I get it.

Have you watched 100% hotter?  
It's all about beauty & the beast. 
The beast called BEAUTY' .  
Insecure, lonely, sad beautiful people - afraid to be - themselves.  
What will happen when make - up doesn't cut it anymore? 
Your guess is as good as mine...
I guess they will follow Anthony's footsteps  sooner or later.

Afraid to leave their homes, afraid to interact with others without the mask.
Who are you?  Can you be seen as you truly ARE?  Hmmm? 
My mask is off... with it came off the rose colored glasses. 

Thinking about Anthony, all he witnessed, lived, tried... tasted,   I get it. 
It's enough to put a sour taste in anyones stomach & he was witness more than most.  
Suicide is still taboo - because people do not want to admit they ARE part of the problem.  We are all part of the problem. Have you watched Audrie & Daisy?
 IF I had a daughter I would sit her down & watch it with her  & TALK about it.
*Talk about Alcohol while YOU are at it.  It is a common denominator.

In a world FULL Of humans - to feel so alone... this is the problem.
What does  'it' matter? The money, travel, food.. all stuff.
​All stuff that does not matter when you constantly witness cruelties against each other, he was aware of this #metoo thing, if I had to guess - in all his travels,  he's witnessed more than most and was just tired. I get it.

I am so tired some days.. mostly due to this condition  attacking the right 1/2 of my body, from head to toe - spend an hour with me and you will witness it, I guarantee. I've even doubted my ability to travel lately, France seems so far away some days,  traveling to the mailbox  feels like an adventure.  The constant reminders that so few understand or try to understand  if what frustrates me the most, I therefore enjoy days of solitude -where no explaining is necessary. This past weekend I was alone ALL weekend and felt very refreshed at the end of it.  I was very much in the NOW.  
I have had 'family' throw it in my face..  which was a terrific lesson- You should learn to walk/run away from people - get them out of your life 'FAMILY' is just a word- not everyone deserves to BE in your life- no matter WHO they are. 

With examples like Trump running 'the show' my trust in humans diminishes daily.  What if Trump attempts to commit suicide & decides to take a few countries out as he goes?  I think he has clearly proven how unstable he is in countless ways..   
Anything is possible - clearly he is president after all.

Yes, this painting depicts how I feel, physically.
I'm sorry my son knows how I feel above all else.. but he also understands events in my/our life &  how 'I got this way'.  He KNOWS I try every day to be better, to be positive to be love...   to just BE.

I don't need or want pity- this is more or less me  "coming out" because I KNOW I am not alone, I KNOW many feel like I do.. I know some young ladies in particular feel exactly like I do & have  a harder time NOW with social media- it's an entirely new level of added pressures for most.  

Watch Audrie & Daisy- worried about your kids and cannabis?
Watch Audrie & Daisy and learn what you would be concerned about.
My art has saved my life time and time again.  Focus on your passions.

I do often tell people  "If not for my brain pain- my life would be perfect.."
it's learning to LIVE with the PAIN.  So far so good. 
I also have  incredible Dr.s  who Listen & TALK and keep me here without antidepressants' & remind me: I do have reason to feel the way I do.. it's NOT all in my head.
 
I know I push people away - constantly.
Some look forward to it- then they don't have to SEE what I am living with. 
For those that remain thank you for your understanding & love, all others..
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Fuck you, you're not worth the mental energy I could be using towards painting.

Suicide rates are on the increase with Canadian women:   I get it. 
​globalnews.ca/news/4274136/suicide-rates-women-men-canada/
Clearly, I AM not alone.   
For now... I am in good hands.  
So is Anthony.
Gods.

Back to Sloths & cannabis next.. back to painting what makes me smile.
Thank God.   Make yourself SMILE.

Dear Anthony - I get it.
Your call.

With TLC & THC
​Georgia
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I've recently discovered this Japanese artist on Twitter..
Go here:
https://twitter.com/avogado6   
His work displays how many of us feel at times during our lives & it's not always enjoyable these are some powerful images.  

