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Weeeeee... into the forest I go to lose my mind & find my soul!
We drove up to see the property... now that is legally ours, to do a bit of measuring.
Norm has to build a kennel attached to the house as soon as possible - the first day up there he has to install a dog door and add a contained covered kennel no dogs can escape or no creatures can enter, I am designing it today.... I'll be distracted with all the moving & can't stress about the girls wandering off.
We included Ginger & Poppy on our visit to see their new home - commenting before we left "I'll leave Daisy till next time in case she sees a deer & takes off". Norm remarked "you're pushing it George - expecting to see a deer your first day..." (snicker). I ignored him.
When we arrived I hopped out of the truck & said let's walk our NEW driveway girls for the FIRST TIME! Wheeeeee - they quickly behind me run up ahead a few feet - the sun was shining - patches on sunlight danced on the driveway, I couldn't have imagined a more beautiful day... then they both stopped - I looked at the girls to see they froze & were both looking in the same direction - I looked up and there she was!
A huge beautiful Doe looking me as if to say "Oh... hello. "
I froze like a deer in the headlights - our eyes locked. It was love at first sight. lol
They started to move I said "Don't dare... " looked up & the deer was gone.
Just like that- I then realized (of course) I had my iPad in my hands - Arrrgh.
No matter - it was the moment. God welcomed me home.
Or agent -when I said 'I saw my first deer!!" said soon you'll say - oh it's just another dammed deer.. (lol - I take it he's seen a few) & warned me to be careful as he has hit a few in all the years he's been up there. Elated I said "I can't wait to see a bear!" his reply - YES, you can... & then proceeded to tell me about the time the bear attacked his son. Cowabunga- I needed to hear it- I was already walking the woods- la de da...- Norm has no clue where I was.. lol I will be investing in a air horn & bear spray & promised NOT to feed. Our agent said what helped save his son was he had the common sense (while a bear was biting him) to push his truck alarm & frightened the bear - He is lucky to be alive from what I heard. So, no - I won't be encouraging any bears to pose for a portrait.
Norm & I are both tired- Norm more so - on top of things he rescued 2 baby -viscous behaving- raccoons off the roof, they look yesterday like they were going to pass out from heat. look thin & dehydrated -I've seen them a week- no mom in sight. ;( I ffed them- they ate it all- bananas, smoked salmon (all I had at the time) lol - almond butter & cherries! All the food was gone this morning- I'm waiting for animal control to Pick them up.
It's time to pack!! Want to see my backyard? A few photos below - we need to build a new deck and spruce it up a bit - nothing we can't handle- Oh - where to hand my tiki??
All I could think about was that deer - & NOW anytime that stress anxiety kicks in b-I think of that deer waiting to welcome me home join me for coffee. I painted it - I had too - just a small one- for me to remember that moment - God sent the perfect welcome wagon.
Dreams come true- have faith.
With TLC & THC Georgia
Next the trash pandas portrait & free coloring sheet to DL, found while packing.
o.k.... it's happened - we are.... EXCITED! It has sunk in and it is paid for. Forward!
Cowabunga!!! Dreams come true. We have downsized- our new home is smaller- big enough - downsized but living large on a piece of land surrounded by trees - we plan on making trails through the property and placing a cabin/shack in the woods for friends to visit- a little off grid glamping! Weeeee.
We already have friends where we are moving - long time buds of us both- how cool is that?
The past few months have been filled with house hunting and conversation & some arguing too - mostly between Norm and I and as to what our future direction would be. We were very close to going in different directions but this house is what we both have been looking for & Norm gets to build his own shop from the ground up - I know if anyone can - he can.
Not much needs done to the actual house - we have a fireplace to figure out and we are already designing the new deck for across the front of the house!
