We have no problems avoiding each other, earlier this week something happened & I lost it', which I do about once a day with Norm. The thing is - he 'get's it' for example with this particular incident I have asked him several times to: FIX it. Nicely at first, then a little more aggravated then finally it escalates to "F*CKING FIX IT NOW!!!" & IT gets fixed! Usually in moments - that frustrates me more. It could have all been so easily avoided.
So much stress could be avoided.
Norm put a square in the wall in my office a while ago making it easier to access the attic but he did not finish, I understand many can relate but the big square - has flown out of the wall and onto my desk (like a ghost pushed it) a few times- I was not even in the room the last time and it smashed a monkey vase I have and broke a new bong, bong water all over my desk & bird journal. Poor Bird! I wonder what went through his mind when it happened. It has happened a few times and each time I've said "fix it". Years.
All it took was ONE f*cking screw - I'm not exaggerating.
Anyhow, he knew I was angry and TIRED of being angry.. he disappeared into the garage (as usual) 'good riddance' I thought still upset about my vase - it will have to be custom made -luckily I have a few glass making friends. Norm redeemed himself very quickly when he re appeared - he made the perfect holder for my new iPad & cover. It took him a about an hour, screwed into place (2 screws this time), is adjustable and slides out of the way when I don't need it so NOW I can make some 'real time painting videos. I tried with my 'Mystic Molecule Meow' and it works great, as soon as I get the lighting right and figure out how to paint with out moving my canvas all over I'll share one!
It might be a raccoon surrounded by cannabis (my current painting)
It would be a great way to teach a lesson or two, maybe I'll make a few learn to draw videos like I use to teach kids, I woke excited 'to try' today - thanks Norm.
Sometimes I think - wow, he is handy to have around. Other times - NOT so much.
What do you do? 26 years - people grow apart, people do change... as we should.
Someone asked me recently - have you changed your mind about leaving?
No, I have not. Painting takes up a great deal of my time- I'd rather do it than watch T.V, socialize with mindless chatter - I want to paint. & living with someone they expect you to 'what ever'. I'm done what ever-ing. I'm tired of daily arguments, which are impossible to ignore, I've tried. I'm tired of thinking about what to feed others, are they remembering to .. you know - wife stuff.. and I have this condition- as if you're not aware ;( & it is not fun.. I just don't have it in me anymore to be here for anyone else.
I can easily go without speaking for days- so why not live alone, without the added stress? & I won't mind if a new project is started because I won't be living IN it.
Time will tell. If it's part of Gods plan, it will happen.
He sure is handy to have around sometimes... I'd bet he thinks that of me too, sometimes.
Love 26 years later.. romantic dinner & sex? Phhhhhbt.
Take out & netflix not even- we are all sick with the flu.
Most couples don't last past 5 years so be careful if you judge me, better yet - wait until you have been with your partner for 26 years and then let's chat.
It's Valentines day and I wonder is there love here?
Yes. No doubts in my mind. A lot of love.
Different for sure but there is still & always will be love between us & for that I'm grateful.
We won't be 'celebratingc, we will probably be avoiding each other - MORE.
There are many versions of LOVE. I hope you feel love in some way today.
Happy Valentines day.
I 'feel loved' by my pets too - yesterday, Bird was missing me - he flew in the bedroom and slept on the lamp above my bed until I got up 2 hours later! It was the sweetest little gesture of love covered in feathers.
Show yourself some love today, above all else.
xox with Love
new art next & TN Talks.