It has inspired me to work on some drawings of my own.
It's a way to deal with the issues and educate - doing what I do best.... drawing.
Painting can also be part of a specific healing process, I'm not sure about other artists but once it's OUT on paper it's out of my mind and life goes on.. I guess a drawing purge of sorts.  I drew countless images over the years afraid to show them- not realizing how many  would actually 'relate to my drawings.  We are not so different.
Maybe that reason alone is helpful for those who can't put into words what they are experiencing. 

Viewers be warned. It won't be your usual bear, sloth work.
Tomorrows painting is titled:                   Dear Anthony,  I get it.


Ending on positive note.. my son visited yesterday (with Burger priest for lunch) to do laundry and an oil change, it was nice to just sit in the driveway while he worked, the girls on the front lawn as we all listened to city adventures.  I can hear the appreciation for the best of both worlds Storm has at the moment.  Daisy was thrilled and laid more of a guilt trip on him when he was getting ready to leave that I do! LOL   It's good to be loved.  
 
With TLC & THC
Georgia

A friend sent me an e mail showing my website BLOCKED  in the USA  (New York)
Reason given Category : Abused Drugs.
This is what is happening in America right now.
Have you seen the new documentary on Netflix about Social media & privacy?
How the CIA is breaking down doors of 12 year olds and putting tourists in jail for posting derogatory remarks about Trump?
You will only be shown what they want you to see. 
Where is democracy going?
Free Speech.

 

Something happened I did not expect..  I knew I would be happy when Cannabis finally became legal but happy - doesn't quite cut it- I Am FUCKING ELATED!
                                          I CAN'T FUCKING BELIEVE IT!!
If Justin Trudea was here I would be hanging off his neck (are you reading this Crusty?)  thanking him and hugging him and trying not to squeeze the life out of him - like Agnes with the Unicorn in 'Despicable me... Thank You Justin! Thank you for realizing above all else how Cannabis prohibition (drug prohibition) is harming Canadians because of unjust laws.  Thank you for letting Canadians decide how we should be able to enjoy ourselves. Thank you for ending the insanity of cannabis prohibition and setting an example for the rest of the world to witness and hopefully follow.  
* My son reminds me "it's not officially legal but it is unstoppable..."   now we just need the date, and that won't be long now.. a few weeks?

I read over and over again- of course a few politicians -still fear mongering, still stalling- the Conservative government - would have found a million excuses and kept sending our youth to jail -  I would now like to see  convictions overturned  for cannabis offences- especially for simple offences like being busted for personal use.  I read so much my minds still swimming - the sense of relief you have no idea.. of course a little wave of  'I told you so..'  is there too. I told you so...  In our life time. 
The Sun, the moon & the truth- Cannabis is not what we have been led to believe for decades.  Yes, I've lost friends & family over cannabis arguments - sadly countless have- especially between parents and children (young adults)...  
Suddenly I don't feel as mush as a 'loss' as a 'CLEANSE'.  Good riddance.
Anyone who judges you over your personal use of cananbis - especially medically - speaks volumes about them.  Every time I read  "we need more education" - I actually chuckle- It's ALL we have been reading about as Canadians for over a year easily & lets face it  - we ALL should be somewhat responsible NOW for ourselves and for educating our OWN children on cannabis - the resources are abundant.

Yes, there will be problems, a few more hurdles- like marketing, products, dispensaries.. - a few humans will mess up- IF you try cannabis & it's not for you - duh- don't use it. How difficult is that - some people  just don't get it- they will consume cannabis & drink alcohol, they do now.. will  Canada wake up stoned and everyone start to get hight all the time - no, life will go on as is because we all still have bills to pay, lives to live and a purpose to fulfil.  After the realization finally set in- I found myself losing all feelings anger I've had... with  legalization come realization and who can ask for anything else?
Yesterday was one of the most peaceful days I've experienced in years.. napping  outdoors - I woke feeling  new hope about cannabis in Canada. 

Recently on IG - I 'unfollowed' anyone that had anything to do with cannabis- for a few reasons, mostly because when I'm missing my son-  seeing all his/our friends only makes me miss him more,  it's a constant reminder when I'm trying to focus on  other issues.  It has me wondering how does anyone break up in a relationship in this day with social media?! It would be harder to do and to move on..   & then I feel forlorn because it's all people I truly like (& care about) and have to re-follow.   Ha, so those I unfollow and re follow - I really like you.. hahaha, ahhhh social media. We all have bigger issues to be concerned with.  I'm sorry, I simply do what I feel works best... it's not always the case in hindsight.    

