Wee - excited to start a new adventure - an art adventure!  The best kind.  
This morning  I've got a new canvas in front of me & it is big!  My biggest yet.
Kinda nervous... until the creative adrenaline kicks in and I can't wait to start!!!
A new project in the works for a while & now there is serious interest to complete it - this entails other projects be put aside  for focus....  no sharing- not until a proper introduction' can be arranged.  Now  research, take a visual adventurer on my computer, on the road & in my mind on a project that goes beyond cannabis.  
Mushrooms, Cannabis, stars, trees  I can't begin to explain my level of excitement for this next project. Or have I?   lol 

It's caused for some experimental painting like the cowardly lion & these bears - which was not as easy as I thought training  my brain to think shades of purple & not brown.
Little cannabis Buds now enter my mind at all times even when out and about - it's really comical, who knew my little Weeed cards would make 'me' laugh as much as they do...  
not I.
 
The Canadian life expectancy for the first time  in it's history, has not increased in Canada... Opiates are responsible,  mostly men are dying - dealing with pain mental & physical - overdosing -   I  for one do NOT enjoy being 'wasted' - the feeling Pills give me- not wanting to do anything but sleep...  it's not enjoyable - not on pills, booze or cannabis.
Can we focus on the REAL problem killing Canadians & finally stop stressing over cannabis HYPE- this afternoon I admitted to a girlfriend - had I not had my vaporizer by my bedside this past couple weeks - I'd of been on opiates, my hip/bum hurt so bad & still aches- although I finally slept  last night.  Had I went to the hospital right away  & they gave me 'something for pain' - I probably would have taken in my moment of weakness...
Life hurts occasionally - it teaches us this way.
Embrace it - It was a kick in the ass from God - It worked!  Tuff love.  
 
Thank God for this glorious plant!  
​How many years have I been planting this seed - not enough. Have you tried it yet?  
There a few closet tokers 'now' come out in the open to me...   about time. 

Please consider cannabis for pain if you injury yourself before you take opiates.  

With TLC & THC
​Georgia

If you think I am being sarcastic when I say Praise Jesus!! Think again. WOW - my backside still brings a tear to my eye especially getting up into my truck or up our of my bed but the Dr. says I'm o.k.  rest it - thank God for the flesh on my ass that padded my fall - what a rude awakening & I might have cracked a rib because it hurts to cough... thank God I did not break my hip.  

My girlfriend phoned me this morning, she had the same thing happen to her last year & it made her sell her house... WHILE you can still move. I've been watching a new trend in homes being built on one level - with lifts (elevators) and wider halls and fewer doors or pocket doors & doors that side flat against the wall (barn doors) - in the event the home owner ends up in a while chair outlets are higher & counters slightly lower smart planning - heres hoping the person is not a hoarder, that's just going to get worse.  Arthritis is also something that makes you learn quickly things that need to be changed  like door handles - those round cheap knobs  are useless when you have sever arthritis - pull handles or levels  are the easiest - if you can imagine these things when buying a home or building a home you're ahead of the game & can add years - decades, to the place you want to live at.  Bungalow is my new key word.

I painted this dog- lol  just to paint  & I needed to stand, I can see a bit of pain in his eyes - I'll call it curiosity'.  Before I went to my Dr.s I had some time a little giggle & decided to make him one of my Weeeeeed - side lines (already) Little Buddies' card   hee hee hee
I've turned a few friends into little buds & added professions - This is the first Dr. bud!  
He doesn't strike me as the type to 'recreational' any drug so it made me laugh all the more.  I felt silly after learning it was not broken - but better all the same to learn it's not & now I can stop stressing & rest by sitting at my desk on a big pillow & painting ! Wee! 

Everything for a reason. 

with TLC & THC

​Georgia

Another pondering primate... what is my new chimp obsession?  It's been triggered by several things I guess, most recently the thought of the loss of more beautiful beasts.  Destruction due to consumption, too much to ponder some days. This chimp brought a new level of painter... I know this when I spent an afternoon patiently painting the hair 'just on his chinny, chin, chin! 

Why do we still have plastic bags? Lazy. These magnicifant mammals each one a miracle & our lazy butts & gluttony for palmoil are kiling them & I'm sure someone somewhere is  using Chimp for medicinal reasons or even decorative.  I'd rather not research that, now.
I find myself pondering the stoned ape theory again -how 'evolved' we have all become or have we? According to the studies we have started our own mass destruction - so why wait one more day to stop using plastic bags?  Why?  

