Now that Storm has moved I find myself thinking about moving on myself.
Why stay 'here? For the dogs... for the pool? A Gazebo... STUFF?
Why stay? Is this 'house' worth it?
Why stay? Convenience? Comfort?
There is nothing convenient or comfortable being in a house where there is no love.
The dogs love me.. :) Thank God. Bird too.
I'm taking some time off - going on a mini 'silent' retreat.
I enjoy not speaking - it physically gives my face a break, not speaking means not triggering my condition - and there are days I will do what ever it takes to try to get break from 'this, the past week between the weather (pressure from rain), added stress - I had 3 conversations on the phone each time I explained first - "I have a condition that causes me literal pain to speak on the phone" so I don't like to repeat myself, thinking it would be addressed by those in charge, so I don't have to repeat over and over.. Especially NOT to someone who just wants to hear gossip.
I want to go directly to have problem addressed promptly - wouldn't you?
Do you think any of these strangers cared? No.
They didn't give a fuck how I felt - so I thought why should I - and I became BLUNT.
Blunt & quick to the point & WILL again if need be.
They wanted to 'gossip'.. and I don't give a fuck about gossip, nor do I have the time - I have better thing to do - like paint! It has made this past week a nightmare, physically.
No medicine seems to be helping and I have absolutely had enough.
I can't even paint through it - lots of napping going on.
Time to take a break, go within & catch up on art work a few are waiting for, thank you for your continued patience, I'm grateful people appear to understand - the longer I take.. the more thought I've put into your art.
The personal project I am currently working on also requires more concentration & focus,
time to take it to the next level.
With God all things are possible & the possibilities are ENDLESS.
with TLC & THC
There is this good news: Finally.