The dog kennel (top priority) will be built first. Attached to the back of the house - where they can go out through the dog door to do their business or just check outside - a fence around this property - is not an option we could afford or desire- I don't want to keep the deer out - just the dogs in... I already KNOW training will start the first day we move in- I promised God- I needed a long driveway to throw the ball and walk the dogs everyday - no humans in our way, I can't believe how much I have thought of my girls while house hunting ... my family. This place is as much for them as it is for us - & yes I will be adding to our family - one more another bigger one. I've ben walking around crying - elated at the prospects that await - we purchased a prospector :) the house has only 2 bedrooms - our guests will have their own place to stay - complete with wood stove.
I mentioned on IG about not offering alcohol to our guests, I have issues with alcohol as some are aware. Living in the middle of nowhere when guests visit, I couldn't and won't start to stress about people driving impaired. I'm too familiar with those consequences due to the past and others in my life & I will NOT encourage it. Norm and I rarely drink - we might have the occasional craft beer - glass of wine but it's just as easy for us to pass' - we had champagne to toast our new home and both complained it gave us a slight headache- we don't drink anymore - so why have it? Why offer poison to people I care for & that is a fact. That being said - there is a cute little craft brewery/restaurant not far from our new home, I'm sure we will be visiting. Will I have a craft beer or A glass of wine to offer during dinner - perhaps... BUT I'm done with drunks. I have no issues with people who have a drink or two - those who can moderate & control- Bravo.. Regrettably, past experience has proven many I'm familiar with do NOT know when to stop - over indulge & in many cases become abusive, depressed & depressing and nasty. I will not allow this to happen anymore - if you want to get drunk - please, do not visit.
If you want to come up - digital detox, learn how to paint, be surrounded by nature, hike trails, look for mushrooms.. look for deer- nature, help Norm chop wood & carry water- to your tent... lol Please do! Dogs will be welcome too! P.s not a fan TV either- so that won't be happening - much. Weeee - maybe I won't have many human visitors with my "house rules" ... I have my girls, Bird, painting & Norm - I'm going to be busy.
OH! - Did I tell you we have a sauna!? I just researched & was over the moon to learn: Saunas help with arthritis pain - detox our bodies of nasty crap- help with STRESS & are known for REDUCING psoriasis - HOLY - I have a sauna!
Bring your own towel. Wheeeeee! *btw... alcohol & the sauna - bad idea.
Thank you God!
Jesus - I look forward to our forest conversations & exploration.
With TLC & THC
Yesterday- June 10th we celebrated being in our home 26 years! When we moved in, there was nothing - not one fence post, not one tree... you can see the LOVE we put into our home - walking around my backyard NOW is like being up at the cottage - everyone who visits - says the same: What an oasis you have created! Birds included - woodpeckers, bluejays & grosbeaks! Yes we did. Blood, sweat, tears & many memories have been created here! Storm moved... (took me 3 months to stop crying) and he's not moving back- he's moving up.. I'm beyond proud of my son in every aspect and am as excited for his continued journey as I am my own - but this house feels too big & too lonely and with too many stairs, so....
Yesterday, Norm & I celebrated big time - by purchasing our next home!!!
I have been actively looking & viewing the past few months (my decision) we had an offer in one place & it was declined - thank God- I said to the agent at the time:
"No worries, God want's me to keep looking..." he seems to 'get me - so that was good.
We went to put an offer in on a place I had liked (time to show Norm) and our agent (I am grateful for) said.. "since you're here why not check this other place out."
Thank God - we did.
We drove up the driveway - I stepped out on the ground (felt at peace) walked into the house & thought "OH my GOSH - I'm here." There were 3 women - there - I did not know the owner but I said: "O.k. - I want to know who my soulmate is?" LOL
I told Storm later: I felt as though God laid that house in front of me - the first being the current occupant - I know she has filled that house with LOVE, prayers & peace the past decade +, there was Buddhas, masks art and wall colors - Norm remarked "We'll we don't have to paint! This is already George." It's true. It's already me.