Now we need to focus on All that will continue to go right Canada - CELEBRATE!  

This is for Justin.. thank you.
https://globalnews.ca/video/4250359/justin-trudeau-compares-canada-to-an-even-tempered-mooseglobalnews.ca/video/4250359/justin-trudeau-compares-canada-to-an-even-tempered-moose  
Canada is a Moose.  A moose on the loose in a  cannabis garden  star gazing while grazing.

Thank You Canada -  for ending the insanity! 

With TLC& THC
​Georgia

For a few reasons, I've decided not to print my  'magnificent mushroom', calendar  at this time - sorry to anyone who might have been interested in a copy.
I have other priorities right now more important I have to focus on.

It was a personal challenge I thoroughly enjoyed & I would encourage any artist to do the same.   I am very pleased with the results. 

I have something  to look forward to...
I  already have a lovely calendar for 2019 - Perhaps it will be great year.
Have a look below.. I might re-share it the 'first of every month in 2019.

All the mushrooms you see painted are real mushrooms, Magnificent in shape, size & colors!  Each mushroom I've actually seen as well alive in the woods during one foray or another - one of my favourites is 'Bleeding Tooth- February' - if you see it  'alive' you will be fascinated!   It was quite the education studying each one and learning about them..  October is also a prelude under a night sky - I'm going to make a 'Edible Mushroom'  calendar and for 202o  & finish with a 'Medicinal Mushroom' Calendar for 2021  because by then - Mushrooms will be available medicinally, I believe California will be the first, then Canada.   

With TLC & THC
Georgia

I read this interesting article on Rosanne Barr.. worth sharing.  
I somewhat agree with the article.  
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My 3rd eye elephant is awake and ready to explore the universe.
The vine the truck turns into is the  Ayahuasca Plant, which is said to have healing properties, I've read extensively, watched documentaries and have even thought I've found the perfect place where I might be interested in experiencing it of myself...  but alas - I'm not fond of vomiting & apparently it is part of the process, this does not mean I've ruled it out completely I am a firm believer in  "when the time is right.."

I believe these natural substances are here to help.  Some like cannabis - include helping the body with pain, involuntary movement, PTSD and much more, mushrooms  appear to help with issues of the mind sometimes getting to the core of a problem in minutes - where otherwise - other ways have taken years to process & Ayahuasca apparently does the same - it helps heal the mind. Now, I know many who have tired it - just since the past four years it seems to be something more are exploring- not to get HIGH but to HEAL.   

Once you start to learn about these plants your eyes open.  They open before you even experience them- and the first way they open is you start to ask yourself:
Why have we put people in jail for growing & enjoying nature?  
WHO decided what plants God gave us are for us to use and not to use?

Then you try some of these natural medicines- and your eyes open wider when you understand how they work, when you don't die, your brain does not fry', you realize the extent of the lies & control passed on from generations.. & hopefully you become awake & realize how we have hurt each other, other family members, others in society because we have judged them as "hippies & stoners" when they have actually been lovers & healers.  I've yet to read about people who use Ayahuasca who've turned violent ...  
I do not understand why these options are not available yet- proven deadly medications are on the increase still.  I do understand actually - $$$$$$$$$$$ - I do no understand why we allow it to continue.  The sun the moon & the truth..
Until all drugs in Canada become legal we will still be going in the wrong direction.

Open your eyes.

The elephant was painted with love as always the eyes resemble the centre of the actual vine -  they make jewelry from it. The green & background one moment appear bold the next they disappear when you get lost in the detail of this majestic, wise beast.
Someone has expressed interest in it with a couple of other pieces.. I'll sleep on it and then give  my price - if they decline, it will look awesome hanging in the gazebo!  

Acrylic on Canvas
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With THC & TLC 
Georgia

Sticks and stones can break our bones but names are just "words" usually uttered by  grumpy,  jealous,  insecure people.  

Learn this and then...   Let that shit go.

Who knows why we upset some people - just because we exist. How is it even possible to hate entire nations - a 'race' of people just because they live differently and look differently.
It happens all the time every day, every moment.  One of the saddest is to be simply disliked due to your gender or desired gender.  

