I'd like to start this mental health week on a positive note with a positive suggestion:
Go into this winter (lockdown) with the mind of a caterpillar & in the spring prepare to emerg & transfigure into 2021  stronger, healthier & wiser. Why not!?
How can anyone not be wiser after all this.  I'd like to share a couple suggestions of what I KNOW works for me - it can't hurt.. yes, I've had experience with depression before a pandemic - 202o was one of our happiest years. So here goes, a few pointers to prevent depression spiraling out of control.

-Have Faith.  I can't express it enough... To have faith is everything - to have Faith is to have faith in me.  Have Faith we will continue through this.

-If you are struggling with thoughts of giving up, be brave and ask to speak to someone.
I had/have 2 Dr.s  who speak & listen... explain.  God  sent my Dr.s, I know it now.  
"I promise you Georgia, it will get better... soon you will meet someone & have your own family.."   said my Dr. sitting in his office (after hours) as he stitched me up for  'cutting', a little too deep 'that time' & I was too embarrassed to go to the hospital.  I cut my arms , thighs, abdomen with a razore blade for years... my mother never seemed to notice,  I found out later, she informed others I did it because "I was fucked up"... I sure was.  I cut because I did NOT know how to deal with the depression, I cut to hurt myself because I felt I was not wanted. I cut because I was the only one I could control.  I cut becuase it felt better to hurt myself than others. I am reminded by scars physical & mental.  
Find someone to talk to - if you can't find someone - there's ALWAYS Jesus.  

-Do not drink alcohol. So much abuse could be avoided without alcohol.  All you have to do is 'pass on the alcohol.  Because, I was raised in a 'alcohol home there are times during this pandemic - I've condiered getting drunk to forget it all, if only for a few hours. Yikes.  Not a good time to get drunk and wallow - it's easy to be swallowed by depression with all currently happening. Don't do it.. it only dulls the feelings, nothing goes away.
​After excessive alcohol, problems are usually worse as well as feeling hung over.  
I treat myself to LUCs brew in a wine glass- LOVE the blueberry Basil,  not only is it tasty, refreshing- it's good for me. Alcohol Free.   It's your choice.

Read. Craft.. learn to speak a new language...  I learned to speak Goat - just as Nugget.
Why not- NOW is the time to dream & transform - ready to spread our wings & FLY when...  we can.

With THC & TLC
​Georgia
  

Ho Ho Ho 0 Here we go!  Do you know what increases besides spending at the holiday? ABUSE.  Alcohol abuse in particular is at an all time HIGH.  Cheers.
Yep - I don't drink or socialize with drunks - I can't do it any longer.
​Too many holidays have been ruined by alcohol.  Now, I'm in control and we don't drink or offer alcohol - probably why I have NOT seen a few visitors, oh well - their loss, not mine.  Regrettably though- I had a Good friend" - Phhhhbt... send me a drunken text. WTF? 

I know this person struggles with Alcohol & I've tried to help over the years... NOW - I'm done. I got a text CLEARLY drunken- telling me how all women are whores and then some  I was shocked and not really. I've watched this person destroy themselves & career for YEARS.  Done over.  Fuck that.  This person KEEPS choosing to drink - falls off the wagon & makes sure he takes others with him.  

I get people struggle with past issues (I am no exception) but what I don't do - is get drunk and take it out on others - I try to deal with it' and MOVE pat & enjoy all this life has to offer - except BOOZE.   I am fortunate...  I don't live with drunks.  More children will see their parents get drunk and will be verbally, mentally & physically abused this holiday  because they were drunk.

FUCK that! It does not cut it any more.  It is NO excuse for abuse. 
Smoke a joint.
Relax - CHILL.
Don't go into debt, it's just another day on the calendar. 
Don't create memories of the holiday that you do not want. 

To my drunken friend.. happy holiday asshole - you are where you are because YOU continue to CHOOSE BOOZE. It is that simple.  
No, I no longer have sympathy for you -  YOU CHOOSE.
All women are whores?  
Says someone who can't find a woman (Go figure) whores are much better for this planet than drunks.  Whores save many from abuse.  I'd rather be considered a whore than a nasty drunk.

Calling me names - Phhhhbt.  
I  know who I am - a child of God.  
I actually feel sorry for my friend - I can't do it any more, I certainly don't deserve his abuse.
Still he chooses Booze. Not much anymore can do except the person doing it.
What will you choose this holiday?  What sort of memories will YOU create this holiday? Will you repeat the past turning it into the present?   

I am ready, excited & thrilled for this Christmas!  
 I love to celebrate any day devoted to Jesus.  