As I finished this painting Denver has decriminalized Psilocybin mushrooms! The first of many US States with Canada following soon. Everything this blog said about cannabis - apply it to 'magic mushrooms' - = Psilocybin . It's that simple. EVERYTHING. I am forever grateful for this slow but steady personal education & depression releasing medicine. If not completely releasing  at least discovering = Forgiving.  Cannabis is my choice of daily medicine but every now & then my body & mind tell me when it's time to medicate with psilocybin. My lite treatment caused some negative effects - I can't even begin... I'm takng a break & wearing scrubs for comfort BUTT it said getting worse before better - might be a side effect. So  feeling a bit blue with not much to do I decided to finish my primate that I started a few weeks ago. 

Psilocybin help me 'feel a little more loved' for much of what I don't normally find very 'lovable at times. Including myself.  

I'm in full painting mode again ;) - to keep me out of depression mode  ;( .  
I already have the NEXT painting sketched in my mind - another pondering primate   in a slightly 'new style' an experiment, I think. Weeeeeeee...   

 ;D  I'lll leave this here so you might ponder a little.

With LOVE 
Georgia

NFS... unless the offer is worthwhile & will purchase much more paint! ;)
Acrylic on wood panel. Gold, Copper paint that makes this painting look different every time you look at it as well as around the edges - make sit POP  ;).
I'm forever grateful for the experience.

Can you guess who I am..  I'll tell you at the end.
Schools out for summer & might not be returning.. I can't express the sadness I felt watching my high school  York Memorial go up in flames  yesterday.  A flood of memories overwhelmed me, walking the halls, the lockers, the auditorium in all it's Glory, the stained glass windows the trophy cabinets, magnificent details at every turn. I hope they rebuild and not remove.  This is where my love for art took OFF -I had great art teachers  both women, Mr.s Obrien was my favourite she introduced me to painting, clay, egg tempura, everything art was started here. Friends, relationships, the first time I smoked Pot.. lol isn't it for most? My first parties, football socials & like many I lost my virginity to someone met in high school my last year. You don't even realize all the memories until you see it fade before your eyes. I'm forever grateful for the experience.

& I was blue due to the news that we are destroying our planet at a greater rate than anticipated (and grater than I feel they are letting on to us mere humans due to panic)- killing creatures... Trophy hunting should immediately banned.  Birds especially are on quick decline & then to learn about DOUG Ford..  I take it back thinking  he would be good for Ontario.  As soon as these creatures are gone - we will be shortly after.  It's terrible for children now - knowing we have started our own MASS extinction yet we CONTINUE to let politicians like DOUG Ford decide Canadians futures - he obviously doesn't care about the environment & that should be our first priority when we boot those deciding our fate  out of office.

When I went to bed last night at 7 I was blue & beat but today I was excited to get up and work on my chimp which reminds me... Norm is redoing the basement floors (hee hee) over the decades he has  laid new floors for different rooms (depending on what was on sale) NOW of course he is in agreement 'it would look better with same flooring throughout', "I told you..."  was said,  I've moved my studio to the bedroom & have been painting at all hours - I'm pleased with my newest creation - I spent yesterday painting the hairs on a chimps chiny chin chin! lol  

It's a painting I become absolutely absorbed in & between us I'm calling it a self portrait. haha I love every second & in between I'm painting Weeeeeed cards- they make me giggle.
 I friend sent me a few ideas today which also cracked me up! Weeeeeee!

Sad but not forgotten.. Nothing lasts forever lets hope we get our acts together  regarding transformation of the planet before it's too late. No more plastic bags - why are we still going plastic bags? Why are we sill doing plastic? HEMP is better. 

With TLC & THC 
​Georgia
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I'm the middle row, second from the left - the guy behind me in a white top was tickling me...  look at the confused expressions - clearly the photographer did not count to 3. 

 I lovingly refer to  (& I think he'd love this): 'Vincent VanGogh 2019'  hee hee.
I paint freestyle - by looking - to look is to get lost in Vincent Van Gogh, pure pleasure.  Some of you will think I've lost my mind - like Norm who recognized 'Starry Night but not the  Skeleton smoking  as both of Vincent's paintings.