Misogynist - what can we say about men who hate women & encourage the violence of women - they belong in jail. It is their lack of control and insecurities which make them behave so. I've met and know both sorts of men..  THANKFULLY,  I known many confident men, successful and kind men - never do they speak about women in a derogatory way- they exist  & this is the new generation of men who are going to succeed, the days of this bullshit & being 'pricks' are over.

'Bitch' is the most common term assigned by men to women over the decades...  
Bitch because we have no problems speaking up,  so be it  I've learned to embrace the inner Bitch.  I've wasted far too much time taking heed of others opinions... those days are done.
DO not waste YOUR time - Live in the NOW - focus on your gifts & talents and you will be happy while other are only distracted. Young women should be taught the correct definition of Bitch:  
A strong woman who isn't afraid to expresses herself and stand up for what she believes in.

A lovely young woman is missing in Toronto.. another woman missing. If you live in Toronto please pay attention, look, search.. help. I have the feeling this might end bad,  it does really seem out of the ordinary for this young woman.  This must be the most heartbreaking thing for any family.

Today if someone calls you a nasty name: Turn & say:  
"Thank You!... Lesson learned and now I shall move on- enlightened."
That is the gift they do provide - awareness - that they are struggling with issues and resort to name calling, knowledge is power - then you know who to surround yourself with- some people say keep you friends close & enemies closer - screw that!
I say - Keep that bad karma out of you positive way!  ;)

I have a few projects to complete- people are getting mail this week!
Time to venture out to the great backyard!

Have a lovely day - be good to yourself & remember to smile- this made me smile
hee hee  
Now my warm up is out of the way  I shall focus on a masterpiece!  ;D

With TLC & THC 
​Georgia

For those still not aware - there is a male and female cannabis plant...
the female provides us with our buds - our medicine. 'Girlfriends' in the garden is correct.
I am hoping that young ladies everywhere will try to grow their own cananbis!
Why?   We need MORE cannabis growing women - it is male dominated industry.
More importantly, this is an opportunity for young women to take control of their 'recreational' fun and NOT depend on anyone else... learn how to grow, nurture these beautiful plants with love and TLC and you will be rewarded with TLC & THC back!  Cannabis is healthier & safe than alcohol.  Ladies- getting date raped- in my opinion won't happen if you just smoke  some cannabis - You are able to say NO'.. not passed out cold -drunk on a sofa unable to wake. 

If you grow your own you have a new appreciation & passion, WOMEN will bake and craft with cannabis when it becomes legal like never before - get ready for a creative cannabis explosion. ALSO  learn how to grow, dry and smoke your own bud - see how it makes you feel- learn HOW it makes you feel before YOU try it in the company of strangers, and this will provide some confidence & understanding which will lead to a more enjoyable time  AND a SAFER experience.  

Mom's my advice to you would be: Grow some cannabis to share with your daughters!
YES- IF I had a daughter- I would and I would ask her to smoke it with ME first - before she smoked it with any young man - alone. This is an opportunity Canada - to do this correct- NO secrets, no lies and our children will all be better off, they will have an understanding of exactly how cannabis effects them- compared to alcohol.
 I would rather they learn how it feels in a safe environment with a loving concerned parent wouldn't you?

So order some seeds and get your  pot ready! It's almost time to plant directly into he ground, I know Cannabis will be legal in - 2 months? Or sooner- so I would be planting.
Time to get busy- in the garden and with paint.  

GO online- YOU will find ALL you need about how to grow cannabis.
AMEN
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With TLC & THC
Georgia

Yep this is me!
No make up, messy hair.. I' was so happy to share this photo with a few closest to me.  It was me Saturday (on the new medication)  you have no idea how hard it is even to get a photo with both eyes open due to my hemifacial spasms... this is me getting a break & being able to smile!  
This morning I see a post on IG where a woman shows her 'before & after' -what the difference  hair & lipstick does for your 'confidence'.  Fuck that!
Oh my gosh, enough with teaching woman we need lipstick and our hair done to be confident!  If you can go out into this world and be yourself as is - THAT is confidence!
Why let anyone define you other wise?  
If someone judges you on your outside appearance - the problem is with them.  
Women are ALREADY subject to all sorts of double standards - imagine how successful we would be if we could be like men and just be respected for who we are and what we do not for our "make-up" or our cleavage/booty.. imagine if MEN would only feel confident if they did their hair and put on some lipstick - such bullshit.  
Why encourage it? Why promote it?
Don't get me wrong- I've worn make-up and still do from time to time - I'm an artist & like to play with ALL canvas & some women (and men) are truly incredible make up artists  BUT    
                                Makeup does NOT define my level of confidence
                                           and it should not define yours.