I woke the day after we put in the offer & I CRIED!!! I knew we got it, before the agent told us. Felt frightened then instantly at peace - I was reminded: Georgia... YOUR prayers have been answered - CELEBRATE! I told you! I promised... I love you! hee hee hee
Think I'm crazy - say it if it makes you feel better but- I'm moving into my DREAM HOME! Prayers have been answered - miracles happen. The woman held my hand - we were chatting & I felt love. I know no other way to describe it & her room - that she prayed in every day (I know) is NOW my painting room - filled with LOVE & light! & birds new home too - weeeeeee!!!! & my new view.. have a peek- MY view is the view I have wanted my entire life! Lions, tigers & bears - Oh My! Moose, deer & bears OH MY! Apparently, I will see them all in my backyard!
Norm & I had also discussed parting ways - if we couldn't find something & soon - I was going with or without him - he was stuck- stuck here & I was already mentally moved. He has asked to join me, after weeks of conversation - 27 years to ponder... the journey continues & I can't deny - we make a very creative team - after all, we created Storm. ;)
I can only imagine what we will add to this new home - we are BOTH beyond excited - I've got to pack!
I keep saying to the girls "Wait till you see what we bought you!!!" lol
Bad news: I had/have to pack my painting supplies- too much going on & too much dust! Too much to do - I am itching to paint nature- now that I know I've got nature to paint! So I'll be taking a break from painting- as if- lol (still have the gouache out) as I am packing & moving BUT - as soon as I am up there- watch OUT!
Thank you God.
Thank you Jesus! Jesus told me.. he jokingly whispered:
Good morning Ranger George!
I called myself this thinking of all the animals on the property - waiting to introduce themselves! & I knew - it was mine! Forest Ranger George, as we NOW own a tiny forest - ready to document & PAINT the wildlife... Moose, deer & bears OH MY!
Tee pee for companee- hee hee hee - Mushroom foray! OH my! Walking MY driveway with the girls every day! FUCK YEAH!!!
Thank you God! Prayers answered! Miracles happen!
I can't stop giggling.
Oh - Guess what I have ! - A BIRD viewing deck!!!
With TLC & THC
If you think I am being sarcastic when I say Praise Jesus!! Think again. WOW - my backside still brings a tear to my eye especially getting up into my truck or up our of my bed but the Dr. says I'm o.k. rest it - thank God for the flesh on my ass that padded my fall - what a rude awakening & I might have cracked a rib because it hurts to cough... thank God I did not break my hip.
My girlfriend phoned me this morning, she had the same thing happen to her last year & it made her sell her house... WHILE you can still move. I've been watching a new trend in homes being built on one level - with lifts (elevators) and wider halls and fewer doors or pocket doors & doors that side flat against the wall (barn doors) - in the event the home owner ends up in a while chair outlets are higher & counters slightly lower smart planning - heres hoping the person is not a hoarder, that's just going to get worse. Arthritis is also something that makes you learn quickly things that need to be changed like door handles - those round cheap knobs are useless when you have sever arthritis - pull handles or levels are the easiest - if you can imagine these things when buying a home or building a home you're ahead of the game & can add years - decades, to the place you want to live at. Bungalow is my new key word.
I painted this dog- lol just to paint & I needed to stand, I can see a bit of pain in his eyes - I'll call it curiosity'. Before I went to my Dr.s I had some time a little giggle & decided to make him one of my Weeeeeed - side lines (already) Little Buddies' card hee hee hee
I've turned a few friends into little buds & added professions - This is the first Dr. bud!
He doesn't strike me as the type to 'recreational' any drug so it made me laugh all the more. I felt silly after learning it was not broken - but better all the same to learn it's not & now I can stop stressing & rest by sitting at my desk on a big pillow & painting ! Wee!
Everything for a reason.
with TLC & THC
Another pondering primate... what is my new chimp obsession? It's been triggered by several things I guess, most recently the thought of the loss of more beautiful beasts. Destruction due to consumption, too much to ponder some days. This chimp brought a new level of painter... I know this when I spent an afternoon patiently painting the hair 'just on his chinny, chin, chin!