Doing what he loved yet distracted, tired, sick, lonely, overwhelmed - sound familiar- Depression.  Apparently had his  Mental health issues  been addressed he would have been very successful & might've seen more than one painting sold. Addressed & not shunned - it can go two ways from what I understand - the 'not so nice way' is more people taking their own lives because they are taking medications that do not work - Depression is not a racist nor does it care about how much money you have.  If we keep shaming, an article I read stated people will just start to hide it better... until they show up at Sunday Mass with a grenade for  the cash basket. 

When we shame mental illness we are applying the same rules as prohibition - what a failure it has been.  If your face twitched 24/7 you would think about this stuff too. God's not playing anymore - pay attention ;)  "You are only as sick as your secrets" - a remark  I think  I heard on a Pod Cast- it must have been my favourite 'Hidden Brain',  every episode interesting.  Growing up 'My Moods'  were shamed, often...  a big secret, I get it - NOW- this is how some handle events but it's not healthy imo - the sooner we address unpleasant events & feelings  the sooner we can try to heal & move on, my mom had a terrible event happen to her at a fairly young age & was understandably depressed at the time - but now  many parent's  are both paying more attention to social media then their children.
The kids won't be pleased when they get older.
It's a fact - try to prove me wrong.

How many  generations started the same way as Vincent, myself, my mom was one of 6 kids & I never met any grandpa...  dealing with mental illness decades later, generations later.  Babies having babies, young parents having too many, too soon with obligations thrown at them pretty quickly - I've blogged when we were first married how we stole a case of baby food to get by...  By the Grace of God - it's why I was more than happy to accept donations  to food bank at Halloween. Yes, I speak from experience - marriage is difficult enough - wait to have your babies -be ready to welcome them with love.  
Instagram, face book, Selfies, Social media, socializing & recreational drugs YIKES! 
    MORE & MORE  babies are ending up  with a wire monkey mom.  & or dad.

Please, Wake the fuck up. Babies do not ask to be born - we humans are given the choice to procreate - carelessly - if we desire.  

People use to often remark when Storm was little:
"Let him cry!"  or ...     " You never put him down... "                      Amen. 
Please put down your phones & pick up your babies.
​
With TLC & THC
​Georgia

This card was painted specificaly with a bud in mind! Hee hee 'Patti the Bud whipping around town in her weed fueled wheelchair! Weeeeeeeee....d!  That is how she rolls!
We met several years ago at a cannabis event (one of our first) &  she is actually one of the very few humans I communicate with every few days - if only a short "hey -still alive?" kinda e mail.. lol   Patti has been a wheel chair most of her life & has educated  me on several issues though out the years - mostly via venting from frustration & I understand (now) why.

Patti uses cananbis for pain & has been a legal medical recipient for years -long before legalization.. at a time when we had to fight, hide & sneak around, when fear mongering within our own Government was at an all time HIGH.  I remember her contacting me terribly distressed when S.H. (Initials for Steven Harper also stands for Shit Head) threatened to have doors broken down if we didn't toss our EXCESS cannabis out with the kitty litter,   Luckily I assure her- Don't stress - let them fucking try! & assured her if they did it would be a political nightmare for busing a LEGITIMATE patient.  The government is in fact responsible for much Of Patti's problems if you ask me, like the fact they give her free opiates -which are destroying her insides & mental state from side effects - yet she can't get her cannabis covered- a much less harmful pain medicine alternative.  

& Patt is upset & tired of seeing these places open that she can not access & if you think about it - IF it was YOU, your daughter, mother friend- YOU would get upset too - from blatant ignorance & disrespect  it appears.  The government, Mayor John Tory  & Ontario disabilities are  few places I have recently contacted- trying to understand why we are continue to allow NEW dispensaries NOW opening  to NOT be wheel chair accessible - not one has even responded. Do you know why this is happening?  They DON'T care.
They DON'T fucking understand, they can not relate to life in a wheel chair... If they did I bet the rules would change mighty fast. Let's hope Karma doesn't intervene to show them exactly what this life is like.  

Being alienated on a daily basis from being able to participate in simple acts that ALL of us do - simple because of a lack of consideration or intentional lack of consideration is a concern for all Canadians.  It's also fucking depressing...   most people who suffer from chronic illness or disabilities  also suffer from depression - go figure.  