PLEASE do NOT teach this to YOUR daughters!
Teach them to GO out into the world - head held high with a smile on their face - even if she forgets her LIPSTICK.
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 In the news:  This woman- for the record DOES not represent the majority of Canadians - she say's NOW "that's not who I am"  bullshit-  then WHO ARE YOU!? lol Cause you sure appear to be a racist nasty, threatening, redneck bitch (alcohol or not)... the crap that comes out her mouth - you don't say stuff like that if you don't believe it,  she's confident and wearing lipstick (it appears) there is an old  saying: Lipstick on a pig. 
Forget lipstick - focus on YOU.

I did too much this past weekend - because I felt so good to get a 'break' from twitch-  Saturday was great - reduced by almost 70%, the next day.. I'd say reduced by 40% .. Sunday good too but yesterday was only by about 20%.. I am happy to be able to smile even if for only a few moments interrupted. Lipstick or not- if you don't find  me attractive- fuck off- lol, I could care less.  I am not here for you. YOU do not define me.

BYW- Do you like my tassels? lol (image below)
A woman from Florida - Kat (I've never met) sent me this 'painting smock' - she bought  it & knew it would be 'big'  but she said it would be comfortable to paint in and artsy to boot!  
​I must say- I put it on to paint and it is super comfy!  
This is me.

If you don't like me- due to my looks or personality - stop visiting this blog.
It's that simple.

With TLC & THC
Georgia

NEXT, I am promoting for YOUNG woman to get ready to GROW Cannabis & why.
With a cute little painting called  'Girlfriends in the Garden'.  I named this girl "Honey".

Day care...  in the hot seat.  I can't draw about this.
I have concerns with daycare with good reason why.
http://www.cbc.ca/news/canada/calgary/calgary-dayhome-death-elmarie-simons-ceira-mcgrath-plea-1.4631437?cmp=news-digests-canada-and-world-morning
Daycare...  when Storm was little  as you are aware  for many reasons I too wanted a break & needed one due to the many sleepless nights we experienced -  and I needed the work , we needed the $$$ living the dream- you know...  here are just a few things that happened :
- one daycare I interviewed the owner told me  (after Storm pointed to a glass expressing   wanting a drink) "he won't get a drink in this house until he learns to ask for it properly" she remarked. I looked at her stunned.  Storm was deaf- he could not speak properly, needless to say I never left him there. 
-One daycare lost Storm. Lost him for so long they had to phone me- "we can't find him." 
Imagine that drive from Newmarket simply to get 'some peaceful time'... he was frightened and hid. They eventually found him under a bathroom counter.   He never went back a couple of times but I never felt comfortable - do you blame me?
At school once after helping him with his garments in a bathroom the teacher left and tuned out the light... I just so happened to be volunteering (Thank God) & asked after 'not' seeing MY kid come thought the game activities "Where's Storm?"  That never happened again and they got an EARFUL - you know it.
Another time his sitter got careless and Storm got into the baby teething gel - accident happen all the time. ***DO NOT HAVE this stuff lying around!!!*** He became lifeless, I rushed him to the hospital- Imagine THAT drive & they immediately shoved a tube to administer charcoal in him to absorb the poison.  I watched the entire thing and it was not nice.                   That is just us! 