Why do we still have plastic bags? Lazy. These magnicifant mammals each one a miracle & our lazy butts & gluttony for palmoil are kiling them & I'm sure someone somewhere is using Chimp for medicinal reasons or even decorative. I'd rather not research that, now.
I find myself pondering the stoned ape theory again -how 'evolved' we have all become or have we? According to the studies we have started our own mass destruction - so why wait one more day to stop using plastic bags? Why?
As I finished this painting Denver has decriminalized Psilocybin mushrooms! The first of many US States with Canada following soon. Everything this blog said about cannabis - apply it to 'magic mushrooms' - = Psilocybin . It's that simple. EVERYTHING. I am forever grateful for this slow but steady personal education & depression releasing medicine. If not completely releasing at least discovering = Forgiving. Cannabis is my choice of daily medicine but every now & then my body & mind tell me when it's time to medicate with psilocybin. My lite treatment caused some negative effects - I can't even begin... I'm takng a break & wearing scrubs for comfort BUTT it said getting worse before better - might be a side effect. So feeling a bit blue with not much to do I decided to finish my primate that I started a few weeks ago.
Psilocybin help me 'feel a little more loved' for much of what I don't normally find very 'lovable at times. Including myself.
I'm in full painting mode again ;) - to keep me out of depression mode ;( .
I already have the NEXT painting sketched in my mind - another pondering primate in a slightly 'new style' an experiment, I think. Weeeeeeee...
;D I'lll leave this here so you might ponder a little.
NFS... unless the offer is worthwhile & will purchase much more paint! ;)
Acrylic on wood panel. Gold, Copper paint that makes this painting look different every time you look at it as well as around the edges - make sit POP ;).
I'm forever grateful for the experience.
Happy 4/20! & Happy Easter! Woot Woot!
I have fond memoriers of the last Easter 4/20 spent with my little friend Jamie
(no longer with us), I'll cherish that Easter forever.
Today is 4/20 and the FIRST official LEGAL 4/20 in Canada - my fear mongering friend says many will be busted today - I doubt it. Unless people are behaving badly - then,
so be it.
Nope, I'm done thinking negative about cananbis concerns, Canada is legal & I feel more good than bad has become of it! Other than the Ontario gov. & Legal dispensaries opening withOUT access for the disabled patients purchasing their MEDICINE - I'm thrilled about cannabis in Canada NOW. Amen
I celebrate this Holy weekend thinking of my homeboy Jesus & smoking joints!
God's medicine & I can easly become grateful feeling to the point of tears because - I AM.
I am forever grateful for cananbis easing our sons pain & my own & many more.
I am forevergrateful God, for this journey as it has taught me many lessons I know I would not have learned otherwise.
I am forever gateful to Jesus for his constant companionship... when all else 'appears to disappear', when I am left feeling beyond blue due to situations beyond my control - he reminds me (& alwasys has): You are never alone & I'm at peace.
Who wouldn't want that?
What ever helps you achieve this feeling in life - go for it.
This new found knowlegde' & ever growing faith have me more forgiving, compassionate & TRYING to be more understanding in general, I think that's a good direction to be going.
Happy Easter to all my peeps, thank you for continuing to inspire in all the ways you do.
Easter is about Rising UP! Shine as birght as you can...
Easter & daily Jesus reminds me keep moving forward - while trying to help others along the way... pretty simple stuff.
I am celebrating! Hoppy Easter!
Norm's mad at me' so for breakfast
he made a 'BLT' & none for me.
Fine by me... not hungry.
The other day I got caught up in a dream.
Then by fate, I guess it was great... (before it's too late)
I had a realization:
I'd be in the same situation
just at a different destination...
& this aint' no 'vacation'
...it's time for separation.
This is a tribute to Chuck jones - an artist & animator - I absolutely loved Bugs bunny growing up! Bugs is smart - very funny, playful and often violent - but only to those who deserved it.. only after you heard: Of course you know, this means war.