I am determined not to exclude my pal Patti - if only with one of these Weeeeeeeeed cards!
​I am forever grateful for her shared  lessons on a subject I know very little about & take very much for granted, for this education I have become a better human.

Please show some EXTRA TLC & THC to our fellow humans & future friends who use wheels instead of legs to get around. That's the only difference - and for this she is punished daily - due to OUR lack of caring & insisting!  If you visit a dispensary that is not wheel chair accessible - perhaps point this OUT to them.
That's a step in the right direction for those that can not walk.

with TLC & THC
Georgia

     If Gumby was in the Cannabis Industry - marketing & packaging  would be all the buzz.
Have you introduced your kids Gumby? I grew up a single child raised by a single working mom  so I watched a lot of cartoons & had a lot of 'alone time. Gumby, Bugs, Mickey & Kermit were not just entertainment' but friends' who inspired a great deal. 

I realized how serious many of the lesson Gumby discussed were as a child & Beeecause they stuck' with me to date & are still a problem today as in 2 Bee or Not 2 Bee.  Spraying illegal chemicals on the plants making all the Bees sick s- they get a Biker metal Bee to help  If only it was so.  Gumby was educating children the best way the creator thought to do.
Me too.

Gumby also encouraged limitless creativity with his magical body of clay powers & pony pal Pokey too.  Hee hee     Creativity keep me going, these little characters sit in a shelf in my office treasures from the past- I like them because they trigger happy memories... if I had any advice to offer anyone about decor in the work space' make sure all you see is associated with a good memory or peaceful feeling.  

Today was one of those days I lay down for a nap & that turned into 6 hours! Clearly,  needed, still feeling tired I'll take a few quite days to paint, rest & medicate & meditate.  & catch up on some painting that have been under the surface for a while now.  That's always good news for anyone that might be waiting on a painting... or mail - your patience is  appreciated.

I just found out about a 'GoFundMe' I am going to contribute to & I encourage you  to consider the same.  Toronto ground breaking documented research for depression, anxiety using microdosing psilocybin:         https://www.gofundme.com/microdosing

With TLC & THC
​G

It's time - 'Spring Blossoms' & of course I'm thinking of Spring buds & Spring Buds!  I also watched 'Memoirs of Geisha, I can't say as I enjoyed it as much as I did the first time, visually a great movie but the story - all too the same.  Differnt women, differnt culture, same struggle.  This time it made me think it's another version of 'Pretty Woman'.  Life as a porstiture - is rarely happily ever after.  Far from it.  To think I raved about that movie the first time I saw it back in 1990 '28' years ago & now what I think are two very different opinions. 

Age, wisdom.. time changes you and your opinion on much if you allow it... and you may as well anyhow because it's happening  - like it or not. Thank God or it would be brutal if we all got stuck at 15.  Not to say there are not some very impressive, incredibly intelligent & craazy creative 15 year olds out there - even younger - you realize it when you hear 'them speaking about climate change' & still hopeful we can do something about it.  That Walrus special on Netflix.. I watched it and it was - really heartbreaking awakening, I turned away...  to see these animals struggle & then perish as they do.   Talk about climate change denial, you won't after watching that - So, if for that reason alone - Please do.  Do not pretend you do not see or do not know, afterall it's the least we can do - acknowledge our...  I can't think of one word to describe what we do to this planest on a daily basics..   I guess It would be: Rape. 

Nothing can be done to help the walrus, I am not in denial - I can paint them to show my appreciation  and hope it helps me & others take a little more care to prevent/slow down future animal inhalation.  Plastic bags really need to go - the garbage Walmart hands out here 'rips so easily you can't even use them twice - why are we allowing this, so it won't intefer with shopping?
Different quality from the bags in the USA.  Check & see, I noticed when in California.
Goodbye walrus,  sorry we are such consuming beasts.' 