Choose cannabis over alcohol this holiday - or choose to just have a nice time with your family - no need to get HIGH - Be high on each others company.
I get 'high' especially  when my son visits.  
Merry Christmas.  Time to paint one last Christmas painting.

with TLC & THC 
Georgia 
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My new 'thing' on Instagram is to find other 'Georgia's' - introduce myself and send them a card - 'Us 'Georgia's have to stick together'.. lol  Why not.. it started for fun - a curiosity- many  Georgia's have the same traits' -  Does this apply to people with your name? 
They are usually artistic- musically inclined and all are lovely - of course ;)  
 A while back I decided to "gift a Georgia - Georgie' an original.. a unicorn -Fuck Yeah!" & it was also my most serious mail mix up & Georgie' had to mail something back to Canada for me, hee hee.  Georgie liked her Unicorn and my style and asked if I would accept a commission - I was somewhat hesitant until she asked for it to be a 'Bear rendering' - of her & her honey!  I said - 'sure'.

Once I finally started -weeks later- I realized JUST how much I needed to paint my bears! Thank You Georgie.  It was a boost I needed - these bears turned out better than I imagined.
I looked over Georgie's Instagram  page, got a feel' & came up with these TWO loving creatures.  I also realized I do not wish to cover my bears in clothing, luckily Georgie has great hair & you can see it on her bear.

I painted them with  TLC & THC of course.
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​Georgia
 
 I spent yesterday reading about cannabis legalization in Canada!
WOW, I can believe cannabis is legal- the 'relief' I felt  was surpassing - even to myself
I can hardly drag myself from desk- painting Oh Happy Day!
Oh Canada!  Oh Cannabis - Thank God.

Thank you ..  Prohibition has failed (again) - the time for legalization was NOW.
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I made 3 angels for my tree, representing missing angels - Missing  indigenous women in Canada, around the world. Women of color go missing more than white women...  
Woman of color are abused more than white women.  
Women of color suffer more than white women.  
Why is it the color of our skin to some also  represents our worth.  It does not.
WE ALL have the same blood flowing & hearts beating in our human bodies.
We are not different.  
We are women.  Mothers, daughters, sisters...  missing. 

This topic has been incredibly difficult to research - it's endless.. it's not just missing - its underpaid, abused, beaten, subject to humiliation  this  'awakening ' regarding abuse of women in the workplace- if it is THAT bad in PLACES OF business - it is WORSE  ALL around.  Only 10% of women they say are being vocal.. only 10%.. but the rest are growing stronger ever minute. Imagine when it gets to 40%.

One memory floods back today - this is what happens to us- we have triggers':  I worked at SELECT ART Galleries in Newmarket - many of you know it-  The owner back then (his son actually)  'Bill' who ran it when daddy was not around, constantly made advances towards me - when I declined & made a point to  SHOW him my boyfriend (in hopes he'd back off)  suddenly 'cleaning the toilets became part of my job description  &  they 'tried' to  take from me a piece of art the artist Seery-Lester had personalized for me- I told the artist and they  had to apologize and let me have my art. I quit.  I should have reported him! I should have shut him down, I didn't but I will share - I will share NOW- YEARS later, why do we keep it inside- DON'T.  BE brave. 
 
Never mind NEVER being able to comfortable when working in the same building with this person. It's not right. It's not fair and I completely understand why women do not come forward- because we are fucking exhausted = we are 'USE to it!"

Women can't win in many cases- if they can't 'fuck us' they make our lives miserable for a paycheque.  To pay rent, feed ourselves, our kids.. many women continue to put up with bullshit- because they have little choice.  Today, I read Alabama (? I think),  is expected to vote in  a representative of the American people-  another Political Pig-  a child molester with NO respect for women.  Make American Great again?   American will never be GREAT again... as long as women are treated like trash with PIGs like this in power.
Canada will never be what it once was, now that I've learned statistics on missing women in Canada.
 
I'm grateful for Trump, Weinstein & all the men who can't control their peckers- we are finally seeing them for what they truly are.  Nothing, cowards, lowlives  who NEED to abuse to feel POWERFUL.  To feel like men'.. pitiful.  Once known for great things - many will be only remembered for being the pigs that they truly are.

The king of Pussy grabbing' leads by example - He has started a movement,  the others .. you know they have to be wondering if the next victim' will be smart enough to record them - Lets hope so.

I've exposed a few personal experiences' here the past few years, this topic is sensitive for me- I have been sexually abused 100's of times - BULLSHIT my entire life- why because I AM A WOMAN.  I can't begin to tell you the number of times I was called a Fucking Bitch', cock tease', cunt'  to name only a few terms presented to me by MEN- why? Does it bother you to read? It hurts more to hear- over & over with NO justification - OFTEN from COMPLETE strangers.  Think about that.  