Bugs was one of the first trans dressers too! In many cartoons he puts on womens clothing and rocks it like no other - by far one of my favourites is the Hillbilly cartoon where they promenade left.. This Bugs Bunny is chilling - Bugs style reading up on BUDS.
Bugs Bunny is soon to be Buds Bunny - while he is in Canada anyhow!
Are you reading on how to grow your own cannbis? You can! It's legal - 4 plants.
Apparently more dispensaries are opening and more ILLEGAL dispenseraries will be shut down.. good luck with that, you know... I'm caught here, I want privately owned dispensaries - we all do clearly - but this bullshit with legal ones being fined now- is just that & I wanted to SEE some of my friends who have been doing this a while already STILL be able to continue - like CALM, Amy Anonoymous has a club.. many others - why should they stop when clearly others are not.. do a quick google search for Medical Cannabis dispensaries Ontario - I found one place today 'Bodystream' (*I have no idea of who they are - so forgive me if it's someone I know but - come on...) they have 26 locations! wtf?
I don't recall them winning the lottery - I could be wrong.
I don't think it's fair or right - especialy for THOSE who have played by the rules.
Welcome to the wild west of cannabis in Canada.
Friends, there are so many options for buying cannabis - online, by mail, instore, local dealers have not disappeared... or grow your own! AMEN, the time for siliness is over- the time for celebration is here. A friend who is a legitimate patient and follows many on facebook shared her observation with me - some who were patients - went 'recreational', then they found out they can't smoke it everywhere, rules apply & then they became 'medical again- Phhhhbt.
Fakers - Please, fuck off... (& it's bad karma) medical patients are still dealing with serious issues - It's time for Dr.s to step up in my opinion, IF you don't think your patient legitimately NEEDS cannabis- tell them to get it recreationally. IF they OBVIOULY do use cannabis for pain, illness & to elieviate suffering - PLEASE help them & help them who need it -$$$ - Cannabis should be covered by HEALTH CANADA - if they cover my girlfriends OPIATES - they should cover her cannabis!!! IT is that fucking simple.
Time will tell - I've emailed many on this topic including Justin Trudeau, furthermore all these once "haters" like BILL Blair who NOW own stakes/stocks and make $$ from cannabis LEARN who you are purchasing from. All in ALL - the options are here- USE your dollars to SPEAK volumes & in a few years- only the best in product & service will survive. My son is my grower & I can't complain- he is talented! If I do say so.. but many realize that now ;).
& B is for Benign the loveliest B word I heard yesterday.
I asked God for a bit of direction on something else I was pondering & the phone call came 3 seconds later! Hee hee - I love it whent that happens! "Benign" & then I said:
LET's GO! Forward! Forward it is... Let's GO!
With TLC & THC
There is no passion in playing small... in settling for a life that is less than the one you are capable of living.
- Nelson Mandela -
The lord works in mysterious ways - he keeps me laughing in between crying.
I AM continually reminded how I have been helped many times over- I realized a few things yesterday after a Ray of sunshine on what started a grey morning!
I learned over the years I have met some incredible lawyers & EVERY time they have helped me & have never charged me. Once a police officer even went to court to fight for me & won. I have been protected my whole life. Thank you Lord.
They all have told me they know/knew I was/am telling the truth and helped - it's been that simple... I guess they should know if they have been living it long enough and they also know when someone is not doing something 'for money'. Yesterday I ended up speaking to a lawyer (I never met before) all I know is his name was Ray and he was a Ray of fucking sunshine I needed. He explained a few things & I have heard this before ONE other time:
No lawyer wants to spend time on your case, although it's NOT right what you experienced - you were NOT physically hurt (other than a sore breast & slapped on the arm & back) like -I did not lose a limb in a car accident - so WHEN I would win- I'd only get a small amount and it's about $1,500 just to start a file. A lot of time for little $. I get it.
He also understood I don't want any other woman to experience this.
