His tangled legs force me to focus as they twist and get lost in each other..
You will like him- He is very cannabis friendly.
I've discovered, I paint octopus when I'm dealing with something I really need to process.
On my mind.. California.
I KNOW why I was to go. A test to myself.
Sitting on the beach, long walks with Poppy & a lot of alone time.
Painting time. I felt physically better. It was not just the weather.
It was many things, I didn't do much or go many places. My friend was a vegetarian so in many cases that's what I had also & have to say I've not had meat since. Really! I've no desire for it. As you might imagine I'm cooking without it - so all around everyone is eating less meat or they don't eat- or get takeout. Not my problem. Less Pig for sure.
I'm looking after myself and cook what I feel is best for this bod & mind.
I am not saying I won't eat meat again, I will saver the experience' and not just eat it to eat it
- a beast had to die for it.
A new CALM appears to have kicked in.. thank you California.
I'm giving all I have to think about to what I do want. Calm, Love, Peace.
I know exactly what I need. I've thought about it for years.
Bring it on! I work for it... isn't anything worth having even better if you work for it?
My body is a temple.. not suitable for poison in any form.
Plant, animal, chemical or human.
Since home & medicating properly I'm noticing a huge improvement again back to focusing and painting. I have had much time to process my California experience. It appears my friend I visited is no longer communicating with me.. he was disappointed and verbally expressed this to me a couple of days after my arrival - it wasn't going as he expected. Too bad. Even though honourable intentions were expressed before the vacation things changed, so did the dynamics of my vacation- but this was o.k.- it forced me and Poppy to have a lot of alone time - thinking and crab watching.
I was upset at the time but later I laughed with Storm and said "what can I say -Your Mama is just too damn desirable!!"
Boundaries were made clear before I even left. It went as I expected. I had no misconceptions of what my vacation was going to be - a vacation. Cest la vie- I've made several attempts to continue our friendship. Do I feel bad - no. I've done nothing wrong. I'm not making any apologies for others behaviours any longer.
It's sad though.. a friend lost- why- a hurt EGO. Men.
Arrrrrgh. What ever, I walk away - held held HIGH.
My body is a temple, I have no intentions/need of being 'intimate' just for the sake of a F*ck. At the age of 53 - it's nice to be strong enough not to cave to OTHERS desires if I'm not feeling them myself. How many times do women in particular do this? Too many.
The dogs missed me & Bird had me concerned... he really missed me.
Next vacation I might smuggle him with me! lol Joking.
Next vacation - I am going alone... I made up my mind.
Not one single thing to worry about but me... up in the mountains on a peaceful county side.
From this day forward Everything that goes into this body will be deserving.
Just as I AM.
What will you place in your body today? Is it good For YOU? Mentally & physically?
Will it nourish or just fill you up with junk that will only make you ill in the long run.
Think about it - with every nibble.
Back to this tangled green Cananbis love.