Time to reset, less time on the phone, I’ll check it when messages arrive only - other than that it’s on a side table where I can’t see - or focus on it.
I’ve only got a bit of bud & am NOT replenishing it -right away.. if I have it - I’ll smoke it- so Time to cleanse my body & mind from all for a few weeks at least. No mushroom medicine - this is o.k. too - as I don't seem to 'CRAVE it', it’s more of a thoughtful process & I’m good for a bit. Yes, I have discovered the best possible thing for my mental health - creating. Painting.
Creating- it’s the only time to become absorbed in what I am doing and feel free!
Free from all the stress of today and tomorrow.. concerned with covid bullshit mostly, has drained me & enhanced' - escalated my twitch, which is at an all time active high (not fun). I understand I have very little control over it' - and others. Here I’m content- thriving in solitude - happy even, yes, I prefer it. Norm not so much, he’s feeling frustrated because he can’t go out and mingle’… this is causing problems and frustration, it also has me wondering if Norm will ever be content here, there, anywhere..
& I don’t care.
I thought I made it clear before 'we' moved here, there would be changes… or don’t join me. I guess I didn’t make it clear enough, one year didn’t do it. That or he just lied to me & himself. I don’t think it’s covid he has been miserable, long before covid.
I don't care, when I log off ' I will focus on art, music, dogs & God.
Make yourself happy.. life goes too quick - even in lockdown.
I am content, blessed even - in Gods grace.
Learning daily how to keep myself happy & loved - remaining in God company…
no one else is needed.
Anxious to see FUNGI peeking through the snow - I painted some.
Created to create- I have a gift - to create my own happiness & I AM.
Psssst.... I'm pretty sure - you ALSO have this gift! God told me.