I  refused a drink, refused an advance, said 'No thanks', 'I don't want to dance with you'. 'I'm not interested..' It was worse when I was younger - why do you think women dance with other women? Because, we can't stand your constant bullshit- we just want to have fun.
I was followed by strange men down a street late at night, followed in a vehicle one night when my friend and I got stuck in the snow.. Followed off the subway, bus after working the late shift.. not a fun walk alone - carrying my keys in my hand ready to punch someone in the face. A fellow employee slipped me a date rape drug when I worked in the car business- I NEVER shared then, I was so confused, humiliated - waking up NOT understand  HOW I got there, or remembering ANYTHING. He had the nerve years later when he saw me with my baby - "I still have your earring!"  A trophy no doubts.  I have the feeling he had quite the collection.  Ron Butler was his name. I imagine he reads this.. I imagine he calls me up and says 'Georgia- you bitch.. "               BRING IT ON!!  I am NOT who I was then.
I would charge him now... NOW:
I WILL CALL YOU OUT FOR YOUR ACTIONS & FUCK with you like you did me.
Happily.   I do have issues with forgiveness I guess.. I'm working on it.
How can anyone heal when it is a prevalent problem?  STILL!?

I am NOW a  53 year old WOMAN  and STILL was SENT an UNSOLICITED  'dick pick' this year.. do you know what THAT ass said when I called him on it:
"I meant no harm, I thought I'd make your morning brighter"
Phhhhhbbbbt!  Please,  leave it to a HUGE EGO (& not much more) to think just that.
A photo of your penis will make our days brighter? 
I sent him an e mail right away asking who the f*ck he thought he was?! & I did NOT appreciate his dick photo.  
What made him think my day would have been richer for seeing a pathetic dick first thing in the a.m., before I even had my coffee.   Yuk      Turn on?   Hardly.

One night I woke  and let out a scream as I realized an intruder was peering in my basement apartment windows (decades ago) I lived alone... at 3:00 a.m.  with a small flashlight  and I am a white woman.  'White Woman' was my nick name for years. 
"White Woman.."   once in Jamaica with 3 friends (in my early 20's-  my friends were black)    
we entered a bar to watch a boxing match - www.youtube.com/watch?v=9VI-M9Yw-28
I still remember:  it was said to be the best fight ever.. I had on a lovely long white gingham dress & a tan -  a tall, black man in a suit in the bar walked up to  one of my *MALE friends  and asked him: "How much for the White Woman?"    
I suddenly - in an instant, had become a commodity to be traded without my own consent.   
Imagine if my friend had named a price.   It's that easy. 
It's that bad.

I'm still called 'White Woman' by my black girlfriend what was with me on the trip.. we laughed at the time.  Just another little remark made in my lifetime- because I am a woman.

DO YOU UNDERSTAND what happens? We LEARN to live in fear- with good reason.
We learn to hate.. with good reason.

Please think of missing women their families this holiday & everyday.
#metoo
#whosnext
#missingwomen 

With Love Georgia
 
Below my angels in our tree- they spin' and are glitter on the backside.
A few other decorations- tis the season. xox

All that matters is the time we have NOW. 

The past is done - learn & move on.
The future - who knows?
Why worry over - who knows?

We are all just walking each other home.    ` Rumi 

Breath & enjoy the moment.
BE...    mindful. 
Be compassionate
Be nice.
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With Love
​G

​Happy Nov. 1st. 2017

Mostly.
​The Internal debate continues.
Heart has to behave.. or it gets into trouble. 
I tell it:  Shhhhhhh.
If it is meant to be - it will be. 

Tomorrow one of the 'Kings of Cannabis.. '
My Leo - Lions got me thinking about those who are in the industry and 'are kings' at what they do.    I know a few and I think I'll share them with you. 
​Then I'm gonna find some queens too.

With Love
g
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xox

I think I'll  title  Heart & Brain Officially:

"The Internal Debate."

                 En garde!

The Internal debate rages on- who will win todays battle, heart or Brain?
Another day, another week.. month & Heart is still defiant and will fight for what it believes in..   Brain tries to contain.  
Brain is always up for a good sparring match.
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The things that go on in my mind..   what entertainment.
Who needs cable T.V.? Just sit back and IMAGINE.
The possibilities are endless! 

Happy First day of August! 
I'm painting a Lion a Bee and A Buddha- 3 different painting on canvas!
An octopus, Airline stewardess, and Carlie brown - all on Gouache! 
Oh my Gouache - are there ever enough hours in a day?

Keeping my Body busy helps Brain forget about Heart...  kinda.

With love 
​g