The buds are beautiful..   they remind me of new life.  You stare at those ice covered branches only a few weeks ago & think - how do they survive this, are they dead?
They do survive.  Geisha are beautiful - the word means 'Artist - I guess in a way - I am a Geisha - lol  in essesnce,  are all women  not Geisha? What are these titles...   Geisha, Prostiture, street worker, whore, slut, bitch...  I have no problem with those words I know it's only a matter of ones opinions';  it's 'Pimp  & sex trafficking' that bother me.  I read about a young very intelligent woman in college  who thought she was being romanced and  was force & beaten into having sex with strangers for money only weeks later - humiliated, exhausted, she did not want to tell anyone.    Frig, another young woman  got into a car she thought was her Uber because she was not paying attention - too busy on her phone & was never seen again.  & Social media-  is harming YOUNG women in particular, if I was a parent I'd take away the phone between set hours because: I love her.
But I get it...   I am not you & currently living with a teenage girl.  What will you do?
Priorities.  I think they need re defining, on a global scale.    
Global warming it's real.

Next - a Truibute to Walt Disney, Dumbo & Depression.

With TLC & THC
​G

The lord works in mysterious ways - he keeps me laughing in between crying.
I AM continually reminded how I have been helped many times over- I realized a few things yesterday after a Ray of sunshine on what started a grey morning! 
I learned over the years I have met some incredible lawyers  & EVERY time they have helped me & have never charged me.  Once a police officer even went to court to fight for me & won.  I have been protected my whole life.  Thank you Lord.

They all have told me they know/knew I was/am telling the truth and helped - it's been that simple... I guess they should know if they have been living it long enough and they also know when someone is not doing something 'for money'.  Yesterday I ended up speaking to a lawyer (I never met before) all I know is his name was Ray and he was a Ray of fucking sunshine I needed.  He explained a few things & I have heard this before  ONE other time:

No lawyer wants to spend time on your case, although  it's NOT right what you experienced - you were NOT physically hurt (other than a sore breast & slapped on the arm & back) like -I did not lose a limb in a car accident - so WHEN I would win- I'd only get a small amount and it's about $1,500 just to start a file.  A lot of time for little $.      I get it. 
He also understood I don't want any other woman to experience this.

Wow. The other time we heard that was when the genetics specialist at Sick kids told us:
No scientist are going to waste time trying to find a cure for a disease that only a few people have.  Storms illness was/is considered an 'Orphan' disease - very rare.
 'That' back then... felt like a slap. 

MONEY MONEY MONEY...         Good thing I know  God has my back, no deposit required only faith in others and myself needed.  Ray restored my faith in humans. He didn't even know.  He inspired the thank you card... already in the mail.

There's nothing like a kick in the teeth of reality to give me a kick in the ass to make shit happen myself! I realized I am not weak-  (as I felt in that office last week) I am STRONG.

That "technician" I'm confident will definitely THINK the next time she behaves as she did
NEVER LET ANYONE TOUCH you in anyway you feel uncomfortable!  Being smacked on the arm while my breast was in that machine - SHOWED her LACK of control & let me clarify for the record- it wasn't about being 'SMACKED' as I've been smacked, punched slapped, hair pulled, clothes torn and then some my entire life - far worse than what she did to me.  To treat a patient (stranger) as she did while my breast was in that machine - showed her LEVEL of professionalism - Treating a patient who is naked & vulnerable & frightened  with anything other than compassion - speaks volumes about that 'PROFESSIONAL'.  

I was grateful to  Ray ' he calmed me down - explained things as they are, was patient....  after I got off the phone & painted (felt good) I made him a thank you card- as I do. It made me LOL - I guess it is HOW I heal.   I realized when I looked up the address - I just had a conversation about my "fucking boob was in a vice when she lost it!"  with a 'criminal lawyer.'  That made me really  laugh out loud.  Someone who deals with murder... I did think later... I should have punched her - I'd been happy to explain it to a judge.  I could not have reached.. my boob did not stretch that far...  that & she was definitely NOT  worth me hurting my painting hands!
 
I do think Ray thought 'tit was a joke for  a second when I first called him as he asked 'who told you to call me??  (9 a.m.) Another lawyers had given me his #.  I am forever grateful for his brutal reply - it saved me time and energy' then - I knew the exact direction to take and the rest of the day went so smoothly - all I could think:
                                       Thank you again, for answering my prayers.

PLEASE NOTE: I LEARNED these 'PRIVATE places'- when there is an issue - GOOD LUCK!  & Ray told me that too-  it's not like you can even contact anyone - there is NO ONE on the WWW for you to ask for - that alone should be sending up red flags! They have it so it's work just tracking them down,  who has time, energy - or in some cases $ for lawyers.
FROM NOW ON I will have all my tests done at the hospital or with a REGISTERED organization with reputable service & PROFESSIONAL, COMPASSIONATE employees.  