We are surrounded  by 'private' daycares - I see one everyday.. I usually hear kids crying every time they are out there -eventually, I do not enjoy it & we have discussed the issue in length - to the point  I'd like to relocate other days I get frustrated & think 'Why should we move.... when we moved here we did NOT anticipate living beside a private daycare - listening to kids all day, if that was what we wanted we would have MOVED beside a school, I'm not alone I've had other neighbours express the same concerns.
At the same time 'I get it' & understand we are all just trying to make a living.. if you look after kids = LOOK after the KIDS. The kids appear to be  looked well after' but with me working on 'dog bite prevention' books for one - dogs and too many kids stress me out.  The police constantly pulling over people who run these stop signs - in this SCHOOL zone- stress me out, I know it's only a matter of time before a child gets hit.  No wonder I long for a house in the hills.. alone.

I will report the next time I see 7 kids and a toddler on a trampoline - I would never forgive myself if I witnessed a situation and then found out a child was hurt.  I find I worry about others kids, what do I do? It's like they are in my own backyard somedays - I wish I could IGNORE it but I can not.  
                   Would YOU want me to - if it was your grandchild?
IF I see something I do not feel is safe for the children - I will contact authorities.
So SHOULD you!  
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How about before you have a child you try to figure out how to stay home to look after it yourself, have  family you can trust or a care giver  before you place your helpless child  in a strangers home who sees your child as a source of income $ & not a little living being to be  loved & watched not to be sat in a corner while they FB or IG.
* I would see in my sitter was on IG all day *IF so - there would be a 'NO.  Go check.  OR how about we demand our government into addressing the situation- either pay moms to stay home or we pay these *professional  providers well to CARE for our children. Make more services available- Professional day cares in schools.  This woman-  Arrrrrgh! & she should GO TO JAIL.  For herself... either way she will struggle with this forever... not as much as that family.
VERDICT:  calgary-toddler-1.4643301?cmp=news-digests-canada-and-world-morning
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I hope some of you realize why I say this over & over
Cannabis- safer than daycare.  YOU are the Gate Keeper for your children...
Parents are responsible for education on all things dangerous - truthfully.
Time to put things into fucking perspective so education& resources can be spent on checking daycares out - not shutting down  'legal'  individual businesses.

I  upgraded my Cockpit chair!! It was time, it is an important tool of the trade... & my old recycled! Poppy is loving it - me too.. NOW I'm about to draw- it was actually "too hot" out yesterday! LOL   I had to come inside - Oh Canada! I love you!  
Freezing one day - Humidx the next.

         Hey Hey Hey!! Now - Put the RAPIST away.
                Guilty Guilty Guilty - as IF we needed the 2nd court case to prove it.  
 & yes, I AM thrilled it is because of  fantastic female Canadian who did NOT let this F*&^%NG RAPIST intimidate, lie or $$$ his way out of this one.  
​People are paying attention.  TIMES up.
When are judges going to be held accountable for letting these predators go - again and again so they can continue to destroy & abuse? Treated 'DIFFERENT because of his wealth & fame.  What would Fat Albert say? Throw away the key.  
I watched Fat Albert  - did you, I can say with confidence Fat Albert would be disgusted with Bill Cosby, as should ALL be.  WTF is wrong with the power hungry sleeze bags?
*BTW- the lyrics from FAT ALBERT are exactly as I drew in the cartoon - was that not a premonition  in hindsight or what? He probably sang it to himself before he raped his passed out VICTIMS.

NOW he should GO to JAIL - just like others 'NOT of his class' would have been in jail already by now and would stay there for YEARS.. Will he? Right NOW -he is locked up in his mansion - boohoo.
He'll probably only get  5 years with all his money...  His career is OVER.  
Who would pay to SUPPORT  this rapist in anything from this day forward?
Jello has lost it's appeal  because of him. 
Once looked at as a role Model- Americas Dad' - Phhhhbt! 
            Bill Cosy will NOW only be remembered for the Rapist he is.  

He was behaving beyond badly with his drugging- because he knew women probably would have PASSED - just look at this CREEP in this interview.  I'm curious what David Letterman thinks now.   Imagine waking up to realize YOU had been sexually assaulted by BILL Cosby, yuk yuk yuk.  

I'll draw it out- give him the attention he deserves - above all else I draw to SUPPORT the women he DRUGGED & RAPED.  #metoo

                          Hey Hey Hey - What do you think FAT ALBERT would say?:
                             Guilty? Guilty! Guilty! - Hey Hey hey 'Put the rapist away!
NOW.
Next?

With TLC & THC 
Georgia