pleased the way Canada is going & will be watching closely. 

There are MANY in the industry making a positive difference to communities and more. Raising money & awareness and are truly GOOD people...  They will rise and succeed faster! The world is tired of rich assholes'  pushing their way into places they don't belong.  
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Women have the creativity, brains and more for the cannabis industry - I can't wait to watch them rise!

I will rise higher & faster! With love I can not fail.
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When I say 'God has my back' I know it's a fact.  :)
I literally prayed for resolution regarding this person & the next day I was contacted.
It was difficult but now I'm aware & stronger than ever & I made a new friend!
lol - who knew?   Give thanks!  Continue to LOVE!  
RISE higher & faster with love.

Fate made us sisters.. Hearts made us friends.
WE ARE ALL SISTERS!

With Love 
g