I can't- yesterday was brutal again, TN wise , nausea & even my gums bled- holy if stress doesnt walk up and say 'PAY FUCKING ATTENTION!' So I did.
I made a psilocybin tea and went to sit in the ZEN HEN DEN with chickens and goats. There, I relaxed, sat.. prayed & was in the NOW, soon I found myself giggling at goats.
I gave them a old cushion from a lounge chair and they thought I gave them a learther sofa! They faught over it & Indica claimed it as his own. He rolled and lay on it for hours.. I didn't have my camera (in the now) but I took some photos once inside from the dining room. Grateful for my goats helping me forget about the ass.
I also had something very funny (imo) I was staring at the driveway and asked God for help, to fogive this guy quickly! I won't live in this Eden with hatred in my heart for anyone (why I don't read about TRUMP - try not to).. and I swear, as I thought that - I watched 5 turkeys walk up to the end of my driveway and read the sign! I laughed out loud and got them on my ipad ( althought very grainy) to show Norm. They turkeys on the other side of the gate stood the 3rd bar tall! They were letting me know they are happy to have me as a new neighbour - as I am them. I don't understand why some are so inconsiderate and nasty.. or perhaps I do. Aren't most bullies - bullied as kids? Hmmmmm.
I certianally did not have it easy as a child, its no excuse to be mean to others.
I did learn a valuable lesson& glad I was calm & wise enough to walk back & get my camera.
Anyhow I have forgiven - but not forgotten. His actions have made me & others aware of who he is. I know who I am too.. A child of God. I was sent several messages - overwhelmed with the positive impact we apparently have made with several. Thank you.
I do have friends in high places, lol... when I say this - I mean Jesus' (Makes me smile :)) I was reminded I really do have 'several friends' in high places, who offered assistance, made suggestions & shared guidance on how to proceed further... that's what makes me stronger. Thank you. It was also a moment where I was grateful for my mother & the strength I have to stand up to bullies.. I giggled- thinking- Intimidate me?
You don't know my mama. Everything makes us stronger & better - if we choose to let it.
Today is a new day! I started a new Monkey - we've got gardening to do and Eden to enjoy & Goats to paint!
With TLC & THC