Wow. The other time we heard that was when the genetics specialist at Sick kids told us:
No scientist are going to waste time trying to find a cure for a disease that only a few people have. Storms illness was/is considered an 'Orphan' disease - very rare.
'That' back then... felt like a slap.
MONEY MONEY MONEY... Good thing I know God has my back, no deposit required only faith in others and myself needed. Ray restored my faith in humans. He didn't even know. He inspired the thank you card... already in the mail.
There's nothing like a kick in the teeth of reality to give me a kick in the ass to make shit happen myself! I realized I am not weak- (as I felt in that office last week) I am STRONG.
That "technician" I'm confident will definitely THINK the next time she behaves as she did
NEVER LET ANYONE TOUCH you in anyway you feel uncomfortable! Being smacked on the arm while my breast was in that machine - SHOWED her LACK of control & let me clarify for the record- it wasn't about being 'SMACKED' as I've been smacked, punched slapped, hair pulled, clothes torn and then some my entire life - far worse than what she did to me. To treat a patient (stranger) as she did while my breast was in that machine - showed her LEVEL of professionalism - Treating a patient who is naked & vulnerable & frightened with anything other than compassion - speaks volumes about that 'PROFESSIONAL'.
I was grateful to Ray ' he calmed me down - explained things as they are, was patient.... after I got off the phone & painted (felt good) I made him a thank you card- as I do. It made me LOL - I guess it is HOW I heal. I realized when I looked up the address - I just had a conversation about my "fucking boob was in a vice when she lost it!" with a 'criminal lawyer.' That made me really laugh out loud. Someone who deals with murder... I did think later... I should have punched her - I'd been happy to explain it to a judge. I could not have reached.. my boob did not stretch that far... that & she was definitely NOT worth me hurting my painting hands!
I do think Ray thought 'tit was a joke for a second when I first called him as he asked 'who told you to call me?? (9 a.m.) Another lawyers had given me his #. I am forever grateful for his brutal reply - it saved me time and energy' then - I knew the exact direction to take and the rest of the day went so smoothly - all I could think:
Thank you again, for answering my prayers.
PLEASE NOTE: I LEARNED these 'PRIVATE places'- when there is an issue - GOOD LUCK! & Ray told me that too- it's not like you can even contact anyone - there is NO ONE on the WWW for you to ask for - that alone should be sending up red flags! They have it so it's work just tracking them down, who has time, energy - or in some cases $ for lawyers.
FROM NOW ON I will have all my tests done at the hospital or with a REGISTERED organization with reputable service & PROFESSIONAL, COMPASSIONATE employees.
I share this bullshit so YOU Might avoid it- I won't give that bitch another thought, she's not worth it. Life is too short & I have painting to do- cards to make & smile to produce!! AMEN.
ANYONE who thinks I'm being dramatic - HAVE a STRANGER put your breast/penis in a vice while you're naked & trapped - alone in a room with a shut door - you can't reach - then you are slapped by them while they are yelling their credentials! Have that happen...
Then let's have this fucking conversation again.
I bet your perspective changes.
Lesson learned it will never happen to me again! I go prepared from now on to every appointment & IF I want someone in the room with me - I am getting someone IN the room with me! FUCK that- this system needs FIXED!!!
Western medicine becomes less appealing with every visit.
Medical professionals are just as capable of mental health issues as the REST of us=
NURSE Elizabeth Wettlaufer or Surgeon Mohammed Shamji
are just two examples.
With TLC & THC
Yoda & Kermit are sold.
Wait until you see my Space Monkey that inspired another space monkey - and a space monkey painting! Time to get creative.
The image below was pulled off of Google with just a couple of complaints I easily found : KESWICK ADVANCED Imaging. Do not say you have not been warned! I would never recommend any woman go here for a mammogram!
CLEARLY THERE IS AN issue... WHY is this person still working there!? I feel sad for the young mom too. NO, not 'physically hurt - still - fucked with mentally BY an angry bitch who takes it out on PATIENTS.
Georgia... On My Mind.