I share this bullshit so YOU Might avoid it- I won't give that bitch another thought, she's not worth it.  Life is too short & I have painting to do- cards to make & smile to produce!! AMEN.

ANYONE who thinks I'm being dramatic - HAVE a STRANGER put your breast/penis in a vice while  you're naked & trapped - alone in a room with a shut door - you can't reach -  then  you are slapped  by them  while they are yelling  their credentials!   Have that happen...
Then let's have this fucking conversation again.   
I bet your perspective changes.

Lesson learned  it will never happen to me again! I go prepared from now on to every appointment & IF I want someone in the room with me - I am getting someone IN the room with me! FUCK that- this system needs FIXED!!!
Western medicine  becomes less appealing with every visit.

Medical professionals are just as capable of mental health issues as the REST of us=
NURSE Elizabeth Wettlaufer  or Surgeon Mohammed Shamji   
​are just two examples.   

With TLC & THC
Georgia
  
Yoda & Kermit are sold.
Wait until you see my Space Monkey that inspired another space monkey - and a space monkey painting! Time to get creative. 

The image below was pulled off of Google with just a couple of complaints I easily found : KESWICK ADVANCED Imaging.  Do not say you have not been warned! I would never recommend any woman go here for a mammogram!  
CLEARLY THERE IS AN issue...   WHY is this person still working there!? I feel sad for the young mom too.  NO, not 'physically hurt -  still  - fucked with mentally BY an angry bitch who takes it out on PATIENTS.

It's not easy being green - but this spring it's easier than ever to grow your own 4 plants. 
Hallelujah! What an enjoyable experience it's going to be for many - from seed to smoke, just the thought makes me smile.  
I can't help be hopeful.. Lord let them drink less.  lol   It's also APRIL soon and that means- more! More locations, more vape clubs, more edibles.. more amazing cannabis products to ease your mind - Pain & more.   I get upset thinking about patients'  sometimes- as I know a few... and now- they have higher prices an although the government provides their *opiates for free - it's still not covering this medicine - and THAT is still a problem.

Right now- it's the first day of Spring and Green is coming- Thank God!  
What 2 better icons to welcome the first day of Spring?  

*** 
On another note, I'm not feeling very happy at all in truth.  
I had the worst mammogram.   I left the office in tears, screaming ask anyone who was there - lots.  Calling the technician: "A Fucking Bitch"   threatening to report her  (I have) & I stand by it.

I have cried constantly & NOT slept one night  since.  I asked God why did this happen!?
It should have been a simple mammogram like the last I had - which was PLEASANT - I even blogged about it!   Why...  because God knows  I will speak UP & should.
& I will make sure  NO OTHER WOMAN EXPERIENCES the nightmare of A fucking simple mammogram that I did!   

I was physically & mentally abused by a technician *while MY breast was LOCKED DOWN*. 

The ONLY reason I did NOT immediately  blog, social media was  because Storm left (the exact time) for Spain & I did not want to upset him,  he was already feeling bad he couldn't drive  me to my appointment.    He has returned safe.​
It has  been difficult to 'FAKE' the past few days but I know he would know something was wrong.  I should have called the police to report abuse - and will consider this today.

It's been almost a week - they have NOT  called to even talk to me about it!  I've called, e mail etc..  & this makes me feel worse - no once cares. WE are just a number to these places - SHEEP to be prodded & poked by people with NO COMPASSION.

Today I AM NOT going to spend the day crying in bed I'm calling my lawyer to get her opinion.  I will add the Breast Screening program of Ontario was very quick to help direct me, as well as the college of Dr.s & nurses & have someone who is helping me with seeing that this woman's actions are REPORTED.

TBH I am seriously struggling with being social at all at the moment - as if I was not already..  and then there's the results I now wait for.   I pray I don't have to take the test over (I certainly do not TRUST her  as a professional - because that is certainly NOT what I  witnessed OR experienced) &  now...
I'M FUCKING TERRIFIED to have another MAMMOGRAM!

With TLC & THC 
Georgia 

Please forgive my absence for a bit .