The lord works in mysterious ways - he keeps me laughing in between crying.
I AM continually reminded how I have been helped many times over- I realized a few things yesterday after a Ray of sunshine on what started a grey morning!
I learned over the years I have met some incredible lawyers & EVERY time they have helped me & have never charged me. Once a police officer even went to court to fight for me & won. I have been protected my whole life. Thank you Lord.
They all have told me they know/knew I was/am telling the truth and helped - it's been that simple... I guess they should know if they have been living it long enough and they also know when someone is not doing something 'for money'. Yesterday I ended up speaking to a lawyer (I never met before) all I know is his name was Ray and he was a Ray of fucking sunshine I needed. He explained a few things & I have heard this before ONE other time:
No lawyer wants to spend time on your case, although it's NOT right what you experienced - you were NOT physically hurt (other than a sore breast & slapped on the arm & back) like -I did not lose a limb in a car accident - so WHEN I would win- I'd only get a small amount and it's about $1,500 just to start a file. A lot of time for little $. I get it.
He also understood I don't want any other woman to experience this.
Wow. The other time we heard that was when the genetics specialist at Sick kids told us:
No scientist are going to waste time trying to find a cure for a disease that only a few people have. Storms illness was/is considered an 'Orphan' disease - very rare.
'That' back then... felt like a slap.
MONEY MONEY MONEY... Good thing I know God has my back, no deposit required only faith in others and myself needed. Ray restored my faith in humans. He didn't even know. He inspired the thank you card... already in the mail.
There's nothing like a kick in the teeth of reality to give me a kick in the ass to make shit happen myself! I realized I am not weak- (as I felt in that office last week) I am STRONG.
That "technician" I'm confident will definitely THINK the next time she behaves as she did
NEVER LET ANYONE TOUCH you in anyway you feel uncomfortable! Being smacked on the arm while my breast was in that machine - SHOWED her LACK of control & let me clarify for the record- it wasn't about being 'SMACKED' as I've been smacked, punched slapped, hair pulled, clothes torn and then some my entire life - far worse than what she did to me. To treat a patient (stranger) as she did while my breast was in that machine - showed her LEVEL of professionalism - Treating a patient who is naked & vulnerable & frightened with anything other than compassion - speaks volumes about that 'PROFESSIONAL'.
I was grateful to Ray ' he calmed me down - explained things as they are, was patient.... after I got off the phone & painted (felt good) I made him a thank you card- as I do. It made me LOL - I guess it is HOW I heal. I realized when I looked up the address - I just had a conversation about my "fucking boob was in a vice when she lost it!" with a 'criminal lawyer.' That made me really laugh out loud. Someone who deals with murder... I did think later... I should have punched her - I'd been happy to explain it to a judge. I could not have reached.. my boob did not stretch that far... that & she was definitely NOT worth me hurting my painting hands!
I do think Ray thought 'tit was a joke for a second when I first called him as he asked 'who told you to call me?? (9 a.m.) Another lawyers had given me his #. I am forever grateful for his brutal reply - it saved me time and energy' then - I knew the exact direction to take and the rest of the day went so smoothly - all I could think:
Thank you again, for answering my prayers.
PLEASE NOTE: I LEARNED these 'PRIVATE places'- when there is an issue - GOOD LUCK! & Ray told me that too- it's not like you can even contact anyone - there is NO ONE on the WWW for you to ask for - that alone should be sending up red flags! They have it so it's work just tracking them down, who has time, energy - or in some cases $ for lawyers.
FROM NOW ON I will have all my tests done at the hospital or with a REGISTERED organization with reputable service & PROFESSIONAL, COMPASSIONATE employees.
I share this bullshit so YOU Might avoid it- I won't give that bitch another thought, she's not worth it. Life is too short & I have painting to do- cards to make & smile to produce!! AMEN.
ANYONE who thinks I'm being dramatic - HAVE a STRANGER put your breast/penis in a vice while you're naked & trapped - alone in a room with a shut door - you can't reach - then you are slapped by them while they are yelling their credentials! Have that happen...
Then let's have this fucking conversation again.
I bet your perspective changes.
Lesson learned it will never happen to me again! I go prepared from now on to every appointment & IF I want someone in the room with me - I am getting someone IN the room with me! FUCK that- this system needs FIXED!!!
Western medicine becomes less appealing with every visit.
Medical professionals are just as capable of mental health issues as the REST of us=
NURSE Elizabeth Wettlaufer or Surgeon Mohammed Shamji
are just two examples.
With TLC & THC
Yoda & Kermit are sold.
Wait until you see my Space Monkey that inspired another space monkey - and a space monkey painting! Time to get creative.
CLEARLY THERE IS AN issue... WHY is this person still working there!? I feel sad for the young mom too. NO, not 'physically hurt - still - fucked with mentally BY an angry bitch who takes it out on PATIENTS.